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while im slowly settling back in, i've finally started the first draft for the part 3 of mr perfectly fine; tho i'm not entirely sure yet if part 3 will be the end of the mini fic series.
i can see that my writing turned rusty so i'll probably try to improve that compared to what i currently have. hopefully i won't take too long with improving because that really ticks me off (towards myself) 😭
BUT! rest assured that mr perfectly fine part 3 will be up soon 💞
haha hey might or might not be active now because im still busy with irl work (when will this enndddddd or at least give me free time im legit working 24/7 not even resting well) anw!!! i'll try to check notifications tomorrow <3 i saw a glimpse of someone sending me a sweet ask and that just made my heart melt...
while im slowly settling back in, i've finally started the first draft for the part 3 of mr perfectly fine; tho i'm not entirely sure yet if part 3 will be the end of the mini fic series.
i can see that my writing turned rusty so i'll probably try to improve that compared to what i currently have. hopefully i won't take too long with improving because that really ticks me off (towards myself) 😭
BUT! rest assured that mr perfectly fine part 3 will be up soon 💞
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Six months later.
It's so beautiful.
Green grass under the warm sun. A fresh breeze stirred the decorative flags that were hung all over the capital Mondstadt. Gothic architecture is still strong and stands as the main attraction of this country. The river that flowed outside the great wall was reflecting the white clouds that extended beneath the azure sky. Those who are busy with their daily activities are surrounded by the scent of dandelions. Little ones are playing and running around.
Mondstadt is so beautiful. Unfortunately, you spend all day sleeping on the soft bed provided in one of the palace rooms for royal guests.
Childe left the room early in the morning for a diplomatic meeting, so the opposite side of the bed has been vacant for a while. You (thought) you managed to persuade Sasha to let you sleep a little longer, but instead she assumed you were sick and immediately asked Laura to find Childe.
“Love?”
Here he is. You pulled the covers over your head, trying to ignore the sound of his approaching footsteps. The end of the bed was pressed down and you guessed he was sitting next to you. Slowly, Childe pulled your covers up to look at you.
"Are you sick? Want me to call a healer?”
You shook your head quickly, "I simply want to sleep a bit longer."
Childe glanced at Sasha who was standing not far from the two of you before turning back to you. "But, angel, you've slept all day, and they said you have to attend a tea party this afternoon. Well, I don't mind if you don't but, are you sure you're alright?” He brushed away the strands of hair covering your face.
"I'll be fine. Just.. give me one more hour of sleep.” You spoke drowsily and then shut your eyes once again.
Childe frowned in worry. "Are you sure? Should I stay? I can tell them I have urgent business and leave the conference—”
"Don't be silly, Ajax." You opened your eyes to glare at him. “Why do I feel you’re trying to make me as an excuse to get out of your responsibilities?”
A laugh from him. “Hey, I was really worried you know.” He says.
"I told you I'm fine. I'm not going to die, at least not now."
"I thought we agreed not to have talks like this again." Childe stares in disappointment and you can't help but laugh.
"Good God, I was just kidding." You cupped his face with one hand. “Stop sulking like a baby. I might actually ask you to stay and cuddle with me."
A smile appeared on his handsome face as he drew closer to you, “Hmm? What's stopping you?"
Meanwhile on the other side of the room, Sasha and the other two were trying hard to deaf their ears to the conversation you both thought was quiet enough for them not to hear. Her eyes darted to the walls of the room as if that was the most interesting thing. At least that will distract her from you and Childe who are too preoccupied with each other to notice anyone else's presence.
A kiss on your lips. “I'll hurry back for you alright? Don't look at other men at the tea party." You almost roll your eyes at his words.
“It’s a tea party only for the ladies.”
"You can never be too careful."
Childe got out of bed and you already started to miss his warmth. He briefly spoke to Sasha, saying that she should immediately call a healer if anything should happen to you. After giving you one more glance (and a wink), he walks to the door to Dmitri outside the room.
