Wish I could cry

Dutch girl 20 depressed. Just here to say what I will never say or show in real life

[adiaalyssa-blog]

I don't want to die, I think, but I can't fucking take this anymore, I feel like I tried everything but nothing seems to work

[painasylum-deactivated20170205]

[adiaalyssa-blog]

I thought I had finally won the battle, but I keep forgetting this is a war. So here I lie again in the dark with even darker thoughts and red painted wrists.

[depressionarmy]

[wordsnquotes]

I am homesick for a place I am not sure even exists. One where my heart is full. My body loved. And my soul understood.

Melissa Cox (via wordsnquotes)

[siickangel]

[lonelywar]

[timencircles]

[hate-loveme1-deactivated2016092]

[wordsnquotes]

I became good at pretending. I became so good that after a while the lines blurred between my truth and fiction. And sometimes, when I did a really good job of pretending, I even fooled myself.

Ruta Sepetys, Salt to the Sea (via wordsnquotes)

[wordscanbeenough]

You are slowly killing yourself in ways that go unnoticed.

wtm - wordscanbeenough (via rl-y)

[utterlydisordered]

Days clean: 0

[wnq-writers]

She has become such a lonely person. She over-thinks; she is too curious; she is anxious. It almost kills her. Over time she has figured out a way she can quieten down her emotions and just feel nothing for a while. Other times it overwhelms her and she feels everything. I do not know what is worse, to feel absolutely nothing or to feel everything completely.

RayWritess  (via wnq-writers)

[adiaalyssa-blog]

"OK, you're so depressed, you're gonna kill yourself. It's, like, yeah, we've all been there. But then you actually do it. Right? You try it... twice. And you still fuck it up. You're gonna realize you're such a loser... you can't even get it right on the second try."

Manic (2001)

[0nly-an-illusi0n]

[adiaalyssa-blog]

I can't fucking do this anymore

[lie-smile-repeat]