being a gremlin, doing gremlin crimes.

things I like go here. I also love to create things and share them with people :3 My Links

[alchemiclee]

who is the weird little gremlin who lives in this blog?

hellos, i'm Lee!

obligatory "about Lee" pinned post

*MY ART TAG LINK*

note: please do not repost or use my art. thank you!

some links to things I do:

https://alchemiclee.carrd.co/

itty bitty bladie tag

cosplay list

get to know me a little:

1993, USA 🌽, they/them, autistic, adhd, disabled, nonbinary, aroace; artist, photographer, cosplayer, twitch streamer, video editor, writer. a creator of many things!

this blog was created to be a happy space away from the stress of life and other social medias where the algorithms are a depressing mess and everything is on fire and bad. i'll revisit old interests and entertain current ones, and share my passion for creating!

I follow blogs that are mainly themed around my current interests, so it's nothing personal if I don't follow back! it just means we have different main interests on our blogs (and i don't have the time to look at my following list. i'm barely on tumblr as it is!)

that's it for now 🥰

tags directory:

my creations: my art, my photography, my cosplays, my videos,

my posts: text posts, irl pics

reblogs: art reblogs, genshin impact, honkai star rail, wuthering waves fullmetal alchemist, anime stuffs, dreamcatcher, photography reblogs, plants, cats, relatable reblogs, cute stuff, tgcf, zzz, frieren, alien stage, vampires smp to be continued.....?

some silly little guys for a surprise:

[alchemiclee]

hmm i wonder, should I post my Minecraft skins and 3d models i make in blockbench? those count as art, right? i barely use social medias these days outside of posting things i create, so maybe i should post them! they're very fun to make and i'm quite proud of most of them!

[alchemiclee]

i often think about this....i have decided to try to put it into words: i don't really enjoy learning the "basics/fundamentals" of creative skills/hobbies. i tend to jump straight into it and often enjoy learning more advanced stuff first and let the basics come naturally through that, or i will search up how to do something as i need it, which usually ends uo being the basics that i skipped. i never have interest in "mastering" the basics first, despite everyone very adamantly trying to convince me that's the only right way to do anything.

like my first 3d blockbench model i just recently made was a fluffy squirrel tail for my Minecraft character for my current smp. it was the perfect excuse for me to learn how to make 3d Minecraft models for the first time, to use with the figura mod that's added to the smp. but it was definitely a difficult thing to start with when i had never done anything like this before. but i'm weird and i don't learn most things very well UNLESS i jump directly into the actual work, with no practice first, and challenge myself immediately before i even learn the basics. i don't know why my brain works this way but it does. my brain works better backwards sometimes. i tried to learn without watching tutorials. i only looked up how to do specific things when i couldn't figure it out on my own before my patience wore out or i got too stuck to move forward. but i stopped looking at the tutorial there and went back to trying the rest by myself. i did not want to watch an hour long video copying exactly what the person in the video is doing as they slowly go through all the basics. let me try advanced techniques that force me into working with the basics in a reverse engineering type way. it's more fun to my brain! and i somehow usually end up learning better that way with most things for some unknown reason i cannot begin to understand or explain.

also another weird thing my brain does that backs up my unwillingness to learn "the correct way," anytime i have learned "the correct way" to do things with basics and following exactly as i was told, once we are told to do it alone, i freeze up and don't know what to do. my mind is blank. all i seem to learn is how to mimic and copy and do what i'm told. it's like my brain overrides it's own creativity or doesn't learn how to apply my own ideas, only ones i was taught/told to do. you are never really taught how to develop your own ideas and creativity in any classes (that i took) or from youtube tutorials. i get that most people can naturally do that, but i don't seem able to do it. or rather, most people apply the basics to their creativity, but i can't apply my creativity to the basics? is this related to a learning disability or some sort? or stubborn autistic/adhd brain? not sure. but it's definitely not "normal" because no one understands how i can be like this and they act like i'm trying to be completely defiant on purpose and get offended. no one seems able to accept this is just my unique learning style....at least i'm pretty sure that's what it is!

