Hi I'm Cheeze

Hi I'm Cheeze! They/them 22 yo involved in too many fandoms. Anti endo till the day I die Ferengi Rule of Acquisition no. 98: "Every man has his price."  

[northstareclipse]

Hyper-individualist cultures go, “Your emotions are your personal responsibility. Don’t burden others. Regulate privately. Maintain functionality. If you’re upset, process it offstage so the machine keeps moving.” Meanwhile certain collectivist or harmony-focused frameworks go, “Your emotions disrupt group cohesion. Don’t create discomfort. Don’t impose disharmony. Transcend or contain your reactions for the sake of the whole.”

Different mythology, same trembling fear that one person saying “actually, I feel terrible” will cause civilization to peel apart like wet drywall.

[arisolov04]

[nurm-says-hurm]

can you draw ivor hitting a bong

I love you anon, i love drawing again thank you so much

I hope you like him

(Shoutout to my partner for requesting that he light it with a flint and steel)

[jane35235]

toots

[lavenderfoxboy-deactivated20240]

i wish there was more it/its positivity that wasn't just "hell yeah look at you go funky little goblins/otherwordly beings/freaks/objects"

[oupydogcity]

this is really important actually i wanted to link one of my fav tweets on this subject :>

[kelseyfun]

Reblog if you say "Y'all"

[cdd-positivity]

i actually really fucking hate how pro-endos use "coming out" in regards to being nontraumagenic, as if they're at risk of being fucking hate-crimed or oppressed.

y'know who else "comes out" as the things that they're genuinely not? radqueers.

like what are you coming out of? one of the many scientology headquarters? be so fr.

[sysanamoly]

Ive been TERRIFIED to tell my friends about my systemality, either I fear direct fake claiming, or the word getting out to the wrong people without my knowledge or consent..

And the fact that pro/endos treat this like its some fun thing its.. really demeaning.

[what-even-is-thiss]

I just had an argument with someone who was like “why would we settle for food stamps when we could have universal basic income?”

And it’s just like. People need food right now you know.

[what-even-is-thiss]

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. Hippie church moms donating quinoa chips to my local food bank have done more for me materially than any internet idealist ever has.

[what-even-is-thiss]

People get pissed at me for being a pragmatist in my political ideals but I’ve been in the position where I was out of food right now.

And who helped me with that? Not people calling for some nebulous revolution. Not people telling me that the system was useless. Not people preaching at me to grow my own food. It was a church food bank partially funded by the state of Texas that some southern hippies donated a bunch of Whole Foods nonsense to.

And you know what? I’m sick and tired of defeatism. What can we get done right now, huh? Are you gonna accept something a bit better to help people right now or are you waiting for your perfect utopia to come to you?

Yeah, UBI is better than the quinoa chips. Sure. But right now the quinoa chips are stopping people from going hungry and if all we can do is get the food bank quinoa chips to more people, then I say so be it. That’s something. I’ll almost always take baby steps over nothing.

[dogpuppy]

[chickenmim]

Dude... allow me to add to your trove.

I have a folder of these on my phone... I'm not sure what that says about me!

[teaboot]

This has always bothered me too and it didn't make sense until someone older told me that when they were growing up "scare quotes" were used the way we used *asterisks* or ALL CAPS for emphasis

Edit: Oh. The fake kid's book is... dark.

[fluffymintthecat]

I miss drawing them

Based on this tomodachi life interaction

[enbaluka-tokyo-drift]

[byjove]

One time I told my gastroenterologist that I thought the new immunosuppressant I was prescribed for my ulcerative colitis was causing my hair to fall out. I had not been warned that hair thinning was a potential side effect of the medication so I was startled and when I began shedding like a husky, not because I’m vain but because it is alarming when you suddenly begin losing significant amounts of hair with no cause you’re aware of. It took some googling to find out it was a somewhat common side effect of my new medication.

I casually informed my gastro about this phenomenon near the end of our next appointment because I hadn’t been informed that was something that could happen and I thought it might be important to note, possibly a sign of a deeper problem with the way my body was reacting to the medication or sometime like that. Instead of responding with ‘That happens sometimes.’ or even ‘Huh. Weird. Didn’t know it could do that.’ he turned around and looked at me and said in the most condescending and judgmental voice imaginable “Your colon is more important than your hair.”

Which is a really funny one liner out of context and if he had said it with any other expression and tone, I might have laughed. But he was so fucking serious. I was taken aback and immediately tried to explain I just thought it might be of medical relevance. Like, yes, I fucking know my colon is more important than my hair and it seemed like this man was prematurely annoyed with me and (I assume) he thought I was going to try to switch treatments for my severe ulcerative colitis because my fucking hair was falling out. Far from the cruelest thing a medical professional has ever said to me, not egregious enough to make me feel the need to comment on it or try to switch providers, just demoralizing in a way that felt like a branding. I left the appointment feeling so fucking small. I thought, oh, he thinks I’m stupid and vain. This doctor, who has seen me at my most vulnerable and heard me have to describe shitting blood so much I needed iron infusions for the anemia, this man who has shoved a camera up my ass on multiple occasions thinks I am a vapid dumbass who would value my hair over not being in fucking pain and incontinent and sick and bleeding.

Anyway, being chronically ill and always dependent on the healthcare system and medical professionals is death by a thousand paper cuts mentally. No dignity, attempting to perform being polite and genteel and not hysterical or emotional or troublesome while also being in severe pain, just so you will be taken seriously. And you can do your absolute best and still be put in the ‘stupid and annoying’ box while fighting a serious illness.

[rocketbirdie]

there desperately needs to be a separate option to report ads for hijacking your touch screen or automatically launching your browser/app store the moment you scroll past it. "malicious" is not a strong enough word. i need the "go fuck yourself and die in a pit of boiling acid x10000" option

[dragon-in-a-fez]

arguments that have zero merit, none, completely worthless, should not influence your decisions at all ever:

"this is how we've always done it"

"that's the policy"

"we've never tried that before"

etc

[anti-endo-tommyinnit]

LOOKING AT ENDO SHIT CAUSE IM BORED AND TAKING A BREAK FRIN THE NEW DANDYS WORLD UPDATE

Guys.. I jorked it and became a system because I was so lonely and can't get bitches 🥺 /sarc

Guys i jorked it too hard and became plural/sarc

[liberalsarecool]

Gerrymandering is wild. Just a friendly reminder to those that say “TN was always a red state”, no it wasn’t. It was drawn to be a red state. If we had non partisan boards drawing district maps, it would look vastly different. But they have to cheat to win.

[schizofemic]

most successful system resources are made by pro-endos or are endo-neutral for 2 main reasons

people with severe childhood trauma are less likely to have access to the means and stability required to maintain system resources for a wider community. how can you maintain an alter-tracking app or run a support group when your priorities are escaping abuse, stabilizing your life, coping with trauma, etc? especially when trauma survivors are more likely to be in poverty. a system that formed without trauma exists at a point of privilege, as they are generally less likely to be in an ongoing stressful situation that would prohibit maintaining these resources. anyone who brags of how "pro endos are running the most prolific system/plural supports so its pointless to be anti endo" is effectively bragging about how endogenics are better than ppl with cdds because they lack trauma.

widespread anti endo resources get harassed into shutting down (see systemtime) or pressured and blacklisted into declaring themselves endo neutral (see octocon). anti endo resources are forced into being localized, smaller, and not publicly talked about bc its been years and the pro endo community still has a massive problem of violently demanding that anti endos surrender their resources (and security- see pluralkits ongoing privacy issues!) to them.