hi, anon ! i've been on hiatus and plan to keep it that way just because i'm not on this platform much ( if at all ) these days, but i figured this was a chance to drop by with a bit of a life update. buuunch of text ahead ... oops. also — cw : mentions of vomit & panic attacks & struggling with living situations ( not sure how to phrase that ) in the paragraph marked with a ( * ) .
a little over a week ago, i faced my final exam in law school — a 45 minute three - part oral interrogation covering thirteen semesters' worth of contents in total. a couple questions per section of the exam, so out of thousands of pages, you got tested on like ... idk 20 max. the head of the examining committee ( aka, the three professors interrogating me ) was a former professor of mine — and the founding partner of the law firm i've dreamed of working at since 2019. so, as you can guess, the pressure was on when it came to testing well ... or it would have been, had i not counted with an incredible support system that made me confident that whether i passed or failed, they'd be there with me.
i needed a 4/7 to pass my exam. when i sat down ( wearing a pink suit bc duh ) i turned on my charm and confidence and basically thought to myself "well, i've done everything i can" .
( * ) i studied from june to the very end of october, when i was forced to take two months off because my mental health was in shambles. got back in january, jumped right back into it. had nowhere to live for a while, ended up having like 4 different living situations between january and july because i just didn't have anywhere to settle down properly, with my whole family living in the us. this had been the most unstable time of my whole life. studying was hell at times. i was throwing up once or twice a day ( yeah, every day ) out of stress, having panic attacks, taking Many meds just to cope, weekly therapy, terrible psoriasis and skin issues, the whole thing.
my exam was objectively a difficult one, particularly the civil law section where i was forced to move through a bunch of different topics, but my professors were very kind and encouraging ( especially mr. founding partner, who was smiling at me 90% of the time ) . because of the way grades work in my school, i could only finish law school with a whole number, no decimals, and if i got a 5.5/7 or above, my starting grade ( a 5.5 ) would get rounded up to a 6 which is ... insanely good, especially when coming from my school. i knew i couldn't aspire for a 7, because they only really give you a 7 if your starting grade is a 6 or above. in my wildest dreams, i got a 5.5. mayyyybe a 5.8. when i left the classroom, while my professors deliberated, i told my friends "i think i might have gotten the 5.5" .
i got a 6. aka, two out of three votes of distinction. i finished law school with a grade i didn't even dare to dream of, and feedback from my professors praising me for my ability to express myself and to think well.
nowadays, i'm on vacation with my family, and i'm sending my cv out to two law firms that have expressed interest in me tomorrow — one is the dream firm i mentioned above ( had a meeting with that professor ages ago, he not so subtly implied that they'd like to hire me but idk if they're hiring right now ) and another is a firm i did an internship at once. both top firms in my country. and when i travel back home, i'll have to find someplace to stay while i look at apartments to rent — i've decided that i'll be living alone, and thankfully, my parents are in a financial position that allows them to help me with rent as i get settled in.
so, things sucked for a while ... but now, i'd say i'm doing pretty damn good <33 this is the stage in life i've been dreaming of for ages, and now it's all coming true.
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