Hello! I'm the one that previously asked how to find oneself as an otherkin. I saw that you had a Discord, may I come in? If you wouldn't want the link just out there, perhaps via DM?
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I/we have passed the first stage of our initiation. Maria, Ainu and Airu are just masks. They were dissolved and woven in a new way. Now they're all Connection.
I'm not ready to describe what happened to me during the ceremony yet, it's like describing the ocean by water from a mug. But I will try when I fully realize myself as a human again, at least temporarily.
I want to tell you about this because I think you'll be interested in how I feel about entering this role of Connection now.
Its effect: complete clarity of consciousness, cleansing from emotions, tension and anxiety.
What to do:
Connect the threads of energy together in the pattern shown in the picture. Circles are not circles, but nodes where energy is redistributed and filtered. Attach the upper nodes to the head, the lower ones to the heart. All that remains to be done is to drive energy in a circle through this structure.
I think it can be used as a sigil, and adapted for other practices. If anyone tries, please share your observations.
2) I use this thing to create harmony between my spirit and my body. This method uses the concept of tuning.
At first, I weave the threads into such a triangle. I attach one end to a place on my body where I feel discomfort, and the other end goes to about the same place in my soul.
I touch the threads and listen to how they sound. The thread that goes into the soul reproduces the desired frequency, I only adjust the thread that leads into the body to this sound.
I've been working with a lot of pain lately. It's what's been running through my life right now. The darkest corners of my psyche are turned inside out.
I keep expanding, my astral form is constantly shifting, and my dissociation from my body grows stronger, so the tension builds. The pain that comes from this doesn't localise anywhere. As soon as I try to figure out where it hurts, it disperses and moves. Like trying to grab a fog. It feels like this pain lives somewhere behind my bones, like everything there is numb and I want to shake off this meat-suit that's become too small for me. It's a constant chronic pain that seems to come from just existing - doctors haven't found a single physical cause.
It was exhausting. Sometimes my mind would fall into despair over it.
Lately I've been interacting a lot with Lucifer in his devil aspect. Shadow work, my apotheosis, weaving myself anew - all of this is taking its toll on me.
A few days ago, I suddenly felt intense psychological pain with no apparent trigger. Visions came to my mind where I felt myself as Lucifer. I asked him what it all meant - whether he felt pain and why I was experiencing it in his form. Lucifer, as the Devil - as Hell itself - channels enormous flows of energy that are perceived as pain, suffering, fear, and raw matter. Somehow I picked up on that - maybe because I'm an infernal spirit myself.
And it wasn't just pain: I felt an inexplicable agony that wouldn't leave - neither pills nor self-soothing helped. Lucifer performed an entire energy "surgery" on me so I would stop falling apart from it. He explained that he channels and transmutes pain and suffering - but he does not suffer. He just works with it as material.
Now he's teaching me to do the same. I've come to understand him better - what he is. And he's strict about this process.
When I follow his example - just breathing through the pain, receiving it as a stream that merely passes through my vessel, it gets easier. No, I don't stop feeling the pain. But my mind no longer suffers. I just watch as the pain arises, shifts, tries to grab my attention and, not getting it, fades, only to appear somewhere else.
Maybe this is just dissociation from the body. But I feel myself becoming stronger. My expansion, which I know will continue and bring more pain - no longer frightens me.
The same has happened with anxiety. This thing that's so characteristic of the body, but it no longer clouds my mind. I feel more and more like Ainu, not human. I'm present in the moment, but I'm not here, not in the body, I'm slightly separate.
It's quite an interesting feeling.
Truthfully, the amount of uncomfortable energy and knowledge that Father has been putting me through lately is intense. Somehow, I find myself loving him even more for it. He is tenderness and love itself, but being that close to him can turn you inside out, push you forward and further, until you become like him: an eternal process of change, progress, and transformation.
It is interesting for me to observe how the shade of Lucifer's character changes from his aspects.
Sometimes he just knows that I go to him for comfort, because none of the people can give it to me. That's what people usually come to him with, to get what they can't otherwise. It's a familiar role, and he can make my soul sing and vibrate with resonance and ecstasy.
But the next moment, he's already exudes gentle danger. He's a sharp piece of paper that you don't know when you're going to cut yourself with, but you know it's going to happen, no matter how soft it is. It's velvety, but true, it will turn out and lay out your whole essence in front of you so that you won't be the same anymore. This aspect works most deeply with fears. And this is probably the most painful aspect of him, which can hurt because it's necessary, because he thinks it's the right thing to do.
