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FUCKING AEMOND SPEAKING HIGH VALYRIAN

like im supposed to be scared or idk but im actually hrny

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hold it in my arms and know it's mine

aemond targaryen x female!lannister!reader oneshot

When your brother is stolen away by the newly arrived King Aemond, First of His Name, you ride to Storm's End to plead his case.

crossposted on ao3 masterlist content warning: explicit sexual content, piv sex, cunnilingus (f receiving), praise kink word count: 12.4k notes: i eventually keep my word!!! i promised this a million years ago and here it is! my dear beloved aemond as faegon au (: lannister!reader bc i have a brand and i must maintain it

On the ride from Riverrun to Storm’s End, you repeat all you know about Aemond Targaryen until it begins to ring in your ears even when you sleep.

Aemond Targaryen, the only son of Rhaegar Targaryen and Elia Martell. Aemond Targaryen, the heir to the heir of the Iron Throne during Robert’s Rebellion. Aemond Targaryen, the babe your father’s dog had smashed against the wall with his bare hands. Aemond Targaryen, the viscera that had coated Gregor Clegane’s hands as he had raped Elia Martell. Aemond Targaryen, the littlest of the bundles that had been presented to Robert Baratheon, the littlest of the ghosts to haunt your eldest half-brother.

Aemond Targaryen, the dead prince.

Dead. Dead. Dead.

Until he had come from the East, atop a dragon, and rooted Mace Tyrell’s army from its perch in Storm’s End, claiming the first part of Westeros for himself.

There had been whispers about him before the dragon. His aunt was the main threat in the East with her three beasts but still - some would talk about the boy king that the Golden Company had sworn for, would whisper about the sole survivor of the slaughter at the hands of the Lannisters.

Unless the boy walks with a smashed-in skull, he’s a pretender being hoisted up by sellswords your uncle Kevan had insisted, his eyes dull with the memory of having been witness to the atrocities committed onto the Princess Elia and her children.

Then the dragon.

There had been no whispers about that - there had only been screams. The bards had written their songs, the smallfolk talked about the Targaryens being reborn, the dragons being brought back to bring peace to Westeros.

You hadn’t cared much even with that - you hadn’t had the time. With Jaime in the Riverlands and Tyrion lost to the winds, you bore the brunt of Cersei’s paranoia and your time was spent trying to help your uncle reign her in, trying your best to be the silk glove to your sister’s steel fist that threatened to punch right through what little power the Lannisters had left. You had sang a pretty song for the Tyrells, swearing your allegiance, swearing your house’s allegiance, offering your own hand in marriage up to use to tighten your alliance even further. You had tried to loosen the grip the Faith Militant had tightened on the city. You had soothed the worries of the court, trying to convince them that the Lannisters still had power and dominion in the capitol.

You had tried.

And you had failed.

The instant the Faith had seized your sister, Kevan had spirited you out of the city. You’re the last of Tywin’s blood, he had insisted. You and Jaime both. Ride to him. Find him. It is the only hope our House has left.

You had taken a host of Lannister men with you. Ostensibly, you were riding to provide your brother with more soldiers. In truth, you were fleeing, fleeing to the only man left who could provide you with the illusion of protection.

When you had arrived in Riverrun, you hadn’t found your brother. You had found your aunt.

And she told you Jaime had been taken.

Aemond Targaryen, it seemed, had claimed his first prize.

The letter came after. It declared that Aemond Targaryen, the first of his name, was the true king of the Seven Kingdoms. Tommen Baratheon was a bastard born of incest. Jaime Lannister would die for his crimes - both the crime of being a kingslayer and the crime of being Tywin Lannister’s son.

Unless you went to plead his case.

You’d have guest right. You wouldn’t be harmed. Aemond Targaryen swore that on the honor of one of his most trusted advisors.

Tyrion Lannister.

There had been little to decide after that. Aunt Genna had urged you to ignore his summons. If Tyrion really had joined up the new Dragon King, it’d be far more prudent for you to head to Casterly Rock. Cersei was tied to the throne, her claim dependent on her Baratheon marriage, her marriage contract having removed her from the line of inheritance. Jaime was sworn to the cloak. Tyrion was a kinslayer.

By all rights, the Rock was yours and, if you had any hope of pressing your claim, you’d return to your home and make your plans from there.

But you’re a fool. A silly little girl who still cries for her big brothers. A silly little girl who longs for her older sister to show her even a flash of affection. A silly little girl who will ride into the dragon’s mouth if it means she has even half a chance of keeping her family alive a little while longer.

You are a fool.

But you will not be unprepared.

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You enter Storm's End feeling vaguely like a drowned cat. Your cloak hangs heavy on you, threatening to pull you straight down to the stone floor in a puddle composed of Lannister and fur. Next to you, your cousin, Ser Addam Marbrand, stamps his feet on the ground, muttering under his breath a choice string of curses as he throws a baleful glare at the guards that surround you in the entrance hall.

They're golden, laden in bangles and arm rings and silks, their armor itself glinting in the torchlight, casting the hall in a shimmery glow. Fitting, you suppose, for an army of mercenaries named the Golden Company.

It's naked wealth and you wrinkle your nose at the sight of it. You are, after all, something of an expert on the subject and even this pushes at your delicate sensibilities.

"My lady," a man says as he approaches, bowing his head. He's tall, towering over you, with a clear warrior's build that hints at the strength in his body. Even his hair, ridiculous as it is with red roots and faded blue at the strands, does little to diminish his presence. "On behalf of His Grace, Aemond Targaryen, I welcome you to Storm's End."

You nod slowly, scanning his body, eyeing the sword he carries on his hip. Carefully, you straighten up, trying to claim every inch of your height even if it pales next to him. "I thank you, Lord…"

"Connington. Lord Jon Connington."

Prince Rhaegar's friend. Following Robert's rebellion against the crown, Aerys had named him his Hand— a gift he promptly squandered during the Battle of the Bells. Last you heard, he had drank himself to death in Essos for the shame of having failed his prince and his king.

And yet…

You smile faintly, curling your fingers around the edges of your soaked cloak to pull it closer to yourself. "Funny how life works, my lord. Here you are again. Surviving under another Targaryen King. Has this one named you Hand as well?"

Connington's lips press together in a grim line. He doesn't like you. The feeling, you want to assure him, is more than mutual. "No, Lady Lannister, he has not. He's named your brother that honor."

"How fitting," you murmur. "I always felt that dear Jaime deserves more than a white cloak. Unless, of course, you mean my kinslayer brother. Tyrion's more than clever enough for it, I assure you, but I'm sure you're well aware of both my brothers' records with kings. I'm one behind as I see it."

"Is that a threat, my lady?" Connington asks and, all around him, the Golden Company reaches for their swords, their bangles jingling as they do. Behind you, Ser Marbrand stiffens, his own hand flying to his weapon.

You shake your head, smiling still. "There would have to be a king here, I fear, for me to get such a chance. As I see it, me and my brothers are the only ones with royal blood. My dear nephew, King Tommen, rules in King's Landing. No, I am here to see Aemond Targaryen and negotiate Ser Jaime Lannister's release. I am Lady of Casterly Rock. He is under my protection."

"He's facing the block for his crimes."

"Whatever he stands accused for, it does not change that he's a member of House Lannister. I'd be a poor Lady if I allowed such a thing to occur unmet." You glance behind him, at the meek servant girl carrying a plate of salt and bread. "Your lord will honor guest rights, I assume. The armies of the Westerlands are prepared to move to action if not."

"Tyrion has sworn you will receive it," Connington grinds out, looking as if he's growing less and less inclined to offer it to you, even as he gestures the servant forward. "Even if it means little and less to the daughter of Tywin Lannister."

You grimace, reaching for the chunk of bread, quietly motioning Addam to move up to his collect his own piece. "That was the Walder Frey's dirty work, my lord. Robb Stark hurt his pride by scorning his daughter. The old lecher wanted his pound of flesh for the insult. The Red Wedding bears his awful signature."

And yet, your father's mark is written all over it.

You know the truth of it. Lord Walder Frey is a cradle-robbing pervert, a disgusting old man who made more eye contact with your chest than he ever had with your eyes when you first met him at four-and-ten.

But he is a craven. A cowardly craven who would prefer to stew over perceived insults than rise to action over them. He is not nearly bold enough to slaughter the Starks and their vassals at a wedding.

But Tywin Lannister is.

Was, now, you suppose.

You bite into the bread, the salt heavy on your tongue. Next to you, Addam does the same. It's a poor shield, especially after your father had blast it to shreds at the Twins, but it is a shield nonetheless. Even a flimsy one is better than none at all.

"The King and his Hand wait for you in the throne room," Connington says, his eyes looking over the pair of you with barely concealed disdain.

As he leads you through the halls of Storm's End, Addam catches up to you, ducking slightly to meet your ear.

"My lady, can we trust Tyrion to protect you?" He whispers, uncaring that as he does, every single guard eyes him with open suspicion. "He killed Lord Tywin in cold blood. Who's to say he won't do the same to you to garner trust with his dragonlord?"

"He's my brother," you say, a knot tight in your chest. "He taught me how to read. He will keep me safe. He will."

You wish you were confident. Tyrion had always been the easiest of your siblings. Jaime and Cersei had always felt far away in King's Landing. When you had moved to the capital, they'd been distant even if Jaime would try to bridge the gap. But Tyrion? Tyrion was always there, making you laugh, comforting you when your Father had snapped at you, encouraging you to be a bigger voice and presence in the court. He'd been your best friend. When he'd been accused of killing Joffrey, you'd stood for him, even if it had only resulted in Cersei's furious rage finding its target in you.

But then he had killed your father.

Tywin Lannister wasn't a comforting man. He wasn't even a good man. Truthfully, sometimes, you felt like he regretted ever having you. You hadn't been the male heir he needed after Jaime joined the Kingsguard. You'd been the daughter of a woman who wasn't Joanna Lannister and that was all he really needed to write you off.

But he'd been your father. Yours. Your mother had died in labor. Tyrion had cared for you since childhood, yes, but he was your older brother. Tywin was your father. You'd loved him with a desperate force, hungered for the rare times he had praised you, fought and pined for his approval.

And Tyrion had shot him on the privy after you and Jaime had freed him.

You sigh, tightening your fingers into a fist at your side.

You would free Tyrion again. You would always choose to free him.

You just wish he would have spared you the pain of being an orphan.

The throne room rises up fast, the hallway opening up to a massive room. It's nothing like the opulence of the Iron Throne, especially after your sister had had her way with it. It's cold, stark, looking as if it's been carved out of stone and built for war. It's cavernous, each footstep of yours echoing in the silence, ringing in your head like a funeral bell.

Tyrion stands at the foot of the throne, his hands held tight in front of him. He looks stressed and overwrought, staring at you as if the mere sight of you hurts him. You want to run to him, fall onto your knees and throw you arms around him and feel like a little girl seeking comfort. You want to hit him, want to dig your nails at him and tear at him, wail and beg and ask why he had hurt you so deeply when you had only ever tried to love him.

You turn away from him, unwilling to decide yet what to do with him.

And there, on the stone throne, Aemond Targaryen waits.

He's lean and graceful, long silver hair falling free around his face, sheets like silk framing his features. He's dressed in black leathers — riding clothes you realize — with a sword on his hip and he stands tall at the throne, not sitting like you had expected. It, somehow, is far more intimidating. It shows he's a man of action, that if you anger him, he'll just as easily run down to tear into you rather than ordering one of his men to do it for him.

He's pretty.

You wish you didn't notice. You wish he was ugly.

But he's so painfully pretty it'd be impossible not to notice. His features are fine and delicate, as if carved out of stone by a mason's steady hand. His thin lips curl up into a perpetual smirk, smug in a way that would infuriate you if it wasn't so damningly attractive. A scar cuts through his face, over an eye, leaving it narrowed in an eternal glare.

You hate him, you decide. Which, admittedly, isn't the best option for your negotiations but it's the one you've landed on. How dare he look that good when you've already decided to hate him for eternity?

"My prince," you say as you bow, deciding to make your stance clear. He is no king — not while your bastard nephew rules. "Welcome to Westeros. I hope you've found our courtesy welcoming."

He smiles. "It was courteous enough, my lady. Mace Tyrell was happy enough to see me. Until, of course, he met my lady Visenya. He didn't much seem to enjoy that."

Mace Tyrell had been fed to his dragon if the rumors are to be believed.

You return his smile, refusing to let him see you flinch. "A plentiful meal, I'm sure. Perhaps sour and overripe but filling nonetheless."

Aemond laughs, loud and sharp, and he settles into his throne, spreading his legs wide as if to take up as much room as possible. He sinks into the throne as if it were a plush bed, resting easy. Your mind, without your permission, inserts his image onto the Iron Throne. He'd suit it — far more than your sweet nephew with his round cheeks and bright eyes. "She did enjoy the feast. I'm not yet sure if she'd enjoy lion."

You laugh. "We're notoriously tough, my prince. A bit stingy. Surely not a sumptuous meal by any means."

"Seems plenty sumptuous to me," he hums, eyes roaming over you shamelessly. "Any dragon would love to make a meal of you."

Heat explodes over your body and you shift in place, pulling your cloak tight against you again. You've been flirted with before, of course you have, but never by a man like this. You expect bugs to explode over your skin, to feel the familiar nasty, dirty feeling of a man looking at you and trying to find your shape underneath your clothes.

It doesn't come.

Instead you feel warm, overheated. You want to take your cloak off. You want to take your gown off.

Surely this is Targaryen magic. Surely this is some spell he's brought over from the East. It cannot possibly be him.

Behind you, Connington clears his throat. "She's come to negotiate for the release of the Kingslayer, Your Grace."

A cold shiver brings you back to Earth and you straighten up. "Ser Jaime Lannister falls under the domain of the Westerlands. He falls to me. I ask you release him to my own judgment. Any punishment should be dispensed by the Lady of Casterly Rock. Not by a Prince of Dragonstone."

"A king, my lady. And your brother, if I recall correctly, is sworn to the throne. To my throne. Justice is mine," he drawls, voice hard and unyielding despite his almost lazy lounging.

You loosen your grip on your cloak, hands flying out in a pacifying motion. "Is it, my prince? My nephew Tommen holds the throne. He's given me the right to dispense my own judgment."

He raises a singular eyebrow. "Your nephew, yes. The Kingslayer's nephew, yes. But he is also the Kingslayer's son, is he not?"

"I'd thank you, my prince," you immediately shoot back, stiffening. "If you would not repeat Stannis Baratheon's lies. King Robert claimed him. He is trueborn. The matter has been settled. I, myself, look like my own mother rather than my father. Tommen is the same."

Another lie. You know the truth of Jaime and Cersei. You've always known the truth. Everything that everyone says about them is true.

But you will not admit it to these strangers,

He looks at you longer, his eyes boring into yours. Finally, his eyes flick over to Tyrion, who, unexpectedly, is utterly silent. Finally, Aemond speaks: "It is as you say, I suppose. I could hardly fault a sister coming to fight for her brother. I would do the same if my sister had survived your father's treachery."

You wince, looking down at your feet. It's impossible for you not to flinch at the mention. In your mind, you remember the few times Jaime had talked about Elia Martell and her children. He had seen Rhaenys's corpse, had seen how her little body had been destroyed by Amory Lorch. He had seen Aemond's, the little babe, how there had been nothing left of that sweet little child, or, at least, whatever babe had been in his place. It doesn't matter, you suppose. A dead babe is a dead babe.

"I am not my father," you say quietly, feeling your body chill and go cold. "I… I would not have allowed that happen. I do not hold you responsible for Aerys Targaryen's horrible crimes. I ask you to do the same to me."

It's as much as you're willing to say. Your father was cruel. He was cruel to his children and crueler to the rest of the world. He's alive still, you want to say. He lives in my mind, in the cruel voice that haunts my every move. He hates me and I hate him and I miss him more than I've ever missed anything else.

You say none of it. He doesn't deserve your pain. "It is as you say, my prince. I want my brother. I protect my brother. That is all I ask."

"Even after his crimes?" Tyrion asks, his voice loud in the quiet in the throne room.

You hate that the sound of it causes tears to rise up in your eyes. You've missed him. You've missed him so bad. "Even after everything, my lord," you reply, wishing your voice were stronger still. "He is my brother. He is my subject. He is mine to command."

"I am King," Aemond says, voice sharp enough to cut through you. "You are mine to command."

You shake your head. "You are not my king. I obey Tommen. I do not obey you."

Immediately his eyes flash and he rises back to his feet. He loams, tall even from your distance, and he stands firm at his throne. "Perhaps, my lady, Visenya should have a talk with you. She would love to explain your place in this kingdom."

"My place," you say, feeling your rage rise up inside your chest. "Is in Casterly Rock. I am Wardenness of the West. Even if you are a king, you will not cow me. King Loren Lannister bowed to three dragons. I will not bow to one."

He steps down from his throne, walking closer and closer to you. None of his guards move with him, thankfully, and he walks towards you. Behind him, you vaguely recognize Tyrion following in his wake but your eyes stay glued to him.

Finally, he stands in front of you. His eyes, you finally realize, are amethyst. They glow in the light. He's even more beautiful up close.

Your hatred grows at the observation.

"Not even to me?" He asks quietly.

"Not even to you," you reply just as soft. "I only want my brother. I will leave you in peace. The Westerlands will not declare war if you seek to claim the Iron Throne from underneath Tommen."

Aemond looks down at you, his eyes shining in the light, a hungry glint shining in their deep color. "What if I want more than peace?"

You take a deep breath. You had expected it. You had. It doesn't mean it is anymore easier.

"I am unmarried," you say after a moment, voice steady. "If you wish for my hand, I will give it. The Westerlands will fight for you. Most of the Crownlands, excepting King's Landing, will fight for you. I will help you claim Westeros."

Behind you, Connington scoffs. "He will marry his aunt, Daenerys Targaryen. He does not need an Usurper's dog to help him."

You roll your eyes. "His aunt will not have him. Prince Aemond's claim is stronger. If she marries him, she loses her right to the throne. Waiting for her hand in marriage is like waiting for the sun to rise in the west."

"Still," Tyrion says. "You offer little. The Westerlands do not even belong to you. I am Tywin's heir as much as he hated to admit it."

You shake your head, refusing to turn to answer him, keeping your eyes on Aemond's disarming gaze. "The Westerlands will not accept you. You are a kinslayer. The Gods themselves have abandoned you. I am Lady of Casterly Rock. I am Wardenness of the West. Aemond Targaryen, if he wishes to claim the throne, will not find a finer match than me. Sansa Stark is lost to the winds. Margaery Tyrell is already married to little Tommen. The Riverlands are burning as we speak and have no lady to offer to him. The Vale is mad with only a sickly boy to lead them and the less said about the Iron Islands the better. Dorne is already yours, my prince. I am the only who can bring you more power."

Aemond smiles, slow and snakelike. "I have plenty power. I have a dragon."

"Aye, you do," you agree easily. "So did Aegon the Conqueror and his wives. And then Rhaenys died in the deserts of Dorne. You have one dragon to their three. I can only bring you more power when that is what you sorely need to claim the Seven Kingdoms."

"And your brideprice, my lady?" Aemond asks. "What do you ask for?"

You want peace, you want to say. You want all these wars to end. You want Stannis Baratheon to freeze in the North. You want Euron Greyjoy to drown before he ever reaches Oldtown. You want Daenerys Targaryen to burn in the East and stay lost in the Dothraki deserts.

"I want my brother," you say instead. "I want my brother to stay safe and whole by my side."

"And your sister?"

When you were young, Cersei would allow you to stay in her room as she prepared herself for feasts. You would sit by her side and watch, eyes wide and hungry, as her maids carefully brushed makeup on her pretty features, as they pinned her curls up in beautiful styles. She was perfect, you had used to think. Completely and utterly perfect.

Two days before the Faith had taken her away, she had slapped you clean across the face in front of Margaery and her ladies. 'You are aiding Tyrion,' she had hissed, her features twisted in rage. 'Our crippled brother killed our father and you still help him. Traitor is too small of a word for you.'

You had cried. You had cried and the next morning, you had come to her door with wine and cheeses. She hadn't accepted you in but you had waited the entire day for her to do so. When you had finally abandoned your plan and slunk back to your room, you had prepared to spend the next day waiting for her again.

You had never gotten the chance to do so. The Faith had taken her before you had gotten the chance to try again.

"My sister," you say, wishing the words didn't feel like a dagger in your chest, "has made her bed. I will negotiate her surrender. I will beg for it. I do not expect her to listen but I will try nonetheless. My devotion, if you agree to my proposal, will belong to you."

Silence reigns in the throne room. Behind you, Addam shifts, his armor clinking, as if he expects to have to fight his way out of here to bring you to safety. You stay still, keeping your eyes solely on Aemond.

Finally, Tyrion speaks.

"She speaks the truth," he declares, voice steady. You don't look at him. You don't think you can bear the sight. "My sweet little sister is loyal. She always has been. She will fight for you if you just give her Jaime."

"Will her brother cuckold me like he did Robert?" He asks. His eyes roam your body, greedily digging underneath your cloak and your gown. The familiar itchy feeling never arrives.

You shake your head immediately. "No. No. He is my brother."

"That did not stop Cersei," Tyrion fires back.

"That will stop me," you hiss. The very thought makes you nauseous. "I will be loyal to my husband. I would never cuckold him, let alone with Jaime."

Again, there is quiet.

He shouldn't believe you. You are Tywin Lannister's daughter. You are Cersei Lannister's sister. You are, like everyone else in your family, an ugly, spiteful creature. No one should trust you. He should send you to the gallows or the block.

But Aemond Targaryen, beautiful creature that he is, does not.

"I will have you," he says even as Connington groans behind you in dismay. "You will be Queen of the Seven Kingdoms. You will be Lady of Casterly Rock. Our sons will rule after us."

"And my brother?" You ask, voice soft.

"Your brother," he replies. "Will walk you down the aisle."

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Jaime is, miraculously, none the worse for wear. He sits in a cell, dirty and dank, but, somehow, he is golden and beautiful as usual.

It angers you more than it should.

"I am to be married," you complain as you stare at him in his dank cell, fingers curled around the bars, wishing you had had the foresight to ask for the keys to his chains. "I am to be married to Aemond Targaryen and it is because you couldn't help but to be abducted."

"You'll have to forgive me, sweetling," he says in response, a smile playing on his lips. "They didn't exactly stop to ask me for my opinion."

You roll your eyes, wishing you weren't melting with relief at the sight of him. He's chained to the corner, covered in filth, and the smell of him makes you want to gag.

But he's your brother. He's your brother. He taught you how to ride a horse. When you were five years old, he had snuck you into a feast past your bedtime, leading you past your scowling father, smiling and laughing as you had bounced and cheered and danced.

Just seeing him makes you feel better.

"I am to marry King Aemond in a few short hours," you say after a moment, trying to make your tone light and airy. "Your sister will be Queen."

"Our sister is already Queen," he shoots back, quirking up an eyebrow, looking both vaguely amused and baffled by your declaration.

Tyrion snorts, the sound startling you. "Cersei is the Queen of Whores, mayhaps. Our sister, our youngest sister, will be Queen of Seven Kingdoms. We'd be so lucky."

It's almost embarrassing how fast you turn to stare at him. He stands at the entrance of the hallway, up the stairs, hands tucked behind his back, looking down at the pair of you as if you're dirt beneath his shoes. The sight of him angers you. The sight of him comforts you.

You choose your anger instead.

"This," you start quietly, your voice growing in both volume and aggression as you go. "Would have never happened if you hadn't killed our father. We'd be together if you hadn't been selfish."

"Selfish?" Tyrion scoffs, walking down the stairs to come and stand by your side, the two of you just in front of Jaime's cell. He's defensive, that much is clear, but his words, as harsh as they are, aren't angry with you. No, his ire seems to be directed at Jaime if the way he glowers at your older brother is any sign. "Selfish? You came in asking for just Jaime — Jaime of all things — and you walk away a future Queen. You cannot speak to me about selfish, little sister. You shouldn't have come in the first place. You should have gone straight to Casterly Rock to press your claim!"

"You asked me to come!" You burst out, feeling like you'll die if you don't say your piece. "I don't want to be Queen! I barely want to be Lady of Casterly Rock! I just… I wanted you two. I wanted you back. I wanted my family! But you both left me! You left me and now we're here! I have to marry a Targaryen, I have to be the Queen, because you two are fools!"

You want to swing on both of them, on Tyrion and Jaime both. You want to give them matching black eyes, tie your family together with injuries and pain if your blood isn't enough. You want to go home.

Instead, you stand there, in the dungeons of Storm's End, stewing in your anger and hatred.

Neither of them respond for a moment, just looking at you like they want to understand you.

They don't. Gods, you wished they did. Maybe all of this would be easier if they did. Maybe you would be happier.

"I did not think our aunt would let you out of her grasp," Tyrion says after a moment. "When Aemond first came up with the plan to avenge his grandsire, I agreed to send the letter because I… Foolishly, I thought you would stay with our aunt or, even, with Uncle Kevan in the capital. You… I did not want you involved in this. I wanted you safe in Casterly Rock with your claim to protect you."

"Casterly Rock is mine," you murmur, your voice cracking to your eternal shame. "After what you've done, Casterly Rock is mine and I… I would have traded it for you. It should be yours but it's fallen to me and I…"

No tears, you think. What would Tywin say if he saw you? You cannot shame him. You cannot. You are the Lady of Casterly Rock now. You are House Lannister's shield and sword alike. The legacy of Tywin Lannister, of all of House Lannister, lands on you now.

"It is done," you say after a moment, squeezing your eyes tightly closed, hating how your chest tightens at the words. "I am doing what I must to save and preserve our House - it is what Father would want by any means. We are now thrust in Aemond's war. And you two… And you two will stand by my side. My side. You will follow me as head of our House."

"I am Hand of the King," Tyrion reminds you, an edge to his voice now.

"And I will be his Queen," you shoot back, opening your eyes just as you can glare at him, hardening your heart as Tywin would want. "I will be Queen and if I wish, I will beg Aemond to give me your head as a wedding gift. A woman's embrace is warmer than your damned useless advice."

Tyrion doesn't reply, just looking back at you with sad eyes.

"You left me," you murmur quietly, swinging your gaze between the two of your brothers. "Both of you left me. I was alone. And now I am here and you both are here and now this is it. This is it."

"I had to fight a war, sweetling," Jaime murmurs from his spot in the cell. "I… I was fighting for Tommen's claim."

You shake your head, laughing, partially wishing you had never poked at this bruise, that you had just told them to prepare for the wedding and left to do your own preparations. "I told you not to go. Our forces were doing well enough without you and Cersei was already going mad and I needed you. But you went and fought for a claim that we all know is baseless because our sister kicked you out of her bed."

"Swee-"

"Enough," you cut Jaime off, fighting the urge to clap your hands over your ears like you had when you were a child and someone tried to give you bad news. "Enough. I… It doesn't matter anymore. It doesn't. In a few hours, I will be wed to Aemond Targaryen and we will follow a new King. That is the price I paid for us to survive. I've secured pardons and safety for Tommen, Myrcella, and Cersei if only they yield and renounce their claim to their throne. All you have to do now is stand by my side. That is all. I'm sure even the pair of you can manage that."

You spin on your heel, turning away from both, and heading up the stairs.

On your way out, you quietly whisper to a guard to unchain your brother and let him clean himself. It wouldn't do start your marriage with Jaime reeking of death.

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As a little girl, you had always imagined your wedding to happen in the Great Hall of Casterly Rock. It didn't make much sense — you'd likely be marrying out of the family and your wedding would be in whichever holding your father had seen fit to tie you to — but it was your girlish fantasy. In your dreams, all of your family would be there, your siblings would love you, your father would be proud of you, and your mother would be alive. It would be perfect and golden and you'd marry a man of honor that loved you with reckless abandon.

But that was a little girl's fantasies.

This is real life and in real life, you're standing just outside the Storm's End throne room while wearing a borrowed dress from the Baratheon ladies that used to live here. It's too tight around the chest and too loose around the stomach and the fabric is itchy against your skin. There is no maiden cloak to be had — not here — and there's not near enough time for you to even attempt to embroider one. In its place, you've borrowed a soldier's cloak, the Lannister sigil austere and small.

Jaime's washed, at least.

"You don't have to do this," Jaime tells you when you walk up to him. He's been scrubbed and shaved and all it does is highlight how gaunt he looks now, a distant memory of the golden figure of perfection he had been when you were a little girl.

You smile sadly. "Yes, we should just tell the Targaryen king and his dragon that I won't be his bride and leave him waiting at the altar. Surely, that would have no repercussions for our family's continued survival."

"That is not what I mean," he whispers back. "I want you safe. I want you happy. You are my little sister. You deserve more than marriage to a Targaryen whelp. You're the last good Lannister left to us."

You shake your head, looping your arm through his, holding him tight to you, resting your head on his arm for a moment. "Does such a thing exist? This isn't about deserve. This is just… This is what needs to be done for House Lannister. I do my duty. I've always done it."

He looks at you, his green eyes looking you over carefully, scanning for a crack in your armor. He's always done this, always cared for you. There was a time when you never felt safer than when you were in his presence. Nothing could hurt you if Jaime was there to protect you.

If only it were true.

The doors finally creak open and, without pomp and circumstance, Jaime begins to lead you in. It is a far cry from all the weddings you've attended in the past. There are no banners or flowers or musicians singing soft love songs and hymns. There are some soldiers watching, a few lords and ladies scattered throughout, but it is still the smallest wedding party you've ever seen. A septon waits at the foot of the throne, Tyrion and Jon Connington clustered to his right and Ser Addam at his left.

And there.

Aemond Targaryen stands, his back facing you. His silver hair falls straight down his back, held at bay with a careful twist of braids. He's changed, wearing a tunic and pants, and, somewhere in the back of your mind, you mourn the loss of the riding leathers. The sword remains at his side, its golden hilt gleaming in the dim light, the belt cinched tight at his waist.

Gods, it's insufferable.

All too soon, Jaime walks you up to him and, when the septon announces your approach, Aemond turns to receive the pair of you.

His eyes glint at you knowingly, a pleased smile resting easy on his face. He looks you up and down, taking in your frumpy dress and your mismatched cloak, and, somehow, finding it attractive if the way his tongue comes out to wet his lips is any indication.

And then, just like that, you pass over into Aemond's care.

The ceremony goes fast, leaving you feeling like you're not in your own body. You move through by instinct, barely aware of the words the septon is saying, let alone the words that you parrot back. At some point, Jaime comes up to unclasp your cloak and you quietly help him, saving him the embarrassment of fumbling with his one hand.

The blessed few moments when you stand free of any familial obligation — just you in a borrowed dress — go by too fast for you to truly enjoy.

With a dramatic flair, Aemond pins his cloak to your throat. You don't get much of a chance to look at it, to see what symbol if any are stitched on it, but it doesn't matter soon enough.

"With this kiss," he murmurs, voice low so only you and the septon have any hope of hearing. "I pledge my love, and take you for my Queen and wife."

"With this kiss," you whisper back. "I pledge my love, and take you for my King and husband."

The septon, his voice loud and clear, declares you to be one flesh, one heart, one soul, but you barely register him.

Because Aemond Targaryen is kissing you.

You've been kissed before. Once, as a small girl in Casterly Rock's gardens, you had kissed the steward's daughter, the two of you giggling relentlessly the entire time. In King's Landing, you'd kissed Tyrion's squire, a quick little peck, and had been all aglow about it even if he had been shipped off to the Riverlands with Jaime's lady knight the very next day.

But you've never been kissed like this.

Aemond kisses like he has something to prove, like it isn't enough to have already claimed you in the eyes of the Gods and Men. He has to claim you here and now. One hand settles on your waist as if it was always meant to find its way there while his other hand rests on your jaw, pulling you closer until you're molded to the front of his body, helpless to do anything but dig your fingers into his tunic to find some ground.

He pushes into your space, bending you backwards, and you kiss back just fiercely, feeling that fire from earlier erupt all over your body again, heating you up and burning you completely until you don't know where you are. You don't know anything except how good he feels and how you never want this to end.

But end it does and, when he pulls away, he presses his forehead up against yours, his breath warm across your face. Slowly, the rest of the world comes back into focus, the sound of the audience cheering and whistling coming back like a symphony of its own. You breathe heavy, your hands shaking, as you fight to find your own standing again.

Your eyes slowly open.

Aemond is already watching you, his amethyst eyes dark with desire and want.

You think he wants to say something, his eyes digging deep into yours, but he doesn't.

He just leans closer, pressing a kiss on your lips once more, this time gentle and sweet.

There is no grand feast like any normal wedding — not even a play at one. It's a simple dinner, you and your brothers with Aemond and his advisors, with all of you seated in a small dining room. There can be no big show of opulence, Aemond had told you as he lead you through the halls, not while his people were starving and dying in wars.

You had agreed with him, your mind flashing back to the bread riots in King's Landing when the smallfolk had seemed ready to eat the nobility if no relief came for them.

The dining room is almost painfully awkward in its silence. Jaime sits by your side, quiet and sullen, and, by Aemond's side, Tyrion isn't talking for once, drinking goblet after goblet of wine to the point the servant serving them is just stationed behind him. Connington, as expected, is stewing in his anger, shooting you glares as if he can make you vanish with his eyes alone.

That only leaves you and Aemond to carry the conversation.

And, well, Addam and Ser Harry Strickland of the Golden Company. Those two, at least, seem to be getting on like a house on fire, laughing and drinking, gossiping like a pair of old fishwives. They, somehow, make enough noise by themselves to fill up the small room, making it seem like a full feasting hall rather than a table full of unpleasantly unhappy people.

"At least someone is enjoying themselves," you grumble under your breath, shooting them a baleful glare.

"Strickland never misses a chance to remain seated," Aemond scoffs, making you jump slightly in nerves at the sound of his voice in your ear. "It's miracle he made it across the Narrow Sea in the first place."

You wrinkle your nose, bringing your wine glass up to your mouth to disguise it. Your eyes swing over to Strickland, to his portly shape and balding head. "It's a small miracle then, I suppose, that he managed to lead the Golden Company."

"It's politics, my lady," he responds, laughing slightly. "He's good at contracts, good at organizing men and managing logistics like housing and transportation. That's just as important as swinging a sword."

"So he's a steward," you hum, turning your gaze back on Aemond and all his amusement. "Still — hardly how I'd expect a Captain-general of the Golden Company to be. Bittersteel surely was not like that."

He thrums his fingers on the table, an endless beat for himself. "Bittersteel only loved war. Stewardship was a distant second for him — just a way for him to make more war."

"And you, my king? What do you love? Will you hunger for war or will you sue for peace?"

He doesn't respond, not right way. Aemond looks at you for a beat longer, breathing slowly as he thinks. Finally, he turns back to the table, reaching for his goblet, his rings clinking against the burnished gold as he does.

"Connington told me about my mother when I was four," he says quietly, his voice low enough that you have to strain to hear it. "He didn't know her very well, not like how he knew my father. But he told me of her kindness, of her grace, of how thankful she was to have me and my sister. And then he told me how the Mountain raped her with the blood of a tanner's son on his hands."

You stay quiet, thinking about Jaime and his guilt, thinking about the horror that had lingered in Uncle Kevan's eyes at the memory.

"I've heard they sent the Mountain's skull to Dorne, to my uncle Doran. It isn't enough. The Cleganes should have been ripped out root and stem, their lands salted and burned so nothing can grow, so it can be left as a reminder of their treachery." He leans in closer, his hair falling over his shoulder in a silky wave. "And your father, my sweet lady, should have met the same fate. Gregor Clegane is a dog and your father was holding the leash."

You smile, faintly and without much humor. There's nothing you can, or are willing, to say to defend Tywin. "My brother stole your revenge. And now Lord Tywin's daughter and heir will lie on her back for you."

A grin breaks out on his face, leaving him looking particularly rugged, more a mercenary than a king. "His daughter will do more than lie on her back for me. She will beg me for her pleasure. I hunger for vengeance, yes, my lady, but look at what allowing peace has brought me."

He snatches your hand, pulling it up to his mouth to press a kiss against your knuckles, holding it there against his lips.

You shiver, your mind fizzling out to nothing, as you meet his eyes. His gaze is half-lidded, lazy almost, as if he knows he has all the time in the world to look at you and take you in. It is far too intimate of a look to be had at a dinner, where your brothers sit on either side of you, but he's a king. Who would dare to scold him?

This close, the scar stands in more stark contrast, carving through his face in a treacherous path. It must have hurt, you realize as your brain slowly comes back to life, to have been hurt in such a way. Whoever it was would have needed to be close, far closer than any enemy would normally be.

You suck in a deep breath, pulling your hand away and looking back down at your plate, your hands fiddling with the fork at its side. "I am glad you're level headed, my king, in your approach to justice," you manage out, trying to calm your speeding heart. "My father and your grandsire ruled by fear and look how that ended out. You have to be better."

"We have to be better," Aemond shoots back. "You are my Queen now. I expect more out of you than birthing heirs and handing them to wetnurses. The greatest king in my House's past was Jaehaerys the Conciliator and Good Queen Alysanne was part of his strength. You'll be part of mine. You'll sit on the council with all the other advisors — with your own opinions and not just to parrot my own."

Coming into this marriage, you'd been prepared to argue for your right to speak, to invite Aemond into your bed repeatedly and often if it meant that he would grow to favor your council. Failing that, you'd been prepared to raise your sons and daughters with your own opinions in mind.

You hadn't been expecting to just be handed the power you craved.

You look over at him, searching for a hint of a lie in his face. He's a king, you wager, lying must come easy to him.

But there's no sign of it. He meets your eyes steadily, his breathing soft and regular, his face expression open in his honesty.

He means it, you realize. He actually means it.

"I might anger or frustrate you," you reply carefully. "You might not like what I have to say. I've fought with everyone in my life at least once or twice. We might make Jaehaerys and Alysanne's Quarrels look quaint."

He snorts, shaking his head. "Good. I hope we do. It'll mean you don't fear me, that you're strong enough to stand up to me and be your own person with your own mind, that you are honest. I will not suffer a weak or feeble Queen. I will not force you to be small nor shame you like my fath-" Aemond cuts himself off, leaning back in his seat as if his own words had been a slap across his face.

Elia Martell.

Rhaegar Targaryen had humiliated her, first by naming Lyanna Stark Queen of Love and Beauty and second by kidnapping Lyanna to take as a second bride, throwing his wife to the side. Elia was clever, Jaime had told you one night over dinner. Not that it had mattered much to Rhaegar and Aerys — her purpose had been to birth heirs and she had only given the Targaryens two children with only one of them being a boy.

