[akuroi]

ꕥ    𝐀𝐊𝐔𝐑𝐎𝐈  . . .   is  an  independent  &  selective  depiction  of  SAYURI  TAMASHIRO,  a  fandomless,  horror-based  𝗢𝗥𝗜𝗚𝗜𝗡𝗔𝗟  𝗖𝗛𝗔𝗥𝗔𝗖𝗧𝗘𝗥,  thriving  across  verses  through  tragedy,  cunning,  and  ambition.  imagined  viscerally  by  𝙡𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩,  28,  she/her  (CET)  !   since  ²⁰²⁰,  formerly  gorekissed.

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𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐋𝐄𝐃  𝐈𝐍  𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐈𝐅𝐔𝐋  𝐂𝐑𝐈𝐌𝐄𝐒  𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇...      flybcll    &    spydcddy    &    hanabashira  +  blogroll    &    whimscult  +  blogroll.

𝑨   𝑫𝑨𝑹𝑲   𝑯𝑶𝑴𝑨𝑮𝑬   𝑻𝑶   𝑻𝑯𝑬   𝑳𝑰𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑨𝑹𝒀   𝑨𝑹𝑪𝑯𝑬𝑻𝒀𝑷𝑬𝑺   𝑶𝑭     :      girlhood   caught   in   the   jaws   of   monstrosity,   the   mind   adapts,   the   heart   calcifies,   all   one   can   do   is   live   as   they   endure   loss,   a   kiss   as   the   prelude   to   ruin,   the   untamed   essence   of   womanhood,   the   delicate   threshold   where   life   bleeds   into   death   &   feminine   wrath,   delicate   as   a   dagger   and   sharp   as   its   edge.

[akuroi]

whatever they told you , it’s a lie . / from kana !

⁎⁺˳ ✧༚ ˎˊ˗     જ⁀➴        𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐃𝐔𝐒𝐓𝐘  𝐓𝐎𝐘𝐁𝐎𝐗  𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒         𝒇𝒕.        @cursechakra

𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍  𝐎𝐅  𝐖𝐄𝐋𝐋-𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐃  𝐃𝐄𝐂𝐄𝐈𝐓  𝐂𝐎𝐀𝐗𝐄𝐃  𝐀  𝐁𝐑𝐎𝐖  𝐔𝐏𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐃,  𝐈𝐓𝐒  𝐀𝐑𝐂𝐇  𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘𝐈𝐍𝐆  𝐀  𝐅𝐋𝐈𝐂𝐊𝐄𝐑  𝐎𝐅  𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐃𝐔𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘     —     as  though  the  most  shameless  of  tricksters  could  scarcely  believe  she  might  find  herself  on  the  receiving  end  of  dishonesty. 

❝   A  lie?   ❞  The  word  tasted  bitter  on  her  tongue,  like  it  had  suddenly  lost  all  its  usual  appeal.  She  wouldn’t  fall  for  one,  would  she?  Yet  one  thing  seemed  indisputably  true:  someone  here  was  trying  to  play  her  for  a  gullible  fool. 

❝   That’s  convenient  coming  from  someone  trying  to  save  their  own  neck.  Got  any  proof,  merc?  Or  am  I  supposed  to  take  your  word  for  it?   ❞  

[limitshatter]

❝ oh? seems like i touched a nerve there. ❞ the tone in his voice indicates, clearly, that he is not convinced. he points with his thumb toward the smoldering remains of the former grade one curse, and the slight pit in the ground from his exchange with it. the corner of his mouth twitches into a smirk.

❝ if you don't care . . . why does it matter how i took that thing out? was it . . . dangerous? was it . . . risky? did it make you sweat a little? were you worried? sounds like caring to me. ❞

[akuroi]

𝐅𝐎𝐑  𝐀  𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐈𝐅𝐔𝐋,  𝐅𝐋𝐄𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆  𝐌𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓,  𝐒𝐀𝐘𝐔𝐑𝐈  𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐔𝐋𝐆𝐄𝐃  𝐈𝐍  𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐅𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐒𝐘  𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓  𝐇𝐄,  𝐓𝐎𝐎,  𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃  𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄  𝐁𝐄𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐄  𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓  𝐎𝐅  𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐒𝐌𝐎𝐋𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆  𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐄𝐒...  but  like  all  dreams,  this  one,  too,  had  to  end  all  too  swiftly. 