A sigh left you before you got up reluctantly asking your maids to prepare warm water for a bath.
One rosewater bath later and you're sitting at the dresser. Laura did your hair, while Ksenia applied your makeup. She patted the powder pad so gently you yawned. Sasha noticed this and stared suspiciously at your reflection in the mirror. You took a deep breath trying to relieve the tiredness in your body.
"We are finished, Your Majesty." Laura and Ksenia said together.
You said a small thank you to them then got up from the chair. Laura opened the door for you, letting you leave the room first. Your three ladies-in-waiting followed behind you on your way to the garden where the tea party was being held.
Warm air hugs you as soon as you step into the palace garden. Butterflies and a few small insects flutter and land on the colorful flowers that grow around you—you almost forget how beautiful they are after living on Snezhnaya for so long. Once more, the wind blows. The sun falls to illuminate your path to the gazebo with a white iron roof where a table spread out with beautiful cloth is located. The sound of your footsteps turned the heads of the Mondstadt nobles, and you smiled at them all.
“Empress (Y/N), good afternoon.” The blonde-haired woman—Countess Jean—carved a thin smile with her polished pink lips.
Some Mondstadt nobles you've never met before welcome you. Jean stood next to them while helping introduce them one by one to you. “This is Lady Fischl, daughter of Duke Verurteilung of Immernachtreich.” A green-eyed blonde bowed politely at you before giving an enthusiastic look.
“Empress! I, Fischl, hast known all kinds regarding thou, especially how they define thy grace and beauty as being comparable to the stars that adorn the welkin at dusk. Wouldst I may add, thy lovely gown caught mine eye and wondered where I might find some one with such stitching talent!”
"Ah? Um..” While trying to figure out what she said, you lifted the hem of your dress slightly. "This was made by a Snezhnayan tailor."
“'tis decided. I shall cross mountains and sail oceans to meet this tailor!"
Jean cleared her throat awkwardly. “Lady Fischl, may I continue?” she asked, earning a nod.
After Countess Jean introduced you to the Mondstadt nobles who were present at the tea party, Princess Ayaka waved enthusiastically. “Princess—! Ah, I mean, Empress! Please sit next to me!” She pointed out the empty chair next to her.
Jean watched as everyone had taken a seat. She then continued, “Since King Diluc doesn't yet have a partner to handle the tea party, I'm the one responsible for this. For that, allow me to present traditional Mondstadt delicacies for overseas guests to taste.” She signaled the maid to put the snacks on the table.
A cake covered with pink cream and fresh raspberries is set in the middle. Lemon buttercream cakes make you smile seeing their small size. You looked around the table as Jean described each dish. The cookies placed in front of Ayaka appeared to be delicious.
What smells like boiled eggs wafts into your nostrils, and you instinctively cover your mouth to hide the nausea that's roiling in your gut. Ayaka immediately got a handkerchief for you. Sasha who is sitting at the table along with other nobles ladies-in-waiting rushes over to you.
“Princess!” Ayaka mistakenly called out from panic.
“Your Majesty! Is something the matter?!”
You were too occupied trying to ease your nausea as you covered your nose with a blue handkerchief to respond to Sasha. Jean orders one of the maids to call a healer. You glance out of the corner of your eye for the source of the pungent scent.
"That.. the smell.. get rid of it, please." You said after finding a loaf of boiled eggs not far from Jean. "I'm sorry but, the smell .."
Jean followed your gaze and nodded quickly. “No need to worry, Empress (Y/N).” He gave the plate of bread to the maid to take away. "The healer will come soon."
A server arrives with a new meal just as your nausea begins to subside. The smell of eggs returned. The handkerchief was tightened over your lips as the shaking of your stomach intensified. Sasha noticed your face beginning to flush and rose up from her kneeling position in front of you to approach Jean.
“Your Excellency, I'd better take Her Majesty to a healer right away. Please accept my apologies for leaving the tea party early.” He says.
