erratic thoughts journal

This is basically stream of consciousness thought cataloguing. I talk about my bipolar disorder, adhd, trichotillomania, dermatillomania, anxiety, and other thoughts I have (like on my gender and sexuality). I'm also ISFx (and a cancer). I like following other people with the same issues, but this is a side blog so I'll follow you back from my main tumblr. my tags: bipolar anxiety adhd trichotillomania depression symbyax vyvanse sexuality relationships gender weed school work

[thatbipolarfeelwhen]

that bipolar feel when you cannot understand the concept of “just because i have money doesn’t mean i have to spend it”

[adramaticbipolar]

i kinda wanna seperate this account from my regular tumblr ive had for like a decade now. i wanna be able to like things from this account and connect with people in that way. but i dont wanna lose all the journaling and shit ive already done. uuuuuuuugh idk

[adramaticbipolar]

im so fucking hungry but the thought of having to put food in my mouth, chew it, swallow it, digest it....makes me want to vomit before i even touch the food. taking vyvanse doesnt help either.

[woodmeat]

Please brain

Can i have some serotonin??

[d-e-l-ete-d-deactivated20181014]

My brain:

[insomniac-arrest]

me, doing things that are supposed to improve my mental health:

the brain cell in charge of serotonin n’junk:

[adramaticbipolar]

Tfw the vyvanse kicks in right before you fall into an anxiety nap

[potatogorl-deactivated20160408]

being emotionally abused has made me incredibly defensive towards being told what to do, but at the same time has made it hard for me to do things without someone telling me that it’s ok to do out if fear of doing something wrong and getting in trouble

[adramaticbipolar]

I’m moving in like 4 days and still have so much to pack, I am SO ANXIOUS!!!!!

[squeezingparrots]

The most relatable tweet

[adramaticbipolar]

i have to move in a week and i am SO STRESSED!!!!!!!!

[chamomile-bpd]

my kink is having my mental illness validated by my psychiatrist

[dankassmemelord]

[adramaticbipolar]

Tfw you’ve been off your vyvanse for a couple months

And you finally get more, but at the mg you’d worked up to before (60mg) and your doctor says “you might be a little hyper but you can take it anyways”

So you do and now you’re TOO focused and now you’re too anxious and you feel like a crazy squirrel

[adeles]

#when someone asks me how life’s going

[disceautdiscede]

I am myself. That is not enough.

Sylvia Plath, from The Jailer (via recommendedreadingroom)

[sandandglass]

[determined-mind-deactivated2025]

[girlwhorpsalot]

I needed this.

[mentalmentalhealth]

Thank you to all the people who posted this so I ended up seeing it. I really needed this right now. Thank you!