❝   You  really  do  love  the  sound  of  your  own  voice,  don’t  you?   ❞  A  click  of  her  tongue  punctuated  the  sound  of  her  irritation;  its  fiery  embers  stoked  further  with  every  pestering  question.  ❝   Have  you  ever  considered  using  that  blindfold  as  a  muzzle  instead?  Let  me.   ❞  

[akuroi]

⁎⁺˳ ✧༚ ˎˊ˗     જ⁀➴        continued  from  here         𝒇𝒕.        @abseance

𝐀 𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐓𝐘 𝐇𝐔𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑’𝐒 𝐀𝐈𝐋𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐒... 𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐆. My hopes for some admission of a dark and twisted nature were extinguished as swiftly as a flame caught in the rain, leaving nothing but the residue of disappointment in their wake     —     a fact I hardly bothered to conceal, from the furrow of my brows to the subtle downturn of my mouth.  

❝   Well, you know what they say.   ❞  I eventually granted Akikō the honor of a half-hearted response, my tone still thoroughly unimpressed as my self-appointed persecutor attempted to appeal to whatever ounce of empathy she must have imagined me capable of harboring.  ❝   Choose your career wisely.   ❞  

Not that I knew much about careers, nor cared for the human self-flagellation of lifelong labor. I’d only ever observed it from an outsider’s perspective, peering into the bustling lives of blue-collar workers and office employees much like a curious child studying an ant farm     —     with just enough inherent sadism to find entertainment in the endless circling of lesser creatures.  

I did not envy them, nor did I find within myself any inclination toward pity. Would a fox feel sorry for a hare trapped in a prison of its own making? Or would it simply sit and await its inevitable exhaustion, patient and treacherous in equal measure? 

Akikō, however, wasn’t quite like the usual hare steering helplessly toward its own demise. She was skilled and determined, clever enough to own some measure of my reluctant respect. An enigma on two feet: healer and executioner alike, both saving grace and harbinger of justice.  

Yet at the same time, she remained human: a pitiful existence bound by limitations and weaknesses, trapped within a body that betrayed her, despite being honed for the hunt.  

Admittedly, it thrilled me to witness her lose ground against her own instincts: to catch the subtle rise of her pulse whenever my gaze lingered a touch too knowingly upon her, to watch her lower her guard around me despite every reason not to.  

It left me complacent to a degree most would describe as arrogant, possibly even obnoxious. In my current state, however, it would have been exhausting to play my usual cards of charm and wit in hopes of appeal: she, who ought to have known so much better by now, made it almost obligingly easy. 

It brought a grin to my lips, genuine despite the weight of exhaustion draped over my increasingly frail shoulders. Fatigue weighed behind my eyes like lead, softening the edges of my features as delirium beckoned sweetly, like a distant siren’s song.  

❝   I did think about it.   ❞  Truthfully, I had thought of little else since Akikō’s unusual offer; her words had managed to turn my thoughts into an endless procession of opportunities and advantages.  ❝   And it’s safe to say I’m... intrigued. But...   ❞  

Despite the weariness seeping through every fiber of my being, a spark of mischief found its way into my calculating gaze: a hint of devilish intent that drew me closer, nearer, as I shifted forward in my seat until I was looking up at her through narrowed eyes, foxlike and intent.  ❝   If I’m going to say yes, you’ll have to give me something first. A reassurance, so to speak. An exchange.   ❞  

I tilted my head ever so slightly; a loose strand of once-pristine hair brushed against my temple and cheek in the process.  ❝   After all, Akikō... trust is such a difficult thing to come by.   ❞  

[mmariesr]

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[noctalaethra]

ㅤㅤ. ݁₊ ⊹ .𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָ𐀔 ݁ ㅤ 「ㅤ@akuroiㅤ」ㅤㅤpresented a perspective: ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ ⤷ㅤ“Do you know what love is? I'll tell you: it is whatever you can still betray.”

