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Pieces of Honor

Chapter 14

We are now moving to the capital as quickly as possible, we covered him better with a throw Lu Feng had in the luggage compartment. “We have some people at the capital, do you want them to buy anything for the baby?” he offers “yes, please” I ask them to buy everything Ahmed will need in two days and for the travel.

Seunghyun has been holding him all the time, he appears to be happy with his job “are you gonna change his name?” Lu Feng asks “no, it will be Ahmed, in memory of his mother” Lu Feng smiles and then looks at the baby’s face “he’s gonna be handsome as Uncle Feng” I laugh hard at his words “Uncle Feng?” I ask jokingly “of course” he says with a proud smile.

“Is him gonna be the son of you both or...?” I chuckle “no, we are still very immature, don’t you think?” Lu Feng nods “just a little” he says. “I think my father will not disagree about Ahmed being my brother” Lu Feng caress the cheeks of the baby a little “Boss Zhao will accept, I’m sure, Mr. Zhao has a big heart” he says, then his phone makes a ring sound “oh! the korean messaged me, he has found all the things you need” he says looking at his phone’s display “Daesung?” I ask, he just nods “I can’t pronounce his name very well” he admits, so Daesung has been at the capital all this time.

Seunghyun and I have been taking care of Ahmed in these days, we took him to a pediatrician, he said Ahmed was too small due to he had not been eating properly, but he will be okay. “I think someone has just soil himself” Seunghyun said in a sweet tone to Ahmed “Let’s change your diaper, big boy” he knows better than me how to take care of a child, he commented on the night we arrived at the capital he used to take care of the babies of his father’s sister.

Lu Feng entered in our bedroom “who’s here? my handsome Ahmed!” he was cheerful “Feng, are we leaving now?” he nodded “in five minutes” Ahmed was laughing all the time while being pampered by us  

“By the way, my sister is with a child, maybe he’s the same age as Ahmed, she can give him some breast milk” I smile at him “thank you, it will be the best food for him”.

-*-

“Dad!” I hug him as soon as I step into the house “where’s my mother?” I ask him, I look at his face “she’s sleeping” it is a little bit strange but, I say nothing about it “where’s Seunghyun?” I hesitate to tell him he’s with Ahmed. I decide to tell him first the whole story. After many minutes I end my story about how do I found Ahmed, my father takes it well “where’s him?” he asks me referring to Ahmed, now he is going to be my brother, Ahmed Zhao, his name is a little interesting, isn’t it?

Seunghyun enters after I messaged him, Lu Feng is behind him. My father takes the little baby in his arms “you know how to take care of children” he points out to Seunghyun, my boyfriend smiles proud and nods “he’s the best option for you” my father winks at me.  

Me and Seunghyun blush hard at his words. My mother comes from nowhere, suddenly she is just looking at Ahmed, she seems not well, like she has been sleeping a lot or not sleeping. Her hair is a mess, she is not even wearing makeup, which is rare, but she appears to not care about this, neither the guys in front of her.

“Look, sweetheart, this is our baby” my father tells her “our baby? my baby?” my mother asks deeply lost in Ahmed eyes, she hurries to carry him, smiling sweetly. I feel something is wrong. “Yes, your baby” my father stays by her side, he is worried about my mother’s current health I can see it in his eyes.

Whatever, we went to do our normal things this afternoon, except for my mom she has been holding Ahmed all this time. We are having dinner, my mom even doesn’t look to Seunghyun, most of the time she usually glares at him but now it is different she barely notices our presence.

My dad and I go to talk after dinner time, maybe is about my mom...

“so... she had a miscarriage?” I ask, I can’t believe it, I barely can think what to say next “yes, she has been tensed because of that” I felt my heart heavy, I suddenly felt a kind of strange sadness “I...” I try hard to find words but there’s nothing and nothing again “I know, daughter this is hard for her, she was pretty happy when she discovered she was pregnant, I’m trying to be strong for her, but at some points it gets difficult” my dad takes a seat, so I do.

“You should have seen her when you left, she was holding Ahmed like he meant everything to her” I smile to this, I remembered when his mother did the same, now she can rest in peace, he will have a mother who will love him, some tears menace to fall from my eyes but I hold them all. “I’m happy, she will be happy with Ahmed” I finally speak “we, we are going to be happy, as a family”. So, my mom has been tensed for this... now I can’t blame her for reaction in such a rude way.

-*-

Me and my lover are in my bedroom now, holding each other close “why didn’t you take Ahmed as your own child?” he asks “of course, I was planning to take care of him with you” he added “gosh! Seunghyun you really like children, don’t you?” he chuckles “well, I do not feel prepared, you know?” he nods understanding my feelings, then he kisses my earlobe “in the future?” he asks with a begging pout in his lips “yes, in the future...”

“How will we name them?” he asks holding my waist while he mimicking a slow dance with me around my bedroom “I don’t know, have you thought about it?” he nods “of course, my lady, if is a girl I would name her as you, if is a boy you will chose it” I chuckle “so, you have planned our whole life, haven’t you?” I cup his cheeks “yes, all of it” he furrows his eyebrows in admiration “you are so beautiful”.

-*-

I check my clock it is 2 am, and we can’t sleep, we used to be awake at this time, well... we were alert all the time. I can hear Ahmed crying in the hallway, I get up “is that Ahmed, honey?” my lover asks. Him walking behind me, I open the door and take a peek, my father is there singing a lullaby for Ahmed to calm him “dad?” I ask walking through the hallway “oh, did he wake you both up?” he asked “no, we can’t sleep” he keeps rocking Ahmed.

“Oh, I see, sorry. I didn’t want your mother to wake up, she’s very tired” he explains “so, I thought it will be better if we weren’t in the bedroom” I nod “dad, you’re not doing it right, let me help” I carry Ahmed in my arms, rocking him in a special speed “oh! so, you are telling me I can’t calm my own son” he says crossing his arms, faking his annoyance “Dad! I’m not saying so!”

We were whispering for not waking up my mother “I’d carried you many nights, and you always fell asleep in my arms, so, don’t tell me how to do it” we were faking a fight “well, I’m sorry dad” I chuckle “he is clean I checked” my dad says again now talking more seriously “maybe he’s hungry” Seunghyun comments.

“Oh, right! where’s his milk?” my father asks “dad, you’re pretty tired go to sleep” he seems unsure “dad, please go to sleep, we will take care of him” he makes a face of fake disappointment “well, but, if you need me you will wake me up, okay?” he both bow “goodnight, little angel, you sister is gonna take care of you” he kisses Ahmed’s forehead and then mine “goodnight, son” he says to Seunghyun, he bows again.

Now we are in the kitchen, my lover is making the milk while I sing for my little brother “see, this is the right temperature” he lets fall some drops of milk in the back of my hand “here you go, big boy” he says. We stayed there for minutes, Ahmed was hungry, then my lover pats a little Ahmed’s back so, he won’t puke. “What about triplets?” he asks suddenly, while I finish cleaning our mess of milk “we barely can handle it with one you need more?” I ask while smiling “more fun”

Hello there! I hope you are doing well

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Alex

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Pieces of Honor

Chapter 13 

  Ahh… the mission, the stupid as fuck mission was nothing really different, some dealing, some guns, drugs, and corpses of innocent people due to the problems and violent conflicts of the region, it always makes me feel sad, who wouldn’t be sad of seeing such devastation? 

  So, we are now in Afghanistan, three days more and we will return to China, a couple of months is a really short time. “So, you’ve been stealing our weapons” I say, next to me is a man, he seems to be one of our best clients, a chief in the region, another guy translate his words for me, the guys standing in front of us are trembling, I can see it. 

  I and the man called Hassan, our client, decided to hunt these bastards, after all our common trade was almost broken because of this people. Hassan tells me their men found more people inside, there are more of the thieves that tried to fool us, and a woman with a baby in her arms. “Mr. Hassan tells me we have to kill them all” my translator says, well… maybe the men, but the woman? “No, not the woman” she’s almost my age, her baby, no I can’t kill her, neither her baby, I’m not doing this sort of cruel things again. 

  “He says, he is sorry, but he can’t let the woman alive, you can take the kid if you want… other way they’ll kill the kid, they do not have how to feed such a small baby” says my translator “I’m taking the baby, ask Mr. Hassan if he would allow me to take the kid with me” I say without hesitation, I’m not killing another innocent more, neither allow Hassan to do it. 

  “Mr. Hassan says you can take the kid with you, he says God will bless you for saving such a pure creature” I gulp and nod “the woman, I’m killing her” I nearly cry while speaking that sentence, I will shoot her in a way she will not even feel it, in a way her body will not be deformed by the big bullets of their AK-47 “Mr. Hassan agrees” my translator again. 

  I approach to the woman, I ask my translator to help me “she says, please not my child” I sigh “not your child” I say trying to comfort her with my expression, he translates my words for the woman. I give her a warm smile, she seems to relax a little then she looks to her child, she maybe heard the words of Hassan. I look behind me, Hassan smiles warm to me and nods, as a way to tell me ‘you are doing what is right’, I smile back at him just the corner of my mouth moves, my way to tell him a small ‘I know’. His translator seems to be telling him what we are saying “hey” I call her attention “I just can save the kid” my translator tells her what I said.  

  She looks frightened, she scan us with her eyes, and looks again to her child “hey” I caress her face a little, I put my hand on my left side, where my heart is “I promise you, the kid will have the best things, your baby is going to be in the best schools, I will give this child everything they wishes” my translator again, then she murmurs something “she says, the name of the baby is Ahmed, it’s a boy”. 

  “Ahmed” I say, she nods a ghost of what it appears to be a smile on her face “I will protect him with all I have, I promise you” I look her right into her eyes, some tears fall from her beautiful eyes, she murmurs something to the baby, and finally gives him to me, I am sure she knows if she don’t, she will die with her kid. I receive him carefully then I kiss his eyebrows, he laughs at it. Her mom seemed to be relieved. 

  “She asks, if she can pray for her son before you take him with you” I nod, she starts to pray while I hold Ahmed in my arms, she takes a bracelet and puts it on his clothes “I will give this to him, don’t worry” my translator again does his job. “Seunghyun, come here, hold him” he quickly appears next to us, I take off my jacked to keep him warmer the sunset is there and soon the weather is going to became cold, he only has a thin fabric covering him. She murmurs something next to me “she asks if she can give him a kiss” I nod “sure”. Then she says goodbye to her son, it hurts me a lot, her tears falling freely from her eyes different to mine just hiding in the corner my eyes. 

  Seughyun walks back to where Hassan is, Hassan also greets the baby with a smile. “She says god will bless you” my translator says after walking back, he knows what I am going to do next, the woman now prays for her soul. I hug her, she starts sobbing “I am sorry” I say it in her language, I have learnt some phrases in these days, I want her to not be afraid, which is impossible, but I try “God bless you, too” I repeat again, she doesn’t notice how I aim my gun to her head while she is hugging me, then I shoot. 