“I understand. Please, lead them to the healer's room!”
In response to the blonde's request, one of the maids nodded. Sasha and Ksenia put strong hands on your shoulders helping to support you while stroking your back. Laura pulls out a bottle of fragrance trying to ease your nausea. The long hallway was filled with hurried footsteps on the way to the healing room. After passing through the door, the royal healer immediately tells you to lean on the red velvet couch.
The first thing she did was check your pulse. Her warm fingers touch your skin as she furrows her brows in concentration. She pursed her lips thinly, asking about your monthly cycle—which Sasha answered in detail. You feel awkward knowing she knows about it more than you do.
The healer nodded while retaining an assumed diagnosis. "I already have a suspicion, but I'll need to confirm it again." She dipped her hands in a basin of clean water before turning back to you while making sure her palms were raised; you watched as the water dripped down her elbow. "I must request that you remove your dress, Your Majesty."
Although the examination is uncomfortable, you know that it is necessary for the healer to confirm the diagnosis. After she was done, Sasha helped you put on your clothes again while waiting for the woman to tell you what was wrong.
"There are several reasons besides pregnancy that can affect your late monthly cycle, such as stress or fatigue. However, after I combined that with the nausea caused by the strong smell—the smell of eggs as one of them—and the physical examination just now that revealed enlarged breasts and changes in areola—I can confirm that you are pregnant.”
Laura and Ksenia gasped with joy. Sasha smiled silently. While you are frozen.
The healer's lips curved up, “Congratulations, Empress (Y/N). You are with child.”
Something defines the brilliance of this world's hues. The basin is no fuller than your heart which flows happiness and emotion to every inch of you. The realization that there is another life growing inside your tummy sweetens the air. You want to set your foot on every green meadow here to let them know that you are the happiest human being on earth.
As you covered your mouth to contain your sobs, your hold on the fabric of your dress' grew tighter. Your maids approach you to congratulate you. You couldn't help but extend your arms and hug all three of them. Women celebrating other women's blessings
You wiped your tears, looking at Sasha with a smile.
"Please don't tell him just yet."
Sasha's eyes widen from that, but what she gives you next is a smile—a warm one. You wouldn't have realized she was holding you if it wasn't for the light squeeze she gave; her way of telling you that she will continue to be with you and wants nothing but the best for you and now, your child. Laura and Ksenia congratulated you, saying they would do their best to accompany you on your pregnancy journey.
Aside from the promise made by Sasha, it's another one that makes you smile with blushing cheeks.
In your room, Sasha instructed Ksenia to prepare warm water for a bath while Laura hurried to inform Jean that you were unwell and couldn't continue the tea party. The ball is being held tonight—that's reason enough for Sasha to force you to stay in bed and take plenty of rest.
When they dress you in a mauve dress for the ball, your ladies-in-waiting make sure not to tie the bodice too tightly. Diamonds and gems accessorize your neck, ears and fingers. You try to hold back a smile when you see the door swing open showing Childe ready in his nice suit. He leans against the arm of the couch, blue eyes sweeping across your back carving a thin grin before he meets yours and gives you his usual wink.
"We are done, Your Majesty." Sasha told you.
"Thank you." You got up from your seat, not missing the enthusiastic stares of your ladies-in-waiting.
Childe holds out his hand to receive yours. He squeezed it gently before bringing it to his lips, a chaste kiss you received from him. "Are you sure we shouldn't skip the ball and cuddle the night away?"
“Absolutely. Besides, I heard that Mondstadt has the best wine.” You reasoned that even if you knew full well, there would be no alcohol going down your throat tonight and in the months to come.
"Firewater is still better in my opinion." Childe said, leading you to the door.
The sound of music is heard the second you enter the ballroom. A resounding blend of harp and piano throughout the opulence. Many of the guests had dragged themselves onto the dance floor, their partners clutched tightly in their hands. You and Childe get greetings from several familiar faces, but not a few Mondstadt nobles who you don't recognize have the courage and courtesy to introduce themselves and give a warm welcome.