Something shifts softly beyond the window pannelsㅤㅤ────ㅤㅤrain,ㅤor the wings of a butterfly that quietly passes,ㅤthrough darkened corridors.ㅤThe silence follows feels heavier than the world suspended surrounding them;ㅤbetrayal is a language that those that understand may be quarrelsome with loyalty at the edges drenching it too much,ㅤto wish to embrace the previous state.ㅤThe cruelest of things about love is it's ability to force change.ㅤㅤ❛❛ㅤㅤThat's a terrible cynical definition.ㅤI think reducing love only to its capacity for betrayal gives pain far too much authority over it.ㅤㅤ❜❜ㅤㅤThe other believes it completely,ㅤpeople do not tend to arrive at beliefs like that without being able to survive something sharp to carve it there permanently.ㅤThere's truth within it and the pinkette does not dare to pull the thread away unraveling what's beneath it,ㅤbetrayal only matters when affection has lingered first and strangers cannot wound one another in quite the same way.ㅤ

A pause ensues,ㅤthe bridge becomes too thick between one and another.ㅤㅤ❛❛ㅤㅤGiving someone the tools and the opportunity to be wounded in such manner and the other does not dare to cross such line is why what you've spoken can or cannot be true.ㅤAnyone can stay while things are beautiful.ㅤLove reveals itself in the moments where cruelty and betrayal would be easier.ㅤ❜❜ㅤㅤThere's an exhale.ㅤSome may call it obsession,ㅤsome may call it hope among despair.ㅤShe has seen both sides of the coin;ㅤa tale of light and darkness,ㅤwhere the darker tones aren't usually meddled with the light.ㅤA faint breath exhales,ㅤalmost tired,ㅤalmost thoughtful.ㅤㅤ❛❛ㅤㅤPerhaps people who have been hurt too often stop believing those choices are possible at all.ㅤㅤ❜❜ㅤㅤ

[akuroi]

𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄  𝐖𝐀𝐒  𝐀𝐋𝐖𝐀𝐘𝐒  𝐀  𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐃  𝐖𝐀𝐘  𝐀  𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘  𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐃,  𝐀𝐍𝐃  𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐆𝐔𝐈𝐃𝐈𝐍𝐆  𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐃  𝐎𝐅  𝐅𝐀𝐓𝐄  𝐖𝐀𝐒  𝐑𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐘  𝐀  𝐁𝐄𝐍𝐄𝐕𝐎𝐋𝐄𝐍𝐓  𝐎𝐍𝐄.  As  inevitable  as  a  flame  turning  to  ash  and  even  the  brightest  day  giving  way  to  night,  so  too  was  love  little  more  than  a  fleeting  joy  in  a  transient  world:  something  to  be  held  and  cherished  for  only  a  limited  time  before  its  absence  arrived,  hollow  and  cruel. 

❝   Is  it  really?  Or  is  it  simply  a  realistic  approach  to  something  so  fickle?   ❞  Without  a  doubt,  Sayuri  felt  justified  in  her  inherent  pessimism;  unflinching  before  the  fact  that  she  let  negativity  dictate  the  course  of  her  life.  It  was  better  to  be  safe  than  sorry,  after  all     —     of  that  the  ravenette  remained  convinced  with  every  lonesome  step  taken.  

To  trust  another  to  the  point  of  blind  devotion,  to  lay  oneself  bare  in  utmost  vulnerability,  was  a  notion  fundamentally  paradoxical  to  the  very  essence  of  her  being.  There  was  something  inherently  ugly  about  being  truly  seen,  subjected  to  the  unrelenting  gaze  of  another.  Sayuri,  for  one,  much  preferred  the  familiar  comfort  of  remaining  unknowable. 

❝   The  smartest  people  have  been  turned  into  fools  by  love  alone.   ❞  Indeed,  affection  was  a  precarious  thing:  capable  of  nurturing  when  given  freely,  eager  to  unravel  when  taken  away.  

❝   I’d  rather  not  become  another  cautionary  tale  proving  that  feelings  are  humanity’s  greatest  weakness.   ❞  

[akuroi]

i know i fucked up , you can stop rubbing it in . / from nobara !

⁎⁺˳ ✧༚ ˎˊ˗     જ⁀➴        𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐃𝐔𝐒𝐓𝐘  𝐓𝐎𝐘𝐁𝐎𝐗  𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒         𝒇𝒕.        @cursechakra

𝐇𝐀𝐃  𝐍𝐎𝐁𝐀𝐑𝐀  𝐇𝐎𝐏𝐄𝐃  𝐓𝐎  𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐄𝐀𝐋  𝐓𝐎  𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐎𝐋𝐃𝐄𝐑  𝐖𝐎𝐌𝐀𝐍’𝐒  𝐌𝐄𝐑𝐂𝐘,  she  must  have  tragically  miscalculated  the  amount  of  empathy  Sayuri  truly  harbored:  if  anything,  she  seemed  infuriatingly  amused  by  the  girl’s  mishap.  

