scars are souvenirs we never lose

in love with Valerius. writing my own Valerius fan route. OCs: Caleb (the Arcana), Saeran de Winter (CDLC etc), Deano (random VNs). dm and ask are open, talk to me anytime about anything. i also talk about choice games here. occasional mild nsfw can happen here but never anything explicit.  

[adelar-ward]

[hpowellsmith]

I'm absolutely going to replay CDLC for the eights time and love Hartmann for for the eights time, and have a crush on Blaise for the eights time. So i beg you, please tell me something deep and vulnerable and probably angsty about Hartmann and Blaise, something they don't tell anyone?

Spoilers for Creme de la Creme below!

Blaise feels really dark and awful about the fact that for a long time from their perspective, no one cared about them being kidnapped. They really love and care about their parents but they find it really hard and complicated to think about the fact that their parents believed Aunt Violette's lies. They understand that for some MCs, the MC may have been trying to poke around and discover things, which helps them feel better - but they had a lot of friends at school before the MC showed up and they pretty much all went "oh well, Blaise messed up, never mind, let's get on with our lives". Even Hartmann, who was pretty close with them, only wrote to them a couple of times before giving up and assuming that Blaise just didn't want to be in contact. Blaise hates being vulnerable though, especially about those events - partly because they see it as it having been their fault for trying to get the MC expelled with their fairly unthought-out and impulsive scheme - so they try not to talk about it much.

Hartmann sometimes feels envious about the people who are "allowed" to mess up - people like Max really frustrate them and make them angry, but at the same time Hartmann feels like "how come they're able to go off and be a mess and I'm not?" They don't have loads of fun going off the rails, but part of them wishes they could just let loose without any obligations or consequences - but they wouldn't want to admit that. See also when Max or Gonzalez gets a decent but not top grade - Hartmann feels viciously jealous that they get congratulated when if Hartmann got the same non-top grade, they'd be told by parents that it wasn't good enough, and teachers would be concerned that something had gone wrong. They're conscious of that double standard while also being terrified of the idea of failing - they don't WANT to fail but they'd like to be less scared of it. They've never really gone through realising that failure isn't the end of the world, so their perspective is that it would be a COMPLETE DISASTER if it was to happen.

[adelar-ward]

Oh my gosh this ask originates from the ancient times when i apparently didn't know how to spell "eighth"! I'm replaying for the tenth time now, because i'm still ridiculously in love with Blaise and Hartmann and probably will never stop loving them.

Thank you for the answer <3

[hpowellsmith]

There are two kinds of people I guess because with Ash showing some interest to Hyacinth all I could think about was "OMG a poly route 👀👀👀" but honestly to me, it came across as admiration and not romantic interest.

Aha yes it's interesting seeing how different people feel about things! But yes Asher/Hyacinthe aren't polyamorous and it isn't intended as a love triangle situation - they will only express interest in each other if the MC isn't interested in either of them.

[adelar-ward]

Three kinds of people, actually!

My MC was like "oh thank goodness".

Gaelen really likes Asher as a friend but feels uncomfortably responsible for his feelings that he can't reciprocate, and uncomfortably guilty for being affectionate with someone else (Dominique) with Asher around. He was relieved that Asher liked Hyacinthe and would absolutely play a matchmaker, if not for the fear that if he praised Hyacinthe too much, Asher would think that Gaelen likes Hyacinthe too and decide to step aside. :)

[adelar-ward]

My troubled babies.

Malc doesn't make anything easy for Luna, that's for sure. No one ever really showed him true affection that had nothing to do with him being a Landgraab before, so now all he knows how to do is throw money at people and problems.

[adelar-ward]

I gave Malcolm Landgraab a makeover for storytelling purposes. He made the community pretty excited (4.2k likes in less than a day lol! i thought my phone will combust) and i'm proud of my problematic boy.

The vibe i was aiming for was the golden boy in his early twenties that casually plays golf with senators and looks like he owns the world, and is always praised and admired for what he has but never for who he is. Always for the wealth and influence that his family has. For others, he always looks like he won a life lottery, even when he doesn't really feel like the winner. Must keep up appearances at all times!

I think Nancy is very demanding and puts a lot of pressure on Malcolm to mold him into what she wants, and he never really had an example of someone who can stand up to her standards and demands (his father is way too soft for it, brother was disowned for pursuing his dreams), so Malcolm is conditioned to strive for perfection but is never perfect enough for Nancy. Under the surface, he's got quite a fragile self-esteem that is easily threatened so he can be really reactive. Not to his parents though, especially not to his mother, he suppresses that anger and it comes out elsewhere.

Here i'm gonna collect the most hilarious and accurate comments on his vibe, for my own re-reading pleasure:

He looks like he’s about to ask me if I know who his father is, so I definitely think you nailed it.

If the words "Do you not know who I AM?!" had a face, it'd be very close to your rework.

MY FATHER, THE INVENTOR OF TOASTER STRUDEL, WILL NOT BE HAPPY TO HEAR ABOUT THIS!

I was about to say the new look screams nepotism which fits very well

Hot damn! Now he looks like a rich boy.

imagine being the youngest and the heir to a wealthy, old money family, this boy definitely has some issues

he’s beautiful but i feel like he’s about to treat me like a maid cause he mistook my broke looking ass for the help

Excuse me, but you're in my way, peasant.--Malcolm to any Sim who isn't him, his family, or famous.

