aftg obsessed

Side account for my obsession with All for the Game books.

[i-am-weis]

Chapter 9 / The King’s Men - Nora Sakavic

[aftgobsessed]

🤩🤩🤩

[nelicadraws]

Did someone say angsty sexual tension?

[kevindaysmyspace]

“neil's death wouldn't be more than a faint inconvenience to andrew.”

andrew when neil went missing:

[kevindaysmyspace]

yes jean dies in every other draft, but here’s your friendly reminder that there’s a specific draft where jean decides to end his life with kevin on the phone because he wants to hear his voice in his final moments.

[instigatorjosten]

“whats your favorite tro-“ the exception.

Neil is the only one who can touch Andrew. Andrew is the only person Neil calls for help. Neil is the only person that can calm Andrew down from rage. Andrew is the only person that can calm Neil down from a panic attack. Neil is the only one that can tell which twin is which. Andrew is the one person that has offered safety. Neil is the only one that can tell what Andrew is thinking. Andrew is the only person that has told him to stay. Neil is the only one that realized Andrew wasn’t medicated without being told. Andrew is the only person Neil is honest with. Neil is the only one that respects Andrew’s boundaries.

the exception.

[nenejosten]

hey... do you ever think about andrew putting neil’s hand in his hair and quietly saying “just here.” and neil simply replying “okay.”

do you ever think about how careful neil is with andrew’s head—which he has permission to touch—in general? listen I know it sounds strange, but let me explain here.

in baltimore neil ever so lightly brushes his thumb over andrew’s temple. and fine, andrew’s injured, but then he lets his hands hover over his face. just there. just framing it. then he tugs tentatively, slowly on his hair to bring andrew’s attention back to him and away from abby.

he was given one place to touch—his head, his hair—and neil is just so damn careful with it. so mindful of what he’s being trusted with.

no wonder nora described andreil’s exploration of growing comfortable around the other as slow & sweet & careful.

[eshlie-bow]

I’m pretty sure Andrew was the kind of kid who’d have this kind of convo:

Random Girl: hey, what’s your name?

kid!Andrew: let’s say Mike

Random Girl: let’s say?

Random Girl: what, you don’t know your own name?

kid!Andrew: *shrugs*

Random Girl: what does your mom call you?

kid!Andrew: dunno, never met her

***

And, you know… I bet Neil was something like this:

Random Kid: yo, hey

kid!Neil: uh, hey?

Random Kid: what’s your name?

kid!Neil: mine???

kid!Neil: I think it’s Chris

Random Kid: you think?

Random Kid: you don’t know your own name?

kid!Neil: today, I’m pretty sure it’s Chris

Mary, standing off to the side: 🫠🫠

***

Now just imagine if they’d met as kids:

kid!Neil: your hair’s white, like mine

kid!Andrew: your hair’s black.

kid!Neil: oh—

kid!Neil: my bad… it was white yesterday

kid!Andrew: …

kid!Neil: what’s your name?

kid!Andrew: haven’t decided yet

kid!Neil: you get to pick your own name?

kid!Andrew: yup

kid!Neil: that’s dope

kid!Neil: my mom picks my names…

kid!Neil, sticking out his hand: today, I’m Justin

kid!Andrew: lame name

kid!Neil: yeah, I hate it too

kid!Neil: my old names were better

kid!Andrew: what was the last one?

kid!Neil: the most recent one?

kid!Neil, thinking hard: I think…

Mary, swooping in and yanking Neil away: time to go

kid!Andrew, calling after him: my real name’s Andrew

kid!Neil: nice to meet you!

kid!Neil: I’m Nathaniel

Mary: OH, FOR FU—

[hey-there-22]

No, sorry, can we talk about the fact that Andrew "I can deal with my problemas and your problems on my own" Minyard switch to English and said "You aren't going anywhere. You're staying with us. If they try to take you away they will lose." And played instigator to invite the Foxes to the fight so the FBI wouldn't take Neil away. Like, he is so used to not being able to depend on anybody and solving everything by himself, but when it came to Neil, he had no problem in playing as a team. It was probably the first time he even considered the Foxes as a whole as such (including himself for the first time).

I don't know. Growth. I love that.

[instigatorjosten]

only reason Neil needed Andrew to spell it out for him that he was into Neil is bc Neil is so on the ace spectrum he doesn’t think enough about sex for it to be his logical explanation for every gay thing andrew did. because he did a LOT of gay things. things anyone would clock immediately as gay shit. not once does Andrew touch Neil in a normal way, it always comes out in this he-was-trying-for-too-long-to-not-touch-neil-and-he’s-caving-in-and-going-all-out-with-it manner. bro could not stop grabbing neil’s face of all body parts. gay. but Neil my baby doesn’t have sex on his radar enough for him to think Andrew being into him is at all a plausible explanation. he doesn’t consider it and disregard it as a possibility, it just straight up does not cross his mind

[antares-sc]

well this is so perfectly andreil im about to write a whole fic but for now it's a small au where Andrew writes such a post on a dating site and Neil who was registered there by Allison agrees to do it. the therapist is Betsy ofc!! so Neil and Andrew start to visit her once a week telling her about their absolutely fictitious relationship problems while she genuinely tries to help them. and (of course) somewhere in between these sessions their relationship stop being imaginary <3

[goldenpeachtrees]

My head cannon is Jean has full blown one sided conversations with Jabberwocky. Like he just goes off in French and will yap foreverrrrr when it’s just him and Jab at home, because he’s determined for that beast to learn French AND it’s confirmed Jean is a certified YAPPER when he can speak in French. Like he speaks in full sentences and everything to the creature, and everyone’s like “Jean, he doesn’t understand full sentences,” and he’s like, “ I’m not dumbing myself down for the beast, he has to figure it out.” And Jabberwocky is sitting and listening EVERYTIME. So well.

