we just want to be whole

Andromeda Estelle Beauregard. Seventeen years old. Junior at Lancaster Academy. originally from Montreal. we are broken, what must we do to restore our innocence? and oh the promise we adored? give us life again, cause we just want to be whole

[ocean-xavier]

Okay you’re stubborn. Oh, I didn’t know any of that, I thought he only liked it moderately. I would have never guessed he was into it that much, he doesn’t talk about it at all. Of course I’ll say hi to you, I’m going to say hi in the middle of the game by yelling from the bleachers. I’m almost certain you’re good at it, but I’ll have an open mind in case I’m wrong an you suck. We don’t want you to be miserable, so good luck at the game and I already said this, but remember to be careful.

[absolutely-andie]

I'm not sure if I should be flattered or not. I know, he's pretty quiet about his love for hockey and all things Canadian, but it's there. Well that'll be interesting, but great. I'm not sure how the rest of the team will react, but who cares? Good, it's always good to have an open mind. Thanks, Xavier. It really does mean a lot. You're a good friend, yknow.

[nirvanapaisley-blog]

Thank you Andie, and thank you for listening.

[absolutely-andie]

You're welcome. Anytime, and I mean that, Nirvana.

[avawright]

Yeah, most of us try to forget about it.

[absolutely-andie]

I've noticed that forgetting is a common theme at Lancaster.

[reagan--palmer]

Yepp, you got that right. It’s one of the many things they’re useful for

[absolutely-andie]

Truer words have never been spoke. How many siblings do you have?

[regardleo]

Right, I know the statistics regarding the percentage of people in prison who were in foster care, but that doesn’t mean all of us are future convicts. It’s insane and really though if they wanted to stop the statistic from continuing they’d be better off not always being so suspicious and maybe give those kids a chance. God, it just makes me so mad. The orphanage was like living in Westmount when you compare it to what happened afterwards. How many homes? Um, I think it was around ten altogether. Oh, I know you’re not a complete idiot, only a partial one. I’m kidding. Exactly, hope crushing is the Montreal way. Yes, I’ll have to go through my box that I’ve never bothered to open, mostly out of habit of not bothering to get settled. I know right, the anti-alcoholics praising drunkenness. Good, those are the kinds of people that deserve sarcastic answers. What fools are those? A Canadian president? It’s a shame. The world needs a Canadian appreciation day where they teach simple things about Canada that everyone should know. I mean, I don’t go around talking about some American prime minister. Uneducated Yankees….

[absolutely-andie]

Yeah, the statistics may be against us, but you're right. Not all of us are going to grow up to be murderers and thieves, and if we do, it's because of the foster system no doubt. You're exactly right, how do they expect someone to become trustworthy without showing them trust? It just doesn't work. I know, it's horrible. I don't know if I'll even be able to change anything, but I'm sure as hell going to try. Ten? Oh wow, that's horrible. I'm sorry, Leo. Gee, thanks, you're so sweet. Of course it is. Well, you'll be at Lancaster at least until school ends so you can get a little settled. The irony only makes it better. Yes, they are. I know, I know, it's horrible. Everyone should already know these things about Canada, especiailly Americans, but they don't. It's sad, really. We should, though, we should make people think that we believe America has a prime minister. 

[zarahjenkins]

”.. R U KIDDING ME..”

[absolutely-andie]

"I have no idea what's going on."

[nvmriley-deactivated20150120]

Yikes, that could get messy, but you gotta do what’s best for you, right?

[absolutely-andie]

Exactly. I have to think about myself for once. It was a very toxic relationship. Damn you, homework.

[zarahjenkins]

"Haters back off--"

[absolutely-andie]

[iamadeleharvey]

Youtube is literally the best thing ever.

[absolutely-andie]

I'm pretty sure that's a proven fact.

[reagan--palmer]

Practice makes perfect, Andie. My older brothers taught me well

[absolutely-andie]

Ah, I should have known. That's what older brothers are for, right?

[avawright]

They will, we go through this every year.

[absolutely-andie]

That's true, I vaguely remember it from last year. 

[nirvanapaisley-blog]

I wouuld never forget about them, if I did I would lose myself. But I hope it gets easier to deal with it once time goes by.

[absolutely-andie]

Exactly, whether we like it or not, they're a part of us. It does, I can tell you that much.

[nvmriley-deactivated20150120]

Ah, not the dreaded homework. Tell it you need some space, maybe it’ll understand. 

[absolutely-andie]

Maybe it will, but it could also get really mad and think I'm breaking up with it.

[reagan--palmer]

Oh my god,

Please tell me someone saw that?!

[absolutely-andie]

I did see it! How did you even do that?

[ocean-xavier]

If you both believe you’re stubborn then I’ll just believe it too. He seems to know a lot about hockey, so I guess I trust his opinion, unless he’s only saying so because you’re his sister, I don’t know. Friday? Okay then, hopefully I’ll be able to go, I already know what I’m deciding but watching the match sounds fun. No, it doesn’t make sense, but as soon as it makes sense to you then alright. I think it’s good you’re not afraid to play, if you were and played anyways the result wouldn’t be to good, I guess. I’m glad you don’t mind I’m laughing at you.

[absolutely-andie]

That's a good idea. Saying Leo knows a lot about hockey is a bit of an understatement, considering the fact that he eats, breathes, and sleeps the game. That's a possibility, I guess you'll just have to see. Yeah, Friday. You'll have to say hi to me if you end up coming. You already know what you're deciding? Well, have an open mind at least. Alright, good. I would be miserable if I was too afraid to play, and I'd probably end up doing it anyways, so you're right, it would be bad. Of course not, I laugh at myself all the time.

[nirvanapaisley-blog]

It’s okay, I mean maybe it will change over the years, that’s what my mom tells me at least.

[absolutely-andie]

Right. I mean, in my experience, it gets easier but you can't just forget, n matter how much you wish you could sometimes. You know?

[avawright]

Hopefully they will be done with it soon so I can drink again.

[absolutely-andie]

I hope they'll be done soon for my general sanity, to be honest.