Pieces of Honor
Chapter 14
We are now moving to the capital as quickly as possible, we covered him better with a throw Lu Feng had in the luggage compartment. “We have some people at the capital, do you want them to buy anything for the baby?” he offers “yes, please” I ask them to buy everything Ahmed will need in two days and for the travel.
Seunghyun has been holding him all the time, he appears to be happy with his job “are you gonna change his name?” Lu Feng asks “no, it will be Ahmed, in memory of his mother” Lu Feng smiles and then looks at the baby’s face “he’s gonna be handsome as Uncle Feng” I laugh hard at his words “Uncle Feng?” I ask jokingly “of course” he says with a proud smile.
“Is him gonna be the son of you both or...?” I chuckle “no, we are still very immature, don’t you think?” Lu Feng nods “just a little” he says. “I think my father will not disagree about Ahmed being my brother” Lu Feng caress the cheeks of the baby a little “Boss Zhao will accept, I’m sure, Mr. Zhao has a big heart” he says, then his phone makes a ring sound “oh! the korean messaged me, he has found all the things you need” he says looking at his phone’s display “Daesung?” I ask, he just nods “I can’t pronounce his name very well” he admits, so Daesung has been at the capital all this time.
Seunghyun and I have been taking care of Ahmed in these days, we took him to a pediatrician, he said Ahmed was too small due to he had not been eating properly, but he will be okay. “I think someone has just soil himself” Seunghyun said in a sweet tone to Ahmed “Let’s change your diaper, big boy” he knows better than me how to take care of a child, he commented on the night we arrived at the capital he used to take care of the babies of his father’s sister.
Lu Feng entered in our bedroom “who’s here? my handsome Ahmed!” he was cheerful “Feng, are we leaving now?” he nodded “in five minutes” Ahmed was laughing all the time while being pampered by us
“By the way, my sister is with a child, maybe he’s the same age as Ahmed, she can give him some breast milk” I smile at him “thank you, it will be the best food for him”.
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“Dad!” I hug him as soon as I step into the house “where’s my mother?” I ask him, I look at his face “she’s sleeping” it is a little bit strange but, I say nothing about it “where’s Seunghyun?” I hesitate to tell him he’s with Ahmed. I decide to tell him first the whole story. After many minutes I end my story about how do I found Ahmed, my father takes it well “where’s him?” he asks me referring to Ahmed, now he is going to be my brother, Ahmed Zhao, his name is a little interesting, isn’t it?
Seunghyun enters after I messaged him, Lu Feng is behind him. My father takes the little baby in his arms “you know how to take care of children” he points out to Seunghyun, my boyfriend smiles proud and nods “he’s the best option for you” my father winks at me.
Me and Seunghyun blush hard at his words. My mother comes from nowhere, suddenly she is just looking at Ahmed, she seems not well, like she has been sleeping a lot or not sleeping. Her hair is a mess, she is not even wearing makeup, which is rare, but she appears to not care about this, neither the guys in front of her.
“Look, sweetheart, this is our baby” my father tells her “our baby? my baby?” my mother asks deeply lost in Ahmed eyes, she hurries to carry him, smiling sweetly. I feel something is wrong. “Yes, your baby” my father stays by her side, he is worried about my mother’s current health I can see it in his eyes.
Whatever, we went to do our normal things this afternoon, except for my mom she has been holding Ahmed all this time. We are having dinner, my mom even doesn’t look to Seunghyun, most of the time she usually glares at him but now it is different she barely notices our presence.
My dad and I go to talk after dinner time, maybe is about my mom...
“so... she had a miscarriage?” I ask, I can’t believe it, I barely can think what to say next “yes, she has been tensed because of that” I felt my heart heavy, I suddenly felt a kind of strange sadness “I...” I try hard to find words but there’s nothing and nothing again “I know, daughter this is hard for her, she was pretty happy when she discovered she was pregnant, I’m trying to be strong for her, but at some points it gets difficult” my dad takes a seat, so I do.
“You should have seen her when you left, she was holding Ahmed like he meant everything to her” I smile to this, I remembered when his mother did the same, now she can rest in peace, he will have a mother who will love him, some tears menace to fall from my eyes but I hold them all. “I’m happy, she will be happy with Ahmed” I finally speak “we, we are going to be happy, as a family”. So, my mom has been tensed for this... now I can’t blame her for reaction in such a rude way.
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Me and my lover are in my bedroom now, holding each other close “why didn’t you take Ahmed as your own child?” he asks “of course, I was planning to take care of him with you” he added “gosh! Seunghyun you really like children, don’t you?” he chuckles “well, I do not feel prepared, you know?” he nods understanding my feelings, then he kisses my earlobe “in the future?” he asks with a begging pout in his lips “yes, in the future...”
“How will we name them?” he asks holding my waist while he mimicking a slow dance with me around my bedroom “I don’t know, have you thought about it?” he nods “of course, my lady, if is a girl I would name her as you, if is a boy you will chose it” I chuckle “so, you have planned our whole life, haven’t you?” I cup his cheeks “yes, all of it” he furrows his eyebrows in admiration “you are so beautiful”.
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I check my clock it is 2 am, and we can’t sleep, we used to be awake at this time, well... we were alert all the time. I can hear Ahmed crying in the hallway, I get up “is that Ahmed, honey?” my lover asks. Him walking behind me, I open the door and take a peek, my father is there singing a lullaby for Ahmed to calm him “dad?” I ask walking through the hallway “oh, did he wake you both up?” he asked “no, we can’t sleep” he keeps rocking Ahmed.
“Oh, I see, sorry. I didn’t want your mother to wake up, she’s very tired” he explains “so, I thought it will be better if we weren’t in the bedroom” I nod “dad, you’re not doing it right, let me help” I carry Ahmed in my arms, rocking him in a special speed “oh! so, you are telling me I can’t calm my own son” he says crossing his arms, faking his annoyance “Dad! I’m not saying so!”
We were whispering for not waking up my mother “I’d carried you many nights, and you always fell asleep in my arms, so, don’t tell me how to do it” we were faking a fight “well, I’m sorry dad” I chuckle “he is clean I checked” my dad says again now talking more seriously “maybe he’s hungry” Seunghyun comments.
“Oh, right! where’s his milk?” my father asks “dad, you’re pretty tired go to sleep” he seems unsure “dad, please go to sleep, we will take care of him” he makes a face of fake disappointment “well, but, if you need me you will wake me up, okay?” he both bow “goodnight, little angel, you sister is gonna take care of you” he kisses Ahmed’s forehead and then mine “goodnight, son” he says to Seunghyun, he bows again.
Now we are in the kitchen, my lover is making the milk while I sing for my little brother “see, this is the right temperature” he lets fall some drops of milk in the back of my hand “here you go, big boy” he says. We stayed there for minutes, Ahmed was hungry, then my lover pats a little Ahmed’s back so, he won’t puke. “What about triplets?” he asks suddenly, while I finish cleaning our mess of milk “we barely can handle it with one you need more?” I ask while smiling “more fun”
Hello there! I hope you are doing well
Stay healthy!
Alex



