“Emperor Childe.”
When Childe and you turned around, two men were standing there, one with red hair and the other with dark blue strands. Both of them had long hair, with the only distinction being the height of their ponytails.
“King Diluc.” Your husband holds out his hand for a handshake.
Diluc Ragnvindr. The red-haired King of Mondstadt who reminds you of fire. You wonder if he's hiding a smoldering spirit behind his polite face. He was present in another set of his dapper suit. Unlike at Snezhnaya's recent banquet, he appeared with his long hair pulled up into a higher-than-usual ponytail.
Diluc gave you a brief nod before turning to the man next to him. “Allow me to introduce my brother. This is Duke Kaeya. Perhaps you have not met." He said, making your attention fall on the man wearing an eye patch.
“Ah, right. This is the first time we have met, Duke Kaeya.” Childe shook his hand.
Kaeya painted faint dimples on his tan skin. "It is an honor to meet in person such a wise person as you, the Emperor and Empress of Snezhnaya." He gave Childe a friendly smile, which you swear turned into something else when he swept his dark eyes across you.
Diluc's red eyes widened as he watched Kaeya hold out his hand asking for yours. He didn't have to do this, but he chose to do it. Childe watched as you offered your hand hesitantly. A kiss that was too long for Childe not to think anything of it landed on the back of your hand. Kaeya opened his eyes to look at you accompanied by a smile that had a meaning behind it.
“Welcome to Mond, Empress (Y/N).”
If looks could burn, Kaeya would have already emptied all the drinks in here to quell the fire that was searing him. You swear you heard Childe pulled out a light scoff. Kaeya straightened his back again with an expression close to satisfaction.
“Ahem.”
Diluc made a fake cough noise, but it was more to remind Kaeya to keep his boundaries than to break the uneasy silence between the four of you. "Kaeya is known to be friendly with others, so I hope you don't take it the wrong way, Your Majesties." He says.
Childe laughed dryly. “Does this mean Duke Kaeya is also friendly enough to take me on a little tour around Mond?” His voice is sweet, but you know the intent in it contrasts from that.
"Why, of course, Your Majesty." Kaeya smiled widely and placed his right hand on his left chest. "It would be my pleasure.”
This situation is too heavy. You want nothing more than someone to save you from this and luckily, Diluc has the ability to read that. "If you'll excuse us, we have to greet the other guests." He then turned to the buffet. "Do enjoy your time with banquets and refreshing drinks like grape juice."
“Thank you, Your Majesty.” You said.
Childe and you turned the other way while Diluc and Kaeya started walking toward the other nobles. You take a deep breath before emptying your lungs again.
"I would appreciate it if you would stop picking fights with every man I talk to."
"He was flirting with you." Childe stopped in his tracks.
You hastily put your hand in front of his lips stopping him from letting out a longer protest. "Could you get me a glass of grape juice?" you ask him.
Childe furrowed his brows, "Not wine?" You shake your head.
Although not completely convinced, Childe gives you a kiss on the hand then tells you to stay here. You see his figure walking to the buffet table. His broad shoulders make you smile. You sweep your eyes around to relieve boredom.
Strands of blonde caught your eye. You remember she has longer hair; now it falls a little lower than her earlobes. The woman with gold eyes was spinning in an orange gown, in the arms of a man with nearly the same hair color as her. His eyes could still be seen through the mask that covered the right portion of his face.
The smile on Lumine's face was so wide it radiated happiness.
Footsteps draw your attention to Childe, who is holding a glass of grape juice and another of what you assume is dandelion wine. He handed you one. You stared at the liquid before taking a gulp, feeling the sweet taste on your tongue.
"Do you like it?"
You nodded, "It tastes better than I imagined."
"Wanna bring home ten barrels of it?"
A laugh from you. "One bottle is enough, Ajax." You said.