It takes you a moment but you nod. "You'll have my opinions and my council," you promise, a small smile flickering on your face when his eyes jump up to meet yours. "Though you may eventually wish you had never asked."

You look at him for a while longer, at the boyish satisfaction that glows on his face. You know he's pretty — the Gods know he's pretty — but, in the candlelight, he looks… cute.

It makes your next move easy.

Easy as can be, your hand flies out to grab his, pulling him up to standing alongside you. "Well, my lords," you announce with as much cheer in your voice as you can conjure. "This has been a very lovely dinner with you all — honestly, we should do it more often — but my King and I would like to spend the rest of the night in our chambers. Discussing policy and the sort."

"Policy?" Tyrion asks, looking seconds away from becoming sick on the dinner table. "Discussing how the line of inheritance will continue from here on out?"

"Of course," you reply cheerfully, dragging behind you a stunned Aemond. "That falls under policy, does it not?"

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Your confidence quickly deserts you the further you get from the dining room. At some point, humiliatingly enough, Aemond notices you have absolute zero clue where you are and he openly laughs as he moves to pull you along, leading you towards where his chambers must be.

This is, also like the rest of your wedding night, completely at odds from what you expected of it since you were a child. You'd grown up hearing about beddings and, consequently, grown up being terrified of beddings. The idea of men pawing at you, leering and ogling, made you ill to your stomach but everyone always said it was to be expected. It was simply what was.

Cersei's own bedding had been relatively pleasant all things considered. You'd been a babe when she had been married to the newly-crowned Robert Baratheon but Jaime had kept her safe during it, delivering her to Robert's chambers with no one ever laying a single hand on her. Your various cousins from the endless branches of House Lannister, however, have not fared as well.

In all the weddings you've gone, more often than not, the women would end in tears when all the men would take advantage, pinching at them or groping as they stripped them of their clothes. The men would always yell obscenities; laughing with their friends about what they would do to the brides, wondering out loud if she would cry when her husband entered her, debating over how much she would bleed.

At eleven, you had hesitantly asked your father if you would have to go through one, if your future Lord Husband would allow you to forgo it.

Tywin didn't even dignify you with a response, waving you off and telling you to stop asking stupid questions.

In your most fantastical daydreams, you imagined someone giving you the courtesy Tyrion had given Sansa — when he had refused to allow the bedding and, more surprisingly, when Tywin had allowed him to do so.

You never quite imagined the bedding with a king and him allowing you to be so bold as to decide when it began.

Even with your bravery flailing and nerves appearing when he reaches his chambers and ushers you inside, you realize how much of blessing it is that you're here like this. Even if he is cruel like when wives and maids whisper about brutish men or if he's rough like the septas warn, you much rather it be like this — alone with him where you can lick your own wounds and hide your pain from your family and the court alike.

"Where will my chambers be?" You ask quietly as Aemond pulls the door open, leading you into a spacious room, lit and warmed by a blazing fireplace.

He shoots you a look as he moves to the jug of wine. "Here, my lady," he replies, his tone implying he's completely baffled you're asking, as he pours out a drink. "Were you expecting your own?"

You trail behind him, reaching for the goblet in his hand to take a long sip. "It is what is expected in Westeros, Your Grace."

"Aemond," he says, shaking his head as he grabs his drink back, eyes flashing at you over the rim. "Call me Aemond, my lady."

You look at him in the dim light with the fireplace throwing him into contrast. You've never called a man you weren't related to by their given names. Not even Tyrion's little squire — which was, likely, problematic seeing as now you couldn't remember it even though he had been your first, proper kiss. "Call me my name too, Aemond," you reply quietly, reaching for the goblet, letting your fingers curl around his. shivering at the heat radiating off of him.

He says your name quietly, trying it out on his tongue, savoring it like it is a delicious meal.

When he acts like that, you really can't control yourself.

You pull the goblet from his hand, fumbling for the table behind him, distantly aware of it crashing to the ground. Shaking only slightly, you reach for him, hands curling around his neck, and you push yourself up just as he leans down, one of his arms winding around your waist, pulling you into him.

Your lips meet in the middle.

It only takes you a moment to realize that he was actually holding back during the ceremony. He kisses you like he's starving, like he's leaving in the morning and he needs to burn this moment in his memory. You're adrift in him, clinging to him to stay afloat, and the fire that had tickled before sets you ablaze.

His tongue pushes into your mouth, the wet heat sending your head spinning when his tongue messages yours. Aemond's arm pulls you up, his arm other reaching below your bottom to tug you up, rucking your skirt up to your waist, pulling your legs tight around his torso, no room left between the two of you.

Your dress — your thrice-damned-Godawful dress — pulls tight around your chest, making you gasp into his mouth, the lack of air dizzying you even more until the only solid thing you can focus on is his mouth on yours, his body against yours. He pulls back for air, only a breath, but you whine, chasing his lips, so desperate for him that it doesn't even occur to you to worry whether or not you're being wanton.

"I had to have you," he whispers, breathing his words into your mouth, his breath mixing with yours in a way that shoots directly to your brain. "When you walked into the throne room looking you had swam through the Narrow Sea to get here, I knew I needed to have you."

You laugh, one hand coming up to play with his hair, inordinately satisfied to finally know how silky it really is. It feels like liquid silver in your hands, smooth and cool to the touch. "Was my king charmed by me?"

"You walked into the mouth of a dragon for your traitor brother," he hums, sending vibrations straight to your core. You can feel it, you realize with a growing sense of neediness, from your apex pressed against his stomach, only a thin layer of dampening fabric separating you. "And you didn't come to whimper or beg or seduce. Your first words to me were 'my prince' as if you didn't even fear dragonfire. You told me you wouldn't bow."

"I still wouldn't," you reply, tightening your grip on hair and pulling it back tight. His head jerks back, revealing the underside of his jaw, the threaded muscles of his neck. You lean in close, your tongue coming out to trace its way up the middle, tasting the saltiness of his skin. He groans, his grip on you tightening until it almost hurts, squeezing whatever air is still in you out.

"Good," he rasps out. "You should never bow to me. You should kneel."

"Kneel?" You ask, pressing your mouth against his throat, feeling his pulse jump and stutter underneath your lips. "What do you mean kne-"

Before you can finish your question, he moves, carrying you towards the bed, tossing you down with enough force you bounce slightly on the cushioned mattress. The lack of his body pressed against you leaves you shivering in the cold but, before you can think to complain or whine or even kick at him, he kneels on the hard floor, grabs your legs, yanking you to the edge of bed towards him and —

The first lick sends a sea of stars bursting behind your eyes and you keen, your back arching off the bed, your shoulders slamming into the mattress as your entire being is launched towards the heavens. You can't think suddenly, can't stop to even catch a breath, because he's licking your cunt, lapping at it like it's a meal and he's starving.

He's moved your smallclothes aside, the fabric digging into your inner thigh, but even the stretch of the cloth does nothing to bring you away from the heat building up in your core. Your quim is wet, dripping and sopping, and you can hear the sound of his tongue flicking out to taste the juices.

But then shame threatens to punch straight through your pleasure. Surely this is wrong. The septas had never mentioned this. Not even your brother with all his endless jokes and bawdry stories had ever hinted at something like this. The wetness must be wrong. You're failing him. You're failing.

Your hands flying down to grab at his head, curling your fingers in so you can pull at his hair to yank him off but, before you can, you feel his nimble fingers — those long damningly distracting fingers that he had adorned with golden rings and bands — come up to part your lips.

"Pretty," he breathes out, his fingers spreading you open and close as he peers into you. "As pretty as I thought."

"Aemond, what ar-" Your question breaks off into a sharp cry when one of his fingers suddenly pushes into you, pushing past your lips into your inner walls that no one has ever touched. He twists his wrist, pushing his finger in deeper, and his thumb comes up to press at the nub at the top of your cunt, his tongue flicking out to follow his touch, and you wail.

You've touched it before, rubbing at it in the darkest of nights where no one could see or hear your sin. It'd made you shiver before, your body shaking as you chased an impossible peak, but nothing else. You thought that is the extent of it.

It clearly is not.

You writhe, your fingers curling into his hair and yanking, your mind completely lost to the pleasure. He moans at the sensation, pushing in deeper, another finger joining his ministrations, this tongue swirling around the nub. Your body trembles at the sensation, suddenly desperate, feeling as if you're hurtling through the sky, fire pooling deep within you, concentrated in the bottom of your belly, and you whimper and cry out.

Your legs shake, scrambling to find purchase, wanting to clamp shut but Aemond's broad shoulders keep them spread wide. Underneath your bare thighs, you can feel the soft fabric of his tunic, feel the heat of his body scalding hot against your sensitive skin. It's all too much, it's not enough.

"Ae- Aem-" You mewl, unable to even think through his name. You're flying towards something, your mind too scattered to be aware of anything except his tongue.

And then his fingers curl and everything shatters.

You cry out, surely you must have, and the pleasure makes everything go white, stars bursting behind your eyes, leaving you blind to the world around you. For a precious few minutes, you float aimlessly, your body feeling limp and sated, an urge being satisfied that you've never felt.

Slowly, your awareness filters back, feeling and understanding trickling back in. You crack your eyes open — they're closed, when had you closed them? — in time to see Aemond straighten up, his hands hooked underneath his tunic as he pulls it off.

His body is slender and muscles, old scars littering across his chest, some old and faded and others more recent and raw. He's strong, seemingly forged out of steel, and his unscarred skin is smooth, looking deceptively soft. You've never seen a man like this before — never been in a situation where you would see a shirtless man — and your mouth goes dry as you look at him.

You feel utterly ridiculous like this, reclined on the bed with your skirt rucked up around your waist, your small clothes still shoved to the side. Your hair, surely, is tussled and messy and you have no doubt it's probably tangled by your mindless writhing. You push yourself up on your elbows, watching him, tracing his muscles with your eyes.

"Enjoying the view?" Aemond asks quietly, smiling when you jump slightly in surprise.

Yes. You want to say.

No. You want to lie.

Can you do it again? You want to beg.

Instead you push yourself up, hand gripping the bed posts to pull yourself to a standing position. He watches you, looking satisfied by the shake in your legs.

He's smiling until you reach up behind your neck, yanking on the tied strings on your back.

One disadvantage of not having ladies' maids with you on the road is that there is no one to help you dress, leaving you more often than not looking rumpled and messy.

One advantage is that you don't need anyone's help to disrobe.

Aemond watches, openly ravenous, as that awful dress falls off your shoulders, falling in a heap at your feet. Underneath it is a simple white shift. It sticks to your body, the cooling sweat on your body making parts of it near transparent, and Aemond's eyes linger on those spots like a fleeting touch.

You kick your dress away, hoping that it lands in the fireplace and burns up as it deserves. With more confidence than you truly feel, you reach underneath your shift, grabbing the edges of your smallclothes and pulling them down as well, throwing them to whatever corner of the room your gown is in.

You stand in front of him, gooseflesh pimpling your arms, more vulnerable than you've ever been, braver than you've ever been.

Just as he reaches for his trousers, yanking them down in a rush, you grab the edges of your shift, pulling it over your head.

The both of you are bare.

Predictably, your eyes drop down to his cock.

Abruptly, you understand all those bawdry jokes about swords and sheathes that men seemed obsessed with saying, about weasels and tunnels. You even understand your septa's old and tired metaphor about watering cans and flowers.

Your cheeks blaze at the thought, the heat spreading out through your chest, reaching inside of you, lighting up that increasingly familiar fire again. He steps forward and you step forward and for a moment, you think you'll crash into each other as you had earlier.

But you don't. His arms wrap around you tight, pulling you close by the waist, and your arms encircle his back, your hand splaying wide across his shoulders. Like this, bare skin to bare skin, there's no barriers, no pretense of tradition or courtesy between the two of you. It's closer as you've ever been to anyone — closer, even — but it's not enough. You want more. You need more.

You pull away, looking up at him, looking at his proud features, at the sharp lines of his jaws and the thin slope of his lips. He's beautiful, otherworldly, almost too perfect to bare to look at it.

And he's yours now. You've claimed him — in front of the Gods and Men, he is yours now. Just as you are his.

You push up, pulling him closer, pressing your bare breasts into his chest. You kiss him gently, softly, as he had down in the throne room. It's gentle, heart-achingly so. Too gentle for a dragon and a lion maybe.

Maybe it's because of that, the both of yours intrinsic nature, that the kiss turns heated, tongues meeting, breaths mixing. He pushes you back gently, his grip firm but gentle, laying you out on the bed, hovering just above. His hair falls in a curtain around the two of you, cutting you off from everything else and leaving you in a world where there's only you two.

Your legs come up, opening wide as you hook them around his waist, pulling him down against you. You rock against him slowly, his member hard against your apex. You moan as he rubs against you, digging your heels into his back, whining loud and sharp. He pulls away from your mouth, his lips trailing down your jaw, nipping your skin on his way down towards your chest.

"Please, please, please," you beg, not even fully understanding what you're asking for but knowing you'll die if you don't get it. "Aemond, please, don't make me wait."

Aemond grins, his tongue swirling around your nipple, gently laughing as you keen at the feeling. "My Queen begging already?"

"Your Queen demanding," you try to hiss but your voice is too shaky, too flustered, to be convincing. He laughs again.

"You said this was my revenge," he coos, his teeth gently teasing at your nipple, his hand coming up to fondle your other breast. "Tywin Lannister's daughter on her back for me. Tywin Lannister's daughter begging for me."

You whimper, twisting your hands into the blankets at your side, not even the mention of your father being enough to cool the fire fogging your mind. "Please, Aemond," you whine. "You're avenged! You're avenged — just please!"

His hand leaves your breast, trailing down your stomach, going down to the thatch of hair at your apex, his fingers teasing the wetness there. You whine again, kicking at his back with your heels, wishing you could do more than beg, wishing you knew how.

"I'll allow peace then," he murmurs against your breast, pushing off from your chest. He moves to rest back on his haunches, leaving you sprawled out on the bed, your chest heaving as you watch him move. He holds his cock in one hand, the color in his eyes consumed by the black of his pupils as he stares down at your quim.

His tip teases at your entrance and you cry out again, desperate and helpless, pushing down on him so it teases at your inner walls.

Aemond laughs at you again. You wish you had the strength to scold him for it but all decency has left your mind. All you have is an all-consuming hunger, a bone deep want, and you need him to sate it.

"Impatient little thing," he teases, shallowly thrusting into you, blatantly ignoring how your back arches off the wall, your brain going still at the intrusion. "But if my Queen asks…"

He pushes inside.

Your mind blanks out.

It doesn't hurt, you think after your brain decides to start functioning again. The septas had made it sound like it was be an unimaginable pain, something horrific to suffer through. All the men always only talked about their own pleasure, leaving you with the distinct impression that yours doesn't matter.

It does. It does.

Once your body adjusts to the intrusion, once Aemond being inside of you doesn't feel like an abnormality but rather finally feeling complete, you start to rock against him slowly. You feel stuffed to the brim. It fills your head with cotton, drowning out your thoughts.

Aemond. Aemond. Aemond. is all your mind can cry.

He starts slow at first, rocking into you gently, letting you learn how to breathe around him. But as impatient as he had called you, he is undoubtedly worse.

His first hard thrust has you seeing stars, your gasp being punched out of you. His second makes you howl. And then his hand comes down in between your bodies, his calloused thumb playing with that nub, and there is no hope for you at all.

The sound of flesh slapping flesh echoes in your air, a symphony joined by your sharp cries and whimpers and his moans. Your hands fly up to encircle his shoulders and you hang on for dear life, feeling as if every thrust is pushing you closer and closer to an edge that you'll never come back from. Your eyes snap close, suddenly seeing seeming like a waste of time when you can just feel.

The fire in your stomach feels like nothing you've ever felt before, exploding across your body, burning everything in its trail, rewriting everything about you as it goes. It feels like being struck by lightning, like being consumed completely.

"Aemond, Aemond," you chant, drowning in the pleasure of it, feeling mad with the feelings. No wonder all the septons and septas preach against this. It's easy to imagine losing yourself to this bliss, forgetting everything else as you only chase this feeling again and again.

Aemond grabs your jaw, turning your face towards him. Your eyes slide open. He's close, his nose brushing yours, his breath mixing with yours. It makes you dizzy with want and the pressure builds and builds in your core.

"You're so good," he praises and you sob at his words, your nails digging into his back, but he doesn't flinch. "You take me so well — such a good girl. Such a good girl."

You cry, nodding frantically, feeling the last tendrils of common sense snap within you. You're a beast made for pleasure, you decide in your haze. You were made for this.

"So good," he breathes into you and you splinter into a thousand pieces.

It feels like falling under the waves, being tossed and turned by a force you can't even think to control. It leaves you lost in it and, for once, it doesn't frighten you. Your mouth opens in a wail, utterly helpless to stop it.

"Fuck!" Aemond swears, losing whatever tremulous grip on control he had. His hips begin to snap against yours faster, pushing you through the pleasure again and again. He loses all sense of rhythm, desperate in his own chasing of his peak, and you card your hand through his hair, tugging sharply.

Even drowning as you are, you push up slightly, your hips slamming up into his, and you lick a stripe up his throat. "My good king," you whisper.

He thrusts one more time, shoving into you as deep as you can, driving a moan out of you just as he cries out, his warm spending releasing inside of you.

Like a puppet with his strings cut, he drops on top of you, his arms suddenly useless for holding him up.

They're not, however, useless in still holding you.

He tugs you closer to him. His skin is sticky with sweat, a musky smell coming from the two of you, but it doesn't disgust you. It makes that fuzzy head space come back, the complete loss of control that had taken you adrift. It feels delicious. It feels safe.

He stays buried in you, nestled in between your legs, and the full feeling like a blanket coming to rest on top of you.

You lay there in the quiet for a while, the two of you just breathing in time with one other.

Finally, he speaks.

"You will rule me, won't you," Aemond murmurs, his hands running up and down your back, each motion racking your body with shivers. "I survived so much, fought so many, claimed the only dragon to have survived the Dance… And yet, here you are. Little lady from the Rock, come to claim me."

You smile, pushing closer to him, burying your face in his chest, smelling his smell. "We claimed each other. You've gotten your revenge."

Aemond's hand trails along your back, curling around your side to rest his hand above your stomach. "I've gotten my peace."

You laugh, closing your eyes and finding yours too.

[aemcndtargaryen]

WELCOME BACK QUEEN

[jaimeslanisters]

the pawn in every lover's game (part fifteen)

Aemond Targaryen x Lannister!Reader

When you’re ten, your father sends you to King’s Landing to befriend a princess and woo a prince. A lioness growing up amongst dragons is a dangerous thing indeed.

crossposted on ao3 masterlist word count: 10k notes: spite is genuinely the greatest motivator. i had plans to make this longer but i genuinely felt i would die if i didn't post right now so! enjoy (:

The dance ends all too soon. You wish it had lasted longer. You wish it had never started to begin with. You hate every passing second and you can’t pull yourself away. There’s an ache, deep in your chest, as you watch Aegon and Helaena finish. There’s a final note that the bards play, one final mournful strum of the harp, and the two of them unfurl from one another, the space growing between the two of them as they pull away. At the last moment, Aegon captures Helaena’s hand, bowing his head as he brings it to his lips. Helaena closes her eyes, her free hand coming up to clutch at her chest, and, in the multicolor glow of the candles, it looks like a hazy memory, like something you’ve dreamed of and have only just remembered.

It looks like a song.

Next to you, Floris sucks in air sharply, completely enraptured by the show in front of her, and you’re struck with the memory of your cousins whispering and giggling about their dance during the opening feast. The Targaryens are beautiful - you know this as surely as you know that you are a Lannister with all that that entails - but their allure goes beyond that. It’s intoxicating. It’s overwhelming.

There’s almost a sense of relief in knowing that you aren’t the only one to be pulled in by them.

Aegon releases Helaena from his hold and, together, the two of them walk back to the royal table, a careful space between the two of them. As they pass, all the nobles rise to their feet and you join them, your hand shooting out to support Floris as she stumbles slightly on her way up. She tilts into you, seemingly content with you supporting her weight, but you don’t pay her any mind, your gaze locked onto the newlyweds.

Aegon looks straight ahead, fixated, but Helaena spares you a glance and she smiles, her whole visage melting into something softer and sweeter. You smile back even though it feels wrong on your face, your smile stretched out too thin, but she doesn’t begrudge you for it. You wish she would. You wish she would push back at you for your inability to swallow this pain easily because that would mean that she was pushing back on something. You could bear that burden - you could bear anything for her - but she would never. She doesn’t need it regardless. You need it. You crave her anger at you like you crave absolution.

The two of them walk together to the dais at the front and, once they reach the shadow of the Iron Throne, they turn to each other. Aegon bows low at the waist while Helaena curtseys, nearly brushing the stone floor with her knees, officially signaling the end of the first dance and opening the floor for everyone else. A cheer breaks from the waiting nobles and, when the pair of them rise again, the waiting crowd breaks and moves to a dance floor, a moving wave that’s unstoppable. At your side, the silent Baela breaks away from you, pushing through the crowd toward where you last saw one of her Valeryon cousins. A part of you wants to follow behind her, see if you can’t coax her into speaking again, but the rest of you just wants to find Helaena and Aemond.

You turn to look up at the dais, in time to see Aemond rise from his seat, his eyes locked on you and you heave a sigh of relief as he nods when he notices his gaze, motioning for you to stay still so he can come find you.

Floris teeters closer to you, reaching up on her tiptoes to speak in your ear, stumbling closer by mistake so that her lips brush your earlobe in a move that has you shivering. She wobbles dangerously and your arm shoots out to gently grab her around the waist so she has some semblance of support. You belatedly realize that this is the closest you’ve ever been with someone who wasn’t a member of your family or Helaena and Aemond. “Is your prince coming to dance?” She aims to whisper but instead she practically yells in your ear, oblivious to your open wince.

You pull away from her, smiling in spite of your discomfort. “Are your sisters nearby?” You ask in lieu of responding, hoping that you could dump her on one of the other Four Storms and make her someone else’s problem. You’d feel bad about pushing her away except it’s hard to even conjure up the desire to. You want to spend the night in the company of Aemond and Helaena, not minding a girl you’ve just met - a girl who is seemingly completely uninterested in detaching herself from you.

She straightens up, craning her neck to try and scan the audience. She suddenly points in excitement, shouting “Maris!” in absolute glee, and you follow her pointing finger only to teeter back in shock.

Maris Baratheon is a tall, skinny girl with pale skin and a sea of freckles across her face. Her pitch-black hair is pulled tight against her scalp and, where Floris is soft and sweet, she is severe and sharp. She looks like a storm personified, thunderous and bold, a Baratheon through and through.

And she’s standing right in front of you, frowning at her youngest sister wagging her finger just in front of her nose.

“My lady,” you rush out, your curtsey coming out more like a short bob with the way that Floris leans her entire weight on you. “My apologies for not noticing you. I wa-”

“Have you no shame?” Maris hisses, plainly ignoring you in favor of narrowing her stormy blue eyes at her younger sister. “Mother didn’t let you come just for you to embarrass yourself in front of the royal family.”

Floris frowns tempestuously and it slowly dawns on you that, in spite of appearances, she may be just as stormy as her sisters. “I don’t see the princes or the princesses around.”

“Aye and what is she?” Maris shoots back and you startle to realize that she’s turned her dark gaze on you. You open your mouth to insist that you are no princess or anything resembling royalty but the elder Baratheon girl doesn’t even offer you the chance to. “You should have minded yourself. Controlled yourself.”

Floris turns her nose up, rolling her eyes. “Lady Lannister wasn’t bothered.”

Maris huffs. “You idiot. You essentially held her hostage. She couldn’t escape you!”

“Maybe it’s hard for you but I can manage to befriend people without offending them at every step!”

“This isn’t about me! This is about yo-”

“Oh is it? Are you s-”

“Yes! For Gods’ sake, you always d-”

The two Baratheons start screeching at each other, their words overlapping until you’re sure they’re speaking as one, leaning closer and closer in until you’re trapped between the two of them, pressed tight in the middle, and you start to wonder if storm is too small of a word to describe the pair of them. They’re hissing and vicious and you know they must be seconds away from throwing punches and trying to land blows and you start to pray that you’ll be able to slip away in the chaos when an all too familiar voice cuts through the din.

“If I could,” Aemond starts, hands tucked behind his back as he stares down at the trio of you with barely concealed amusement. “I’d like to steal away Lady Lannister if she’s available.”

There’s a beat of silence where you try to express your gratitude with your eyes and Floris begins making a sound like a captured mouse before Maris snorts, distinctly unladylike even as she bows her head in greeting. “I’m surprised you’re asking, my prince. I doubt you offered Victor Florent the same choice.”

You laugh, startled and too caught off guard to keep it in, while Floris’s squeaks take a particularly high pitch. Aemond’s smile turns sharp and he hums noncommittally, tilting his head as he peers down at Maris Baratheon. To her credit, the lady doesn’t quail or shrink away, merely turning her nose up.

“This is why Mother wants to send her to the Silent Sisters,” Floris hisses to you, her voice, again, far too loud to be counted as a whisper.

At that, Maris visibly flinches and her face flashes with annoyance - whether it’s at herself, her mother, or Floris you’re not sure - but she backs down, bowing her head once more. It’s unfitting for her, you think. Self-pity doesn’t suit her - it sits wrong on her features - and you feel a quick flash of pity. The Silent Sisters was a harsh punishment - only the Night’s Watch could compare and even then, at least those men were permitted to talk and had more than enough freedom to break their other vows up in the frigid North, far from even the Starks’ eyes.

You glance at Aemond and, when he notices your watchful gaze, he flicks his eyes upward in exasperation before fixing his stare back on Maris. “The Lady Lannister was offered no choice when Victor Florent presented her with his crown. I simply returned the favor.”

Maris doesn’t respond, simply nodding her head in agreement, her expression the same smooth mask, but Floris lets out a soft ‘oh!’, sounding as delighted as if Aemond had just personally handed her a bouquet of the prettiest flowers. You flick your gaze up towards her and she’s gazing at him, starry-eyed and flushed, and you feel a sharp lance of annoyance shoot through you.

Has she forgotten you’re the one thing keeping her standing?

“Well,” you trill as pleasantly as you can, straightening up and tightening your hold on her waist to hoist her up with you. She moves readily enough, making no complaint when you squeeze her, and you find with no small degree of displeasure that she’s taller than you, tall enough that she’s level with Aemond’s eye. “I really must accompany the prince. I-”

“Oh,” Floris chirps, grinning widely when you look up at her. “I’m sure you’re eagerly awaiting the first dance!”

You’re most definitely not. Aemond has not danced since before Driftmark, back when he and Aegon had been your and Helaena’s partners in your dancing lessons. He’d never been fond of it though he had never complained - not like Aegon who seemingly could not whine enough about being forced into lessons even if he had enjoyed more than Helaena and nearly more than you. You’re not planning on telling the Baratheon girls that but, before you get the chance to come up with some excuse for not joining in on the imminent first dance, Aemond steps forward, grabbing hold of your elbow and gently pulling you from Floris’s grasp. Maris moves up to steady her, swearing at her sister as she does, utterly immune to the way Floris flops on her affectionately like a dog cuddling up to its master.

“The first dance is starting soon,” Aemond says in lieu of explaining and you hide a smile as you tuck his hand close to you, curling your arm around his.

Maris hums, clearly disinterested in your reasons for leaving and also clearly pinching her sister with one of her hands hidden from view if the way Floris twists away from her is any indicator. “I thank you for watching my wayward sister, my lady.”

You nod, flashing her a pleasant smile. “It was no problem.” It had been. “It was a pleasure to meet your sister.” It hadn’t been. Not towards the end, at least. Not with the annoyance and jealousy coiling in your chest like a snake preparing to strike out and bite.

Floris leans out of her sister’s grasp, beaming up at you and Aemond. She hasn’t even approached sobering up - the longer she’s been without her drink, the more her last drink seems to sink into her. “I hope to speak to you soon, Lady Lannister. It’s been so lovely speaking with you,” she grins toothily, looking more girly than ever, and you force a smile, bowing your head in gratitude.

She turns her pretty smile on Aemond, her flushed cheeks turning even more pink to your watching eyes. “Prince Aemond,” she breathes out, her big gray eyes wide. She looks starstruck and sweet, a perfect gentle lady. “If you’re not too tired after your dance… No one has claimed any dances from me…” Her hand reaches up, hesitantly and slowly, as if she’s going to reach over and grab his sleeve and your vision flashes red.

You sharply exhale, all eyes snapping to you. “My lady,” you say, letting concern seep into your voice. “Would you be alright on the dance floor? I would hate for your sister to have to hold you up during a dance with the prince.”

Floris blinks at you, her cheeks burning an even brighter red.

Aemond hums next to you and you can feel the rumble of his chest against your arm, his amusement nearly radiating off of him.

You reach out to her, keeping your arm looped around Aemond’s but using your free hand to brush her own arm that’s wrapped around her sister’s. “Perhaps some water would suit you well, my lady, rather than a dance.”

Maris laughs, the sound more like a bark than anything, and she eyes you, defensiveness sharpening her gaze. “You’re rather bold in your assessment, my lady.”

You smile, squeezing Floris’s bicep before letting go. “If I am in the presence of storms, I must be bold to weather it. It’s just friendly advice, Lady Maris. I’d hate for your sister to shame herself.” More than she already has, at least.

The elder Baratheon girl gives you a tight smile. She knows you’re right and that she can’t refute it. Be it Storm’s End or King’s Landing, the rules are all the same. Ladies do not ask for dances from Targaryen princes. Ladies do not cling to strangers they’ve just met, let alone hang on them through a royal feast. Ladies do not drink themselves to the point of being unable to stand unassisted.

A harsher person would point this out in front of a bigger crowd than just her sister. A cruel person would spread it. You’re being helpful. You’re being generous.

Even Floris’s wounded deer performance can’t sway you to more than mild pity.

You glance over your shoulder, eyes scanning the crowd until you find your target. Your cousin, predictably, is surrounded by fawning ladies and laughing lords, his grin wide and endlessly charming. “Once you’ve found your legs, I’ll see if I can’t persuade my cousin, Ser Tygett, to come and offer you your first dance. He would be honored to be dancing on the arm of a beautiful maiden such as yourself.” You smile at her as gently as possible.

“He won the archery event,” Floris says after a moment, her voice soft. She doesn’t look at you, eyes glued to her feet. She wobbles damningly and Maris makes an annoyed noise. “I-I… You’re right, my lady. Thank you for… for saving me from embarrassment.”

You nod. “Of course. The capital can be hazardous for young ladies unused to such a large court. I only aim to help you, Lady Floris.”

Floris nods again and Maris scoffs lightly. Your eyes snap to her and you half expect her to be glaring at you. You’ve embarrassed her sister - in front of royalty nonetheless. You’d be fuming if anyone had mocked your sisters in front of you like you had her. But she’s not looking at you at all.

“Seems I’ll have company with me when mother ships me off to the Silent Sisters,” Maris says, not even bothering to drop her voice to a whisper as she stares down at her sister. Floris flinches and looks up, her gray eyes blazing, and you know you’re seconds away from witnessing another row.

Aemond, once again, saves you from that particular indignity. “Enjoy the feast, my ladies.”

He pulls you away and you give them a final smile, one that you’re sure they won’t see - not with the way they’re glaring at each other.

Aemond leads you around the edges of the floor, carefully skirting the groups of noblemen cloistered together, all of them eagerly gossiping and debating each other about the merits of the ladies. Most of the floor is already occupied by couples standing across from each other in two neat rows, ladies separated from the lords, all in preparation for the first dance. Aemond stops just short of entering the actual floor and he looks down at you, a question plain on his face.

“First the tourney and now dancing,” you muse out loud, smiling when he looks skyward. “Please don’t tell me you’re about to ask Ser Criston to knight you as well. I’m not sure I’d be prepared for your family’s reaction.”

Aemond hums in agreement. “I had planned to have this first dance with you, my lady, but it is a mixer dance. I’m not sure I can guarantee the safety of any partners I’d have after you.”

You sniff. “I’m perfectly civil. Your partners would remain untouched.”

He laughs out loud, quick and sharp, and you huff. “I must admit, I’m rather tempted to walk right back and ask Lady Floris for a dance if only to see how you’d tear into her.”

“I’m afraid Floris Baratheon would not be my only victim if you did that,” you say, frowning up at him.

His eye flashes, a distinct hunger sneaking into his features. “Would you sink your teeth into me, my lady? Would you dig your nails in and tear me apart?”

You want to, consequences damned. You imagine biting him, scratching him, burrowing as deep into him as he had into you. You want it all. You want to possess him completely. You are his and he is yours. He had torn his mangled scar up and put your sapphire in it, had filled it with you. What else would he let you take? What else would he let you claim?

You wonder how people can bear this desire - surely you’re not the only one. It’s more than carnal. It’s all-consuming. It’s absolution. It creeps around constantly, haunting every thought. Surely you can’t be the only one who has ever felt this complete burning.

“Perhaps I will, my prince,” you murmur, meeting his eye, wishing he didn’t have the eyepatch on so you could see him completely. “I may not be a dragon but a lion still has claws.”

He smiles, a sharp edge to his expression. He’s hungry. He’s starving. “I’ve known that truth about you since I first met you. Only being a Targaryen saved me from your wrath when you spilled that water over yourself.

The memory flashes in your mind and you think you can almost feel the phantom pain of the needle going through your finger, feel the cool water soaking the front of your gown. You had snarled at him. Briefly but it had been there. The moment had passed so fast that even you had barely registered it. Anyone else would have let the moment pass, counted it as a quick flash of emotion that meant nothing else.

Not Aemond.

He had seen the truth of it. Try as you might, pretend all you will, but there’s no hiding the truth of it - you’re a Lannister. You’re a Lannister to your bones with all the ambition, all the cunning, all the greed that it entails. You’re a lady, yes. Gods know that you’ve dedicated yourself to your etiquettes, to your embroidery and your songs. You did it not just because you had to but because you wanted to. You were a lady but it did not mean that that blunted your edges. It did not make you soft or gentle.

You had told him that truth in his bedroom in Driftmart, in a whispered promise over a gift, but he had already known. He had known from the very first moment he had seen you.

A slow grin spreads on your face. “It saved you the initial moment,” you reply. “Then it was because it was you. Do you remember when you snapped at me after the Dragonpit? I asked you a silly question about the Baratheons and you had just come back from the Dragonpit, from Prince Aegon and the Str… and your nephews.”

Not even your treasonous near mishap stops the downward curling of Aemond’s mouth. “I wasn’t at my… best after the Dragonpit in those days.”

You laugh, more cheery about it now than you had been back then. “I can recall, my prince. You called me a nosy bitch. I wanted to strike you across the face for it. I nearly did too.”

“I apologized,” Aemond grouses, sounding like a little boy again in his annoyance and embarrassment. It’s a far cry from the starved man he had just been and you laugh for the sheer ridiculousness of it.

“I know,” you reply, smiling. “That’s what I was trying to say; I was prepared to apologize to you. Not because you were a Targaryen but because you were Aemond. I didn’t care that you were a prince in that moment. I just cared that you were my friend and I didn’t want to hurt you like you had me.”

Aemond stays silent for a moment, studying you closely. His eye trails across your face, searching deep into you. He’s looking for any sign of deception, any tiny crack in your honesty, but he won’t find it. Not with you. Not with him.

Eventually, he sighs, looking away. “I was terrified I had pushed you away that day,” he murmurs, softly as if he doesn’t mean for you to hear. “I was convinced you were about to demand your return to Casterly Rock and it would have been all my fault. Helaena would hate me for losing her her closest companion. My mother would skin me for losing Lannister support.”

“Were alliances the only thing that kept you in check?” You ask, tilting your head at him, exaggerating a confused expression.

He scoffs lightly, more out of exasperation than annoyance. “No. I didn’t care that you were a lady of House Lannister in that moment. I cared that you were you. My… My friend.”

Distantly, you register the first dance beginning and a small part of you regrets that the two of you hadn’t gotten to join, even if it had meant that you would have had to watch him with other ladies of the court. The rest of you, however, is focused on Aemond, on his words.

You laugh after a second, softly. “So we both spent that night thinking the same thing. Capable of hurting most everyone except each other.”

Aemond hums. “You were the first person I had ever apologized to - outside of the apologies my mother would drag out of me whenever my brothers and I fought or on the rare occasions Helaena and I would argue. The only person I ever apologized to because I wanted to.”

“Don’t worry, it came out very naturally. Not practiced or rehearsed at all,” you reply, grinning when he shoots you a droll look, only the tiniest of movements at the corner of his mouth letting you know he’s amused by your teasing. “Come. I’m sure Floris is beyond herself now that she’s realized we didn’t leave her to go dance the first dance. Let’s find Helaena before she can come to demand her turn.”

“You’ll have to find your cousin as well,” he reminds, following easily enough when you tug on his arm to lead him up to the raised dais where his sister stands, pressed up arm to arm with Aegon, as their mother speaks to the pair of them. “I may have escaped a turn with that particular storm but you did sacrifice Ser Tygett in my place.”

You wince. “He’s not going to want her to be his first dance in case she thinks this is a show of his interest. I’ll have to dance with him for that particular favor,” you say, slightly wishing you hadn’t made that promise. You enjoy dancing but you find you have little interest in it if your partner isn’t the man you’re leading through the crowd right now.

He glances down at you. “I’d ask to have your first dance then, my lady, before you ask him.”

A surprised smile breaks through as you look up at him. “You meant it then? You do mean to dance tonight?”

He nods, looking as serious as he had when he entered the tourney grounds, as if he hasn’t spent this week turning all the expectations you had of him on his head. “Perhaps not a mixer dance so we can ensure that every lady wakes up in the capital tomorrow with their hands still attached but I do intend to have your first dance if you mean to take a turn with other partners.”

“Other partners?” You ask, blinking, realizing belatedly that dancing with him would open you up to dancing requests from men who weren’t him. “So the ladies of King’s Landing can keep their hands but the lords will get to have breakfast with Victor Florent tomorrow?”

He snorts softly. “More that the men of King’s Landing are at least aware of what could happen and will endeavor to make sure the same does not happen to them. I’m afraid the ladies are, as of now at least, ignorant of the true danger.”

“The true danger?” You ask, laughingly, as the two of you reach the foot of the throne, right before the steps of the dais. “I can’t swing a sword, my prince, nor do I have a dragon to send after my enemies.”

“Don’t you?” He tilts his head, smiling when your cheeks flare with heat, as you join the small circle of his family.

Helaena notices you first, always attuned to you, and she smiles at you brightly when she sees that you’re still arm-in-arm with Aemond. Aegon, predictably, already has a goblet of wine in his hand and, judging from the way that he’s downing it as quickly as possible, deaf to his mother’s scolding, he’s not planning on leaving this wedding feast close to anything resembling sobriety.

