being a gremlin, doing gremlin crimes. @alchemiclee - Tumblr Blog

who is the weird little gremlin who lives in this blog?

hellos, i'm Lee!

obligatory "about Lee" pinned post

*MY ART TAG LINK*

note: please do not repost or use my art. thank you!

some links to things I do:

https://linktr.ee/alchemiclee

itty bitty bladie tag

cosplay list

get to know me a little:

1993, USA 🌽, they/them, autistic, adhd, disabled, nonbinary, aroace; artist, photographer, cosplayer, twitch streamer, writer. a creator of many things.

#finally made a pinned post 🙂#now everyone who ends up here somehow can know more about the little gremlin that lives here #i might add more to it if i feel like it #and i'll occasionally update it #edit: i keep editing this and completely change it sometimes because indecisive adhd brain insists!!

ough i've been so caught up in life, health issues, work, and other hobbies that I forgot to do sole mermay arts 😭 i waited a year to draw more mermaids! theyre so fun!

#i know i dont have to wait. i just love the pun lmao #ive also barely played the gacha games i love to draw characters from in the past like 8 months #instead im becoming a minecraft youtuber and playing with my OCs. i want to draw them at some point :D #lee text #WHEN I QUIT MY JOB #i hope i can convince my adhd brain to do more of my hobbies and not waste every day away doing nothing lmao #i have moee hobbies than the average person. i want to DO EVERYTHING #art. 3d printing and painting game/anime figures. video game/ttrpg roleplay. video making/editing. writing. twitch streaming.#crochet. photography. cosplay (i want to make more by hand). other arts and crafts. gardening. exploring/hiking.#many things i want to learn to do too like 3d modeling. make music. dance (if disabled body allows). coding for game servers/websites. etc #IM TOO DAMM AMBITIOUS TO HAVE ADHD WAAAAAAAAAA

feefal

At the party with my best friends🪼

#arts

shuravf

Oh, fem Beefleaf, you were just too perfect🥲💚

#tgcf #arts

getting back into rp again is making me wish I knew how to do like coding and stuff or whatever is needed so I can make a gta rp server. I dont have time or energy to learn and figure it out. maybe if I can quit my job one day. I miss so many things about gta rp that mc rp doesnt have. I want to get a limited amount of people and do specifically sitcom rp. no one is allowed to do serious rp. they must act like they are in a sitcom and do what they think would be the funniest. always play into the bit. thats all I really want in life atm. the mechanics of gta rp and the goofy sitcom vibes.

#maybe one day.....#now that im in am rp group again and most of them like being goofy maybe i cam invite them if i ever learn #IM VERY INTO BUILDING STORIES WITH PEOPLE BUT I ALSO WANT TO DO LESS STORY AND MORE COMEDY!#I JUST WANT TO DO ALL THE THINGS. *RATTLES THE BARS OF MY ENCLOSURE AAAAAAA LET ME OUT*#FREE ME FROM MY HORRIBLE JOB SO I CAN DO ALL THE THINGS I WANT #lee text #lee yells about creative ambitions part 54773738382 lmao

actual question: when people tag a post as "delete later" do they actually mean it but then forget? or do they decide not to because it got then attention? or is it some weird tactic to try to make people interact with it and be like "no dont delete i love this!" because I see it all the time and sometimes the posts will be months old and sometimes have like 2k+ notes. when it's on posts like art or selfies or other things it can be interpreted as fishing for compliments in the same way people do "I look so ugly here/my art is so ugly" but I could be wrong. I want to know the truth, will anyone admit to it if it was to try getting more interaction? 😅 or is everyone as bad at memory as me lmao