In the midst of a sea of people, a figure stands out for some reason; you're not sure why; it could be his complex fancy suits, the way he carries himself, the power in his gaze, or the fact that you've known him all your life. You greet your old friend with a smile on your face.
Zhongli made strides towards you with a handsome smile. Under the extravagant chandeliers, amber eyes sparkled beautifully. Childe did not take his blue eyes off his every move.
The man stops right in front of you for a bow, "Your Majesties."
Weird to hear that from him. Even though it had been six months ago Childe had inherited the throne and three months ago Snezhnaya had declared it an imperial state; You think you'll never get used to all this. Let alone one that came out of Zhongli.
"Duke." Childe gave him a smile that didn't reach his eyes.
“Duke Zhongli.” You called him enthusiastically. "It's.. a surprise to find you here."
Zhongli nodded, “His Majesty Emperor Shiva is unable to attend. I've come to represent him at his request.” He says.
“Make sure you do well, Duke.” Childe commented.
Zhongli pretended to be blind by the sharp glare Childe gave him. “I appreciate the concern—
"Who said I was concerned?"
“—but, everything is well.” Zhongli continued despite being interrupted by him.
Your lips were about to part to change the topic to break the pressure between the two when a woman bumped into Zhongli and spilled her glass on him. Her voice is sweet, making you turn to look at her and stop in place.
“O-oh my! I'm so sorry! I was careless and—”
A laugh from Zhongli. "Nothing to worry about. Are you alright?”
Zhongli asked the woman—the woman you saw in your vision. You're completely convinced after casting a glance at the hanfu she's wearing. Zhongli continued to talk to her with a big smile that seemed to be permanently etched on his face.
"This is my first time here, and I've already ruined someone's expensive suit. I'm truly sorry!” The woman kept apologizing to Zhongli.
"As I said, this is nothing, Lady..?"
“Guizhong! My name is Guizhong.”
Guizhong.
Guizhong appeared in front of you with everything that made you believe she would be a good fit for Zhongli. You watched her give him a blue handkerchief. Long fine strands of hair. She's clumsy, but you find that to be cute. You wonder if Zhongli thinks so too. They were lost in their new conversation and every word they exchanged dripped happiness into the depths of your heart.
The promised happy ending had at last arrived.
“Duke Zhongli, Lady Guizhong, “You have their attention.
Guizhong looked at you and then at Childe before bowing deeply in regret. “Goodness! Your Majesties! M-may prosperity and health be bestowed on you! I'm sorry I should have realized sooner." She tightly shut her eyes after hearing your chuckle.
"Please rise. Forgive the interruption but, we'll leave you both to your talk."
Zhongli turned to face Childe who was grinning happily at you. "Now?" he asked.
"Yes." You turned your gaze on the area where people were dancing. “I suddenly want to dance.” You turned to Childe. “Perhaps the Duke can bring Lady Guizhong for one.” You said to Zhongli.
Those amber eyes stared at you in curiosity and confusion. In your heart, there is one thing you want to tell him: that happiness is close to him. But, just as Zhongli and Guizhong gave nods and let you go, you twisted your heels and tightened your grip on Childe's arm.
"That’s scary." Your husband comments.
“What is?”
Childe slowed down as he reached the dance floor. "Your smile. You look like you've planned something and it's working." He put his hand on your waist.
A chuckle escaped your lips. You put your hand on his shoulder, and he starts picking up on the melodic tempo of the music. “If so, will you stop sulking and dance properly?” You see the annoyance reflected on his face again.
"How could I not when nearly every in the room—in all of Tevyat—was trying to flirt with my wife?"
"They were just talking to me, Ajax." you corrected.
“They were flirting with you, angel. Don't try to manipulate my memory."
A sigh comes out a sign you give up arguing with him. Childe took you for a twirl. "You are the most jealous man I have ever known." You then continued, "I can't imagine how you'd react when the other one showed up."