“I’ve done my part Mother,” Aegon grumbles, his lips stained a deep red from his drink. “You can’t ask for more from me. Not tonight.”

Alicent sighs, wringing her hands together. She seems blind to you, completely oblivious to your presence. She’s focused on Aegon for now. “I just ask you don’t shame yourself. Please just control your habits for this feast at least.”

“I’ve already done what you asked,” he grumbles before he spots you. His eyes brighten and he gets that all too familiar grin on his face, the one that promises trouble. “Here’s your true crowning achievement in your matchmaking skills. Perhaps you should concern yourself about Aemond’s marriage bed instead of mine.”

You don’t react, simply meeting his gaze steadily, but Aemond tenses next to you.

“Enough,” Aemond rumbles and Aegon barks out a laugh.

“Enough? Enough?” He hisses. “It isn’t enough. It’ll never be enough for Mother.”

“Aegon,” Alicent hisses, her eyes flashing with an anger you’re unused to seeing on the Queen. It makes her look so much younger. A sister arguing with her brother than a mother of four. “Finish your drink then. Drink your heart out. Do as you always have for tonight then. But you will do what you must tomorrow. For the rest of your life, you will do your duty.”

“And what is that Mother?” Aegon says, his voice soft.

She looks at him, disappointment warring with grief on her face. “What is necessary, Aegon.”

There is a moment suspended, where they stare at each other, blind to the rest of the room. The music fades, the chatter of the room ceases. All that matters is the two of them.

You think Alicent wants to say more. You think Aegon wants to fight. They’re both hurting for it. They both want to make the other bend to their will, make the other understand, but there’s an insurmountable chasm separating the two of them. Nothing could bridge it - not unless one of them caves to the other and that could never happen. You think neither of them would even want it.

Alicent breaks first, sighing as she looks down at her hands, her fingers clasped tightly, her thumb digging into the cuticle of her other thumb. “Enjoy the feast. All of you.” Her voice fades slightly, cracking on the final word.

You bow your head, murmuring your thanks, but your voice is the only one that answers. When you straighten up, Helaena is looking down at the floor, looking lost in her own mind, while Aemond watches his mother. She gives him a wan smile before she brushes past, her perfumed scent lingering in the air as she moves into the crowd, melting into it.

There’s silence. Even in the loud, busy room, there’s silence in the shadow of the Iron Throne.

Then Aegon scoffs. “Of course. Of course.”

He sounds angry and you look up, your hackles rising as you want to snap back in defense of Alicent.

But he has tears in his eyes. He’s angry. He’s spitting. If you spoke, he’d find a target for his rage, someone to pin all of this anger and rage on. He’d say unspeakably cruel things.

But he has tears in his eyes.

Your fury dies in your throat.

It feels pointless.

He doesn’t linger. He leaves quickly, pushing through the crowd, the crowd parting around like a ship through water. All of you watch him go, the air thick with unspoken grief.

Helaena breaks the quiet first. “The broken emerald ring,” she murmurs. “The ruby shattered.”

You look over at her but she’s already shaking her head, knocking her head clear of the words she had just said. She meets your gaze and smiles. “The feast went well.”

You pause for a moment, registering her words, before nodding, trying your best to smile. “Your announcement went perfectly. I’m sure there’s already smallfolk singing your praises outside the keep.”

She makes a face and your smile turns more genuine. “I mean it Helaena.” You slip from Aemond’s grasp to get closer to her, wishing that you could reach out to her to pull her close. “How are you feeling?”

Helaena doesn’t say anything for a while, looking down at her fidgeting hands before looking up and meeting your eyes. She doesn’t smile but she nods her head. “I feel the same. Things have changed but… Not everything has.”

You nod. “You’ll remain here at least. With your brothers and your mother.”

“With you too,” She reminds, a smile finally flickering on her face.

You nod again, stronger, confident. “With me too.”

She gives you a final fond look before she turns her attention to Aemond. She looks at him, her eyes openly roving over his face and body. She’s looking for something, you think, but you don’t know what. You know Helaena as well as you know yourself. She’s so tied up into your own sense of self that you don’t think that, if you ever felt even the slightest desire to, you could ever cut her away from you. Her roots are deep in you, curling tight around your heart and soul.

But her mind can be as secretive as her prophecies.

“The iron crown,” Helaena says as she looks at her brother, her eyes bright. “The throneless king.”

Aemond doesn’t say anything but when you look over at him, he’s tilted his head up, gazing down at his sister with satisfaction glowing in his eyes.

He covets the crown. How could he not? He could have listened to his father and gone to Dragonstone to try for one of Syrax’s hatchlings or taken one of her eggs. Instead, he had claimed the largest dragon in the world - the Queen of All Dragons. He had lost his eye for that prize, had forever damaged his standing in the view of his father. His ambition knew no bounds and could not be satisfied in remaining as only a second son. Only his love for his family, the loyalty to his brother, kept his fanged desire caged behind his teeth. But he couldn’t keep it down. Not forever. Not in moments like this. It would always bubble to the surface, always threaten to break free.

You watch him, tracing the proud jut of his chin, the tilt of his head, and his overconfident pride.

He should wear a crown. He suits one - far more than Aegon.

You suit a crown. If you were born less than two centuries earlier, you would have had one. If Aemond had been born first, perhaps you would have still gotten one.

You quash the desire as soon as it rises up in you. If Aemond had been born first, he would have married Helaena more likely than not. Even now, if something were to happen to Aegon, the question of what to do with Helaena’s marriage would arise. If they were to have children, the matter would only complicate.

You were willing to do a lot of things. You were willing to bloody your hands, willing to burn bridges and move your family about like they were nothing more than pawns in this game you were playing. You were willing to do much.

But you’re not willing to sacrifice Helaena. You’re not willing to risk anything that would bring her harm.

There’s no use wishing and longing for a crown that just wasn’t your’s. That could never be yours. Perhaps if you played your cards right, a daughter of yours could one day grow to wear one on her head. Your grandson could one day sit the Iron Throne.

But not you. Not if there was Helaena and if you had it your way, you’d rip your plans to absolute shreds if you could ensure that she would remain safe through it all.

You swallow thickly, looking down at your hands. Even the thought feels treasonous, feels like a betrayal.

The soft call of your name pulls you out of your thoughts and when you look up, both Targaryen siblings are looking at you, their eyes both gleaming in the same way underneath the multicolored candlelight. An apology bubbles up in your throat and it’s only at the last second that you remember to apologize for what would make sense rather than what you really want to apologize for.

“Sorry,” you say, laughing slightly. “My mind left me. What were we discussing?”

Helaena is gracious even if Aemond narrows his eye. “I was asking if the two of you really mean to go dance or if you’re going to spend all night hiding with me.”

You frown slightly. “If you want me to hide with you.”

She snorts, so unladylike that you can’t help but to smile. “Absolutely not. If you hide with me, Mother will notice that you haven’t taken to the floor with Aemond which means she’ll notice I haven’t taken to the floor and she’ll make it her mission to make sure I dance with at least a few lords.”

“I’m sure she wouldn’t force you,” you try to defend her, your resolve weaker than it would have been before - now that you’ve witnessed her demands of Aegon. Still, it seems impossible that she would ever ask the same out of Helaena. Helaena was her only daughter, her only girl. She was sweeter and softer with Helaena.

Helaena nods her head, his smile only flickering a little. “Still, I wouldn’t want to push my chances.”

You watch for a beat longer, wishing that there was something you could say or do to make it easier, but eventually, you heave a sigh and nod.

“You needn’t look like you’re marching to your doom,” Aemond murmurs under his breath as he comes to stand next to you, offering you his arm once more.

You ignore him for a moment, giving Helaena one final look, letting her know that if she needs you, she need only call and you’ll come to her side but she waves you off. You focus your attention back on Aemond only to see him eying you with a small smirk.

“I should refuse you the dance,” you warn. “You only asked so you could beat my cousin to my first dance.”

He laughs. “Would it please you if I declared my intentions again - In front of all? What prize would you like this time? Another crown?”

“Perhaps the head of another Florent,” you reply, catching sight of the familiar shade of blue on the other side of the crowd, only visible as the two of you still stand on the dais. Erren Florent stands alone once more, dark and moody around the edges of the room. His son and good daughter stand by his side, subdued but preoccupied in speaking to well wishers as they approach. He speaks to no one, choosing to only stare at the pair of you.

Aemond hums. “My mother was almost a Florent. She told me earlier this week that the Hightowers once debated betrothing Grandfather to a Florent lady. They eventually decided on Lady Alerie Redwyne and she was convinced that was why the Florents chose to insult us by their repeated badgering of you and their less than subtle animosity towards us.”

You blink, letting the information settle in, before peering up at him. “So in another life, Victor Florent may have been a cousin or something of sorts. You’d have been a kinslayer.”

“There’s one in every line,” he replies, his eye glinting knowingly. He’s referencing the library, your debate about King Brandon and the night’s king all those years ago, but your mind races to the carriage ride here with your father and uncle and what you had said about his own uncle and sister. There were kinslayers in every line.

What would one more be?

You smile at him, suddenly pleased by the turn of his conversation. “The next dance will be a waltz,” you remind him. “It’d be terribly bold if our first dance was a waltz.”

“Bolder than crowning you?” He asks and your smile only grows.

“No,” you agree. “Not bolder than that.”

He begins leading you down to the dance floor and, when the two of you arrive, the mixer dance ends. Some of the floor dissipates but the majority of the crowd stays, people finding their partners and a free space for the two of them to claim on the borders of the floor. Some people slink on, grabbing partners as they go, and you and Aemond do as well, heading for a spot close to the center.

People greet the two of you as you pass and you smile and greet them all back, playing the kindly lady to Aemond’s aloof prince. You spot your father in the crowd, Lady Tyrell on his arm. You can spot Ser Edwyn Sand, a charming smile locked on his face as he leads a blushing lady of House Crakehall onto the floor. You can even see Baela towards the back of the room, laughing with someone who can only be one of her Velaryon cousins.

The two of you slow to a stop, settling in a spot next to an unsmiling Stormlands lord and his quiet wife. You turn to face Aemond, him copying your movements, and two of you wait for the rest of the room for the bards to begin their songs.

It takes a moment or two, most of it filled with the soft sounds of people chattering or the repetitive click-clack of peoples’ heels on the smooth stone floor.

But then the soft twang of the harp filters through the air, over the low brass of the pipes, and you curtsey deep to the ground, in unison with the other ladies in the room, as Aemond bows in response.

He reaches for you first and you respond in kind, lifting your arm high to settle on his shoulder while he grips your waist tight. The two of you spin slowly, the skirt of your dress flaring through the air, but the dance picks up, your feet never once taking a pause as the memories of your old lessons start reawakening.

At first, no one in the room speaks, as if there’s a spell cast over all demanding silence, but eventually the splatters of the conversations break out in the watching audience, spreading slowly and surely to the dancers in motion.

“You’ll have to forgive me, my prince, if I miss a few steps. It’s been years since I’ve actually studied the dances,” you start, more to open conversation than to actually apologize.

Aemond snorts. “I’m sure you danced your fair share back in Casterly Rock during the feasts for your brother’s birth.”

You immediately shake your head. “The feasts were a mite different there than they’ve been here. Tyshara and I mostly preoccupied ourselves with ensuring everything was going smoothly as our mother entered her confinement. I didn’t have much time for dancing. More to the point, I think the lords were rather scared to approach me after a time.”

He looks down at you as he dips you low and your heart flutters a bit in your chest without your permission. When he pulls you up, he pulls you closer than he ought but you don’t have it in you to push him away. “How so? Had they heard there was a Targaryen awaiting your return in King’s Landing?”

“I doubt it though I’m sure some suspected,” you reply, holding down a laugh. “No, they were all rather put off by me after I castigated two lordlings from House Clegane and Tarbeck for mocking my sister.”

“They mocked her?” He asks, raising an elegant brow. “Were they allowed to leave with their tongues?”

“I’m not your kingly father,” you mockingly scold. “I’m a Lannister. I wanted to toss them in with the lions my family keeps in the bowels of the Rock so they could see if they found their joke as funny as they did.”

“What was the joke?” He asks as he spins you out.

When he pulls you back, you take a half moment to catch your breath again, suddenly gratefully that Aemond was meant to be leading this dance since you’ve forgotten how you’re supposed to move relative to the rest of the floor. Thankfully, he has not or, more likely, all his years in the yard have taught how to read his opponents’ body language and he was just naturally inclined to move in response.

“They called her Cerelle the Almost Heir,” you say once the pair of you have settled in the new movement of the crowd. “I’d applaud the rhyme if it wasn’t for the fact that that name was meant to hide the fact that any of their houses would count themselves lucky to have Cerelle as their heir. She spent her entire life preparing for that possibility. Every waking moment was spent getting ready for the chance that she might become Lady of the Rock. Little Loren kept her from that but, if she was to be Lady Lannister, the true Lady Lannister, she would have been the fiercest in our history.”

“Did she want to be the Lady of the Rock?” Aemond asks after a moment and your eyes dart up to his. “Does she regret having it taken away from her?”

You know what he really wants to ask.

Does your sister sympathize with Rhaenyra Targaryen? Does she, like the Princess, resent the younger brother born to take it all away from her?

You had asked yourself that very question in the lead up to your brother’s birth. When the two of you, along with all your sisters, would make the trek to the golden sept in your home and kneel on the floor, letting the incense burn your noses and eyes, as you had all prayed fervently for a boy to be born, did a part of her pray for another little sister?

When she had cried in the birthing chamber, when she had whispered to you about buying a thick cloak for her journey north, were her tears ones of joy or loss?

How would you feel, you had dared wonder in the sanctity of your mind, if what had been yours was ripped from your hands by a mere babe? A baby that you had in equal parts prayed for and dreaded?

How would you feel if you were the Almost Heir?

You release a sigh, faintly aware of Aemond awaiting your response, faintly aware of the music reaching its crescendo. “She knew what would happen to us if Loren had been a girl,” you say in lieu of answering his question. “Our bannermen were already lying in wait to push their sons onto Cerelle in hopes that their boys would get to be the next Lord of the Rock, Warden of the West. House Lannister survived it once in our history, when Queen Leila was the only child born to King Gerold III. Our vassals’ hunger has only grown in size and ambition since.”

Aemond hums in response. “As hungry as they may be, their ambition is outpaced by the one inherent in Lannisters. Your sister herself recovered the title lost. She might not be Lady of the Rock but she is Lady of Winterfell now.”

It’ll sound natural eventually, you reason to yourself. Soon, the name Cerelle Stark will be as familiar to you as Cerelle Lannister is. Decades in the future, she will have spent more time with her married name than she ever had with her maiden one.

But it is not now and, in this moment with only Aemond patiently waiting for you, you do not have to pretend.

“I should have been there,” you murmur, voice soft as to not be overhead though you doubt anyone is listening and, if they are, they can hardly hear you over the constant hum of the crowd. “It was my idea. My plan. And I sent her there alone.”

“You were that invested in a trade contract with the Starks?” Aemond asks, with only the faintest hint of humor in his tone telling you that he knows damn well that the earlier lie that you maintained, the current lie you’re maintaining in the court, was just that. A lie.

A lie you want to dispel - at least with him.

“I was that invested in soldiers,” you reply softly. “In blood alliances. In oaths. Lord Cregan Stark is my good brother now. He has a line to the Lannisters as steady as the Rock. Which means he has a line to the Targaryens. He has an investment.”

The humor leaves Aemond’s face quickly and he looks at you as seriously as he had in the sanctified Dragonpit. “There’s never been a Stark who has forgotten a vow,” he murmurs, a hint of warning entering his voice. Not a warning of anger or rage but rather a reminder. It was for naught, he tries to remind you. You’ve lost your sister for no prize at all.

You smile again, confidence laced through it. “What’s an old vow to a wife’s warm embrace? What’s an old promise to a blood tie to the next ruler of the Seven Kingdoms? Lord Cregan is loyal, yes, but he’s pragmatic. He understands that for his people to survive, he needs to do what he must. His father’s vow was to the princess but he swore no vow. His vow is to the rightful heir and the rightful heir is supported by the house that helped him to his claim, the house that his lady wife is of.”

Aemond doesn’t say anything, looking at you over, only leading you through the dance out of sheer memory.

“You said earlier that you couldn’t swing a sword,” Aemond finally says as the dance slows to a stop, as he bows to you again and you curtsey in response. This time, his voice is firm and loud, loud enough for people to overhear. He wants them to hear this. “A sword would not be a strong enough weapon for you, my lady. You yourself are fiercer than any knight, more dangerous than any battalion.”

You don’t have time to bask in his compliment - not when another voice chimes in.

“Yes, the Lady Lannister is fierce. Fiercer than most know,” Erren Florent says, a cold smile plastered onto his face when your eyes jump to his.

Aemond and you rise up, the prince stepping in front of you slightly so you’re tucked behind his body, but Erren Florent’s smile does not flicker.

If you thought his soft countenance was a cover before, it is a grotesque death mask now. His gray eyes are bright but empty, utterly soulless as he keeps his smile firmly on his face. His skin stretches tight around his skull, as pale as any corpse now. If you hadn’t met him before his son’s death, you would swear that he was no human. No, you’d say, no human can look like that - as if they’ve peeled someone else’s face off and are wearing it as a mask, as if their own body is not your own.

Aemond is tense but he can afford to be tense. His weapon is a sword. His weapon is the largest dragon alive.

The only tool you have at your disposal now is your courtesy.

You smile brightly at him, as sweet as any lady could ever be, pushing down Aemond’s arm slightly so you can peer around him more easily. “My lord,” you greet, bowing your head, keeping your grip on the Targaryen firm. You’re here, you’re safe, you want to remind but you can’t, not with Lord Florent watching you with his dead eyes, waiting for any chink in your armor. “I meant to meet with you but time got away from me. As the Maiden in the wedding party, I was kept well occupied until this feast. I wish to pass along House Lannister’s, as well as my own, condolences. The loss of Ser Victor was a tragic one, one that will be surely felt in the City Watch for years to come.”

Erren bows his head, keeping his head down even as Aemond echoes your words, passing along the Crown’s sympathies. When he looks up, the first hint of emotion has broken through his closed expression.

Cold rage dances in his eyes.

“It’s a loss I will feel until the Stranger comes to claim me,” he says, his voice soft like a whisper. “A loss that will haunt my every waking moment.”

There’s nothing you can say to that. No words you could conjure that would make that blow any easier, would make him hate you any less.

You don’t want to. You don’t want to soften the blow. You want him to feel every moment of his grief. You hope that the pain of his loss will remind him of what his son had forgotten.

You are a Lannister, a daughter of the Rock. Your blood is old, the blood of kings. Even without Aemond, you are above a Florent even if their line stretches back as far as your own. A lion could not be caged by a fox, no matter how hard it might try. A lion could be caged by no one.

Not even a dragon.

“I pray you will find comfort, my lord,” you finally say, stepping out from behind Aemond, walking closer to Erren Florent. The old lord does not step back to accommodate you, letting you get within arm's length of you.

If he wanted to, he could reach out and strangle you here. He could pull a knife out and push it deep in your heart and not even Aemond would be able to stop it. If he wished it, Erren Florent could kill you as easily as you draw breath and there was nothing anyone could do about it.

But he can’t and that pain must be equal to the loss of the son. To have the reason for Victor's death, the true reason and not just the means through which it was delivered, so close at hand and being unable and unwilling to do anything.

How hateful a scene. How horrid.

You step closer, a smile dancing on your lips.

“May you find peace, my lord,” you murmur, your words intended for only you and him.

“May I find justice,” he snarls back, his mask slipping even further, his face twisting in his vengeance. His hot breath washes over your face, burning and awful, and you can taste the sharp smell of wine on your tongue.

Aemond steps closer, his chest pressing against your back, but you don’t move, not even to accommodate his touch. You stand in front of Erren Florent, smiling as innocent as a lamb.

“Justice, my lord? You found it. Your son earned it. The debt is paid,” you say, voice serene and calm. “But if you wish to seek further satisfaction, you are welcome to it. I could hardly deny it.”

You step closer, your expression never slipping.

Your smile grows, hunger sharpens it. “I pray you do, in fact. I pray you aim for more than your station affords you, just as your son did.”

“Why? So your prince might drive a sword through my throat?” Erren growls, all pretense of civility gone from his face.

You lean closer. “So that I might.”

There’s a moment where the two of you stare each other down, when the rest of the room including Aemond fades and it's just the two of you in the room together.

All he wants is to wrap his hands around your throat and squeeze, squeeze, squeeze. He wants to break your neck. He wants to smash your head against the stone floor, crack it open like an egg and spill your brains out for all to gawk at.

Try it, you want to whisper. Try it and let me loose the hounds of war. Let me rip your house out by root and stem and seed. Let me wear your carnage and gore as a crown. Let no one utter the name Florent as anything but a warning. Try it and let me pay the debt.

The moment passes. The opportunity fades.

His anger festers. Your hunger grows.

He steps back, his mask sliding back into face.

“My lady,” Erren says, bowing his head.

“My lord,” you reply, dropping into a curtsey.

He leaves as quickly as he had come. You watch him go, slithering through the crowd towards the large doors of the throne room.

“I was his purpose,” you say softly but Aemond is close enough that he hears you.

“You are his purpose,” his voice is low and harsh and fierce and you turn to look at him, your skirt moving around you in a flurry. His eye is locked on you, concern sharpening his features into a fury. “He only lives now to seek his satisfaction. He won’t rest until he has your head mounted on his wall. ”

“It is a nice head, I’ll grant him that,” you laugh, your heart still pounding fast in your chest. “But it is mine and I have never been one to share.”

Aemond takes in a sharp breath, closing his eye. When he opens it, his worry is tempered by growing anger.

“You should carry a dagger,” he murmurs, his voice low, his tone leaving no space for disagreement. “I am your sword, I will always rise to defend you, but I cannot be everywhere at once. There are places that I cannot follow, places he will go to seek his vengeance.”

Your smile drops slightly. “I don’t know how to wield one. I’m more likely to stab myself than do anyone any real harm.”

His hand reaches out to touch your face, only pausing in mid air when he remembers himself. He drops his hand, clenching it into a fist at his side.

He’s angry, his brow furrowed tight with an anxiety you haven’t seen since Driftmark, since he was helpless and defenseless.

Your hands itch with the desire to smooth out the tightness in his face and you wish you were alone with a fierceness that threatens to tear you in half.

“I’ll show you,” he insists, his eye flickering all over you as if he’s already imagining what you would look like if Erren Florent had his way with you, as if he can already see imaginary wounds littering your body and even the mere thought of them is too much for him to bear. “I will show you and you will keep yourself safe when I cannot. You say you’re not one to share - I’m not either. I won’t be forced to suffer the loss of you. I’ve killed one Florent for you. I’ll kill another. I’ll keep slaughtering them until I’ve bled their house dry and even then, I won’t stop until all threats are gone, until you are safe in this new world that I will build for you.”

Your heart stutters in your chest. “And if there’s no end to the enemies you’ll make?”

“Then I won’t stop. I won’t stop until it’s just you and me left.”

You stare at him but nothing in his face flickers, nothing flashes. He is serious. He means what he says and you feel the weight of his devotion come crashing down on you. It is the heaviest thing you have ever felt. It knows no bounds and it crushes you completely, consuming every last bit of you and leaving room for nothing else.

And you relish it.

You’re not alone in your all-encompassing thoughts. Your hunger, your aching, raw desire, has its match, its partner, in him.

The enormity of it steals your breath from you, filling your lungs.

You’re not alone. It is complete ecstasy. It is utter bliss.

He stares at you, anger and worry fading away into anxiety, when he sees you’re not responding. Try as he might, hide as he will, but he cannot escape the little boy he once was, the boy desperate to be seen, the little boy desperate to be accepted, to be taken in.

“You are mine,” you say, the words leaving your mouth as easily as air enters your lungs. He sways towards you when he hears the weight of your voice, the adoration, the worship. “You are mine and I am yours.”

His eye grows wide and he stares down at you, his mouth dropping open slightly, looking as if you couldn’t have affected him more than if you had hit him over the head with a wooden beam, and you smile finally, feeling tears prick in the back of your eyes.

You had imagined saying it differently. You had imagined the library, had imagined being alone with none to disturb you.

But somehow, you can’t imagine it any different than this, any better than a stolen moment at the edge of a dance floor.

You reach out and grab his clenched fist, wrapping your hand around it as you bring it up to your mouth, pressing a gentle kiss on his knuckles.

“With this kiss,” you say, feeling almost delirious in your desire to do this. To prove yourself. To say something that can match his endless devotion. “I pledge my love. I pledge my life. I pledge my strength.”

It’s not enough. It won’t be enough. Not until you die in service of him.

But you need it. Oh gods, but you need it.

You drop his hand when you hear Daeron’s voice call, when you hear Alicent say his name right after.

You drop his hand and you smile at him, swallowing the thick tears down.

And he smiles back.

[aemcndtargaryen]

Wanted to do a reread before I read the update but I couldn't contain myself and read the new chapter and I'm going feralllll, this fic is everything, aemond and lady lannister are the power couple we deserve, their devotion for each other is out of this world and i adore reading every single bit of it

Pawn >>>>>>> whatever the fuck the hotd writers are doing

[jaimeslanisters]

the pawn in every lover's game (part fifteen)

Aemond Targaryen x Lannister!Reader

When you’re ten, your father sends you to King’s Landing to befriend a princess and woo a prince. A lioness growing up amongst dragons is a dangerous thing indeed.

crossposted on ao3 masterlist word count: 10k notes: spite is genuinely the greatest motivator. i had plans to make this longer but i genuinely felt i would die if i didn't post right now so! enjoy (:

The dance ends all too soon. You wish it had lasted longer. You wish it had never started to begin with. You hate every passing second and you can’t pull yourself away. There’s an ache, deep in your chest, as you watch Aegon and Helaena finish. There’s a final note that the bards play, one final mournful strum of the harp, and the two of them unfurl from one another, the space growing between the two of them as they pull away. At the last moment, Aegon captures Helaena’s hand, bowing his head as he brings it to his lips. Helaena closes her eyes, her free hand coming up to clutch at her chest, and, in the multicolor glow of the candles, it looks like a hazy memory, like something you’ve dreamed of and have only just remembered.

It looks like a song.

Next to you, Floris sucks in air sharply, completely enraptured by the show in front of her, and you’re struck with the memory of your cousins whispering and giggling about their dance during the opening feast. The Targaryens are beautiful - you know this as surely as you know that you are a Lannister with all that that entails - but their allure goes beyond that. It’s intoxicating. It’s overwhelming.

There’s almost a sense of relief in knowing that you aren’t the only one to be pulled in by them.

Aegon releases Helaena from his hold and, together, the two of them walk back to the royal table, a careful space between the two of them. As they pass, all the nobles rise to their feet and you join them, your hand shooting out to support Floris as she stumbles slightly on her way up. She tilts into you, seemingly content with you supporting her weight, but you don’t pay her any mind, your gaze locked onto the newlyweds.

Aegon looks straight ahead, fixated, but Helaena spares you a glance and she smiles, her whole visage melting into something softer and sweeter. You smile back even though it feels wrong on your face, your smile stretched out too thin, but she doesn’t begrudge you for it. You wish she would. You wish she would push back at you for your inability to swallow this pain easily because that would mean that she was pushing back on something. You could bear that burden - you could bear anything for her - but she would never. She doesn’t need it regardless. You need it. You crave her anger at you like you crave absolution.

The two of them walk together to the dais at the front and, once they reach the shadow of the Iron Throne, they turn to each other. Aegon bows low at the waist while Helaena curtseys, nearly brushing the stone floor with her knees, officially signaling the end of the first dance and opening the floor for everyone else. A cheer breaks from the waiting nobles and, when the pair of them rise again, the waiting crowd breaks and moves to a dance floor, a moving wave that’s unstoppable. At your side, the silent Baela breaks away from you, pushing through the crowd toward where you last saw one of her Valeryon cousins. A part of you wants to follow behind her, see if you can’t coax her into speaking again, but the rest of you just wants to find Helaena and Aemond.

You turn to look up at the dais, in time to see Aemond rise from his seat, his eyes locked on you and you heave a sigh of relief as he nods when he notices his gaze, motioning for you to stay still so he can come find you.

Floris teeters closer to you, reaching up on her tiptoes to speak in your ear, stumbling closer by mistake so that her lips brush your earlobe in a move that has you shivering. She wobbles dangerously and your arm shoots out to gently grab her around the waist so she has some semblance of support. You belatedly realize that this is the closest you’ve ever been with someone who wasn’t a member of your family or Helaena and Aemond. “Is your prince coming to dance?” She aims to whisper but instead she practically yells in your ear, oblivious to your open wince.

You pull away from her, smiling in spite of your discomfort. “Are your sisters nearby?” You ask in lieu of responding, hoping that you could dump her on one of the other Four Storms and make her someone else’s problem. You’d feel bad about pushing her away except it’s hard to even conjure up the desire to. You want to spend the night in the company of Aemond and Helaena, not minding a girl you’ve just met - a girl who is seemingly completely uninterested in detaching herself from you.

She straightens up, craning her neck to try and scan the audience. She suddenly points in excitement, shouting “Maris!” in absolute glee, and you follow her pointing finger only to teeter back in shock.

Maris Baratheon is a tall, skinny girl with pale skin and a sea of freckles across her face. Her pitch-black hair is pulled tight against her scalp and, where Floris is soft and sweet, she is severe and sharp. She looks like a storm personified, thunderous and bold, a Baratheon through and through.

And she’s standing right in front of you, frowning at her youngest sister wagging her finger just in front of her nose.

“My lady,” you rush out, your curtsey coming out more like a short bob with the way that Floris leans her entire weight on you. “My apologies for not noticing you. I wa-”

“Have you no shame?” Maris hisses, plainly ignoring you in favor of narrowing her stormy blue eyes at her younger sister. “Mother didn’t let you come just for you to embarrass yourself in front of the royal family.”

Floris frowns tempestuously and it slowly dawns on you that, in spite of appearances, she may be just as stormy as her sisters. “I don’t see the princes or the princesses around.”

“Aye and what is she?” Maris shoots back and you startle to realize that she’s turned her dark gaze on you. You open your mouth to insist that you are no princess or anything resembling royalty but the elder Baratheon girl doesn’t even offer you the chance to. “You should have minded yourself. Controlled yourself.”

Floris turns her nose up, rolling her eyes. “Lady Lannister wasn’t bothered.”

Maris huffs. “You idiot. You essentially held her hostage. She couldn’t escape you!”

“Maybe it’s hard for you but I can manage to befriend people without offending them at every step!”

“This isn’t about me! This is about yo-”

“Oh is it? Are you s-”

“Yes! For Gods’ sake, you always d-”

The two Baratheons start screeching at each other, their words overlapping until you’re sure they’re speaking as one, leaning closer and closer in until you’re trapped between the two of them, pressed tight in the middle, and you start to wonder if storm is too small of a word to describe the pair of them. They’re hissing and vicious and you know they must be seconds away from throwing punches and trying to land blows and you start to pray that you’ll be able to slip away in the chaos when an all too familiar voice cuts through the din.

“If I could,” Aemond starts, hands tucked behind his back as he stares down at the trio of you with barely concealed amusement. “I’d like to steal away Lady Lannister if she’s available.”

There’s a beat of silence where you try to express your gratitude with your eyes and Floris begins making a sound like a captured mouse before Maris snorts, distinctly unladylike even as she bows her head in greeting. “I’m surprised you’re asking, my prince. I doubt you offered Victor Florent the same choice.”

You laugh, startled and too caught off guard to keep it in, while Floris’s squeaks take a particularly high pitch. Aemond’s smile turns sharp and he hums noncommittally, tilting his head as he peers down at Maris Baratheon. To her credit, the lady doesn’t quail or shrink away, merely turning her nose up.

“This is why Mother wants to send her to the Silent Sisters,” Floris hisses to you, her voice, again, far too loud to be counted as a whisper.

At that, Maris visibly flinches and her face flashes with annoyance - whether it’s at herself, her mother, or Floris you’re not sure - but she backs down, bowing her head once more. It’s unfitting for her, you think. Self-pity doesn’t suit her - it sits wrong on her features - and you feel a quick flash of pity. The Silent Sisters was a harsh punishment - only the Night’s Watch could compare and even then, at least those men were permitted to talk and had more than enough freedom to break their other vows up in the frigid North, far from even the Starks’ eyes.

You glance at Aemond and, when he notices your watchful gaze, he flicks his eyes upward in exasperation before fixing his stare back on Maris. “The Lady Lannister was offered no choice when Victor Florent presented her with his crown. I simply returned the favor.”

Maris doesn’t respond, simply nodding her head in agreement, her expression the same smooth mask, but Floris lets out a soft ‘oh!’, sounding as delighted as if Aemond had just personally handed her a bouquet of the prettiest flowers. You flick your gaze up towards her and she’s gazing at him, starry-eyed and flushed, and you feel a sharp lance of annoyance shoot through you.

Has she forgotten you’re the one thing keeping her standing?

“Well,” you trill as pleasantly as you can, straightening up and tightening your hold on her waist to hoist her up with you. She moves readily enough, making no complaint when you squeeze her, and you find with no small degree of displeasure that she’s taller than you, tall enough that she’s level with Aemond’s eye. “I really must accompany the prince. I-”

“Oh,” Floris chirps, grinning widely when you look up at her. “I’m sure you’re eagerly awaiting the first dance!”

You’re most definitely not. Aemond has not danced since before Driftmark, back when he and Aegon had been your and Helaena’s partners in your dancing lessons. He’d never been fond of it though he had never complained - not like Aegon who seemingly could not whine enough about being forced into lessons even if he had enjoyed more than Helaena and nearly more than you. You’re not planning on telling the Baratheon girls that but, before you get the chance to come up with some excuse for not joining in on the imminent first dance, Aemond steps forward, grabbing hold of your elbow and gently pulling you from Floris’s grasp. Maris moves up to steady her, swearing at her sister as she does, utterly immune to the way Floris flops on her affectionately like a dog cuddling up to its master.

“The first dance is starting soon,” Aemond says in lieu of explaining and you hide a smile as you tuck his hand close to you, curling your arm around his.

Maris hums, clearly disinterested in your reasons for leaving and also clearly pinching her sister with one of her hands hidden from view if the way Floris twists away from her is any indicator. “I thank you for watching my wayward sister, my lady.”

You nod, flashing her a pleasant smile. “It was no problem.” It had been. “It was a pleasure to meet your sister.” It hadn’t been. Not towards the end, at least. Not with the annoyance and jealousy coiling in your chest like a snake preparing to strike out and bite.

Floris leans out of her sister’s grasp, beaming up at you and Aemond. She hasn’t even approached sobering up - the longer she’s been without her drink, the more her last drink seems to sink into her. “I hope to speak to you soon, Lady Lannister. It’s been so lovely speaking with you,” she grins toothily, looking more girly than ever, and you force a smile, bowing your head in gratitude.

She turns her pretty smile on Aemond, her flushed cheeks turning even more pink to your watching eyes. “Prince Aemond,” she breathes out, her big gray eyes wide. She looks starstruck and sweet, a perfect gentle lady. “If you’re not too tired after your dance… No one has claimed any dances from me…” Her hand reaches up, hesitantly and slowly, as if she’s going to reach over and grab his sleeve and your vision flashes red.

You sharply exhale, all eyes snapping to you. “My lady,” you say, letting concern seep into your voice. “Would you be alright on the dance floor? I would hate for your sister to have to hold you up during a dance with the prince.”

Floris blinks at you, her cheeks burning an even brighter red.

Aemond hums next to you and you can feel the rumble of his chest against your arm, his amusement nearly radiating off of him.

You reach out to her, keeping your arm looped around Aemond’s but using your free hand to brush her own arm that’s wrapped around her sister’s. “Perhaps some water would suit you well, my lady, rather than a dance.”

Maris laughs, the sound more like a bark than anything, and she eyes you, defensiveness sharpening her gaze. “You’re rather bold in your assessment, my lady.”

You smile, squeezing Floris’s bicep before letting go. “If I am in the presence of storms, I must be bold to weather it. It’s just friendly advice, Lady Maris. I’d hate for your sister to shame herself.” More than she already has, at least.

The elder Baratheon girl gives you a tight smile. She knows you’re right and that she can’t refute it. Be it Storm’s End or King’s Landing, the rules are all the same. Ladies do not ask for dances from Targaryen princes. Ladies do not cling to strangers they’ve just met, let alone hang on them through a royal feast. Ladies do not drink themselves to the point of being unable to stand unassisted.

A harsher person would point this out in front of a bigger crowd than just her sister. A cruel person would spread it. You’re being helpful. You’re being generous.

Even Floris’s wounded deer performance can’t sway you to more than mild pity.

You glance over your shoulder, eyes scanning the crowd until you find your target. Your cousin, predictably, is surrounded by fawning ladies and laughing lords, his grin wide and endlessly charming. “Once you’ve found your legs, I’ll see if I can’t persuade my cousin, Ser Tygett, to come and offer you your first dance. He would be honored to be dancing on the arm of a beautiful maiden such as yourself.” You smile at her as gently as possible.

“He won the archery event,” Floris says after a moment, her voice soft. She doesn’t look at you, eyes glued to her feet. She wobbles damningly and Maris makes an annoyed noise. “I-I… You’re right, my lady. Thank you for… for saving me from embarrassment.”

You nod. “Of course. The capital can be hazardous for young ladies unused to such a large court. I only aim to help you, Lady Floris.”

Floris nods again and Maris scoffs lightly. Your eyes snap to her and you half expect her to be glaring at you. You’ve embarrassed her sister - in front of royalty nonetheless. You’d be fuming if anyone had mocked your sisters in front of you like you had her. But she’s not looking at you at all.

“Seems I’ll have company with me when mother ships me off to the Silent Sisters,” Maris says, not even bothering to drop her voice to a whisper as she stares down at her sister. Floris flinches and looks up, her gray eyes blazing, and you know you’re seconds away from witnessing another row.

Aemond, once again, saves you from that particular indignity. “Enjoy the feast, my ladies.”

He pulls you away and you give them a final smile, one that you’re sure they won’t see - not with the way they’re glaring at each other.

Aemond leads you around the edges of the floor, carefully skirting the groups of noblemen cloistered together, all of them eagerly gossiping and debating each other about the merits of the ladies. Most of the floor is already occupied by couples standing across from each other in two neat rows, ladies separated from the lords, all in preparation for the first dance. Aemond stops just short of entering the actual floor and he looks down at you, a question plain on his face.