❝   But  what  would  you  learn  from  it  if  I  wasn’t  there  to  remind  you?   ❞  Enough,  most  likely     —     yet  Sayuri  rarely  shied  away  from  shameless  excuses  flimsily  veiled  beneath  the  guise  of  ‘logic’.  There  was  nothing  wrong  with  a  little  harmless  fun,  so  her  personal  justification...  so  long  as  she  wasn’t  the  one  suffering  for  it.  

❝   Cheer  up,  buttercup.  The  world  won’t  end  over  it.   ❞  Somehow,  it  never  did.  

[akuroi]

can you keep a secret?

⁎⁺˳ ✧༚ ˎˊ˗     જ⁀➴        𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐃𝐔𝐒𝐓𝐘  𝐓𝐎𝐘𝐁𝐎𝐗  𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒         𝒇𝒕.        @abseance

𝐀 𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓?     𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐒𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐄 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃 𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐒𝐔𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐂𝐄𝐃 𝐓𝐎 𝐂𝐎𝐀𝐗 𝐌𝐘 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃 𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐎 𝐀 𝐒𝐔𝐁𝐓𝐋𝐄 𝐓𝐈𝐋𝐓, 𝐌𝐔𝐂𝐇 𝐀𝐊𝐈𝐍 𝐓𝐎 𝐀 𝐂𝐔𝐑𝐈𝐎𝐔𝐒 𝐂𝐀𝐓     —     the same inherent obstinacy the driving force of most of my actions. 

Could I keep one? Most certainly not.      Yet the thrill of the unknown, the prospect of another’s barest truths shared with me in a moment of unexpected camaraderie, pulled a brief nod from me nonetheless. What this wondrous mystery could be, my mind was already swift to imagine in broad strokes painted by fantasy’s brush: something dark and twisted, like most of my own unshared stories, or perhaps something simply unexpected coming from the woman before me? 

❝   Go ahead,   ❞  I tried to prompt the other into offering such an intimately private glimpse into her life, her very being; the corners of my mouth already twitching with the sardonic amusement I was so prone to finding in situations like this.  ❝   I won’t tell a soul. I promise.   ❞  

A lie,     sweet-lilted and as fake as most of my outward appearances     —     for the simple price of some minor benefit, I’d sell out anyone’s secrets without batting an eye. 

But that wasn’t Akikō’s concern just yet. 

[spydcddy]

                    ❛i got tired of waiting.❜ the car service was running at a crawl, having called it in a half an hour ago. no need for standing around, otherwise dinner reservations would be handed off to the next hungry customer. an exquisite meal for two after a relatively challenging assignment, was about to go up in smoke. pulling around the corner ── the engine to his bike purrs, ready to take to the strip. brought with him only for emergencies. but this is their best chance at saving their spot. ❛get on before i change my mind.❜ he ordains beneath his helmet. there is an extra one available for situations like these.  ⭒✮ ゜ •̤ ⸜ ⭒ mission assigned for @akuroi !⭒

[akuroi]

𝐀𝐍  𝐔𝐍𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐄𝐄𝐍  𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐍  𝐎𝐅  𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐒,  𝐒𝐀𝐘𝐔𝐑𝐈  𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐄𝐍𝐄𝐃  𝐓𝐎  𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄  𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄  𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒  𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆  𝐖𝐀𝐒  𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐈𝐍𝐆  𝐅𝐀𝐑  𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐄  𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐍  𝐒𝐇𝐄  𝐇𝐀𝐃  𝐈𝐍𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐘  𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐈𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐃     —     a  penchant  for  improvisation  being  something  that  she  not  only  cherished,  but  positively  relished  when  it  came  hand  in  hand  with  the  thrilling  rush  of  adrenaline.  

❝   I  didn’t  take  you  for  the  spontaneous  type,   ❞  her  assessment  rang  remarkably  close  to  a  thinly  veiled  compliment.  The  true  essence  of  life,  as  she  perceived  it,  lay  all  too  often  in  the  unexpected. 

And  so  she  didn’t  need  to  be  told  twice;  slipping  onto  the  purring  vehicle  just  behind  him,  she  mourned  her  once-pristine  hair  in  quietude  as  she  complied  with  standard  safety  measures  before  sliding  her  arms  around  his  waist     —     her  voice,  still  oh-so-velvety.  ❝   Consider  me...  intrigued.   ❞  

[harleyridin]

As  I’ll  be  away  at  a  convention  with  my  bestest  and  dearest  friend  from  Friday  until  Monday,  I  won’t  be  around  much  for  the  next  few  days.