ive been doing my own weird way of learning with video editing stuff. jumped straight into advanced things as the supports for my basics rather than the other way around. i never learned how to edit or make cinematic stories. i didn't bother "learning" but followed my creativity and ideas and learned how to do things along the way. i learned what i needed to support my ideas rather than learning first and then applying my ideas. maybe it took longer this way (or not. i feel like learning basics takes me longer than just doing it lmao) but i'm so proud of my first fully edited video and how it visually tells the story! i won't take any criticism about me not "correctly" learning how to edit or for not studying film first before getting into this kind of hobby. *I* think my first video is VERY good. and i can proudly say i did and learned it all by myself! it's objectively VERY well done for someone who didn't get any sort of education (schooling or youtube) on anything related to this.

and I HAD FUN. so suck it basics purists! because isnt having fun all that really matters?????? isn't that what being artistic/creative is supposed to be all about? if i'm not having fun learning the way i'm told is the only "correct" way then why would you get mad at me for doing what's fun instead? i really don't understand it! but it happens ALL THE TIME. people get SO MAD at me when i tell them i don't want to study basics/fundamentals when they think their unasked for advice should be sO important to me. why is me having fun so bad?

so i know most people reading this now, or seeing/finding out how i work in the future will be like "BAD! WRONG! YOU CANT DO IT THAT WAY! IT WILL NEVER BE GOOD! YOU WILL NEVER GET BETTER!" like i keep hearing every single time over and over and over. i think i know how my brain works and how i learn best, not you. its not like im making my creations into a career ever. maybe make that argument at people who get paid and can buy lessons or something? why can't we support different learning styles?

it's like one time i had a friend who said she'd help me learn another language that she was almost fluent in so she can practice as i learn from her. but when she tried to see how much i knew so she knew where to begin, she got mad at me for leaning more "advanced" stuff ahead of the basics and refused to teach/practice with me!!!! telling me to learn basics first then come back to her. i was learning vocab first before grammar because i learn best if i can narrate my thoughts in my head all day. i need vocab that relates to me and my day first in order to do that!!! but the "correct" way to learn a language is to learn grammar with all the same limited vocab that doesn't apply to anyone except maybe children in school..."today i study. i will read a book tomorrow. i did go to school yesterday" ok i don't do any of that daily. i tried learning that way for years and gave up and tried my own way, which was actually helping me more, and was berated for it, so i stopped learning completely because it was so discouraging!!!!!!

same with how in art class i always tried to add my own creative twist on things to stimulate my brain to enjoy it more and got a bad grade. but as soon as i copied *exactly* what the teacher/professor did and mimicked their work (not just the basics they taught), i got the best grade in the class. that made me upset. like cool i learned how to copy, not *actually* apply the basics/fundamentals you taught. i cannot apply them to anything i come up with myself. only copy what you showed me!!!! i think that defeats the purpose of being taught these things right??????????

i'm also ngl still riding on the confidence boost i got like 15 years ago, when i was playing a display piano at a music shop to find one i liked to buy myself as a high school graduation gift, and one of the guys that worked there asked if i ever took piano or music lessons. i said nope! i just like to play what randomly comes to my head. he said “good, don't listen to anyone who tells you you need to take any lessons. they'll steal your natural creativity & unique style you have and only teach you to do what they decided is good and acceptable. we need more of that natural creativity you have in this world. keep playing and keep having fun!” not word for word, i can't remember the exact wording after that long, but his general words and genuine advice stuck with me all these years and i think about it almost every time i create anything. it was EXACTLY what i needed to hear after struggling to learn the "proper" way to do anything creative my entire life. i was just playing with my soul, eyes closed, having so much fun with this piano in a random music shop. and a random employee made me feel so much better about all my learning struggles and continues to be the only person to this day that keeps me motivated to learn at my own pace, learn in my own ways, nurture my creativity over my technical knowledge, and to keep having fun!

and now i just apply that to everything creative i do because that was the best compliment and advice i ever got in my life! he made me realize and accept that it's ok to trust my own process if it means i can have fun and enjoy what i'm doing while nurturing my own unique style and creativity! i honestly really wish more people would tell me things like this tbh.....rather than pick out my flaws and give basic advice on how to improve. WHY is improvement always the goal? over having fun and enjoying your own creative process? like that man in the music shop told me to do with music? because now when people try telling me to learn the basics/take classes i get lowkey offended because they don't trust my creative process or care that i'm only in it for fun rather than constant improvement.