  Her corpse just falls in my arms, Hassan starts praying. “Zhu Fa, Li Fu, please cave a proper place to bury this saint woman” I order them, they immediately began to cave in a place Hassan recommends, some of his men help mine. I carry the woman near to her tomb as if she was a baby, her corpse is very light; I carefully lay it in the ground. 

I stand in my feet, Seughyun is already inside the SUV, so Ahmed will not hear this, and with a single movement a loud burst of gunfire can be heard, those men, the thieves simply fall over, they are dead, I don’t even want to see it. Hassan tells me something “he asks if Ahmed is going to be your child” my translator “I do not know, maybe my brother” I reply, Hassan nods his way to say ‘I see’, then he tells me something else “Mr. Hassan says that he is almost sure that poor woman was kidnaped from another country, that her clothes doesn’t seem to be from here; also he is sure that those bastards raped her, they’re famous for doing such sins” I just don’t reply, I think that Hassan understands my silence. 

I look at the sky, it is reddish, soon the moon will replace the sun “it is ready, miss” Zhu Fa voice calls my attention “thanks guys” then they help me to bury this woman in the most appropriate way we can, I put her hands over her belly, Hassan approaches and says a pray again, then I start to cover her body with the sandy soil, I use a shovel, immediately one of the men of Hassan asks me to not do it, he says he will do it, I just nod and give him the black shovel. 

Shit.  

How am I going to tell my Ahmed I killed his mother? 

[alex-baebae]

Pieces of Honor

Chapter 12 

“Who the hell knows you?” I exclaim “why the hell knows that you’re korean? And that you were exactly in that SUV? You know! It is just strange” I say, biting my upper lip “are you saying that…” I sat down on the bed and looked at him, I finish his sentence before he does “yeah… they knew so much details! It is like someone from the mansion is betraying us…” I take a dep breathe “could be” he says, then he kissed my hair “shit, I’m gonna tell my father, this could be dangerous”. 

  The daylight wakes me up, a buzzing from my phone calls my attention “good morning” a familiar voice through the phone, I smile happy “hello, Maximiliano” I greet my old friend “how is doing my wonder woman?” he asks, I decide to go downstairs to not wake someone, specially Seunghyun “fine, I guess” he chuckles “do you think you can be here in your birthday?” he asks me. 

  “In Mexico City?” I ask back “yeah, we want to surprise you. It has been a long time no see you” he explains “sure, but is it not a little bit… too soon?” I ask while smiling, they remember and do care about me, which makes my heart melt in seconds “well yes, but I guess… you have to do a lot of things…”  

                                                                                     I take a deep breath, the sun was covering all the garden, and my feet as I looked the red flowers planted outside from a small room next to living room, we and Seunghyun used to study there when we were attending the school “yeah, I’m going to be busy tomorrow” I say.  

  “I see, so are you going to be able to be here at your birthday or… we can change the date of your party” he offers “no, it’s okay, don’t change it. My birthday is in three months” I say smiling all the time “I’m pretty tired, I would like to talk a little more but…” I smile again, now at his words and his exaggerated yawn. Feeling the soft autumn wind caressing my bare feet and my neck's skin, I respond “yeah, I understand. I love you Maximiliano” I hear him chucking “I love you, too”. 

  “Good morning, daughter” my father is there, maybe he hear the last sentences of my conversation “talking with Max?” he asks “yes… I really miss them all” he looks to the garden, standing next to me “I understand, it has been a long time” he just says this.

After a five minutes he speaks again “are you ready for tomorrow?” he asks, not even looking at me, just standing there with his hands behind his back, the same way as when I was a little child, that hurts me, I don’t know why but suddenly I need to cry. It was the same as when he sat down next to me on my bed and we talked a little, I wanted it to be more often and more time… I know… he had things to do, but there was only one thing I do really wished a hug from him, nevertheless I never dared to ask him such a thing.  

 “Yes” I say trying my best to not cry “well, good luck” he says, he attempts to leave “dad” I call him, he turns around to see me “I love you” I say before almost running into him and hugging him, he pats my back “my daughter” he kisses my forehead “I’m proud of you, I love you” then, he leaves. 

  I clean the tears that escaped from my eyes when he disappears, I hope he didn’t notice. I make my way to my room, I need to do my luggage and help Seunghyun with his.  

  12 am 

  We are about to leave, I’m in the living room, my parents saying goodbye, I took Seunghyun’s hand before got in the SUV, he squeezed my hand, I give him a quick kiss before our driver goes into the car.   

  My father is still looking for the traitor, we can’t find them, and they must have covered well their steps, careful for not leaving any mark, any clue. “Are you excited?” Seunghyun asks out of nowhere “yeah, kind of” I smile, Lu Feng goes into to the SUV.  

  “Hello” he greets us “are you going to join us?” I ask excited “sure, you both will be dead without me” he jokes “sure, sure. Feng” I reply moving my hand in a sassy way “the other Korean is going to join us in Afghanistan” he says “Daesung?” Seunghyun asks “yeah” Lu Feng replied while taking a cigarette from his pocket. 

  ...

In no time we are at the international airport, we get into the jet, we have a nice small dinner there. Before the jet takes off, Lu Feng comes to see everyone is alright “enjoy your private flight” Lu Feng says before get in the cabinet, I guess he is going to be the copilot.  

  “Shit” I say, I sigh “is something wrong…?” I gulp when my boyfriend asks “I’m not sure I do want to do this” I confess. “I know you are not comfortable with this, I could see it in your eyes” he caress my cheek his eyes full of love and compassion “I will support you, it doesn’t matter what decision you take” I smile sadly “thank you, I just hate this life” I stand up and walk to the bedroom of the luxurious as fuck plane. 

  I wash my face then I walk into the bedroom “Seunghyun” I hugged him “I love you” I say “I love you too” he says, covering me with his strong arms and his delicious scent. “This is shit” I comment “I hope we don't have to kill more Innocents” I murmur “let's sleep for a while” he holds me taking me to the bed “I will always love you” he says while he lays next to my body “I love you” I reply I can’t be tired of telling him how do I feel for him, his warm body is healing all the pain I’m feeling, but we have to wake up in some hours, what a shame! 

  “Guys, we’re Yemen” Lu Feng says knocking the door “we have to solve a problem here” he adds “what kind of problem?” I ask, still laying over Seunghyun chest, how the hell did I get on him? “vehicles” he says. 

[alex-baebae]

Pieces of Honor

 Chapter 11

Two days since Vlad came to China have passed, we have been dealing with more investors, doing some stuff at the Enterprise, etc. Today is Tuesday, my smartphone rings “hello?” I say “Zhao ____? From Pekin and Shanghai Co.?” a female voice “yeah” I answer “your boyfriend is at the Chaoyang hospital he had a car accident” she explained “what?” I say “yes, his name is TOP” that nickname I gave him.

I still remember clearly that day...

“So, you like Zhu li?” he asked “I think he's handsome” I say “so, are you falling for him, because I think he's in love with you” that guy was playing basketball, it is not like I had fell for him, also I didn’t want someone else to get involved with the bussiness of my family, it wouldn’t be fair.

“No, I'm not” I drink some tea “also he’s not as handsome as you my friend, you will always be my number one” I joke “oh! so, I'm at the top of your handsomeness’ board?” I laugh “yes, you are” he pokes my cheek “so, am I your top?” I got all red “w-what?” I laugh “oh, not in that way! He was embarrassed too “well, then...just TOP” I said.  

“I'll be there in no time” I almost run to my car, I drove fifteen minutes, fortunately I was doing some stuff near to that place, it was supposed we would meet at the enterprise, I guess they sent Seunghyun to do a dirty job.  

“I’m Zhao ____, I'm looking for TOP” I said as soon I stepped into the hospital “please follow me” I follow the first nurse who spoke to me, Seughyun is laying on a white bed, he smiles as soon as he sees me “his forehead has many cuts”  

“see, he got no broken bones which is good, a lesion in his right arm, he also has some pieces of glass on the skin that was exposed, but don’t worry is not as serious as it seems” she explained me “thank you very much” I said “if you'd like to take him home you can do it whenever you want you just need to tell the hospital administration” I just nod gently, and wait until she walked outside the room. I know… she knows who am I, well not exactly who I am, but you know… I’m the rich daughter of the Chinese Mafia, ___ Zhao, she surely knows the lastname Zhao means a sort of danger.

“How do you feel now?” I ask him “fine, it was not exactly a big deal” he says, I kiss his lips “was someone else with you?” he nods “yeah, that guy, Tao Fa” he’s okay as well he’s in the next room” he says “they called Lu Feng also” he adds “I see, give me a minute” I call Lu Feng immediately “are you at the hospital now?” I ask him through the phone “I’m arriving what ‘bout you?” he asks back “yeah, I’m with Seunghyun”.

Soon we are leaving the hospital, also the guy, Tao Fa is going with us, him and Seunghyun had to tell this to my father. “How are you feeling Fa?” I ask this guy, he smiles “fine, Miss Zhao, thank you” he is very polite “please, rest until my father arrives, you are very important for us” I say, he bows “thank you” he says “by the way Fa, there were other guys, I guess” he nods “yes but their lesions were nothing so they decided to return to the mansion as Lu Feng suggested to them, Seunghyun and I were the most affected” he explains, the same polite behavior “thank you”.

I walk inside the mansion, I ask Lu Feng to take Seunghyun to my bedroom, for taking care of him, even feeding him with fruit, a little fork helping me with the job “are you feeling better love?” he smiles “I feel like I'm being too much spoiled” he says “I’ll spoil you a lot, get used to this” he chuckles “I’ll do the same, and I don’t want to hear a no” he kisses my cheek “I love you” he tells me, I smile ashamed of his sudden confession “I think I do fell in love since I saw you in the garden, when we were kids” I give him a peck “I can tell the same”.

At the night we have a social event, so I’m brushing my hair now “are you sure you want to go?” I’m worried about him “yes, I’m okay” I kiss his lips before helping him to put on his suit.  

He is next to me, we are in a luxurious hotel in Shanghai my father is talking with many people, he introduced me, but then I just wanted to be in a corner. “Hey there!” a masculine voice calls me “good night” I answer “Zhao ____, I’m Kwon Jiyong. Nice to meet you” he introduces himself “nice to meet you” I answer.

“Can we talk… alone?” he asks “sure” I say “I'll be back soon, my love” I tell Seunghyun he nods. We walk until we reach a very big balcony and fresh air, there are a few people “what do you want to talk about” I ask “oh, I just… wanted to talk about you” I chuckle “ah… well, you are losing your time” I say still trying to not laugh “I think you are gorgeous” he says.  

