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they said ī couldn reached mars, so ï turned into a står

[afflicthephin]

now i learn that everyone wouldnt be there for u

[perrfectly]

“But I always thought you’d come back, tell me all you found was heartbreak and misery it’s hard for me to say, I’m jealous of the way you’re happy without me.”

— (via hatin)

[foxeia]

“Time always exposes what you mean to someone.”

— Unknown (via thoughtkick)

[afflicthephin]

hey i thought i could go on without you, but i’m suffering much. won’t you give me another chance ?

[afflicthephin]

I’m still stuck and not accepting the fact that you aren’t here anymore.. especially because you’re not here for me

[afflicthephin]

whoever else who wants to leave me, thank you

[xn--gba]

[underwata]

existence

[wgsebaldstheringsofsaturn-deact]

Dong dong de jia qi / A Summer at Grandpa’s (1984, Hou Hsiao-Hsien)

[afflicthephin]

Oh God, I'm alone again

On my knees, I hate the way I'm feeling

Heaven, take me now

Oh God, I'm a broken man

Nothing left for me, and I am pleading

Heaven, take me now

[afflicthephin]

I’ll be back as i search around for my lonely soul

[krystallalaland]

I can never find the right words to tell people what I’m thinking. Telling them I’m tired doesn’t work, but I can’t seem to vocalize that I’m mentally exhausted and sick of existing. Telling them I’m sad doesn’t work either, but I can’t explain that I’m struggling not to kill myself and that the joy in everything in my life is gone and when I wake up to the sun in my eyes, I have to struggle to get myself out of bed because most of me didn’t even want to wake up at all. I can’t tell them I’m numb because what I’m feeling is so much more complex than numb and I don’t have the vocabulary to tell them that I feel like I’m drowning and it terrifies me that I feel nothing as it’s happening, and that my insides want to scream but I can’t even find it in me to shed a tear anymore, that every single aspect of my life feels like it’s shaded in grey because all the colors were sucked out but I can hardly even remember what colors are because I can no longer remember a time I didn’t feel like this. No, I don’t know how to say that. So I just whisper “I’m fine.”

[afflicthephin]

you can tell me everything, I wanna mind listening to your story, an I’m always here for u

[afflicthephin]

well i do

[afflicthephin]

dont hurt baby cause imma treat u right

[90377]

[afflicthephin]

I remember how immature and foolish I am to that person who stays beside this playground..where i insist that I wouldn’t go home and just sat here. From below, all I could see was her short hands tryna wave to let me see and know she was at her window while tryna force me to go back but i did not want to and till she came down and spend the rest of the day having dinner at nearby jem lmao. how lucky was I to have had her hence my foolishness led things to not work out. She is the only one person that was there for me almost everytime when I needed someone but where was I when she needed someone, I had my future plans with her but thinking that that at the point of time wasn’t the right time i end up dragging and that’s where it all ended. While I’m sitting here at this playground at this timing, all I wish to see is you waving from your window. ‘hey, Everyone is leaving me again and all those things that had happen in the past is happening again for real. Can’t you atleast let me see your hands waving to me from your window so I know that you’re still here for me......’😕😞

[kalbindenoperim]