morning coffee with nana
my grandmother used to wake up at 4:30, so she could ease into the day, sip her first cup uninterrupted. the first thing she did was prepare a pot of coffee. never a cup or 16-oz but a full pot.
i used to hear her walking around the kitchen – cups clinking against each other in the cupboard followed by a ceramic on tile, water brewing, the sizzle of hot coffee hitting the cold glass bowl.
my grandmother got irritated if i came down too early. she needed to be one cup in. if i came down too early, i had to sit there in silence. i generally waited upstairs for a good 15-20 minutes after the first pot finished brewing. i waited in bed and listened. in my mind, i could my grandmother sitting at the table in her plaid robe and sheepskin slippers, sipping her coffee out of the little white cup she always used. 6-oz. it was a 6-oz cup v-shaped cup in dull white ceramic. it was her cup.
my anxiety grew as minutes ticked away. coffee was calling. minutes that passed were minutes i could restore. i had to beat my mother down in the mornings or it would all be ruined. from the time i was 5, i liked to spend the early morning with my grandmother.
by 5 am, i was downstairs and the second pot was brewing (we are a pot-per-person family, a fresh pot kind of family). my grandmother and i would sit at the kitchen table sipping our coffee in the dim, pre-dawn light she permitted. she would tell me about her childhood, her parents (my great-grandparents), my grandfather, mother, long gone family pets. as years past, she often told me the same stories. i was never sure if she forgot that she had told me or if she simply liked to remember – they tended to appear seasonally. i took them in as new each time.
on sunday mornings, we broke routine. rather than sit at the kitchen table, we would go into her room and watch “style with elsa klensch”. it was a half-hour show. i always thought elsa was british. she is not, she is australian.
after the show, she would resume tell me the stories or begin envisioning the magic she could work on her sewing machine. all this between sips of miked and sugared coffee in a dim, pre-dawn kitchen. she didn’t like bright lights in the morning. they were like gulps and she, we preferred to sip our day into existence. to sip our lives up to the present, to sip our visions into reality.
(this is my adult reflection doodle on what was really running through our heads)