“What about going in a date with me, you won’t regret it” he says trying to show off, I just laugh “I-” the figure of my mom is suddenly in front of me before I can respond to his words “Kwon Jiyong, what are you doing here?” she asks “oh just nothing, business as everyone here” he’s confident “I see” my mom sure is glaring at him  

“Whatever I must leave now… by the way my father sends you his best wishes” he says before leaving and smiling at me “mom...?” she turns around to see into my eyes “don't make deals with the Kwon” she says “there are just opportunistic, don’t even get in touch with him neither his sister” I give her a non-sense look.

“Dami?” I ask, of course that girl was amazing everyone knows about her, and although Seunghyun and Lu Feng told me I was reaching her in popularity, I don’t think it could be possible, I mean she’s a legend in this business “yeah, don't get involved with them, neither Jiyong, neither his father, neither Damy” she just left, when I was alone in that balcony Seunghyun approached “are you okay?” he asks.

“Yes, I just can’t understand why my mother told me to not get involved in the business of the Kwon” I explain quickly. By the way, I have never heard such amazing things of Jiyong as the things I heard of Damy, well he’s younger maybe he is trying to start as me “as long as I know, they’re not our enemies… neither allies” he tells me “hey, TOP” the first time I call him this way after a long time “yeah?” he is surprised by my sudden change in the conversation “fuck me in the restrooms”.

I’m a moaning mess, my walls are clenching around his fingers, he is hitting my g-spot from behind, I love it when he takes control “babe” he calls me, my chest against the cold luxury marble decoration on the wall, my legs spread at each side of the toilet, nobody is there, we locked all the big room.  

He kneels to eat me out “shit, Seunghyun” I exclaim, he was doing such a good job, biting, and licking at an incredible speed, then he stands up, he caresses my clit in circles while pounds into me hard, I felt a strange sensation in my belly “ah, wait” I say, however he doesn’t stop due to is not our safe word.  

“I think...” a louder moan escapes from my lips “I think I’m going to squirt” I say this time “it’s okay, the toilet is down there” he says. In no time my legs are shaking, he’s holding me so I do not fall around, soon my juices are soaking his cock and his fingers, my body is trembling and my eyes roll back. That was such a good orgasm, he cums this time moaning into my ear. “That was a good quickie” I kiss his lips before we clean our mess up.

“Where have you been?” my father asks five minutes after we went out of the restrooms “I was talking with Jiyong, and then I went outside, you know I feel strange when so many people is around me” I say “well, come here I going to introduce you to someone. Come too, son” he said to Seunghyun, my father seemed to not care about the Kwon, so why my mother...?  

“Mister Oikawa, my daughter, ____”we bowed “and this guy” he looked proudly to Seunghyun “is one of best men I could have ever had, he’slike my son, his name is Seunghyun” he bowed as well “well, I’ve heard what you have done, let me congratulate you, I must say you are one of the most amazing of the children of the Mafia bosses” I smile.

“Thank you for your words but I only do the best I could” I say “and also humble, you remind me myself at your age, I wish I could have a daughter like you in the future” he says “thanks for your words, sir” he smiled “I also hear you are doing a really good job, congratulations you are one in a million” he said to Seunghyun he just bowed “Damy Kwon and the oldest of the Romanov must keep an eye on you, maybe you’ll beat them in popularity in just a few months” he comments.

After that conversation, my father tells Seunghyun to go to rest he has been pushing himself hard, although he has many injuries, he appears to be perfectly fine. I decide to go home with him, my father doesn’t oppose to my petition. “Please, do it careful” I tell him “yes” he groans a little while he lays down in my bed “Seunghyun” I call him while I lay down next to him “yes, my love?” he responds “who do you think attacked you all?” I ask suddenly.

“I don’t know, I mean, everything happened too quick” he says trying to remember, trying to find a clue or something “five black SUVs appeared of nowhere, then, one run into the one I was in with Tao, and from another many bullets were shot” he gulps “when I opened my eyes I was on the asphalt, it appeared that we collided with a tree or something else, I tried to move, a man called me 'treator' in Korean and tried to shot me…” he pauses “but Tao shot him first, then Tao passed out”.

[alex-baebae]

Immaculate

Chapter 27 

“You are... sorry?” I asked curious of his sudden change of attitude I mean since the day he came to our house furious “yes, very sorry” he looked directly into my eyes, he said that sincerely “explain yourself” I said firmly, breathing deep he continued “I… I discovered you didn’t buy him” he told me; he was biting his lips “what? How?”  

He hesitated to speak again, he seemed to be nervous about me knowing “see, something in my stupid chest kept telling me you were not like those people” he took a deep breathe, trying to find the right words I guessed. “So, I went to the place I worked, a factory of ‘sex-dolls’ you know that one called Desires, which, of course, has been closed since three months ago, as the new legislation states” I give him a nonsense look  

“I know, it is strange, weird. But if I worked there was because aimed at spoil the production” he shrugged “their last set of 100 ‘sex-dolls’ embryos was spoiled by me” he bitted his inner cheek “whatever, it doesn’t matter anymore” he tried to continue it was really hard for him “you saved those poor creatures” I said without thinking “yes, kind of, they will not have to live a life as sexual slaves” he said “I hope, if we have souls, that they’re in a good world, not like this shitty one” he added. 

“How did you?” I asked “it doesn’t matter now; I’ll tell you later. Now, I want to apologize for my behavior, I should have thought the things twice” he said sincerely, I remain silent for a minute “I know what I have done, and if you don’t talk to me after this I will completely understand, even if you want to punch my face or push me into that puddle” he pointed at a puddle of rain water along the street “I will accept it, you know, I am such an asshole... I-”.  

“You have to apologize to someone else, not me” I cut his words, he nodded “if you let me and if he wants to see my stupid face after what I’ve done, I’ll do it, I won’t hurt him anymore” I shook my head “Wha- Why you do this?”. 

“I could say that I know how hard is for them, since I have lived with a ‘sex-doll’ many years of my early life” he said with a sad smile on his face, I opened my mouth to ask anything about what he said, but there were no words “my mom… my mom is a sex-doll” he confessed his eyes were full of tears in that moment, he look to the side and wiped his tears with the sleeve of his hoodie “but-” I tried to ask; he knew what I was going to say “yes… I am that cero cero one fucking percent probability” he told me. 

We remained in silence for five or more minutes still processing what he confessed me, and he still processing what he has told me, something really personal I could say. “I’ll tell him, wait here” I finally could speak. 

I didn’t shut the door “who was it?” he asked me curious, he obviously had not heard the voice of Takashi, I took a breath figuring out how to say it “sweetie, don’t be scared, it is Takashi” he furrowed his eyebrows. “He wants to apologize for what he told you, he is very, very sorry” I said “would you allow him to enter and apologize to you?” I asked this time due to there was no response. 

“Yes” 

Finally, Takashi apologized to him, he also kneeled in front of TOP “I am so sorry, please forgive me, I should never hurt you in such a way” TOP hesitantly put his hand over Takashi’s shoulder “n-no problem” he said but not looking into his eyes, he removed his hand slowly and put on his lap, looking to other site, he was sat on the big sofa “I’m sorry, Seunghyun” he whispered the pain was still in Takashi’s heart. 

“N-no problem, just don’t tell anyone” he still not looking at Takashi. “Never, I promise”. He stood up, he grabbed his navy-blue backpack which was attached to his back, it was a little wet due to the misty rain of twenty minutes ago, he clearly came to our house walking “by the way, here” he gave me a bunch of papers “what’s these?” I asked looking at the blue sealed plastic that protected the papers from the rain “the papers of Seunghyun” he simply said, then he attached his backpack to his back again, I tried to speak again, but I couldn’t he smiled at my actions “let me show you” he said kindly. 

He opened the sealed plastic to reveal a pretty fancy bunch of paper, it has the information of Seunghyun “So, this has all the information of him, age, blood type, etc.” he placed the useless plastic on my desk “then, there’s further information of him and a guide to take care of him and bullshit, you will understand later why do I call it that way” he smiled again. 

“There’s no other copy, just the owner’s, so, if you want you can fill up the spaces that are in blank, I’ve already write the buying date” he showed me the page “here, so, you’ll have no problem. I searched for him in the database, and there’s one day when he just disappeared, so I looked for the security cameras’ recordings of those days and I discovered someone stole him, but she forgot to steal this papers, so I put that date, everyone will believe you bought him” he took a deep breathe “there will be no problems for you both” he waited for a response “why?” he chuckled “is it not obvious? I do care about Seunghyun”. 

“Oh! if you both agree, you can just burn those papers, so Seunghyun would have never existed, and you can go to the town council and make a register of him as someone from the outside points or as someone who has not been registered, you know there are many problems with the population data, they will not suspect” I just reminded silent “if you decide to register him, wait a month… in a month they will demolish those factories and even if they try… they will find nothing” after his long explanation and the lack of our responses he smiled again “then I have to go somewhere else, see you later” he walked towards the main door “wait, Takashi” I almost shout “yes?”. 

“Neal is worried” I said, I didn’t process all the information he gave me at that moment “I know, I’m actually going to his place, don’t worry, I won’t tell him about this”. He opened the door “Oh! I almost forgot it, if you are going to register Seunghyun, change his name, everything, even his age, tell them he has Vietnamese or Chinese ascendancy, I don’t know, but lie about everything, just in case” I smiled and then he left. 

I sighed, realived, there was another problem resolved. I sat down next to TOP “I’m going to fill up this papers, just in case, in a month we will burn these” I said, he just nodded, hiding his face in my neck “I’m tired” he whispered, I took him to our bedroom and sat next to him until he fell asleep, then I return to the living room, I was going to make our dinner, however I saw the papers. 

Curiosity filled my body, so I decided to read those fancy papers before going to the kitchen, I read carefully the information about my lover, everything seemed right, like a medical register, then I continued reading. There was photos of him, of his open mouth, legs, butt, everything of his body, just to make sure the merchandise was in optimal state. 

I kept reading, there was a list of sex toys and how to use those on him, how to feed him properly, exercises routines to keep him in shape, kinds of food he needed to avoid, etc. I understood why Takashi called it bullshit. Nothing else, so I filled up the blank spaces, and then I locked those papers in our strongbox, it was in our closet, he was still asleep. 

I did something quickly for me, then I made a meal appropriated for my lover, and of course I served him a piece of chocolate cake my father send us, he doesn’t like when we eat cakes not home baked. 

  In a pair of days he insisted in went to the university with me, he didn’t want to be alone in our house, we drove to the parking lot next to the faculty, it was cold and rainy that day. He waited for me next to the cafeteria, I went upstairs to where Professor Alison was, we talked a little about my thesis and so on, after all it was a quick check of my work and I listened to his recommendations carefully. I thanked him, afterwards I went downstairs to the cafeteria. 

“So, it is suspected that the woman was a worked from HongKong district, she was a citizen and not a sex doll” the TV of the cafeteria was on the news channel “so, as the security cameras of the city confirmed the version of the police department, a pack of wolfs attacked her, also the autopsy pointed out that she has recently used drugs. By her behavior registered in the recording the police department stated she probably caused the attack” there was a picture of that women, which case had been open since many time ago, I was looking for TOP inside the cafeteria, maybe he went to the toilet, I don’t know. 

