aimlesslythings

Hi human! I am a little girl living abroad with her everyday rants. If you have any concerns, you can reach me here: https://aimlesslythings.tumblr.com/ask

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Anong nangyari?

Ang simple lang naman ng buhay pero bakit nagiging komplikado? Dahil ba malawak ang isip ng tao? O sadyang hindi lang talaga nakukuntento? Galit. Ingit. Pait. Puot. Salot. Ano pa ba?

Bakit hindi maging masaya?

Ako lang ba o pati ikaw? Pati rin ba sila?

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Hi. Ako si bata. Twenty three years old. Walang trabaho, nasa isang banyagang lugar. Saktong gulo lang ang buhay kasi alam ko may mas magulo pang buhay kesa sa buhay ko. At hanggat nasa mundong ibabaw ako, maswerte ako. So sino ako para magreklamo?

Hindi ko alam kung kumplekado ba talaga ang buhay ko o ako lang ang gumagawa ng dahilan para maging kumplekado. 

Gusto kong may marating sa buhay pero parang may pumipigil sakin. Katamaran ko ba o takot? Hindi ko din alam. 

Nalilito ako ano ba dapat una kong gawin, alam ko naman na ang buhay ay hindi isang karera, pero bakit ang iba mas nahahangad ang mga bagay na pinapangarap ko lamang? Dahil ba hindi sila takot katulad ko? O dahil meron sila nung isang bagay na wala ako? 

Aminin mo man o hindi, malaking bagay ang salapi. Pero kung paghihirapan mo, makakamit mo. 

Hindi ako matalino, hindi rin ako matiyaga pero may pangarap ako. Gusto kong tuparin pero may mas may kailangan ng tulong ko. 

Gusto kong may magbago pero hindi ko alam paano sisimulan. Paano nga ba umabante kahit hindi mo tanaw ang iyong nasa harapan?

Hindi rin ako magaling kung saan man kaya siguro hindi ko rin alam saan ako magpopokus. Ibang bagay ang palaging inuuna, parating gusto masaya.

Masaya naman ako, palaging gustong maging masaya. Pero bakit ganun, unti umting nawawala yung ningning saking mga mata?

Inuuna kasiyahan ng iba kahit ako’y hirap na hirap na. 

Sana Iyong magabayan kasi ako ay litong lito na. 

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Lisan

Kung ‘di rin ako kayang panindigan

Pwede bang ikaw ay lumisan?

Kasi puso’y hindi mapigilan

Kapag ikaw ay nariyan.

Pwede bang ako’y bitiwan,

Kasi sabi mo hindi na katulad ng dati ang nararamdaman.

Wag na sana akong paasahin,

Na sa dulo’y ako pa din ay iyong hihintayin.

Kung nagdadalawang isip na ang puso mo,

Bukas naman ang aking pinto.

Pwede ka nang lumisan, maari pa ring bumalik

Pero sa oras na ako’y natauhan,

Baka wala ka nang balikan

Kaya sana pag-ingatan

Ang puso kong sayo pa rin nakalaan.

Hanggat pangalan mo pa ang naka-ukit, ingatan mo naman.

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YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND

If you want to keep your girlfriend just simply DO NOT DO ANYTHING THAT MAKES HER FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE!!! 

Prioritize her feelings not yours. Take care of her! If you feel like its a burden for you to do those simple things for her, think twice! Maybe you are not really into her. Don’t be too selfish, if you don’t have real feelings for her, at least give her the chance to find her TRUE prince charming that would do everything for her to make her smile, making sure that she is always wearing the smile that you refuse to give her. 

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HI PEOPLE WHERE CAN I SEE MY DRAFT POSTS?

Kindly message me asap! Thanks! :-)

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Hi

It is not my first time to use this…Tumblr. I used to blog ten years ago haha when it was all hype back then, we have different tastes and ways to express ourselves here. And I’m glad I experienced that era. I don’t know if the Tumblr community I knew back then was still here but I bet they all left and focus on what’s trending nowadays… “vlogging”.

But today, I want to go back. I want to release this baggage inside me that I’ve been carrying for the past years. It’s good if you have friends around you that are whole-heartedly listen to your stories… but, I feel like I always seek to them and I feel like I am starting to burden them with my stories that seems repetitive.

I am not good in writing/blogging. I JUST WANT TO EXPRESS MYSELF.

WELCOME BACK, SELF.

CHEERS!

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Who me?

HI!

A brief introduction about myself for my very first post. 

22 year old girl from the Philippines trying her fortune to work abroad. Eldest in the family, bread winner y’all!

I have a boyfriend, we are currently in a long distance relationship surviving! 

Little ray of sunshine to my friends but deep inside I feel empty and lost. 

A dependent girl trying to be independent.

I love to see people laugh. I love to make people laugh.

searching and building how to love myself.