Just need to vent it all out really quick. It’s a lot.
While Stephen was in Mexico I found mold in the bathroom, yesterday Stephen started taking the base boards off and cut out some of the dry wall, we found out it’s coming from the kitchen. Couldn’t look behind the shower, which is butted up again the kitchen sink, but I’m assuming it’s even worse there. We have to gut the bathroom and the kitchen, which we needed to do anyways, but didn’t plan on it this soon. We might have to move out for a little while since we won’t have a bathroom or a kitchen sink.
Buckle’s cancer surgery was successful, but another unexpected cost. Peppers ears are still a problem, and every night is a battle to give him his drops. Poor Stephen is scratched to hell and poor Pepper has been dealing with this shit his whole life.
My pinched nerve is STILL bothering me, it’s on and off but never 100%, my other side is starting to bother me too. I feel like I’m falling apart with my knee still bothering me, dealing with constant sinus and ear issues, and now dealing with a fucked up foot from pots that didn’t get put on the shelf properly. I’m tired of having to stop and not do what needs to get done because I’m hurting.
With all of this going on, I have to go back to work. I don’t really want to, even though I’m excited to be back on the road and camping, but we need money and I can make some big amounts fast. If I can get hired for Electric I might keep going after roo, if not I’ll try to find some gigs in state or maybe go back up north, maybe head west, idk.
It all depends on how my car is doing, which right now isn’t great. I’ve been having so many issues, plus the wheel is fucked up from the accident last month. Just something else to worry about.
I’m bummed I have to put the studio on the back burner again. I’m bummed I couldn’t juggle the studio and taking care of the house and the fam with more grace. I’m just feeling down about myself and how everything has gone and is currently going.
Plus the studio is trashed, I started doing a major reorganization and made an even bigger mess since I thought I was going to be able to get new work benches but the mold takes priority. I’ve been avoiding that room and haven’t made anything since Stephens trip. Which bums me out even more but every time I open the door it jsut stresses me out.
I’m just feeling unmotivated and stressed.
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