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Note to self

i deserve to be fucking killed for being such a fat pig. hope i die except i dont want to die fat. so fucking tired of binging like some animal. no more. i will not be obese anymore i cant do it im going to end up killing myself from the shame of being a blob

luxbunn

!!!

so happy it was so easyyy

ignoranceplayedgod

idc she was so right about this and i stand by this

wnnabetiny

I don't wanna be skinny in a "🐇🍓🩰🧸" way, I wanna be skinny in a "🦇🕸🦴☠️" way.

skipped dinner so now it fits 🗣🗣 fuck binges all my homies hate binges im so glad i could skip dinner today (and yesterday thank god) to balance it back out. if i havent dropped any weight after these two weeks in particular im gonna cry bc i've been so good with restricting

had a great day yesterday, totally fucked it up today 😭😭😭😭 gonna have to fast tomorrow to catch back up fml

starvingxinxparades

problems of anas starting at an actual obese weight

-your lowest weight is other peoples highest.

-people never noticing that you don’t eat due to your weight.

-ACTUALLY being medically fat, not just feeling fat.

-having legitimate problems working out (knees can’t handle all the weight, asthma, etc)

-”you probably shouldn’t eat that, should you?” when taking your first bite of a remotely unhealthy food in MONTHS.

-losing over 70lbs and still not be close to ‘thin’.

-thinner anas looking down on you because you’re not skinny enough. (actually happened)

-thinner anas telling you to ‘stop starving yourself’ or ‘turn back before you get sick’ when you’ve actually been doing this longer than them.

-MORE SIDE EFFECTS!

-being petty and offended when people half your size call themselves fat in front of you, well knowing you weigh twice as much as them. (this is a personal problem but still)

-actually being happy to be at a NORMAL weight for once.

-”MY BMI IS FINALLY UNDER 25!”

-lower chances of actually hitting your ugw because your body literally can’t lose more.

-LOOSE SKIN. L O T S OF IT.

-knowing you’ve lost more than most of the fellow anas, but not being able to talk about it because your cw isn’t low enough just yet.

so shoutout to all the bigger people with anorexic tendencies, because they deserve way more. because they’ve gone through this pain for so long without enough recognition. because within the ana community, they’re often not even acknowledged. because THEY ARE VALID TOO.

i started at over 250lbs and hit my first plateau at 149, so i do have a right to complain, thank you very much. (i’m just over 5′4. just imagine.)

bedbitched

YES

beaumeetsana

SO FUCKING TIRED OF HAVING NASTY ASS STOMACH ROLLS WHEN I SIT DOWN.

TIRED OF MY FATTY THIGHS TOUCHING.

FUCK FOOD. FUCK FAT.

jodiefoster

me @ me 24/7: are we really doing this rn

ohnogloomy

“You attract what you fear” AHHH I’m so scared of losing 30lbs ahhhhh scary help

caloriecarnage

205 → 120 / 5’6

I recently found the motivation to make a new account after being deleted 6 months ago, and it feels SO good to be back. I’ve missed the comfort within this community. In an attempt to reconnect with people after having my account terminated, I figured I’d share my most popular post.

At the time of writing this, I’m almost an entire 10 pounds heavier than I was in this picture, but that’s what I’m here for! I worked so hard to get to that weight and I refuse to let myself lose my progress.

Stay safe and take care of yourselves! 🩶

EDIT: I can’t respond to comments on this post but I answered most questions on my recent post!