“Is she” he whispered, I turned around when I was about to take my phone out of my coat and call him, he was standing in front of me, I turned rapidly to the TV, it was true, then the picture disappeared, they were talking about other kind of news. “she is dead” he gulped, she was shocked. “Babe, let’s go” I tried to take him back to reality “hm?” he hummed in response “time to go” I smiled, he just nodded. 

“So, you fucked a lot yesterday” Josh said sort of loud “Josh!” both Takashi and Neal yelled at him. “Hello, sis” I greeted Josh “oh! you are here!” he hugged me and the Seunghyun “hello” TOP said shyly “hello there, guys” I smiled “so, you fucked a lot yesterday” I repeated Neal’s face was completely red he just hid his face behind Takashi’s head “tell them to stop, Takashi” he said. We all laughed. Us all had things to do, so we didn’t stay there for so long. 

Everything keep going, when a moth passed we went to the town council to register TOP, I saw in the news those places were demolished, we registered him with a little change in his name, then we went for some groceries, we were about to enter in the supermarket when a card box called his attention; he approached it, then I followed him “are this baby birds?” he asked me “yes, gosh they must be really cold” actually a few minutes ago it started snowing “we should take them to the vet” he quickly grabbed the box. 

“yes, they’re baby pigeons, they are healthy, thank you for helping them” the vet smiles to us “they will be okay while in a warm place, are you planning in adopting them?” I had took care of chicks and birds when I was a little kid, so I guess it will be no problem “sure” I said, then the vet smiled “then, could you give us some food for them” I added “of course, just give me a minute”. He went for some bags of special food, when we paid the bill, we took them into the car, TOP placed his scarf around them I did the same “we should bathe them first, then we are going to put them into their house” I pointed at a stuffed little house in form of a strawberry. 

We drove to our house, we can do the groceries later “hello, babies” he pet their little heads softly, careful to not hurt them “they like you” I told him when the pigeons started to peck his finger searching for food “they are cute” he said, paying total attention to them. 

Then we raised them, well, obviously he paid more attentions to them than me. We started calling them “our babies” they helped TOP to be focused in other things different from his bad memories, it made me happy, seeing him better and better.

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Pieces of Honor

Chapter 10 

“On your knees” she orders and aims to the head of that bastard “oh! wait, do it on the grass, I won’t like to give more job to the people that help us to clean the house” she says, as if it is nothing serious, after all he is just another man.  

Soon his dead body is taken by some guards “please, clean this properly guys” she says, no emotion on her face “good morning” she smiles at me “let’s have breakfast together, then we will go to the Enterprise” I just nod and walk behind her. 

“Why did you hit him?” she asks out of nowhere looking into my eyes while we walk by some popular streets of Pekin “I… I just was mad, I don’t like when men refer to women in such a way, my mom was a prostitute, many men always insulted her, I just feel is not fair” I explain “plus… you are my lover, I just… I just can’t let him express about you in such a stupid way” I add, I hold her hand.  

“You also protected me from your mother’s words” I wait for her response, she chuckles “did you heard us?” she asked, I shook my head “no, I was in your bedroom… Lu Feng told me” I say, she squeezes my hand. We keep walking that way, holding hands and sending kisses at each other at some points when the streets seemed empty. 

“Wait for me here, I will talk to my father, he said it is something important, then we are going to talk with the investors” I nodded, “oh! I have something to tell you” she grabs my tie and pulls it, kissed my lips “I love you too” she left me completely red, obviously she saw my actions as a way to say ‘I love you’. 

About twenty minutes after, she finally is back “let’s go, darling” she tells me, we drove to the place of the meeting, a really nice restaurant. They were not investors… well sometimes they really invested in the Enterprise, doing what is right. The Enterprise was focused in making office stuff, hotels, services, etc. But the Zhao used it to money washing. This time those 'investors' were going to wash up their money. It of course had risk; so, ____ has to negotiate the quantity, the commission for the Enterprise, and so on. 

Well she was very good at negotiating, so we finished our meeting quickly, she told me to go to the house with her, that something important was going to be there. When we arrived home, we heard the laugh of the little prince Romanov, a way to distinguish Vlad from his older brothers. We believed that he wanted to negotiate a thing or two with the Zhao, that’s what her father told her. 

Now, I’m with Daesung outside the house “do you know why the little prince of the Romanov is here?” I ask curious “he’s goona ask ___ to marry him” that freezes me, I guess Daesung noticed but he said nothing. “Son” my day calls me, he takes me to another place to talk privately with me. “What do you want to tell me?” I ask still dazed by what Daesung told me “she…” my eyes are soon full of tears I try to hold  

“Yeah, I know” I reply “I’ve told you that… well your love for her… you have to extinguish your feelings for her” he clears his throat “I wouldn’t like to see you suffering” he cups my face “pay attention” he commands, I was lost in my mind, I look at him “don’t be stupid, you are not the same as her”. He pats my cheek and walks away, he and Daesung bow slightly to each other, he keeps walking until he disappears inside the mansion. 

My whole world was ending, but it is not like I could go inside and tell her “don’t marry him” and then runaway holding her hand, not in this situation, not into the heart of the Chinese Mafia. 

____’s POV

“See, Vlad” we are alone, after an uncomfortable conversation with my parents we finally are alone to talk about this “my father and your mother did an agreement, and you know this is only for business” he is explaining, why he is here in China “we can do this business without marry, but not misunderstand this… I’m in love with you, this is not just a business for me” he holds my hand “come to Russia with me, marry me” he kneels in front of me. 

“Ah” I rub my scalp nervously with my fingerprints “Vlad, see… I’m in love with someone else, I don’t wanna hurt your heart, for me that’s something really important and special” I hesitate to say the next words “I… won’t sorry, I can’t” I say finally to him, quickly, hoping this to end the same “oh, I see” he says still kneeled 

“Let me help you” I help him to stand up, offering my hand to him “oh, well don’t worry… I mean we don’t know each other very well and... I respect your love for someone else” he continues now stood on his feet, I try my best to not interrupt “I know this is a no, but if you change your mind, I’ll be in Russia and” he kisses my hand respectfully “you only have to call me and I’ll be here in no time” I smile at how he reacted and I caress the back of the hand that was holding mine “thank you, Vlad” he nods. 

“But, well... I’ve also to tell you that, I’m crazy for you… not the bad way, I just like you so much, I guess that I fell for you since our last conversation” he chuckled “that’s all, I promised myself to tell you what I feel for you, because you know I’m very timid” I smiled “you are so brave, for telling me this” I kiss this time his hand. 

We say goodbye to each other, then the little prince was near to the garage talking with my mother she seems to be furious, although he tries to calm her down, he’s a good man. I sent Seunghyun a message 'see you in my bedroom' then I just keep sit down in the couch watching how my mother goes crazy. 

'I'm here' a message from him. I go upstairs, I open the door. Seunghyun’s eyes were reddish he probably cried “Seunghyun” I wrap my arms around his neck “when are you going to leave?” he tried his best to put a smile on his face, I kiss his lips he hugs me, holding my waist, he’s hungrily kissing me, I do the same.  

“I won’t marry him” I say, he is surprised “what? Why?” I kiss him again “is it not obvious? I’m in love with you” I say cupping his face “but, the Romanov family will be…” I smile, he is noticeably surprised “he understood, he is also trying to calm my mother now” Seunghyun is even more surprised now “I believed he was like the other guys from the mafia” he says “jerks like me?” I ask chuckling “you are not a jerk, that’s only your image” he states “are you sure?” I ask, he chuckles now “I’ve seen what you spend your money in” I burrow my eyebrows “you donate to many good causes”. 

After his words I get completely red “that was supposed to be a secret” he lifts me up “it’s the sweetest secret” he says playfully “please don’t tell anyone, everyone believes I’m a bad guy” I rub his cheeks with my thumps giving him more kisses “I won’t, but see you are not a jerk!” 

Now, we’re in the kitchen stealing some food before dinner, Miss Liu is not here, from the window we can see Vlad talking with my father, my father and him are laughing they seem to like each other company, my mom is not there ‘where can she be at?’ I thought to myself. My father is giving instructions to his men, suddenly Seunghyun kisses my lips “jealous?” I whisper, I know it, he was sure that Vlad was seeing me through the window “no” he says eating an apple in a cool way, his elbow resting on the kitchen counter “of course, no”. 

Vlad point of view 

I really had hope that when I were returning to Russia, she would be with me. But it seems someone has already her heart, well... it can’t be helped. I had a laugh with Boss Zhao, and discussed a little with her mom, I don’t know exactly the reason why she insisted in this marriage. I guess when I return to Russia my brothers will make fun about this, however I feel good, I've never be able to tell my feelings to someone and I did this finally. My social anxiety always has fucked up my plans, but this time is different, she was very kind. 

I saw his boyfriend kissing her, and I didn’t feel my heart break, I feel happiness inside it, ____, I wish you’ll be happy. I was about to leave when I overheard her parents yelling at each other “why are you so obsessed with the Russians?!” Mr. Zhao shouts “that’s the only way no one will ever dare to do anything to her!” she responds, I decided to hear more, is someone trying to hurt ___? 

“Who would do that?” he yelled at her mother “respond!” I closed the door of my car, but ordered my driver to stay a little more there. “Darling, please, is anyone hunting her?” the voice of Mr. Zhao was full of anxiety “n-no, it is just” then silence “I know you are still scared of what happened”. I decide is not my business, if ___ needs help I will be there, she has my phone number, she would call me, I hope. 

____’s POV

“Feng” I called my friend “why did you tell Seunghyun?” I asked, I know, it is part of his job, to be next to the door whenever my dad asked him to do it. So, he usually heard many things, but believe me he's a trustable person.  

“Ah… you already know it” he comments “yeah, tell me”. “I appreciate you both a lot, and I’ve always believed that love, true love is something holy. I can see how you look to each other’s eyes and all the love you radiate…” he chuckles “I just want to help you, your love is something worthy, and you both are like my little siblings, I have to take care of you” he tells me.

“Thank you” I simply say realizing how much he appreciates my family, he was being here since he was fourteen years old, he have worked hard for us, for a short period of time he was Amber’s partner “no problem” he answered, pinching my cheeks, he used to do this the few times he took care of me when I was a child. 

[alex-baebae]

Immaculate

Chapter 26 

“Please no” I begged, my voice was so shaky. I had a flashback inside the nightmare; A flashback of the ocassion when, after she broke my toes with the hammer, she ‘fixed them’ with her bare hands, so, no one would notice it once they had healed, it hurt so much that I passed out. “_____, ______” I woke up, it was dark as in my dream, all my body was covered in sweat, my chest pumping as in the nightmare, my lungs trying to get some oxygen while mi tears soaked my face, I moved rapidly towards the door of our room, I was going to lock it up.  But by the time I reached that place the door was being opened, ____ was there. “___” I spread my armsin an attempt to reach her body, she kneeled down I didnt notice I crawled again “what’s going on?” she asked “s-she” I was not able to speak, my sobbing didn't allow me.

