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confused but fervid

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look me in the eyes, my fingers on your mandible

your lips are the prettiest carmine, your eyes glazed over with longing, and I wish I could feel, I wish I could kiss you silly.

what a dream it would be, to live in your greatest dreams. your filthiest, your most raw.

what a dream.

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if only

if only I wasn't so so so blinded by comphet that I STILL get imposter syndrome and STILL think that im faking being a lesbian for attention literally every single second of my life.

if only I didnt believe I have to prove that im a lesbian because of course being straight is the default.

if only I could get a girlfriend to somehow prove that my gayness is very much real.

oh my god heteronormativity does so much to you it's insane

[airorphic]

intentionally vague for the sake of my dignity !!

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the song choice does not mean anything unfortunately as i haven't had the chance to dwell in romance

[airorphic]

i really fucking hate people

it's like

okay great you're going to be cleverly horrid and because of how good you're at it, you don't ever have to take accountability

because i'm too fucked up in the heat of the moment to point out what's wrong with you

and it's all so jumbled up that you think i'm the one in the wrong when that's not even half of the truth

i ask myself if this is just me being a spoiled bitch but i don't know because when i'm confused i think i'm a spoiled bitch so maybe i can't take myself seriously

but the thing i hate most about people is how condescending they can be and how they make me feel

most of the time the only person i can really talk to is myself

[airorphic]

my competitiveness is really just a fear of being left behind

or of not being enough in general

[airorphic]

your greatest weapon is your greatest weakness

yes i took this from pinterest

it's also where i turn up my dramatics

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