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idk how this story will end. if it's as before, that's totally okay. if I'm not the one, then I'm not.

but here I am, trying to write the first episode of 'she fell first' on my 26th🍀

#Spotify

Friday off to heal, thank u, mates!♡

All Day Place, Yogyakarta, Indonesia, 2026

#April #mates #Spotify

dear me,

after these matters, do not put more effort into someone. focus on yourself, everyday, is a must.

rest from loving and caring people.

recharge your energy, soul, brain, and mood.

no.

not for someone else. it's for you.

#self hug #a diary to me #Spotify

another episodes, same ending.

#bye #Spotify

"kenapa sih baik terus?"

ya idup saya mah tinggal tunggu meninggalnya kapan aja.

#katanya

i don't know how to treat myself better. i speak loudly about self love, yet i also don't know how to do it.

faustique

hate on me all you want. animals run to me, kids smile at me, strangers tell me their stories, people feel safe around me and if life has taught me anything, it's that energy doesn't lie.

I felt really sorry for everyone every time I needed help... well, it's been confirmed now.

8nin

can i sell my feelings on ebay i don’t want them anymore

dvnyaaa

btw you lose nothing when you walk away from someone who treats like you’re worth nothing

Every time I feel the thing is getting hard, a pat on my own shoulder is enough to get better.

I promised to myself that I won't make people have a bad feeling of me (still, there was). I don't want to cry (still, I cried). I don't want to get mad (still, I got mad). I just want to look cheerful all the time and cheer them up when they're sad. Only bring positive vibes to them.

But, boomerang got into me.

On my 25th, I thought I couldn't be my 18th to 22nd version. I just need to enjoy my life. With whom I want to be a friend(s). Whose are people that want to be friends with me. Which person will accept me as their friend.

I can tell any jokes, random things, and my past stories to the people around me. But, I can't even share how I feel right that time. Won't ever share.

With full awareness, as someone with many shortcomings by visual, style, brain, etc., I can't expect much from every individual. If someone doesn't want to know me, just let it be, it's about right. If I want to be free without asking any "why?" in my head, yes, stop thinking about nothing.

I should accept every single thing in this world. Even if it's hard. and. hurt.....

Being a cheerful and positive person is a boomerang.

I hope I can manage my soul to stay alive, won't ever feel tired for being the true me, won't feel sick for nothing.

Last.

Dear, me.

Please make a boundary cause you are URGENTLY need it.