Paradoxical Me.

Two People In One Two people in one, one happy, one sad, Two sides of me, one mad and one glad. There's only one side I try to let show; my feelings inside the others don't know. I'm two people in one, as strange as that sounds, the real me inside no one has found.

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“One small crack doesn’t mean you’re broken. It means you were put to the test and you didn’t fall apart.”

— Linda Poindexter

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Hey blog, you turn 9 the other day and I just want to post this because I remember when I just wanna rant about something and this blog used to be my outlet. I remember all the good cry I had whenever I'm blogging here. I love you forever. ❤️

[akosishebop]

Hi, new love!

First I want to say sorry these past few weeks of being hard on you. Maybe I'm still scared, scared because I know I've fallen in love with you, that I often think of my future with you but at the same time I have a doubt that what if history repeats itself? I'm so fucked up, I'm so afraid that I'm pushing you away.

Secondly I wanna say thank you, for being kind, patient and positive, the more I'm getting to know the real you, the more that I love you and I'm always missing you though I don't say or show it enough.

Lastly, I'm beyond grateful for knowing you and I'll see you soon.

I love you chavs ko.

🎶 Pipiliin ka sa araw-araw. 🎶

[akosishebop]

Random

It's been 6 days since I deactivated my Facebook account.

It was a random decision since a lot has been going on lately and I'm kinda busy at work too. I checked my Instagram account and Twitter account, just so I know the latest buzz.

I'm having positive reaction towards my social media detox.

I will be back for sure but not in the coming days. I'm quite enjoying this.

[akosishebop]

Note to self. 2019.

Don't give up now.

This is not a punishment but merely a blessing.

Just imagine, it'll hurt you more if you discover about the cheating later. You could've spent thousands of Dirhams (take note, not Peso but Dirhams) for someone who couldn't keep his dick in his pants. Shebop, you don't deserve the lying and the cheating. You deserve to be loved just as much or even more than the love that you always selflessly give the person.

Keep your head in the game. Learn to love yourself more, the people who matters will stay. Attract good people, always be positive. Always pray and trust God's perfect time.

Time to change your priorities. Time to totally turn your life for the better. It's never too late. Gain back that self respect that you thought you lose. Let go of the hurt.

Heal silently. Don't use other people to move on.

Pray. Always Pray. He still listens to you. He still cares about you and He will never forsake you.

All of this happened because He loves you so much that He didn't want you to get hurt and to be with someone who's not worthy of you. You are His child. Only He knows the desires of your 💓.

Be patient and keep the Faith.

[akosishebop]

Sana napasaya kita.

Binuo kita pero ako ang winasak mo.

Noong una kitang nakilala, alam ko na sa sarili ko na parang gusto kitang maging kaibigan, that wouldn't be so hard since we have a lot of common friends at yun na nga lumilipas ang mga araw na nararamdaman kong nagkaka laman na.

Yung pag hanga at pag a alala ko sayo eh iba na. I know what you've been through, we're almost at the same boat at yun na nga. Ayoko na maka kita ng tao na nasasaktan then it occur to me na why not? Why not love you the way that you deserve to? And I fall fast, you're not hard to love, you know that. You're funny and charming, talented, smart and compassionate.

But then there's no perfect relationship right? We have our share of that. Long distance, miscommunication, no communication at all, my hormones, your moods but at the end of the day I'm always hopeful that we can surpass that.

I'm always telling myself that we're not getting any younger, you got hurt, and if you really love me you wouldn't dare do the same thing to me.

Pero lately nag iba. Oo napapansin ko na, pinipilit mo nalang itago, o hinihintay mong ako ang bumitaw para less guilt trip, para mas mai sisi mo sa akin na ako ang bumitaw eh, na wala naman talaga kayong ginagawa. Pero wala nga ba?

Nag message ako sa kanya, na alam kong mababasa mo rin. Anong sagot sa mga tanong ko? I'm just tired of the lies. Naiingayan na ako. Kung kayo, edi kayo.

Yes, this is me stepping back. This is me letting you go. Choose who makes you happy now and don't worry about me.

Remember the first time we chat yan ang sinabi mo? Sana napasaya mo ako, well you did and thank you for that. Maybe we'll meet each other someday or maybe we won't.

Gusto ko lang din ibalik sayo yung sinabi mo. "Sana napasaya kita."

[akosishebop]

Happy 8th Birthday ❤️

My blog turns 8. Wow.

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Wala na, finish na.

[akosishebop]

A new beginning. 😊

[akosishebop]

Bang! Nasapul mo Mr. Amari Soul. #ReflectionsofaMan

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😍 #langleav #soulmates #lullaby

[akosishebop]

You turn me into somebody loved. @shihtzuash I love you. 😘 Happy Birthday. 🎂

[akosishebop]

🎶 and the feeling that I'm falling further in love makes me shiver but in a good way. 🎶 🎵'Cause he's all that I see and he's all that I need and I'm out of my league once again. 🎵

[akosishebop]

Let the countdown begin. 💪😊#leggo #ICANDOIT #staypositive #ParaSaEkonomiya

[akosishebop]

Well, well, well...

[akosishebop]

'Cause when you crave for it, you crave for it you know? Hahaha 😂🍕 #foodporn #foodgasm #Pizza #papajohns #busogmuch (at Papa John's Pizza, Alain Mall)

[akosishebop]

Wag kang parang palaman! 😊