The Ruin Script

a sanctuary of verses—where silence shatters, wounds speak, and the condemned are silenced in flesh.

[achilleusdeirdre]

the tragedy of speaking the same language

the last time we met, everything felt so genuine that i almost failed to notice the distance quietly sitting between us. the shared table, the drinks, the food—everything tasted so warm that i nearly convinced myself this must be what “us” would have felt like if we ever allowed it to become something real. the laughter, the smiles, the stories you forgot you had already told me before. but…

[achilleusdeirdre]

requiem for a red string

beneath the cathedral of dusk,a red string bound our wrists together,delicate as sacrament,yet cruel as prophecy. we carried it like devotion,through candlelit nights and quiet mourning,through prayers whispered too latefor the heavens to answer. your “i love you” sounded holy,like hymns grieving their own ruin.mine arrived softer, quieter,a confession entombed beneath silence. but love…

[achilleusdeirdre]

substance exposes mediocre men

was i lacking, or was i simply too much?  funny how people ask themselves this after being abandoned by someone who spoke about performative permanence only to disappear the moment reality demanded effort beyond soft language and wounded-boy theatrics. i have seen enough of “liked but never pursued” to realize it is rarely about the person being left behind. more often, it is about emotionally…

[achilleusdeirdre]

how can a heart ache for something that never existed?

i never knew pain could exist this way, not until i saw his faded photograph and memories of him began to glitch piece by piece. he was never mine. i was never his. but from afar, i built feelings that never should have existed, yet they did. i am out of his league. i never stood a chance, no matter how the table could flip. he was a bright star, and i was only someone watching the sky. i could…

[achilleusdeirdre]

this is why she disappears

… all of a sudden, she disappears—then reappears as if nothing ever happened. when her emotions begin to stir and the pressure gathers beneath her calm, before anything inside her can reach the point of breaking, she shuts everything out. that is what justifies her sudden disappearances. her emotions are not anyone else’s responsibility; they are hers alone to carry. to keep them from spilling…

[achilleusdeirdre]

sean

sometimes, i think of how unexpected you were. i met you in a season where i was trying to find a connection. and there you were, our conversations unfolding with a depth. i fell into your perspectives: visions, ideals, the way your mind opened itself in discussion. it was unfamiliar to feel that kind of intellectual and emotional depth so quickly, and i would be lying if i said it did not…

[achilleusdeirdre]

miya

mischievous as you can be, there is a tenderness in your laughter that not everyone dives to understand. the world is not always gentle with softness like yours, and still, you continue to move through it with courage.  idealistic in the way you see people. you choose to believe in their better sides even when they have not earned it yet. your heart is open, easily swayed by affection or words.…

[achilleusdeirdre]

mae

meeting you online could have easily been temporary, just another name in a conversation, another passing exchange in a digital world that forgets quickly, but you stayed. not constantly, but consistently. over the years, through gaps in communication and separate seasons of growth, our bond did not weaken. it deepened. you became someone i could talk to: love, heartbreak, about the past versions…

[achilleusdeirdre]

joy

just as you are, with all the tears, doubts, and endless swirl of emotions. your heart feels beyond measure; it cries over stories that are not even yours. sometimes it makes the world heavier for you. sometimes it complicates everything. but that tenderness, that overwhelming sensitivity, is not a flaw. it is part of you. often unsure, sometimes bending situations to protect yourself, sometimes…

[achilleusdeirdre]

jonaiban

just by being yourself, you have always carried a kind of light that does not beg to be noticed yet refuses to disappear. it does not demand attention. it does not compete. it simply exists: quiet, steady, honest. and that honesty is what makes you rare. outstanding, not in the way the world defines it, but in the way you remain sincere when it would be easier to harden. you have every reason to…

[achilleusdeirdre]

eric

even writing this feels unusual for me. i am not the type to write letters for a man. i’ve long considered it unnecessary, almost irrelevant to the way i move through life. words like these are not given lightly. pride, ego, composure—those have always come first. but for once, i am setting them aside, because this is the only way i know how to express what i rarely say out loud. rare is the…

[achilleusdeirdre]

deoruss

deliberate, that is the word that always comes to my mind when i think of you. you move with intention, you choose with thought, and even your silence feels purposeful. you preserve your peace the way others guard something fragile. and there is power in that restraint. even when you appear strong, composed, almost untouchable, i know there are days you feel unwell in ways you do not easily…

[achilleusdeirdre]

daryll

depth is the word that feels closest to what i carry for you. if anyone asks me who my friend is, the first name that comes to mind has always been yours—daryll. not out of habit, but out of certainty. you are not just someone i grew up beside. you are the one i chose to keep.  always soft. always fragile. in ways the world does not deserve. your kindness overflows so naturally that sometimes it…

[achilleusdeirdre]

celyn

connections formed in unexpected places sometimes turn out to be the most genuine. meeting you back in 2020 in a space where identities were veiled and people came and went easily, never felt like something that would last, and yet ours did. what began as simple conversations became a kind of friendship that distance never really erased. one that feels steady in ways words do not always…

[achilleusdeirdre]

achilleus

alone is where you have always felt most honest. not because you could not be loved, but because you refused to dilute yourself just to feel accompanied. you learned early that your own company was enough. that silence could be a sanctuary. that solitude could be power. you were never running from people; you were protecting your peace. composure is your language. you move carefully,…

[achilleusdeirdre]

an open letter

to whoever is reading this, love is not something you have to chase until you are exhausted. it is not something you have to beg for, prove yourself for, or shrink yourself to be keep. you are already worthy of a kind of love that does not ask you to compromise your peace just to feel chosen. you are seen, even in the quiet efforts no one applauds.you are valued, even when the world makes you…

[achilleusdeirdre]

how could you?

how could you love like this—so quietly, so completely—knowing from the beginning that nothing would ever turn back toward you? you entered with open hands, not because you were invited, but because you believed love did not need permission. you stayed where warmth was scarce, where recognition arrived only in fragments, and you taught yourself to be grateful for what was never meant to be…