I Like Stuff. Things.

Previously Kiki 242

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One thing I keep thinking about is Carol Danvers and how people perceive her as never being kind or showing a soft side.

And the thing is that she DOES. Carol does have a big soft side to her, its just reserved for a few select people:Maria, Monica, Kamala, Fury, and Valkyrie. I do wonder if this list of characters not being white kinda makes people not see that side of her or truly perceive it.

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Sometimes, I think about how Laurel was lowkey a bird 💀💀💀. She took so much shit from Oliver as a boyfriend and a friend. Just thinking about it is irking me all over again. The way she died loving that man is so damn foul. Fuck Arrow for that shit.

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Sometimes, I think about how Laurel was lowkey a bird 💀💀💀. She took so much shit from Oliver as a boyfriend and a friend. Just thinking about it is irking me all over again. The way she died loving that man is so damn foul. Fuck Arrow for that shit.

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Veilguard was far from perfect but I do cringe at the certain things Larian would have caved at if they were the devs for it 💀💀💀. They probably would have softened Ne ve's reaction to the destruction of Minrathus after the hate she received.

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Some time ago, I posted about writing a fic where Aylin and my Paladin of Devotion tav ended up on an adventure together in Avernus. And I have started writing it but it has taken a different kind of life.

Selune came to my tav personally in a dream to save a child that had been sold off to a devil.

And she does so due to how painful it was losing aylin for that century. She stopped sending people to save aylin as they kept dying. She essentially chose the lives of her followers over saving her daughter from her seemingly endless torment.

The decision of this has led to Selûne being rather protective and overbearing of aylin. She will never put the lives of mortals over her daughter ever again.

I think it creates a great dichotomy for Selûne, having to choose between being a goddess for selunites vs being a mother to aylin. Aylin was created for the sole purpose of doing what Selûne could not (as Selûne is held back by how much she can interfere with mortal affairs due to AO), she is meant to be the sword of Selûne, swiping out enemies and helping those in need.

And that is how Selûne lost Aylin in the first place, what led to her being trapped and tortured for a century. Not only was Aylin sent to Reithwin as a emissary, she was lured into the cage with the lie of someone who needed help.

And there is Aylin herself. She will not take kindly to being sidelined. She also LOATHES the pity she receives from people and those who should look to her for strength and help treating her as though she is broken. It hurts all the more when its from her own mother. Rest and respite be damned, she is the sword of the moonmaiden and that is exactly what she will be forever more.

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I gotta be frank, those yassified Tavs look so fucking wierd to me 💀. Shit is so in the uncanny valley, I hate them so much 😭.

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I gotta be frank, those yassified Tavs look so fucking wierd to me 💀. Shit is so in the uncanny valley, I hate them so much 😭.

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I am not where near a DnD expert. I have never played a tabletop game in my life. I did not play the prior Baldur's Gate games and I feel like that is a good chunk of the fandom. If certain lore and things catch my eye, I look things up and read lore that is on there internet.

And with that, i have come to truly see just how much some people by into the Sharran propaganda Shadowheart spews about Selune and selunites. Even with it being known of just how much Shar and Viconia fucked Shadowheart up and brainwashed her (many times over), people still buy into what she is selling against Selune.

In that Selune is no better than the evil gods and is secretly evil or dirty herself. They take her "inaction" of not saving Aylin as proof when there are DnD lore reasons as to why she acts in such an offhandish manner. Learning about Ao (what little I have) was a bit eye opening. She has to act through mortals and she seemingly did based on the selunite graves we find in front of the Thorm mausoleum.

I find it to be such a great and striking thing for Shadowheart's character that she got people to buy into the bit so to speak. The compassion that she shows I feel like gets people to really buy into what she's selling. Just shows how great her writing is.

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There is so much hurt/comfort and angsty Aylin/Isobel fanfiction, especially in the post cannon setting of BG3. I feel like writing something a bit more "upbeat" with them. But i also want to do something for my paladin of Devotion Tav (who is named Diana)/shadowheart............

Something like where Aylin and my Tav end up on an adventure together. They have basically been sent on the same mission. Alyin, through her mother and my Tav through hearsay. They meet up and naturally decide to work together.

The kicker is that they did not inform their significant others about their respective missions. And highkey lied about the fact that they would be out doing such a dangerous thing.

Their adventure even leads them to the Hells. Just something tumbling about in my mind. The story is basically bones with no meat atp, but it is there in me.

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I like the tidbit of how in Shadowheart's love scene after she rejects Shar, there are a few pans to the full moon. Reflecting how Selune's light now shines upon Shadowheart and how she is now empowered by her.

I also like to think that in a weird and convoluted way, it reflects how Selune guided my paladin down the path to intercept Shadowheart in the nautiloid and in turn everything else that happens after. That is my head cannon, anyway.

Shadowheart is free to love the character fully without having to worry about some petty goddess getting jealous.

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Thinking of writing a lil buddy cop type fic with my Devotion Paladin and Dame Aylin 🤔.

