Abode Vera

An alter-ego, a thought, and a confession.

[abodevera]

please ya’Allah swt, hear my heart and soul.

[abodevera]

Just because you were born into a small world, doesn’t mean you don’t deserve a bigger one.

ct: nan hbh

[abodevera]

When the tables turn, I will remember those who filled my table when it stood empty.

[abodevera]

Life happened — now it all makes sense.

[abodevera]

Oh, to be an actor and be one of the greatest.

[abodevera]

I’ve been feeling so uninterested lately. It’s like I’m starting to realize how uninteresting, mediocre, and boring I really am.

[abodevera]

I’m in Japan 🥹

[abodevera]

He’s learned that pain is inevitable and that pity is dangerous, but he’s still open to love, even if it’s quite love.

[abodevera]

I used to write about life and the poets and its travel and the kid playing jn the rain.

Now, I can’t even think. I just wish death will be kinder.

[abodevera]

Dear Allah swt,

My heart is heavy.

[abodevera]

some days are just too perfect, like they’re destined to be the day to go.

[abodevera]

I wish I had someone to talk to right now. Today feels really heavy, and my thoughts are getting too loud. I’m trying to hold on, but it’s too much. I feel like ending it.

breathe in. breathe out. need to hold on.

[abodevera]

Dear Diary,

I feel so lonely.

[abodevera]

Oh God, my dream feels so big, and I feel so small. Only a few believe — and it’s heavy.

[abodevera]

I’m just a little unwell.

[abodevera]

can i miss something that isn't there?

[abodevera]

how much longer . . . ?

I'm a ticking time bomb and I know it. I've endured so much and I don't know how much longer I can hold on. I am soul-tired. My hearts is heavy.