my autism shrine

they/them | TME | lesbian | latine | 25

[ahkmenrah]

[badassdemonsword]

When youre coming back from the Kevin Macleod rave and one of you almost died

[bodyofdeath]

[frostironic]

tonight in my fevered state i went on a nostalgia trip back through my old livejournal (which was embarrassing, yeah, but i was fourteen and all fourteen-year-olds are embarrassing) and it's fucking wild to me that i had such a big influence on the night at the museum fandom of all things

an old friend of mine and i coined the ship name tablet guardians for larry/ahkmenrah and made a community for it, sister community to chest_bump, of course (which was jed/octavius, and probably the hub of the entire fandom for years)

i think edo and i were the first people to ever even consider larry/ahk. honestly, looking back, little teenager me just wanted someone to ship ahkmenrah with because i thought he was hot and didn't like making OCs at the time – thus a ben stiller ship, i guess. such is the way of things

apparently that ship name is still used today, though, which is fucking insane to think about. it's been seventeen years. i'm thirty-one. what the fuck.

i can't help but wonder if there's anyone from that era still on the internet alive and kickin'. i turned out to be a trans dude, for the record. the teenage fujoshi to gay trans man pipeline got me in its jaws

[the-matpat-ever]

AHKMENRAH MY BELOVED!!!! I KIN HIM<3

WHO'S STILL IN THE NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM FANDOM????

AND WHATS UR FAVORITE SHIP IN THE FANDOM!!!

LOOKS AROUND

MINE IS TABLET GUARDIANS

[tooies]

the clock app always picks the numbers for you but in calculator the numbers can be anything you want

[ahkmenrah]

god this has been such a weird year for me because for once i’m like artistically doing things that are fulfilling and meeting new people in the process, like it turns out the hack for being autistic in nightlife is to just Be The DJ. but at the same time im perpetually depressed after getting racially fired from my job and working as a barista again and also other personal life shit to where it’s like i have reasons not to kill myself and yet i tried to last tuesday. and ive been justifying doing artistic stuff all year as a way to stop myself from feeling suicidal but it actually hasn’t been enough.

[ahkmenrah]

that being said i don’t know what my life is going to look like next year because i am getting out of kentucky and moving to a large city but i know that if i want to continue DJing i need to find my niche. but i dont know if i want to really play the EDM club promotions game in a large city because its such a beast compared to the college town i live in. and also im not really interested in mainstream EDM.

[ahkmenrah]

like genuinely what will it take for me to stop feeling depressed. maybe i need to get a job that isn’t soul crushingly overstimulating.

[ahkmenrah]

god this has been such a weird year for me because for once i’m like artistically doing things that are fulfilling and meeting new people in the process, like it turns out the hack for being autistic in nightlife is to just Be The DJ. but at the same time im perpetually depressed after getting racially fired from my job and working as a barista again and also other personal life shit to where it’s like i have reasons not to kill myself and yet i tried to last tuesday. and ive been justifying doing artistic stuff all year as a way to stop myself from feeling suicidal but it actually hasn’t been enough.

[woman-becomer]

eat an entire can of sweetened condensed milk. you deserve it.

[platter-o-teeth-deactivated2025]

(sigh) okay... (CRUUEEENNNCH....) (SCREEEEEENCH...) owie.. (CRUUEEENCH)

[woman-becomer]

this is one of the most rewarding things about posting self care tips on this site. witnessing people's lives getting better in real time. this is why I post

[venndaai]

Big fan of calling male characters babygirls but I think we should start calling female characters babyboys too

[meerschweinchen-archive]

your twenties are Also about discovering that you’re not a bad person in all the ways you believed you were but you’re a bad person in completely new and exciting ways

[srdcovka]

[ilynpilled]

[vonkarmic]

i think taylor swift wishes she was bisexual because she knows it would make her slightly more money. whereas sabrina carpenter wishes she was bisexual so she could have sex with someone who looks exactly like herself. and ariana grande wishes she was bisexual because she did too many designer drugs on the set of wicked and now she has kin memories of being glinda for real

[wordfather]

not my circus not my monkeys but thanks to my mutuals i know some of the lore

[van1llaskys]