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@gals-s I miss you

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Hey Mac make sure you eat today

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sometimes jenny says think that bother me but I don't want to pick a fight so I just brush it off cause she doesn't mean to hurt me on purpose

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jenny deserves someone better someone with not that many issues sometimes i feel like im holding her back, i dont tell her im sad that much because she already deals with a lot from me so she doesnt need more

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i always tell myself “its okay to not be okay, because you aren’t okay” but now the only thing ive told myself is “you’re depressed thats why you’re feeling like this” i used to be real sad in high school but now its on a another level

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as shitty as it sounds i hate seeing my friends make plans, like its different now because before i could ask and now i cant so im just sad most of the time, i cant even participate in the conversation anymore

[lisamar1exo]

The vest saved my life 

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somehow whenever Mac and I talk we mention us eating, talking about my gf, them saying im gay, me saying bi, and somehow always turns out to me telling them to kill me or hurt me in some way

I love these conversations

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I would really be happy if Alex gets a girlfriend sometime soon, I need that 

[the-memedaddy]

meirl

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i think one my friendships has tension between us so idk how it would be know, idk how to fix tension, im pretty sure shes talking shit about me to sarah or something and of course idk anything, or im just overthinking and assuming everything so yeah

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one thing i hate is that jenny doesnt tell me things beforehand, like she’ll tell the groupchat and i’ll find out through there, it makes me feel less important, like if i truly am important like an important person in her life i should know things before friends, but im sure her og math group knows stuff before i even know. so point is, i sometimes feel like jenny doesnt think im so important and that im just another friends like not a girlfriend

[merluca-daily]

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I cant handle myself and what I want I cant find

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Things Jenny doesn’t know

-how much it pains me to talk to her when shes with friends (I don't want to take her away from them to care about me)

-my anger issues have increased so much more than I tell her

-I wanna go back to my old ways

-I punch a punching bag till my knuckles are red to feel pain

-I have a bruise on my knuckles because I somehow hurt myself by punching the bag

-we have plans to maybe meet next week but I wanna cancel because I feel so depressed but of course im not going to tell her that

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I also stop telling Jenny things now because I just feel like I bring in so much sadness and she doesn’t need that in her life, idk how shes still with me, I would’ve gave up on me a long time ago but now shes still here by my side and I appreciate that

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I've been crying so much the last days, and I got my period this morning so me crying could be that but I fail to admit to that, cause my life is miserable right now so im sure im crying because of miserable things that are happening to me