why am I losing my mind over my female teacher crush from school when i was 15 when i am fucking 30? i don't even remember how she really looks like because of aphantasia and i was so unaware back then becuse of alexythymia. i wish i was special but i am just non-binary ace autistic lesbian so i must've been just a creep staring at her no stop and felt bad because of that cause i never wanted to put her in that uncomfortable position being a fucking minor
i am just fucked up i guess













