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honestly would've preferred you to tell me to shoot myself ngl

#jay.txt #boosted it over $200. might have to reconsider this. i guess I have the time to it's just. oof. ooooooof.#(it's tadc movie merch that I'm pondering for the curious. bundle figure and maybe a box. could probably forgo the box but i do +#+ unfortunately want the figure and the poster that comes with the bundle. so. grimacing deeply rn.)

... excuse me?

#what the fuck are you defining as a sandwich #also hello long time no see (not that long in the scheme of things really)#I've mostly just been working on personal projects that's why I haven't been around much. crafting girls possibly too freaky for tumblr #too freaky for the internet at large these days I guess #(also been working on some Less Freaky gals- so hopefully I'll have more on them to show/talk about soon)#((also been kinda hoping to go back and finish some of the SP fics I had on the burner a while back- but I think unfortunately my Scarlett +#+ Pilgrim sckim/sckimona fic is on another laptop that doesn't want to cooperate with me right now and that's kinda the one I wanna finish+#+ first. like I was bribed to work on that it feels wrong that it hasn't been completed 😔 ))#((alas. the brain and its disfunctions. I'm trying))#jay.txt #oh also ik I said they're too freaky for tumblr but yall may still get to see them in some capacity #technically a screenshot of one of them is on my ko-fi at the moment!#idk I'd like to post about them but their story rn is just. very explicit. we made freaks that have kinks I am explicitly not into that's +#+the level of Freak we've injected into them

My screen protector finally ships. I check the tracking. Motherfucker is in OHIO. WHY ARE YOU IN OHIO?? YOU ARE GOING SOUTH. WHY ARE YOU HEADING NORTH? I just wanna draw without fucking up my screen man

#my lofty dream of posting roxie art again for roxie day may be getting mauled in front of our eyes fellas #fuckin Cincinnati Ohio. are you kidding me? why and how does this even happen this is a waste of resources and time 😭#''the item is currently in transit to its destination'' ARE YOU FLYING IT? BECAUSE I AM DOUBTFUL #wait a damn minute #no calm down they're probably using a different time zone #but it said it arrived at a time that hasn't passed yet for me. so. ough #(like arrived at the current facility)#jay.txt #I've got what like 5 days? 5 days to roxie day? maybe it happens. maybe it arrives before then #idk I suspect they split my order like this so they were only legally obligated by my shipping protections to make sure the tablet itself (+#(+) got here safe and unharmed so I'm watching this second shipment with narrowed and distrusting eyes

It has arrived... (sort of...)

(They're sending the screen protector in a separate shipment so I feel a little bit like I should wait to use it, unfortunately.)

#knowing me. I'll cave and end up using it. especially since I don't currently have an ETA on the rest of the stuff I got #but we will see. thankfully not my writing hand- but my left wrist/hand has been cramping up kinda awfully lately #so maybe I'll let myself draw if I can go a bit without agitating that first? (It's like. stemming from somewhere along the path of my +#+pinkie finger. I either fucked it up sketching on my phone again or it's a gaming injury... put too much force into my sprinting...)#jay.txt #jay.jpg

war is over....

also (under cut for visual spoiler for new creature) I Am So Making A Guy Outta That

#vanishing back into the ether after posting this but as an update to people who may partially or entirely follow this or other blogs (+)#(+) of mine for art- I just ordered a new tablet and it should hopefully arrive within the next week. my return is on the horizon...#jay.txt #lethal company #lc v80 #lethal company v80 #kidnapper fox #Feiopar #lethal company Feiopar #lethal company kidnapper fox

I got some earbuds with a tablet I was given and they apparently aren't compatible with my phone. W hat the fuck do you mean??? How could they not be supported??? Are you fucking with me???

#i am finding this out moments before an agonizingly long car ride so I might just become the joker #jay.txt

buddy I don't even own a trampoline anymore. That video is at least 3 years old.