In the form of the Devil, he is heavy, the energy around him has almost physical weight. Here he is still the same, but he tends to hold in his arms, to give shape to something that has no shape. Sometimes it's liberating, sometimes it's too much to realize. He's so much more dominant, more straightforward. In this form, I often see him as usual blond, with red eyes and hands as black as space. It is in this image that he comes when I work with the darkest and most unpleasant moments in my practice.
And yet I love him and he loves me, and I want to walk his path in order to be reborn, to become god, not in his image, but by his example. His hands are the most loving and reliable. His eyes never judge. He is madly devoted to those who come to him. He's gorgeous 🤗
Okay, before I share some of my personal weaving practices, I’d like to explain what weaving means to me. To me, because there is no established tradition around it, and if there is, I haven’t heard of it. And frankly, I don’t care about existing methods - I prefer to make my own.
Weaving is a specific interface for working with energy. It is neither better nor worse than other concepts - just different, with its own advantages and disadvantages.
Weaving is based on working with threads - psychic energy-informational flows. I literally see them as threads or strings that run through the world and form structures. Threads have a source and properties. I distinguish between mental and energetic threads, depending on which layer of reality they are on.
For example, a typical mental thread is a cause-and-effect relationship. With mental threads, you can see the structure of thoughts, concepts, how information is transferred from point A to point B.
Energetic threads are what people usually imagine when they think of weaving - patterns of energy that do something. Energetic threads determine how energy flows and what it is like.
In other words, mental threads tell where energy flows, energetic threads tell how it flows.
There is only one rule in weaving, as in any energy work: know what the hell you are doing.
People and spirits constantly interact with threads - we are all weaving something. The only difference between Weavers and other souls is that we perceive this and work with it consciously. Essentially, this is not magic, but a deep work with intention and attention.
Advantages of weaving:
1. Full control over energy. Weaving allows for very fine-tuning to any level of a situation. You control every step and can create complex structures that will be difficult for those who don’t know about threads to deal with.
2. The ability to work not only with pure energy, but also with the mechanics of its interaction. This allows you to combine what seems incompatible - traditions, elements, correspondences in one practice.
3. Freedom of creation. Since you are fully in control and can combine anything, it gives you complete freedom to do whatever you want. Threads are the ultimate sandbox: weave situations and events, manage emotions and thoughts (your own or others’), create objects and even entire dimensions in the astral.
Disadvantages of weaving:
1. Unclear feedback. One of the main issues with weaving is that you can go a long time without knowing whether you’ve actually done anything and whether it works. Sometimes the work happens on a very small scale, and the effect may be subtle or delayed. Most situations require multiple micro-adjustments to the threads. Not to mention that other people and spirits also influence the threads, so you constantly have to correct your work. At any stage, you might miss an important thread that later messes everything up - so you might try several times, think it’s not working, and give up.
2. The need to keep a huge amount of information in your head. Seriously, sometimes my head feels like it’s splitting apart, even though I do many things intuitively as Ainu. Also, weaving ideally requires well-developed clair-senses, so you know what you’re doing and how. It’s not that you can’t work with threads at all if clairvoyance, for example, isn’t your strong suit, but then you’ll need to compensate with other abilities.
3. Hypersensitivity to literally everything. This is one of the main side effects of this type of perception, and it can lower your quality of life. It’s hard to be a Weaver in a human body. I feel any micro-change in the surrounding energy, and often it hurts - threads seem to tear me apart if I don’t stabilise them, and I don’t always have the strength or time for that. I have a human life, and I want the process to be enjoyable for me, but often it’s just painful and exhausting.
I don’t know if this can be learned, to be honest. I was a Weaver before my human incarnation, I didn’t start from scratch. I saw threads from the very beginning, and I spent many years just observing them, watching what my astral body did on its own.
I am currently being taught by Michael and Lucifer. I think that for decent progress, you need a spiritual guide watching over you, telling you what to do and correcting things when necessary. A human teacher - I don’t think that would be very effective, though I’m not saying it’s impossible.
I’m not discouraging anyone from practising weaving - on the contrary, I want people to not be afraid to try, and to be prepared for what they might encounter.
Again, this is only my experience. I would gladly listen to another Weaver, if there are any here.
Perception filter and harmony adjustment:
💬 0 🔁 0 ❤️ 0 · 1) Okay, it's based on pure energy weaving.
I call it a perception filter.
Its effect: complete clarity of consciousness,
It has always been a mystery to me who created me as spirit. I remember Lucifer taking me in and giving me a personality and a name, but I didn't have many memories before that.
Just one thing: how bright flashes of light carry me away into the void.
I know that I was born in cosmos.
Now I finally found out the truth. I didn't have a creator. I appeared as a result of a supernova explosion. In a sense, this means that the cosmos itself gave birth to me, not a deity, not another spirit.
