i will conquer

aggie stewart. rosewood.

[aggie-stewart]

lisbonnova​:

“I don’t know. Sometimes I buy into it but sometimes I think it’s too broad of an idea. On the same level as someone using one of those fortunes from fortune cookies to guide them. No two people go through the same experiences so to think we can box millions of people into one group based on a bunch of stars is pretty presumptuous.” Nova pursed her lips. “Plus i’m not all that big on the concept of fate. It kinda takes people’s control of their own lives out of their hands, you know?”

“I know that it’s not just about the day you were born though? Like I think everyone’s is pretty much different because they take a lot of things into account, like the time you were born and all of that, I don’t know.” She admitted with a raised eyebrow, clearly not knowing enough about the topic to have a throughout conversation about it. “But you do have a point. I mean, like...if it’s all already written for us, why do we have to try so hard, right?”

[aggie-stewart]

dulcie-hernandez​:

“That was like mildly encouraging, do you want to be my first investor?” Dulcie laughed softly, glad to actually be looking at Aggie face to face. “Unfortunately, I dont think bar owner is in my future but it’s always nice to keep in my back pocket. What are you drinking though because next round is absolutely on me.” Dulcie looked her over for a second before smiling, “You look good, I mean you always do but it’s good to see is what I’m saying,” she clarified and got the bartenders attention to order. 

“I love when people think I’m rich.” Aggie retorted playfully, honestly glad that she’d left her apartment and ended up at the bar since she really needed to stop thinking so much about school and things that were out of her hands now. “Oh, shit, look at you. Maybe you’re right, maybe having a bar isn’t your thing. You won’t be making any money if you’re not letting people pay.” She teased lightly. “I’ll have a martini.” She smiled widely at Dulcie and chuckled. “Thank you.” She’d been going through a lot lately, so she sort of understood what the other woman meant about seeing her. She just wanted to have a good time and relax for the first time in months. “You do too, by the way. What’s been going on with you? I feel like we haven’t talked in so long.”

[aggie-stewart]

nixon-peters​:

It wasn’t exactly a happy conversation but Nixon felt some relief in knowing she hadn’t suddenly started to doubt everything they’d had at one point. That was the entire reason he’d shown up in the first place, and while there were other things he wanted to happen it wasn’t anything he needed or expected. Everything she said was right. He’d known she wouldn’t be okay with him hooking up with someone else but he’d asked anyways even though he knew it meant risking his relationship. “This isn’t me trying to get back together or figuring out the grass isn’t always greener on the other side or whatever. I just wanted to say I was sorry and to try and explain where I was at. You’re the only person I feel like I owe any sort of explanation to so I wanted to give you one.” Nixon bit the inside of his cheek, glancing towards the sky to avoid looking at her if only for a moment. Hearing it all from Aggie hurt more than it would have coming from nearly everyone else in his life combined but it was what he deserved. “I won’t bother you again. But I meant what I said about not wanting to completely lose you. I might be shit at showing it but I care about you, so if you ever decide that maybe you want to talk or to try and be friends again give me a call.”

She was aware of that, it would make things easier if that were the case because she would simply turn him down without so much as a second thought. It was pretty obvious that she couldn’t think about them together now, if ever again. “You don’t owe me anything anymore, it’s fine.” It wasn’t the same. She no longer trusted him, which was the basis of their relationship, even before they became exclusive, she’d let herself get close to him because she felt like she could trust him. But that wasn’t the case anymore, even if he’d talked to her in order not to cheat on her as he’d put it before, Aggie felt betrayed. She’d trusted him and he had ended up proving everyone else right about him. She let out a dee breath and decided not to even give him an answer when it came to the future, she couldn’t really say she saw herself giving him any of her time any time soon. He’d been selfish months ago and Aggie considered it was her time to be selfish now and what was right for her at the moment, was keeping him away from her. “Goodbye, Nixon.” She murmured, giving him one last look before she opened the door to her apartment, silently letting him know that their conversation was over. 

[aggie-stewart]

nixon-peters​:

Nixon kept his lips pressed firmly together, taking in everything she had to say without interruption. She deserved to be heard, and in all honesty he had no desire to try and defend himself when he knew he was guilty of just about everything she’d said. “I know.” He exhaled a shaky sigh, unsure if he could manage to pull the words he wanted together now that the opportunity was right in front of him. “I know I’m selfish. And I know you don’t want what I want. I know that acting jealous at a party wasn’t fair, and I know you’re not happy with it or me. And I’m sorry. I’m sorry for turning out to be a shitty person after all and for not admitting I loved you before that night. I thought about it. I just wanted to wait for you to meet me halfway on that one, and the only time we ever came close before then ended with you telling me you didn’t want to see me anymore. I didn’t mean to make you feel bad for trying to move on. I just wanted to put it out there that I didn’t want you to. I- the way things ended between us left so many unresolved feelings there that sometimes I feel like I’m stuck.” He raised one shoulder in half a shrug, knowing words were nothing compared to how confused he felt about the entire situation. How could he explain wanting to hold on when he knew he should let go? 

