Bella ciao!

Ciao! I'm Celino Vargas, at your service, Princess~ Oh! Sorry, wrong job! Anyways, I'm a costume designer here at the Hetare Theater! I hope you like my designs, bella~ I bet they'll look wonderful on you. I work at a butler cafe, as well, so if you ever want something sweet and someone sweeter serving you, then you know who to find!

[aboyandhisgucci]

A Visit

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"Y-You could’ve told me- before, before i-it got this bad, I… I didn’t know, I-I really thought… I thought we were okay!” he wept, choking on his words as he trembled in a heap on the floor, withdrawing and curling into himself anxiously. “D-Do you think I want you to feel like this, Celino? Talk to me, tell me- ti voglio tanto bene, fratellino, I would never want you to suffer like that! S-So don’t hide it away! D-Don’t… l-let it fester!” He was hiccuping between his sobs, a wreck on the floor.

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Celino was quiet, but he scooted over and laid a hesitant hand on his brother's back. "Dispaice. Ti voglio bene. Dispaice." Christ, he felt like a piece of shit. He knew that Feliciano didn't deserve this. He was an idiot. The nasty part of himself, the part Celino hated, was snarling angrily that if Feli actually cared, if he really didn't want Celi to feel like this, he wouldn't have had to be told. Celino promptly smothered it. It was his fault entirely that this had happened. He shouldn't pass the blame off on other people.

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aboyandhisgucci replied to your post:After so much time waiting and honing things to…

You’ll be fine, eyebrows.

I hope so. If I’m not, we’re fucked. When I flounder, I flounder hard.

[aboyandhisgucci]

Then salmon, don't flounder.

Eh? Eh?

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A Visit

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"I-I’m not! I’m not, I’m not, I’m not! I could never- I-I could never…!" he was weeping now, standing and shaking, his knees ready to give out under him as he gave timid steps back from his screaming brother. The mocking imitation of his voice, the fury in his words, every single last accusation of neglect he hadn’t even realized he’d been committing- it hurt, everything hurt and he was overwhelmed and could barely keep a hold on his thoughts.

"I-I didn’t realize, I- I-I just- I didn’t know, dio, I thought- why didn’t you say something sooner, I would’ve made time, I would have! I-I thought we were fine a-and I thought you were, and I would never forget you existed! You’re my fratellino, I-I…”

When Celino’s voice dropped, frustration and bitterness in his words, he felt another slice through his barely beating heart and choked on a sob, before he altogether fell to his knees.

It hurt.

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Celino was silent, his glare fixed on the floor in front of him. He had made his brother cry, and he felt horrible. But he had gotten out all of his frustration and he felt relieved, felt glad that his brother was feeling the same pain Celino had been feeling, and that made him feel even guiltier.

"How could I say anything?" He asked quietly. "I knew you would react like this, so how could I ever tell you those things when I knew they would only hurt you? I'd rather keep it to myself and be upset for the rest of my life then tell you. Damn it," He let out a ragged breath and dropped to sit on the ground, holding his head in his hands. "I fucked up. Dispiace."

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A Visit

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Celino continued to glare at the wall, his jaw working furiously, and finally he spat it out.

"I finally get a chance to see you after months, a chance to spend some time with you when I know your boyfriend isn’t going to come and steal all your attention in some way or another, when we can just hang out and be brothers, and you pull the same shit you always do! You decide to nag me instead of being happy for me! You’ve always been like this, ever since Mama died! I didn’t want our first real conversation in weeks to be you trying to be Mama!” Celino was breathing heavily, and a distant part of him knew that he shouldn’t have said that, but he was so angry and Celino had never been good at controlling himself when he was angry.

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Feliciano felt his anxiety growing as he noticed the way Celino was outright glaring at the wall, seeing the way his jaw was tensed and showing his silent rage, and then that rage burst.

He flinched, eyes widening as he heard Celino’s shouting, his furious grievances and angry accusations, feeling his heart being stabbed and being torn to pieces the more his little brother screamed.

"I-I…" Feliciano’s own voice rose as he tried to defend himself, but even as he tried, his voice broke. "Will- Will isn’t stealing my attention! He’s my boyfriend, I love him, we’re just together- a-and I’m only nagging because I’m worried! I am happy for you, oh dio I’m so happy you’ve found someone to love and be loved by! That isn’t going to change, no matter what! I-I just worry that things might happen, a-and you might lose your way and-” He tried to counter everything Celino had said, but the last sentence made Feliciano’s breath catch in his throat as tears started spilling down his cheeks.

