I haven’t posted anything on here in months, but I want to tell you a little something about me
2013 was the year I fucked up my entire life. I had a crisis that transformed me into another person. I ruined every single aspect of my life, hurt literally every person around me (and somehow myself too), acting like someone who I was not and who I would have never thought I could be. It took me some time to realize how of a big deal it was and how much help I needed. It took me years to bring the pieces back together and nowadays I’m still trying not to let the past affect what I had the courage to rebuild. I would be lying if I said that I don’t think about it anymore. I still feel that sense of guilt sometimes; when I finally feel okay with myself, there’s always that voice in the back of my mind that keeps telling me that I don’t deserve to be happy or loved. As Andy said, it’s like having a black ink mark spread over your life that you’re trying like hell to wipe clean and the stain won’t go away. But 2013 was also the year I found out about his band and it was literally life changing. I won’t idealize anyone; I’m perfectly aware that five normal people, who are basically strangers to me, can not change my life. But art can. Music can change you and make you realize something, it can help you go through hard times, it can help you think about yourself, about how you’re living your life and the person you actually want to be. Whatever may happen in my life, I will never forget the message I learnt thanks to their music and I will always use it in order to make myself a better person. That message is and always be a part of me. This can’t be forgotten. “Life is good when you make it that way and though the demons of yesterday will unfortunately always hang around to fill your mind with that black ink, you can choose to take it and paint a new picture…one of a life worth living and a dream worth fighting for. Never give in, Andy.”
Warriors do not always use swords or wear helmets.❤