“I didn’t want to see other people while we were together. I wanted to hook up with someone, which doesn’t sound much better but sex has never been something that really connects me to people. Don’t get me wrong, it can mean something but I wasn’t even thinking about trying to date someone. It was just- this is the longest relationship I’ve ever been in. It was only a matter of time before I did something stupid and self sabotaging to ruin things. I was scared that eventually I would crack when it came to being tempted and that if that happened you would really be gone so it was better to ask flat out to avoid the problem ever coming up. It sounds like bullshit but it’s the truth. I wasn’t spending every minute I was with you thinking about how much I wanted to be with someone else. I loved you. I meant everything I’ve ever said to you. That’s why I came here. I don’t want you to doubt or question every conversation we’ve ever had because I’m stupid and scared and selfish, because I’ve never lied to you. Especially not about shit like feelings. Everything was genuine.”

“Nixon,” Aggie didn’t know what to tell him, was he really saying that he was close to telling her that he loved her at the same time that he asked her to open their relationship? She didn’t know how to take this at all; it was like she was talking to a completely different man than the one that she’d been dating for more than a year. She suddenly wondered if she’d just had rose colored glasses on when it came to him, that she was blind to what he really wanted until he had to literally throw it in her face for her to catch up on it. She heard him out and she understood it, she understood because she knew that was who he was, but she was not going to ever sacrifice her happiness for him. She was not going to agree to something that made her feel sick to her stomach just to appease him and for a moment that was all she needed. She’d never needed Nixon, she loved him, she adored him and everything that he was and the way that he’d treated her, but she was Aggie Stewart as much as he was Nixon Peters, they wouldn’t change for each other, that much was clear.

She looked away as he finished and touched the corner of her eyes, making sure there were no signs of how upset she really was. He still failed to see how wrong it was to ask her to see other people. He still wanted it, so she really didn’t understand what he wanted from her now. “Look, I don’t want to hurt you. I love you. And I swear, I have never wanted to hate someone as much as I do right now. But I can’t hate you and I probably never will, but I need you to hear what I am about to say right now, no matter how much it hurts.” She finally looked back at him, adjusting her purse over her shoulder. “I had no insecurities about our relationship until the day that we broke up, you know? I knew you loved me even if neither of us ever said it out loud. I don’t think you understand what you did to us that day, Nixon. You went up to me, your girlfriend at the time, and told me that you wanted to fuck someone else. Out of nowhere. Even if you weren’t thinking about that someone else all the time that we were together, they were on your mind, Nixon. You wanted someone else, someone that wasn’t me, do you not understand how much of a shitty feeling that is?” She shook her head. “Not only that, but every single thing that you just said...they’re excuses, okay? You decided to tell me that you wanted to hook up with someone else and you knew damn well that I wouldn’t accept it so you made me break up with you. It’s...You got scared and you ran. And now you’re back on my doorstep, wanting to talk and telling me you miss me because what? You fucked the person that you wanted to fuck and got them out of your system? I don’t think you know what genuine feelings are, Nixon. You don’t understand them at all. Genuine feelings are not supposed to ever make you feel like this. I don’t know what you want from me right now...I don’t understand anything right now.”

[aggie-stewart]

dulcie-hernandez​:

“Truly, I’m all about gossip as much as the next person but straight people don’t even make it fun. It’s all so serious,” Dulcie thought out loud before knocking back another shot. “I need way more queer friends. How much do you think it’d cost to open a lesbian bar?” 

Aggie laughed a little. “Straight people make everything boring, what’s surprising about that?” She rolled her eyes at herself and then thought about it, trying to think about it since she was a business major and she felt obligated to know enough about opening up any business. “I would assume that you need, at least, 100k to begin with. Hard liquor licenses are pretty expensive and then add all the money for the location and shit like that. You’re looking at a lot of loans, but I feel like a bar would be very successful in Rosewood considering how little options we have in town.”

