I’ve never been this broke before. This is the first time that I couldn’t get a job and I don’t know why. Before, I was the one who would choose which company I’d like to work with, after qualifying for the jobs I had applied. But after quitting my job months ago, I still can’t get a job despite applying at 3-4 companies. There were times I ask myself, “What the hell is wrong with me?” At times, I think that I’m incompetent since I’ve been rejected a few times. But looking back at the feedback my supervisors have given me over the years, I think my being jobless is not because of my incompetence. Even at the last moment, the school’s Academic Chairperson (who happened to be my immediate supervisor for 4 years), had nothing to say but praises. Like how my students have improved over the years, how I “tamed” the stage mothers, how I impressed the hard parents, and so on and so forth. When I visited the school last week, she asked me if I want a teaching job. Maybe she wants me back? Lol! So, I think, perhaps, probably, I’m not as incompetent as I think I am. Some people told me that it was my fault for leaving a stable job. Was it really my fault for leaving because I wasn’t happy anymore? Did I really make a wrong decision again? Well, I don’t regret leaving. Had I stayed, I would’ve regretted more. But still, why am I not getting a job? I’m quite confident that I have passed their written grammar and comprehension tests (the quizzes and exams I gave my students were much harder than their tests), but they would still say nah. Well, despite not having definite answers, I have arrived to a conclusion that maybe, I’m really made for the teaching job? BPO job maybe isn’t right for me? But something’s strange. I thought I’d be depressed after getting rejected again, but I’m actually okay. I thought I’d cry, but I didn’t. I thought I would need to pretend but I am not pretending. I’m quite shocked that I’m not down right now. I’m still normal, right? 😂 (I know the ideas aren’t well-organized. Well, I just kind of want to forget being an English teacher right now. Lol!)
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