“____” took me back to the bed “sweetie” she was concerned I could see it in her face, my lips were still trembling “I had a n-nightmare” I finally spoke “she was here” I gulped “she was going to” I was still hyperventilating “to rape me” I looked at ___’s face, she kissed my cheeks “no one will ever touch you a single hair without your permission, I promise” she kissed my hands.

That night we didn't sleep, I was too scared and my love was worried, she had to go to the university, I told her to go, but she stayed at home. “Sweetie” she kissed my lips softly I hide my face in her neck. I remembered the first days I did this. I know, I was fool, she could had behaved like the other people I’d met before, but for some reason my heart told me she was not like them; my heart was so needy to feel better, to feel protected from them. I unconsciously did this, she made me feel okay, and her warm arms wrapped around me feel so good that I could say all my muscles relaxed.  

“I love you” I told her, then she kissed my head “I love you too”.  

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“Hey, guys!” Neal run into us “have you seen Takashi?” he asked us, since we started to work in our thesis respectively, we hadn’t time to be together “no, I haven't seen him since… a whole week or more!” Josh said “shit! I'm worried. He usually disappears one week when he's sad or something, but no more time! It has been two whole weeks, plus he always tells me if he wants to be alone or if he is nofeeling well”, Neal was biting his lips a lot, he was terribly concerned about his boyfriend  

“If I call him, maybe he will respond” Josh offered “No, he never answers” Neal said “well, I am going to see in the places he usually is when this happens” he said, not even looking at us, he was thinking I guessed “see ya, later” he walked quick towards the main entrance of the campus. “I hope he is okay” Josh said “me too” I whispered.  

In the afternoon I was welcomed by TOP, I started to do some research on internet, and attending some stuff of our company after a nice meal with my lover. Seunghyun was drawing in his tablet on the sofa meanwhile I was doing my business on a desk which was in the living room. Suddenly he was next to me “’___” he said my name “yes?” he sat on my lap, his legs at each side of my hips, his arms around my neck and his ashamed eyes “what's wrong?” I asked, putting my hands carefully on his waist “mh…” he hesitated to tell me.  

“Angel?” I called him again “have you finished your work?” he asked not looking at my eyes “yeah” he locked eyes with me for a second “I’m needy” he finally said, his face totally blushed “oh! I see” I could tell I was blushed as him. I looked down aiming at cool down, it was a total failure, his hard manhood let me know how aroused he was.  

“Sweetie” I gulped “mh… if you don't want to… I-” I kissed his lips “I do want” he smiled “tell me, what would you like me to do?” I asked “could you… could you suck my nipples?” he whispered clearly embarrassed “you do it carefully, I like it a lot” I kissed his neck he whimpered. I moved my hands under his gray sweater touching all his torso, he laid on his elbows, those were on my desk trying to give me a better access “you look lovely” I said he just smiled getting more embarrassed if that could be possible.

I lifted his sweater he got some goose bumps when I touched his hard nipples with my fingers, I sucked the left one hard he moaned loud “____?” he called me “yes?” I stopped for a while “could I take my pants off? The zipper… it hurts” he explained I took his member out “better?” he nodded “yes, better” I continued sucking his chest while stroking him, he moaned uncontrollably, his body shivered at some points “wait” he said with his shut eyes “sorry” maybe I was so rough with his body “no… it feels good but… I-I want to please you, as you pleased me the last night” he said “oh” I bit my lips “sure” I said. “Come with me to the bedroom” he said.  

I sat on the bed while all of our clothes were spread over the floor, I laid down “go ahead” I spread my legs for him. I have never felt so embarrassed, he seemed to be nervous “if you don't like it… tell me” he said.  

He kissed my thigs, my knees before liking my clit a little I moaned, the sensation made me shiver “is something wrong?” he asked “no, it feels good” I said. He then continues liking softly my clit, my inner lips. “You taste good” he commented I laugh a little, he looked at me confused “sorry, it is just that… no one has ever told me I do taste good” he laughed a little as well “if you want, I won’t talk” he said “no, no problem” I said.  

He was back in pleasing my clit, I’m trying to not moan too loud, I reach his black hair, caressing his scalp, his fingers were slowly introduced into my wet flower, he curls them hitting my g-spot “oh my god...” my eyes rolled back, he continued his movements slowly as before “faster, please” I ask him “if it hurts, tell me... okay?” we locked eyes “okay”.  

Them his fingers are thrusting into me the faster he can do it, and his mouth so focused on making me cum, my thighs squeeze his neck a bit. His free hand holds my right hand while I uncontrollable quiver for him. “Seunghyun” I whisper.  

I orgasmed hard it hitt me in waves, he kept liking “please, wait” I caress his cheek “give me a second” I smile, he nodded smiling back. “Would you like me… to be the bottom?” I ask “you want to...?” I nodded “maybe you would like it” I say, he blushed “we can give a try” after his response I laid on my stomach “please” I told him, he positioned between my legs, his member penetrated me carefully. “Can I move?” he asked me “yes” while he was pounding into me, he kissed me passionately, he again licked my lips, however at some point he felt uncomfortable.  

He stopped, he sat on his legs “___?” he called me, while he put his hands between his knees “is something wrong?” he looked to the mattress “can we do it in another position? I feel like I'm hurting you” he spoke timidly “sure”.  

I kneeled on the bed, now being in charge, I took his length into my hands, “uhg-ugh” tears rolled down, his manhood was palpitating “feels good, feels so good” he exclaimed, I could see a plea in his eyes for more stimuli. “Let me please you properly” I said. I positioned behind him, I kissed his back, his neck. Then I continued stroking his member, he kept moaning, his eyes shut.  

“Ng… ahh…stop it, stop it” tears soaked his cheeks “sorry, my love. Sorry” I covered him quickly with a mattress, he was hyperventilating, scared,moaning out of fear “I’m here baby, sorry” I hugged him “_-___” he mumbled “shh, baby… it’s okay” I said.  

“It’s okay, I’m not gonna force you, I love you” he was calmed down after several minutes “sorry, I couldn’t finish this” he said “don’t worry about this, baby. You are what matters the most, I won’t force you and neither do you have to force yourself” he looked at me and nodded.  

“I remembered…” he paused, he was still embarrassed about telling me certain things “when… one day I had to work… well when they raped me…” he got cozier with me looking for protection, I caressed his hands in response while with my other arm I hugged him closer “that man, put many things in my chest, in my penis and inside my butthole” he almost whispered the last words “those vibrated really hard, and I was so scared” he confessed “my body felt strange, it hurt but at the same time… I got hard, I didn’t want” he started to shake “I felt so filthy that night” he tried to continue “I-I couldn’t do anything, I was tied up” his chest was going up and down quickly “that felt horrible, he was behind me all that time, playing with my penis, my body never shook that hard before, I thought I was going to pass out”.

Many days passed since that afternoon, I noticed that TOP seemed to be sad sometimes, after all the despicable things he experienced, he do need medical attention. I asked my mom if it could be possible to take him to see a psychologist or something, she said I had to be careful, that maybe my aunt could help me, so I asked her that favor. She told me to wait a little, she wanted to found the proper person to attend TOP.

“Don’t worry sweetie, it’s normal to go to see a psychologist” I was convincing him to go “but, are you going to stay by my side?” he said while his hands where in the middle of his knees “I don’t want to be alone with anyone else” he added “of course, if you want I will be by your side” I smiled “then, I want to go, I don’t like being sad all the time” I caressed his cheek he bend his face on the palm of my hand trying to feel more of my skin over his, he was closing his eyes.  

Someone knocked the door “I’ll be back in a second” I told him, he only nodding following me with his eyes all the way to the door, I opened it without asking who it was “hello there” it was Takashi “what do you want” I responded serious, I closed the door behind me, he tried to say something, it seemed to be hard for him “I’m sorry” he finally spoke “I don’t know how to start”. 

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[alex-baebae]

Pieces of Honor

Chapter 9 

“____ Zhao” I said “so, is this your birthday party?” he asked “kind of” I respond “let me tell you that you look beautiful, ma’am” I chuckle “ma’am?” I look at him I laugh, he does the same “call me, ___” I say “then, call me just Vlad” he says. “You have an amazing father, he’s one of the best men I have ever seen” he comments “I can’t remember your father, when he visited us I was a pretty little child” I say “but the amazing things I have heard about him, make me think the same, he’s one of the bestest” I say “bestest?” he chuckles and rises his eyebrows “yeah, bestest” I drink a little of my champagne glass “you sure are funny” he says “I like it” he adds looking at me. 

The party was… boring I don’t like parties. I’m such a boring human being. It was a rainy night, the drops decorated beautifully the glass of the big windows, we were at the top of a high building. I planned to have sex with Seunghyun again when we arrived at home, seeing him in that expensive suit that fitted him perfectly made me feel so horny. I had to see my father first, he wanted to talk with me, ha! After many years he finally wants to talk with me more often, right now when I don’t want to do it so frequently. 

He talked about random things of the party and so on, my mother was there visibly annoyed “then, I need to rest, if you don’t have to mention something else…” my father interrupted me “no, please. Wait a second, this is important” my father sipped his coffee after his words “sure” I say and sit down again “I… well, we were thinking about a marriage” he says, I only nodded looking directly to them encouraging them to continue “you and Vlad, this is going to be really good for the business, just imagine it, so much power all over the world” my mom tells me “ah… I don’t think so” I say. 

She takes a deep breath trying to not yell at me, I know it “see, now, I’m dating someone… and Prince Romanov… I don’t feel attracted to him” I say “the guy you’re fucking?” my mom asks “his name is Seunghyun, and he’s my boyfriend, not just the guy I fuck” I reply my mom only laughs “see, after all... he’s no one, just get rip off him” she tells me “he’s the son of my best friend be more respectful” my father says, my mom is pissed off again “marry Vlad, is my last word” she says “mom, I’m an adult now. You can’t decide for me” I say firmly, my father is in his mind as always “do whatever you want daughter” he finally speaks “you own your life” he looks at my mom, he’s angry 'shit another fight between them' I say to myself “you are ruining your daughter’s future, you know it” that’s the last thing I heard before I left the room. 

Seunghyun's point of view 

Our next mission is going to take place in Afghanistan, I have no more details, but we are going to be there a pair of months, whatever. When we arrived home, ___ told me she wanted to fuck me again, so I had to wait for her inside her room. I was aroused of course, the image of her choking me made me hard, I’ve never experienced this. When I read many articles, expediencies. etcetera, many women liked to be the bottom, and now I know why they like it. It just feels so good being attacked that way, the thought of being roughly fucked by her, simply blew my mind. 