[aggie-stewart]

lisbonnova​:

“Had a whole hour long conversation with someone today where they blamed all of their bad luck and questionable decisions on the fact that they were a Pisces.” Nova shook her head. “Wasn’t really sure how to respond. Like, I don’t know. Do you think people’s shitty behavior and actions being pinned on astrology is a good enough excuse?”

“I don’t know, it really depends on the day for me. I think it’s incredible when I read about Scorpio and I fit right into it, but then again, everyone is so different even when they share a zodiac sign, you know?” She shrugged. “What do you think?”

[alohomoradirectory]

[aggie-stewart]

suede-dunn​:

“It was… something in a good way or a bad way? Thank god for small miracles, right?” she scoffed. Recent break-ups didn’t exactly mix well with Valentine’s Day but the one thing she could think of that could have made that worse would have been getting tangled up with one of his friends. “Are you kidding? Of course. I might pocket one or two to save in the apartment for later use but yeah, I’d be your sober guide any night babe. Let’s find you a cookie” Suede took Aggie’s hand and led the way through the crowd, asking someone where they’d found the cookie in their hand and then locating them quickly enough. When she had a clear mission, Suede Dunn was unstoppable. She did wrap two cookies up in a napkin and place them into her clutch but then she broke one in half and handed one piece to Aggie. “For my favorite Valentine,” she said in a saccharine voice. 

“A good way. He’s cute, in that very kind of shy, boy-next-door way, I guess.” She shrugged, not really having it in her to think a lot about it. Honestly, she was single for the first in months, so she was focusing on that. She just wanted to forget relationships for a while, she wanted to focus on herself. “Aw, thank you so much, babe.” She gave her a loud kiss on the cheek and then took a bite from it. Weirdly enough, she’d only started doing things like that recently, because of her ex’s influence but Aggie had found out that every once in a while, it didn’t hurt at all. And If Suede was her sober guide, it made things better since she trusted her blindly. “So, what about you, you wanna kiss someone tonight? Are there any options already, anyone in your radar?”

[aggie-stewart]

nixon-peters​:

“Hey.” It wasn’t often that Nixon felt genuinely nervous. He was as confident as they came and beyond sure of himself when it came to talking his way out of a situation, but all that went out the window when it came to dealing with Aggie. He had no idea what she’d heard or if what Phoenix heard has managed to float her way as well. Maybe he didn’t need to have a conversation with her but that didn’t change the fact that he wanted to. He wanted to try and explain himself so at the end of the day she wouldn’t completely hate him. So he’d made the long walk to her dorm, taking the time to try and come up with the right thing to say to avoid a slap before it settled in that he probably deserved one. “I know I might be the last person you want to see right now but I thought I might try anyways. I really want- I feel like we should talk. About, like, everything. Now that we’re both sober and we can’t blame it on the alcohol or anything else. I’m sorry for that, by the way. Everything I said at the party- I shouldn’t have said it and I’m sorry. But if you have some time I… I guess I want to explain myself to you if you’ll hear me out.” @aggie-stewart​

The hardest part of her break up with Nixon was the fact that no matter how hard she tried, she couldn’t hate him. Hating him would make things so much easier for her, but no, she had fell for him and had been in love with him until recently. Hell, she didn’t even know if she still was, deep down. But Aggie was disappointed, she felt hopeless and helpless when it came to her feelings for him and while it hurt to keep him at a distance, she knew it was the right thing to do. They didn’t want the same things in life, they never had and she saw no point in pushing for a relationship where it felt like they took turns fighting for each other instead of fighting together. He’d caught her on her way out of the apartment that she shared with Suede, her best friend, so there was no way for her to run. Honestly, he wasn’t wrong, she didn’t want to see him. Seeing him just broke her heart more every time it happened and she wanted to yell at him, making him feel as broken as she was, she couldn’t keep going in circles with him, it just wasn’t healthy. “You know, Nixon, that’s where you’re wrong. I’m glad you said it because it really put things into perspective for me. It really made me see a little more of you and what this is all about.” She admitted. Her voice had almost no feeling to it, and it made sense, she had subconsciously disconnected herself from whatever emotions he evoked her in order to finally let go. “What are you going to explain? You’ve been straight forward since day one, Nixon. What you need to understand is that I don’t want it. I don’t want what you want, I’m not happy with it and I will never be. You told me that you loved me only after you saw me kissing someone else, you only approached me because of that same reason and you know what’s worse? You tried to make me feel like I was in the wrong for trying to fucking move on.” She shook her head and swallowed hard; she would not let him see her weakness anymore. He didn’t deserve that anymore. “You freaked out on me because I kissed someone else. Like you haven’t been sleeping with other people since we broke up, like you didn’t want to see other people while you were with me. Do you understand how fucking selfish that is?”