#(the tiktok was me in the train in front of a trampoline. i didn't even jump on it in the video 💀)#this is possibly a bot account or something I'd imagine but the idea that this guy just. follows people at a hint of trampoline. is so funny #jay.txt

Whoever is responsible for tablet pens being made with these fuckass tops and NO INSTRUCTIONS telling you NOT TO PULL ON THEM: sleep with one eye open you son of a bitch

#i thought it was a fucking nib protector because I wasn't wearing my glasses and couldn't see that the nib is clearly too fucking large to +#+be for practical use #and all the fucking papers with this thing just talk about the fucking mouse and keyboard #I'm gonna see if I can’t fucking shove it back in and fix it or use my lenovo pen but sincere fuck you to whoever's responsible for this #jay.txt #jay.jpg

well this certainly doesn't look like marinara

#jay.txt #jay.jpg #ordered my grandmother mozz sticks and these were there. she doesn't use sauce anyway but I have never seen these before in my life #how new are they?#arbys

WAIT WHEN DID THEY ADD REPLY LIKING

#just got jumpscared by a reply I'd made on something getting liked. how long has this been a feature I'm pretty sure my phone updated the +#+app without my permission ending my probably over a year long refusal to update and that's Pissing Me Off #jay.txt

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Survived the wedding 👍

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So, accidental social faux pas occurred. This will be long so I'm putting it under the cut, but I will also including a photo or two of the fit from the evening down there for the interested.

For the wedding itself, I decided I wanted to try and pop into a call with my partner so it'd be less miserable for me to sit through; I'm already seated sort of on the fringes, further back than the rest of my sister and I's immediate family- by choice, not by arrangement (when I first sat only my grandmother was seated anywhere, and rather than sit with her in the sunlight I opted for a more shady place. Also I hate the groom- more on that later.) I do manage to successfully broadcast the visuals of the event to my partner (which was nice) and none of the audio, unfortunately, (the only wired earbuds I had are only functional on the mic side but somehow the mic doesn't work 🙃👍-) but in doing so forget to lower my phone's brightness as it gets darker. If you've ever used a phone, you may be aware, but this drains the battery way faster- especially if you're doing other shit, like broadcasting in a discord call for over an hour.

So, not having noticed this blunder I've made, I just keep rolling. I'm listening to my partner in one ear, and occasionally chatting with my other siblings in attendance (so not the bride) and my two friends who ended up being parts of the wedding party (one officiating as I previously posted about being some sort of cruel cosmic joke and the other sort of a stand in for the groom's side since his people kept dropping out.) Eventually my friends and I are gonna go off to smoke away from all the festivities- I naturally take my phone with me. It is right before we start smoking that I realize my phone is on 9% and Rapidly Dropping. I have to sort of quickly say bye to my partner and exit the call- and despite having 5% it immediately shuts off the second I'm out of it. Cool cool cool

(I rode there with my grandparents, who I wasn't sure knew the way back in the dark. This is very Not Cool if they don't, in fact, know the way back.)

I go to see if my mom has a phone charger I can use (C type, but she's an iphone user,) and thankfully she does. Crisis averted! My grandparents also say they should know the way back, but I am obviously not going to trust this, so I go to find that charger. Thankfully, the venue is just at her and her husband's place, so I don't need special permission or assistance to go slink off and grab it or anything- I just have to go in her living room and the charger should already be plugged in, good to go.

So, some important information about the location: my mother's house is raised, significantly, as it's a waterfront property and it regularly floods down there. To spare guests (mostly the grandparents- and probably my father idk if he was allowed inside 💀-) from having to go up and down these lengthy wooden stairs, there's a porta-potty they rented out and some foot pedal sinks and things for people to use if they have to go a little ways away from the tables, but still reasonable distance.

When I was walking off initially to go smoke, I could see some people starting to walk out cakes and stuff, but there hadn't been any announcements- most unfortunately, when I was walking back away from the tables after asking about that phone charger, they announced they're about to cut the cake if people want to watch. I don't, particularly? (Not much for wedding traditions- is watching them cut the cake even. Remotely important? Genuinely I have no clue.) Regardless, I had an objective anyway- so I just kind of shrugged and went to go put the phone on charge.

This is where my faux pas occurs, not that I will be aware for several more minutes.

So, I'm upstairs, chillin- no one's in the house at the moment and the charger's free, so I put it down and then stand there for a moment wondering if I should just leave it be and head back down or what. As I'm idling, the (admittedly minimal, but still an amount of,) alcohol I've consumed makes itself evident and I realize I have to use the bathroom. No biggie, I'm already upstairs, and it's my mom's house- I'll just use the Actual bathroom. I won't miss anything important, right? (Right. But also Not Right. As you will see.)