I’ll  try  to  queue  some  things  beforehand,  but  aside  from  the  occasional  lurking  I’ll  be  booked  and  busy.  Have  a  good  one!

[witchsatelier]

@akuroi sayuri said   ›   “ you don't look like much of a threat to me. ” prompt.

" a threat ... to you? ahem. " qifrey clears their throat, hand curling into a fist to cover his mouth. perhaps this was the— no this was the preferable outcome. it is better to be underestimated than to be known, expected, overestimated. still, in their opinion, anybody was a threat regardless of ... look. ( he will still remember this, should it become necessary to become a threat. ) " i do try not to look like one. it's very unbecoming of someone with my profession. " he peppers in a laugh, batting the hand across his face. he wonders, though, what brings them to gauge a threat so quickly. " i wonder though what made that thought come about ... was it something i said? "

[akuroi]

𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐎𝐑𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐈𝐁𝐋𝐄  𝐓𝐎  𝐀  𝐅𝐀𝐔𝐋𝐓,  𝐒𝐀𝐘𝐔𝐑𝐈  𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃  𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐎𝐑𝐓  𝐓𝐎  𝐀𝐍𝐘𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆  𝐁𝐄𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐄  𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐎𝐖𝐈𝐍𝐆  𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍  𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐅𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐒𝐓  𝐆𝐋𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐒𝐄  𝐁𝐄𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐃  𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐕𝐄𝐈𝐋  𝐎𝐅  𝐌𝐘𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐘  𝐒𝐇𝐄  𝐒𝐎  𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐔𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐋𝐘  𝐒𝐇𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐃𝐄𝐃  𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅  𝐈𝐍     —     the  admission  of  overt  caution  that  bordered  on  outright  paranoia  one  that  rang  true,  though  concealed  behind  lips  curled  with  sardonic  intent. 

❝   Not  at  all.   ❞  At  least  that  much  was  truthful;  frankly,  Qifrey’s  words  needn’t  stir  her  mistrust,  for  it  had  long  since  taken  root  already     —     her  lifelong  companion.  ❝   I  just  like  knowing  who  I  have  in  front  of  me.   ❞  

Friend  or  foe...  the  lines  had  irreversibly  blurred  for  someone  convinced  the  world  lingered  at  her  heels  with  teeth  bared,  who  believed  every  soul  sworn  to  ill  intent  and  malice  in  light  of  her  deep-rooted  pessimism.  ❝   And  people  who  work  too  hard  to  appear  harmless  are  usually  the  worst  ones.   ❞  

[ohisms]

↪     ᵗʰᵉ 𝑫𝑼𝑺𝑻𝒀 𝑻𝑶𝒀𝑩𝑶𝑿 .    (  a  collection  of  various unsorted sentence starters .  adjust  phrasing  as  necessary .   no longer updating .  )

why are you here ?

drive .  drive fast .

i think we should make an informed decision .

are you coming or not ?

you’ve been avoiding me .

[ name ] ,  what were you thinking ?

this should be your priority .

let me hold you for a minute .

get out of my way .  i won’t tell you again .

that wasn’t supposed to happen .

can you keep a secret ?

i don’t know what i did to deserve you .

you seriously think i could’ve done something like that ?

you’re safe with me .

sorry isn’t good enough .

where is all this coming from ?

who told you about that ?

sorry i’m late ,  i got caught up .

you’re being paranoid .

why are you looking at me like that ?

you’re the single most important thing to me .

all i’m asking is that you hear me out .

whatever they told you ,  it’s a lie .

we shouldn’t stick around here .

hold my hand ,  i don’t want to lose track of you .

[ name ]  …  truth or dare ?

i love you .  nothing’s gonna change that .

can you tell me what happened ?

you can’t come around here anymore .

back off ,  okay ?

what ,  you don’t have time for me anymore ?

you’re asking for too much .

i’m trying to start a new life .

what do you mean ,  you aren’t coming back ?

sometimes i think you must hate me .

why can’t we just talk about this ?

i know i fucked up ,  you can stop rubbing it in .

you’ve got quite a reputation .

i’m not usually like this ,  i’m sorry .

please ,  just let me explain myself .

i love watching you work .

we’re on the same team .

did you ever tell anyone ?

you’ve got a lot of explaining to do .

really funny ,  you’re very mature .

you call THAT a PLAN ?

can we get out of here ?

i thought things would be different .

this is not up for debate !

do whatever you have to do .

karma’s going to get you for that .