[aggie-stewart]

nixon-peters​:

“Right. Makes sense that now that you’re not totally off the fucking walls you’re not interested anymore, and you’re definitely not into admitting you have feelings. I should probably be used to that. I guess the shock from last time hasn’t worn off yet.” The corners of his mouth curved up sardonically. It figured she would admit something that made her appear soft only to take it back like it’d never happened in the first place. “No, you’re just kissing knock off versions of me. I hate to break it to you, Stewart, but you’re not gonna find me in the back of Nate’s mouth no matter how hard you try. So please, do us both a favor and stop trying. I don’t know who you think you’re dealing with here but this whole ice queen act doesn’t fucking work on me. I know you whether you like it or not.”

Aggie narrowed her eyes at him. No one talked to her like that and Nixon wasn’t going to be the first. “Ah, so that’s what this is about.” She just snorted, of course he was coming to her after she kissed someone else. Because fuck feelings when it came to Nixon Peters, he was just being territorial. She shook her head and moved to stand up from the bar stool she’d been sitting on, her stance letting it known that she was having none of it. “So...you think that I’m kissing other men to push your buttons? Is that really what you think? Nixon...may I remind you that I broke up with you? I don’t want you anymore and you know this, because if I did, we wouldn’t be talking right now.” She grabbed her drink as the bartender offered it to her and then looked back at her ex with a bored expression on her face. “You didn’t even cross my mind when I kissed Knox and I assure you, you will not be on my mind when I kiss the next person that I want to kiss. And genuinely, I could care less about your man pride being hurt, so please, why don’t you go back to whoever you’re with tonight and let me have a fun night. Why is it so hard for you to just forget that I exist?” 

[aggie-stewart]

suede-dunn​:

Suede’s eyes popped open wide at her friend’s response. “What? You got kiss cam-ed? Who did you have to kiss, anyone I know? Now I’m feeling a little left out, not gonna lie.” She pouted but it didn’t reach her eyes, she was in too good of a mood to care whether or not she was forced to kiss some random for a camera. “I heard there are some pretty powerful edibles somewhere around here if you’d like to let go and maybe not see the hearts and red so vividly. I can abstain so I can be your semi-sober guide.”

“Oh, Knox Overman. He went to high school with me so let me tell you, it was...something. But I’m honestly too buzzed to care and at least it wasn’t Nixon or one of his buddies.” Because gross, the last thing that she needed was to keep going on that never-ending cycle with him. Or adding his friends to the mix. At least Know was a decent human being. “Aw, you’d do that for me?” She hugged her friend playfully, grinning widely. “I’m game, I could use a really good distraction. This is my first time out in a little while as you know.”

[aggie-stewart]

nixon-peters​:

Nixon didn’t have the right to be bothered by anything Aggie did considering just how clear she’d made it that she wanted nothing to do with him but that didn’t change the fact that he was. Watching her kiss someone else should have been something that rolled off his shoulders without any reaction on his end but instead it lit a fire in the pit of his stomach he hadn’t experienced in months. Without attempting to, she’d finally managed to slide under his skin and ruffle him to the point that he couldn’t actually hold on to the calm exterior he was known for. No, Nixon was angry and it was written all over his face. He’d been on his way out to smoke in his car when fate screwed him over once more by placing her directly in his path. “Someone stopped pretending not to look for me then?” He snapped back, not bothering to mirror the fake smile she was throwing his way. “I’m not in the mood for whatever fucking game you’re trying to play with me tonight.”

She didn’t expect anything less from him than to turn into an asshole after the last time that they’d seen each other and honestly, Aggie couldn’t even blame him. She’d pushed him away and then texted him like the dumbass that she was. Drunk texting is never a good idea, Aggie. It never is. She was, once again, not sober, therefore she decided that she wouldn’t take whatever he was saying to heart. She no longer could focus on Nixon like she’d done before, he was no longer hers. Come to think of it, he probably never was hers to begin with and she was just now, realizing it. “Not pretending. I am no longer looking for you, Nixon.” She shrugged, nonchalant as ever, even colder than she was before they ever became an item. She was good at it, at keeping her emotions in check. She’d always been a cold bitch anyway and he knew it better than anyone. “Feel free to keep going then, I’m not asking you to stick around.” She gestured towards the door, turning her head back to the bar, silently asking the bartender for another drink.