"I-I’m not… trying to be…" he whispered, his voice a tiny broken, quivering whimper. "…t-to be… her…"

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"Yes you are, you're always trying to be her! Even when we were little! And he is stealing your attention! I don't care that you're together but I literally haven't seen you for weeks, even before you got sick, unless it was at work! And then when I have seen you, I've always asked if you want to have dinner or lunch or spend even a single hour of the weekend together and your response is always always always," Celino's voice took on a cheerful falsetto, which was starling due to how angry and frustrated he had been, "'Dispiace, fratellino, I'm going to be with Will that day! Maybe next time, si?'" His voice returned to normal.

"So don't you dare tell me he isn't stealing your attention because ever since you started dating him you've forgotten all about me! Dio Santo, Feliciano, I had to be told you were in the hospital but Eliza, and do you know what she said to me? She was angry because you hadn't thought to contact her, and she was ranting about it, and I interrupted to ask what she was talking about, and she was so surprised and said I must have slipped your mind as well! Me! I'm your brother, I should have been the first person to know, but you forgot! You always forget! It's like unless I'm doing something you think is wrong I don't exist and, damn it, Feliciano, I'm tired of it!"

His voice dropped its volume suddenly, and he sounded tired and frustrated and hurt as he said, "I decided not to get my four year degree so I could spend more time with you, and now I wish I had taken up that offer to go study in Italy, because I would have had the same amount of contact with you but I would have an ocean between us to blame instead."

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A Visit

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Celino stood up, aggravated. “What would happen? You act like I’m being careless or foolish.” Celino crossed his arms and looked firmly away, mumbling to himself something baout finally seeing his brother and how he should have known better.

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"I know you’re not, Celi, I just- I worry, if something were to happen…!" Feliciano said, his voice a half plead, only to falter altogether when he saw his little brother’s body language suddenly become so closed off. Celino’s voice was speaking in a mutter now, and Feliciano couldn’t hear him. "What? What is it?"

[aboyandhisgucci]

Celino continued to glare at the wall, his jaw working furiously, and finally he spat it out.

"I finally get a chance to see you after months, a chance to spend some time with you when I know your boyfriend isn't going to come and steal all your attention in some way or another, when we can just hang out and be brothers, and you pull the same shit you always do! You decide to nag me instead of being happy for me! You've always been like this, ever since Mama died! I didn't want our first real conversation in weeks to be you trying to be Mama!" Celino was breathing heavily, and a distant part of him knew that he shouldn't have said that, but he was so angry and Celino had never been good at controlling himself when he was angry.

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A Visit

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"I won’t get in trouble! I never drink in public and I never leave my apartment anything less then sober! Stop nagging me, Feliciano. It’s like you think you’re Mama when you aren’t." Celino was more then a little upset now. He was annoyed and the nagging hadn’t helped matters.

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Feliciano flinched slightly at the last accusation, eyes widening slightly. “I’m not- I’m only nagging because I’m worried about you! Dio, you have so much talent, Celi, I’m just afraid that if something happens you won’t get to show it!” he insisted, feelnig a little more anxious and worked up. Was he really acting like mama?

[aboyandhisgucci]

Celino stood up, aggravated. "What would happen? You act like I'm being careless or foolish." Celino crossed his arms and looked firmly away, mumbling to himself something baout finally seeing his brother and how he should have known better.

[aboyandhisgucci]

A Visit

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"But we’re not in Italy, Celino, and that’s the thing…! They take it so seriously here, and if you get drunk and get caught, or even caught just with the alcohol- you could get in a bad pinch! I’m just worried, fratellino, and it is my business!” he insisted, a little fussy now. He didn’t want Celino to get up getting in trouble for anything, the boy had so much promise and potential and he didn’t deserve getting knocked off track by anything.

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"I won't get in trouble! I never drink in public and I never leave my apartment anything less then sober! Stop nagging me, Feliciano. It's like you think you're Mama when you aren't." Celino was more then a little upset now. He was annoyed and the nagging hadn't helped matters.

[aboyandhisgucci]

A Visit

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Feliciano looked suddenly concerned. “Y-You drink regularly? How long as this been going on? Celi, you have to be careful! You’re still young, you can’t be having too much or you might make yourself sick or hurt yourself…!” he urged, getting a bit anxious for his little brother. “And si, it’s nice once in a while, but you make it sound like it’s a lot more than just that…!”

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Celino was starting to get annoyed. "If we were in Italy you wouldn't mind! It's fine, Feliciano! We're responsible and we don't every drink enough to get sick, and to be honest it's really not any of your business."

[aboyandhisgucci]

A Visit

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"Oh! I’m so glad, I’ve been waiting for them to stop dancing around each other for ages!" Feliciano squeaked in delight, clapping his hands together at the happy news of Eliza getting together with her old flame. "Aheh, really? Makeup? What kinds of things has he been putting on you?" he teased, before smiling a little and playfully bumping his shoulder against Celino’s.

