[alenhko]

KIM'S MASS EFFECT MULTI-MUSE. ＊ MORE INFORMATION UNDER THE CUT.

rules;

this is a sideblog to @alenhko, meaning i cannot follow you back. if we are mutuals there, we are mutuals here. please make sure we are mutuals prior to sending in any memes/interacting with any plotting calls.

activity is considered low. this is obviously not a main blog, more so meant as a hobby until i get bored. reply pestering will not be tolerated.

most characters are canon compliant unless plotted otherwise. i am not a canon stickler by any means lmao. there will be plenty of aus and crossovers, all that good stuff. i'm extremely flexible and just here for the good vibes.

mun is kim: 21, she/her, EST timezone, lesbian. i'm heavily affiliated, but not entirely exclusive, with @reapergate1.

canon characters;

cora harper

garrus vakarian

jeff moreau / joker

kasumi goto

liam kosta

liara t'soni

miranda lawson

mordin solus

nakmor drack

nakmor kesh

pelessaria b'sayle / peebee

tali'zorah vas normandy

vetra nyx

player characters & originals;

eleanor piessens / botanist

commander john shepard

commander nina shepard

pathfinder sara ryder

pathfinder scott ryder

tyler rivers / c-sec officer

[alenhko]

@reapergate1 said: even when we win, it seems like all we do is lose.

his gaze is turned towards kasumi, skin furrowing in thought. with a measured stride, he approaches her— his mind already spinning with a multitude of perspectives and possible responses. a moment is taken to gather his thoughts [and attempt to speak in a way the woman will comprehend— he isn't the easiest for conversation, nothing he isn't aware of.]

characteristic salarian cadence settling in his thoughts, he speaks. "observation supported by evidence. galactic conflicts invariably result in substantial loss. complex web of factors at play: lives, resources, and intangibles lost in pursuit of greater good," he muses, the tone of his voice lingering between a mixture of analysis and empathy. he pauses briefly, piercing gaze studying the elusive thief, searching for any hint of what lay beneath her statement.

it was a rarity for the salarian to stray from the comfort of his lab, choosing to spend some time on the dimly lit observation deck of the normandy. curiosity piqued by observing the galaxy, passing by in a swirl of distant stars and an ethereal beauty. space was a beautiful thing, just as science was. two of the biggest wonders of life.

a moment passes before he continues, his voice taking on a softer tone. "but perspective important— understandable to dwell of negatives, but must also acknowledge gains. knowledge gained, lives saved, and galactic stability restored. must not overlook progress amidst turmoil." his eyes glint with a sense of determination— a sense of understanding flowing through him. "shepard's success measured in victories, but also in resilience. defeats build resolve, fuel determination to prevail. learn from setbacks, adapt, and improve. in that, we find hope."

[gotokasumi]

KASUMI GOTO MASS EFFECT LEGENDARY EDITION

[alenhko]

@whilliams said: i’m only good because he was good.

his name doesn't need to be spoken for a dark incense to form around them— his absence is the constant reminder of her failure on virmire. she feels the guilt every time she walks around on the normandy's deck, the glances burning into the back of head from the crew. it makes her skin crawl. (ashley's survival and presence is a reminder, too. it's why nina keeps their conversations brief and professional, never crossing into the camaraderie she once had shared with kaidan.)

"alenko was a good man and a good soldier. he taught the whole crew many things. he'll be missed both on the ship and by the alliance." the professional answer is easier to give and it doesn't make her want to blast her head against the wall. the words don't nearly tug as hard on her heartstrings as the other thoughts burrowed deep in her mind do. he's dead because of me, being the leader of the charge. (after all, she made the decision. only one of them could survive and she made her decision. she dug kaidan alenko's grave the moment she was given control of the normandy.) teeth biting down on the inside of her cheek, digits run themselves through flaxen hair before a deep breath is exhaled.

"he was also a good friend. to me, to you, to everyone on this ship. he was there for them and, on a lot of occasions, for me. he was a one of a kind guy. the galaxy doesn't make 'em like him anymore." and that's the reality of their situation sinking in: he is dead, there is nothing anyone can do to alter the story, and she's so full of grief that she could almost vomit.

[cutsdeeper]

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐀𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐘 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐂𝐀𝐘𝐃𝐄 — a collection of cayde’s memoirs over his time as a guardian. 

“All joking aside—maybe I’ve made mistakes.”

“So, yeah, maybe that’s what I’m doing. Trying to learn from these very hypothetical slipups.”

“This ain’t easy for me.”

“Guess what I’m saying is, I’m sick of ‘maybes.’”

“We’ve got ghosts in our machines.”

“I keep personal close to the chest.”

“You’ve heard of me.”

“My calling is to do good. Maybe not always to ‘be’ good, ya know, but do good.”

“I might dance to my own tune, but we’re all at the same hoedown… Or something like that.”

“If people needed help and I could do the helping, I would—so I do.”

“I don’t get out as much, but I’m fixing to change that.”

“Do good. Be good. Push the limits. Take back what’s ours.”

“I’m a loudmouth and a braggart, and I’m quick with a blade and fast on the draw.”

“I’m only good because he was good.”

“So many lessons learned. So many lives lost.”

“In hindsight, we were waaay too ambitious.”

“What’s the statute of limitations on misspent youth?”

“I always tried to do right, even if I occasionally got sidetracked.”

“You give your word, you keep it.”

“Turns out, the only sucker was me.”

“I can feel myself trying to talk around what I want to say.”

“I wish I could hear him laugh again. Just once.”

“I never wanted this.”

“Someone’s not playing nice.”

“Learn from me. Be better than me.”

“Honor matters. It’s a weapon in its own right.”

“The ‘right thing,’ like honor, can be a malleable concept. It shifts and bends.”

“Seems my arrogance is where it always falls apart.”

“Brothers don’t stay mad at brothers, that’s just the way it is.”

“I don’t play well with loss. I just don’t.”

“Even when we win, it seems like all we do is lose.”

“If there’s one thing I’m not, it’s a defeatist. I mean, I defeat.”

“One might even say defeating things is my job.”

“I’m a high-octane optimist and nothing but hugs.”

“I’m a poor loser, I admit it.”

“I’ve concocted a truth to make myself whole.”

“This life felt hollow. So I ran.”

“I think, in this world, you need to find what is best in you and cling to it.”