That dude definitely wears Sperry's

you definitely nailed the posh trust fund baby vibe he has

He looks like he would've been a very sweet and nice guy if he wasn't, yanno, a Landgrabb

[thearcanagame]

Did you read The Heartsong Festival Tale? Whose gift did you like the most?

[adelar-ward]

Faust! I like how Faust almost gave me herself as a gift :)

[adelar-ward]

Levi Rees from MeChat made in Sims 4

He’s different on every CG and his sprite is a catfish, so i made him with CG from a hotel room in mind + the sprite + how i personally see him, far from perfect but so amazing.

I'm also really tempted to try and make his actual tattoos from the game but it will be one hell of a work...

[adelar-ward]

Anyone wants to see a beautiful alien person from sims 4?

They were born in the game, and i haven't even touched their facial features, they were born that perfect.

[adelar-ward]

I feel super weirded out by the fact that one of latest Fictif characters is named Rian because it's the real name of my Arcana MC (the one who is romancing Valerius).

[adelar-ward]

Ohhh today in my dream Valerius had a surname. And not even half bad! It was Valerius Dimetrio. It actually looks nice? I mean, i'm almost ready to accept it as my headcanon until we have official info.

I'm surprised tho because my dream self usually invents weird names. Interesting, but really weird.

[adelar-ward]

Happy WINElentine!

Valentine cards but it's Valerius and only Valerius! Take a screenshot to see what confession the consul has for you.

Separate cards:

[adelar-ward]

Whoa, i didn't remember that we actually can read cards for Valerius... I wonder if it's because i happened to never go that way or simply because i played this book back in 2018, before i fell for Valerius and started to pay real attention to him...

[hpowellsmith]

7 deadly sins and virtues of Ros?

Vice | Virtue

Royal Affairs: Asher: Prudence | Pride

Beaumont: Fortitude | Greed

Dominique: Hope | Sloth

Hyacinthe: Temperance | Envy

Javi: Faith | Wrath (borderline Pride)

Trevelyan: Justice | Wrath

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Noblesse Oblige:

Danelak: Charity | Lust

Pascha: Faith | Envy

Rys: Fortitude | Wrath

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Creme de la Creme:

Gonzalez: Hope | Gluttony

Hartmann: Fortitude | Pride

Max: Charity | Wrath

Freddie: Temperance | Pride

Delacroix: Faith | Envy

Blaise: Fortitude | Pride

Karson: Prudence | Sloth

Auguste: Justice | Greed

Rosario: Charity | Sloth

Florin: Hope | Lust

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Blood Money:

Ferro: Fortitude | Lust

Nico: Hope | Envy

Silvian: Faith | Wrath

Aleixi: Hope | Greed

Pereira: Justice | Gluttony

[adelar-ward]

Auguste and justice. Saeran would say - wow. That's rich for a person who cheats in a sports competition and then says that going easy on someone is beneath their dignity! Where's that dignity to start with?

...Yeah, Saeran's opinion on them is very, very low. They hate Auguste with their guts and wince at every mention of them.

Though... i would be happy to say that Saeran isn't biased, and Hartmann's crush on Auguste has absolutely nothing to do with that, and it's all about sports and not jealousy, but... that wouldn't be true. Otherwise, Saeran wouldn't have snapped at Hartmann after the dressage with "apparently, your precious honorable Auguste is less honorable than you like to think" (and they were immediately snapped at in response, so that was... not the brightest two days in their relationship until Saeran cooled off and apologized).

[adelar-ward]

Hi! Could you upload Heir to Love and Lies Sprites? Or just Sergio's?

I know getting sprites aren't easy so It's alright if you're not able to do it. They have a lot of different wardrobe too so it might be difficult to upload them all, but I'd really appreciate it if you could, it would help me make more accurate fanart. Thank you!💕💕

Sergio it is! Even though i can't really understand why sprites are needed for making accurate fanart, you could just look at screenshots for that purpose...

The artist is Ria Martinez, sprites belong to Nix Hydra, please use them responsibly!

[adelar-ward]

Oh i've just written a scene with Valerius that i loved soooo much i want to scream just thinking of it! I enjoyed writing it, and i enjoy re-reading it. So happy with myself (especially after i figured out the reason for it to take place to start with, lol). It's a scene for Val and Caleb but i think it would look great in route.

[adelar-ward]

August Spears

Ok so i created August Spears from MeChat and i really like how he turned out!

He's not my fav character or storyline tbh, in fact, i was kinda mad at the stupidity of the situation and cold with him all the time (it was so weird to speed boost his chat with phrases like "my heart hurts without you" right after telling him he can fuck off and our marriage doesn't mean shit, lmao).

But he was easy to create in sims (unlike Levi!) and turned out cute.

Awwww i was protected by mod! Feels nice.

[adelar-ward]

Could you upload the CGs? If it would be too much to upload them from every story, could you do them for Nicky, Celia and Miguel? Thank you in advance 🥰

Okay, so i started doubting myself at some point - CG are these, right? Not backgrounds.

Here, have Nicky.

CGs belong to Nix Hydra.