This is actually-endel, a blog dedicated to all things Endel.
What is an Endel?
An Endel is someone who identifies, or an identity, under the Alterhuman label that is rooted in/caused by delusions. Check this carrd by the coiner to learn more.
Who can use the term Endel?
Anyone who experiences delusions, or has experienced delusions that influenced their human or nonhuman identity. This can be schizophrenia, bipolar, delusional disorder, schizoaffective disorder, etc.
Meet the Mods:
MOD Maximus/mutt, it/its: I am a schizophrenic (possibly schizoaffective) psychotic, who has been an Endel for multiple years, though I only found the term about a year ago. I am a questioning system, and ID as a black german shepard/cryptid dog/werewolf
Tags:
#asks - for any questions
#endel culture is - for culture-is asks
#undel - for asks/posts by non endels
#on sanism - about sanism
#coining - for coining posts
That's all for now! Hope this blog reaches out and grows :)
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I'm Ola, a graduate student from the Faculty of Science at Al-Azhar University . I'm dedicated and passionate about becoming a good researcher and teacher.
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I'm Haya from Gaza , from a family of 8 people: my parents, two sons, and four daughters (two of them suffer from allergies).
Dear Humanity,
I'm Haya from Gaza , from a family of 8 people: my… Ahmed Alshawish needs your support for Emergency: Help Evacuate My Fa
I've witnessed the evidence of the tragedy that has struck our lives in Gaza, where my family and I have survived amidst numerous previous wars. But today, we face the most dangerous and fierce battle in the current war. The urgent need intensifies for us, as we have nothing left and are unable to secure our basic needs such as food, water, and safe shelter.
Here is our story - On October 7th, our lives changed forever, my family and I evacuated from northern Gaza to southern Gaza, hoping to return soon, but it wasn't meant to be. Our home was surrounded, burned, and then completely destroyed, Our home, once a fortress of hope, now lay in ruins, a stark reminder of our shattered dreams.
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Our home it was where we found hope, safety, and made precious memories. Losing it felt like losing years of our lives, leaving us adrift amidst the wreckage of our shattered existence.
A brief video depicting the devastation that struck our home and our entire neighborhood in Gaza.
Desperate Plea: Escaping Gaza's Allergy Nightmare
I, Haya, suffer from severe allergy to penicillin-derived medications, and my sister, Amal, also suffers from severe allergies to medications from my family such as Paracetamol and Ibuprofen.
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MY Father Income
Our dreams are heading towards oblivion in the labyrinth of an uncertain future
My story, along with my siblings, represents a united team of four individuals, three of whom are skilled programmers and one graphic designer. We work as freelancers in the world of freelancing.
As for my younger sister, she is a student studying at the College of Architecture. She has always carried a big dream in her heart, a dream of being part of changing Gaza, of making it more beautiful and better. She looked forward to the day when she would receive her degree and start building this dream. But the beginning of the war changed everything. The destruction of infrastructure and universities cast shadows of despair over her dreams.
When I think of my brother in Belgium, I can't help but feel deep sadness. He has been suffering from unbearable anxiety and insomnia since the outbreak of the war. Sleep eludes him at night, and his physical and mental health collapses under the weight of these heavy burdens, negatively affecting his performance at work. Problems and challenges pile up in front of him without the slightest opportunity for rest.
We all feel psychological pressure and extreme anxiety. The war hasn't been limited to external attacks but has deeply infiltrated our daily lives. We search among the rubble for a little safety and the basic resources for survival. Every day comes with a new challenge that we must overcome.
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Our parents earnestly seek a way to rescue us from this hell, feeling the heavy responsibility for every moment we spend under the shadows of fear and destruction. They dream of a safe place where they can build for us a better future, filled with security and hope, for we deserve life in all its meanings of comfort and peace.
Perhaps this fundraising campaign represents a light in the midst of darkness, it is indeed the only hope we cling to firmly.
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Your donation is not just a donation; it's an opportunity to rebuild life and brighten a better tomorrow. Be part of our hopeful story, for we need your hand to start anew.