it could’ve been a lot worse .

i asked you to leave me out of this .

maybe it’s time to take a leap of faith .

i never want to see you again .

can you see how many fingers i’m holding up ?

i’m gonna be there when you get what’s coming to you .

you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me .

i’ve been waiting all night for this .

i told you not to contact me .

sometimes i really think you have a death wish .

what do you need ?  —  what can i do ?

i would do literally anything to keep you safe .

that was supposed to be a secret .

you haven’t called me that in years .

stop telling me to calm down !

we make a pretty good team .

i have so much i want to say to you .

i’m not going to let anyone hurt you .

can we please not do this right now ? 

wait ,  wait  …  just breathe for a second .

how are you holding up ?

why don’t you stay the night ?  i’ll take the couch .

i don’t need your protection !

you’re not making this easier on yourself .

are you going to let me in ?

i’m supposed to be protecting you .

i will kill you if i have to .

do whatever you have to do .

this is going to hurt ,  i’m sorry .

what happened to you ,  where have you been ?!

there was nothing you could’ve done .

you’re all i need right now .

i don’t believe in love at first sight .

have you been following me ?

i need you to believe me .

what do you remember ?

i’m not a good person .

what the hell’s going on with you ?

you’re being followed .

just when i thought my day couldn’t be any worse .

i’ve been having weird dreams .

so you’ve been lying to me this whole time ?

are you trying to get us killed ?

this is the worst thing that’s ever happened to me .

i never asked for your help .

you’re being followed ,  pretend you know me .

why has it started to feel different with you ?

don’t worry ,  i have a plan .

i heard everything .

do you need to sit down ?

i have the right to know what’s going on .

i’ve just gotta catch my breath .

stay out of my business .

what did you think was going to happen ?!

don’t cause a scene .

tell me something about you that i don’t know .

can i buy you a drink ?

what if  …  we played spin the bottle ?

this was never a problem until  [ name ]  came around .

you can’t ask me to make that choice .

are you seeing anyone right now ?

i need you to listen to me ,  we don’t have long .

you’re lying ,  that doesn’t make any sense .

you look  …  stunning .

what are you trying to prove ?

who died and made you the boss of me ?

you can’t just show up here like this .

let me make it up to you .

there’s no way i’m leaving you like this .

can we stay like this ?  just for a little longer .

i don’t need you to fight for me .

so  …  you lied to me ?

you’re the only one that can help me .

i can’t help you if you won’t let me .

i never introduced myself ,  i’m [ name ] .

i expected more from you .

you have no idea who i am ,  do you ?

are you real ?  is this real ?

can i stay with you ?  just for the night .

you’re going to get yourself killed .

why did you help me ?

tell me what i can do to help .

pick a card ,  any card .

i never wanted any of this .

i love you .   you don’t have to say it back .

do you wanna get out of here ?

what the hell are you talking about ?

i should have trusted you .

get your head out of the clouds .

how is any of this MY fault ?!

what aren’t you telling me ?

i can’t help you if you won’t let me .

it’s never just one with you ,  is it ?

you’re not supposed to know about that .

shut your mouth .

i haven’t kissed you yet ,  today .

where is this coming from ?

come over here and make me ,  then .

keep lying to yourself ,  see where it gets you .

i’m not a bad person .

is that what you wanted to hear ?

we can’t be seen together .

i can’t give you what you want .

i need you to leave .

are you drunk ?

i’m here ,  i’m here .  i’m not going anywhere .

you might want to take a seat for this .

have you been listening to anything i’ve said ?

i haven’t heard from you in weeks .

you’re jealous ,  aren’t you ?

who do you think you’re talking to ?

what are you reading ?

you could’ve killed me !

come on ,  we don’t have time for this .

i just need ten minutes of silence .

really ?  that’s all you have to say ?

we could leave ,  you know .  go far away .

you don’t look too good .

i never want to see you again .

why can’t you just leave me alone ?

i thought you died .

you’ll do anything for attention .

give me another chance .

how’s the weather up there ?

all you do is hurt people !

i’m sorry ,  none of this makes sense .

you need to get out of here before anyone sees you .

i told you i didn’t want you around here .

is that supposed to be a threat ?

you’ve changed .

don’t look at me like that .

it’s a beautiful day ,  don’t you think ?

i did what i had to do .

you never know when to stop .

i’ve got to get home ,  it’s getting late .

i have nothing to prove to you .

stop LYING to me  …  all you do is lie .

you don’t have to be nice to everybody .

don’t tell me what to do .

pull your head out of the past .

nobody can help me .  i can’t even help me .

we are not talking about that right now .

are you new around here ?

you have no idea what you’re starting .

i’m gonna get us out of here .

whatever you came here to say ,  i don’t want to hear it .

everyone’s staring at us .

is there anything i can do to help ?

i won’t cause you any more trouble .