[tinmate]

Thinking about Andrew being this bizarre little brother to Renee. No one is allowed to be mean to her. They beat each other up in no holds sparring for emotional regulation and bonding. He ropes her into a scheme to “casually” let Neil know he’s gay and available. She goes along with it. They have a bond no one understands. They discuss fictional hypotheticals at length. They cheerfully mess with the rest of the team. She has a better read on him than most. He gets really angry at her but never threatens her. He lets people say what they want but no one is allowed to be rude to her. He encourages her to heal from her trauma. She gives him her knives. He lets her drive his car. He’d probably menace and threaten any potential love interest on her behalf. He cares about her but trusts her to take care of herself in a way that he doesn’t for any other member of his family. They split up care of the Foxes between them. She genuinely likes and gets along with him. She’s a grounding presence and voice of reason for him. He doesn’t like her friends. That’s his SISTER. He loves and respects her. He’ll try to beat her ass. He won’t succeed. She’s too sweet for her own good. No one is allowed to be mean to her except for him. He’ll go into her dorm, knock something off a shelf. and leave the door open when he leaves. He would T pose on her to establish dominance. He’s just this annoying little gremlin that imprinted on her and now she has a little brother and she’s not mad about it.

[kevindaysmyspace]

oh nothing just thinking of TGR banquet chapters when jeremy gets jealous THINKING of jean looking at laila, his sister, and renee. so naturally he decides to tell him that his mum wants jeremy and laila to get married so jean looks at him and then TAKES HIS SHIRT OFF. and then doesn't even feel satisfaction at jean's reaction because he is too busy feeling guilty at vying for his attention like that. HE IS A MESS.

[nenejosten]

neil was tortured for two weeks and the first thing asked, the first thing he wanted to know, was which day andrew was coming back from easthaven.

and when wymack asked him “what does andrew have to do with this?” he answered “everything that matters.”

everything. that. matters.

he did not care that he was tortured in the nest for two weeks, he did not care about anything that wasn’t andrew and he downright said it.

he’s everything that matters.

[thesmileykate]

feasting on bread and berries, katniss considers all of the people that rely on her and comes to a definite conclusion.

"i never want to have kids" (thg, 9). 

and such a quick statement earns and equally quick response from gale, although it's certainly more light-hearted.

"i might. if i didn't live here" (thg, 9). 

this is the scene that suzanne chooses to introduce these best friends. and though these two might feel in sync from familiar years in their woods, this dialouge suggests a significant difference in their worldviews.

but where does this difference emerge? didn't they both lose fathers at a young age? weren't they forced to the woods, forced together, by a mutual need to survive? 

yeah, they sure did. but gale was living in a household with a functional parent. katniss was all alone.

hazelle quickly found work after her husband's death. and while she worked her fingers to the bone on a washboard, gale ventured into the woods. and so they were able to ensure their family's survival. together. as a team. 

and hazelle's functionality allows gale a little freedom to just be… a teenager. free to flirt with girls. and think about a future away from panem. a future with his best friend.

and of course it makes sense that gale would be more open to marriage and not nessasarily terrified of starting a family. because maintaining a household for him has always been a team effort. and the responsibilites of providing don't seem so daunting with two people tackling them.

but that is a very different story with katniss. her mother's crippling depression forced katniss to step up. alone. 

leaving katniss to bear the weight of her family's survival by herself. and this is a weight that impacts every aspect of katniss's life. especially her ability to love. because while gale might see a practical benefit to companionship, katniss only sees an added responsibility. a dangerous vulnerability. something to be avoided at all cost.

so imagine the surprise as katniss finds herself in love despite her best efforts. and her horror of realizing it far too late to do anything about it.

[whatthebleep]

Neil and Jeremy being character foils to each other means so much to me:

Neil, you know everything he is thinking, but never what is about to come out his mouth. Jeremy, it’s impossible to get a good read on his thoughts, but his responses are rehearsed.

Neil dyed his hair brown as a cover to craft a persona. Jeremy covered his brown hair to craft a persona.

Neil couldn’t care less what the world thinks of him. Jeremy cares what every soul on earth thinks of him.

Neil is on the ace spectrum and doesn’t think about sex until Andrew, who he then wants to jump his bones. Jeremy is hyper-sexual, but is holding back his desires when it comes to the object of his.

Neil needed to find a place safe enough to settle down and stop running. Jeremy is trapped and needs to find a safe place to escape and run to.

Both of their smiles are talked about often and at length throughout their books, and how they give away so much depending on which smile they are giving.

Neil wants the short blond. Jeremy wants to tall af brunet.

Renee is all up in their men’s lives.

Both have complexes about their last names.

To name a few.

And I love them both so much, your honor.

[darlingflowersstuff]

Never Have I Ever

kevin : *smug and petty* never have i ever killed somebody.

dan : is it one shot per person u killed?

kevin : yes

andrew, aaron take a shot, renee takes a shot of water

neil: *after starting off at space for a minute w a deep in thought expression on his face* does it count if i didn’t kill them but i’m definitely responsible for their death?

allison : like manslaughter?

neil : no, more like manipulating someone else to kill them for me

kevin : i guess?

neil : ok *takes a single shot* so that’s riko - y’all r welcome by the way, and then *scrunches his face doing math and then gives up and shrugs* *proceedes to gulp down half a vodka bottle*

andrew : wow mr.math major can’t even do simple addition.

neil : *just as deadpan* wow mr.monster doest even need to do any addition

aaron : *gags*

matt : are they… flirting? by roasting each other? about murder??

dan : yea that checks out