The purpose of the fundraising campaign
The goal of this fundraising campaign is to rescue my family - my parents, my siblings, and me - through the Rafah Crossing to Egypt, which currently requires $5000 per person. This campaign is our only chance to stay alive, and I humbly request your assistance at this critical time. I will provide you with a comprehensive breakdown of the expenses, committing to transparency and clarity.
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Hi,
I hope you're doing well.
I'm writing to you with a heavy heart and an urgent request for help. My family is in a very danger situation due to the ongoing war, and I've launched a GoFundMe campaign to save them.
Could you please reblog my campaign post from my profile? Each share could be a lifeline for my family. 🙏 Feel free to share it in any other social media platform if you would like.
Our campaign has been verified ⭐️ by operation olive branch, and is entry number 26 on their spreadsheet. Also with ⭐️ Project watermelon,line 249/(212) on their spreadsheet.
From the bottom of my heart I want to thank you in advance for all of your support and kindness.
ofc :0)!
Dear Humanity,
I'm Haya from Gaza , from a family of 8 people: my… Ahmed Alshawish needs your support for Emergency: Help Evacuate My Fa
they are very close to their gofundme goal, if anyone could donate this would be much appreciated!!
Is endelity not being nonhuman because of trauma and mental illness? What kind of delusions are endelity? That you’re physically nonhuman, or?
hello !
so, endels and non endelic alterhumans are very similiar. Many endels feel their nonhuman identity to be trauma related, many don't, and same with alterhumans. An Endel is just someones who nonhumanity is related to OR caused by delusions.
I have a delusion of being physically nonhuman, but some endels don't and just have the delusion of being mentally nonhuman. Some have spiritual delusions, etc etc. There really isn't a yes or no answer to which delusions can be endelic. Someone might have the delusion of physically being a wolf, but not identify as an endel. Like many others, Endel is simply a label someone may or may not identify with.
hope this answers your question anon :0) - MOD Maximus
I (20F) am in a moderately large fandom that got popular during the pandemic. Most of the fic for this fandom is gen and platonic pairings, which is a rarity and fantastic. One of the most popular creators in the fandom puts out a ton of gen fics that I really loved. Unfortunately, I learned after that they write fics on a different account, and not just any fics, but inc*st. I'm not talking about found family. These characters are literal brothers in canon. I can't believe anyone would ship them together, much less this person. I unfollowed them and now, whenever I see anyone talking about how much they love this creator, I inform them about the alt account and their ships. Ignorance may be bliss, but I felt awful when I found out and realized I'd been supporting them for so long and I don't want anyone else to feel that way. But someone replied to one of my comments calling me the asshole, telling me I was outing the creator, and to mind my own business. AITA?
I mean I stand by my statement (dagger-and-pen is my main)
Sorry my mum had better things to care about than what one of her children wrote on the internet.
Like she's the one who introduced me to flowers in the attic as a teen and taught me everything I know about literary analysis.
Seriously some people on here need to read things that squick them out and learn to dissect the how's and whys of why certain media gives you those feelings.
Sorry everyone but NORMAL PEOPLE OUTSIDE TUMBLR AND TWITTER DONT ACTUALLY CARE. GAME OF THRONES WAS POPULAR. PEOPLE ARE LARGELY FINE WITH INCEST STORIES. AND HAVE BEEN FOR THOUSANDS OF YEARS.
You can personally hate incest stories but this is not a fight you will win.
This obsessive need to disassociate with anyone who writes impure fiction is a toxic mindset that actively harms the people with it.
It is not healthy or helpful to think and act like people who write about taboo subjects are a walking contamination and will infect you and everyone you care about if you don’t warn others. You’re under no obligation to keep reading their work, but going around saying “hey I saw this person at the devil’s sacrament has a side account for taboo subjects” is uhhh. Concerning. Block and move on.
Guys it's simply not real! Yes, in real life incest is bad! It's an indication of abuse and pain and suffering and it's horrible! But X Character and Y Character are not real! They do not suffer, or feel joy, or pain, or euphoria, or sadness or anything else because they do not exist! They are not a real person! Writing about these 'taboo' topics does not mean you are approving of them, it's just a means to explore your feelings and the darker aspects of yourself and others.