i realized/decided i want to be self taught with most things. it's one of the few prides i can have in my life! and there's just something so joyous about creating something all on my own before i even learn how!!!! i find the challenge so exciting and interesting!! being "taught" feels like i'm cheating in a way??? like i'm getting the answers before i even get to try! but if someone enjoys my creations that are all self taught then that's a bonus! every artist takes classes and learns basics. every musician takes lessons. every creator watches youtube tutorials. that's expected and normal and nothing special. what happened to praising people for breaking out of the mold and being daring enough to pave their own way? why do people act like its so wrong and bad for me to choose to be different and find a more fun way to learn to do things and be proud of what i can do by myself??? why is it so goddamn taboo to reject the idea of “proper” learning and skills? why have i legitimately lost friends over telling them i don't want want to learn and study creative things in the traditional "correct" way they try to convince me i absolutely need to? why is it so looked down on to be adventurous and choose to learn slowly over a lifetime of trial and error, rather than be told how to do it and follow the same exact steps as everyone else? why are artists/creatives so elitist and pushy about following the "rules" to the point they will ostracize anyone who doesn't, when i was pretty sure art/creativity actually had no rules?

i will say, i do understand the Point of basics/fundamentals, and i do respect it and anyone who uses them. but no one can explain to me why *I* personally need to learn them the same way as everyone else. or why they are so worshiped and treated like a sacred law that Must Be Followed by EVERY artist/creative ever, the same exact way. or like you can never be good or worthy of art/creativity if you don't follow this basics/fundamentals learning law. "because it will make you better. / it will make it easier." are the only answers i can seem to get. i mean sure, if those things are important to you, go for it! but everyone gets so offended when i say i don't exactly do creative things to improve (at least not by their standards). and i like having a challenge! sometimes i do things the hard way on purpose just to see if i can lmao. so what else would i get out of it? what benefit does it give me that's worth putting my creativity and passion to the side to study in boredom and struggle with it the whole time because it doesn't fit my learning style? if i have fun doing things the way i do, why does everyone still aggressively push this on me? i can't get an answer that convinces me i *should* listen to them and "learn the correct way" without them sounding basically elitist and pushy about it or like they're trying to lowkey insult my creations by saying they aren't good enough and i'm not doing a good job. or without it sounding like having fun and being creative isn't as important as doing everything the socially acceptable way.

[alchemiclee]

making models in blockbench for minecraft is really fun and when I get to quit my job, it might become a new hobby. the rp smp i'm joining this weekend is a chill one where the characters are human-animal hybrids so theyre all supposed to have animal ears and tails and whatnot. my character will be a squirrel. I made them a fluffy tail and ears. as well as a gas mask which is an important part of this particular oc. now i'm adding piercings to the ears! there's so many possibilities and this is just the beginning!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaa it's so fun!!!!

[alchemiclee]

i'm happy to announce EPISODE 1 IS OUT NOW!

I got to be part of a minecraft roleplay smp (my first smp!) with a lovely group of people, based on powcreations vampires smp. it's a story about vampirism, the darkness of humanity, post-war apocalyptic survival, loss, betrayal, an ancient entity, finding yourself amongst the horrors, and the power of friendship.

this is a series we streamed and/or are posting to youtube. i'm working hard to edit mine! i'm new to editing and learning as I go, but i'm putting so much time and effort into making this a professional quality series full of cinematic scenes! (I was very inspired by how owen did his vsmp editing) and i'm SO PROUD OF WHAT IVE DONE SO FAR ITS SO COOL AND AMAZING AAAAAAAA! *holds my videos up like a child showing you their finger painting they want you to hang up on your fridge* please watch them they're amazing I promise!!!!!!!!