When she entered into the room my heart was racing, I wanted to feel her hands all over me, I wanted to shake violently while she pleased me, I was needy. However, she ignored me.  

“Shit” she whispers “_-__?” I called her “they want me to marry Romanov” she tells me with her hands hiding her face, her elbows on her knees, she is sat in a chair in front of the bed where I am laying over my elbows “w-hat, Romanov?” I ask her, I sit now “yeah” my heart breaks into pieces, I am not able to talk, the pain in my chest exploited all over my body “are you going to marry him?” I stupidly ask, of course she’s gonna do it. 

“No” she tells me “don’t you see I’m so fucking in love with you?” she smiles at me “I love you too” I say, I smile weakly. 

She’s returns to her previous position “but, if your parents want you to marry him, you should do-”. “And then leaving you?” she stands up and takes my hand into hers “I’m not going to do such a thing” I gulp “but your parents know what is better for you” I try to convince her “can’t live properly without you” she tells me.  

See… I know I’m comparison to the little prince of the Romanov I’m… nothing let’s face the truth, she must be with him for this business “marry him” I encourage her “really?” she asks “yeah” she pulls me near to her lips “and what are you gonna do?” She asks me “me?... Uhm, I’m still going to be your lover, you know…” I’m playing with her hands “when the prince is not home, we can fuck” I said timidly.  

“Oh! so you're planning to satisfy me if Romanov doesn’t” she chuckles “yeah…”. “Or maybe you and Romanov at the same time” she comments “I didn’t know you were into threesome” I joke “actually I’m not, I prefer to enjoy everything of a person, his smell, his sweat, his expressions, everything about them” pushes me onto her bed “took off your clothes”. 

“Yes, mommy”. 

After a large foreplay, I was thrusting into her, her legs were wide spread for me, her right hand chocking me tight “ugh, mommy” I say while I feel my orgasm being built, I was close, she was enjoying it too “be quiet” she spanks me, I moan hard “what did I tell you?” she tightens her grip “sorry, mommy” she kisses me now. 

“Wanna cum, little boy?” she says “yes, please” I reply feeling on the edge “you have my permission” she tells me. My mind went blank, I can’t remember how hard I screamed her name, while I was riding my high with a few sloppy thrusts she spanked me, I shivered. I felt something wet in my stomach and around my manhood. “Shit!” she whispered, she was lost in her high when I recovered a little, she clearly went rough on her clit. “You… you squirted” I say “it explains why it felt so different” she tries catch her breath. 

“What is going on?” I whisper softly, I am too tired we are too tired, we slept all the morning of course hugging each other, I kiss Seunghyun's face waking him up with a broad smile “morning” he says rubbing his eyes “let’s go to have breakfast somewhere else” I comment. 

We go to a restaurant inside the heart of the city, we are having some pancakes “your father already told Daesung our next mission” he says while eating some strawberries “really?” I eat a piece of pancake “Afghanistan” he comments “surely my mom selected that place” I say, now drinking all my coffee “there’s a problem with the guns” I roll my eyes “why the goddamn guns? Is someone there trying to spoil us?” I complain 

“I don’t know but it is kind of strange” he tells me “having plans for today?” I ask “not at all” he says. “wanna go to the cinema?” I invite him “sure”. 

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 A week passed quickly, nothing interesting took place. In a week we are going to be I Afghanistan, this day is strange, you know, my mother is planning something. “Daughter” my father meets me in the living room “yes?” I say “tonight… your mother… well” he’s trying to figure out how to say it “I’ll see you at the Enterprise, and we’ll discuss this issue there” he finally says “sure”. 

 Seunghyun’s point of view 

I was waiting for ___ in one of the many doors of the mansion, a guy was next to me be seemed to be freshmen in the mansion. Now, I see ___ in the living room with her father “so, you are sleeping with the boss’ daughter” the freshman comments, I just ignore it “c’mon man, she’s gorgeous, and has a nice butt” he is trying to take a look to ____, I push him with my right hand “hey!” I glare at him “don’t be jealous, after all she’s just another whore” this time I can´t control myself, I punch his face once, he’s on the ground, I keep punching his face until his nose breaks “watch your fucking mouth!” I yell at him.  

“Stop it, Seunghyun” it was boss Zhao’s voice, I stand up “please, forgive me sir” I said bowing “I’ve heard about him insulting my daughter many times, I just wanted to see it with my own eyes. Don’t worry, son” he used to call me that way since I was a little child “daughter” he calls ____ ‘s attention now “yes?” he gives her a gun, the family gun. That was really special for they, and only used it when someone deeply offended them as a way to show everyone how you must not behave. 

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Pieces of Honor

Chapter 8 

“Help me” Lu Feng asks Daesung, they almost carry Seunghyun, they walk into a house. I enter as well, here is the doctor he quickly checks Seunghyun’s bloody leg. Many minutes passed, now the doctor is suturing his skin. “I have finished, you have to take this medicine so it won’t get infected” he tells Seunghyun. “Please, sit here” he tells me, I sit in a red chair “you have many small injueries in your arm” he says “yeah, but it is not a big deal”. “Lu Feng are you injured too?” the doctor asks “just a little, nothing to worry about” Lu Feng tells him. 

We are back in the SUV, Lu Feng is driving, Daesung is sat down next to him, me and Seunghyun in the back seats. “How do you feel now?” I ask him “okay, I’m okay” he smiles “is your arm alright?” he asks me “yeah”. I hug him, then he lays in my lap he lost so much blood. He falls asleep immediately while I caress his hair “what you looking at?” I say to Lu Feng who was watching us through the mirror “nothing” he smiles and looks ahead. 

I look at Daesung, he is lost in his phone or looking through the window or talking with Lu Feng, the night sky covers the path. We arrive at Hanoi, my father gives us two days more for resting, then I guess we will return to China. Lu Feng told him what I have done, what we have done. He told my father we were pretty good, and of course that I showed no mercy… he told my father what I did to the man that hurt Seunghyun, he was proud. 

We are at an expensive hotel, not like the one in Ho Chi Minh City. Seunghyun and I are talking while making out “hey” I whisper “yes?” he said “why did you laid on my lap?” I ask “I guess... I was just tired” he explains “don’t you were embarrassed?” I ask again “about, what?” he asks back “about, the guys seeing you that way” I tell him “no” he didn’t hesitate to respond “why... do I have to?” he caresses my lips “some men are like… you know, I forgot for a moment you are not like them” I answer “I’m your property, I’ll behave the way you tell me” he looks into my eyes “if you don’t like too much PDA then, I won’t do it” he looks kind of sad at his last words “no, it’s okay” I kiss his lips.  

He shuts his eyes opening his mouth, it is almost that I know what he wants. I slide my tongue inside his mouth. he moans. I’m starting to be in control, I didn’t know this could be so good, I touch all over his member, he moves his hips against my hand for more friction. 

“___” his eyes are full of lust, I smile “tell me, what do you want?” I put my fingers into his mouth he sucks and licks them while closing his eyes enjoying the sensation. I remove my fingers; I rub my nipples with those coated fingers by his saliva, he looks at me carefully. “Tell me, what do you want?” I squeeze his neck softly, his getting harder. He blushes “are you embarrassed?” I chuckle “I’ve never seen you like this” he bites his lips “I really like it” he adds.  

I climb onto him, my legs at each side of his hips, I rub my pussy against his cock he caresses my arms while I squeeze his neck “fuck my face” he says, I smile while biting my bottom lip “you are such a bad boy” he smiles “I guess you’ll have to punish me” wow! I never thought Seunghyun could be such a bottom, I guess is good to be both, top and bottom. 

... 

I have never been so aroused, so I put my underwear off, “you like what you see?” I ask while my pussy is dripping over his face, he nods. “Then enjoy it” I grab the bed’s headboard to help my balance then, I sit on Seunghyun's face, he groans and licks my clit, I moan hard “that’s so nice, baby boy” I move my hips increasing my pleasure. “Suck it” I order, he instantaneously sucks my clit, that makes my legs shake “oh yes!” I scream I push down my hips trying to get more stimuli, he tries to suck the harder he could. 

I notice, his face is now red “sorry” I say, he was barely getting oxygen, his mouth was coated with my juices he licks his lips “you always taste so good” he comments with that raspy voice of him. 

“Look at the mess between your legs” I said, he smiles shy, noticing his precum dampening his underwear. Someone called the door “shit, I cover myself quickly with Seunghyun’s shirt, wich covers well my body.  

“Yes?” it was Lu Feng and Daesung “ah… your father wants you both to return to China, he has a surprise for you” Lu Feng says “we-we have to return this night” Daesung comments, he looks to the floor maybe it’s kind of erotic seeing me like this “sure, we'll see you at the lobby at…?” Lu Feng nods “10pm” he says “have fun” Lu Feng comments before leaving, I only chuckle he obviously knew what he interrupted. I close the door, I return to the bedroom just to see Seunghyun touching his cock “who said you could touch yourself?” I put the shirt off “sorry, mommy” he says. “Mommy?” I question “a-ah if you don’t like…” I kiss him “I like it”.  

I start to massage his cock again “then, tell me why did you touched yourself?” he looks at me innocently “it is just that mommy’s nipples look so good thought the fabric” I smile, my nipples were hard and visible maybe that the reason of Daesung's embarrassment “wanna suck them?” I ask, he nods looking directly into my eyes, his mouth a little open “you have my permission, baby boy” he looked to my hard nipples, he licked both for a minute, then he sucked my right nipple I hummed. 

“Stop” he was so concentrated in my chest “I say stop it” I pull his head back grabbing his hair, I go for my necktie which was inside the closet “hands on your back” I command, I tied up his wrists then I guided his face to my chest “continue” I say. 

While he licked and sucked my all over my chest, I caressed his hair and face, I was delighted... at some point I removed his t-shirt, “lay on the bed” he just lets his body fell his chest was going up and down waiting for my next movement, I take his cock into my hands, lots of precum are covering it. I suck the tip, he only whimpers. 

“Please…!” I have been teasing him a lot, he finally dared to speak “please, make me cum” I like to see his expression when I take him to the edge. Then I move my hand vigorously he throws his head back, more moans escape from his throat, I continue sucking the tip, his hips jerking. “I’m gonna…” a load groan filled the expensive room, he is still shaking 'what if…' I continued moving my hands.  

“Ah-agh...waaait” he now, is almost convulsing, he can barely speak, his lips wide open as his eyes shut, his hips thrusting. His moans are the loudest I have heard until now, soon tears are rolling down his face, his seed can’t stop flowing, I stop, he looks into my eyes... that innocent eyes again I take some of his cum and I put it into his mouth “swallow” he obeys me, he was still enjoying the little spasms of his high. 

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That night we returned to China, my father congratulated us, he said he made a party for us. I had to wear a stupid dress, I mean dresses are not my style, I feel dresses don’t fit me. 