I actually got kind of interrupted while I was in there- I guess my other friend (not officiating) didn't want to use the porta-potty (understandable) or someone was in it, so I wrap up my business and let him go; I'm hanging out with our other friend in the living room while we wait on him, and I remember that they took the jello shots that were made downstairs with the cake earlier. I decide I would like a jello shot, and my phone will be fine in the house, so I head down with my friends to go see if there are any cherry ones left to take.

When I tell you. These fuckers left NOT A SINGLE ALCOHOLIC JELLO SHOT IN SIGHT. I mean it, and I need you to understand the inherent cruelty of this, because they Also made Nonalcoholic ones. So I'm standing over by the nonalcoholic ones with immeasurable disappointment for a while (also wondering why there were so many nonalcoholic ones when the others were clearly being favored, but I digress,) before I decide to go check in on my siblings. People have apparently been giving speeches since after the cake was cut; I forget who was giving one when I came down, but I know I heard at least two or three of my sister's friends on the mic while I was still down there, so people clearly came prepared or helped themselves to the jello shots before their improv.

As I approach my siblings, the younger of the two of them turns to me, and says "Did you know they made a toast to you?"

Huh? What? Excuse me?

My confusion must be evident. She elaborates. But before she elaborates, some lore, for those who don't go here or haven't gone here for a while: this wedding is between my first sister (I am the eldest, she's second eldest- two years younger than me,) and a man who was FORMERLY a friend of mine in highschool. That formerly is extremely important, because the reason our friendship INITIALLY ended was because I was letting him hang around our house after school on occassion and he violated this trust by stealing my 3DS and several 3DS games that were in my house at the time- only one of which I believe was even mine, but it's still distressing to have my friend's belongings stolen when they were entrusted to me, you know? Regardless, the game of mine that he DID steal was my copy of either Ultra Moon or Pokemon Moon, which I had recently finally completed the pokedex for, played extremely frequently (which he KNEW,) and had even received a birthday gift from a friend on that save that was a shiny charizard he had traded with another friend of ours for, knowing that Charizard is one of my sentimental favorites as my first ever starter. He wiped that save and the saves on the other cartridges when he stole them, and had the boldness with this theft to play on my stolen system AT SCHOOL in classes that had people in them who were eventually able to help me piece together what exactly happened. The only reason my belongings were returned to me was because his partner at the time, now obviously ex, noticed that I was upset during lunch period and I confessed my concerned that he may have stolen it. It was back in my hands the next day with a bullshit written apology that I can't even remember that's how pissed off I was.

If you feel that's a petty reason to hold a grudge, I have other reasons I hate him! This is just the one I've etched into my brain because it is the one that happened Directly To Me, Directly Affected Me, and I had to sleuth that shit out MYSELF. Because he knew I knew it was missing and was looking for it- he never would've returned that shit himself.

My other reasons include, but are not limited to: second-hand accounts of him behaving creepily towards my sister when we were still friends in highschool, second-hand accounts of him implying he could "turn me" or change my mind about my open preferences towards women I'd started expressing at the time, repeated harassment of my friends, family, and myself attempting to mend our friendship after highschool that INCLUDES REPEATED DODGE BLOCKING, and the fact that (and I do recognize this one is in part my fault, probably, but still,) he made himself WAY to comfortable way too immediately so soon after entering my life and being given permission to stop by after school. By which I mean I would get off my bus and walk into my house when NO ONE IS SUPPOSED TO BE HOME and he'd have let himself in the back door (my grandparents would leave it unlocked in case my sister and I forgot our keys, which is information I stupidly gave him,) to make ramen monstrosities (there is no other way I can describe them and to give but one simple descriptor, visually, for you- grey.) Things like that made me increasingly uneasy and uncomfortable around and with him, but also feeling like I could not vocalize that, because I'd done it to myself, really, and I'd been trying to tell myself I was just an overly paranoid person after a several year hangup I'd had on a singular line in a bullshit breakup note I'd been given about "having trust issues." (The poisoned irony of this was not missed, rest well assured.)

So, all of that in mind: I really fucking hate this guy, and when he's out of my life permanently, I hope to throw a Fucking Party. Tragically, that will probably never come to fruition now.

