Excerpts From The Book I'll Never Write

I am too fragile to touch, hell, I fall apart each time we make love. Maine || seventeen

[flashoflife]

To the one who loves her next, She’s terrified of spiders. So when you’re out late with friends and she texts you freaking out because there’s one on her window, please go kill it. She won’t sleep otherwise. She is a total textbook introvert. She won’t reply for hours and sometimes you won’t see her for a week. You will take this personally. Don’t. She’s simply taking care of herself and she’ll tell you how much she missed you while she was away. She’ll get very jealous. My god, she gets so jealous. Those brown eyes will turn a deep green. She hates that about herself, and she doesn’t mean to do it. Remember, she loves you. Reassure her that you love her too. On that topic, she needs constant reassurance. Tell her you love her and mean it. If you can’t do that, leave. She deserves more than that. There will be nights when she goes out and drinks a little too much. She’ll call you to bring her home. When you do, she’ll try to keep you up all night by tickling you and repeating “I love you and I’m sorry I’m annoying.” She’s not annoying. But make sure she has plenty of water and don’t let her pass out until she drinks it, or she will be miserable in the morning. She is the most independent woman I know. But she’s so insecure, it still breaks my heart. So when she starts an argument with “you don’t love me.” Do not get upset. Remind her you do and the reasons why. She’ll come around. The cat comes first. Always. Don’t ever think otherwise. Make her tea and remember the way she takes her coffee. She will notice. When she’s having an anxiety attack, wrap her up in your arms and rub her back. Tell her she’s safe and remind her that she has medication if she needs it. If you cannot treat her like royalty, let someone else. That girl deserves the world. Losing her is a pain you will never shake. Your world will come crashing down on you and those pieces won’t ever fit the way they used to. Don’t let her go. She will love you with all she’s got. Please give her the same. I am begging you to not hurt her. She is golden. Don’t let that shine die out. Give her your all and she’ll return the favor. You will never have to ask the universe for anything ever again.

Sincerely, a name you’ll hear in passing. (via bl-ossomed)

[neverthegoodguy]

We don’t have to be boyfriend-girlfriend. I’m contented with whatever we have.

As long as it stays. (via neverthegoodguy)

[aforestfireofwords-blog]

Lately it seems like I've spent more time searching for myself in my reflection, than I do actually seeing myself.

- maybe that’s why I can’t look in the mirror anymore

[aforestfireofwords-blog]

“You started to make a mosaic out of me. You found just the right pieces to put into place. I was your masterpiece you were determined to finish. Soon you made me into a museum full of mosaics, of miracles, and other happy things. I was covered in colors and started helping with your masterpiece too. But then you shattered the ones that were simply glass and refused to put them back together. Instead you turned me into a museum of tattered masterpieces, of tragedies, and other broken things. You pried my heart open like the doors of a closed convenience store, not taking one single thing, but destroying everything instead. You left me like an abandoned house, a ghost town with only one resident. You left me for road kill. The thought of your touch gives me third degree burns and you left a crime scene where my heart used to be. I told the cops you had killed somebody. They asked me for proof, they asked for the crime scene. But the crime scene was me. I told them how you ripped out my heart, burned me, and destroyed my mind. They told me it wasn’t true, but it was. You killed the person I used to be.“ ~j.c – excerpt from the book I’ll never write #18

[aforestfireofwords-blog]

A plea

I miss him. I miss him so much, sometimes it feels like my skin is on fire. My eyes burn with tears and my heart likes to fall apart at the very thought of him. When I attempt to say his name, it catches in my throat and tries to claw its way out. But my god, it only comes out as a plea: “Please come back. Come back to me.”

~j.c. - excerpt from the book I’ll never write #17

[aforestfireofwords-blog]

5:43 a.m.

It’s 5:43 in the morning and the first thing that comes to mind is you. God, I miss you..

~j.c. – excerpt from the book I’ll never write #16

[aforestfireofwords-blog]

It's okay

“It’s okay to leave if he hurts you. 

It’s okay to leave if he shatters you. 

 It’s okay to leave if he doesn’t want to pick up your pieces. 

And most of all, 

It’s okay to leave even if you love him." 

 -j.c. – excerpt from the book I’ll never write #16

[aforestfireofwords-blog]

Kissed veins

“Im drunk on you! Don’t you get it?! When I taste your lips, you instantly warm me up. I’m intoxicated by you. Your love kisses my veins and warms my blood. I’m an alcoholic, constantly drunk on you. My mind became clouded and my words began to slur. But then you felt the same way, didn’t you? You were drunk on me but you sucked every drop of my love until I became empty.” (Maybe that’s why you chose to be sober) ~J.C. – excerpts from the book I’ll never write #15

[aforestfireofwords-blog]

"My skin is a jigsaw puzzle, I shattered when you left me, and nobody has been able to put me back together since.." ~J.C. Excerpt from the book I'll never write #14

[words-of-emotion]

Stop putting an effort into those who show no effort towards you, there’s only so much you can do before you’re wasting your time & energy.

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[meanwhilepoetry]

There are volcanoes under your skin erupting in secret and still, you find the courage to look someone in the eyes and say “I’m fine.” Even when the lava is filling your lungs. Even when the searing pain threatens to destroy your heart. Even when it escapes your eyes in the form of hot tears that you hide. You are so brave in your survival, living with this excruciating pain even if the world will never know. I hope you find the happiness and peace that you are owed.

Nikita Gill, For You Who is Suffering in Silence (via meanwhilepoetry)

[aforestfireofwords-blog]

Blue

“She was blue. But not a bright ocean blue. She was the darkest kind of blue. The blue that’s mistaken for black. Then he held her and she turned all the colors of a sunset sky. Soon she was the colors of a violet covered field, but he must not have liked those colors. His goodbye sent her spiraling down a black hole. She became tattered at the edges, pieces of her went missing. She ended up being a masterpiece of colors that didn’t have any meaning.”

~J.C. – excerpt from the book I’ll never write #13

[aforestfireofwords-blog]

Fun and Games

“It’s all fun and games until one person falls in love. Then shit gets real and you can’t turn back, no matter how hard you try. You fall deeper and deeper until there’s nothing left of you but him. Then he rips away like a bandaid that takes everything with it. He’s gone and you’re empty and what used to be the time of your life has turned into utter hell.”

~J.C. – Excerpt from the book I’ll never write #12

[aforestfireofwords-blog]

"It's easy to accept loneliness, that is, if the person we once loved is also alone and experiencing your pain."

~J.C. – excerpt from the book I’ll never write #11

[thegoodvybe]

[words-of-emotion]

I hate waking up without you.

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