HOPE YOU ENJOY!!!!! :DDD

[alchemiclee]

I think the whole issue with everyone on here and mcyt "boundaries" issue is people picking apart the cc's using the word "boundaries" incorrectly. and for some reason, that makes you all petty and entitled and think you can do whatever you want in retaliation for a technically incorrect word usage. like you are trying to punish them for using the wrong word and for seemingly inflicting a "rule" on fandom.

the ACTUAL word they should be using (and how you should be interpreting it as) is "consent" because that's what it boils down to. regardless of what word they are using, in the end, they are talking about consent. if you think about it even a little, you'll realize what they are doing is telling you they do not consent to something. writing romantic/shipping and sexually explicit stories about someone (or a character that represents them that they personally play as - *especially* since mcyt all mostly use their own names and some even make their skins match their own likeness) is a form of (sexual) harassment if they do not consent to that type of content. and everyone needs to accept that. consent isn't a rule. it's about respecting a person's autonomy and comfort and just respecting them as a person in general. if you look at it from that perspective, I hope you'd understand where they're coming from.

would you consent to someone drawing or writing smut about you or a character with your name/image? about a character that you created and then act/roleplay as? probably not. but if you would say yes to that, then at least you get the choice to consent to it.

[kiraandfriendss]

I recently did a 30 day challenge! here are some of my favourite drawings i did

I would like to do 60 or even 100 day in the future, but for now i realise i have a LOT to learn before that point, it is truly crazy to make a full illustration every day. im still happy i did it, im much less precious about my art and it really singled out what my weaknesses are... and i think im able to draw much faster now, which is why i did the challenge to begin with

I think next time i do this i will try and stream it👍

[pruwinkle]

yakuza gang leader kazuha...

[alchemiclee]

i'm happy to announce EPISODE 1 IS OUT NOW!

I got to be part of a minecraft roleplay smp (my first smp!) with a lovely group of people, based on powcreations vampires smp. it's a story about vampirism, the darkness of humanity, post-war apocalyptic survival, loss, betrayal, an ancient entity, finding yourself amongst the horrors, and the power of friendship.

this is a series we streamed and/or are posting to youtube. i'm working hard to edit mine! i'm new to editing and learning as I go, but i'm putting so much time and effort into making this a professional quality series full of cinematic scenes! (I was very inspired by how owen did his vsmp editing) and i'm SO PROUD OF WHAT IVE DONE SO FAR ITS SO COOL AND AMAZING AAAAAAAA! *holds my videos up like a child showing you their finger painting they want you to hang up on your fridge* please watch them they're amazing I promise!!!!!!!!

HOPE YOU ENJOY!!!!! :DDD

[alchemiclee]

started this like a year ago or something. fought through life and health issues, chronic pain, work, and lack of motivation, but i finally finished it! 🥹🩵

[alchemiclee]

happy disability pride month to my fellow disabled cosplayers and creators out there! 🩵

remember, there's nothing wrong with cosplaying with mobility aids! being visibly disabled shouldn't stop you from cosplaying your favorite characters!

this is my current favorite disabled/chronically ill character who is dear to me.

I started this photoshoot over a year ago. doing self-shot photos is a bit difficult and painful when you're disabled/chronically ill. but I was determined to finish this! I don't have friends to do shoots with and can't afford to hire someone to model or photograph for me. i'm a photographer, so I decided to try my best to be the model as well. when I say it was a pain, that's an understatement. it took me so long to finish this because I needed time to recover after every shoot. my camera is old and remotes dont work with it, so I have to run back and forth and pose within 10 seconds.

I have a hypermobilty disorder (hEDS) which causes dislocations/chronic pain/mobility issues, undiagnosed autoimmune (doctors not sure which yet), and and highly suspected POTS - dizziness/lightheadedness/elevated heart rate/nausea/shortness of breath/etc when i'm on my feet for too long or moving around too much. these combined, especially with also being autistic, cause a large amount of mental and physical exhaustion and stress. mobility aids help me navigate the world with my health problems easier and i'm trying to learn to not be ashamed of using them.

doing something as tedious and strenuous as a cosplay photoshoot all on your own when you're disabled/chronically ill is very difficult. but I want to share my passion with others, as well as try to do more shoots with mobility aids so I can perhaps help other disabled people feel more comfortable and confident to try or do more cosplay too!

I have some other photos as well that I still need to edit between work and appointments. please look forward to those when they come!

[ishvbro]

[yokolate]

Qifrey + Brushbuddy Witch Hat Atelier (2026) — 1x13

[himekokosu]

Clematis

[by-saiyuri]

little warm up

the trailblazer and their trusty bat

[clouvu]

All's well that ends well to end up with you

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