[aggie-stewart]

suede-dunn​:

“I’ve never seen a kiss cam outside of a stadium game before. Of course there’s one here tonight.” Suede smiled and shook her head slowly as she came to learn more of Rosewood’s antics tonight. She’d been looking for the special cookies she heard a few people mention already when she was stopped by a camera in front of her, pointing toward two people who clearly hadn’t come to the party together but, by the looks of the way this kiss was progressing, she’d be shocked if they didn’t leave together. “I can’t lie, there’s a charm to this whole thing that I’m kind of loving.”

“It was all fun and games until I got pulled into it.” Aggie joked lightly, since she’d been a victim of the kiss cam already. But you know, she wasn’t complaining, at least she didn’t have to kiss Kit or Phoenix, or even worse; Nixon. At least Know was sort of okay, and not a dumbass. “I’m not drunk enough for all the hearts and the red, but the drinks are amazing. So I agree.”

[aggie-stewart]

The past couple of months had been a little all over the place for Aggie. Dealing with a break up had shaken her up a little bit and honestly, by now she was just genuinely tired of it. She was moving on and she was going back to who she always has been; Aggie Stewart who takes no shit from anyone. Especially not  a man. So instead of staying home to avoid the whole Valentine’s Day charade, Aggie dressed to impress and decided to show up for whatever event Ravenwood students had planned for the weekend. She was already buzzed when she ran into Nixon, but Aggie was genuinely surprised that her chest no longer hurt at the sight of him, she wasn’t comfortable in his presence, obviously, but she also wouldn’t let him ruin her night. Not anymore. She gulped the rest of her champagne in one go and plastered a smile on her face as she saw him approaching. “Ah, someone’s finally in the mood to party then?” @nixon-peters​

[aggie-stewart]

text: nixon peters

n: it's fine. but if there's something you wanna know all you have to do is ask.

n: No, it wasn't your fault. If you would've brought it up to me like that I would've been pretty pissed off so I get why you were upset. Honestly it's probably mostly my fault for thinking I could have my cake and eat it too when I /know/ you. I knew it wouldn't fly but I still asked anyways because I was thinking with my dick instead of my actual brain. It was a bad move. I'm just saying you can't ask me to be honest with you and then get mad at me for actually doing it.

n: idk what this is about.

a: idk sometimes i just didn’t know how to ask i guess. like most times i just didn’t know how to say or ask about stuff

a: you’re saying so many things and it all barely makes sense in my head :(

a: i just don’t wanna argue anymore idk how to do this

[aggie-stewart]

odessamcsaxton​:

“Now don’t go too crazy, biatch.” Odessa teased her sister, but she was happy to be providing Aggie with a night out. If her current state let her know anything, she’d needed it. “It’s truly nothing in the grand scheme of things, Aggie. Let’s focus more on just having fun, we both deserve it.” She told her sister as she knew she wasn’t going to be interested in hearing about how terrible the white cisgendered male patriarchy was in that moment and quite honestly, she didn’t want to think about it. Mr. McKibbon had gotten his way, point blank period. “I don’t know if I’m allowed to forget. Distract myself, definitely. Forget, I’m not at the luxury.” Odessa told Aggie as she still had to compose herself. “I don’t have to tell my mom a thing, I’ll be making sure we get home safe and sound.” She told Aggie, although she was not opposed texting Chase so that she’d have help carrying Aggie back to her home with Callista and Suede. Doing so in the gown she was currently wearing would be a massive pain in her ass.

“You’re thinking too much. I think too much. Maybe it’s a family thing, huh?” Aggie mumbled, but let go of her sister and was still smiling. She knew that something was up with Odessa, but she figured this wasn’t the time or the place to talk about it with her. Besides, Aggie wasn’t really all there right now, so she wouldn’t be able to give her insights into whatever topic that they could talk about right now. “OKay, well, let’s get distracted. Please.” She wasn’t sure if Odessa knew that Aggie was still dealing with her break up, but honestly, she was more than fine with not discussing anything important tonight. After all, she just wanted to let go. “Did I say mom? I swear, I thought I said your man. I’m losing it. Wow.” She giggled, shaking her head. 

[aggie-stewart]

text: nixon peters

n: I like my dad. I mean he's not my role model or anything but I like him. He's a lot less shitty than most of the parents I know.

n: Have you met you?

n: You say one thing then do another, or you don't say anything at all so I have to guess about what's going on. In all the time I've known you you've never outright told me about any of your feelings aside from irritation even though I've put myself out there first for you more times than I can count and you say you trust me. It's all fucking confusing.

a: i guess i just always thought u didn't like him, sorry

a: so you're saying...you asked to see other people because i wasn't clear about my feelings for you so us not being together right now is...my fault?

a: is that what this is about?