“First the tourney and now dancing,” you muse out loud, smiling when he looks skyward. “Please don’t tell me you’re about to ask Ser Criston to knight you as well. I’m not sure I’d be prepared for your family’s reaction.”

Aemond hums in agreement. “I had planned to have this first dance with you, my lady, but it is a mixer dance. I’m not sure I can guarantee the safety of any partners I’d have after you.”

You sniff. “I’m perfectly civil. Your partners would remain untouched.”

He laughs out loud, quick and sharp, and you huff. “I must admit, I’m rather tempted to walk right back and ask Lady Floris for a dance if only to see how you’d tear into her.”

“I’m afraid Floris Baratheon would not be my only victim if you did that,” you say, frowning up at him.

His eye flashes, a distinct hunger sneaking into his features. “Would you sink your teeth into me, my lady? Would you dig your nails in and tear me apart?”

You want to, consequences damned. You imagine biting him, scratching him, burrowing as deep into him as he had into you. You want it all. You want to possess him completely. You are his and he is yours. He had torn his mangled scar up and put your sapphire in it, had filled it with you. What else would he let you take? What else would he let you claim?

You wonder how people can bear this desire - surely you’re not the only one. It’s more than carnal. It’s all-consuming. It’s absolution. It creeps around constantly, haunting every thought. Surely you can’t be the only one who has ever felt this complete burning.

“Perhaps I will, my prince,” you murmur, meeting his eye, wishing he didn’t have the eyepatch on so you could see him completely. “I may not be a dragon but a lion still has claws.”

He smiles, a sharp edge to his expression. He’s hungry. He’s starving. “I’ve known that truth about you since I first met you. Only being a Targaryen saved me from your wrath when you spilled that water over yourself.

The memory flashes in your mind and you think you can almost feel the phantom pain of the needle going through your finger, feel the cool water soaking the front of your gown. You had snarled at him. Briefly but it had been there. The moment had passed so fast that even you had barely registered it. Anyone else would have let the moment pass, counted it as a quick flash of emotion that meant nothing else.

Not Aemond.

He had seen the truth of it. Try as you might, pretend all you will, but there’s no hiding the truth of it - you’re a Lannister. You’re a Lannister to your bones with all the ambition, all the cunning, all the greed that it entails. You’re a lady, yes. Gods know that you’ve dedicated yourself to your etiquettes, to your embroidery and your songs. You did it not just because you had to but because you wanted to. You were a lady but it did not mean that that blunted your edges. It did not make you soft or gentle.

You had told him that truth in his bedroom in Driftmart, in a whispered promise over a gift, but he had already known. He had known from the very first moment he had seen you.

A slow grin spreads on your face. “It saved you the initial moment,” you reply. “Then it was because it was you. Do you remember when you snapped at me after the Dragonpit? I asked you a silly question about the Baratheons and you had just come back from the Dragonpit, from Prince Aegon and the Str… and your nephews.”

Not even your treasonous near mishap stops the downward curling of Aemond’s mouth. “I wasn’t at my… best after the Dragonpit in those days.”

You laugh, more cheery about it now than you had been back then. “I can recall, my prince. You called me a nosy bitch. I wanted to strike you across the face for it. I nearly did too.”

“I apologized,” Aemond grouses, sounding like a little boy again in his annoyance and embarrassment. It’s a far cry from the starved man he had just been and you laugh for the sheer ridiculousness of it.

“I know,” you reply, smiling. “That’s what I was trying to say; I was prepared to apologize to you. Not because you were a Targaryen but because you were Aemond. I didn’t care that you were a prince in that moment. I just cared that you were my friend and I didn’t want to hurt you like you had me.”

Aemond stays silent for a moment, studying you closely. His eye trails across your face, searching deep into you. He’s looking for any sign of deception, any tiny crack in your honesty, but he won’t find it. Not with you. Not with him.

Eventually, he sighs, looking away. “I was terrified I had pushed you away that day,” he murmurs, softly as if he doesn’t mean for you to hear. “I was convinced you were about to demand your return to Casterly Rock and it would have been all my fault. Helaena would hate me for losing her her closest companion. My mother would skin me for losing Lannister support.”

“Were alliances the only thing that kept you in check?” You ask, tilting your head at him, exaggerating a confused expression.

He scoffs lightly, more out of exasperation than annoyance. “No. I didn’t care that you were a lady of House Lannister in that moment. I cared that you were you. My… My friend.”

Distantly, you register the first dance beginning and a small part of you regrets that the two of you hadn’t gotten to join, even if it had meant that you would have had to watch him with other ladies of the court. The rest of you, however, is focused on Aemond, on his words.

You laugh after a second, softly. “So we both spent that night thinking the same thing. Capable of hurting most everyone except each other.”

Aemond hums. “You were the first person I had ever apologized to - outside of the apologies my mother would drag out of me whenever my brothers and I fought or on the rare occasions Helaena and I would argue. The only person I ever apologized to because I wanted to.”

“Don’t worry, it came out very naturally. Not practiced or rehearsed at all,” you reply, grinning when he shoots you a droll look, only the tiniest of movements at the corner of his mouth letting you know he’s amused by your teasing. “Come. I’m sure Floris is beyond herself now that she’s realized we didn’t leave her to go dance the first dance. Let’s find Helaena before she can come to demand her turn.”

“You’ll have to find your cousin as well,” he reminds, following easily enough when you tug on his arm to lead him up to the raised dais where his sister stands, pressed up arm to arm with Aegon, as their mother speaks to the pair of them. “I may have escaped a turn with that particular storm but you did sacrifice Ser Tygett in my place.”

You wince. “He’s not going to want her to be his first dance in case she thinks this is a show of his interest. I’ll have to dance with him for that particular favor,” you say, slightly wishing you hadn’t made that promise. You enjoy dancing but you find you have little interest in it if your partner isn’t the man you’re leading through the crowd right now.

He glances down at you. “I’d ask to have your first dance then, my lady, before you ask him.”

A surprised smile breaks through as you look up at him. “You meant it then? You do mean to dance tonight?”

He nods, looking as serious as he had when he entered the tourney grounds, as if he hasn’t spent this week turning all the expectations you had of him on his head. “Perhaps not a mixer dance so we can ensure that every lady wakes up in the capital tomorrow with their hands still attached but I do intend to have your first dance if you mean to take a turn with other partners.”

“Other partners?” You ask, blinking, realizing belatedly that dancing with him would open you up to dancing requests from men who weren’t him. “So the ladies of King’s Landing can keep their hands but the lords will get to have breakfast with Victor Florent tomorrow?”

He snorts softly. “More that the men of King’s Landing are at least aware of what could happen and will endeavor to make sure the same does not happen to them. I’m afraid the ladies are, as of now at least, ignorant of the true danger.”

“The true danger?” You ask, laughingly, as the two of you reach the foot of the throne, right before the steps of the dais. “I can’t swing a sword, my prince, nor do I have a dragon to send after my enemies.”

“Don’t you?” He tilts his head, smiling when your cheeks flare with heat, as you join the small circle of his family.

Helaena notices you first, always attuned to you, and she smiles at you brightly when she sees that you’re still arm-in-arm with Aemond. Aegon, predictably, already has a goblet of wine in his hand and, judging from the way that he’s downing it as quickly as possible, deaf to his mother’s scolding, he’s not planning on leaving this wedding feast close to anything resembling sobriety.

“I’ve done my part Mother,” Aegon grumbles, his lips stained a deep red from his drink. “You can’t ask for more from me. Not tonight.”

Alicent sighs, wringing her hands together. She seems blind to you, completely oblivious to your presence. She’s focused on Aegon for now. “I just ask you don’t shame yourself. Please just control your habits for this feast at least.”

“I’ve already done what you asked,” he grumbles before he spots you. His eyes brighten and he gets that all too familiar grin on his face, the one that promises trouble. “Here’s your true crowning achievement in your matchmaking skills. Perhaps you should concern yourself about Aemond’s marriage bed instead of mine.”

You don’t react, simply meeting his gaze steadily, but Aemond tenses next to you.

“Enough,” Aemond rumbles and Aegon barks out a laugh.

“Enough? Enough?” He hisses. “It isn’t enough. It’ll never be enough for Mother.”

“Aegon,” Alicent hisses, her eyes flashing with an anger you’re unused to seeing on the Queen. It makes her look so much younger. A sister arguing with her brother than a mother of four. “Finish your drink then. Drink your heart out. Do as you always have for tonight then. But you will do what you must tomorrow. For the rest of your life, you will do your duty.”

“And what is that Mother?” Aegon says, his voice soft.

She looks at him, disappointment warring with grief on her face. “What is necessary, Aegon.”

There is a moment suspended, where they stare at each other, blind to the rest of the room. The music fades, the chatter of the room ceases. All that matters is the two of them.

You think Alicent wants to say more. You think Aegon wants to fight. They’re both hurting for it. They both want to make the other bend to their will, make the other understand, but there’s an insurmountable chasm separating the two of them. Nothing could bridge it - not unless one of them caves to the other and that could never happen. You think neither of them would even want it.

Alicent breaks first, sighing as she looks down at her hands, her fingers clasped tightly, her thumb digging into the cuticle of her other thumb. “Enjoy the feast. All of you.” Her voice fades slightly, cracking on the final word.

You bow your head, murmuring your thanks, but your voice is the only one that answers. When you straighten up, Helaena is looking down at the floor, looking lost in her own mind, while Aemond watches his mother. She gives him a wan smile before she brushes past, her perfumed scent lingering in the air as she moves into the crowd, melting into it.

There’s silence. Even in the loud, busy room, there’s silence in the shadow of the Iron Throne.

Then Aegon scoffs. “Of course. Of course.”

He sounds angry and you look up, your hackles rising as you want to snap back in defense of Alicent.

But he has tears in his eyes. He’s angry. He’s spitting. If you spoke, he’d find a target for his rage, someone to pin all of this anger and rage on. He’d say unspeakably cruel things.

But he has tears in his eyes.

Your fury dies in your throat.

It feels pointless.

He doesn’t linger. He leaves quickly, pushing through the crowd, the crowd parting around like a ship through water. All of you watch him go, the air thick with unspoken grief.

Helaena breaks the quiet first. “The broken emerald ring,” she murmurs. “The ruby shattered.”

You look over at her but she’s already shaking her head, knocking her head clear of the words she had just said. She meets your gaze and smiles. “The feast went well.”

You pause for a moment, registering her words, before nodding, trying your best to smile. “Your announcement went perfectly. I’m sure there’s already smallfolk singing your praises outside the keep.”

She makes a face and your smile turns more genuine. “I mean it Helaena.” You slip from Aemond’s grasp to get closer to her, wishing that you could reach out to her to pull her close. “How are you feeling?”

Helaena doesn’t say anything for a while, looking down at her fidgeting hands before looking up and meeting your eyes. She doesn’t smile but she nods her head. “I feel the same. Things have changed but… Not everything has.”

You nod. “You’ll remain here at least. With your brothers and your mother.”

“With you too,” She reminds, a smile finally flickering on her face.

You nod again, stronger, confident. “With me too.”

She gives you a final fond look before she turns her attention to Aemond. She looks at him, her eyes openly roving over his face and body. She’s looking for something, you think, but you don’t know what. You know Helaena as well as you know yourself. She’s so tied up into your own sense of self that you don’t think that, if you ever felt even the slightest desire to, you could ever cut her away from you. Her roots are deep in you, curling tight around your heart and soul.

But her mind can be as secretive as her prophecies.

“The iron crown,” Helaena says as she looks at her brother, her eyes bright. “The throneless king.”

Aemond doesn’t say anything but when you look over at him, he’s tilted his head up, gazing down at his sister with satisfaction glowing in his eyes.

He covets the crown. How could he not? He could have listened to his father and gone to Dragonstone to try for one of Syrax’s hatchlings or taken one of her eggs. Instead, he had claimed the largest dragon in the world - the Queen of All Dragons. He had lost his eye for that prize, had forever damaged his standing in the view of his father. His ambition knew no bounds and could not be satisfied in remaining as only a second son. Only his love for his family, the loyalty to his brother, kept his fanged desire caged behind his teeth. But he couldn’t keep it down. Not forever. Not in moments like this. It would always bubble to the surface, always threaten to break free.

You watch him, tracing the proud jut of his chin, the tilt of his head, and his overconfident pride.

He should wear a crown. He suits one - far more than Aegon.

You suit a crown. If you were born less than two centuries earlier, you would have had one. If Aemond had been born first, perhaps you would have still gotten one.

You quash the desire as soon as it rises up in you. If Aemond had been born first, he would have married Helaena more likely than not. Even now, if something were to happen to Aegon, the question of what to do with Helaena’s marriage would arise. If they were to have children, the matter would only complicate.

You were willing to do a lot of things. You were willing to bloody your hands, willing to burn bridges and move your family about like they were nothing more than pawns in this game you were playing. You were willing to do much.

But you’re not willing to sacrifice Helaena. You’re not willing to risk anything that would bring her harm.

There’s no use wishing and longing for a crown that just wasn’t your’s. That could never be yours. Perhaps if you played your cards right, a daughter of yours could one day grow to wear one on her head. Your grandson could one day sit the Iron Throne.

But not you. Not if there was Helaena and if you had it your way, you’d rip your plans to absolute shreds if you could ensure that she would remain safe through it all.

You swallow thickly, looking down at your hands. Even the thought feels treasonous, feels like a betrayal.

The soft call of your name pulls you out of your thoughts and when you look up, both Targaryen siblings are looking at you, their eyes both gleaming in the same way underneath the multicolored candlelight. An apology bubbles up in your throat and it’s only at the last second that you remember to apologize for what would make sense rather than what you really want to apologize for.

“Sorry,” you say, laughing slightly. “My mind left me. What were we discussing?”

Helaena is gracious even if Aemond narrows his eye. “I was asking if the two of you really mean to go dance or if you’re going to spend all night hiding with me.”

You frown slightly. “If you want me to hide with you.”

She snorts, so unladylike that you can’t help but to smile. “Absolutely not. If you hide with me, Mother will notice that you haven’t taken to the floor with Aemond which means she’ll notice I haven’t taken to the floor and she’ll make it her mission to make sure I dance with at least a few lords.”

“I’m sure she wouldn’t force you,” you try to defend her, your resolve weaker than it would have been before - now that you’ve witnessed her demands of Aegon. Still, it seems impossible that she would ever ask the same out of Helaena. Helaena was her only daughter, her only girl. She was sweeter and softer with Helaena.

Helaena nods her head, his smile only flickering a little. “Still, I wouldn’t want to push my chances.”

You watch for a beat longer, wishing that there was something you could say or do to make it easier, but eventually, you heave a sigh and nod.

“You needn’t look like you’re marching to your doom,” Aemond murmurs under his breath as he comes to stand next to you, offering you his arm once more.

You ignore him for a moment, giving Helaena one final look, letting her know that if she needs you, she need only call and you’ll come to her side but she waves you off. You focus your attention back on Aemond only to see him eying you with a small smirk.

“I should refuse you the dance,” you warn. “You only asked so you could beat my cousin to my first dance.”

He laughs. “Would it please you if I declared my intentions again - In front of all? What prize would you like this time? Another crown?”

“Perhaps the head of another Florent,” you reply, catching sight of the familiar shade of blue on the other side of the crowd, only visible as the two of you still stand on the dais. Erren Florent stands alone once more, dark and moody around the edges of the room. His son and good daughter stand by his side, subdued but preoccupied in speaking to well wishers as they approach. He speaks to no one, choosing to only stare at the pair of you.

Aemond hums. “My mother was almost a Florent. She told me earlier this week that the Hightowers once debated betrothing Grandfather to a Florent lady. They eventually decided on Lady Alerie Redwyne and she was convinced that was why the Florents chose to insult us by their repeated badgering of you and their less than subtle animosity towards us.”

You blink, letting the information settle in, before peering up at him. “So in another life, Victor Florent may have been a cousin or something of sorts. You’d have been a kinslayer.”

“There’s one in every line,” he replies, his eye glinting knowingly. He’s referencing the library, your debate about King Brandon and the night’s king all those years ago, but your mind races to the carriage ride here with your father and uncle and what you had said about his own uncle and sister. There were kinslayers in every line.

What would one more be?

You smile at him, suddenly pleased by the turn of his conversation. “The next dance will be a waltz,” you remind him. “It’d be terribly bold if our first dance was a waltz.”

“Bolder than crowning you?” He asks and your smile only grows.

“No,” you agree. “Not bolder than that.”

He begins leading you down to the dance floor and, when the two of you arrive, the mixer dance ends. Some of the floor dissipates but the majority of the crowd stays, people finding their partners and a free space for the two of them to claim on the borders of the floor. Some people slink on, grabbing partners as they go, and you and Aemond do as well, heading for a spot close to the center.

People greet the two of you as you pass and you smile and greet them all back, playing the kindly lady to Aemond’s aloof prince. You spot your father in the crowd, Lady Tyrell on his arm. You can spot Ser Edwyn Sand, a charming smile locked on his face as he leads a blushing lady of House Crakehall onto the floor. You can even see Baela towards the back of the room, laughing with someone who can only be one of her Velaryon cousins.

The two of you slow to a stop, settling in a spot next to an unsmiling Stormlands lord and his quiet wife. You turn to face Aemond, him copying your movements, and two of you wait for the rest of the room for the bards to begin their songs.

It takes a moment or two, most of it filled with the soft sounds of people chattering or the repetitive click-clack of peoples’ heels on the smooth stone floor.

But then the soft twang of the harp filters through the air, over the low brass of the pipes, and you curtsey deep to the ground, in unison with the other ladies in the room, as Aemond bows in response.

He reaches for you first and you respond in kind, lifting your arm high to settle on his shoulder while he grips your waist tight. The two of you spin slowly, the skirt of your dress flaring through the air, but the dance picks up, your feet never once taking a pause as the memories of your old lessons start reawakening.

At first, no one in the room speaks, as if there’s a spell cast over all demanding silence, but eventually the splatters of the conversations break out in the watching audience, spreading slowly and surely to the dancers in motion.

“You’ll have to forgive me, my prince, if I miss a few steps. It’s been years since I’ve actually studied the dances,” you start, more to open conversation than to actually apologize.

Aemond snorts. “I’m sure you danced your fair share back in Casterly Rock during the feasts for your brother’s birth.”

You immediately shake your head. “The feasts were a mite different there than they’ve been here. Tyshara and I mostly preoccupied ourselves with ensuring everything was going smoothly as our mother entered her confinement. I didn’t have much time for dancing. More to the point, I think the lords were rather scared to approach me after a time.”

He looks down at you as he dips you low and your heart flutters a bit in your chest without your permission. When he pulls you up, he pulls you closer than he ought but you don’t have it in you to push him away. “How so? Had they heard there was a Targaryen awaiting your return in King’s Landing?”

“I doubt it though I’m sure some suspected,” you reply, holding down a laugh. “No, they were all rather put off by me after I castigated two lordlings from House Clegane and Tarbeck for mocking my sister.”

“They mocked her?” He asks, raising an elegant brow. “Were they allowed to leave with their tongues?”

“I’m not your kingly father,” you mockingly scold. “I’m a Lannister. I wanted to toss them in with the lions my family keeps in the bowels of the Rock so they could see if they found their joke as funny as they did.”

“What was the joke?” He asks as he spins you out.

When he pulls you back, you take a half moment to catch your breath again, suddenly gratefully that Aemond was meant to be leading this dance since you’ve forgotten how you’re supposed to move relative to the rest of the floor. Thankfully, he has not or, more likely, all his years in the yard have taught how to read his opponents’ body language and he was just naturally inclined to move in response.

“They called her Cerelle the Almost Heir,” you say once the pair of you have settled in the new movement of the crowd. “I’d applaud the rhyme if it wasn’t for the fact that that name was meant to hide the fact that any of their houses would count themselves lucky to have Cerelle as their heir. She spent her entire life preparing for that possibility. Every waking moment was spent getting ready for the chance that she might become Lady of the Rock. Little Loren kept her from that but, if she was to be Lady Lannister, the true Lady Lannister, she would have been the fiercest in our history.”

“Did she want to be the Lady of the Rock?” Aemond asks after a moment and your eyes dart up to his. “Does she regret having it taken away from her?”

You know what he really wants to ask.

Does your sister sympathize with Rhaenyra Targaryen? Does she, like the Princess, resent the younger brother born to take it all away from her?

You had asked yourself that very question in the lead up to your brother’s birth. When the two of you, along with all your sisters, would make the trek to the golden sept in your home and kneel on the floor, letting the incense burn your noses and eyes, as you had all prayed fervently for a boy to be born, did a part of her pray for another little sister?

When she had cried in the birthing chamber, when she had whispered to you about buying a thick cloak for her journey north, were her tears ones of joy or loss?

How would you feel, you had dared wonder in the sanctity of your mind, if what had been yours was ripped from your hands by a mere babe? A baby that you had in equal parts prayed for and dreaded?

How would you feel if you were the Almost Heir?

You release a sigh, faintly aware of Aemond awaiting your response, faintly aware of the music reaching its crescendo. “She knew what would happen to us if Loren had been a girl,” you say in lieu of answering his question. “Our bannermen were already lying in wait to push their sons onto Cerelle in hopes that their boys would get to be the next Lord of the Rock, Warden of the West. House Lannister survived it once in our history, when Queen Leila was the only child born to King Gerold III. Our vassals’ hunger has only grown in size and ambition since.”

Aemond hums in response. “As hungry as they may be, their ambition is outpaced by the one inherent in Lannisters. Your sister herself recovered the title lost. She might not be Lady of the Rock but she is Lady of Winterfell now.”

It’ll sound natural eventually, you reason to yourself. Soon, the name Cerelle Stark will be as familiar to you as Cerelle Lannister is. Decades in the future, she will have spent more time with her married name than she ever had with her maiden one.

But it is not now and, in this moment with only Aemond patiently waiting for you, you do not have to pretend.

“I should have been there,” you murmur, voice soft as to not be overhead though you doubt anyone is listening and, if they are, they can hardly hear you over the constant hum of the crowd. “It was my idea. My plan. And I sent her there alone.”

“You were that invested in a trade contract with the Starks?” Aemond asks, with only the faintest hint of humor in his tone telling you that he knows damn well that the earlier lie that you maintained, the current lie you’re maintaining in the court, was just that. A lie.

A lie you want to dispel - at least with him.

“I was that invested in soldiers,” you reply softly. “In blood alliances. In oaths. Lord Cregan Stark is my good brother now. He has a line to the Lannisters as steady as the Rock. Which means he has a line to the Targaryens. He has an investment.”

The humor leaves Aemond’s face quickly and he looks at you as seriously as he had in the sanctified Dragonpit. “There’s never been a Stark who has forgotten a vow,” he murmurs, a hint of warning entering his voice. Not a warning of anger or rage but rather a reminder. It was for naught, he tries to remind you. You’ve lost your sister for no prize at all.

You smile again, confidence laced through it. “What’s an old vow to a wife’s warm embrace? What’s an old promise to a blood tie to the next ruler of the Seven Kingdoms? Lord Cregan is loyal, yes, but he’s pragmatic. He understands that for his people to survive, he needs to do what he must. His father’s vow was to the princess but he swore no vow. His vow is to the rightful heir and the rightful heir is supported by the house that helped him to his claim, the house that his lady wife is of.”

Aemond doesn’t say anything, looking at you over, only leading you through the dance out of sheer memory.

“You said earlier that you couldn’t swing a sword,” Aemond finally says as the dance slows to a stop, as he bows to you again and you curtsey in response. This time, his voice is firm and loud, loud enough for people to overhear. He wants them to hear this. “A sword would not be a strong enough weapon for you, my lady. You yourself are fiercer than any knight, more dangerous than any battalion.”

You don’t have time to bask in his compliment - not when another voice chimes in.

“Yes, the Lady Lannister is fierce. Fiercer than most know,” Erren Florent says, a cold smile plastered onto his face when your eyes jump to his.

Aemond and you rise up, the prince stepping in front of you slightly so you’re tucked behind his body, but Erren Florent’s smile does not flicker.

If you thought his soft countenance was a cover before, it is a grotesque death mask now. His gray eyes are bright but empty, utterly soulless as he keeps his smile firmly on his face. His skin stretches tight around his skull, as pale as any corpse now. If you hadn’t met him before his son’s death, you would swear that he was no human. No, you’d say, no human can look like that - as if they’ve peeled someone else’s face off and are wearing it as a mask, as if their own body is not your own.

Aemond is tense but he can afford to be tense. His weapon is a sword. His weapon is the largest dragon alive.

The only tool you have at your disposal now is your courtesy.

You smile brightly at him, as sweet as any lady could ever be, pushing down Aemond’s arm slightly so you can peer around him more easily. “My lord,” you greet, bowing your head, keeping your grip on the Targaryen firm. You’re here, you’re safe, you want to remind but you can’t, not with Lord Florent watching you with his dead eyes, waiting for any chink in your armor. “I meant to meet with you but time got away from me. As the Maiden in the wedding party, I was kept well occupied until this feast. I wish to pass along House Lannister’s, as well as my own, condolences. The loss of Ser Victor was a tragic one, one that will be surely felt in the City Watch for years to come.”

Erren bows his head, keeping his head down even as Aemond echoes your words, passing along the Crown’s sympathies. When he looks up, the first hint of emotion has broken through his closed expression.

Cold rage dances in his eyes.

“It’s a loss I will feel until the Stranger comes to claim me,” he says, his voice soft like a whisper. “A loss that will haunt my every waking moment.”

There’s nothing you can say to that. No words you could conjure that would make that blow any easier, would make him hate you any less.

You don’t want to. You don’t want to soften the blow. You want him to feel every moment of his grief. You hope that the pain of his loss will remind him of what his son had forgotten.

You are a Lannister, a daughter of the Rock. Your blood is old, the blood of kings. Even without Aemond, you are above a Florent even if their line stretches back as far as your own. A lion could not be caged by a fox, no matter how hard it might try. A lion could be caged by no one.

Not even a dragon.

“I pray you will find comfort, my lord,” you finally say, stepping out from behind Aemond, walking closer to Erren Florent. The old lord does not step back to accommodate you, letting you get within arm's length of you.

If he wanted to, he could reach out and strangle you here. He could pull a knife out and push it deep in your heart and not even Aemond would be able to stop it. If he wished it, Erren Florent could kill you as easily as you draw breath and there was nothing anyone could do about it.

But he can’t and that pain must be equal to the loss of the son. To have the reason for Victor's death, the true reason and not just the means through which it was delivered, so close at hand and being unable and unwilling to do anything.

How hateful a scene. How horrid.

You step closer, a smile dancing on your lips.

“May you find peace, my lord,” you murmur, your words intended for only you and him.

“May I find justice,” he snarls back, his mask slipping even further, his face twisting in his vengeance. His hot breath washes over your face, burning and awful, and you can taste the sharp smell of wine on your tongue.

Aemond steps closer, his chest pressing against your back, but you don’t move, not even to accommodate his touch. You stand in front of Erren Florent, smiling as innocent as a lamb.

“Justice, my lord? You found it. Your son earned it. The debt is paid,” you say, voice serene and calm. “But if you wish to seek further satisfaction, you are welcome to it. I could hardly deny it.”

You step closer, your expression never slipping.

Your smile grows, hunger sharpens it. “I pray you do, in fact. I pray you aim for more than your station affords you, just as your son did.”

“Why? So your prince might drive a sword through my throat?” Erren growls, all pretense of civility gone from his face.

You lean closer. “So that I might.”

There’s a moment where the two of you stare each other down, when the rest of the room including Aemond fades and it's just the two of you in the room together.

All he wants is to wrap his hands around your throat and squeeze, squeeze, squeeze. He wants to break your neck. He wants to smash your head against the stone floor, crack it open like an egg and spill your brains out for all to gawk at.

Try it, you want to whisper. Try it and let me loose the hounds of war. Let me rip your house out by root and stem and seed. Let me wear your carnage and gore as a crown. Let no one utter the name Florent as anything but a warning. Try it and let me pay the debt.

The moment passes. The opportunity fades.

His anger festers. Your hunger grows.

He steps back, his mask sliding back into face.

“My lady,” Erren says, bowing his head.

“My lord,” you reply, dropping into a curtsey.

He leaves as quickly as he had come. You watch him go, slithering through the crowd towards the large doors of the throne room.

“I was his purpose,” you say softly but Aemond is close enough that he hears you.

“You are his purpose,” his voice is low and harsh and fierce and you turn to look at him, your skirt moving around you in a flurry. His eye is locked on you, concern sharpening his features into a fury. “He only lives now to seek his satisfaction. He won’t rest until he has your head mounted on his wall. ”

“It is a nice head, I’ll grant him that,” you laugh, your heart still pounding fast in your chest. “But it is mine and I have never been one to share.”

Aemond takes in a sharp breath, closing his eye. When he opens it, his worry is tempered by growing anger.

“You should carry a dagger,” he murmurs, his voice low, his tone leaving no space for disagreement. “I am your sword, I will always rise to defend you, but I cannot be everywhere at once. There are places that I cannot follow, places he will go to seek his vengeance.”

Your smile drops slightly. “I don’t know how to wield one. I’m more likely to stab myself than do anyone any real harm.”

His hand reaches out to touch your face, only pausing in mid air when he remembers himself. He drops his hand, clenching it into a fist at his side.

He’s angry, his brow furrowed tight with an anxiety you haven’t seen since Driftmark, since he was helpless and defenseless.

Your hands itch with the desire to smooth out the tightness in his face and you wish you were alone with a fierceness that threatens to tear you in half.

“I’ll show you,” he insists, his eye flickering all over you as if he’s already imagining what you would look like if Erren Florent had his way with you, as if he can already see imaginary wounds littering your body and even the mere thought of them is too much for him to bear. “I will show you and you will keep yourself safe when I cannot. You say you’re not one to share - I’m not either. I won’t be forced to suffer the loss of you. I’ve killed one Florent for you. I’ll kill another. I’ll keep slaughtering them until I’ve bled their house dry and even then, I won’t stop until all threats are gone, until you are safe in this new world that I will build for you.”

Your heart stutters in your chest. “And if there’s no end to the enemies you’ll make?”

“Then I won’t stop. I won’t stop until it’s just you and me left.”

You stare at him but nothing in his face flickers, nothing flashes. He is serious. He means what he says and you feel the weight of his devotion come crashing down on you. It is the heaviest thing you have ever felt. It knows no bounds and it crushes you completely, consuming every last bit of you and leaving room for nothing else.

And you relish it.

You’re not alone in your all-encompassing thoughts. Your hunger, your aching, raw desire, has its match, its partner, in him.

The enormity of it steals your breath from you, filling your lungs.

You’re not alone. It is complete ecstasy. It is utter bliss.

He stares at you, anger and worry fading away into anxiety, when he sees you’re not responding. Try as he might, hide as he will, but he cannot escape the little boy he once was, the boy desperate to be seen, the little boy desperate to be accepted, to be taken in.

“You are mine,” you say, the words leaving your mouth as easily as air enters your lungs. He sways towards you when he hears the weight of your voice, the adoration, the worship. “You are mine and I am yours.”

His eye grows wide and he stares down at you, his mouth dropping open slightly, looking as if you couldn’t have affected him more than if you had hit him over the head with a wooden beam, and you smile finally, feeling tears prick in the back of your eyes.

You had imagined saying it differently. You had imagined the library, had imagined being alone with none to disturb you.

But somehow, you can’t imagine it any different than this, any better than a stolen moment at the edge of a dance floor.

You reach out and grab his clenched fist, wrapping your hand around it as you bring it up to your mouth, pressing a gentle kiss on his knuckles.

“With this kiss,” you say, feeling almost delirious in your desire to do this. To prove yourself. To say something that can match his endless devotion. “I pledge my love. I pledge my life. I pledge my strength.”

It’s not enough. It won’t be enough. Not until you die in service of him.

But you need it. Oh gods, but you need it.

You drop his hand when you hear Daeron’s voice call, when you hear Alicent say his name right after.

You drop his hand and you smile at him, swallowing the thick tears down.

And he smiles back.

[jaimeslanisters]

the pawn in every lover’s game (part fourteen)

Aemond Targaryen x Lannister!Reader

When you’re ten, your father sends you to King’s Landing to befriend a princess and woo a prince. A lioness growing up amongst dragons is a dangerous thing indeed.

crossposted on ao3 masterlist word count: 16.1k notes: posting. so i can finally beat those death allegations... 🙏🏼 please take this extra long chapter as my apology if any of you are still around

The wedding of Aegon and Helaena Targaryen ends with as much fanfare as it had began with. Buried underneath the cheers and claps, you can still distinctly hear a choir singing a hymn, its lyrics completely muffled by the sound of revelry still reverberating within the Dragonpit. You’ve long since stopped clapping, having decided to at least save your palms some of the misery, but the rest of the room seemingly does not seem to mind the sting, the sounds of their claps shaking the room like thunder. From your vantage point, you can see how Helaena’s smile tightens and how Aegon’s eyes seem to grow increasingly more and more distressed. Their hands are squeezing each other so tight that even from your vantage point, you can see how their pale knuckles whiten even further from their tight grip on one another. They look beautiful, striking and unnatural, but all you can see when you look up at them are the ghosts of the children they used to be, dressed up and lovely but painfully unprepared.

Part of you wants to usher them off the altar, to save them just a little of the embarrassment, to shield them from the all too piercing gazes of the capitol.

A larger part of you, however, knows that this is only a taste of what they will have to face in the future. Sooner rather than later, the entirety of the realms would be looking to them for direction, for wisdom, and for strength, and they would all trace it all back to this singular moment in time. The historians, the maesters, the singers, and the storytellers would all look back to this one day, to this mere stretch of an hour, and say that this is where the tone of their reign was decided. It’s monumental. It’s historic.

It’s no wonder the Queen looks as stressed as she does. It’s a miracle you haven’t ripped your own hair out.

Just as the cheers begin to die down, you sense movement out of the corner of your eye and you turn your head in time to see Ser Criston nod to the Lord Hand, murmuring something quietly in response. In the next breath, Ser Criston moves up towards the altar, bowing his head to Aegon and Helaena as he does. Behind him, other kingsguards move up to follow behind, their white cloaks starched to perfection so they practically shine with a pale glow from the sunlight filtering in through the windows in the domed roof. They form a wall around the two Targaryens, leaving space for them to remain visible to the rest of the Dragonpit but close enough that no attackers would stand any chance of getting close enough to do damage. It’s a shockingly familiar picture, one that you’ve seen countless times before though not in recent memory.

It’s King Viserys and Queen Alicent, hand in not quite loving hand, their twin crowns perched delicately onto their heads as they stand proud before their people.

Almost.

Not quite but maybe just enough.

“The Lord Hand has an eye for the dramatics,” you murmur to Aemond, not taking your eyes away from the altar, from the show of extravagance.

Aemond hums, dropping his arm down to scoop your’s up. You hide a smile at his show of affection, however small it may be. “He was the one to insist on the coronet. Mother was the one to push for the wedding to be in the Dragonpit rather than the throne room. The throne room would be limited to only nobility and even then, only the highest echelon. Here - thousands can fit.”

You nod, glancing over your shoulder. In the very back, some people have started to move towards the wide open doors, sensing that the ceremony has ended and seeking a quick escape, but the vast majority of people stay, still clambering to catch a glimpse of the royals. The mass of the smallfolk are held at bay by a wall of City’s Watch, their cloaks forming a golden wall between the nobility and the rest of King’s Landing.

Like the curtains of a playhouse stage.

This was a performance. A beautiful lie where the actors would play their roles to perfection or fall to shambles in front of the world. Endless and endless roles and parts to play, endless scenes to perform. It would never end. It couldn’t.

Smallfolk didn’t care about who sat the Iron Throne. They didn’t care about which Lord ruled over them, didn’t care whose birthright was being taken, whose ruling right was being usurped. They cared about being fed. They cared about surviving the winter. They cared about their sons growing into old and grey men instead of dying young in a nameless field and their daughters marrying good, kind men.

They cared about their stories - their pretty little stories they could pass onto their children and their children’s children. They cared about Jonquil and her fool of a knight. They cared about Symeon Star-Eye, about Lann the Clever, about Brandon the Builder.

They would care about this - about the beautiful Targaryen maiden with emeralds in her hair and amethysts in her eyes marrying her equally beautiful brother, the yet uncrowned king. They would care about the dragon and his treasure.

They would care about the performance.

The performance was all that mattered.

“All the world’s a stage,” you murmur quietly and Aemond lets out a small noise, prompting you to tear your eyes away from the goldcloaks to peer up at him. Even as the guards begin to prompt all of the nobles to start to be ushered out of Dragonpit, to be guided through the tunnels, he looks down at you, focusing his attention solely on your words. It warms something up in you and you resist the urge to curl into him, tuck yourself into his side.

“It’s a quote,” you say, smiling slightly thinking about your little sister with her ink stained fingers. “Jeyne… She loves plays, you see. Always reading them, writing them. She used to make me and Tyshara act in them even. There’s a playwright she enjoys. It’s a quote from one of his works, I believe. She convinced me to go see it with her in Lannisport a few months ago.”

“You used to act in her plays?” He questions, gently pulling you along as the guards begin to grow a little more insistent. He walks slowly, keeping pace with you, and the two of you trail behind the rest of the wedding party, behind them but leading the rest of the nobility.

You mockingly frown at him. “What are you trying to imply, my prince? I was a once-in-a-generation talent. Joy still talks about my turn as a knight, a queen, and as a lady in a lake. In the same play.”

“Really?” Aemond says flatly, raising his eyebrow. “I remember a lady always finding my hiding spot in the library and somehow always being surprised to find me. You stopped being convincing after the first few times.”

You tilt your head up to hold your chin high even as your cheeks flare with embarrassed heat. “It worked, didn’t it? Seems like I was something of a leading star.”

“Your audience was a lonely ten-year-old boy and you were the prettiest girl I had ever seen, let alone the prettiest girl to ever talk to me. You could have convinced me that you were Balerion the Black Dread reborn if you had set your mind to it.”

A laugh bursts its way out of you, loud enough that Otto and Alicent turn around to peer curiously at the two of you, one smiling and the other frowning. Part of you wants to seize up at the scrutiny but a bigger part of you wants to stay in this moment and curl up in the warm glow in your chest.

Anything to distract you from the night ahead.

From all the nights ahead.

“Seems a shame I didn’t realize my skills,” you muse, pulling yourself away from the anxious thoughts that creep at the edges of your subconscious. “Then again, if ten-year-old me had known her own power, I’m afraid she might have grown drunk off of it. Who knows what she would have ended up doing?”