“You look beautiful” Seunghyun tells me “you always tell me so” I chuckle “it is because every day you look stunning” he hugs me from behind kissing my neck, I caress his arms and hands “we’re late” I say. 

“Welcome, my daughter” my father says, my mother is there too, she’s not as happy as him, the presence of Seunghyun seems to piss her off. The party is full of luxurious stuff, I was used to it, although I don’t like it. “Hey!” someone calls me, Seunghyun is talking with Daesung at the other side of the big room, probably another fucking mission is gonna take place. “Hello” I say politely to a white guy, he’s maybe as tall as Seunghyun, red haired, beautiful eyes “I’m Vlad Mikhailov” yeah... I knew him he was like me, the son of the boss of the Russian Mafia he was better knew as ‘Prince Romanov' so cliché for being a Russian! 

Hello there!

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Pieces of Honor

Chapter 7 

Daesung’s point of view 

“Good morning” I greet ____ and Seunghyun, he bows “good morning” she says instead.  

“Get in the SUV” I commanded; they go out of the hotel, I follow them looking to the sides to see if someone semmed suspicious. “So, we are going to take a flight. The mission as I said is in Ho Chi Minh City” I'm explaining them their mission while the SUV takes us to the airport “some guys stole lots of our merchandise, you are going to take it back” they nodded “what kind of merchandise, exactly?” Seunghyun asks me “some cocaine, and guns, explosives” I respond “I guess we have to kill all of them and then, you are going to send someone to take the merchandise” I nod to what ____ says. 

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“What do you think?” Seunghyun asks me “I don’t know, but if they dared to stole Boss Zhao belongings, they are a big deal” I answer “we must be...” I say “careful” he completes my sentence “exactly”.  

After many hours we are arriving to the location “Let’s go for traditional food when we finish” he suggests “sure, I like Vietnamese food”. “Then you see that deteriorated house?” we look in the direction Daesung is mentioning “is that even a house?” I say sarcastically.  

“Well, inside you will find that men, you have to take care of each other, there are at least 15 guards near to the entrance, but today the bosses are there as well, so please don’t be reckless. Your father wants all of them killed” I nod to Daesung’s words “got it” I say. “Inside there are lots of men, you know, as the bosses are inside, they will not hesitate to kill you” Daesung warns us again, he looks worried, well, my father must have threatened them about me not returning safe and sound for their incompetence “got it” I repeat. 

“Then what’s the plan?” Seunghyun asks me as we cross the street “kill all of the guards quickly, and trying to not be so noisy, then we go for the bosses” he follows me as we get into that ‘abandoned’ house; it was big and ancient “we’ll surround them” he nods “easy” he says. 

I take some poisoned darts from my pocket, I open the small metallic box, I gave some to Seunghyun, due to these small artefacts 20 men were killed in no time, then we continue with large knifes, at this point our mission gets more complicated, they are now aware of us. 

I assassinate rapidly a medium sized man, however two more see me, they run towards me, Seunghyun kills one of them, the another one just fell I cut his jugular vein throwing my knife “hurry up!” he says as many people realize we’re there “shit!” I grab Seunghyun's hand guiding him to another level of the house. 

“There are many of them” Seunghyun whispers “yeah, let’s think quickly”. Then many shots can be heard. Seunghyun pushes me, I fall over, he covers me with his body “you bastards!” it’s Lu Feng “let’s get out” I say to him, we quickly go down stairs, there were less guards there, however we have to face them in order to help Lu Feng, maybe he was dealing with many of men outside the house.  

“Watch my back!” I yell at Seunghyun, I ran towards a tall guy, more people notice me, in no time they get shot by him, I cut the throat of the guy. “___!” Seunghyun screams my name, I follow him. 

Soon, I meet Lu Feng “did you believe you were alone?” he jokes “go to hell, man” I chuckle “find them, we will be here watching your backs”. We run to the main room, suddenly Seunghyun got caught by a big blonde guy, the blonde punches his face repeatedly while he’s lying on the ground “stop them until the bosses escape” another Vietnamise guy yells at the blonde; I took my gun, I aim to him.  

I shoot him in his chest, then I try to do the same with the blonde guy, nevertheless they’re moving a lot, I don’t want to shoot my lover. “Don’t move!” five more men, more bullets… that was Lu Feng.  

As that guys try to cover and to shoot back, I jump on the blonde’s back, I try to cut his neck but pins me to the wall. Seunghyun is still on the ground, the blonde guy is about to strike back, I bury my knife in his throat, he fells with me, I remove his body rapidly from mine, he’s heavy.  

Seunghyun shot another guard while his on the ground, I run to see my beloved one “you okay, babe?” I ask, he smiles “yeah” he stands up “what about you?” he asks me back “fine, love” he kisses my cheek “let’s find those bastards” he says. 

“So, boss Zhao doesn’t want to play your stupid little game” I say while they were trying to get in a SUV, Lu Feng arrives soon to that parking lot of the house “kneeled in front of me” we both are aiming to five men, Seunghyun managed to stole an AK-47 they had. 

“Let us go, we’ll pay you the double” one of them says, I laugh hard “loyalty to boss Zhao cannot be bought” I state “and it is not like you could even have a little bit of his fortune” I add “so, tell me… are there another guys who I should know about?” I ask them, silence fills the parking lot. 

“Tell me!” I shoot many bullets near to their knees, all of those impact the floor decorated with colorful stones “yeah, there’s another guy” one of them finally speaks “who?” I ask again “he’s connected with a mafia in Afghanistan, sometimes there are in Pakistan and maybe all the Middle East, nobody really knows” he continues talking “who is this man you are talking about?” I ask as I press my gun on his forehead “he’s from Kore-” it was everything he said someone executes them from a tall enclosing wall, the bullet almost impacts my leg.  

The chaos takes place, Lu Feng who was behind of us shot as well, what’s going on? everything seems to happen so quick? 

Seunghyun falls on the ground he was 4 meters away, a knife was attached to his leg, I shoot the man that did it. “Careful, ____!” he screams; I move towards him “Seughyun!” he looks at me “don’t worry, I’m okay” he tells me “how you dare!” Lu Feng shouts out. We use the cars there were to cover ourselves from the bullets. 

In no time two sharpshooters were captured by us, it seemed more of our people were outside “Miss ____” Daesung is here “take Seunghyun to the SUV, he's bleeding badly” he nods and gives first aid to my lover before taking him away. I turn around “you know, no body touches what is fucking mine!” I bury my knife many times into the injured body of the man that hurt Seunghyun, he screams every time I bury my knife in his stomach, I push him, he just falls over.  

“And what about you? Who do you work for?!” I take a bunch of a kneeled man’s hair, he groans, he’s one of the sharpshooters “fuck you” I laugh hard then I bury my knife into his arm “You are gonna tell me, don’t you?” now, I put my knife against his neck “they work for someone else don’t they? They are only puppets!” I point with my index finger to the 'bosses' he chuckles “go to hell” he says before suicide, he had a poisoned pill, he died almost instantly “gonna see you there” I whisper to his corpse. 

“Have to go, the police will arrive in no time” it is not like we fear the police, but we don’t want to make things more complicated, “let’s go then” I was going to be outside in seconds, however a big explosion is heard; me and few of my man are soon flying in the air, my body hits a concrete wall decorated with sharp little rocks, my body now, hits the floor. 

There is no sound, just a perpetual beep noise and blurry images. I saw Seunghyun screaming desperately some words that appear to be my name, he tries to walk to the place I am. I do my best to keep moving, Daesung doesn’t allow him to walk “____” is the first thing I hear, it was Lu Feng voice. 

Soon Seunghyun, Daesung, Lu Feng and me were in the SUV it was moving us to a faraway place “let me…” Daesung tries to help me, I’m not completely recovered, Lu Feng is driving. 

“Help Seunghyun” he was confused “but-” he tries to cure my arm “hell, I’m fine! help him!” I yell at Daesung, then tightens the neckties which are preventing Seunghyun from losing more blood “we should take her to a hospital” Lu Feng comments “yes, take us there” Daesung says “no, we’re not going to a hospital” I say firmly “takes us there, she’s the boss' daughter!” 

I’m getting angry, how could they care about me when Seunghyun was more injured “shut up, Daesung!” I say firmly “take us somewhere where Seunghyun could be healed” I say, Lu Feng only nods, tension is in the air, I don’t care I still feel dizzy, I grab Seunghyun’s hand “you are going to be okay” I whisper, looking at his eyes which are about to close “be with me, don’t close your eyes” I say. m

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A bit ooc, but this came up on my dash and I felt obligated to reblog it onto this blog since I have many people who could come across it and need it. ♡

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[alex-baebae]

Immaculate

Chapter 25

Pairing: TOPXREADER

“So, professor could you help me to decide for a good topic for my thesis?” I was in Lebrun professor’s office, TOP was at home “sure, do you have any ideas in mind?” he asked “yes, I was thinking about the controversy of ‘sex-dolls’ and maybe the history of the beginning of the points or how the lack of communications affects politics between the points” I explained.

“Oh I see, but I guess you’re more interested in the first topic due to I have investigations in that area, and you have come to ask me... so” he told me then he sipped his cocoa “yes, well... I’d like to ask you many things about this, I do already have more information about the points and... I just want to find a topic which I could enjoy investigating” in fact I was lying, I just wanted to know more about ‘sex-dolls’ to protect TOP better, and of course I wanted to learnt it from a trustable resource. 

“Okay, so what do you want to know?” he asked smiling kind “First, I’d like to know about how long do they live” I questioned “well, they live the same as normal humans, see they’re humans but people reduce them to a simple penis or vulva. They don’t like the idea of abusing a human but abusing a ‘sex-doll’ is different because they think they’re made for doing it, you know have sex” he sipped his cocoa again, by the way he talked about this issue you could feel all the helplessness he felt for not be able to help those poor beings.

He continued “after all, they think that ‘sex-dolls’ are an object, so people don’t regret abusing them... because they don’t conceive theirs acts such as, that’s an interesting topic as well” he knew a lot of this current situation in our society, he sighed “however, sex-dolls are made to grow up rapidly, more than a normal human and to get older… slower, I can say” he added. “Could you explain me more details?” he nodded “sure. See, in five years they look like an 18-year-aged person, their minds mature at the same time. So, it is not like they still think as a kid” he took a pen from his pencil case to play with it, it seemed that talking about this issues disturbed him.

“In that five years they are submitted to an especial training... so...” professor Lebrun was thinking about how to say the next sensitive information “they basically are taught how to please both, men and women with plastic models so they can conserve their ‘virginity’” I chuckled “does people really cares about virginity nowadays? They're such-” I was cut off by Professor Lebrun “bastards? Yeah, they are!” he looked to be as annoyed as me with this situation.