#i use it to literally mean delete later. i can search it up later then delete #but i know i do forget that kind of stuff. so i want to assume others do too #BUT. the posts i see are actively getting hundreds-thousands of notes which reminds the poster it exists while mine get 0 lmao #theres just so many weird social things people do irl or online for attention or manipulation and wont admit to it but i want them to #not so i can judge them but so i can study them like a bug. im curious and want them to explain to me why and stuff you know #IM SO CURIOUS HOW PEOPLE WORK. especially ones that can/want to play weird social games my autistic brain doesnt understand #im just straightforward and honest and say what i mean and mean what i say and most people i meet are the opposite so #i want to study them. like why are you a well-off person bullying that other person when they arent a threat? for example #i want people who do weird and confusing things to explain their actual thoughts and intentions and reasoning for a thought experiment #it could be as simple as they think they are above everyone. so why? i want to ask all the questions and get honest answers #but i know no one will ever do that lmao most people arent honest #lee text #oops i rambled about nonsense

don't know how/when i'll get approved for disability, but i'm determined to get it somehow. when I do, i'll quit my job and do full time content creation. but i'll do it my way. i'll do what I want when I want, as inconsistently as my chronic pain/illness will allow. and I wont be doing it to try to make a living because disability payments will be consistent, unlike having content creation as a job. I cant make money on disability anyway or they'll take it away. I wont need to worry about pushing out content and playing social media games to make a living off of it. it will all be based on my random adhd-powered ideas and energy. if people enjoy the kind of content that's sporadic and untouched by capitalism, drama, social games, and competition, i'll be excited to share it! :D

#because lets be honest. the creative sphere online is especially hostile and frustrating with ridiculous competition #that causes nothing but drama and issues among creators and their fans. all because capitalism pits them against each other #if i can get on disability and quit my painful job that prevents me from doing creative work reguarly then ill be able to do this!#lee text #brain is just too thinky about how much i want to do creative things but my job is destroying me so i cant 😭#but i cant quit now or ill have to fight the cruel and competitive system to slave over capitalism even more and i know ill lose 💀

I want to buy female form shi qingxuan art (and/or fem!beefleaf) but it's so hard to find!!!!! I found one fem!beefleaf sticker for sale. the rest are all male form :( It's rough out here for the girlies

#i bought that sticker so fast #but i want more :( why no fem/yuri arts!!!! tho tbf i only looked on etsy. maybe different sites have some or artist's websites #but i did scroll through tumblr and look at profile of many artists to see if they have print shops. no luck :(#lee text #when your fav character of a series is specifically the fem form of them and no one sells art of her :((#and when you greatly prefer the yuri version of the ship but once again no art of them to buy!

vividarth

Beefleaf! Now this is one of my favorite works 😌

#tgcf #i want a print of this its so pretty 😭#arts

that feeling being an artist and using yourself as reference and not understanding why people say your anatomy is wrong, only to be diagnosed with a hypermobility disorder like EDS and learning all the ways your body moves is technically "incorrect anatomy" lmao

#what do you MEAN most people crouch down and balance on their toes and not flat on their feet and it looks wrong to draw that way???#because my ankles bend at way more than a 90 degree angle #my toes do too so if i try to balance on my toes they just bend backwards almost to my foot and i fall over lmao #kinda annoyed when people tell me my anatomy is wrong now. i want to draw people hypermobile like me!!!!!!#lee text

I just finished my first minecraft rp smp yesterday and it's everything I wanted and needed for such a long time aaaaaaaaaaa telling stories together with people! improv acting! working with other creative on the same project! having great communication and working things out if there were ever issues! making sure everyone had a great time and got to tell their stories! everyone being respected and cared about and no one being left behind! it was such a great experience! and I cant wait to properly share it with everyone! pls give me until.... the next 1 business year* to finish all my episodes 😆 I must turn them into a cinematic masterpiece!

*with how my health and job and everything is going it might actually take longer....but i am DETERMINED to finish this project!!!!!

#lee text #lee updates #what if i made that a tag for my creative content updates? i wont remember lmao #I LOVE CREATING AAAAAAAAAA IT MAKES ME FEEL SO FULL OF JOY AMD WHIMSY