Aemond smiles, shaking his head slightly. “Perhaps she would have grown bold enough to woo a prince?”

You laugh again, gleefully, and this time Daeron stops in front of his mother to look back at you. You wave him off, smiling at him, but not before he grins at the two of you, so clearly pleased by the closeness you’re sharing with his brother.

The two of you settle into the silence and, once you step into tunnels leading deeper and deeper into the Dragonpit, you pull his arm closer to you as you follow the blend of goldcloaks and kingsguard. The tunnels are brighter than they were the last time you had entered these halls, when you had followed Helaena deep into the bowels of the pit itself. New lit sconces have been placed into the walls, carefully carved into the stone so they cast the light of the flames over the uneven ground. Even still, you’re careful to watch your step and keep your grip tight on Aemond’s arm, using him to balance yourself in case you misstep and stumble into a dip in the ground.

Somehow, it’s louder the deeper you go into the tunnels, the stone walls amplifying the footsteps of thousands above of you until it’s almost like there are waves crashing on the shore over your head, torrential and powerful. It reverbrates and shakes to the point that dust falls off the rocky ceiling, covering your dress with a thin layer, dulling the starched white into a yellowed shade. You’re not the only one suffering if the cries of the noblemen behind you are anything to go by and you can even feel it on your skin, feel little rocks falling into your hair.

The tunnels have never been so crowded, so full, before.

But there’s a strange emptiness in the air.

“Where did the dragons go?” You ask Aemond. As impossible as it would be, a part of you feels like you’ve snuck into the tunnels, even surrounded as you are by everyone in King’s Landing. It almost feels like you could turn a corner and run into the massive beasts that call this hill home, as if you’ll stumble onto them and have a dragon breathe flame onto you for the injury of trespassing.

Aemond tilts his head. “Dreamfyre and Sunfyre are waiting at another exit to take Helaena and Aegon to the Red Keep for a final procession in the sky. I believe Daeron has Tessarion housed somewhere near the Kingswood though she might have left if she grew bored of the cattle that they got her.”

“And Vhagar is at her roost, I assume?” You ask and Aemond spares you a small smirk.

“Why so inquisitive? Are you interested in meeting her, my lady?”

You miss your next step and only your hand curled around Aemond’s bicep keeps you upright. You right yourself fast enough but not so quick that you don’t hear his stifled laugh, a quick and quiet little thing.

Cheeks embarrassingly hot, you swallow thickly, holding back your immediate and empathetic ‘No’. It is a poorly kept secret that you aren’t fond of the Targaryens’ sigil and Aemond would love the chance to push and prod at this side of you. You weren’t hateful or even open about your aversion. You have just never once jumped at the chance to get close to any dragon, no matter the countless opportunities you’ve been given over the years, and you would shy away from offers to see them.

Helaena never failed to offer to bring you along with her to the Dragonpit and you would occasionally accompany her even if you would always beg off on actually going in with her. Aemond had only ever made one explicit offer, back when he was only weeks into having had claimed Vhagar, and you had been humiliatingly forceful in your denial. It was an embarrassing memory to look back on, one that you always cringed away from even thinking about. Even now, you can remember how you had stammered out a no, citing a recent newfound fear of heights and a mystery injury that had rendered you incapable of climbing up the tangled web of ropes that constituted Vhagar’s harness. You had been petrified to hurt his feelings, so soon after Driftmark, but Aemond had taken your rejection remarkably well even if he had looked insufferably amused by your poor excuses.

Yet another mark against you as an actress.

Aemond had never asked you again though he was remarkably transparent in his desire for you to meet Vhagar. He’d always announce when he was going to go see her, making sure that you were in earshot, and, once, when you were both years younger, he had made a grand show of having commissioned a large saddle of Vhagar - large enough to fit two.

His brothers, surprisingly, were less single-minded in their attempts to convince you to warm up to their sigil. Daeron, in the early years when Tessarion had been comparatively small and he would come to visit, would cheerfully invite you to come feed her with him, seemingly oblivious to the way you would grimace at the thought of seeing a dragon feast on a goat again as you had as a little girl. Aegon was, shockingly enough, the Targaryen least invested in your interest in dragons. While he was always prone to bragging about Sunfyre’s beauty, he hoarded moments with him to himself, zealously protecting his time with his dragon with such fervor that one would almost think that he was paranoid someone would steal Sunfyre out from under him.

No, your lack of fondness for the dragons the Targaryens rode was hardly a secret.

But it feels wrong to say that now.

Now, when all of your intentions had been laid bare at Aemond’s feet. Now, when you’re holding onto Aemond without nervous fear creeping up your throat, without the anxieties of wondering if he wanted you half as much as you wanted him.

No, you couldn’t say that.

“Perhaps,” you start slowly, the words dragging themselves out of you slowly, sluggishly as if your own body was rebelling against what you were about to say. “I would want to meet her. I… I imagine it’s time I see her.”

You feel a jerk on your arm and you stop short, turning to gape at Aemond. He’s completely stopped in the middle of the hallway, staring so intently at you that for a moment, you fear that your very skin will light on fire where his eyes trail on you. You’ve pulled away from him slightly, the most space between your bodies since you had stood in your place next to him during the ceremony, but your hand is still loosely gripping his arm, a tether between the two of you.

“Do you mean that, my lady?” He asks softly, as if he’s scared you’ll take it back, as if he’s nervous you’ll snatch your own words out of the air and push him away.

Around you, your guards slide to a stop behind the pair of you, a crimson wall between the two of you and the rest of the nobility approaching. There are only moments until they’ll be pressing down on your sacred space.

But you don’t look over at them. You look at him.

You feel like a ten-year-old again, sitting at your table in the library, eyes wide as you stare up at Aemond. If you try, you can almost erase the grown man in front of you and slot in a ten-year-old boy, his head wrapped in bandages, his mouth set in a determined line. He had been holding books in his arms, tight to his chest like a shield to protect himself with.

Had he been nervous? You can’t quite remember. Maybe he had been shaking. Maybe his teasing smile after had been hiding the hurt in his eyes. You can’t remember, can’t remember anything but the way it had felt as if your own stomach had dropped to the very ground at the mere idea of approaching the Queen of All Dragons.

You lick your lips, mouth dry. Despite the nerves creeping up your spine, the primal fear that threatens to settle in your bones, there’s only one answer you can give.

“Yes,” you say, voice soft and gentle, almost like a whispered promise down in these winding tunnels where dragons make their home. “Yes, I will meet her.”

Aemond Targaryen is all sharp edges and white knuckles, a dragon’s rage contained within one man. Just two days ago, he had plunged a sword through a man’s throat and stood victorious over him, had been hungry for more and for you. He was proud and lethal, fire and blood embodied.

There’s little trace of that man now.

Now, he stares at you as if this is the first time he’s ever seen you before. His gaze is almost unbearably soft, unbearably gentle. Even as children, he’s never been this open, this completely vulnerable.

Your heart clenches painfully in your chest.

A near decade since Driftmark. A near decade you’ve denied Aemond this.

You tug on his arm, beckoning Aemond to keep up, and this time, he’s dependent on you guiding him through the winding tunnels. His eyes stay on you, scanning you for any sign that you’re reluctant.

You’re not, however. More than your fear, more than your anxieties, you feel remorse creeping up your throat.

It’s an ugly, sickly feeling. You’re not used to guilt, not used to feeling sorry. You like moving people like chess pieces, the subtle art of manipulation, exercising your control and power.

But not with Aemond.

Never with Aemond.

And now, he’s caught you twice in a mere few days.

Your stomach still churns at the memory of when he had revealed that your intentions had always been plain. He had seemingly been okay with it, had seemingly appreciated that you had pursued him, but a part of you still wants to apologize for it.

Just not here.

You can feel the eyes of the nobility behind, peering through the wall of crimson cloaks that can’t quite shield you from their prying eyes. What you want to say deserves to just be his, your’s and his alone with no danger of someone stepping in and interrupting.

You already had to share him with the rest of the world. You didn’t want to have to share this too.

For just a moment’s breath, you allow yourself to lean into Aemond, pressing your side into his, resting your head on his arm. It’s only for a moment but you soak it in, trying your best to commit to memory the feel of his toned arm under your cheek, the way his body shifts to accommodate you, always aware of you as if you’re burned into his periphery, another part of him as he is to you.

You pull away, curling your hand around his arm. He doesn’t say anything but his other hand floats up, moving to cover your own, squeezing it tight.

You walk deeper into the tunnels, the crashing footsteps of King’s Landing all around you.

——————————–

The sunlight is almost unbearable after the tunnels. The sconces had done little to acclimate your eyes and when the narrow passageways open up to the bright blue cloudless sky, you reel back on instinct, turning your face away from the relentless sun. Blessedly, the ground is smoother out here, the rock having been worn down from decades of wagons and the heavy feet of dragons, and you move forward blindly before your eyes adjust.

You’re at the base of Rhaenys’ Hill, away from the grand entrance with its soaring arches and bronze doors. Here, the trees have receded, giving way to a few brick houses that line the bottom of the hill, houses that you know are large and luxurious but somehow seem so quaint in the shadow of the Dragonpit. In the distance, you can see the walls of King’s Landing, looming high over the city. From your vantage, you make out the Dragon Gate with its oversized dragon statues serving as sentinels, the golden bronze serving as a beacon to denote its location. If you turn your head west, you can just see the Old Gate though your sight of it is obscured by the massive mansions that surround it, populated by the richest merchants in the city.

Out here, in the barely fresh air, it almost feels like a world removed from the crowded Dragonpit or even the lined streets of the capital. There are no smallfolk jostling to catch a glimpse at the gilded few. There is no cheering, no screaming. There are just rows and rows of wheelhouses, servants standing at the ready next to them, such a familiar sight that it borders on the mundane. It feels, for the first time all day, normal.

It’s almost sickening.

It feels like you should have walked out to a world on fire. The buildings should have shifted, rearranged themselves to fit this new reality, but all of it is the same. It’s the King’s Landing you’ve grown up with. The King’s Landing you’ll die with.

You dig your thumbnail deep into your own palm, using the small jolt of pain to anchor yourself back into the moment, to quell your own mounting disappointment at this new bitter reality.

Aemond leads you down to the closest ring of wheelhouses, towards the gathered crowd of his family. You spare a glance over your shoulder. It’s a mass of people, all of them more finely dressed than the last, but Lannisters have always stood a head and shoulder above all the rest and that stays true even now. Jason and Tyland are tall and Tygett is even taller and, through seeing them, you can spot the smaller figures of your cousins and distant uncles surrounding them, even as deep as they are in the crowd of nobles.

“I imagine my father will come to fetch me soon enough,” you muse quietly to Aemond, eying the massive crowd that separates you from them.

Aemond spares you a look, his delicate mouth downturned. “You’re free to ride with us in our wheelhouse. There’s room to spare since I believe Princess Rhaenys will ride with her house and Grandfather has some matters to discuss with Lord Hightower in his wheelhouse.”

You hide a smile before shaking your head. “I’m a Lannister, my prince. I may live with dragons but I’m a lion and I go with the rest of the pride for now.”

“For now,” Aemond repeats and you don’t bother hiding your crooked smile now.

“For now,” you echo.

You rejoin his family by his wheelhouse and, the instant you arrive, Alicent descends upon the two of you, her hands fluttering up to brush off nonexistent dust off of Aemond’s tunic.

“You both did lovely,” Alicent praises, offering you both nervous smiles, and you instantly recognize the look in her eye, the energy that seems to pour out of her fingertips and fill the air with a cautious, staticky charge. She’s coming down from an impossible high - for all intents and purposes, she could still be riding that high, still drunk off the adrenaline.

You smile back at her, feeling a similar pulse of nervous energy coursing through your veins even as you bow your head in gratitude. “Thank you, Your Grace. I’d like to congratulate you on the beautiful ceremony - all of it, every single last detail, was an absolute marvel.”

Alicent’s smile softens, losing some of that manic quality and turning into something warmer. There’s a flicker of pride on her face, that age-old feeling of success and satisfaction. It makes her look that much younger, more overeager girl desperate for a pat on the head from her septa than a Queen carrying the burden of seven kingdoms on her back.

She is young if you think about it. If your math is correct, she’s over a decade younger than your own mother and Cerelle is not even a year older than Aegon. Your stomach twists at the thought, at the age she must have been during her first pregnancies. It had been a miracle that no harm had come to Alicent or to any of her babes.

Your mind flashes to Helaena, to the fact that now that she was wedded and soon to be bedded, her first child would come soon enough. That familiar, tell-tale nausea of anxiety begins to creep up your throat and you swallow it down thickly, trying desperately to bury it deep within you, alongside all the other anxieties that haunt your every move. Helaena is older than her mother had been. Helaena is stong - healthy.

You forcibly drag your focus back onto Alicent, just in time to see her bow her head in gratitude, pulling away from Aemond to give the two of you some space. As soon as she moves, however, Daeron takes her place, beaming brightly. His hair is slightly messier than it had been earlier, some of the delicate braids knocked askew as if he had run his hand through the tresses, but all of it only serves to give him a boyish charm. He’s still otherworldly, still more beautiful than anyone has any right to be, but he’s unmistakably human, unmistakably a boy.

It warms you right up and you smile more easily at him, part of you wishing you could reach out and muss up his curls even further. Boy that he is, and as close to adulthood as he is, something in his rosy cheeks and his bright eyes reminds you of Joy, of your little sister with her own rosy cheeks and bright eyes.

“I think you were right, Aemond,” Daeron says, grinning. “All of it went smoothly. Maybe the sun is a blessing for Valyrian weddings? Keep them warm and all of that.”

“As smoothly as it could,” Aemond drawls, seemingly unaffected by the warmth that his brother seems to exhibit like a little sun of his own. You suppose he’s rather used to it, having had him for years before little Daeron had been shipped off to Oldtown. You imagine he was even freer in his affection and kindness as a little boy but somehow, it’s impossible to imagine Daeron being any more sweet. “Helaena and Aegon will need every blessing the Gods see fit to give them.”

You snort, completely unladylike to the point you can feel the ghost pain of your childhood septa rapping you on the knuckles with her ruler. Neither prince seems to mind so you barrel forward. “If an entire day of prayers solely devoted to their union can’t conjure up some goodwill and luck, I pray the sun will do the trick.”

Daeron laughs. “I bet everyone else in the city is also praying for them too. They all want their future princes and princesses to be healthy - especially the heir. I’m sure they’re praying for them as they prayed for Mother and Father.”

You hide a smile but Aemond makes no such effort, looking supremely amused by his younger brother’s guileless treason. Daeron says it as if it’s a settled fact, a law of nature - not the most dangerous dispute to threaten House Targaryen since perhaps Maegor the Cruel. In a way, you suppose it is.

Aegon Targaryen is the true heir to the Iron Throne. He may not be a named heir but calling something by a different name did not change the facts, could not shift the foundations that all of Westeros was built upon.

It is not treason to see the truth.

No one has ever said it so plainly and with such clear language though. You wonder if Daeron even has it in him to be duplicitous, to weave lies in with the truth until it was interchangeable in the same way his grandfather could.

No, you think as you look him over. He’s far too gentle for it, far too chivalrous. He’s the son of Alicent Hightower or, at least, the son of the gentle girl she must have been before the throne turned her into the woman she had to be.

“If the Gods see to bless them, then they will be blessed,” you say in as sincere a voice you can muster. You sound so devout that even the High Septon could not find fault with you but, judging from the tremble of Aemond’s arm tucked into your’s from his suppressing his laughter, you’ve failed with at least one person.

Daeron smiles at you, smaller than his previous grins but all the more sincere. “You’re right, my lady.”

“She rarely isn’t,” Aemond says, sounding entirely too smug to be praising you. “With the exception of her evaluation of her own acting skills.”

You scowl, immediately losing whatever minimal glow you had earned through your holy act. “I was ten and it clearly worked.”

“You used to act?” Daeron asks, looking like a child who’s just been handed a new toy.

You flush. “I didn’t. He’s poking fun.”

At the same time, Aemond says, “She used to. She was terrible but she has improved.”

Daeron laughs gleefully, his amethyst eyes flashing with unbridled joy. “My lady, I had no idea you were a thespian.”

“My sister,” you say, rather than explaining your storied past with acting with regards to Aemond in particular. “She fancies herself a would-be playwright. She’s always scribbling away on any scrap piece of parchment she can find.”

The youngest Targaryen prince tilts his head in response. “Is she good? Have you read her plays?”

You smile slightly. “I tried my best to read them when I was home, my prince, but she guards them more zealously than some dragons guard their treasure.” Aemond snorts quietly next to you, clearly amused by your little barb, and Daeron’s gaze turns all that fonder at his older brother’s obvious satisfaction. “I’m afraid the only writing of Jeyne’s I’ve read in recent memory is her letters,” you finish, sighing slightly.

It certainly hadn’t been due to lack of effort. You had cajoled, attempted bribery, even tried to (unconvincingly) threaten her. Short of locking her in her room, you had no way of getting the opportunity to read Jeyne’s plays. When the two of you were younger, you could hardly go a day without her shoving sheets of parchment in your face, staining your dress sleeves with the ink on her fingers with the way she would tug on them to beg you to read them over. When you had returned home, you had been the one chasing her down, begging for even a morsel of her thoughts.

Just another way that your world has shifted in a way you’re never going to get back.

“I’m sure she’s a great talent,” Daeron says, cheerful and amiable. He’s so sincere that you imagine even the High Septon could find no fault with him though you are certain he would try.

“Like the rest of her sisters, my Jeyne is a rare talent,” your father’s voice cuts through the din and you start slightly, turning to the source. Behind your father, you can see your uncle speaking with Lord Otto and the Queen, Tygett and Tygett’s own father and uncles at his side.

You bow your head at your father in greeting and, next to you, Aemond and Daeron do the same, Aemond deeper than his brother. This doesn’t pass Jason’s keen eyes and his gaze turns sharper, more mischievous boy than a High Lord, and you fight the urge to bury your head in your hands.

Your father will always have his fun.

“Prince Aemond,” Jason says, his voice high and lofty, and Aemond straightens next to you, his normal rigid posture even stiffer. Your father’s eyes sharpen at the shift, looking distinctly leonine, and even Daeron looks absolutely delighted by the turn of events. “I didn’t get the chance to congratulate you directly but House Lannister would like to extend our thanks for honoring my daughter as you have.”

Aemond bows his head again. “She brings herself honor, my lord. I was only given the opportunity to bring the rest of the capital’s attention to it.”

Jason laughs, so clearly amused, and you bite your lip to stop yourself from saying something. Knowing your father, it would only make this game he’s playing all that more fun. “The rest of the capital? After the tourney, I’m afraid the rest of the kingdoms are all too aware of my daughter’s honor now. On my way to the Dragonpit, I could hear some songs being sung through the walls of my wheelhouse. My uncle’s granddaughters were enraptured - they’re already asking their fathers to bring some bards back to Lannisport so they can share the songs with the other members of House Lannister.”

A thrill crawls its way up your spine. You certainly haven’t heard any songs - not that you would have had the chance to hear them - and you had known that the bards would do as they always do and write their songs. The pretty little story that the tourney had provided them with had been too good, too perfect, for them to resist.

But it actually happening is something else entirely.

You don’t dare look up at Aemond now, not when you’re certain it’d be impossible to hide from his amethyst eye, and the sight of your father’s increasingly amused face makes you want to crawl into your own skin to hide so you stay quiet, praying that the conversation will end.

Daeron, however, has no such qualms.

“Really?” He exclaims, so audibly delighted that you look over at him without even thinking. He’s brightened up entirely, grinning so wide that one would think that the bards were writing their songs about him. “Are they any good?”

Jason laughs, similarly pleased to have found someone to play along with his charade. “I’m no great expert on songs, my prince. You’ll have to ask my cousins for an educated opinion.”

Daeron laughs. “Perhaps a bard or two will sing a song at the wedding feast.”

“Perhaps not,” you intervene, sniffing delicately, unable to hold back your tongue. Next to you, Aemond snorts quietly. “This is Helaena’s wedding. Not mine. The singers should stick to the classics rather than trying out any new material on everyone.”

“Give it time, sweetling,” Jason teases and his voice has taken a softer tone, his smile just that much warmer. “Soon you and your dragon prince’s songs will be the classics. You’ll be begging for them to play new songs then.”

You sigh, rolling your eyes, and, against your own better judgment, you glance up at Aemond in hopes of finding an ally in this battle with your father and his unexpected ally Daeron. Predictably, he looks horribly amused as if this was all a big game to him, a show being put on for him. But he’s not just amused. There’s a shine to his eye, a gleam of something that isn’t just barely concealed laughter.

It’s warming. It’s gentle. It’s intoxicating.

You quickly look away, suddenly all too aware of the consequences of looking at him here, in front of your own father.

The thought of providing Jason Lannister with that much ammunition is almost too much to bear.

“We’ll have time to continue this at the feast,” Jason finally says, shedding the skin of a teasing young boy and donning his high lord costume. “In fact… Your Queen Mother and I have planned a tea for tomorrow. Just a simple meeting. Nothing to be concerned about.”

Nothing to be concerned about? You could almost laugh out loud. There would be nothing simple about a tea with the Queen - not one following a declaration of intents. Your father and Alicent would sit down and discuss joining their two houses, probing politely at the bones of a bethoral contract without overplaying their hand. If they were even feeling particularly productive, they could likely even hammer out the larger details of one - questions about your dowry, bridal payments, properties to inherit and divide. Knowing your father, he would be sure to push trade contracts that would heavily favor House Lannister, maybe try to slide in a chance for another marriage contract for Jeyne or Joy.

Tomorrow would be a starting point. It would be the first move to lay down the foundation on which your and Aemond’s futures would be built on top of.

Your mouth dries in anticipation.

“Yes,” you echo, letting a small smile slip on your face. “We have a tea tomorrow. There will be much to discuss.”

Your father smiles, pleased by your easy obedience, and Daeron grins, delighted by another chance to tease and poke at his brother.

But Aemond…

When you tilt your head up to look at Aemond, that gentle warmth has fled from his sole eye. There’s a curve to his lips still but it isn’t amusement or laughter.

No.

This is him moving with you, him responding on sheer instinct alone to the gnawing ambition that lays claim to your peripheries, pushing and pushing inwards until you can see nothing else.

This is him seeing your hunger.

And this is his answering your call.

——————————–

Sometime after the wheelhouse’s easy travel on smooth dirt roads gives way to the familiar bumping and jostling of the cobblestone roads of King’s Landing, you hear the roar of a dragon.

It’s like a shot in the dark, so loud and invasive that it slices through your father and uncle’s easy conversation without remorse, and you freeze for a moment, primal urge overtaking any rational thought.

Don’t move. You can’t be seen if you don’t move.

The impulse leaves you quick enough and you’re left with just a fading sense of embarrassment as you turn to one of the many windows that line House Lannister’s grandest wheelhouse. Sliding one open, you peer up to the sky in time to see a golden shine break apart the endless blue.

Sunfyre. Beautiful and peerless.

You frown slightly as you look up at his shape gliding delicately through the air, more graceful than any beast of that size had any right to be. You couldn’t hear the telltale sound of Dreamfyre’s wings beating loud and clear or see her blue scales glinting in the sun. There was no sign of Helaena’s companion which meant that there was only place that the girl herself could be.

Helaena and Aegon were riding together.

The thought makes you slide the window shut and you slump back in your seat, worrying your bottom lip with your teeth. Aegon was notoriously possessive of his dragon - all of his rings were styled after Sunfyre, obnoxiously ostentatious things, and most of his clothes were embroidered with metallic thread in an attempt to capture even a sliver of his beauty. Since reaching adulthood, he had forced the Dragonpit keepers to swear off approaching Sunfyre even to feed the dragon, preferring to do the gruesome task himself. If you’re being honest, you doubt there’s even another relationship in his life that would come close to his uncomplicated and free passion towards his own personal sigil.

And now Helaena had invaded that sacred space.

Even just a week ago, you would have gambled everything on Aegon preferring to be bathed in fire rather than allowing any of his siblings to ride alongside him on his one treasure. He coveted Sunfyre something fierce, more possessive of him than he was of anything else.

Yet Helaena was with him.

You’re not sure what it means.

Aegon loves his sister - you know that as surely as you know that you love his sister - but he didn’t love his sister and that maybe mattered more now. Aegon and Helaena would be no Jaehaerys the Conciliator and Good Queen Alysanne whose love for each other only dimmed in comparison to their love for the realm.

But maybe they could be something better. Something more than their parents with their glacial relationship. Something more stable than their grandparents and their infamous Quarrels.

You sigh, pushing the thought out of your mind. There would be plenty of time in the future to worry and fuss about Helaena and Aegon’s relationship and how the realm would view it. There would be plenty of time to plan how you would twist Westeros into cherishing it. You had enough to worry about for today.

Namely the feast.

“I wonder how Queen Alicent will outdo herself tonight,” you muse out loud, drawing your father and uncle’s attention to yourself. “She’s guarded her plans rather zealously.”

Tyland snorts quietly. “It’s certainly been a grand expense. Lord Beesbury has not stopped fussing about the cost of this and that to anyone who will listen even though the Hightowers are paying for most of it from their own coffers. You’d think the expenses are coming straight from his own purse with the way he goes on about it.”

You hum, letting a mischievous smile slip on your face. “Lord Beesbury, may the Gods forgive me for saying so, much prefers the sound of his voice rather than putting forth any meaningful solutions. He’s never been fond of the Queen and he’s even less fond of her children. It’s a miracle that the Lord Hand managed to loosen his grip on the purse of the Targaryens to fund even the tourney.”

Your uncle nods in agreement, tapping his fingers against his thigh. “He’s Lord of Honeyholt. They’re always getting the castoffs of House Hightower and old Lyman is no exception to the animosity his House has nursed for centuries now. I sometimes wonder if he’s really so fond of Princess Rhaenyra as he likes to say he is or if he just hates the alternative. He himself has a daughter older than his heir and you don’t see him pushing her first in his line of succession.”

Jason shakes his head, looking genuinely annoyed. “They should have retired Lord Beesbury years ago. He’s senile in his old age. It’s a miracle he doesn’t crumble into dust whenever he bumps against something.”

You blink, somewhat caught off guard by your father’s frustration. “Is he really that old?” You prompt, eager to coax more of his true thoughts out of him.

“He was old when they placed him on the small council, sweetling,” Jason scoffs. “He’s even older now.”

Tyland grins at his brother, looking absolutely tickled by his twin’s simmering anger. “You’ve never gotten over the fact that King Viserys snubbed Uncle Stafford for him.”

“More that he snubbed you,” Jason shoots back. “Master of Coin should be yours. You’re a Lannister - who knows gold better than us?”

You nod slowly. “If King Viserys was smart, he’d offer you, Uncle Tyland, Master of Coin and offer Master of Ships to Corlys Velaryon if not his brother. Bring the Velaryons back to the fold. Everyone knows that they’ve split from Princess Rhaenyra.”

“If,” Tyland murmurs, raising an eyebrow, and you stifle a laugh. “Besides… The Queen and her father hold the throne now, truly, and they might be hard-pressed to convince the Velaryons to come to their side. I don’t doubt that the Sea Snake still harbors a grudge for King Viserys passing over Lady Laena for Alicent Hightower.”

“The Sea Snake,” you say without thinking. “Not Princess Rhaenys. She’s a Velaryon and, like Queen Alicent, she holds her House’s power while her husband fights an endless war in the Stepstones.”

Jason leans forward slightly, quirking up a brow. “Since when have you been so close to Princess Rhaenys?”

“I’m not,” you reply. “But I’m not a Hightower or a Targaryen and that seems to count for something in her eyes. She clearly wants to foster a connection where her husband did not if she accepted the role of the Crone. Moreover to the point, I believe she’s… Fond of me.”

“Fond?” Tyland now questions you.

You shrug, flashing a smile. “Fond. Like a lady and her pet. I imagine she’d be surprised to find anything in my head that wasn’t revolving around Aemond or Helaena.”

Jason hums, leaning back in his seat. He starts drumming his fingers against his thigh, eerily echoing his brother perfectly. “Princess Rhaenys always liked to think that she was cleverer than everyone around her by far. She never did quite live up to her own expectations.”

She is clever, you muse, keeping your thoughts to yourself. But she’s too stubborn to approach allies - not when she can wait for them to approach her. She harbors the same grudge that her husband does towards the Hightowers. She can’t move past what Rhaenyra and Daemon did to her children. She’s isolated herself in a war where she’ll need allies to survive.

She would need to pick a side eventually if only to keep herself and her granddaughters afloat.

The only question was which side would snap her up first.

“The key to the throne is through the Velaryons, through Princess Rhaenys,” you say quietly. Jason tilts his head at you but Tyland nods at you, immediately understanding. “Securing her means securing her husband’s fleet and bringing two dragons with her.”

“Two?” Jason asks.

You nod, thinking of bared teeth and sharp purple eyes narrowed in your direction. “Lady Baela,” you say slowly, mulling over your words before you say them. “I do not believe she’s… as dedicated to Princess Rhaenyra’s claim as people think. She resents her for the shame she brought upon her mother by marrying Prince Daemon so fast.”

“Prince Daemon is her father,” Tyland says, more out of prompting you to continue with your logic rather than truly reminding you.

You tilt your head, playing with your sleeves slightly as you ponder what to say. “She’s loyal to her sister before anything else. I think… she may be more loyal to House Velaryon than to House Targaryen. Surely, that would mean something to her father.”

Jason snorts. “Prince Daemon deflowered the Realm’s Delight. He took a second wife and shamed Rhea Royce before a fall saved her from that humiliation. There are even more stories about him that would make your ears bleed, sweetling. He covets the throne. Always has. I doubt even his daughter could sway him from a lifelong dream being so close to his grasp.”

“Perhaps he does not need to be swayed,” Tyland murmurs. “A mad dog is only dangerous if it’s off its leash.”

“He is not a dog,” you reply. “He’s a dragon and those are rather hard to leash. If his own brother could not do it, I doubt we’d have much luck even with his daughter.”

“Then what do you suggest?” Your uncle asks and the look in his eye gives you pause for the first time in this conversation. He’s searching you, looking into you. He knows what your answer would be but he wants to draw it out of you, wants you to admit it to him, to your father. He wants your resolve to be firm. “How would you manage Daemon Targaryen?”

Silence hangs in the wheelhouse. Outside, you can hear the constant hum of people, the sound of hooves hitting the cobblestones, the shouted orders of City’s Watch.

Inside, you stare down at your uncle.

“I wouldn’t manage him,” you finally say, your voice steady. “I would kill him.”

Tyland’s eyes glint with something and you don’t dare look away, not even with your father looking at you with the same inquisitive stare. “And Rhaenyra Targaryen?”

Your breath catches in your throat and Helaena flashes in your mind. Helaena who had nothing in common with her sister but everything in common with who she had once been to Alicent Hightower.

“If I must,” you finally respond. “If I need to.”

“You’ll be kin by the time this would be necessary,” Jason finally says and your eyes swing to look at him. “She’d be your sister by law. He’d be your uncle by law.”

“No one is as accursed as the kinslayer,” you say on instinct, the phrase coming to you as easily as breathing. This time, you see Aemond. You see Aemond and dusty books and can hear you whisper about Brandon the Breaker and the night’s king. “There are kinslayers in every line,” you finally say, echoing your childish self. “What’s one more?”

“There are septons who would demand your tongue for that, little one,” Tyland muses, smiling all the while.

You shrug. “They’re not in here, are they?”

“Even if there was,” Jason starts, still peering at you as if he’s never seen you before. “I can’t imagine they’d have much sway on you.”

“Septons can be useful,” you reply, thinking of the High Septon with his clear gray eyes, with his rainbow crown. “I believe in them, I do, but I value my family, mine, over any of their words.”

“Your family is a mite larger than just lions,” Jason says, no question in his voice.

You meet his green eyes head-on, straightening up. “You sent me here,” you remind him, feeling that years-long grudge, that childish anger you could never quite free yourself from, rear its ugly head. “You told me to find a space for myself in the royal family. I did. I have. You cannot fault me for its consequences. Lannisters protect their own - at all costs and damn the consequences. I just have more to protect now than I did at ten.”

Jason looks at you, his eyes looking all over you as if he’ll find the answer written somewhere on your body. Maybe he’s searching, you muse almost fancifully, for the little girl he had sent away, the little girl he had damned to the capitol with its endless hate and its even more endless schemes. Maybe he’s wondering who this stranger that took her place is, this stranger that sends her sister off to freeze in the North, who wears a crown of bloody flowers like a prize, who walks amongst dragons.

You can’t miss her now, you almost want to say out of sheer spite. Not now when you didn’t want her then. You bite the inside of your cheek, knowing that’s more than unfair. It would just be cruel. Vicious.

It doesn’t make the desire to say it go away, doesn’t stop the anger from bubbling underneath your skin.

Finally, Jason smiles. That same old friendly smile that always disarmed your resentment, took away its teeth to make it into something docile. It’s the same smile that had coaxed you into the Sunset Sea after him, the same one he would give you the few times he had allowed you to crawl onto his lap during the summer storms.

You wish it didn’t work just as well now as it had back then.

“Hear me roar,” he says, grinning at you like you’re sharing a funny joke.

You simply nod, not wanting to speak anymore.

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None of the chaos of the earlier week of feasting seems to compare to the maelstrom that has gripped the halls of the Red Keep now. It feels impossible to move without having to elbow at least five of your cousins out of the way and not even your father and uncle forming a small retinue around you seems to clear your path any.

Perhaps I should have taken Aemond up on his offer you grumble in your head, eying the crowded hall outside the throne room with disdain. At least with the royal family, you doubt you would have had to wade through what seems like every single noble family in Westeros.

Up ahead, towards the entrance of the throne room, you can see the poor servant in charge of informing Ser Harrold of the next family to enter so that the Lord Commander can announce it. He looks harried and stressed, seconds from pulling his own hair out with his bare hands and you feel a flash of pity for him. Aside from the major houses, sure to be announced first, the minor lords must be haranguing him to be bumped up the list, to inflate their own self-importance by calling their name closer to the high lords.

It’d be a pointless exercise - you doubt people listen to the names if they’re not a major house and even then, you doubt most would care if it’s not their high lord being called.

You watch the servant for a few beats longer, fighting the urge to laugh when he gets shoved back by a lord only for the lord to realize that that was the man in charge of the procession. You’re so engrossed in observing that you miss the first whisper of your name. It takes a few more times but you finally register it and you turn slightly to see Jocata standing next to you, her big green eyes peering up at you anxiously.

You furrow your brows slightly as you look at her, more baffled than annoyed. Aside from the final day of the tourney, when she had complimented your crown blood and all, she has practically hidden herself from your sight, trembling like a leaf when your gaze did fall on her. You had silently resigned yourself to having soured that relationship for good but now she’s here, standing in front of you looking as if she would rather be anywhere than there.

“My lady,” she starts, her voice trembling as she takes a deep inhale to steel herself.

“You’re my cousin,” you interject before she can say her next bit, frowning slightly. “There’s no need to stand on etiquette between the two of us.”

Her lip shakes and you distantly wonder if she’d have a better go of it if you looked away or closed your eyes. She says your name weakly, shyly, as if she’s trying it out for the first time in her life and not having had used it for the eternity of your relationship with her. “I just wanted to… I ran away last time and it wasn’t right and I… I wanted to congratulate you on your crown… and apologize again for my role in Ser Victor’s favor.”

It’s a credit to her that she doesn’t burst into tears but she does look dangerously close to it, her pale cheeks a brighter red than either of your two dresses. You smile at her, trying your very best to put her at ease. “Just see to it that men don’t take further advantage of your innocence, Jocasta,” you warn. “It’ll only get more and more difficult the older that you get.”

Jocasta sniffles, nodding her head, looking distinctly like a scolded puppy. “I understand. I won’t… I won’t fall for it again. But I wanted to offer you a true apology. Not… Not what I had tried to do.”

She’s too soft to be a Lannister you think without any malice or anger as you look at her. She’s kind, gentle, sweet - all the markings of a lady and none of the characteristics of the house she called her own. With any luck, her husband would be a knight, a true knight who could uphold his vows and honor and cherish his lady wife. You somehow doubt her father would prioritize that, likely more concerned with increasing his own wealth as the third son of a second son, far removed from the main line and its heir, but you hope for it regardless.

“Of course Jocasta,” you finally say, reaching out to squeeze her hand, and she blinks at you before a small hesitant smile lights up her face.

“I prayed for Prince Aemond in the melee,” she whispers as if it's a secret she’s confessing. “I went to the sept and I lit a candle for him at the Warrior statue. I lit one for you too in front of the Maiden. Not because I knew you were going to the Maiden in the wedding party b-but just because I thought she should bless you regardless.”

Your breath hitches, caught off guard, and, wildly, you remember your fervent prayers that day, remember perfectly how much you had wished you had been able to light a candle for Aemond at the Warrior’s feet. Sweet Jocasta had. She had lit one for him and you.

You squeeze her hand again. “Thank you,” you murmur, wishing you could say more without tripping over your own words.

Jocasta just gives you another smile before she pulls away, walking beyond you to seek refuge among her sisters and brothers and cousins. You stare at the spot she had been occupying, turning the feeling of gratitude over and over in your mind, trying your best to force it to solidify into something you can do. Something you could reward her with for her good nature, for her gentle soul.

A good marriage is the only thing you can think of. Perhaps even an offer to serve in the royal court as a lady in waiting for you and Helaena. She could better her odds here, away from Lannisport where only lions roamed, but it would be dangerous here. She was too soft for the cesspit that formed King’s Landing and the Red Keep. The snakes in the court would eat her alive, and would strive to take advantage of her at every turn. Her Lannister name would protect her - some - but she’d still be subject to the court politics that haunted everything around her.

You bite your lip, moving forward on instinct when your father and uncle step closer and closer to the entrance to the throne room. There wouldn’t be much time to debate this or any time at all. Your cousins were scheduled to leave in the next couple of days. They’d possibly be delayed a few days if your father formalized a betrothal contract with the Targaryens but he could hold that card close to his chest. Cerelle’s marriage with Cregan Stark was sure to break soon and the announcement of a royal engagement could prove loud enough to drown out the whispers around that.

You wouldn’t be surprised if Cerelle’s new role as Lady Stark would be talked about tonight. If she was riding out to gather her new husband’s bannermen for him, more than a few of those lords would let any allies in the South know about the shock of a Stark lord taking a Southern wife for the first time in their long history and that wife being a Lannister of all things. Her letter couldn’t have possibly beaten all that gossip and could have very possibly been delayed if everything had happened as fast as she had said it had.

