A Clever Diversion

unfiltered thoughts and diary entries from a cartoon lover and part-time intellectual

[purplebuddhaproject]

“The fear that all this will end.The fear that it won’t.”

—

Rae Armantrout

(via purplebuddhaquotes)

[barbieofcolour-deactivated20211]

ludacris: if u aint got no money take your broke ass home!!!

me: 

[mizworldofrandom]

[bellygangstaboo]

queens

[fithoneys]

[hegodamask]

[stonerparty]

[localstarboy]

[acleverdiversion]

i fucking love her. 

[fromthemotionpicture]

[dashofcreme]

[slimdaddymbaku]

[acleverdiversion]

Me thinking about this Solange show I cant go to this weekend.

[nuevayor]

*remembers im attracted to men* unfortunate 

[overpricedvodka]

“What they should do is take a knee and shove it right up your orange –”

[acleverdiversion]

RIP Jerrel

At least they caught the murderer. 

It’s always weird. It’s like, you champion against America’s prison industrial complex. You understand the mechanisms that trap people. Why they do the things they do...

But when it hits close to home, you’re like “lock that nigga UP!”

That’s how I feel. 

Good riddance. Good night. Keep ya bootyhole tight. 

I can’t reconcile it. 

[acleverdiversion]

🙃

I don't understand why I have to work so much harder than everyone else just to get nothing 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃. Like usually, don't u supposed to just sit on ur ass and get nothing? I woke up at 5:45a.. took an hour & 30 minute bus ride across town to a job where I'm the only Black person and am just uncomfortable the entire time then took a 45 minute bus ride back across town to a job where my boss is younger than me and incompetent. And I got nothing. Like I'm going to school and just racking up more debt that I can't pay. And I'm busting my ass and it all equals nothing... the same as if I did nothing at all in the first place.

[acleverdiversion]

it frustrates me that at this point in my non-existent career, i work under people who take credit for my work. 

[acleverdiversion]

I declare shenanigans.

I've been meeting up with Coco, aka CIA agent Cointelpro, a lot because I know work will occupy his time eventually and I'll never see him again. I consider him a close brother. We are very much Scorpios. His calm, smoothness.. his aura.. his energy ...masks the fact that he had an extremely rough childhood. And he has chosen this kind of sporadic, random, chaotic lifestyle as a result. He adapted to the chaos. When he gets comfortable, he flees. I, on the other hand, had a tough childhood and have sought out stability as a result. ..... I desperately want it. Some kind of normal. But it's so illusive. It's like I'll never get it. The moment shit gets comfortable.. I don't have to flee, it's snatched away from me. Maybe Coco has the right idea. This journey is a farce.

[drunkonschadenfreude]

[acleverdiversion]

i really have to start taking care of myself and no one else.

i really do.

self-care above EVERYTHING and EVERYONE. 

cause that’s what everyone else is doing

and to be the one running themselves ragged for no reason and getting short-changed in every direction i turn is breaking my heart.