i need another reason

tell me to breathe 

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pcnumbral:

He flinched just slightly when the tone was raised by at him, staring in stunned confusion for just a moment before gritting his teeth. No. He wasn’t going to stay here.

He couldn’t make him.

The teenager suddenly lunged forward and grabbed the man’s arm with both hands, digging in sharp nails as hard as he could.

a sharp yelp, and he’s trying to pull himself back . and yet there’s nothing to be done , it only digs the nails in worse letting them tug and rip at not quite tender skin. itd sure as hell be tender now, though. ‘ what the fuck? ! ‘ his voice is hysterical and shrill , free hand coming to try and remove the offending nails , desperation doing nothing to help his condition.

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pcnumbral:

“It was a fucking accident!” He had swore before; not much, but he had. But he hadn’t ever raised his voice to Stewart or anyone in the time he’d been here. 

The eruption reverberated off the walls, undoubtedly heard in the nearby apartments.

His fists were shaking and he braced his feet against the floor before he raised a hand, this time to point a sharp index finger at the man.

“But you can’t keep me here! You don’t tell me what to do!”

‘if it was a fucking accident what’s the problem in returning it? !’ his voice was just as raised as zenix’s , frustration building. he hadn’t expected the teen to behave like a toddler, but there they were. and there he was. behaving like a toddler that didn’t want to go to time out. it was too bad, that, because that was what zenix was going to be treated like. a child.

‘yes i can. and yes i will. you’re going to stay here , and you’re going to stop throwing a damn temper tantrum.’

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pcnumbral:

“No.” It was said with such surety, it seemed he truly believe what he was saying. He no longer sounded like a fussy child complaining about being grounded.

He didn’t pout of fold his arms with his denial, only kept his fists stiff at his sides, as if he was ready to throw a punch at any given moment. He looked furious, a harsh contrast on his features in comparison to the normally calm look.

“You can’t keep me here.”

twiddled thumbs gave way to clenched fists at the teen’s words. before it had been a matter of being mean , being too harsh , being too forceful for a smaller infraction . zenix’s response however , had given stewart a complete turn in outlook . he really hadn’t believed that he did anything wrong, did he? a grimace turned into a solid frown, eyes narrowed.

‘zenix. i want you to take a second and think very carefully before your next response. you’re acting like you were going to get away with theft. a crime. and getting mad at me for there being consequences. why are you acting like you’re fucking five.’

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@pcnumbral

“What?” The tone was one he hadn’t used when talking to the man before, a mixture of disbelief and offense with growing anger at the statement.

Something about him suddenly felt very off, a presence around him unlike any other in the time he had been living here.

Fingers bent in towards the palms in talons, he clenched his fists, shoulders bristling in alarm and his eyes were wide.

“You can’t tell me what to do,” he hissed.

“Zenix.” his tone was harsh, and he could barely hold back a wince. he hadn’t wished to be that serious , but it wasn’t as if the teen could be forgiven so easily. theft wasn’t becoming , and he was supposed to have left it behind.  twiddled thumbs were in stark contrast to the firm look on his face , revealing how confident he felt about the decision. not very. but it was going to have to happen if anything was to continue. 

‘you’re living in my place. you’re not leaving for a week, and you’re going over and giving it back.

[pcnumbral]

my names zzenix and i like to eat shit

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zenix i thought we talked about not doing that in publuc

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fuck off old man

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im not that old fucker

[pcnumbral]

my names zzenix and i like to eat shit

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zenix i thought we talked about not doing that in publuc

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anyway hi i think its been established im not really gonna get the ball rolling here ever really without extensive plotting so if you actually want to see me do something you can find me @frekiyla and eventually i might remake my cassim but that’s where i’ll be until then 

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@bassled its him

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like this for a mobile banner?

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( stew voice ) hi i’m stewart and this is jackass where i feel like garbage daily and only hope that through my suffering someone else will have a better day than me

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did u know that the world does not deserve @shikuchi or @bassled at all?? weird huh we are Stil graced with their presence

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like this post to END ME PERMANENTLY 

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THE RULES ARE SIMPLE.

post TEN characters you’d like to roleplay as, have roleplayed as, and might bring back, then tag ten people to do the same.  ( If you can’t think of ten characters, just write down however many you can and tag the same amount of people. )

PLEASE REPOST INSTEAD OF REBLOGGING.

currently rping as:

cassim | aladdin and the king of thieves

henry | firewatch

garroth mo’reave | minecraft diaries

jonathan joestar | jojo’s bizarre adventure

nicholas amberdane | oc

aurelius luris | oc

have rped as ( only canons bc i dont feel like remembering ocs lmao ):

maxie ( oras ) | pokemon

heatran ( gijinka ) | pokemon 

joseph joestar | jojo’s bizarre adventure

considering:

torbjorn lindholm | overwatch

prince naveen | princess and the frog 

beowulf | skullgirls

duke of detroit | motorcity

tagging:

@pcnumbral @adminolli @playsvulgar  @victeux @maliciousveined and whoever hasn’t been tagged / wants to do it

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pcnumbral:

Did it matter? The teen let out a short sigh as he stepped out the door, shoving his hands into the pockets of his jacket.

He didn’t suppose he minded going into a restaurant. He wasn’t quite so embarrassed to be among normal people now that he was a little more than just skin and bones and had clothes that weren’t rags.

“We can go in somewhere.” That would be a new experience for him; he couldn’t say he had ever been able to do that. 

              that made his life slightly easier, though it did mark McDonalds off the list of places to eat. a small loss for being able to get Zenix out of the house. that left.. whatever what was in town. he stuck the keys into the ignition, shrugging over his seatbelt as he waited for Zenix to get in.

             maybe something casual. he audibly hummed, waiting for the click of a seatbelt. ‘ you want to go to hooters, i guess? ‘ that worked.