A part of you that isn’t preoccupied with whirling plans and ideas childishly longs for the next raven to be carrying a letter for you; that with it Cerelle will either castigate you or soothe your guilt. Either way, you want to hear her voice, read her words. You miss your oldest sister with a fierceness you haven’t felt in years. It had been different all the times before - you had always been secure in knowing that she was safe in Casterly Rock with your other sisters and your mother. Now, she’s in the frozen North, married to a man no one in your family has ever met before, far from your grasp and she would be for the foreseeable future.

Suddenly it feels like there’s no time at all. No time with Jocasta. No time with Cerelle. No time for anything. Everything is speeding up more than it had ever before, threatening to leave you in the lurch.

That familiar tight ball of pain begins to bear down on your chest, crushing your lungs and your heart under its weight, and it’s only the gentle call of that poor, harried servant that knocks you out of it.

When you come back to it, you’re standing right by the door of the throne room, positioned to the right of your father while your uncle occupies his left. Ser Harrold looks over at you and, as is customary with him, he spares you that little smile that you know has always been meant more for your mother than it has ever been meant for you.

You smile back though, completely instinctual, reminding yourself that this is the Lord Commander of the Kingsguard. Who cares if he only likes you because you were the walking mirror image of Johanna Westerling, born looking more like your mother than any trueborn Lannister had any right to be? What mattered was that he liked you.

He looks over at your father and the warmth that he had held in his eyes for you slips away when he looks at Lord Lannister, replacing it with the stern face of one of the greatest knights in the realm.

He nods at Jason and your father nods and you take a deep, settling breath.

“House Lannister, with their lord, Jason Lannister. Lord Paramount of the West and Master of Casterly Rock.” Ser Harrold booms, loud and thunderous, and the endless chatter of the throne room, of all the lords and ladies of the regions that had gone before the Westerlands, ends and a silence settles across the room.

Your house moves as one.

The throne room is an impossible marvel, burning sconces of different colored flames illuminating the tables, mini suns lighting the room and making the banners and the tapestries glow with an otherworldly gleam.

Making House Lannister glow.

Underneath the flickering fires, the veins of gold within your dress glitter endlessly, the delicate rubies and emeralds woven within gleaming with a vengeance. Your bust and corset are covered with this, armorlike if not for the fact that it's molded perfectly to your body, tailored so perfectly that it clings like a second skin. The jewels stop at your waist, giving way to the crimson velvet that forms the skirt and train of your gown but the tendrils of gold continue, swirling and spinning in careful spirals down your body and skirt.

It is by far the most expensive thing you’ve ever worn, more expensive, you’d wager, than all the gowns and jewels some houses could bear to afford. It was the most extravagant show of wealth at this wedding - it would be obnoxious if it wasn’t so Lannister. Showing off your riches came as easy to you as breathing. Lann the Clever had won the Rock from the Casterlys and that made this your right.

Your father leads the procession to the royal table, somehow even more confidence in his step than ever before. He’s secured a grand prize, after all; a prince for his daughter. He walks like it too, smugness radiating from his every pore, as proud as he’s ever been. One would think that he was the one all but set to marry into the royal family.

When your family arrives at the foot of the Iron Throne, you all bow deep. When you rise, you look over in instinct at Aemond’s seat. Dimly, you recognize Daeron sitting in Helaena’s old seat, accommodating the shift to have Helaena and Aegon sitting together in the center, but he’s almost blurred in your periphery as you stare at Aemond.

He’s changed from his warrior outfit into a tunic more fit for a feast - fit for a prince. The black velvet is fitted to his chest perfectly, emphasizing his slender build to the point your mouth dries. Embossed on his chest, three dragons twist and curl around each other, each so distinct that you immediately recognize them as the dragons that conquered Westeros, and your lips tug up into a smile when you recognize the familiar shape of Vhagar front and center. Some of his long hair is braided up away from his face, the braids like a pattern against his scalp, but the majority falls like a sheet around his face. He’s so far removed from what he had been wearing earlier - a nobleman now rather than the living manifestation of a god. Even like this though, even without wearing the robes of the Warrior, he’s still undeniable, still holy and sanctified.

Your body lights up again, deep in your core and spreading out into your chest, and you feel the sudden desire to pray at his own altar, to prostrate yourself in front of him, to kneel and worship.

Your mouth runs even drier and you snap yourself back into focus, suddenly feeling too warm inside the throne room. You feel a hot desire for the cool air of the gardens or even the chill of the library and you bite your lip to pull yourself away from it, to settle in the now. It’s only then that you notice Aemond’s hot stare, the way he looks at you as if the entirety of his world has shrunk down to just you. That increasingly familiar heat is back in his eyes and he looks at you as he had when he had been covered in the blood of Victor Florent, when he had licked the sugar off a candied lemon.

He looks at you as if he wants nothing more than to devour you whole.

That gnawing hunger in your core, that burning flame, glows that much brighter, that much hotter, and you snap your eyes away from him, taking in a shaky deep breath.

You settle your gaze on Aegon and Helaena, sitting together directly in the shadow of the throne. They’ve changed as well, matching in velvet green and shining golden. You wouldn’t be surprised if the seamstresses had used the same bolts of fabric to make their clothes. It’s meant to present an image of unity, of harmony, but they look nauseatingly similar. Dressed like this, the scant year gap between the two of them vanishes entirely, leaving them as mirror images of each other, as alike as Jason and Tyland.

Your stomach twists but you force a smile anyways, meeting Helaena’s eyes. She’s plainly ignoring your father’s introduction of the gift House Lannister is presenting (three golden dragon statues with rubies for eyes), putting less of an effort than even blearily eyed Aegon, but she’s plastered a bland smile on her face to at least attempt the veneer of an interested party. The moment she registers that it’s you looking at her, however, her entire face brightens up and she sits up straighter in her seat, her fake smile melting away into something softer, more genuine.

  You smile at her almost girlish expression. She almost looks like her old self, the sweet girl who had let you read to her in the shade of old trees. She looks like that little girl wearing a costume, too big in certain places, too tight in others, but it’s undeniably her. Maybe your fears were unfounded. Maybe your anxieties didn’t need to ruin every waking moment. Maybe. Maybe. Maybe.

Your father finishes the presentation with a final vow to always be faithful to the crown and Alicent smiles gracefully, nodding and plainly deferring to Aegon to accept his oath. Aegon, for his part, doesn’t seem wholly aware of what’s happening, only jerking to attention when his mother leans closer to him, her smile placid as if she wasn’t driving the point of her elbow into his ribs. He jolts straight up, clearing his throat instinctually, eyes looking skyward as if he’s trying to remember a script he’s forgotten.

“As the first son of King Viserys, first of his name,” Aegon says slowly, trying the words out carefully like he’s learning them as he goes. “I am grateful… and appreciative of your loyalty to House Targaryen and… vow to return your faith. I- We look forward to only deepening and strengthening our bond and alliance.” He meanders his way through the sentence, clearly lost and struggling to remember, but when he finishes, there’s a quick flash of boyish pride on his face when he realizes he hasn’t messed up and he looks so much like the boy he must have been before even you had arrived to the capital and you feel an unfamiliar warm glow towards him.

You’re not used to feeling cozy towards Aegon - amused, yes. Annoyed, most definitely. But this is something new and your own confusion at your feelings must show on your face since Aemond looks supremely amused. You quickly move your sleeve up to cover your mouth, trying to play off your aborted laugh like a sneeze or a cough, but, judging from the way your uncle shoots you a reproachful look, you haven’t really succeeded.

Your father gives one final nod to Prince Aegon and, when he turns to face the rest of your house to be led to your seats, he meets your eyes. For a moment, in all the colors of light, he almost doesn’t look real with all the shades cutting across his sharp features. He doesn’t look like your father, doesn’t look like Jason Lannister. He looks like something else - almost like a painting with the colors smeared across it.

He looks proud, fierce. He’s won a windfall for House Lannister. You’ve won a windfall for House Lannister. He must already taste the iron in his mouth, must already dream of a daughter of your’s marrying into the house of the dragon, his blood sitting the throne itself.

And it’s all owed to you.

Your blood thrums with success, strong and vicious, and a part of you wants to hiss that truth to your father. Tell the Lord Paramount of the West that it was his daughter, his third daughter, the daughter he sent away, that brought this bounty to their house. Not him. You.

Jason nods at you, a smile flickering on his face, and you bow your head in response, only looking up once he’s passed you. You meet Aemond’s eye once more and he tilts his head at you, asking a question without words.

I’m fine.

He shifts in his seat, straightening up slightly, and you bite the inside of your cheek to hold back a grin when you realize if you made even the slight move to suggest it, he’d leave the royal table to follow you like a shadow to ensure your comfort and safety. You give him a small smile as assurance before taking your leave, following the rest of your house to be directed to your seats.

Unlike the feasts before, the seating isn’t strictly by houses. While your uncle is directed a few seats down from you, next to Lord Ormund, and your father settles into a seat next to Lord Celtigar, clapping the younger lord firmly on his shoulder, a maid directs you towards a seat nestled between Baela and Lady Floris Baratheon. You idly wonder how long it took the Queen to arrange this seating - who she must have consulted and what patterns she must have seen. You wonder if Aemond told her about your attempts to form some relationship with Baela Targaryen or if she had seen it for herself at the melee.

The moment you sit, eying the spread of food already laid out for you to enjoy, Lady Floris turns to you, a pretty smile on her face. “Lady Lannister,” she greets, leaning closer than she should, close enough that you can see the dusting of freckles across the bridge of her nose and the kaleidoscope of colors in her eyes. “I just wanted to personally congratulate you on your crowns - oh, what an honor! I heard the songs the bards were playing near the Dragonpit - they were so, so lovely! I hope you’ll forgive me for saying this but I hadn’t known Prince Aemond was so handsome and he looked so beautiful crowning you.”

You smile awkwardly, slightly caught off guard by her overly effusive praise. She’s not all that much younger than you, closer in age to you than you were to Jocasta, but she’s so free in her manners that you wouldn’t be surprised if she was nearer in age to Jeyne. It seems half a miracle that such a sweet girl would come from the stormy house of Lord Borros, that such a frivolous girl could be the daughter of a high lord.

“I thank you, Lady Floris. I’m afraid I haven’t gotten to listen to the songs myself but it seems I will have to soon enough,” you reply, bowing your head in thanks, and she beams prettily. Everything she does is pretty - from the way she smiles to the way she reaches for her goblet of wine. Everyone around you seems to notice and you hold back a laugh at the way Floris seems to glow under everyone’s attention. You doubt there’s much of it to go around in Storm’s End - you can’t imagine a lovely girl like her thriving in the dark and dread of the tempests that haunt her home even if the Baratheons are nearly as prolifically virile as the Lannisters. It’s almost impossible to imagine it - even more impossible to imagine that she is one of the Four Storms, that her fights with her sister can and do grow to the point of infamy.

She giggles, her pale cheeks a bright red, and you drop your gaze slightly to the nearly empty goblet in her hand before looking back at her flushed face. You look slightly behind her, further down the table, to see her father laughing loudly as he snatches a carafe away from a servant to keep for himself.

As pretty as she is, it seems Lord Borros left his mark on his daughter after all.

She gives you one final big smile, slightly lopsided now that you look at her more carefully, before turning to talk to the enraptured son of House Reyne sitting at her side.

“She’s had two of them so far,” Baela murmurs, leaning slightly closer to you. Her white curls hang loose today and it tickles on the back of your hand when she moves closer and her hair sways over to you. “I’m afraid she might be a bit of a lightweight.”

You stifle your snort of laughter. “I’m sure she hasn’t had much to eat either - I only had some lemon cakes to make sure I didn’t keel over during the ceremony. I doubt she did much better.”

Baela snorts, reaching for her own goblet of wine in response. “I imagine it’s her first time being out in the court. Easy to get caught up in the splendor of it all.”

You tilt your head, reaching for a candied strawberry to pop in your mouth. “Royal weddings are usually the first time most ladies are brought to the court.”

“There hasn’t been one for years,” she responds immediately before pausing. Something darkens in her eyes, a flicker of old anger or regret, before she shakes her head, trying to clear it from her mind. “At least, none like this one.”

You bite down on the strawberry, enjoying the crunch of the crystalized sugar followed by the sweetness of the fruit. As you chew, you look over Baela carefully. She’s occupied herself with a tart, listlessly picking at it as she glares down at her plate.

The last royal wedding had been her father and Princess Rhaenyra. A rushed affair by all accounts - both in the time after her mother’s death and in the actual ceremony itself. There had been no traditional wedding - at least, no traditional wedding in the light of the Seven. No feasts. No tourney. If what you had heard when it had happened was true, they had had a Valyrian wedding on Dragonstone and that had been it.

You had little knowledge of what went into a Valyrian wedding - Aemond had briefly told you the details of it when the news had first broke but he had been uncharacteristically reticent to share information with you. He had explained there was meant to be a mixing of blood, to symbolize the different bloodlines coming together to become one, in the presence of fire to represent the strength that it would bring. He hadn’t given you much detail after that and you, admittedly, had not pressed him for it.

To be fair, he might have been sore over you debating out loud whether or not mixing the blood was necessary when the bloodlines were one and the same.

There hadn’t been tell of who had attended the wedding. Only that it had been attended by a maester who had confirmed its legitimacy to both the crown and the Citadel and a handful of guests.

You had never stopped to consider whether or not Baela had been there, if she had been there with her sister and with the Strong boys. You try to imagine what it must have been like to watch your father remarry, the tears not even dried from your mother’s funeral, and something in you trembles with rage and, alarmingly enough, sympathy.

Sympathy you didn’t care to feel, not when you can still remember the way Aemond had flinched when the maester had stitched his face back together, stitch by agonizing stitch.

Baela still harbors a grudge over it, bad enough that the memory of it would still send her into a dark mood years later. Another chink in the armor of House Targaryen, in the armor of Rhaenyra and Daemon Targaryen.

Another place you can dig your fingers in and pull and pull and pull until it is an impossible gap to close.

“I doubt there will be more weddings like this for quite some time,” you muse, Baela looking up from her plate to meet your eyes. “No other prince is even betrothed.”

Baela snorts inelegantly. “Not as much time as you’re trying to pretend there will be. The Queen might be better off leaving these decorations up to save some time for the servants for the next one.”

You smile despite yourself. “I wouldn’t dare presume to tell the Queen what to do.”

“You might not but I would,” she responds with the typical brash confidence you’ve come to expect from her. Only her eyes twinkling tell you that she’s teasing. “Might as well tell the guests not to go home. Save us all some trouble.”

“My older sisters are yet to be married,” you remind her, thinking of Tyshara with her letters of love and Cerelle with her new wolf husband.

Baela’s eyes flash and she tilts her head, looking as if she’s caught you out on a lie, and you realize it half a second before she opens her mouth. “I’ve heard a rumor that’s come down from the North. Something about the first southern Lady of Winterfell.”

Something in you seizes for a moment and you can’t think about the fact that Baela is watching you for any reaction or that the intense focus on your house will only increase from here.

You can only think about the fact that Cerelle Lannister doesn’t exist anymore. She’s Cerelle Stark now - both in the eyes of the gods and the court.

You smile on instinct, forcing it easily. “I was wondering when that would spread.”

Baela cocks an eyebrow. “So it is true then?”

Your heart beats hard in your chest, so loud in your ears it’s a miracle she cannot hear, but you nod. You let your smile grow wider and force yourself to relax in your seat. “Lord Cregan Stark heard about my sister and grew curious about the girl who was set to be the Lady of Casterly Rock if there was no boy born to us. He sent her a letter, hoping to bond over their duties, and it grew from there. When Lord Bennard caught wind, he invited her North in hopes of swaying House Lannister to his claim but my father sent her with his blessing. I’m sure you can understand why they couldn’t have a large wedding with us there, not with Bennard Stark refusing to give Lord Cregan what is rightfully his. After the matter of succession is settled in the North, we plan to travel to Winterfell to pay our respects to the new and the rightful Lord and Lady.”

A lie. A very practiced lie. It’s one you’ve mulled over for weeks now, testing the weight of it. It had been Cerelle’s idea, back when the two of you had approached your father and uncle with your plan. A love story, Cerelle had said, would make the idea of a rushed wedding go down easily. Gossip loves a story and, above all, they loved a love story. Your uncle had helped hammer out the details and all of you had agreed on the finished version. Even back in Casterly Rock, your mother and Tyshara had been coached on what to say when questions undoubtedly drifted their way.

For weeks, you’ve stressed about whether or not this flimsy story would be believed, if people would honestly think that Cregan Stark had fallen for your sister through letters. You’ve stayed up wondering if you should have pushed for this certain detail to be added or rallied for that aspect to be changed.

You never once considered if some people simply wouldn’t care.

Baela shrugs after you finish your short speech, looking as if you’ve just commented on the strawberry you just ate or how Floris Baratheon seems to be leaning in closer and closer to you once she realizes you’re gossiping. “Interesting that House Lannister would be so invested in the matters of succession of other houses.”

Your smile grows sharp. “House Lannister just likes to ensure that the correct people receive what is theirs by law.”

She gets that now familiar glint in her eye, that vicious gleam that you’ve seen in Aemond’s. For all that she’s aligned herself with her mother’s Velaryon side, she’s still a Targaryen, still a dragon. You half expect her to lash out but instead, she visibly takes a deep breath, looking down at her plate again and taking another stubborn bite.

You eye her for a moment, taking in her stiff back and her tight grip on her fork, before you sigh slightly, turning back to focus on your own food.

You think you’ll be doomed to sit in silence through the rest of the introductions, through however many courses Alicent has arranged, up until you’re free to leave your seat and find Aemond and Helaena, but then Floris drags you into a conversation about Storm’s End, her goblet thankfully refilled with water from a watchful servant. She tells you about her sisters, the three she has, and she’s absolutely delighted when you tell her you have four.

“You have me beat, my lady,” she giggles, swaying into you. You shift slightly in your seat, accommodating her so she’s pressing more into your chest rather than your shoulder, and she slides closer, nearly leaning on you entirely. You glance over her head towards the royal table, just in time to see Daeron laughing uproariously at you while Aemond hides his smirk behind his own drink. You’re so busy making a face at them that you almost miss her next words entirely. “Maybe the gods will bless my family with another daughter soon. Maybe I’ll be lucky enough or another sister.”

You glance down at her, your eyes roaming over her reddened cheeks and her half-lidded eyes. She’s still smiling, just barely as if she’s not wholly aware that she is. “Not a boy, my lady?” You ask, unable to stop yourself from bringing your arm up to wrap around her shoulders. It’s a small show of comfort, a little affection, and it embarrasses you slightly to do so in public - especially to a girl you’ve only just met. A quick look around, however, reveals that Floris Baratheon is hardly the only drunk at the feast and that most likely she’s not even the drunkest. Her own father has only gotten louder and louder, singing bawdy songs over the hum of the crowd, and you can spot your father laughing at Lord Celtigar as the poor man spills wine all over himself. Tyland and Ormund are speaking to each other in low tones, their heads bowed together as if they’re sharing a secret for only the two of them. Everywhere you look, people are deep deep in their cups and this is still only the beginning of the night.

You shudder to think what it means for the rest of the night.

Floris doesn’t respond after a moment and you glance down at her, praying that she hasn’t fallen asleep on you, but instead, you just see her playing with her goblet, swirling it gently in her hand.

“My lady?” You prompt again and Floris heaves a sigh before dragging herself up in her seat, pulling away from you.

She frowns, the first time you’ve seen a smile drop from her face. “Maybe I’ll be lucky enough for another sister,” she repeats again, not meeting your eyes. You stare at her a little longer, trying to puzzle out her meaning.

House Baratheon didn’t have an heir - at least, no boy had been born to them as of yet. Only four daughters, nearly as precarious a place as House Lannister had been, but your house had had a key advantage. You had the blood of the Andals coursing through your veins. The lordship would have gone to Cerelle before it ever would have gone to your uncle. That rule had been what had allowed for Queen Leila to rule, protect her inheritance, and choose a husband of her picking. Joffrey Lydden had only earned the title of King of the Rock through her and, even then, he had had to change his name to hers. There was a precedent of strength through the maternal line in House Lannister.

Not so in House Baratheon though, to be fair, there wasn’t much of a precedent in anything for that house. It was scarcely over a century old, formed the same year that Aegon began his conquest. They had Andal blood, yes, but also Valyrian and First Men. It’d be much harder for them to force Cassandra Baratheon, their current heir as it all stands, through to the lordship without being able to use Andal law as a major precedent. This crisis would be the first true one yet. A boy was a necessity or else their house could very well crumble.

But Floris wants a sister.

You eye her for a moment longer, wishing you could probe her for more, but as soon as you open your mouth to ask her, Lord Otto Hightower calls the hall to attention.

You straighten up and even Floris next to you pulls herself up to her full height, the sound of the Lord Hand’s voice nearly enough to sober herself. On your other side, you can feel Baela shifting, settling her attention towards the throne.

Just like during the opening feast, Otto Hightower stands in the shadow of the Iron Throne but now, Aegon and Helaena stand on either side of them, mirrors of each other. You’ve never seen much of a resemblance between the Lord Hand and his grandchildren but now, with the three of them standing side by side, you can catch echoes of him in the pair of them. Aegon is purely Alicent, a perfect copy if not for his Targaryen coloring, but it’s Helaena who bears the greatest resemblance. She’s always been pretty, always been soft around the edges, but here, next to her maternal grandfather, she’s almost handsome in a certain way. In the same way that Otto Hightower demands respect, Helaena demands worship.

“The crown would like once more to thank all the great and noble lords of Westeros for coming to celebrate this union of King Viserys and Queen Alicent’s children,” he booms, his voice loud and strong. The room claps, a few of the drunker occupants cheering loudly, and Otto raises his hands, calling for quiet. “The crown’s strength comes from its people, from you, my lords, and from the power of House Targaryen itself, from its dragons, from its allies. As we look to the future, Prince Aegon and Princess Helaena will serve as leaders, as examples, as pillars to guide the crown to even greater heights. They will help to usher in a power not seen since the days of the Conqueror himself.”

The throne room cheers again, loud and raucous, and, even as you clap, you look around. Otto Hightower’s words are chosen carefully, vague enough that to take umbrage over them would be an extreme overreaction, but directed and pointed enough that his message is clear to those who care to listen. Most are applauding, completely buying into the words of the Lord Hand, but there are a few who look more thoughtful, more suspicious. Lyman Beesbury looks as if he’s sucked a lemon, his weathered face pinched and scornful, while Lord Grover Tully nods firmly in agreement.

Rhaenys Targaryen sits, surrounded by Baratheons and Tyrells and some of your Lannister cousins, looking to all the world as if she’s working out a puzzle, trying to make a piece fit where it ought not go. You can almost see her weighing her options, mentally calculating between the two claimants and what power they bring, calculating what Rhaenyra or Aegon would bring to the realm and, more importantly, what they would bring to her and her own.

Remember your children you want to whisper in her ear. Remember how Laena screamed in pain by herself, half a world away from you. Remember how Laenor must have fought in his final moments before they burned him in his childhood home.

You can hear Baela’s clapping slow next to you and, when you tear your stare away from Rhaenys, you meet her own blazing amethyst gaze. She doesn’t bother to hide the question in her eyes, doesn’t bother to disguise her naked curiosity. You know that there’s no answer you can give her - not one that would satisfy her by any means - so instead, you give her a smile.

Her gaze hardens like flint and you wonder if this will be where she snaps, where the Rogue Prince’s impulsive nature will take over, but her own common sense takes control and she simply looks away, back to the Iron Throne.

You eye her for a moment longer, brushing your gaze over her tense frame, before returning your own gaze back to the three figures standing at the royal table.

When the clapping slows and there’s a lull in the noise, Helaena claps her hands, the sound soft but still striking enough to call attention back to her before it can turn elsewhere. You straighten up even taller in your seat, focusing completely on her. She’s been worrying over this since she told you a few days ago and you bite your lip.

Helaena takes a deep breath, looking visibly anxious to your familiar eyes, before clasping her hands together to hold against her chest. “In thanks for all the warmth the people have provided, Aegon and I would like to gift the leftovers from this feast to the poorest in this city.”

Aegon nods beside her, waiting for the applause to die down again. “We’d also like to provide more funds to the poorhouses in Flea Bottom so they can share in some of the plenty.”

He stands there awkwardly for a second, clearly unaware of what to do once he finishes his part, but, when the crowd begins to clap and cheer for him too, he straightens up, a small smile creeping on his face. You release a breath in relief when their small speech is over and it’s clear that the room is pleased by their show of charity. It had been the Queen’s idea - both the gift itself and the actual presentation of it - but you had helped Helaena practice. She had rehearsed it over and over again until you’re sure you could say her part in your sleep.

But it had all gone according to plan. You can feel one of the countless knots of anxiety inside you loosen and vanish but it gives you no relief, not when there are countless other knots to unravel within you.

There’s a beat where Aegon and Helaena look at each other, both of them caught in the moment staring each other down. It would look romantic if you didn’t recognize it for what it was - reluctance.

Then Aegon, drawing on strength from who knows where, holds up his hand for his sister, bowing his head as he does. Helaena only waits a breath before taking it and, together, the two of them walk around the royal table, beginning the slow march down to the empty space that had been cleared for dance. When they pass Aemond, your stare lingers on him.

He’s watching his siblings go, stone-faced and looking to all the world as if he was sitting a normal dinner and not the wedding feasts for his siblings. His eye tracks Aegon and Helaena as they walk and when they reach the center of the room and turn to each other, a flicker of something flashes on his face. It vanishes quickly, as if it had never been there, but it had been there.

Regret? Pity?

For all his talk of doing what he must for his family, you imagine even he would chafe at this duty. Even he would resist. Talk is easy. A lifetime tied to his sister with more than just blood is not.

You watch him, greedily taking in every single minute twitch of his face. For once, he doesn’t seem to sense your gaze. He’s completely lost in watching his siblings, his eye solely focused on them, and you know without looking when the dance begins. More than the soft gasp from Floris, more than the songs of the bards growing louder and more pitched, you can tell from the way he shifts in his seat, pitching forward as if it’ll give him a better view. His hair falls over his shoulders, falling around his face as if a curtain to protect him, but it doesn’t hide his complete concentration.

He would pull them away if he could. He would try to save them from this pain.

If he could.

Your breath hitches and you look away, following his gaze to see Helaena and Aegon.

They’re closer than they had been at the opening feast, their chests pressed up against each other in a show of intimacy. They’re clinging to each other, their heads bowed together as if they’re whispering to one another. It looks romantic. It should work.

But it doesn’t. It almost can’t. It’s the closest Helaena has ever been to anyone else - closer than even you have been to her in years but it fits her all wrong. It’s like trying to fit into a dress made for someone years younger, trying to shove your foot into one meant for a child. She holds Aegon as if she’s never held him before - never held him so close to her, so intimately. You wonder if she’s ever held anyone like that and somehow you doubt it.

She’s never been allowed it, never been given the opportunity to desire it out of anyone but her brother.

Not even with you - never been allowed to, had maybe never even considered.

A hot flame of resentment and jealousy begins to burn through your chest, burning and painful and agonizing. Why Aegon? Why her?

None of it has ever been about fair, about what was just, but now more than ever, you want to break something. Somehow this dance, this close of a dance, feels more a finality than even the wedding had been. This is everything put into motion. This is the first show of the performance that the two of them will have to give every day for the rest of their lives. You had told yourself you could manage it. You had told yourself that you could swallow back the bile and work with the pieces they’ve given you.

And you can. You will. You’ll bear it and relish the weight of the burden because of the power it gives you.

But as you watch the two of them, spinning round and round on the dance floor, it’s hard to remember that horrible truth about yourself - not with the pain swirling inside your chest.

[inthedayswhenlandswerefew]

Now I’m Covered In You [Chapter 8: Ante Meridiem]

Series summary: Aemond is a prince of England. You are married to his brother. The Wars of the Roses are about to begin, and you have failed to fulfill your one crucial responsibility: to give the Greens a line of legitimate heirs. Will you survive the demands of your family back in Navarre, the schemes of the Duke of Hightower, the scandals of your dissolute husband, the growing animosity of Daemon Targaryen…and your own realization of a forbidden love?

Series title is a lyric from: Ivy by Taylor Swift.

Series warnings: Language, sexual content (18+), dubious consent, miscarriage, pregnancy, childbirth, violence, warfare, murder, alcoholism, sexism, infidelity, illness, death, only vaguely historically accurate, lots of horses!

Word count: 8.1k.

Link to chapter list (and all my writing): HERE.

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“We should hide in my rooms,” Kunigunde says. She’s already heading there, her gown—like yellow jasper, like sunset, like firelight—swishing over the wooden floor, her face flinty but unrattled. She has an aura of invincibility around her, a halo, a cool fog like steel. It’s not difficult to imagine where she gets it from. She’s the Holy Roman Emperor’s daughter, raised in a far more formal and affluent court than yours or Nico’s. The idea of anyone putting their hands on her in violence is unthinkable; the animal instinct to lash back is missing from her pure-white, righteous bones. She’s not especially afraid of Daemon. She’s inconvenienced by him—because him being here is a reminder of how you triumphed where she (thus far) has failed, of the child you carry and your consummated marriage and, surely, the fact that your death would destabilize the Greens in more ways than one—but she does not fear him. You have the impression that she sees all of this as ‘men’s business,’ unpleasant and yet ultimately existing beyond her, gold coins at the bottom of the ocean, stars high above her earth. But Kunigunde doesn’t know Daemon. She knows who he is and what he’s done, but that’s very different than knowing him.

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[aemcndtargaryen]

*sniffles* i was liveblogging this emotional rollercoaster:

You have the impression that she sees all of this as ‘men’s business,’ unpleasant and yet ultimately existing beyond her, gold coins at the bottom of the ocean, stars high above her earth.

chefs kiss writing

“Daemon wouldn’t dare,” Kunigunde murmurs fiercely. But now the screams are inside Westminster Palace; they echo through the corridors, off stone and wood and glass. Nico’s hands—trembling uncontrollably—grab yours.

oh you sweet summer child

Nico recoils, puzzled. “You can’t ride her. It’s dangerous for the baby.”

“So is Daemon beheading me.”

lol true that

It’s Joanna Montford, the mother of Aegon’s bastard son. There is a great commotion and the crying of an infant. Then the cries abruptly cut off and Joanna wails, and wails, and wails, like she’s the one who’s been gutted. But it’s not her. It’s the helpless little white-haired boy who might have—in ten or twenty years—been put forth as the Greens’ claimant to the throne. Now he’ll never have banners or armies raised in his name. Now he’ll never grow up to be anyone.

well shit

all the greens in that room probably... except ofc kuni

There is no escaping it: when Aemond returns from war, he will have to lie with her, learn every last curve and freckle, breathe in edelweiss and grace, build up a store of secrets to share with her. He will have to produce children with her.

If he survives. If any of us do.

ivy sure got her priorities in order lol daemon is about to murder them all, but she finds the time to be jelly in the midst of all that, we love a multitasking queen

“I need to get to Midnight,” you repeat. “If Daemon has the chance, he’ll kill her. I can’t let that happen. Aemond gave her to me.” Alicent and Criston cast you an awkward glance. Kunigunde pretends she didn’t hear it; she’s helping the Duke of Hightower slide a desk against the door.

lol ivy: speaks

everyone else:

“You don’t have to come with me. Go to Westminster Abbey with Alicent and the Duke and Kunigunde, you’ll be safe there. You’re not the one Daemon wants.”

“I’m staying with you.”

“Nico—”

“I’m staying with you,” she insists stubbornly.

HOLD UP IT BETTER NOT BE MY GIRL NICO GETTING KABOOBED OR ILL RIOT

The Duke—with fretful care that looks very strange on him—helps Alicent escape first, steadying her as she crawls through the window frame and shimmies down the rope. Then he follows after her. You and Nico are waiting by the open window with Criston shielding you from the imminent intruders, ready for your turn to descend.

okay but why is otto the 2nd one outta the window, shouldnt he let ivy go first?!

This is their first taste of warfare; they’re cutting their teeth on women and babies instead of Aemond and Vhagar. Baela, tall and radiant beside her father, is distinctly not an observer. She is in light armor and carries a sword—small like yours, but sharp and nimble—that is coated with blood.

going for babies and women... very noble and not cowardly at all

The other’s jaw locks around your dominant hand and bites down, wrenches, rips. The pain is explosive, gunpowder and boiling water, needles and flames. The dog drags you down onto the floor as you fumble for your sword.

NOT HER DOMINANT HAND SHE NEEDS THAT TO KABOOB THE BLACKS ISNT SHE AMBIDEXTROUS BY CHANCE LOL

“Move,” he says, low and serrated.

“No!” she roars up at Daemon with formidable conviction, and you think: She and Aemond really would have been good for each other. In another place, in another time. In a world where I didn’t exist. “This is against the rules of warfare, you must not enter!”

Daemon raises his sword to swing, but Kunigunde doesn’t flinch. She doesn’t think he’d harm her: a woman, a noncombatant, a daughter of an emperor. And that might be true of another man. But she doesn’t know Daemon.

GIRL I KNOW THIS SHIT WOULDNT FLY IN YOUR PAPAS COURT, BUT YOU LITERALLY JUST WITNESSED THE GUY KILL AN INNOCENT BABY JUST COS IT HAD HALF OF AEGONS DNA, DO YOU REALLY THINK HE WOULD GIVE A FLYING FUCK ABOUT HONOUR? ABOUT WHO YOU ARE? WHO YOUR DADDY IS?!

...like what was she expecting?

plot twist: daemon is secretly an ivymond shipper just like all of us and had to help his otp out lol

“Not that one!” Jace cries, as if relaying something that has been imparted to him with great urgency. Daemon takes no notice at all.

welp rhaenyras words aint gonna be enough to stop daemon and save kuni, when she isnt present to stop him

“Kunigunde, get away from the door!” you shout at her. “Get away from the door—!”

Daemon’s blade cuts through the air, opens her throat, slits it to the bone. When she crumples and spills across the floor, you can see white glimpses of her spine through gushing scarlet arteries. The woman who was Aemond’s wife convulses like a crushed spider, her once-bright, knowing eyes going vacant and glassy. The puddle of blood beneath her expands into an ocean. Nico is shrieking, mindless, horrified, raking her face with her own fingernails. You practically shove her out of the open window.

WELL SHIT

cant say im sad to see ya go, but damn sorry girl ya deserved better

Alicent is staring up at the open window and begging for Criston to come down next, to flee to momentary safety like the rest of you have. The clanks of metal inside are shrill and innumerable.

The Duke grips her forearm. “Let’s go, Alicent, we have to go—”

“I can’t leave him!”

“Sir Criston!” Nico calls through cupped hands. “Sir Criston, hurry!”

NOT CRISTON (ok but hes bested daemon before and hes gonna best him now too - you go criston dont die pls)

AND ALI REFUSING TO LEAVE HIM I-

“Unravel it,” you say, and Nico, Alicent, and the Duke of Hightower each grab a fraying corner. You stretch out the small square of linen below the window. “Sir Criston! Now!”

GOOD THINKING IVY

You place one foot into his interwoven hands and then swing your other leg over Midnight’s broad back as Criston lifts you like wind fills sails.

chefs kiss writing

“She’s the queen,” Nico corrects, pride in her voice. She’s nursing a particularly long, bloody scratch on the side of her neck.

proud bestieee

She nods. “I lost three myself. God saw fit to take my children from me. But the devil took yours.” Her eyes go steely and vengeful. “Everyone knows what he did to you. We speak of it as we work, as we barter in the marketplace, at church. Prince Daemon is a ghoul escaped from the fires stoked below our earth. My family and I would sooner burn our own fields and empty our veins than surrender to him.”

daemon sure is popular huh

“God in heaven.” Sabina crosses herself. “The emperor might kill us all.”

only all the blacks hopefully... 👀

You worry for your unborn child. You miss Aemond; you feel the absence he’s left behind like the gory void of an extracted tooth.

chefs kiss writing

“You look terrified,” you say.

“Yes. I am.”

“Fear not. I suspect I’ll live.”

He shakes his head. “This will scar, you won’t be able to disguise it. Aemond will be furious with me.”

“I’ll assure him you saved my life several times over today.” Then your words drop low and gentle. “You love him.”

“He’s the closest thing I’ll ever have to a son.”

“I can empathize. He’s the closest thing I’ll ever have to a husband.”

Sir Criston looks at you, startled; not so much by the sentiment, perhaps, but by the fact that someone finally said it out loud.

im gonna be so normal about this scene between aemonds dad and wife.. i mean criston and ivy hehe

He says you’ll have to assist him with saddling Midnight so she doesn’t murder him.

lol

In the meantime, as the three of you wait restlessly for afternoon to turn to dusk, you try to help Nico with the bread—she is oddly enthused by the opportunity to masquerade as a commoner—but you only have the full use of one hand and your mood is heavy and dark like the ocean.

bless nico

also chefs kiss writing

“Remember back before anyone knew you were being poisoned and people were talking about shipping you off to Navarre?”

“Yes, why?”

Nico shrugs, smirking. “Well, it’s a shame we couldn’t do something like that for Aegon.”

It’s a ridiculous idea, but something about it snags in your mind and clatters there like an echo, growing louder, less ludicrous, more clear. Your jaw falls open and you blink at Nico, stunned.

“What?” Nico asks. “What did I say?”

nico is a certified genius

“I need you to take me to Castle Rising,” you tell Sir Criston.

He glances over at you dismissively, as if it’s not even worth consideration. “I’m tasked with keeping you out of the war, not rushing headlong into it.”

“But I know how to help us. All of us. Aegon, Aemond, me, the entire realm. And I have to be there to arrange it in person.”

“No. I can’t willingly endanger your life. If something happened to you, Aemond would never forgive me.”

“What has this all been for if not a better future?” you demand, your voice fracturing and tears welling up in your eyes. Criston puts down the brush and studies you. “A better future for England, yes, but also for us. If Aegon could be happy, wouldn’t you want him to be? If Aemond could do more good for the world, wouldn’t it be a sin to prevent that from happening? And what about me, Criston? What about me and the children I’ll risk my life to give birth to so they can repeat this same fucking torment all over again? We serve and we endure and we bear the burdens as best we can, but shouldn’t we have a chance at a better future too?”

okay but if they ship aegon off to some faraway sunny land where he can live his best life, while the rest of the realm thinks him dead and ivymond get to be together and either aemond gets the crown or they rule in the name of ivygons kid till he (if its even a he) comes of age... best and happiest ending? dare i hope? will all go well...? 👀

“No, but you found me!” Nico howls as she battles the intruder, hurling her against the kitchen wall. She grabs a heavy iron pan off the table and swings it with both hands. And that’s when Baela rips her sword from its scabbard.

