etasha.

i am half agony, half hope.

[ahomelesscloud]

i finished reading caraval book 1 in one day and i genuinely don’t think ive ever fallen so deep into a book before. OUABH and Caraval just might be the most magical books ive ever read. And caraval is its own vibe.

The way the island is described??? Julian being such a lover boy from the very beginning!!! Legend and his games and the warning at the start is so iconic. And i love, love everything scarlett is. I’m so excited to read more about tella and what caraval was for her. UGH, i need this book injected in my veins and i want to be sucked into the caraval universe and be one of the characters so bad.

[ouabhs]

oh nothing just thinking about evajacks when they were infected with vampire venom

evangeline:

jacks:

it was prob worse for jacks as he had no one to hold him back he literally had to beg evangeline to lock him up so he doesn’t do anything

[ouabhs]

first official artwork from stephanieee

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Bertrand Russell, from “What Desires Are Politically Important?” (via letsbelonelytogetherr)

[a-mental-piece-of-trauma]

[itjammy]

Sometimes it is the evidence, the spectacle of another person's grief that harrows you, more than the loss itself.

- Our Evenings, Alan Hollinghurst

[magnum-nova]

Confessions of the Optimist

Somedays everything goes wrong

Everything around you just burns

And no matter what you do it wont stop burning

People are rude to you for no reason

Friends are cruel while thinking they are jabbing at your harmlessly, but their carelessness leaves you bleeding out on the floor

Somedays you just wanna scream, there is no poetic ending where you find the beauty in the suffering

It's just suffering.

And you just have to sit and watch the flames destroy everything around you

You know that when the flames are gone things will regrow and everything will be fine

But that doesn't stop what is current moment happening to you

Because, right now, everything is an inferno

The heat evaporates your tears in the ducts they sit in and you can't leave the fire.

Stuck

Waiting for the flames to stop

Waiting for the anger that flows in your blood to calm

And it will, eventually the fire will die and your anger will calm

But right now it burns and burns and burns

[ahomelesscloud]

FINALLY reading the secret history by donna tart and one thing is clear: them performing a bacchanal out of obsession and as a way to escape; a person in the field of arts MUST be obsessed with it to a certain extent. you cannot possibly make a career out of arts knowing how little the money would be if you weren’t obsessed with it.

which means every single one of us artists, in our own way, are mad and obsessed with our form of art.

[thoughtkick]

“Your identity should be so secure that when someone walks away from you they don’t take you with them.”

— Unknown

[rylandsgrace]

JOSEPH ZADA as HAYMITCH ABERNATY

The Hunger Games: Sunrise on the Reaping (2026) dir. Francis Lawrence

[firlexgremlin]

i am not articulate enough to make this sound coherent rn. but the cycle of familial violence portrayed in gdt's frankenstein, set against the backdrop of the cycle of violence in society with the constant references to the wars. the creature finding beauty and connection in nature, feeding the deer until it is shot dead. his speech about the wolves and the sheep, how they don't hate each other, it's just in their nature to kill and be killed.

it seems like these cycles will never end but they can. you can turn your ship around. you can forgive your father. you can walk into the snow and feel the sun upon your face. you can, you can, you can.

[issela-santina]

ngl the change of phrasing from “if I cannot inspire love, I will cause fear” to “if you are not to award me love, then I will indulge in rage” says a lot about what GDT wanted to do with the Frankenstein creature. I think Mary would have sobbed if she heard that

“I will cause fear” is more transitive than “I will indulge in rage” is what I'm saying. cause whose fear? which does align with how the violence the creature commits is in the name of trying to say something to Victor

meanwhile, indulge in rage. aka you know what, I'll just be mad. madness is the out-group created by the violence that it takes for sanity to exist as the in-group that opposes it. to the sane, anything can look like madness and rage as long as it's unlikable. Victor closes every possible door for the creature that he deems as unlikable to enter the company of the sane, the company of normalcy, the company of oppressors, and Guillermo del Toro, master of turning monsters into friends of the oppressed instead, responds like hey what if I need to belong to the sane and the normal and the likable to find my will to live again. I will be ugly and mad and I will enjoy life anyway

[heartsickspider]

i love guillermo del toro so much because having a grown man incessantly drink milk to represent his mommy issues has to be one of the funniest ways of doing that ever.

[medusas-daughter]

The Creature calling itself Viktor and following Viktor around is so much more tragic when you know how babies develop and how newborns don't yet realise they and their mothers are two separate people. And one of the first things babies realise about themselves is that they're a whole separate person. And one of the first things they do when they start developing as a person is find out they have hands and play with them and with textures and start exploring. And when they want to start talking, they put their hands and fingers on their parents lips and throats to figure out how that sound is coming out of there and then they start imitating. Guillermo Del Toro nailed every single step of human development in such a beautiful celebration of life.

And Viktor abused the crap out of the poor creature for not being smart enough when it was only following natural developmental milestones. Because, like most men, like his own father, he wanted to create life but he wasn't interested in raising it beyond that and instead wanted it to be born a doctor ready to show the world how smart Viktor is for creating a carbon copy of his brain except in a stronger immortal body. Elizabeth gave him five minutes of love and let him explore how sounds come out of her mouth and he started talking.

Idk why some people are complaining about the movie being different from the book when the essence is literally the same, Viktor created life as if it were a godly feat and not something women have been doing since the dawn of humanity, and then he abandoned that life as deadbeat dads do. And that abandonment is what created a monster out of an innocent souls who could have become a beautiful being had it been nurtured. That's literally what Mary Shelley wrote. She would have been proud of this story. On top of being an incredibly gorgeous visual story, the narrative is very loyal to the point Shelley wanted to make.

[bangchansrose]

never kill yourself because who knows if guillermo del toro will make a film that stares straight into your soul and says "i see you, i understand you, and the cycle of violence can end" and you will leave a theater sobbing with hope

[ahomelesscloud]

just finished watching frankenstein 2025 and i’m reminded how much i was willing to adopt and mother the OG frankenstein and would give him all the love and kindness he deserved to feel and show him that the world doesn’t necessarily have to be cruel.

I JUST WANT HIM TO KNOW LOVE AND BE HAPPY BECAUSE HE WAS LITERALLY A BABY WHO NEEDED A HUG AND BE TOLD THAT EVERYTHING WOULD BE OKAY

[ormundshightower]

Frankenstein (2025) dir. Guillermo del Toro