"But how does this tie back into the rest of this, Jay?" You may be asking yourself, unless you've picked up on the context clues.

This fucking man. Had the audacity to make a toast to me. Noting that none of this would've been possible without me. AND I WASN'T EVEN THERE FOR IT!

I can't lie to you, guys. I laughed. I was snickering and covering my mouth and trying not to be disruptive while I was collecting myself. "None of this would've been possible without you" and the camera pans to an empty fucking chair. That's what I'm seeing in my brain. Fucking priceless, absolutely comedy gold and possibly the highlight of my night. I had to thank my sister for telling me that and wander off back to the house to see if my phone was charged enough to relay that to my partner, because it was hysterical to me at the time.

I understand this is a faux pas I've committed here mostly because of how many people were like "oh he made a toast to you did you hear?" afterwards, as though that's supposed to mean something to me. But fuck if it isn't the most wonderful faux pas I'll ever make in my life. It truly is highlighted by my absence being purely coincidence/accident and not purposeful, but I can't lie, I am That Bitch and I would've made myself scarce purposefully if I'd known beforehand. Maliciously, even. But through no effort of my own I probably wounded the fuck out of him if he realized I wasn't there for it afterwards and I am Not sorry for the sick glee it gives me.

Not even the bride knew he was going to do that. My sister told me when I went to check in with her before leaving that if I watch the recording of it at some point, I'll see her pulling faces during it because she wouldn't have let him do that if she knew- or maybe warned me, at least.

The amount of people asking me if I knew about it having happened afterwards did dampen my enthusiasm about it greatly night of, but sitting here morning after? Yeah, I'm riding that one for a while. Like fuck you, man, get over it already, we will NEVER be friends. Just treat my sister well or else I WILL fucking end you.

Anyway. Pictures!

If pictures were taken of me in the mask on site, I won't have them for a while yet- but here are my pre and post wedding photos. I didn't wear the mask until the reception though, just because I hadn't gotten to talk to my sister to ask her if she'd said it was okay or not and I'd forgotten. I'll probably wear this again sometime! Especially this shirt; love this little fox and fern patterned thing so much. Possibly worth the credit card debt.

#jay.txt #jay.jpg

Survived the wedding 👍

#jay.txt #reblogging momentarily with a little story about something that happened and maybe a photo or two

Any tips on how not to want to murder your sister's fiance? Asking for hypothetical reasons

#also rhetorical I don't want tips and my hatred is an undying flame ✌️#we're going to the ren fest in a couple hours and I either wasn't told he was coming too or was only told Once several months ago #so walking in and hearing his voice? instant silent rage #also bc of warriors maps i may or may not have watched recently I have God's Whisper or whatever stuck in my head and it's A Feeling.#jay.txt

Watching my mom give her parents edibles for Halloween

#she's so shocked they said yes she's ecstatic #also kinda shocked ngl. my grandmother saying yes? yeah sure absolutely. my grandfather? interesting developments.#jay.txt

it's like when antlered deer fight

#stupid ass thought I had that my sister said I should post here. it is tumblr post kinda thought so fair enough #i pulled them out of the box like this but I may have accidentally caused them to do this idk I just wanted to restock the disposables #jay.txt #also hello people who only hear from me when I post here. I'm still alive I'm just struggling. hoping to redye my hair in time for friday #maybe we'll get new kim photos this year (don't hold your breath)

was just showing my cat new fnaf plushies I got and introducing her to them for fun and when I called golden freddy "G-Fe" (I genuinely don't know man) she visibly paused and then locked eyes with me like she was telling me she knows that's not his name 💀

#(i probably called him that bc i got him and a foxy and I ''introduced'' foxy first. so i probably meant for an R to be in there by the e +#+sound took over)#but* not by. ough #let me edit my fucking tags on mobile im begging #jay.txt

Just once when I have my fucking updates for windows paused and I go to restart my laptop I'd like you TO NOT FUCKING UPDATE THAT SHIT YOU FUCK!!!

My rage is actually at lethal levels it's not even letting me shut the fucker off

#genuinely zero fucks given if it fucked up my system why can I not shut it the fuck off while it's doing this #i wish I could beat the fuck out of someone for this #jay.txt

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