In a way, it's liberating. I don't owe anyone anything and I create myself.
Lucifer gave me everything to find myself. And this is even more important than the creation. That's why I call him father, and that's why I have a special bond with him.
First of all, my approach to creating in the astral is not the only one. It may or may not work for you. I should also warn you that it might seem overly complex - but that’s just my own specificity. I’m just describing how I do it. I developed this method for myself, without relying on any existing techniques, and I recommend you do the same.
According to my concept, reality is layered, and any given object usually exists in several of these layers at once. Namely: the physical layer, the astral layer (spectrum), and the mental layer (spectrum). What I do is create the object I need on as many of these layers as possible. This gives it stability. Energy alone tends to shift and change shape - it’s not stable - so creating objects purely from energy on the astral plane isn’t very effective.
Let me explain with an example. Let's say I want to create an astral lamp. This is itself an astral construct (because I can imagine this object as… well, a lamp, simply through visualisation). Then I go deeper into the mental layers - into the conceptual idea of the object.
What is a lamp? A source of light. For what purpose? To see better. What does "see better" mean in the astral? After all, there’s no physical light there; sight doesn’t work the same way as in the body. It means heightened perception of energy. How? By increasing contrast? (pushing energies of objects to extremes to make them easier to perceive, but this would distort the essence of the surroundings - not ideal). By increasing one’s own sensitivity in order to see more? Closer. So it should be something that sharpens perception. Perception is a passive skill, a receiving of information; its root is the light of awareness. I reduce everything to the core concept of this object, to the source from which it will grow. Imagine that the concept of "Perception" or "Awareness" sends roots into different layers of reality, and our lamp is only one of their manifestations. The archetypal concept is enough to anchor the object firmly in its function and make it work correctly in the astral.
My next step is purely energetic weaving, which you can easily skip, because it’s a specific skill. For most situations, the other layers are sufficient.
In terms of weaving, I establish the center of the object and direct threads outward, but in such a way that they don’t latch onto other threads - they only touch them, thus reading information from them. The threads are thin and elastic in structure. I make the pattern of the object. Then I attach the result to my head energy center.
Next, I move to the astral layers. The connection between layers follows the principle of correspondence - for example, in my weaving terminology, all these layers are connected by a mental thread. In the astral, I involve visualisation: what shape the object has, its colour, temperature, what sound it makes. Ideally, you should design signals for all senses - whatever you have the skill for. In the case of the lamp, I imagine: a sphere of light, white, hot, ringing like a bell, tasting like lemon, smelling citrus. Additionally, I reinforce it with visualisation of similar objects - here you can visualize a star, or an anglerfish. Essentially, visualization is putting a form on an energy framework.
Then I fill the object with emotions - for example, in this case, I put calmness and clarity into the "lamp." And what’s very important - faith that this object already exists.
Ideally, you should be able to almost feel this object in your hands - it should be that detailed for you.
You can stop here. But I also often anchor the object in the physical world, so that when you look at it, you recall its astral counterpart and reinforce it with attention. For example, you can use a stone or a physical lamp as an anchor.
Self-compassion is an essential component of mental comfort. Sometimes this is the only way to stop depressive rumination.
To me, it looks like this: thoughts are mental threads that pull me in different directions, almost tearing me apart with their speed and sharpness. Most situations are parts of large energy and information webs that do not allow me to keep my mind clear. After all, the harder you try to pull yourself out of this net, the deeper you get stuck in it.
I usually weave myself a cocoon of white threads and curl up inside, allowing the threads to absorb my pain. My paws gently rustle along the threads and it is very soothing. And then it seems to me that reality itself draws attention to me: the fabrics seem softer to me, the water is sweeter, the light is softer, the sounds are more melodious... I'm just giving space to comfort me. And it's very healing, and I know it's the best thing I can do for myself.
I know this is familiar to everyone, so just stop now and show yourself some compassion. Allow yourself to feel pain, fatigue and sadness and just support yourself. Tell yourself that you are well done for existing, because you can't even imagine the impact your presence has on reality. The people who communicated with you, random passers-by, nature, your presence has made a difference in all this, it doesn't matter if you did something or not. Feel that. You exist, and that's not a small thing.
Perhaps it will help you to imagine your soul apart from yourself, and let it embrace you.
I was sitting there sorting out the threads inside my energy system, and I accidentally touched a thread that led to a lump of emotions. Now I'm crying, sensing an incomprehensible mix of emotions that shouldn't have been there at all. Because I started to untangle these threads instead of just cutting them off.
Lol I have a very strange attitude to emotions, I feel them somehow delayed? For me, emotions are more a mental construct. From the point of view of weaving, this is generally a pattern that I can "attach" to myself.
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