The frown in the middle of his brow deepened before his limbs came to a complete stop. He gave you a dumbfounded look. “Wait, what are you—” His expression now full of hurt. "—you're.. you have another man?" He spoke with trembling, and you stifled a laugh in the guilt that you were covering up.
"Well," Your hand tried to lead him to dance again but, Childe refused to move his feet before you answered him. "After all, I'm still not sure if it'll be a boy or a girl, right?"
Confusion hit him like a tsunami even though his betrayed expression was still there. “A boy or a girl? What kind of nonsense are you playing—”
“I’m pregnant.”
The words died suddenly on the tip of his tongue. Childe stared at you with wide blue eyes. The blood seemed to be drained from his face before returning to fill his cheeks.
For him, the world came to a halt for a brief minute. His brain stopped functioning. His ears suddenly went deaf leaving your voice and those words repeating over and over in his head. His mouth gaped open. His heart was pounding inside his ribs pumping out the feelings he was still digesting. Then a tsunami of happiness washed over him, so overwhelming that his lips curved and he sobbed as he took you in his arms.
It was one moment he wished could stay forever. Even so, Childe—Ajax, is aware that there will be more happy things in the future. With you, with now—his unborn baby. At the same time, Childe felt and desired a lot.
In the middle of the melodies that flowed from a combination of piano and harp, you hugged him even tighter. He is the luckiest man in the world. His heart felt like it was wrapped in satin and moonlight. You laugh, but it's his chest that warms. What a dream this is, and God has the generosity to make it not end up as one. Perhaps He knows: happiness should come in the form of a really sweet fruit for two human beings who have suffered for a long time.
Childe gave you a smile before laying a kiss on your lips. He didn't mind if he had attracted everyone's attention as a result. The music could stop but, he wouldn't with this. He placed another one, still not caring if people would label him unethical.
“I,”—he kissed you again—“love,”—another one—“you.” He said in between kisses.
You both left the ballroom early that evening. The moonlight filtering in through the opened window illuminates the bed where you lie down for a cuddle. The wind of Mondstadt's capital is finally appreciated the next day in the lush meadows.
"Please be born healthy." Childe speaks to your still unnoticeable pregnant belly before giving it a small kiss.
The blue sky stretches above the white clouds. He held your hand as you walked down the grassy path. The gurgling waterfall sounded faint. Dandelion blooms swayed and then scattered into the air. On a wooden chair with a view of a statue in the center of a lake, the two of you decide to take a break.
"I wonder how Shiva will react to this." You start the conversation.
Childe's shoulders shook as he laughed. "He will definitely kill me. For impregnating my wife." You join in the louder laugh.
There was a silence before you lifted your head from his shoulder to say, "About that grape juice.." Childe looked at you curiously. "I don't think ten barrels will be enough."
Childe carved a smile. The two of you returned to enjoy the sight ahead.
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1. Because Of You - Lana Del Rey.
↳ i fell in love with the lyrics. and like usual, queen never disappoint!
2. All I Wanted - Paramore.
↳ OKAY THIS DOESNT NEED EXPLANATION. the song itself is majestic. only @i0veless know i used this song for the kylian fic trailer i made lol. (it will never be posted guys that fic was a flop)
3. My Man - Glee Cast ver.
↳ OKAY SO my bff made an edit of Kylian, FOR ME, in this song. and i just.. i kept repeating it over and over. the lyric is representing me tbh especially the “Oh, my man, I love him so, he'll never know” part
3. Cancer - My Chemical Romance.
↳ do i have to say it? we all know why.
