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祝日 / Permanent Vacation
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@adhdstories
Here's a thought: we all know the "chosen one" trope is getting old, but how many of us hyperfixated on those stories as kids because we were undiagnosed with ADHD or autism and knew we were different and wanted to believe that meant we were special?
*pauses mid-sentence as the little hamster that lives in my brain abruptly gets off the hamster wheel to go drink water from it's little upside down water bottle*
*Stops mid action as the cat controlling my actions via a keyboard Bluetooth connected to my brain has a long stretch*
*grinds to a hault mid thought as the crow picking words to say from a bowl notices something shiny in the corner of my head room*
#*forgets a word because the little mice in my head have all got to talking amongst themselves*
*forgets what I was doing or saying because the potato battery powering my thoughts got eaten by birds again*
If y’all have ever shared memes n stuff about being a Weird Little Girl, I hope that includes support of autistic girls with “cringy” special interests, and loud, ‘annoying’ girls with adhd, and neurodivergent girls with ‘weird’ stims and who are socially awkward, because those girls are awesome and being a Weird Little Girl isn’t just about playing in the mud and having complex plotlines for your pretend games
Me: *sees weird little girl post that talks about making potions from backyard plants, and remembers that I did that*
Me: Ah!
Me: *remembers that I also meowed at people and had a period of like 2 years where Lewis and Clark was the only subject I ever talked about*
Me: Hmm...
Weird little girls and also weird kids in middle school and high school, who still wear cat ears at 16 and exclusively talk about the structural color of chameleons for too long
I aspire to one day wholeheartedly reject cringe culture
Also hey does anyone wanna hear about how chameleons change color??
Tell us about the chameleons 👀
Hi, yes, I am here for the chameleon colours please
Ok so chameleons are REALLY weird - if you zoom in on their skin, they don’t actually have any color, instead they have a grid of little reflector cells, spaced ~500 nm apart, like this:
When light comes in that has the same wavelength as that spacing (in this case blue light, with a wavelength of 500 nm), it bounces off these reflector cells at exactly the right distance to line up with all the other blue light coming in. This line-up is called constructive interference, and it means that we see this blue light very intensely!
All the other colors, however, with different wavelengths, don’t line up nicely and just end up mucking each other up (this is destructive interference), and so we don’t see these colors bouncing off the chameleon at all.
Because the chameleon is bouncing back blue light intensely and nothing else, it looks blue to us, even though it really isn’t.
But then the thing that blows my mind: When a chameleon wants to change color, it just... stretches its skin out? Kind of like flexing a muscle? And that changes the spacing of those little reflector cells, to maybe 700 nm apart. At this new distance, the blue light doesn’t line up nicely any more and gets mucked up, but red light (wavelength 700 nm) lines up perfectly, and suddenly the chameleons looks red to us.
Like??? Imagine you’re angry at someone so you flex all your muscles as hard as you can and turn a WHOLE NEW COLOR in the process. What the FUCK!!
Anyway blue eyes in humans work the same way, you don’t have any blue pigment in there, there are just reflectors spaced apart to reflect blue light!
This hurts my brain, but in a good way.
I’d just like to say that I have tutored science for 20 years, and I have never seen Constructive Interference of Waveforms described or illustrated so well as these diagrams
i think it’s really important for abled leftists to be conscious of how they frame issues that specifically affect chronically ill and disabled folks. i’m not gonna get into like, how a lot of leftist utopia fantasies see “eradicating disability” as a good thing because others have already talked about that better than i can, but i mean more like with things like how pollution is the fault of corporations, not individuals, and individual lifestyle changes aren’t enough to reverse climate damage or prevent climate disaster.
idk i’m just thinking about how the campus i’ve been working at this summer has signs by every elevator about how you should take the stairs to conserve electricity, and signs by the drink machines with photos of sea turtles that say how they don’t offer plastic straws because of ocean pollution, and how i’ve been repeating to myself all summer you are not just a drain on the earth’s resources, you deserve to exist, and how fucking angry that makes me.
and i know a lot of leftists point out how those kind of things aren’t much better than platitudes when we should be focusing on action against the fossil fuel industry, but i feel like a lot of conversations about that just totally ignore how environmental guilt is absolutely crushing so many disabled people’s spirits and sense of worth in an already ableist society.
i guess i just wanna say that like, if you ate off of a styrofoam plate today because you didn’t have the energy to wash dishes, i’m so glad you ate. if you threw recyclables in the trash because the recycling bin is on the other side of the building and you couldn’t walk far enough to make two trips, i’m so proud of you for keeping your space clean. if you needed to use a plastic straw today, i’m so, so sorry for all the bullshit that’s been directed your way lately, and i’m so proud of you for enduring it.
if you use non-reusable diapers, if your medication requires a lot of packaging, if devices you need to stay alive are single-use, if your assistive devices use a lot of electricity, if you can’t take public transportation, i’m so glad you’re here, i’m so sorry this world wasn’t built for us, i’m so sorry we’ve been made into a scapegoat for corporate greed, i’m so sorry that most days it feels like no one is defending us.