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' another masterful attempt ends with disaster. ' hey bruuke

dear evan hansen starters.

            the voice gives him chills. the voice he recognized yes, but not from any familiarity of who it belonged to. it was a voice he had heard through tinny recordings, all of which resulted in death of some kind. precision unrivaled, and yet. 

             she was here.

             ‘ it wouldn’t be the first time. ‘ calmness is a facade, the sweat on the back of his neck proof enough of that. she probably knew that anyway, or didn’t care. 

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( ░ ❛ dear evan hansen → the sentence meme

*feel free to change any of the pronouns/names from the quotes to fit your muses. warning a couple of quotes are nsfw

❝ Can we try to have an optimistic outlook, huh? ❞

❝ Can we buck up just enough to see the world won’t fall apart? ❞

❝ Another stumble as I’m reaching for the right thing to say ❞

❝ Anybody maybe happen to know how the hell to do this? ❞

❝ I don’t know if you can tell but this is me just pretending to know ❞

❝ Another masterful attempt ends with disaster ❞

❝ On the outside, always looking in ❞

❝ We start with stars in our eyes. We start believing that we belong ❞

❝ And no one tells you where you went wrong ❞

❝ When you’re falling in a forest and there’s nobody around do you ever really crash, or even make a sound? ❞

❝ We pick a spot and shoot the breeze like buddies do, quoting songs by our favorite bands, telling jokes no one understands. Except us two ❞

❝ Feels like we could go on for forever this way. Two friends on a perfect day ❞

❝ We walk a while and talk about the things we’ll do when we get out of school. Bike the Appalachian trail or write a book or learn to sail? ❞

❝ There’s nothing that we can’t discuss like girls we wish would notice us but never do ❞

❝ There’s nowhere else I’d rather be ❞

❝ We’ve been way too out of touch. Things have been crazy and it sucks that we don’t talk that much ❞

❝ But I should tell you that I think of you each night I rub my nipples and start moaning with delight ❞

❝ I’ve gotta tell you, life without you has been hard ❞

❝ Kinky! ❞

❝ And I miss talking about life and other stuff ❞

❝ I love my parents but each day’s another fight ❞

❝ I’ll take your advice. I’ll try to be more nice, I’ll turn it around. Wait and see ❞

❝ ‘Cause all that it takes is a little reinvention ❞

❝ I’m sending pictures of the most amazing trees ❞

❝ Dude, I’m proud of you just keep pushing through ❞

❝ Our friendship goes beyond your average kind of bond ❞

❝ I could curl up and hide in my room. There in my bed, still sobbing tomorrow, I could give in to all of the gloom ❞

❝ Why should I have a heavy heart? ❞

❝ Why should I start to break in pieces? ❞

❝ Why should I go and fall apart for you? ❞

❝ I gave you the world, you threw it away ❞

❝ ‘Cause when the villains fall, the kingdoms never weep ❞

❝ After all you put me through, don’t say it wasn’t true that you were not the monster that I knew ❞

❝ There’s nothing like your smile, sort of subtle and perfect and real ❞

❝ You never knew how wonderful that smile could make someone feel ❞

❝ But we’re a million worlds apart and I don’t know how I would even start ❞

❝ And he wondered how you learned to dance like all the rest of the world isn’t there ❞

❝ Guys like you and me we’re just the losers who keep waiting to be seen, right? ❞

❝ No one deserves to be forgotten ❞

❝ If you never get around to doing some remarkable thing that doesn’t mean that you’re not worth remembering ❞

❝ No one should flicker out or have any doubt that it matters that they are here ❞

❝ Have you ever felt like nobody was there? Have you ever felt forgotten in the middle of nowhere? Have you ever felt like you could disappear? ❞

❝ ‘Cause when you don’t feel strong enough to stand you can reach out your hand and someone will coming running ❞

❝ There’s a place where we don’t have to feel unknown ❞

❝ I don’t need you to sell me on reasons to want you. I don’t need you to search for the proof that I should ❞

❝ I don’t need more reminders of all that’s been broken. I don’t need you to fix what I’d rather forget ❞

❝ What if it’s you and what if it’s me and what if that’s all that we need it to be and the rest of the world falls away? ❞

❝ But if you really see me if you like me for me and nothing else. Well, that’s all that I’ve wanted for longer that you could possibly know ❞

❝ So you found a place where the grass is greener and you jumped the fence to the other side. Is it good? ❞

❝ Well I hope you’re proud of your big decision. Yeah, I hope it’s all that you want and more ❞

❝ Well I’m sorry you had it rough and I’m sorry I’m not enough. Thank God they rescued you ❞

❝ Does it cross your mind to be slightly sorry? Do you even care that you might be wrong? ❞

❝ Well I hope you had a blast while you dragged me along ❞

❝ And you say what you need to say. And you play who you need to play. And if somebody’s in your way, crush them and leave them behind ❞

❝ All I need is some time to think but the boat is about to sink ❞

❝ So I just stand here sorry, searching for something to say ❞

❝ That’s not a worthy explanation. I know there is none. Nothing can make sense of all these things I’ve done ❞

❝ ‘Cause what if everyone saw? What if everyone knew? Would they like what they saw? Or would they hate it too? ❞

❝ The house felt so big, and I felt so small ❞

❝ And I knew there would be moments that I’d miss. And I knew there would be space I couldn’t fill. And I knew I’d come up short a billion different ways ❞

❝ Dear Evan Hansen,​ today is going to be a good day. And here’s why: because today, today at least you’re you and—that’s enough.​ ❞