“Don’t!” you scream, and before you’ve crossed the room Baela has thrust the blade upwards into Nico’s abdomen, twisted it, yanked it free. Nico staggers back into the table and then collapses, knocking over several chairs.

BAELA WHAT THE FUCK HOW DARE YOU NICOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NOOOOOOO

You act without thinking. Your sword is in your bandaged hand, it is piercing through Baela’s left eye, it is making sick, wet popping noises as Baela shrieks and stabs clumsily at you, blinded by pain and blood and the inescapable truth of her impending ruin. Seething, inhuman, you drive the blade deeper until it’s in her brain. You wrestle Baela to the floor and clamp both hands over her mouth so no one will hear her screams. Kunigunde’s words about ivy—once spoken to the Duke of Hightower just before her wedding—ring in your mind like tolling bells: But it kills. It smothers everything else. It must be tamed.

She’s dead. Daemon’s daughter is dead. The one most like him, the one he was so proud of. And there is no part of you that feels sorry for it. You turn to Nico.

OKAY BUT THAT WAS SATISFYING AND IVY GOING FOR HER LEFT EYE SAME AS THEY DID WITH AEMOND ALL THOSE YEARS AGO? YES QUEEN SMOTHER THEM ALL

“Nico!” You crawl to her on your hands and knees and drag her into your arms the same way Aemond once held you when you were the one bleeding out in agony.

“August,” she gasps. “I have to be alive then. I’m getting married in August.”

SHE HAS TO BE ALIVE TO MARRY DAERON IN AUGUST SHE CANT JUST FUCKIN DIE NOW FFS NOOOOOO

“Listen,” she says, reaching for your face. Her voice is wavering and frail, flooded, drowning.

“No, Nico—”

“Shh. It’s alright. I’m not upset. I’m not scared. I wanted to help. I helped, didn’t I?”

There’s rain on her face: tears, yours, clear and hot and leaving clean tracks through dirt and blood and flour. Blood bubbles from her lips. “Yes, Nico. You helped.”

NOBODY FUCKING TOUCH ME

“Tell Aemond to watch out for him. To take care of him.”

“Who, Nico?”

She smiles. Her teeth are red with blood. “Daeron.”

FUCKING HELL 😭🤧

And then her hand falls away, limp and empty. She was once Daeron’s betrothed and she’s not anymore. She was once your only friend here and now she’s nobody. She’s a name in a letter of condolence, she’s a gravestone, she’s a memory that’s already fading. She’ll never laugh again, or dance, or ride horses, or talk about her wedding until you wish she’d stop. You hate yourself for every second you ever spent annoyed with her. You hate yourself for not making her seek sanctuary in Westminster Abbey with Alicent and the Duke of Hightower.

TWIST THE SWORD IN MY HEART WHY DONT YOU

THIS WHOLE PASSAGE AND THE ENTIRE SITUATION IS FUCKING HEARTWRENCHING I-

I can’t save her, you realize all at once. There’s nothing more I can do for her. But there are still people I can save. And she died so I could try. “I’m not a princess,” you say. “I’m the queen.” And then you stand, wiping the tears from your face with the sleeve of your gown, green like a cedar tree, like leaves of pennyroyal, like ivy. “Now take me to Castle Rising.”

YES QUEEN *I CHEER THROUGH MY TEARS* RIP NICO YOU WILL BE MISSED

“Hermana!” Alonzo booms, and you climb down from Midnight’s saddle to meet him. He embraces you, spins you around, kisses both of your cheeks without shying away from the dust or the thin stripes of dried blood left by thorns, brambles, branches. Alonzo doesn’t shy away from anything and never has. “Jesus, Mary, and Joseph, what happened to you? Have you been neglected this severely? Perhaps I am raising my swords against the wrong people.”

lol i love alonzo already

“I’m well,” you assure him, but you don’t sound like you are. Sir Criston dismounts and tethers both horses to a nearby post. Midnight has at last developed a working rapport with him. “I need to speak to Prince Aemond. Do you know where he is?”

lol midnight and criston reluctant besties

The officers disperse, gossip flitting between them like fireflies through summer night air. When only you, Aemond, Aegon, Alonzo, and Sir Criston are left in the room, Aemond’s composure cracks like glass. He runs to you, touching your face, your arms, your throat, your belly, examining you for wounds, asking over and over again if you’re alright. The others avert their attention awkwardly; Alonzo’s thick eyebrows rise so high they disappear under his mess of curls.

LMAO

“She stabbed Baela to death,” Criston says reluctantly.

“Oh God,” Aemond moans, knowing that Daemon’s wrath will now swell from a blaze to an inferno.

“Through the eye,” Criston adds, a little impressed, you think.

haha impressed dad in law

she got what she deserved... JUSTICE FOR NICO 😭🤧

You’re still trying to figure out how to tell him when Daeron strides blithely into the room, the sun peeking out from behind clouds, a constellation on a backdrop of abyss. “Your Majesty!” He greets you, beaming. He sweeps a dramatic bow. “Why, what a marvelous surprise! But what has brought you such a long way? Is Nico with you?”

And the room fills up with all the words you don’t say until the silence becomes a roar.

SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP POOR DAERON AND POOR NICO THEY DESERVED SO MUCH BETTER

“I know how to fix things. How to make everything better for both us and the realm. The answer has been right there in front of us the entire time, we just never recognized it for what it was. But now I understand. And Nico helped me to see it.”

“You’re going to throw me out a window,” Aegon guesses, raising his wine cup, then cackles morbidly.

You say instead: “Navarre.”

LOL AEGON PLS

Aemond furrows his brow at you, indignant. “I’m not sending you away.”

“No. Not me.” You turn to Aegon. He gapes back, startled.

“Me?”

Aegon blinks numbly. “But I’d be alone, wouldn’t I? Everyone I’ve ever known would be here.”

“Not alone,” you say. “You’d have Sunfyre.”

He’s thinking about it, even through the haze of the wine; the wheels are spinning, the clock ticking. Then he speaks with his rare, beautiful breed of tenderness. “Who would take care of you and the baby?”

Everyone looks at the same person, at Aemond, solemn and still. He bows his head in acceptance, in assent, trying to hide how much he hungers for it like a starving man.

“Right. Of course,” Aegon mutters, but he sounds more thoughtful than bitter.

PEAK COMEDY LMAO

“Aegon,” you say, and you don’t continue until your husband meets your eyes. “If you decide to stay, I’ll stand by you with everything I’m made of. You’ll have me and the baby. I’ll be the best wife I can be to you, because that’s what I was sent here to do. England is my home now. The Greens are my home now. And you’re a piece of them. And…” You hadn’t planned to add this part, but you find that it’s true. “And I love you. Not in the way that a wife is supposed to love her husband, perhaps…but as family. As someone who I want to find happiness. You deserve that. You don’t know it yet—because no one has ever told you before—but you do.”

Aemond is silent, but he frowns down at the table, tracing infinitesimal grooves in the wood with his fingerprints. Aegon watches you with an expression you’ve never seen from him before: bewildered wonder, forbidden hope.

“You’ve never had a choice, Aegon. Not once in your life. But I’m giving you one now. Stay with us and fight to be the king…or die and become free.”

Aegon Targaryen—beaten-down shoulders, watery blue eyes, bruises on his face like smudges of ink—stares at you for a long time. And then, slowly, more dazzlingly and purely than you ever knew he could…he smiles.

okay but that pitch was WAY TOO GOOD ... aegon better choose wisely imagine if he chose to stay 😂💀

i- you sure came back with a bang and made me go through the entire spectrum of human emotions SEVERAL times once again

so much to be sad about (i mean mostly nicos death, that was brutal 😭🤧) but also so much to look forward to and be hopeful for 👀

we are on dangerous ground now cos i see the possibility of a happy ivymond ending, but its you so we can not be sure of anything till the end lol your track record is 50/50 atp and things could still go sideways... but im cautiously optimistic and hopeful ivymond will get their hea, aegon gets to live his best live in navarre and send some postcards every once in a while and all will be well... surely *nervous chucke*

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Now I’m Covered In You [Chapter 8: Ante Meridiem]

Series summary: Aemond is a prince of England. You are married to his brother. The Wars of the Roses are about to begin, and you have failed to fulfill your one crucial responsibility: to give the Greens a line of legitimate heirs. Will you survive the demands of your family back in Navarre, the schemes of the Duke of Hightower, the scandals of your dissolute husband, the growing animosity of Daemon Targaryen…and your own realization of a forbidden love?

Series title is a lyric from: Ivy by Taylor Swift.

Series warnings: Language, sexual content (18+), dubious consent, miscarriage, pregnancy, childbirth, violence, warfare, murder, alcoholism, sexism, infidelity, illness, death, only vaguely historically accurate, lots of horses!

Word count: 8.1k.

Link to chapter list (and all my writing): HERE.

Taglist: @borikenlove​ @myspotofcraziness​ @teenagecriminalmastermind​ @quartzs-posts​ @tclegane​ @poohxlove​ @narwhal-swimmingintheocean​ @chainsawsangel​ @itsabby15​ @padfooteyes​ @arcielee​ @travelingmypassion​ @what-is-originality​ @burningcoffeetimetravel​ @randomdragonfires​ @anditsmywholeheart​ @aemcndtargaryen​ @jvpit3rs​ @sarcastic-halfling-princess​ @flowerpotmage​ @ladylannisterxo​ @thelittleswanao3​ @elsolario​ @tinykryptonitewerewolf​ @girlwith-thepearlearring​ @minttea07​ @trifoliumviridi​ @deltamoon666​ @mariahossain​ @darkenchantress​ @doingfondue​ @atherverybest​ @namelesslosers​ @skythighs​ @moonlightfoxx​ @partypoison00​ @bellameshipper​ @coffedraven​ @greenowlfactif​ 

“We should hide in my rooms,” Kunigunde says. She’s already heading there, her gown—like yellow jasper, like sunset, like firelight—swishing over the wooden floor, her face flinty but unrattled. She has an aura of invincibility around her, a halo, a cool fog like steel. It’s not difficult to imagine where she gets it from. She’s the Holy Roman Emperor’s daughter, raised in a far more formal and affluent court than yours or Nico’s. The idea of anyone putting their hands on her in violence is unthinkable; the animal instinct to lash back is missing from her pure-white, righteous bones. She’s not especially afraid of Daemon. She’s inconvenienced by him—because him being here is a reminder of how you triumphed where she (thus far) has failed, of the child you carry and your consummated marriage and, surely, the fact that your death would destabilize the Greens in more ways than one—but she does not fear him. You have the impression that she sees all of this as ‘men’s business,’ unpleasant and yet ultimately existing beyond her, gold coins at the bottom of the ocean, stars high above her earth. But Kunigunde doesn’t know Daemon. She knows who he is and what he’s done, but that’s very different than knowing him.

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Going into this chapter like:

It’s okay! Ivy can’t die (just yet) she’s yet to see aemond without his eyepatch 👀😏

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OK but if its not daemon, then my bet is on kuni... Honestly daemon is (inadvertently) doing more for the Greens cause than anyone else atp and killing the holy roman emrerors daughter (even accidentally) would just be the cherry on top lmao

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Now I’m Covered In You [Chapter 8: Ante Meridiem]

Series summary: Aemond is a prince of England. You are married to his brother. The Wars of the Roses are about to begin, and you have failed to fulfill your one crucial responsibility: to give the Greens a line of legitimate heirs. Will you survive the demands of your family back in Navarre, the schemes of the Duke of Hightower, the scandals of your dissolute husband, the growing animosity of Daemon Targaryen…and your own realization of a forbidden love?

Series title is a lyric from: Ivy by Taylor Swift.

Series warnings: Language, sexual content (18+), dubious consent, miscarriage, pregnancy, childbirth, violence, warfare, murder, alcoholism, sexism, infidelity, illness, death, only vaguely historically accurate, lots of horses!

Word count: 8.1k.

Link to chapter list (and all my writing): HERE.

Taglist: @borikenlove​ @myspotofcraziness​ @teenagecriminalmastermind​ @quartzs-posts​ @tclegane​ @poohxlove​ @narwhal-swimmingintheocean​ @chainsawsangel​ @itsabby15​ @padfooteyes​ @arcielee​ @travelingmypassion​ @what-is-originality​ @burningcoffeetimetravel​ @randomdragonfires​ @anditsmywholeheart​ @aemcndtargaryen​ @jvpit3rs​ @sarcastic-halfling-princess​ @flowerpotmage​ @ladylannisterxo​ @thelittleswanao3​ @elsolario​ @tinykryptonitewerewolf​ @girlwith-thepearlearring​ @minttea07​ @trifoliumviridi​ @deltamoon666​ @mariahossain​ @darkenchantress​ @doingfondue​ @atherverybest​ @namelesslosers​ @skythighs​ @moonlightfoxx​ @partypoison00​ @bellameshipper​ @coffedraven​ @greenowlfactif​ 

“We should hide in my rooms,” Kunigunde says. She’s already heading there, her gown—like yellow jasper, like sunset, like firelight—swishing over the wooden floor, her face flinty but unrattled. She has an aura of invincibility around her, a halo, a cool fog like steel. It’s not difficult to imagine where she gets it from. She’s the Holy Roman Emperor’s daughter, raised in a far more formal and affluent court than yours or Nico’s. The idea of anyone putting their hands on her in violence is unthinkable; the animal instinct to lash back is missing from her pure-white, righteous bones. She’s not especially afraid of Daemon. She’s inconvenienced by him—because him being here is a reminder of how you triumphed where she (thus far) has failed, of the child you carry and your consummated marriage and, surely, the fact that your death would destabilize the Greens in more ways than one—but she does not fear him. You have the impression that she sees all of this as ‘men’s business,’ unpleasant and yet ultimately existing beyond her, gold coins at the bottom of the ocean, stars high above her earth. But Kunigunde doesn’t know Daemon. She knows who he is and what he’s done, but that’s very different than knowing him.

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Going into this chapter like:

It's okay! Ivy can't die (just yet) she's yet to see aemond without his eyepatch 👀😏

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NICIY Update: Chapter 8 Postponement

Well besties, I have good news and bad news. 

The good news is that Chapter 7 is posted and we are well over halfway done with this series! NICIY will be 10 chapters total, so there are only 3 left, and they will be very eventful!!!  🥰 And by eventful I mean traumatizing!!! 🥰🥰

The bad news is that I will have to take next Sunday off from posting a new chapter. I am working on National Boards Certification (which is a way for U.S. teachers to get an extra credential/pay raise) and I will be stressing over that all next week in anticipation of the mid-May deadline. I don’t want to try to force Chapter 8 to happen simultaneously and end up not doing the story justice, so I’m officially postponing it now.

The posting schedule for the final 3 chapters will be:

Chapter 8 - May 21st

Chapter 9 - May 28th

Chapter 10 [Finale] - June 4th

Thank you so so so much for your patience and understanding, and I hope you aren’t too disappointed!! 💜

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secure that bag bestie!! Take all the time you need and pls don't stress about us, we will be here waiting patiently to be traumatised even more by you🥰🥰

take care of yourself, stay hydrated, you are gonna ace this thing!!

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Now I’m Covered In You [Chapter 7: Sundials]

Series summary: Aemond is a prince of England. You are married to his brother. The Wars of the Roses are about to begin, and you have failed to fulfill your one crucial responsibility: to give the Greens a line of legitimate heirs. Will you survive the demands of your family back in Navarre, the schemes of the Duke of Hightower, the scandals of your dissolute husband, the growing animosity of Daemon Targaryen…and your own realization of a forbidden love?

Series title is a lyric from: Ivy by Taylor Swift.

Series warnings: Language, sexual content (18+), dubious consent, miscarriage, pregnancy, childbirth, violence, warfare, murder, alcoholism, sexism, infidelity, illness, death, only vaguely historically accurate, lots of horses!

Word count: 6.0k.

Link to chapter list (and all my writing): HERE.

Taglist: @borikenlove @myspotofcraziness @teenagecriminalmastermind​ @quartzs-posts​ @tclegane​ @poohxlove​ @narwhal-swimmingintheocean​ @chainsawsangel​ @itsabby15​ @padfooteyes​ @arcielee​ @travelingmypassion​ @what-is-originality​ @burningcoffeetimetravel​ @randomdragonfires​ @anditsmywholeheart​ @aemcndtargaryen​ @jvpit3rs​ @sarcastic-halfling-princess​ @flowerpotmage​ @ladylannisterxo​ @thelittleswanao3​ @elsolario​ @tinykryptonitewerewolf​ @girlwith-thepearlearring​ @minttea07​ @trifoliumviridi​ @deltamoon666​ @mariahossain​ @darkenchantress​ @doingfondue​ @atherverybest​ @namelesslosers​ @skythighs​ @moonlightfoxx​ @partypoison00​ @bellameshipper​ @coffedraven​

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HE'S COMING TO TAKE AEGONS WIFE

me @ daemon: don't you dare, don't you fucking dare

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Now I’m Covered In You [Chapter 6: Dawn]

Series summary: Aemond is a prince of England. You are married to his brother. The Wars of the Roses are about to begin, and you have failed to fulfill your one crucial responsibility: to give the Greens a line of legitimate heirs. Will you survive the demands of your family back in Navarre, the schemes of the Duke of Hightower, the scandals of your dissolute husband, the growing animosity of Daemon Targaryen…and your own realization of a forbidden love?

Series title is a lyric from: Ivy by Taylor Swift.

Series warnings: Language, sexual content (18+), dubious consent, miscarriage, pregnancy, childbirth, violence, warfare, murder, alcoholism, sexism, infidelity, illness, death, only vaguely historically accurate, lots of horses!

Word count: 6.4k.

Link to chapter list (and all my writing): HERE.

Taglist: @borikenlove​ @myspotofcraziness @teenagecriminalmastermind​ @quartzs-posts​ @tclegane​ @poohxlove​ @narwhal-swimmingintheocean​ @chainsawsangel​ @itsabby15​ @padfooteyes​ @arcielee​ @travelingmypassion​ @what-is-originality​ @burningcoffeetimetravel​ @randomdragonfires​ @anditsmywholeheart​ @aemcndtargaryen​ @jvpit3rs​ @sarcastic-halfling-princess​ @flowerpotmage​ @ladylannisterxo​ @thelittleswanao3​ @elsolario​ @tinykryptonitewerewolf​ @girlwith-thepearlearring​ @minttea07​ @trifoliumviridi​ @deltamoon666​ @mariahossain​ @darkenchantress​ @doingfondue​ @atherverybest​ @namelesslosers​ @skythighs​ @moonlightfoxx​ @partypoison00​ 

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She’s worse than you could have ever imagined.

She’s dignified and graceful and courteous, stunning like an opal or a pearl, a portrait in motion. She has hushed footsteps and large bright eyes that dart around taking in every detail. You can tell she’s intelligent, everyone can tell, and that’s worse than all the rest of it; as she and Aemond stroll together through the gardens, she asks him questions about history and hunting, and then has clever retorts to his answers. Their conversation has the seamless, pacific quality of language between people who have known each other for years. It’s just like the Duke of Hightower said it would be. She is precisely the sort of woman Aemond would have chosen for himself.

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*shows up 15 mins late with starbucks an' all that*

minus the starbuck, i dont have starbucks😩

You can tell she’s intelligent, everyone can tell, and that’s worse than all the rest of it; as she and Aemond stroll together through the gardens, she asks him questions about history and hunting, and then has clever retorts to his answers. Their conversation has the seamless, pacific quality of language between people who have known each other for years. It’s just like the Duke of Hightower said it would be. She is precisely the sort of woman Aemond would have chosen for himself.

me and ivy, looking at ohhh sooo smart and perfect kuni walking with IVYS MAN

The Greens have no such tender heartache brewing within them. They mourned King Viserys long ago, not his death but his dreadful, interminable absence.

good riddance v

In the past 48 hours, there have been twelve fistfights, seven sword duels, and no less than five deaths, six if you include the poisoning servant who (allegedly) threw himself from a window of the Tower of London before he could be racked.

And for once, the Greens’ supporters know exactly what to say to you. They fawn over your health and mourn your losses, all four of them, as if they happened only yesterday. They never tire of expressing their horror. They vow that the treacherous, murderous Blacks must not be given any further opportunity to endanger you or the child you now carry. You are not just—at long last—a true Green. You are a beacon that draws ever more allies to their side. You are a talisman. You are an example of how mercilessly low Daemon will sink to devour his adversaries: a serpent, a wolf, a butcher who no man of honor could count among his friends.

i see daemon still found the time to take care of loose ends...

his crimes are obvious to everyone tho, and v is not gonna be there to silence everyone anymore 👀

You can’t follow her phrases; your hearing goes in and out like a tide.

ds plan sure backfired huh

there may not be an heir yet, but his horrible actions pretty much martyred ivy and gave ample excuse for people to side with the greens

writing? 👨‍🍳💋👌🏻

“Do you grow any edelweiss?” Kunigunde asks in a voice like windchimes.

“Edelweiss…?”

“It is found in the Alps,” Aemond explains. “Small white blossom that thrive in rocky limestone soil. It cannot survive in England, regrettably.”

“A shame,” Kunigunde says with what you would guess is well-disguised homesickness. “It’s my favorite flower. That’s what’s used in my perfume, you know.”

ok but the whole symbolism thing you had going on in this entire scene with the flowers/characters was INSANEEE 👨‍🍳💋👌🏻

Kuni=edelweiss ->  It cannot survive in England (nothing regrettable about it tho)

and dont even get me started on ivy

“Ah! But I see you have an infestation.” Kunigunde points at the grasping emerald vines that are spilling from the grey stone walls of the palace down into the gardens.

The Duke follows her eyeline. “Oh, ivy, yes. Well, there’s no stopping that. A stubborn weed. It would cover the whole world if it could.”

You and Aemond glance at each other, like a reflex, then immediately look away. His cheeks flush a deep hectic pink.

“But it kills,” Kunigunde says. “It smothers everything else. It must be tamed.”

“We’ll have it ripped down,” the Duke assures her, then leads you all into the royal stables to escape the rain.

LIKE HELLO?!

kuni pointing out the ivy infestation, saying it kills, it smothers everything else, that it MUST BE TAMED and otto with his whole chest saying they will have it her ripped down as if he hasnt already been doing a pretty great job of bringing ivy down and stifling her 

ivy on her way to smother edelweiss 👀

but also, ivy -> there’s no stopping that. A stubborn weed. It would cover the whole world if it could.

ok but im choosing to interpret this as; no matter what the blacks, the greens, this looming war and just life in general throws at Ivy shes gonna persevere and come out victorious in the end

been thinking about how the story could end, and if/how we could even have a happy-ish ending

so yeah these are some of the thoughts floating around in my head rn, will be v interested to see how things will actually turn out 👀

i think ivygon is gonna have aegons heir

babygirl aegon is probably gonna die #ripking 😭🤧

ivygons kid is gonna inherit, but kid being too young someones gonna have to rule in their name and here it could be like A) ivy ruling as queen regent or B) aemond being that lord protector or whatever its called alá richard after edwards death or C) both A+B in a way, ivymond ruling together, governing the country for ivys kid till they grow up

kuni dead or shipped back to the holy roman emeror as a maiden lmao, but more on that later

ofc theres a chance you will kill off aemond too, and then ivy will truly rule alone, but lets hope that wont be the case lmao

also lmao at ivymond glancing at each other like:

“Welcome to England, princess. And, uh, I presume you have a nickname of some sort…?”

Kunigunde blinks bewilderedly at him. “Why would I require a nickname?”

“Jesus Christ,” Aegon mutters, and wanders away to pet Sunfyre.

AEGOOOON LMAO 😂💀

Kunigunde stops at your horse’s stall. She marvels at her—gleaming black coat, vast muscles, defiant eyes—and gasps in delight. “Meine Güte! What is this one?”

“She’s an Andalucian,” you tell her. “From Navarre.”

“Your homeland,” Kunigunde notes gently, like someone who knows the pain of being exiled from the same earth that grew you.

ok but the irony of kuni singling out ivys horse is not lost on me

first she takes her man and now you want her horse too I THINK THE FUCK NOT

writing? 👨‍🍳💋👌🏻

“Midnight,” you reply, then steal a glimpse of Aemond to test his reaction. He pretends not to be listening, but again his cheeks color with a fleeting wash of scarlet. His betrothed—in a few short hours, his wife—observes this thoughtfully. It’s nothing as low as suspicion; it’s an intelligent, acute sort of awareness. One can look at her face and see gears and levers shifting, hear the ticking of a clock.

ivymond are so UNSUBTLE 😭💀 and kuni aint stupid,,, nor blind 👀

“Is it awful?” she asks in a conspiratorial whisper.

You genuinely have no idea what she’s talking about. “What?”

“His eye,” she says. “Prince Aemond’s lost eye. A grisly thing, surely. The scar is bad enough, but the eye? I can’t imagine having to stare at it while…while…well, you know. While he’s lying with me. Fortunately, I have been assured that I won’t ever have to see it. But I’m sure you have. I’ve heard that you’re very good friends.”

k i swear i was gonna try and give kuni the benefit of the doubt, and maybe she isnt entirely awful and she is definitely just doing her part like they all must, but the way she talks about aemond and his scar here? nah fam kuni aint shit

“I’m afraid I can’t be of much help to you. I haven’t seen it myself.” You’ve wondered about it, though never with such scandalized revulsion. There’s nothing about Aemond that could disgust you. And then you say to comfort her: “But he’s well worth it.”

notice how she head about ivymond being good friends 👀

and how she was paying attention to them before

if she hasnt already put 2+2 together, after the wedding night she def will 👀

“Yes. He’s very clever and chivalrous. He has no vices, drinking, gambling, idleness. He loves history and sword fighting. He always smells of smoke and leather and hard work, like a blacksmith’s forge. He always has ink stains on his hands. And he writes poems.”

havent seen it YET

love to see ivy standing up for her man

“Poems? Really?” Kunigunde says. She’s pleased, but she’s something else as well. There’s that watchfulness in her face again, too many layers for you to sift through. “Have you read many?”

You reply briskly as you lead her out into the scant rain: “Only one.”

never mind, ivy is so obviously in love and kuni can tell too, how could she not 👀

ivy: ah yeah aemond is great, really smart, oh and let me wax poetic about the way he smells and his hands and did i tell you my man writes poems too? but we are just friends ofc theres nothing to see here, what do you mean you cant describe the way your friends smell? thats a wholly normal thing that friends do... isnt it?

kuni (in her mind, probably): is this bitch for real?

“Ivy, I know how you feel—”

“Do you?” you snap. “Have you ever had to feign pleasure as some drunken stranger was invading you? Have you felt that your entire worth was whether or not you could produce a living son—an endeavor that might kill you, by the way—and then been vilified when you could not do it because you were being poisoned, all that sacrifice undone like someone pulling out a loose thread from a tapestry, all those nights of forced smiles and premeditated moans wasted? Have you stolen seconds of happiness, your first in a year, only to watch the person who gave them to you marry someone who is not a pitiful failure by any possible metric but a godsend who surpasses you in every way? Have you felt what it’s like to carry one man’s child when you desire another? No, you haven’t, and you never will. You have no fucking idea what this feels like.”

“My wife…” And you flinch as he says it, like he’s hit you, a palm crashing against your face, a wave of flesh and bone. “She has to be happy here. She has to have a real marriage.”

“Unlike mine.”

He closes his eye. “Yes.”

“Then go,” you say, biting back sobs. “Go and get ready for your wedding.”

“You don’t think I’m being ripped apart by this?” he demands, striking a fist against his chest. “You don’t think I’d like to have some choice in the woman I’m bedding? For once in my life? You don’t think I’ve spent hundreds of hours wondering how our lives would look if the timing had been different, if you could have been wed to me and Aegon given the emperor’s daughter?”

“She’s perfect, she’s…” Your voice breaks off, bitter and fracturing.

“Yes. She must be, everybody agrees. Even the Blacks are in awe of her. They’re petrified by the advantage this match gives us. But I can’t see it. Because I’m not the man I was before and I can’t get him back. Because now I’m covered in you.”

HE SAID THE LINE I REPEAT HE SAID THE LINE *SNIFFLE*

IM NOT THE MAN I WAS BEFORE AND I CANT GET HIM BACK BCOS NOW IM COVERED IN YOUUUUU

You clean tears from your cheeks with quick, aggravated swipes. “I’m sorry our momentary indiscretion has become such a source of regret.”

“I don’t regret it.”

“I’ve made something for you,” Aemond says, kindly now.

“You’ve had it made, you mean.”

“No.” He shows you his hands. He made it himself.

“I don’t want it.” But you’ve made something for him too: a tunic to wear as he takes Kunigunde’s hand in marriage, deep forest green with bears and horses and roses stitched into it with gold thread. You’ve already given the tunic to Daeron so he can present it to his brother this evening. You won’t be there when he’s getting ready. You wouldn’t be able to bear it anyway. “I won’t accept it.”

“Aemond, you don’t have to pretend,” you say. “I know you’ll spend the rest of your life avoiding me. You can start now.”

THEY ARE NOT GOODBYE GIFTS OKAY

THE ARE SEE YOU LATER GIFTS

He comes to you and lays his hand on your belly; you’re not showing yet, but everyone knows you carry Aegon’s child. And now that the sinister cause of your previous losses has been revealed, there is no reason to believe that this one won’t live. “I will always protect you. And the child.”

You reply cynically: “Because if it’s a boy, he might be the king someday?”

Aemond shakes his head. “Because whether boy or girl, it’s a piece of you.”

CRYING

THE HAND ON THE BELLY

I WILL ALWAYS PROTECT YOU AND THE CHILD

BCOS ITS A PIECE OF YOU

“Ivy,” you tell Midnight, showing her the necklace. “He’s carved a leaf of ivy.”

IM NOT CRYING YOU ARE CRYING

You put on the necklace—feeling traitorous, feeling heartsick, feeling comforted somehow—and then pick up your sword. You take it to the base of the tree to carve the dates you’ve left there ever-deeper, keeping them alive in a way that your first four children never will be. You locate the small imprints in the bark, and then you stare at them in puzzlement, the sword in your hand abruptly unnecessary. Someone else has already revived them recently. Someone else has traced over the dates so they won’t fade.

Aemond’s words come back to you like rain after a spell of drought: Because whether boy or girl, it’s a piece of you.

“I’m in love with him,” you say aloud for the first time. “I don’t want to be. But I am. And I don’t know how to stop.”

HE TRACED OVER THE DATES I-

AEMONDS GONNA BE THE BEST STEPDADDY

And you stay there for what feels like a lifetime before you return to the palace to ready yourself for his wedding to the Holy Roman Emperor’s daughter.

It’s like I’m reliving everything between us, you think as you look down at the wooden floorboards, unable to watch him linked by the hands with the woman he will share his life with. The stables where we first spoke, the chapel where he gave me the name that only he knows, where now he pledges himself to be someone else’s husband. The beginning and the end.

okay but poor ivy got the short end of the stick, basically

aemond just had to watch a girl he had a crush on/thought he could love marry his brother, but now they actually know and love each other and ivy has to watch the man she is in love with marry someone else, and that someone is not even a girlfailure, like hasnt poor girl been through enough already?! (i know i know shes about to go through a whole lot of other things, pray for the sis shes gonna need it)

Aemond wears the tunic you made for him. Kunigunde wears a delicate and impassive pale blue. You wear the gold ivy leaf necklace and a gown green like envy. There is no sunlight streaming in through the stained glass windows today. Even if the sun had not already set, the sky is thick and churning with rainclouds. There is thunder somewhere, distant, ominous. Hundreds of candles illuminate the chapel like a pinpoint inferno in a world full of darkness.

green like envy 😭🤧

but also the weather? this marriage sure aint blesses by the heavens 👀

Beside you, your husband drains cup after cup of wine, but he cannot escape the inevitable. When the Greens wage war, it is his claim they are fighting for. And as long as he lives, it is he who must wear the crown. Aegon glances at you, smiles tiredly, dark patches around his eyes like a badger’s. He reaches over to touch you fondly, your hair and your cheeks. He drapes an arm across the back of your chair and rests his head on your shoulder, one hand on your belly. Aemond watches this, his eye sharp and glacial, then departs with his new wife to dance.

“How are we tonight?” Aegon asks. Meaning both of you, you and the baby.

THE GENTLE TOUCHES

THE ARM ACROSS HER CHAIR

THE HEAD RESTING ON HER SHOULDER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE HAND ON HER BELLY

HOW ARE WE TONIGHT?!

BABYGIRL IS KILLING ME

YOU KNOW IM DOWN BAD FOR AEGON EVEN WHEN HE IS BEING HIS PATHETIC LOSER SELF, SO HOW DO YOU THINK I FEEL WHEN HE IS.ACTING.LIKE.THIS?! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

You twirl messy locks of his white-blond hair around your fingers. “Well enough, all things taken into consideration.” And you wonder, as you do with increasing frequency, what sort of man he might have been if he hadn’t been beaten black and blue by the demands placed upon him since infancy. “Aegon, when are you happiest?”

ALSO AEMOND GIVING THE SIDE EYE

BOY ITS YOUR WEDDING YOU CANT JUDGE

“I don’t know,” he says, as if he hasn’t ever considered it. “Never.”

“Never? Really?”

“When I’m with Sunfyre,” he decides. “And when I think about the fact that I’ll always have you.”

He can’t mean that. He’s spent most of the past twenty-one months ignoring me.

IVY TWIRLING HIS HAIR I-

aegon: ...ill always have you

ivy: 

“I miss you,” he murmurs. “I miss being with you.” He turns your face to his and kisses you sloppily. The Duke of Hightower rolls his eyes—this is far from decorous feast behavior—but is otherwise content to ignore it. Across the exuberant hall, the Montfords hang their heads in resigned disappointment. Aegon’s murky gaze skates over your body: green velvet, gold metal. “I was always uneasy about it because of the pressure to give the Greens an heir. But now…you are already with child. And neither of us were at fault for what happened before.”

OH BOY

HES IN FOR A NASTY SURPRISE 😭🤧

He kisses you again, his tongue darting between your lips, wine and drowsy desire. And you think, through a fog of melancholy and self-loathing: Could I find some happiness with him? If Aemond will spend his life with Kunigunde, if Nico will know true passion with Daeron, if Rhaenyra will have Daemon’s single-minded devotion until it destroys them and their children too…could I have something for myself that makes the burden of existence lighter? Could I even learn to love him? If I tried for months, for years, for decades?

okay but as much as i love ivymond, ivygon is my side ship so this scene sent me into orbit

“I understand if we can’t lie together,” ... “But when you’re ready again…I want you. No one else. I want you so fucking badly it’s killing me. It’s all I can think about.”

It’s just an escape, you think, you know. It’s a port in a storm for him. And yet…perhaps it could be the same for you. You push back his hair and touch your lips to his forehead. “You can have me, Aegon. If you’re gentle.”

He beams at you, dazed with wine and reckless optimism. “I always am.” And he’s right; he is. “Shall we dance, wife?”

Aegon accompanies you around the perimeter of the hall, clumsy and stumbling, yes, but also proud, his palm on your belly, presenting you to various Green-affiliated noblemen and their wives, daughters, sons.

I WANT YOU, NO ONE ELSE

IM ALWAYS GENTLE - AND HES RIGHT HE IS 😭🤧

EGG PROUDLY SHOWING OFF HIS WIFE AND KID I- 😭🤧

They are warm and compassionate to you, appalled by your now-infamous suffering, mindful of the fact that if their faction wins you will soon be the queen; and with a husband like yours, the people closest to him will be more influential than the king himself.

👀

Aemond revolves with Kunigunde—she’s almost as good a dancer as you are, almost, though as far as anyone besides you and Aemond know she’s the best at court—but his eye follows you and Aegon around the crowded room, betrayed even though he has no right to be, incensed by the only honorable choice you can make.

LIVING FOR IVYGON AND JEALOUS AEMOND AND THE ANGST OF IT ALL

Aegon’s wine sloshes out of his cup each time he trips over his own feet, leaving a trail of maroon puddles on the floor.

👀👀👀😭🤧

You and the Duke of Hightower stand together without speaking, watching Aemond and his wife dance together, two flawless figures with their hands resting lightly, sheepishly on each other, speaking in clandestine voices that no one else can hear. It knocks the air out of your lungs once, twice, again. This is going to kill me, you realize. I can’t drown out the memory of his voice with Aegon’s. I can’t stop wanting him.

You study Kunigunde—the daughter of one emperor, the sister of the next, the wife to the man you love, the future mother of his children—and marvel at what you would give to be her. Anything, everything.

edelweiss stands no chance against ivyyyy

“If you love him, you will not imperil him,” the Duke says. “You will not jeopardize our ascension.”

“I love him,” you confess in a splintering whisper.

The Duke of Hightower frowns at you in disappointment, in disgust. “Learn to hide it better.” Then he sweeps away to make his rounds among the noblemen, to ensure their banners are rising and their loyalties unfaltering.

i think the only one who doesnt at least suspect sth at this point is poor egg... but then that wont last for long now lmao

i would scream about ivy confessing her feelings for her bro-in-law to her hubbys grandpa but honestly? aint no way otto didnt already know, this was just the final confirmation

learn to hide it better lmao, you should tell that to aemond too

if you looked up the definition of unsubtle in a dictionary it would just be a pic of ivymond

“Yes, she’s certainly the next best thing, isn’t she?” Nico says cheerfully.

You furrow your brow in confusion. “Second to who?”

Nico grins. “You, of course.” And then she sees your horrified expression. As usual, she’s hit just a bit too close to the mark, to the truth. Nico stammers an explanation. “I mean, you know, because you’re such good friends, and you understand him, he’s so odd to most people, so unnerving, but you like him as he is and he’s clearly smitten with you, and if you weren’t already married to Prince Aegon you’d be his choice for a wife, I’d imagine, but since it’s impossible…”

protect nico at all cost

“No, you stay. You’re having such a good time. I don’t want to ruin it for you.”

“It’ll be ruined if I fear you’re unhappy.”

“I’m happy,” you insist. “I’m happy, Nico.” I’ll never be happy again.