Please remember that almost everyone around you is traumatized. I didn’t understand this when I was younger. I wondered why people acted so strangely and irrationally. Maybe all children wonder this. The author Robert Anton Wilson said (paraphrasing), “We have never seen a completely sane adult human.” No one makes it out of this life alive. It’s not their fault. Mercy, kindness, forgiving — these are what makes one human. They are other names for love. People break in the strangest of ways.
“Under the present brutal and primitive conditions on this planet, every person you meet should be regarded as one of the walking wounded. we have never seen a man or woman not slightly deranged by either anxiety or grief. we have never seen a totally sane human being." — Robert Anton Wilson
Chaotic academia is
1.) Intense obsessions that last maybe two weeks but consume your soul
2.) Spacing out in class but loving to learn
3.) Swearing and slang while discussing deep academic topics
I have been diagnosed with ADHD
a child with an undiagnosed mental illness: I think I need help. I struggle with things nobody else seems to be struggling with.
a parent who never got diagnosed for the exact same mental illness: Oh sweetie. EVERYONE struggles with that :)
Some thoughts I had talking myself out of getting an ADHD diagnosis:
“They’ll laugh at me & tell me I’m just lazy”
“I’ll probably just exaggerate and make them think I have ADHD”
“I just wasn’t trying hard enough”
“Others have it much worse, I’m just looking for an easy way out”
“I can manage if I really try (and am constantly burnt out)”
“I’m not hyperactive (shakes leg, chewing gum and can’t stop playing with earrings)”
“I just have to keep trying and I can become normal one day”
“I can focus sometimes, so clearly I’m just not trying all the time”
You don’t have to tolerate barely *surviving* life. You also deserve help so life isn’t that hard all the time
This ADHD and Autism Venn Diagram was requested even more highly than the ADHD and PTSD diagram, and I finally got round to making it…
I’m so glad this helped!! If anyone has anything else like this that they’d like me to make, then send an ask! I might not be able to help, but I’d like to try!
And yeah, I do have a Paypal; you’re so sweet! I’ll link it here.
[Image 1 ID: A venn diagram by @tfw-adhd with a dark brown left circle labeled ‘ADHD’ and a tan right circle labeled ‘Autism’.
ADHD: Impulsivity, short attention span, poor working memory, poor planning skills, time blindness, depression when understimulated, little sense of danger, making careless mistakes, no motivation for tasks you are not interested in.
Autism: Taking things very literally, having the same routine and getting anxious if it changes, being uncomfortable with making eye contact with others, liking to carefully plan things before they happen, not understanding social “rules”, noticing small details that others do not, getting upset when someone touches you, getting very anxious about social situations.
Overlapping area: Sensory issues, hyperfixations, stimming, auditory processing disorder, talking a lot, finding it hard to make friends, emotional dysregulation, interrupting conversations, rejection sensitive, lack of object permanence, executive dysfunction, sleep problems.
/End ID]
[Image 2 ID: Screenshot of @gl44zed‘s reply: “Thank you so much you don’t know how much I needed this. Do you have a PayPal so we can send you money for your work?”
/End ID]
Oh. OH. OH SHIT
What are some ways that you calm or ground yourself when you’re feeling anxious? I had a moment this morning that triggered my anxiety and sent me into a panic. The first things I needed were quiet and space, and I needed to cry. After that, I could think clearly enough to breathe and think about what else I needed. I didn’t write this one down, but being curious about what I’m feeling, why, and what I need has been helping me be more conscious the next time big emotions are triggered. #selfcare #selfhealing #staycurious #whatineed #selfsoothing #copingskillsfeelings #emotions #anxiety #adhd #triggers #dailydrawing #mentalhealth #comics https://www.instagram.com/p/B7OhTMCg5fI/?igshid=e7k9rwh0ql73
Anxiety pt 2. I wanted to upload all four pages at once but I didn’t have time to ink them all and I’m impatient. This visualization is inspired by a few different things - a meditation tape my mom gave me as a kid to help me sleep, a visualization surrounding myself in glowing blue light for when I was in pain, as well as a sleep meditation on the Stop Breathe Think app that has you imagine your whole body is made of light. Also the breathing flower gifs you find on the internet for anxiety. I find it a really soothing image to focus on. Do you picture anything to calm yourself when you’re anxious? What kind of imagery makes you feel at ease? #anxiety #healing #copingskills #meditation #visualization #breathing https://www.instagram.com/p/B7gZfQQA545/?igshid=83n4c9nh64e3
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having undiagnosed adhd
Yes but it’s cute
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I don’t think ‘cute’ is the right term to use here…
Is it weird to hyper focus on things that are your own creation. Like I info dump as if my characters were in a tv show. And usually tv shows/ cartoons are my special interest, but is it weird for that to be something that’s only in my imagination????
Nope, its not weird at all! A really common hyperfixation is original creations like characters. I’ve had it, and most of my friends with ADHD who have OCs have had it as their hyperfixation at one point.
Adhd culture is being labeled a “problem child”
Or the “gifted child” but never an inbetween
“Xx is doing very well academically but would be a better student if they talked less in classed and focused more on their work/ getting their assessments done on time…”
~ every school report I ever had
when i finally become self-confident and dress how i want and feel happy with how i look and can talk without stammering or making no sense it’s over for you bitches
One of my many daily struggles from “living with” Anxiety
I laughed way too hard at this