– just follow my instructions for once !

do you want to come in ?

i just didn’t know what to do .

you need rest ,  lie down .

i’m not who you think i am .

i don’t know what you want me to say .

you’re not like anyone else i’ve ever met .

i feel like i’m going insane .

stop asking ,  you’re not going to like my answer .

i didn’t want you to see me any differently .

i wish i knew what to say to you .

don’t give me that look ,  you know what i mean .

you should be afraid .

do you still love me ?

i never thought i’d get this far .

the world doesn’t revolve around you .

i need you to give me some space .

i know what you’re doing ,  don’t play games .

you left me to die .

i’m beyond repentance .

when are you going to get it through your head ?

i missed you more than i thought i would .

i’m in love with you .

what do you need from me ?

i’ll kill them ,   just say the word .

[ name ] ,   what are you doing here ?

how can i help ?

you’re pathetic .

i need you to come pick me up .

where have you been ?  it’s eleven o’clock .

i couldn’t live with myself if i let you get hurt .

i can’t just pretend it didn’t happen .

you’re a real piece of work .

do you remember how we first met ?

when did all of this fall apart ?

that’s not what i came here for .

i would do anything for you .

i don’t need you to hold my hand through this .

are you sure this is the right thing to do ?

can’t we try to pretend things are okay ?

what is THAT supposed to mean ?

you’re always late ,  what am i supposed to think ?

there’s nothing you can do to fix this .

you’re far too kind to me .

can we go now ?  like ,  right now ?

i have to do this alone .

where’s your common sense ?

we aren’t supposed to be in here .

can you feel my heartbeat ?

i think i’ve seen you around before .

why are you acting weird ?

i have a really bad feeling .

i hate seeing you like this .

how am i supposed to react to that ?

what do you want most in the world ?

[akuroi]

“  yeah,  i’ll be here.  i’ll be here when you’re ready to stop running.  ” (From Kirika!)

⁎⁺˳ ✧༚ ˎˊ˗     જ⁀➴        𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐒𝐓  𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒         𝒇𝒕.        @heartbloomd

𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓  𝐀𝐍  𝐔𝐍𝐄𝐗𝐏𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐃  𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐓𝐎𝐑,  𝐓𝐇𝐄  𝐅𝐋𝐔𝐒𝐇  𝐄𝐀𝐆𝐄𝐑  𝐓𝐎  𝐒𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃  𝐀𝐂𝐑𝐎𝐒𝐒  𝐇𝐄𝐑  𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐄𝐊𝐒     —     the  evidence  of  shame  that  blossomed  to  lend  her  usual  fair  complexion  some  color.  It  was  rare  for  Sayuri  to  feel  cornered,  least  of  all  by  words  spoken  with  such  sincerity...  yet  something  about  Kirika’s  earnest  approach  filled  her  with  an  unbidden  awareness  of  her  own  cowardice.  

Hostage  to  a  past  whose  claws  she  could  never  quite  shake  loose,  she  knew  of  the  unspoken  truth  behind  the  other’s  words:  slipping  away  from  her  feelings,  time  and  time  again,  had  become  Sayuri’s  most  fervently  practiced  kind  of game.  

And  so  the  ravenette  merely  lowered  her  head     —     for  once,  no  insolent  remark  perched  upon  her  lips.  Instead  came  the  reluctant  murmur  of  gratitude: 

❝   ...Thank  you.   ❞  

[thepastisneverdead1966]

characters who are deeply flawed and insufferable and written in a way that’s so unlikeable they become likeable, I love you. my poor little comedic traumatised meow meow who’s also a piece of shit.

[akuroi]

“ i feel like i’m one bad day away from becoming everything i’ve fought against. ” miss jjk verse?