Personally, I hate incest fics cause they squick me out, but there's plenty of other shit that I read and write that squick other people out! No one is "pure". Don't harm people in real life, and don't bother people who write about shit you don't like. Filter the tags and move on
tw: unreality (probably), reality checking (more like double book keeping I guess but???)
how do I get more comfortable with the existence of nonhumans who say they can physically shift but aren't delusional?
like. I know it's unfair, but every time I see someone be like "I am a werewolf and I'm not a clinical lycanthrope, I do not see this as a delusion", my mind automatically screams P-SHIFTER P-SHIFTER NO NO BAD!!!
I don't want that! I know it's fucking unfair, but I just... have such a hard time to get comfortable with this - for a lot of reasons actually, but mainly it's 1) I am 0% spiritual so I just. ya know, science says it's impossible and I believe in science so, how??? (<- rethorical question btw, having an explanation or not should not influence how I react to the mere existence of other beings) and 2) I SO DESPERATELY want to believe that shapeshifting exists, I so desperately want my shapeshifting abilities and if I accept that it exists (because people say that it happens to them) but I can't do it... that would be a fucking catastrophe for my mental health.
I know I should just accept them and don't get me wrong, I don't harrass anyone, I mainly just avoid these beings. but it's so hard and I feel horrible for being so judgy but I just... I don't know.
like, I believe people's experiences. if someone tells me "I can physically shift into a horse" then cool, I believe that's exactly what you're experiencing, I believe that it's absolutely real to you and I WANT to believe it's real (=visible, proveable, anything) to other people too but I just... have such a hard time. my brain either wrongfully accuses them of being a harmful cult-y p-shifter or thinks that they probably have delusions and just aren't aware of them.
Again, I know that's harmful thinking and I want to change that!
every time I catch myself thinking something like the above, I actively correct myself in my head but I can't just fully accept and believe it.
I don't know what to do about this, it's really stressing me out and making me feel bad on various levels... if anyone has an idea how to get over this, please please help :(
imo this isnt an unfair assessment to make whatsoever. pshifters/whatever basically act as unreality confirmers by being/claiming to not be delusional
the specific reason that reality checking (positive or negative) is dangerous is because confirming (or denying) a delusional's delusions will put them into psychosis. Reality confirming unreality to be true, hmm, well, it isn't unreality if Reality can interact with it, it must be Reality. <- that is psychosis! that is a psychosis mindset
i think there is always some level of uncomfortably from people who have been traumatized by something to be skeptical of others who interact with it and say their experiences are not traumatic. i think i would find it difficult to be longterm friends with someone POSIC who didnt have any trauma associated with object consciousness, theres a lot of emotions there - anger, envy, rejection, confusion, and yes unreality. this is because my trauma about it shaped me, shaped itself, and is fully intertwined with what it means for me to experience object consciousness. i am still figuring out where it's appropriate to place these emotions but for now they just exist inside my body i guess
my solution to this stuff is just kinda to not think about it and block people that i think are even mildly annoying or unreality or whatever. the world will keep spinning if i never make up my mind about whether nondelusional pshifters are cool or not, they'll keep existing, and i'll keep blocking them. nothing will change either way for me or the world. i dont think you're a bad person for having conflicting thoughts about it, i dont think you're a bad person for not posting about it; i think skepticism is the most normal response you could have to something like this. the important part is what you do about it and it sounds like you're trying really hard not to hurt anyone and thats the best outcome imo
thank you so much, that was so so good to read and took a lot of pressure off of me <33
I am not psychotic so I don't really struggle with the unreality part of it (I mean I guess I kinda do, but for other reasons), but the mere thought of "what if physical shifting IS real but I can't do it?!" is very harmful to me. and that's what those people are triggering in me - I think I just have to actually startet blocking people again... I just don't want to accidentally accidentally someone for being something they aren't?? which is absolutely irrational because they Literally Aren't Hurt by me blocking them. it's the People Pleaser Mindset and the I have to get a good grade in Acting Morally Well, which is a wildly unrealistic standard. sometimes I lose myself in those mindsets a bit too much, so thank you a lot for helping me starting to get out of them again! :3
just reblogging again with these because this is 100% true and it's very good to hear that from time to time - I think it's kinda easy to become too concerned about all of this internet stuff, etc, it just happened to me (obviously).
So ya lol I just thought this was well-put and I didn't want it to get lost in the tags ^^