"You two sound adorable~ I’m glad you’re happy with him," he said, eyes warm as he felt his heart swell. It was wonderful to hear Celino had found someone to be happy with. The mention of the wine, though, made him bite his lip a little. "I haven’t, but, nn, you shouldn’t be drinking it so soon, you know? If you get caught with it you could get in big trouble, the both of you… Maybe you should hold back from it for a while."

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Celino agreed readily, giggling, but when Feliciano brought up the wine, Celino gave him a confused look, before giggling and waving the worry away. "You act like this is the first time we've drunk wine together, fratello! It's fine, we're responsible adults. It isn't like we're trying to get free drinks off everyone! But when I get sent good wine to cook with it's nice to drink some over dinner with Donovan, si?"

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A Visit

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"Ah! You almost never call me that," Feliciano hummed after a moment, startled by the use of his middle name. "And a little, I tried not to let them in too much, so I’m still a bit out of the loop… I’m still trying to catch up to everything I’ve missed. What’s going on~?" he asked curiously, wrapping himself in a blanket and looking at Celino with bright-eyed interest.

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Celino hummed. "Nothing terribly interesting, business wise. Oh! Eliza finally told Octavian she liked him, and they're dating now. It's adorable! And mio amore Donovan, he has been just as eagerly trying different makeup techniques as always. I've been letting him practice on me. It gives me an excuse to be around him. Last time, we had a date at my apartment, and we tried the wine our cousin sent! Have you tried it yet? I suppose not, you've been sick," Celino prattled on.

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A Visit

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"Fratello!" Celino hugged his brother, allowing himself to be pulled inside. "Go sit down! You are recovering! Here, your favorites." Celino managed to corral his brother into sitting down before he placed the flowers in his arms. "Ah, I’ve missed you, fratello! I don’t see you hardly ever anymore."

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Feliciano hugged Celino back tightly, giggling and letting his brother usher him to the couch, although he did fuss. “I’m fine, really! I’m a lot better now, so I’ll probably be back at the theater soon, so I can see you and everyone again. It’s terrible being sick!” he whined. “But I had to stay in here, or else I could get everyone else sick, too… I’ve missed you too, Celi.”

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"I understand, Veneciano." Celi assured him. He hadn't been talking about the illness, but he wouldn't correct Feliciano either. Instead, he sat with his brother happily. "So! I should catch you up! I assume Will and Brigid have been telling you how the general going-ons of the theater have been?"

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A Visit

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Feliciano coughed a bit but pulled himself out and to the door. The worst of his pneumonia had passed, although he still felt a bit ill- but at least he wasn’t keeping himself in quarantine anymore!

Opening the door to see his little brother with flowers made him light up, and he opened the door wide and tugged Celino in excited. “Fratellino~! Ciao, ciao~ Come in!” he chirped, having to clear his throat once when his voice got a bit weak and rough from the lingering illness. After being cooped up inside for so long, he was glad to get to see familiar faces.

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"Fratello!" Celino hugged his brother, allowing himself to be pulled inside. "Go sit down! You are recovering! Here, your favorites." Celino managed to corral his brother into sitting down before he placed the flowers in his arms. "Ah, I've missed you, fratello! I don't see you hardly ever anymore."

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A Visit

Celino knocked on the door to his brother's apartment, shifting the large bouquet of flowers in his arms. He had taken care to chose a time when Will would not be around, wanting to take up as much of his brother's attention as possible. He had been lonely without Feliciano's company and attention, if only a little, and didn't want anyone intruding on what he considered "brother time". Celino bounced on the balls of his feet while he waited, eager.

[aboyandhisgucci]

Mon amour, I would love to watch movies with you tonight. Also, I'm sorry for being so busy recently and not being able to spend as much time as I would like to with you.

It's alright, amore, I understand. If you're busy you're busy. I'm just glad when we do have time for each other. [reaches over and squeezes Donovan's hand.] What movie should we watch first? Ah, and what should we do for dinner?

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Aw, I’m sorry for distracting you. I can say the same for you though, too, Celino. At least you can get all the kisses you want when we’re not busy, oui?

Si, that's true. And we're not busy right now so. [Waggling eyebrows]

[aboyandhisgucci]

Sometimes Donovan is too cute and it's a problem. It's hard to work when you know he's nearby and you just want to kiss him. My life is suffering. [Over dramatic sigh]

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My plan for tonight is to enjoy the wine I got sent from Italy and to watch movies with my boyfriend all night. Hopefully he'll be agreeable.