⁎⁺˳ ✧༚ ˎˊ˗     જ⁀➴        𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐒𝐓  𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒         𝒇𝒕.        @deathleads

𝐀𝐒  𝐒𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐎𝐍𝐄  𝐖𝐇𝐎  𝐇𝐀𝐃  𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐆  𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐄  𝐂𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐃  𝐓𝐎  𝐇𝐄𝐑  𝐁𝐀𝐒𝐄𝐑  𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐓𝐒,  leading  a  life  detached  from  conventional  perceptions  of  right  and  wrong,  Sayuri  could  merely  huff  at  the  notion.  Humorless  and  dry,  the  sound  slipped  past  her  lips  like  a  twisted  imitation  of  genuine  laughter     —     devoid  of  the  colors  that  painted  the  world  around  them,  and  thus  a  mirror  to  her  innermost  self. 

❝   Tell  me  about  it.   ❞  A  coo  of  utmost  relaxation,  though  Sayuri’s  eyes  still  gleamed  with  devilish  intent;  a  lilt  to  her  words  akin  to  the  lure  once  used  by  Lilith  to  coax  another  from  the  Garden  of  Eden.  ❝   So  why  not  give  in  to  it?  Indulge  a  little.   ❞  

A  wink  sealed  the  laid-out  offer.  ❝   I  promise  it’s  fun.   ❞  

[akuroi]

❝   Aren’t  you  tired  of  being  nice?   ❞  

❝   Don’t  you  just  want  to  go  apeshit?   ❞  

[cursedblessed]

❝ You're literally bleeding out. ❞ The disbelief in his voice could be mistaken for insulted, unable to comprehend how she is still arguing. She's stubborn, and not in the cutesy way that makes him want to push harder. No, she's just foolish. If his instincts are right, if she really is only human, she is not getting through this without help. ❝ You’re not exactly in a position to negotiate, sweetheart. ❞

Another time he might have entertained it, if only to hear what she wanted. Everyone wants something, that much he’s learned over the course of his miserable existence. The only difference is what they’re willing to sacrifice for it.

❝ Fine. Have it your way. ❞ He shrugs, rising to his feet as though he truly intends to leave her there. ❝ Stitches and painful small talk it is. ❞ Because abandoning her for the next thing lurking in the dark to pick apart was not an option.

The shadow creature sharpens into view beside him, the low electric hum of its form settling into something vaguely humanoid. It keeps its distance from Sayuri, reaching into its own body before producing a first aid kit and extra gauze. James flips the case open, rummages through it, then hands the needle back over without hesitation.

❝ Now can you at least stay still? ❞ His gaze flicks between her and the creature beside him. ❝ Trust me, you want Shadow doing the stitching instead of me. ❞

[akuroi]

𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒  𝐃𝐈𝐃  𝐓𝐎𝐓𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐘  𝐍𝐎𝐓  𝐉𝐔𝐒𝐓  𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐄𝐍     —     𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓?  Her  mind  had  to  be  playing  tricks  on  her;  nonsensical  hallucinations  conjured  by  blood  loss  and  pain  to  come  up  with  something  so  utterly  illogical  in  the  throes  of  her  growing  delirium.  But  then  he  actually  addressed  the  phantom  at  his  side,  and  her  almond-shaped  eyes  widened  for  it. 

Shadow.  Right.  Because  apparently  it  made  perfect  sense  for  a  shadow  to  stitch  up  her  leaking  wound  while  casually  summoning  a  first  aid  kit  out  of  literal  nowhere  while  it  was  at  it. 

Sayuri  squealed;  high-pitched,  uncontrolled,  obnoxiously  sudden.  ❝   What  the  hell?!   ❞  The  attempt  to  scurry  backward  in  her  hunched  state  made  for  a  pitiful  sight,  but  for  once  the  oh-so-impeccable  fashionista  cared  remarkably  little  about  preserving  outer  appearances  and  whatever  reputation  she  claimed  to  possess.  ❝   What  are  you,  some  kind  of  freak?!   ❞  

Admirable  remained  only  the  fact  that  her  sharpened  tongue  persisted  even  through  moments  of  utter  helplessness     —     the  ever-present  vicious  bite  to  her  persona  that  she  seemed  determined  to  go  down  with,  no  matter  how  undignified  the  descent.  ❝   Did  you  crawl  out  of  a  circus  or  something?  Ugh...   ❞  

❝   ...why  do  good-looking  guys  always  turn  out  weird?   ❞  Admittedly,  most  of  them  were  either  pathologically  evil  or  so  painfully  dull  that  any  attempt  at  genuine  conversation  with  them  turned  into  a  yawn-show  real  quick     —     so  this  was  at  least  something  new.  

Not  that  that  made  this  whole  ordeal  any  less  worrisome.