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A world in which my Oath of Devotion Paladin becomes best of bros with Dame Aylin 😌. She would urge Aylin to put her sword down for a while and let herself heal. Take a much needed and deserved vacation with her beloved. And my Paladin understands more than anyone Aylin's desire to power on and continue on as she did before the cage. There is so much evil in the world that one can drown in it, there is always somebody to smite or somebody to save. Its neverending work.

And despite not being devoted to Selune, my Paladin does have a bit of favor with the goddess considering all that she has done. Cleaned up the shadow curse, help free her daughter, help one cleric that was stolen from her return to the moonlit road (even if Shadowheart never fully embraces her, Selune is thankful all the same), her free her daughter, help bring down those responsible for the destruction of a town that was endlessly devoted to her, and so on.

I like to imagine Selune would LOVE for my Tav to fully pledge her sword to her and become a full fledge Selunite 😅. Feels like the good playthrough can make a character an honorary one.

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I will always believe that Selune should be the Sunmaiden rather than the moon maiden.

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Just some Headcannoning things for the relationship between my character and Shadowheart:

I like to think that my Paladin of Devotion has a bit of a reckoning when it comes to Shadowheart in Act 2. Up until this point, Shadowheart is a Sharran simply by word. Her deeds and approvals say the exact opposite and it allows my Paladin to ignore their differences in philosophy and ideology. The snide remarks towards Selune can be brushed off and ignored. The deep discussions about Shadowheart's faith can be had but they are outweighed by Shadowheart's constant show of heart and compassion.

Getting to the Shadowlands is a harsh reminder of who Shadowheart worships and the glee and excitement she expresses in becoming a Dark Justiciar is a deeply unsettling thing.

And to be quite frank, my character hates it. She LOATHES it when Shadowheart talks about wanting to be a Justiciar and being a faithful servant to Shar, in Act II. Being surrounded by the horror and desolation Shar caused, she cannot reconcile that with the person Shadowheart actually is.

I also like to think that for Shadowheart, this is also where she realizes that she cannot have both. Shar does not allow for her followers to have room in their hearts for anyone beyond her. And it does play in her decision to defy Shar.

Shadowheart is so obviously in love with the character after theor first kiss. Homegurl is down BAD. She remarks about how much happier she is with said character. Staying down the road of being a Sharran would mean giving that up in some form and she does not want to do that.

But before she comes to the decision of defying Shar, it eats away at her that she will have to let Tav go in order to fulfill her Justiciar dream. And when it comes to my paladin, it is not lost on her just how ideologically opposed they are. My paladin's loathing and disdain of Shar becomes more palpable the longer they are in the Shadowlands. Its a heartbreaking thing for Shadowheart because she has to reckon with the fact that being a Sharran will eventually equate to opposing my character.

Following the doctrine of Shar and doing her bidding is a very easy way to find oneself on the end of my Paladin's smite. And unbeknownst to Shadowheart, my character has on fact put down sharrans in duty to her oath and dod not lose a sleep of wink over it. In fact, my character has found herself standing alongside and assisting Selunites in her travels from time to time. This is something that should be quite obvious to Shadowheart but its another thing she lies to herself about.

My character also reminds Isobel of Aylin, and my character gets along with her quite well. There is also a bit of a possessive streak to Shadowheart, and she hates how well isobel and my Tav get along 😅.

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Replaying BG3 and I lowkey forgot just how bad of a Sharran Shadowheart truly is 😅. She may try to deny it but that girl LOVES helping people. And my Paladin of Devotion is once again bout to woo her.

Another thought, my character is a tiefling and I so wish that we could make a comment about Wyll's feelings for having horns. My Paladin tiefling would say the most encouraging shit to pick her friend up, especially at the party post saving the grove.

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Also, considering all things, i am surprised that Shinobu and Lady Tamayo is not a bigger ship. They are the geniuses of the operation, worked closely together to ensure Muzan's defeat, perished in similar fashion, and most importantly, Tamayo won avid demon hater Shinobu over. They got the base for some mad shippers shit imo.

And the thought of Tamayo slowly working through those emotional walls that shinobu has and all of that anger........ like when Shinobu first initially talked about humans and demons being friends I remember thinking to myself that Lady Tamayo would be the best example of that. The more I think of them, the more perfect it seems.

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I am not really following wwe anymore cause HELLO.

But through social media, I have been able to see a good chunk of the Rhiyo vs Kabuki Warriors storyline. And I feel like Kairi deserves more credit for the part she's playing. How emotionally distraught she is has been a constant thing, even when she's being mean and nasty in her own way.

Case in point, when Iyo took that elbow for Rhea, Kairi was so upset about it and it's something that I feel like has flown under the radar. It does truly PAIN her to have to go through with this war against Iyo and every time Iyo chooses to still stand beside Rhea it makes her emotional turmoil worse. She gets sadder about having to hurt iyo (and Rhea to an extent) and she gets angrier at Iyo for causing all of this mess.

And the insane abusive dynamic she has with Asuka rn just makes you truly feel for her. And it's kinda mind boggling. Kairi is supposed to be this big, brave pirate princess who stands up to anybody no matter how she may be outmatched. But she just allows Asuka to run all over her.

When she finally remembers who she is and turns on Asuka, it better be akin to the beat down Alex Riley put on the Miz when he turned on him.