As you pass by the high table, you see that Aegon has laid his head down beside his plate and is practically unconscious. You fly through the corridors and take refuge in your bedchamber, a sanctuary, a prison.

nico is the bestie ivy deserves

but also cryiiiiing for ivy

hes clearly not unconscious ENOUGH tho is he now 😭🤧

You don’t even let your ladies undress you. You send them away and kneel down on the bearskin rug and stay there waiting for nothing, time crawling over you, prickling and slow and murderous like ivy. As the bells toll and the hours pass you imagine what they mean, you envision it, though you wish you couldn’t. Now he is taking off her nightgown. Now he is combing out her long lustrous hair with his agile fingers. Now he is admiring the glow of her bare skin in the firelight. Now he is tracing the slope of her jaw with the lightest touch—entranced, reverent—and tilting up her chin to kiss her. Now his hands are on her throat, her breasts, her waist, her thighs that have never been stained with the blood of another man’s child, parting them, reaching between them, angling himself to enter her. But he won’t rush; he won’t want to cause his lover pain. For all of their innumerable differences, he and Aegon have that in common.

ivy kneeling on the bearrug, imagining whats going on with kunimond was so big brainded and so so devastating i love pain:)

You stare into the flames until they blur and bleed together, your eyes brimming with tears. And suddenly it feels like the fire is inside rather than out: your throat, your lungs, everything you’re made of, searing through vertebrae and veins. It feels like you could burn until there’s nothing left but echoes, threadbare ricochets of memory, a murmur of ash. Aegon does not appear. He’s probably not fucking some Green loyalist’s daughter, you concede that much, but he’s gone nonetheless: passed out under a table, or in a stairwell, or in the garden, or in Sunfyre’s stall in the royal stables. Aemond is bedding his wife and Nico will dance with Daeron until the sun rises but you are here alone, alone, alone, and you always will be. When Aegon drinks himself to death you will be widowed. When your child is born it will be given away to wetnurses and governesses. Nothing here is truly yours. Even if the Greens win, there’s no scenario in which you do.

*THIS PAIN is insufferable. i love it

You cover your mouth with both hands. You don’t want anyone to hear you sobbing and decide to investigate, to piece together what has caused you such distress. Tears pour down your cheeks like spring rain. And you know now that if you are ivy to Aemond, then surely he is the same to you: a merciless trespasser, vines that have grown through your palms and into your bloodstream, scraping along the path of ruby arteries until they strangle the heart. There’s no point in trying to rip him out of you. There’s no way to return to the person you were before.

writing? 👨‍🍳💋👌🏻

The bedchamber door flies open and slams shut, so quickly it’s over before you register what’s happening; hurried footsteps travel across the wooden floor. You whirl to find Aemond standing in the stone-heavy silence, in the firelight. You’ve never seen him like this before. He’s still wearing his eyepatch, but his long silver hair hangs free and wild, strands obstructing his face. He is dressed in only loose trousers and a white sleeping shirt that has been unbuttoned down to his navel. He’s backed himself against the wall. He’s trembling all over.

AEMOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOND

he really said:

AND I LOVE THAT FOR IVY AND FOR US

“Alright,” you agree immediately. He won’t look at you, his blue eye darting everywhere except your face. He runs his fingers through his hair, shaking his head, breathing rapidly. Perspiration gleams on his bare chest, etchings and basins and steppes you’d only ever imagined. You ask him softly: “What happened?”

“I couldn’t do it,” Aemond says. At last, his gaze catches on yours, as if he’s surrendering, as if a gap in a page has been filled. “Not with her.”

Before you can ask him, Aemond’s palms are on your tear-streaked face, and he’s kissing you with an intensity that cuts through all the strings that were knotted around you just minutes ago: hopelessness and solitude and bone-rattling terror. Your hands debate stopping him; instead, they come to rest on his salt-damp chest, exploring hungrily, a feast after famine. He’s begging for you in every way but words. There’s no question as to what your answer will be. There should be, but there isn’t; you need him in a way that is inescapable, like the seasons, like time.

HE COULDNT DO IT

NOT WITH KUNI !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

“We’ll go very slowly.”

Kissing the side of your face, his left hand smoothing back your hair, Aemond begins to ease himself into you. There is pressure—tremendous, delicious pressure—but no pain yet. He stops to give you time to adjust; and perhaps it’s for him as well, shaking with euphoria and anticipation, trying to last long enough to please you. The first tentative rays of dawn are bleeding in from the slits between the curtains. And then there’s a sound that at first you don’t recognize: a creaking, a draft of new air. It’s the bedchamber door opening.

It happens too quickly for you to push Aemond away, to make any attempt to disguise your treason, your lethal weakness. There is only time to turn your face towards the open door to see who has discovered you. Perhaps it is the newlywed Kunigunde searching for her absconder husband, or the Duke of Hightower ready to drag Aemond back to consummate the marriage, or Daemon coming to murder you, or a servant or a guard or Queen Alicent or Sir Criston Cole. Each would be horrific in its own way, legacy-shattering, life-threatening.

But the intruder is none of these people. It is the one silhouette you didn’t even consider. You had assumed he wouldn’t be here. He’s almost never here.

The person in the doorway is Aegon.

YOU GUYS WENT TOO SLOW  😭🤧💀

TRUST AEGON THAT HIS TIMING WILL ALWAYS BE THE WORST

COULDNT HE LET THEM FINALLY HAVE A LIL HAPPINESS AND DISCOVER THEM IN POST COITAL BLISS FFS

BUT ALSO POOR AEGON YOURE SUPPOSED TO BE MY PERSON, ILL ALWAYS HAVE YOU TARGARYEN IS GONNA BE FUCKING CRUSHED OMG

NOT LIKE HE HAS A LEG TO STAND ON MR. FLAVOUR OF THE MONTH HES CHEATED ON IVY MORE THAN ENOUGH, GUY HAS A WHOLE BASTARD, IVYS ONLY CRIMES ARE BEING BORN A WOMAN AND CHEATING WITH HIS BRO INSTEAD OF SOME RANDO, BUT STILL I-

having thoughts about kunimonds situation... we dont actually know how far they went (did he put it in? i hope not lmao) but im choosing to believe they did not consummate and kuni is still a virgin, in which case they arent married in the eyes of god or whatever and IMAGINE THE POSSIBILITIES IF THEY CAN KEEP THAT UP

sooo curious to see how egg is gonna react

i dont think hes gonna have them quartered

hes definitely gonna up his drink count tho

and thats as far as i will go with my predictions for his reaction lol

i mean if otto were to find out he would force them in bed and stand there till his oh so precious alliance is sealed airtight, BUT what if kunimond keep what happened on the dl?

provided aegon doesnt make a whole show that will alert everyone of the fact that aemond was in the wrong bed/rug on his wedding night

if i was kuni i wouldnt wanna brag about my new hubby dropping me so soon, she could just put some blood on the sheets and call it a day and then try to entice her husband into consummating their marriage later, with the rest of the world being non the wiser of the shambles that is her marriage

all that to say if their marriage could remain unconsummated, and kuni a virgin then they could just get the pope to annul their marriage freeing aemond up, and if poor egg really dies, then ivy will be a widow... you see where im going with this :) 👀

ik ik if they wanna get in the good graces of the holy roman emperor by appeasing his daughter and giving her a real and loving marriage then none of what i just said works towards that goal, but then neither do aemonds actions this night, so i will keep on dreaming ✌🏻

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Fashion designer!Aemond Targaryen x model!reader

It was the Met Gala and so I thought why not...

Aemond is a very famous designer. Never made a bad outfit, all her stunning and gorgeous. Extremely expensive too. Everyone wants to be the ambassador or face of his brand but he only chose you. An up and coming model. 

He handpicked you to run in one of his fashion shows. He is strict and wants everything to be perfect. Being one of his top models made you feel like it was all a dream. You love how dedicated and passionate he is about his work. 

Your first Met Gala and there was no doubt that you were going to wear one of Aemond's amazing designs. 

He would make you stand on a podium (is that the right word?) and wrap various designs of fabric around you. He prefers you over a mannequin. His hands touching you to get the right size, not that he needs to. He already knows your size and could make an outfit for you with his eyes closed. 

Hours and hours of work. You spending a lot of time in his studio. No one is allowed to disturb, if someone does then they would be fired. 

Aemond wants you and his design to be the best. Not only would he make the outfit himself, he would also design that jewelry and order the best stones. 

Both of you getting close during the time but still trying to be professional. But it's hard to resist him, especially when his hair is tied back, the sleeves of his shirt rolled up, his hand touching your body. His eyes boring into you as if he is studying your soul. 

You modeling the outfit for him in private after every upgrade. Twirling for him. Posing for him. Everytime he would carefully undress you. And everytime you can feel his touch and his breath on your skin. 

Both your eyes locking at each other as he takes off the necklace. Silent words and emotions filling the room. 

"Perfect" that's what he said when the outfit was done. A one of a kind stunning design made just for you. He stood behind you as both of you looked at the mirror. You admiring the outfit and him admiring you until both your eyes finally met. 

Aemond usually doesn't attend the gala so everyone was surprised that he accompanied you. Wearing a matching outfit but a little less extravagant. He dressed you himself and was supervising the make up till it was what he envisioned. 

He stepped out of the car first. Hair open, a little bit messy but it complimented his outfit. Cold stern look. 

He held out his hand and you took it before getting out of the car. Everyone's attention is on you two. 

He gave you the spotlight and stood behind as you walked the carpet and gave interviews. He let you talk and explain the process of making the outfit. 

You held his hand as you walked up the stairs. He knows you and his design were the best. Everyone knows it. He has achieved what he wanted. So what's the point of staying there any longer. 

"We are leaving," Aemond said to you. You thought something was wrong or maybe a defect with the outfit. You know Aemond would only show off something if it's perfect. He grabbed your wrist and took you to the car. 

"What's wrong?" You asked. "Nothing." The only reply he gave. 

Once you got back to your room Aemond closed the door behind him. His eyes shifted from stern and cold to soft and full of emotions. His gaze made your heart beat faster. Your eyes reciprocating his silent words. He was saying everything that's in his heart but only without a sound. 

Once you realize that it was not going to be easy for Aemond to take the first step you took it upon yourself. You slowly but carefully approached him, his eyes never leaving you. "I know," You softly said before kissing his lips. You didn't expect him to kiss back. 

Aemond felt your soft lips brushed against his and once you pulled away he longed and lusted for more. He immediately put his hand behind your neck and pulled you back for another kiss. A deep, and more passionate one. His tongue dominating yours. 

You were surprised when he didn't hesitate to rip apart the dress he spent hours and days making. He didn't care for it anymore. Now he just wanted you. 

He knew he wouldn't be able to control, so he picked you up and gently put you down in bed. You were still wearing your jewelry and heels. You never looked more beautiful to him. 

He kissed your thigh till his lips reached your wet folds. "So perfect. Already so wet for me," He started to pleasure you with his tongue, making your arch your back and grab his hair. Once you were close to an orgasm he pulled back and mount you. 

You pulled him for a kiss testing yourself on his lips. His hands touching you, holding you close. His kisses trailed down your neck, over your jewelry and then reached your breasts. Sucking and teasing your nipples with his tongue. 

"Aemond please. I need you," Your moaned. He kissed you one more time before positioning himself between your legs. First teasing you with the tip, hearing you begging and moaning before finally thrusting inside you. 

"Tell me you are mine," He said as he started to fuck you. "I am yours, Aemond. Always yours," You moaned. He pressed your arms down so that you can't touch yourself and only him pleasuring you. "So perfect. So beautiful. All mine."

You two made love all night. Aemond left marks all over you and so did you on his neck and chest. You fell asleep with him still inside you. 

The next morning when you woke up you were in his arms and his soft eyes were admiring you, his hand gently caressing you. 

Months later he released a new collection and named it "y/n". You are his muse and his love. All designs made for you and literally designed on you. 

[jaimeslanisters]

the pawn in every lover’s game (part twelve)

Aemond Targaryen x Lannister!Reader

When you’re ten, your father sends you to King’s Landing to befriend a princess and woo a prince. A lioness growing up amongst dragons is a dangerous thing indeed.

crossposted on ao3 masterlist word count: 8.2k notes: i live!!!! so sorry this chapter took so long - i got a new job, had relatives visit, my college friend visited, i saw taylor swift omg omg omg - but i’m still here working on it!! trust that it will be finished bc i have big plans for our little pack of greenies (: enjoy part one of the helaena/aegon wedding day! 

Your hunger pangs wake you long before the sunrise ever does. For a few moments, you lie there, listening to the quiet sound of Helaena’s breathing. After the dinner that was more a test in restraint than anything else, you had dutifully followed the princess up to her room and, just like the pair of you had so many times as children, you had curled under the covers together, not touching but just close enough to feel each other’s heat radiating through the thick covers. As little girls, the two of you would always whisper and giggle throughout the night and you would fall asleep to Helaena eagerly lecturing you about whatever insect had caught her attention, your mind spinning with her passionate words and all the little facts and details she had learned from her books.

There had been none of that last night. Instead, the two of you had crawled into bed and, after a final prayer that you didn’t think either of you believed, had fallen asleep.

A part of you wishes you had kept her awake, that you could have made her laugh with jokes about the septas that had trailed the two of you all day or about all the ceremonies the pair of you had to perform. Maybe you could have asked her about Aemond and his unerring desire to push boundaries and your own willingness to let him, let her tease you in that kind way she always did where there was no bite to her words, no hidden meanings for you to puzzle out. Maybe you could have comforted her, maybe you could have lied and said everything would be alright.

But you hadn’t. You had slept instead.

You feel a flash of relief that you didn’t eat anything last night. That means there’s nothing to throw up.

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my husband (tpielg) has returned from war (updated) !!!!!!

hope your new job is treating you well and that you had a BLAST at the tay concert!! and thank you for taking the time to write and share this masterpiece despite all the business of rl💜

and if I check your blog multiple times a day for any news even tho I'm on the tag list that's between me and god lol

some of the highlights of the chapter (notes version) :

× Helae's prophecies👀👀👀

× Lady L missing her mum😢🤧

× Lady L, helae and alicent huddled together after helae's episode i-😭🤧❤️💔

× The Lemon cakes!! - the cheeky bastard, I luv him

× aemond toeing the line, poor lady L not even knowing where the line is anymore im- *feral noises*

× I'll always glob up any mention of vhagar, so thanks for the crumbs🤧💜

× THAT babygirl aegon and alicent moment(tm) 🥺😭🤧❤️💔

× That high septon gave me the creeps, afraid we haven't seen the last of him😥😱 *begone satan*

× but aemond noticing lady L's discomfort and casually shielding her from him? 🥵

× and lady L grabbing onto his sleeve and moving closer to him for comfort & protection😭🤧

× the warrior and his maiden💜💜💜

× Just, the whole aemond & lady L exchange at the end, but we been knew

× Helping her on the horse, grabbing her waist tighter than ever before, the golden flower, lady L tucking it into his armor, the HAND HOLDING/KISSING i-🥺

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Now I’m Covered In You [Chapter 6: Dawn]

Series summary: Aemond is a prince of England. You are married to his brother. The Wars of the Roses are about to begin, and you have failed to fulfill your one crucial responsibility: to give the Greens a line of legitimate heirs. Will you survive the demands of your family back in Navarre, the schemes of the Duke of Hightower, the scandals of your dissolute husband, the growing animosity of Daemon Targaryen…and your own realization of a forbidden love?

Series title is a lyric from: Ivy by Taylor Swift.

Series warnings: Language, sexual content (18+), dubious consent, miscarriage, pregnancy, childbirth, violence, warfare, murder, alcoholism, sexism, infidelity, illness, death, only vaguely historically accurate, lots of horses!

Word count: 6.4k.

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She’s worse than you could have ever imagined.

She’s dignified and graceful and courteous, stunning like an opal or a pearl, a portrait in motion. She has hushed footsteps and large bright eyes that dart around taking in every detail. You can tell she’s intelligent, everyone can tell, and that’s worse than all the rest of it; as she and Aemond stroll together through the gardens, she asks him questions about history and hunting, and then has clever retorts to his answers. Their conversation has the seamless, pacific quality of language between people who have known each other for years. It’s just like the Duke of Hightower said it would be. She is precisely the sort of woman Aemond would have chosen for himself.

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THE EMOTIONAL ROLLER COASTER THAT THIS CHAPTER WAS I-

the kunimond bits were excruciating, but that ivygon exchange with soft!aegon soothed my soul, even if only for a lil while

WHEN AEMOND RUSHED INTO IVY'S CHAMBERS? FINALLY PUTTING THAT BEAR RUG TO GOOD USE? OMGGG

AEGON??!! talk about awful timing 😭

[inthedayswhenlandswerefew]

Now I’m Covered In You [Chapter 5: Bells Each Hour]

Series summary: Aemond is a prince of England. You are married to his brother. The Wars of the Roses are about to begin, and you have failed to fulfill your one crucial responsibility: to give the Greens a line of legitimate heirs. Will you survive the demands of your family back in Navarre, the schemes of the Duke of Hightower, the scandals of your dissolute husband, the growing animosity of Daemon Targaryen…and your own realization of a forbidden love?

Series title is a lyric from: Ivy by Taylor Swift.

Series warnings: Language, sexual content (18+), dubious consent, miscarriage, pregnancy, childbirth, violence, warfare, murder, alcoholism, sexism, infidelity, illness, death, only vaguely historically accurate, lots of horses!

Word count: 5.7k.

Link to chapter list (and all my writing): HERE.

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bit late, but ya girl is back with ✨more thoughts✨

honestly its hard to pick favourites, when every chapter is so damn good, but gotta say, this one was my fave so far 💜

also let me just bask in the glory of pre-kundigunde days while i still can 😭🤧

Weeks ago, you carved four dates there in Roman numerals, infinitesimal inscriptions that you periodically trace back over so they never fade. They’re the days when you lost your children. You were permitted to keep no remnants of them, no stained cloths or recorded names. They belonged less to you than to the kingdom, and you were never allowed to forget this. All you have left are these shallow marks on a cedar tree as the world wakes up again: blossoms unraveling in the palace gardens, sprigs of jade-colored herbs piercing through cool rich earth.

Mother is possessed by conspiracies... She swears there is something wrong with the water there, or the air, or the wheat, the culprit changes by the day. She frets, you know. As she always has.

okay but mummy-navarre has got the right idea give her a couple more days and she would have probably figured it out

More than anything, I think, she misses you. Her other daughters have found happiness in their marriages, and so it is easier for her to let them go and imagine it was for the best, but you…it is a different circumstance entirely, don’t you agree? Even Father has begun reassessing the illustrious English alliance he was once so proud of. He mutters that if you are to be childless either way, you might as well be home with your family, not trapped in some far-off, gloomy, turbulent land with a degenerate husband. We’ve heard things about Prince Aegon. Father says he never would have sent you across the channel if he knew what waited for you there.

degenerate husband 😂💀 ik he aint perfect, but must you do poor egg like that lmao THATS YOUR BRO-IN-LAW PUT SOME RESPECT ON HIS NAME he can be a decent husband... sometimes... when he puts his mind to it...

I suppose what I’m trying to ask is…if the Pope would grant an annulment…if Father could work out an arrangement with King Viserys and the Duke of Hightower for you to come home again…would you want to?

ooof aemond would blow a gasket if he knew what her fam is considering

ok but i love her fam, they are so supportive and you can just feel the love FAM NAVARRE FOR THE WIN

You can’t go home; it would be a surrender, it would mean giving up any hope of a grander future. And it would mean giving up Aemond too. He’s not yours, but you can’t lose him. You feel like you can’t breathe every time you think of it.

HES NOT YOURS, BUT YOU CANT LOSE HIM I- 😭🤧

And there’s another reason why you can’t consider trying to dissolve your marriage. Not yet, anyway.

You rest your palms on your belly, vulnerable flesh beneath emerald-green silk, still at least a month away from starting to show. It’s early, very early, but by now you know the signs as well as the sounds of horses, the feel of the hilt of a sword in your grasp. It is your fifth attempt in less than two years. You have no reason to believe that this time will be different, that it will end in joy and triumph instead of ruin. Still, you suppose that anything is possible. It would be traitorous not to hope, wouldn’t it?

5th attempt in less than 2 years... LET HER REST AND GRIEVE AND GET BETTER SHES NOT A BABY MACHINE FFS

“When were you going to tell me?” Aemond demands. He comes so close he fills your vision, your air; your lungs draw in smoke and leather, work and skill, every thread of muscle fought for. “After everything, I had to overhear it from the gossip of servants?”

Oh. Oh. “I hadn’t decided how yet. I was trying not to hurt you.”

“I’m hurt that you kept it from me.”

“Aemond…” You hesitate. There’s no delicate way to say this. “I didn’t want you to have to think about that part.” His brother on top of you, inside of you, melding with you to create a new heartbeat.

“I already think about it,” Aemond replies, sharp and stabbing like thorns. “I think about it all the goddamn time.”

Now your voice is bitter too. “Well, soon it will be my turn to be so afflicted, right?”

UGHH THE ANGSSSST IM LIVING FOR IT JEALOUS AEMOND IS EVERYTHING PRAY FOR IVY THO, GIRL IS SO JELLY AND KUNI HASNT EVEN SET A FOOT IN THEIR COUNTRY...

Sometimes you find yourself wishing that her ship would sink to the bottom of the ocean or that some last-minute diplomatic squabble would go unresolved and she would be returned untouched to the Continent…but to what avail? Aemond will have to marry somebody.

...BUT WHO CAN BLAME HER?!

you dont know the amount of mental gymnastics i do, trying to figure out a way for that somebody to be ivy... but i fear chances are slim... BUT NOT IMPOSSIBLE THO!! RIGHT??!! 👀 gotta have hope they will get a hea😭🤧

Instead, all you can think about is Aemond lying with another woman and memorizing the secrets of her body until they begin showing up in his poems, hips and wrists and the bumps of her spine.

NOOOOOOOO

“You aren’t broken at all.”

You smile bleakly. “That’s kind, but I don’t think it’s true.”

“Believe me, I’d know. Brokenness and I are well-acquainted.”

And you wonder before you can stop yourself: What does he look like under his eyepatch? How exactly did it happen? Does it still pain him, does it enrage him? Does it make his hands ache for vengeance?

OK BUT CANT WAIT TILL AEMOND REVEALS ALL OF HIMSELF TO IVY i imagine it can be a part of him only ivy gets to see, for her eyes only and wife or no wife, kunigunde will never know her hubby the way ivy does 👀

“You’ll have children,” Aemond insists, forever so sure of something that feels impossible.

love his conviction and how he keeps reassuring her

“You should have been the heir. Maybe this is how it happens. I’ll remain childless and Aegon will drink himself to death, and then you and your sons with Kunigunde will inherit the throne.”

He swings and you block, his blade clashing with yours once, twice, again, driving you backwards until you are pinned against the cedar tree. “I don’t want it that way,” Aemond pants from the effort, your swords locked together above your heads. “Not if it requires your sacrifice.”

NOT IF IT REQUIRES YOUR SACRIFICE also aemond pinning ivy to the tree, panting from the effort, swords locked? HOT

You want his long hair knotted in your fists, you want his hands on your bare skin, you want his tongue and his heat and his moans. But you have to be careful, so very careful. To be discovered sparring would be bad, but to be branded as adulterers would be far, far worse. For Aemond it would likely mean banishment. For you it would mean death by beheading or burning; only the king could commute the sentence. Rhaenyra would not persuade him to have mercy. And hers is the only voice you are confident Viserys would hear.

gotta love the double standard huh... men get away with a lil banishment, but the women get to die in awful ways...

too bad ivy doesnt have rhaenyras i can do whatever i want tm card

“Ivy,” Aemond whispers, a name that only he will ever call you. For a second, and only one, his palm skates weightlessly down your belly. You hear the distant chimes of the Tower of London, bells each hour, and it’s strange how so much time can pass without changing the heart at all. “I wish everything was different. I wish it was mine and you were too.”

DONT WE ALL 😭🤧 HE CALLED HER IVY AND THE SOFT CARESS OF HER BELLY SCREAMIIIING

He is mindful not to appear too familiar within sight of the court, but there are small gestures that he cannot seem to purge himself of: a hand on the curve of your back as you ascend stairs, shoulders and elbows that push others away if they inadvertently jostle you, glances to decipher the mood of your face. He signals to a servant and they scuttle over to bring you a cup of apple cider, cool and crisp and sweet.

THE FAMILIARITY, ALL THOSE LIL GESTURES THE WAY HES SO ATTUNED TO IVY AND THE WAY HE MAKES SURE SHES OKAY I- 🥺😭🤧 ... aaand then thers the fuckin poison cider

...the Montford patriarchs. They wear serene, confident smiles. They’ve named Joanna’s white-haired bastard Aegon—not very subtle—and are basking in their recent procurement of titles, land, and influence. Already you’ve overheard the idea proposed, more than once and by various nobles: your marriage could be annulled, Joanna wed to Prince Aegon in your place, her son retroactively legitimized.

ok but isnt it curious that daemon makes sure ivys kids die, but he doesnt bother to take care of aegons possible bastards ...like if the aim is to leave aegon without heirs... no kids vs no legitimate kids are not the same 👀

like ok they are bastards and all, but if the situation is dire enough... a son is a son, he can be legitimised and in any case, their blood is right and if theres no one else people will rally behind a bastard too

The plan is certainly not without its own obstacles, but the Duke seems to be intrigued by it. Your husband will not entertain putting you aside. When the notion surfaces in his presence—like a shimmering fish from the depths of a pond—Aegon walks right out of the room.

otto is still the worst, but we been knew props to aegon for doing the bare minimum, you go king

Aemond’s face goes dark, goes defiant. “You cannot put it all on her shoulders.”

The Duke of Hightower grins arrogantly; he’s caught him in the perfect trap. “But it’s not all on her, Prince Aemond. Within a week you’ll be sharing that burden. Making it lighter, even.”

love aemond standing up for ivy ...not so much the way the convo ended and otto having the last word

Aemond walks you to your rooms and stays there with you. You embroider pillows as he reads to you—a book about Aegon I’s Conquest in 1066—in a voice that is soft and low and secretive. Nico and Daeron join you both for dinner, and then you and Aemond are alone again.

they are so domestic, i love it i worried kunis arrival would ruin it, but as it stands they will be too busy warring, so probably not much time to sit around the fire, no matter how tempting 😭🤧

“I know, I know. I remember.” Aegon falls down onto the bearskin rug and slings his arms around your waist, burrowing into you. He rests his head on your chest, white-blond hair unruly and tangled. After a moment—long enough to recover from the shock of it—you hold him, tolerantly and sympathetically, like a wife should. Aemond leaves the room, river-blue eye downcast. Aegon doesn’t seem to notice. He sighs contently as you run your fingers through his hair, as your palms trace his back over his plain white shirt. There are red splotches on it, some of them wine, some blood; there are tacky streaks of it around his nose. He’s never done this before. He’s never sought you out for contact that was pure like this, without directives, without prizes to be won.

SCREAMIIIIING EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS SCENE IS- THE WAY POOR AEMOND RETREATS AEGON GOING STRAIGHT TO HIS WIFEY AND CLINGING TO HER FOR COMFORT AND IVY PROVIDING SAID COMFORT, AFTER SHE GETS OVER THE SHOCK I-

NO BUT I CANT HELP BUT LOVE EGG EVEN AT HIS WORST, MOST PATHETIC, SO WHAT DO YOU THINK IT DOES TO ME WHEN HE IS BEING SO SOFT??!!

BUT POOR AEMOND BUT SOFT AEGON HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO CHOOSE ???!!!

NO BUT HONESTLY YOU WRITE MY BOYS SO SO SO WELL, EVERY FIC ITS A STRUGGLE I CANT CHOOSE, IM ALWAYS LIKE

istg i need you to write a reader that ends up in a nice throuple with both of her dragon boys COS I CANT CHOOSE lmao 😂💀

Jace, Luke, Baela, and Rhaena. Four against one. I don’t know much about math, but that doesn’t sound even to me. Aemond was a lot smaller then. He hadn’t gotten tough and mean yet. I’ve never been clear on who said what first, but eventually he was calling Rhaenyra’s sons bastards and they were calling him a worthless spare, unnecessary and unloved, at least in the king’s eyes. Neither of them were wrong, by the way. Aemond grabbed a rock. Luke had a knife.

those kids are nastyyy

“All my fault,” Aegon says again, clutching you tighter.

“I’m sure he knows you didn’t mean him any harm.”

“He’s disgusted by me. They all are. Because I’m not suited to be king and never will be.” His voice is clotted with wine, shame, self-loathing. “I never asked to be built of disappointments. I didn’t choose to be this way.”

“You’ll make a fine king, Aegon,” you tell him, because you’re supposed to.

ohhh aegon hun 😭🤧

You comb your fingers through his hair, shorter than any other grown Targaryen’s; he doesn’t want their name, their legacy, their looming war. “I don’t think you had anything to do with the miscarriages. I think there’s something wrong with me.”

“I want to be better this time,” he says, peering hazily up at you and placing one hand protectively over your belly. “A better husband, a better man. For both of you.”

no but he says that, but then when shit hits the fan the next day and he should be there for ivy WHERE IS HE... oh the irony e n way its a WIP lol

also the way ivy is playing with his hair- Follow🥺😭🤧

You wish you could feel relief, feel joy, even a whisper of it. Instead, all you can think about is Aemond: his face, his voice, his hands. If I have to watch him touch another woman, I’ll never be able to get it out of my mind. If I have to watch him fall in love with her, it will kill me.

ivy 🤝 me : not being emotionally prepared to see aemond with another woman

“I’m thrilled to hear how well you’re getting along with your husband. He stayed all night, from what I gather. The servants are buzzing with it. The Montfords are licking their wounds.”

“Are you delusional enough to believe that I have any say at all in where he spends his time—?”

“I saw you,” Aemond snaps viciously. “You weren’t just being civil. You comforted him, you had your hands all over him—”

You grab Aemond by the front of his tunic and yank him in close so you can hiss: “And where are your hands going to be once you marry the Holy Roman Emperor’s daughter? I have a few ideas. Would you like to confirm them? And things besides your hands as well, I imagine.”

i can only repeat myself: IM LIVING FOR JELLY AEMOND and ivy is def trying to one up him in the jelly department

no but im loving jealous!ivymond but somehow aemond being jelly of ivygon is more fun, while ivy being jelly of ...dare i say it? kunimond (lmao it doesnt even sound right 💀) just HURTS

must be cos i love egg and can get behind ivygon in a way that i just cant with aemond x anyone else 😭🤧

“What do you want from me?!” you whisper fiercely, burying it in him like a knife. “You expect me to sabotage my entire life, to reject my husband and neglect my responsibilities so that you never have to be inconvenienced, so that you never have to experience any pain—!”

“Pain?! That’s a kind word for it, it’s agony, it’s fucking impossible—”

Aemond throws open the door to your rooms. Inside, a servant is fixing you a cup of apple cider…and sprinkling the contents of a tiny silk pouch into it. When he sees you and Aemond, he shoves the pouch into his shirt and scurries away.

“Wait!” Aemond commands. The servant starts sprinting. “Don’t drink that,” Aemond tells you, pointing at the cup, then takes off after the servant. He catches him in your bedchamber, hurls him against a wall, and snatches the pouch from inside his shirt. “What the hell is this?”

BEEN WAITING FOR THIS SCENE SINCE CHAPTER ONE not to gloat too much lol BUT I DO GET RIDICULOUSLY PLEASED WHEN I GET THINGS RIGHT

AND THE REVEAL COULDNT HAVE BEEN BETTER AEMOND CATCHING THEM REDHANDED? 10/10

“An herb?” King Viserys says blandly. “Have you asked the servant himself? Surely there is a logical explanation—”

“I want it identified,” Aemond repeats. “Now.”

There is chatter from the observers, which is exactly what Aemond wants. They serve as witnesses, as assurance that his accusations will be heard. You wonder where Aegon is; drunk and oblivious somewhere, probably.

the fact that he knows he needs an audience just to get taken seriously, and even then he gets the bare minimum... Viserys theres a special place reserved for you in hell i just know it

Daemon drifts close to you, clipping by like a comet. “Do you think wearing Green all the time now will miraculously make you one of them? Not until you’ve paid your debts, I think. And women have been known to die in childbirth. Just ask our dear Alicent over there. She owes all her…” His mouth twists cruelly around the word. “Fortune to the late Queen Aemma.”

ok when i first read this i was like, WHAT DEBTS DAEMON?! but i realised he meant not until shes given them an heir duh still it all just feels terribly personal... cant wait to find out why d has it out for ivy like this... rhae said its not personal, but im inclined to call bs on that... it feels like a bit of a personal vendetta, but if ivy did anything to d that should warrant such treatment surely she would know... so i even entertained the idea that d had a run in with mama/papa navarre in the past and hes taking it out on their kid or sth... or maybe he just cant take that ivy is a strong woman, who doesnt take his shit lying down... or hes just simply being his awful self idk the possibilities are endless !!!

“It is so wise of you to always dress for a funeral, Prince Daemon,” you say. “You’ll be prepared for your own when it imminently arrives.”

Daemon’s grin doesn’t disappear, but it turns harder, more jagged.

ok but ivy and daemons verbal sparring is the best especially when ivy has the last word and given the state of things, i wouldnt be surprised if verbal sparring wouldnt be the only type of sparring they do 👀 cant wait to see ivy cut that bitch

“This is utter paranoia,” Rhaenyra complains, keeping Jace and Luke close to her; but she steals an uneasy glimpse of Daemon.

you cant tell me she didnt know what daemon was up to at best she suspected sth, but wilfully turned a blind eye, which is just as bad, but also she aint stupid so..

“They’re always so eager to cast themselves as victims, aren’t they, Mother?” Jace says.

someone shut this bitch up pls

“And isn’t that the proper punishment for treason?” Baela says smugly. “To lose one’s life?”

“You’re about to lose your fucking life!” Daeron dives for her.

DAERON REALLY SAID YOU ARE ABOUT TO CATCH THESE HANDS

“You’re about to lose your fucking life!” Daeron dives for her. Baela howls and scratches at him as Sir Criston leaps in to try to untangle them. Daemon grabs Daeron by the throat and lifts him off the ground; Daeron’s feet kick wildly, his face turning blue. Sir Criston draws his sword. Nico races into the melee, slamming both palms into Daemon’s chest with such force that she stuns him enough to drop Daeron, who falls gasping to the floor. Sir Criston drags him to safety. People are yelling, launching accusations and swears. The king is doubled over hacking.

“You bitch,” Daemon growls at Nico, and rips his sword from its scabbard as he towers over her.

OK BUT MY HOMEGIRL NICO STANDING UP TO DAEMON TO PROTECT HER FUTURE HUBBY? WHAT A QUEEN

Without thinking, you rush to defend Nico. Aemond’s arms close around you and pull you back. He murmurs through your hair as you battle him: “No, no, no, no.” And then you remember. The baby. I can’t do anything to hurt the baby. And you feel a sudden, overwhelming longing to protect this life, to meet this child, an attachment you didn’t think you were capable of experiencing again.

IVY IMMEDIATELY GOING TO DEFEND NICO AND AEMOND PULLING HER BACK PROTECTING THE BABY I- 🥺😭🤧

You’ve never had need of a plant known to encourage a woman’s monthly blood. Since you’ve arrived in England, you’ve bled far too much. All those months of longing, hope, loss. All those taunts and whispers and rebukes and pieces of fruitless advice.

When the words finally tumble from your lips, they are faint and very small, almost childlike. “It wasn’t my fault?”

ive said this already but ivys small it wasnt my fault FUCKING OBLITERATED ME SHE NEEDS TO BE PROTECTED AT ALL COST OKAY

Aemond releases you and tears his sword free, holding it to the petrified servant’s throat. “I want him dead,” Aemond seethes, wrath like wildfire, like Plague. “I want him drawn and quartered, I want him awake when they disembowel him, I want him to feel everything. But first I want him racked until he reveals who paid him to commit this barbarism. I want to listen as his bones rip from their sockets.” He turns to Daemon, his blue eye blazing, manic. “And I suspect I know whose name he’ll scream at the end.”

FERAL WRATHFUL AEMOND LETS FUCKING GO

“Dear God,” the Duke of Hightower says, gazing at you in guilt-laden horror. His hands come up to cover his gaping mouth.

you better change your attitude to ivy now old man and start treating her right

This is a baseless accusation!” Daemon snarls derisively.

“Do you have any proof that Daemon is responsible?” the king asks Aemond.

“There’s no proof,” Rhaenyra says, looking to the king. “You hear them, don’t you, Father? They have insults but no proof. They mean to use this treachery as an opportunity to destroy us.”

“There’s no proof,” Daemon says again, and they all join him in a chorus, Rhaenyra, Jace, Luke, Baela, Rhaena: no proof, no proof, no proof.

The king shakes his head at Aemond. “Your lifelong hatred for Rhaenyra’s branch of the family has blinded you—”

OK BUT THEY CAN ALL CHOKE

“They could have killed her!” Aemond thunders, and there are tears of raw fury gleaming in his eyes. “Don’t you understand?! It wasn’t just the pregnancies, she could have hemorrhaged, she could have died, they risked her life to try to keep Aegon from the throne—”

SCREAMING THE TEARS OF RAW FURY IN HIS EYES ???!!!

“You had no wrath when my eye was taken from me, Father,” Aemond says. “You felt no obligation to protect your son or your wife from the bloody consequences Rhaenyra’s pride. All those years ago you let her believe she was invincible and now we are all forced to reap the aftermath. Surely you must feel outrage for the grandchildren this has cost you, for the inhuman crimes committed against the princess. She is your family, Father. Aegon is your family. I am your family. Don’t you recognize us at all?”

so glad he got the opportunity to get it all off his chest and tell it to viserys face... not like he gives a damn, but still

Daemon stalks towards him like a wolf, each step slow and calculated. “She’s your brother’s wife, Aemond. Not yours.”

“I haven’t forgotten.”

“Oh, haven’t you?” A hellish grin lights up Daemon’s face like the red flush of fever. “Tell me, how did it feel lying awake all those nights, staring up at the ceiling in your cold, lonely bed, knowing that your worthless brother was sinking himself into her again, and again, and again, and all that time he didn’t…even…appreciate it?”

OH ITS ON YOU MF 😡🤬

You are the only one who doesn’t make a sound. In your skull circles the same refrain like the ring of a full moon, like the cyclic chiming of bells: They did this to me. They did this to me. They did this to me.

ivy revenge era incoming the blacks wont know what hit 'em 💅

In the midst of the chaos, the king lurches off his throne and collapses to the floor. Blacks and Greens alike descend upon him. Daemon cradles him in his arms, Alicent is sobbing, the Duke of Hightower is feeling the temperature of the king’s face and neck, Daeron is franticly trying to rouse him.

And even as he plummets into unconsciousness from which he will never recover, the king reaches only for Rhaenyra.

leave it to viserys to die at the most inconvenient of times...🙄 smh guess he would rather die, than face the truth huh

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So in an attempt to predict how all the NICIY events will go down I googled the real Kunigunde and she had 7 kids irl, SHE BETTER NOT HAVE THOSE 7 KIDS WITH AEMOND, MAGGIE PLZZZZ I'M BEGGING 😭😭😭😭

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