4. Don’t Make Me Wait - Sabrina Claudio.
↳ again, do i have to say it??? tbh sabrina claudio is a queen and she’s an icon who deserves more recognition!! her songs are amazing, so perfect. pls listen to this. i swear it boost my confidence. it’s super beautiful
5. One of These Nights - Red Velvet (piano ver).
↳ OKKKKKKKKKK I LOVE THE PIANO VER. SO PRETTY SO SAD. this song did so much justice to their vocals. LOVE IT<3
tagging: @hanilessa @ajaxstar @wannshang and anyone who wants to join<3<3
— no explanation. stan ateez. ok but limitless just released and i bet thats the next song i'll be listening to for DAYS, WEEKS, MONTHS, IDK! but halazia (deja vu, wonderland, and thanxx)??? it got me.
track 02: last dance / one ok rock
— this song has always been one of my favorites ever since its release. theres nothing to say, just— perfection.
track 03: illicit affairs / taylor swift
— im THIS close to making a fic inspired by this song, but im trying to finish mr perfectly fine and the proposal hcs before i write for this— or not! depends, really.
track 04: mama / my chemical romance
— ehe.
track 05: break my heart again / finneas
— it kills my heart in such a good way (it doesnt)
꩜ tags — @genshin-impact-writings @laireste @wannshang @seakicker + anyone who wants to join in!
The types of immortal lovers they are in your every reincarnation
Ft. Dainsleif, Scaramouche, Zhongli
Dainsleif:
The one who pursues you in every lifetime
The most painful part of each century was watching you succumb to your feeble mortality as you withered away before him
But it was never enough closure for him to give up on you
So he searched for you every time you left him, all alone in the forsaken world he roamed
And every time, he'd find you, approaching you with that same longing hesitance
Be it as a friend or lover, he was there for you in every lifetime, because to him, there was no one else
He's always been patient, after all
Ever your loyal knight, he stays true to his chivalry until the very end
You in all your lives will never know peril or anguish from the moment you're within his reach
You look exhausted, he thinks. Yet even that does nothing to dull your appeal to him. He still thinks you're worth every risk, and every sacrifice.
"No matter how far you may be, I will find you. And I will return to you, whether you recall me enough to miss me or not, for only by your side may my heart rest at ease. Such is my yearning for you, and thus for you am I this hopeless, lovesick fool."
Scaramouche:
The one you keep bumping into, so much so that it has to be fate
He's crafty, and he knows better than to press for your affection lest he end up pushing you away
So he waits
He always finds you because of course he does, he's drawn to you, inexplicably, helplessly, and unconsciously
Yet every time, he plays the waiting game, slowly inserting himself into your life
He knows he has to appear in your dreams by this point, every encounter feeling like deja vu to you
Inevitably, you find yourself attached
He worms his way into your life as though he was always meant to be there
And frankly, you believe he is
Scara feels nothing but contentment as he strokes your hair, knowing his schemes had succeeded once again in pulling you to him. He seems too perfect to be real, so familiar with your preferences, so ideally catered to your type that it's hard to believe he's yours.
"Would you believe me if I said I exist for you?" he murmurs, kissing the top of your head. "The sun knows no splendour like your smile, and the oceans know no torrent like the warring storms you wage in my soul. So believe me, even if only in this moment, as the stars align in your grace and freeze my breath with the chill if the night air. Let my tongue feel heavy like lead unless it is to whisper sweet adoration to you...and may you trust in it, that I only speak my truth."
Zhongli:
The one you always end up falling with in the end
There is not a doubt in his mind that you are the only one for him
Yet he could never quite bring himself to say the same for you
If he thought you'd live a happier life without him, he's more than ready to support you from the shadows without you even knowing he existed
Even if it meant seeing you with someone else
But at the end of the day, there's only so much he can manage to do without your knowledge
From the moment your eyes meet, he knows he's done for; he's falling in an endless spiral and can't bring himself to let you go
"Please, be happy," he whispers to you with his hands on your shoulders, his gaze beseeching you. With a ghost of a kiss on your forehead - one you're not even sure made contact - he disappears.
Just like that you're left to ponder if he was a mirage. Yet the memory of him feels too real, his image in your mind's eye far too vivid, even in memories you swear you've never experienced, but are undeniably yours.
"I'll await your return," he says in your memory. "And I will continue to cherish the thought of you then, to crave your phantom touches until you replace them with your presence."
