X-Files Rewatch Series; Gender Bender
| rewatching the series | season 1 | scully’s diary | gender bender | words: 240 | click the title for the ao3 link | doodles by @burritoscully everything else belongs to me | in a collaboration with @burritoscully . Please check out her addition to this episode when posted | Beyond The Sea |
She felt drowsy, fatigued, a small headache beginning to bloom in the centre of her forehead. It felt almost like a hangover.
The taste of sick was still on her tongue, her throat dry from stomach acid. It hurt to swallow. Mulder promised her coffee once they got back to civilisation.
He hadn’t said much since blaming her for what happened. Dana had wanted to defend herself, to describe the feeling, why she so willingly went with Brother Andrew but the truth was, she had no words for it, no way to describe such a strange experience, all she knew was it had something to do with the pheromones.
Mulder’s voice protrudes her thoughts. She was angry at him, a tiny ball of fire brewing in her stomach, furious that every time he got an idea, she always got hurt.
But Dana had no energy to argue tonight. She leans against the window, eyes closed, her headache was getting worse.
“I’m fine,” she tells him. A lie, she was shaking. Her mind flashes to withdrawal symptoms and her eyes shut tighter to keep the tears at bay, she didn’t ask for any of this!
“I just want to go home.”
They drive in silence the rest of the way. Dana tries to ignore the memory of the Kindred’s accusing stare, the rancid smell of Andrew’s sweat, and the look of fear in Mulder’s eyes when he found her.
I trust him. I wouldn't have gone with him otherwise, Mulder. Even when he bolted the door with the chair, I didn't react. He drugged me, had me drugged since the first time we met, I would never...Now they're gone but he isn't, I can still feel him on top of me. Will it ever go away?