 “Well they’re taught many other things like playing different instruments, sing, dance, you know, they are taught to do that kind of stuff for mainly ‘entertaining’ purposes, that is what the ‘fabrics’ say”. He was looking at his desk while still playing with his pen between his fingers “I studied, illegally of course, those ‘fabrics’… those ones who do not obey are punished brutally, so the instructors do it, many times, to the point of breaking them completely” he sipped his cocoa again to calm down before he continued “they’re brain-washed" I commented “yes, at first the instructors do so, you know, just a stupid speech and that’s all. But for a better control over them, the instructor punish them a lot, even if a sex-doll behaves as they are told, sometimes they just got punished for no reason. So they all end up broken” 

I was surprised, many resources do not told you about this, and if they, it is not as professor says. Perhaps, it is because if they publish what really happens inside… well it is so cruel that the owners of that enterprises will threat anyone who publish this, I am sure of that “so, they are tortured almost every day, until they do not talk to another ‘sex-dolls’ again, not to anyone but theirs owners” he stayed quiet for a moment furrowing his eyebrows as if containing tears 

“Professor” I called him “yes?” I tried to figure out what to ask “they are infertile, aren’t they?” I gulped, trying to maintain composure after hearing such a things “yes, however… there’s a pretty low possibility of they conceiving children, but it is almost impossible” I nodded “I see” I took a big breath “there´s another way to know they are ‘sex-dolls’ more than the tattoo they have?” I asked “no, I guess there’s no other way... I couldn’t access to more information about that, sorry... but doing it by theirs DNA is completely impossible, the DNA only will show the donator of it” he explained “I see, if I would like to know more about this could I come here to ask?” I held my backpack “of course, you can”. I walked annoyed through the corridors, how can human be so cruel? All I do wanted in that moment was to arrive at home and hug TOP. 

…

“Don't let people break you” I said he raised his eyebrows, a group of friends at my faculty commented some harsh things about him…

“Maybe he is with her to get money”

“Yeah, I don't know him, but sure he’s just an opportunist, he seems like that”

“Why does the daughter of the (y/LN) is dating someone like him?”

They were gossiping nearby “jealous?” Takashi told them, they were surprised, they believed that they were not heard “Don’t lose your time, love. After all who they are?” Neal commented, I glared at them then they better left.

However it affected TOP, all that day he was quiet, when we arrived home he just sat on the couch looking at his hands. I asked him to don't hear to those comments, he just nodded sad. At night he just went upstairs and laid down on the bed, he was in fetal position, I hugged him he didn't move all that night. He was tired I knew it, when I woke up I kissed his cheek in the middle of the night he was deeply asleep I noticed that the pillows were wet, he was crying all that time.

The next days he was the same, little by little he was recovering again, I was so mad at those guys, how could they express about others that way? 

…

“You are such a fucking liar” Takashi was at our house yelling at me “what are you talking about?” I asked “I believed you not were like them” he added “but you all are the same” he was so mad at me “explain me, please, I do not understand!” I yelled this time “are you okay, ___?” TOP asked me shy, standing behind me “he's your sex-doll” Takashi said “what?”.

“Don't try to hide it, I know it!” he told me “no, no, you are wrong” I tried to explain everything “don't fucking dare to speak!” he said “he’s a sex-doll and you are bullshit” TOP was getting scared by how Takashi was screaming “calm down” I said firm “what are you going to tell me? That he's not a sex-doll?” he commented chuckling “just look at your scared he is, they get in that state when someone yell!” I looked at TOP he was crying behind my back he had an anxiety attack I guessed, “See, Takashi, he is… just”. 

“Oh! you still trying to deny it, you know they go nuts when they hear “red, red, red” he yelled at TOP he fell on the ground in his knees, he was just there waiting, trembling tears falling over, his eyes asking Takashi for compassion, his hands at the sides of his body “he is a sex-doll, they do this to the poor beings, he's ready for his punishment, how can you support something like this! just look how scared he is! you are such a-” he said “get out my fucking house!” I pushed him towards the main door “no arguments?” he told me “I’ll punch your goddamn face, if you don't get out”. 

I shut the door, I walked to where TOP was, he was even moaning did to the fear he was feeling “sweetie” I called him, he looked at me, tears rolling down his face “sweetie, I’m here” he ignored me and practically crawled upstairs. I ran to our bedroom, he locked himself again in the closet, he was trying to calm down by himself “__-__” his quivering voice called me “yes, my love, I’m here”. “Don't let them touch me, they always hurt me a lot” he said through the closet door “no one will, I swear” I was there about two hours waiting for him, he didn’t talk again.  

He slowly opened the door, and crawled into my lap “I'm here, I'm here” I said “thank you” he said trembling as the first days “it is okay, my darling” I told him. He hugged me tight “sorry” he commented “I'm causing you problems” he couldn’t calm down “no, no” I told him “I will do anything for you, anything”. We stayed there he slowly stopped trembling but in the middle of the night it take long to him to being okay again.

“Let's go to bed” I told him, I helped him to stand up “come here sweetie”. “___” he mumbled “hush hush” I kissed him “what if he tells someone else?” he asked “I'll do everything to keep you safe” I caressed his hair slowly “no need to worry”. 

TOP's point of view 

Everything was dark maybe I fell asleep “____” I called my lover “___” no answer, I walked out the bedroom, I froze when I saw who was walking towards me “she's not here” that voice, my chest was about to exploit, my heart was pumping hard “___” I called her again almost screaming.

“She's not here to help you” a punch in my tummy made me cry “you're as pathetic as before”. “Let me go! ____! ____!” I tried to escape from the grip of those hands, I couldn't, it didn't matter how hard I push 'her’. “Don't touch me, I was laying on the bed suddenly “long time we don't play like this” her hands over my body again “maybe you need me to…” she took my toes in her hands “please no” I begged.

Hey there! long time I’ve not updated, I’ll explain later in my notes of the next chapters the reason, I’d like to be Heard about that.

Hope every one is doig well and healthy, you know the madness of coronavirus...

Please stay home and healthy

Love y’all

Alex

[alex-baebae]

Hi, guys.

Maybe you are thinking about when I'm going to post something. I will do it in January.

I have not been okay, I mean... This is difficult to explain but I'm doing by best to not be depressed again, my psychologist says I'm doing well. However sometimes I just feel tired, and I don't have the energy to write. I used this to scape from my reality most of the times, writing this stories really helped me and I appreciate the time you have spend reading my job.

Sorry if I cannot update more often.

Again, thank you ❤️

Alex

[alex-baebae]

Immaculate

Chapter 24

“Good morning!” an old lady greeted me when I opened the door “good morning” I said, I was arriving to our house “is your boyfriend home?” she asked “yes, would you like to talk to him?” I looked at her, piercing her with my glare “N-no I mean” she gets nervous “well, have a nice day” I said.

“Sweetie, I’m home” I said while putting my stuff on a table “honey” he was in the kitchen “how are you?” I said running towards him, I kissed his lips as I wrapped him into my arms “fine” he gave me a kiss “how was your day?” he asked “fine, sweetie… has that the old lady that you mentioned before, talked to you more times?” I asked him, he shook his head “she tried to, but I told her I didn’t have time” he was concerned “see, you can talk with many people as you want to, but it is important to keep you safe and sound so… just be careful” I told him, he nodded “I don’t want to be away from you” he said “neither I” I responded.

“The old lady tried more times to talk to me, but I just didn’t open the door as you told me, the day we talked I was cleaning the windows, and when she tried to I was in the main door looking to the other houses” he explained “it’s okay my lovely angel, I know you’re doing your best to keep our secret” he looked at the floor “I’ll find out what does she wants” I commented “maybe it’s better to not talk to her anymore” he said “We’ll think about this, meanwhile let’s go to the park” I said, he was visible excited “really?” he held my hands “yeah, you mentioned you would like to go. So, we’ll go, my love”.

“Why is all covered?” he asked “pollution, if the park is covered people can do jogging and children can have fun safely, of course there are parks that are not covered, but you shouldn’t do as many activities as here” I explained him “I see”.  

I guided him to the seesaw “let's play here” he was surprised “you have a sit here and I’ll sit there” soon he understood how it works. “This is so funny!” he exclaimed while he was in the air, he was laughing, enjoying himself. I couldn’t be happier for him “____, my love” he called me “yes?” I said “could we get an ice cream?” he asked “of course”.

“I really like this one” he commented “chocolate?” I asked “yesh” he said while eating his almost finished ice cream “would you like to eat another one?” I asked him “no, thank you” he said, always so polite “I want to ride that” he pointed to the swing “sure”.

First, I push him gently, he grabbed hard the chains “do you like?” I asked “yes!” he was smiling all the time… 'god if you’re there, thank you' I thought. After a while he asked me to sit on the swing, so he pushed me gently “Sweetie” I called him “I love you” I told him. He was surprised I usually didn’t tell ‘I love you’ in public due to he felt embarrassed. However, this time he just smiled, he didn’t try to hide his face “I love you too!”.

Then we were sat each one on a swing, holding hands. A little boy was playing nearby “are you a couple?” he asked innocently “yes” I responded to him “so you’re married” he said “no, not yet” I responded to him “and when are you going to..?” a woman came for the boy “sorry, he just cannot stop asking everyone whatever he wants to know” she looked at his son sweetly “no problem, it is good when children ask about everything” I told her smiling “have a nice day” she walked away

“They seem so happy” TOP said “yes” I told him “how is it?” he asked “what?” I asked back “to have a mother”. I squeezed his hand “my mom, she’s like your mom too” he looked at me “oh… then it is good to have a mother” he smiled looking to the soil covered in many coffee colored leaves “moms are always taking care of their children, as your mom takes care of us” he said. All that time my mom was calling us often, she always talked to him, she asked him if he needed anything, if he was okay, if he was sad or happy, worried, etcetera. She also sent him many gifts such as color pencils, many notebooks, a professional camera, many stuffs for gardening and cooking… one day I told her to stop sending him things, that I could bought him everything he wanted, he is my responsibility after all. She told me to mind my own business, so...  as you can see, no one could touch her new favorite son. “Yes, they’re always doing it” I replied “when are we going to go to their place?” he questioned “maybe this weekend” I answer him “good!” he says

Then we went home, we were putting our pajamas on “___, can I light the candle?” he was talking about his candle of aromatherapy “of course, you can do it whenever you want to” I said “but maybe it bothers you” he commented “no, it’s okay”.  

At that point he was not the little guy that hid his face on my neck and stayed that way until morning. Then he liked to sleep in other positions, but he always seeks for physical contact with me, so he liked to be the little spoon, and sometimes he was the big one. I slept on his chest when I was tired, he used to caress my head and my back until I fell asleep. The nightmares were rare, he used to rest well.

For three months I’d been looking for a good topic for my thesis, everything was fine. TOP was less scared and less shy, he allowed me to kiss him more… you know more passionately. He also started wet kisses, but it was rare. One day we both were needy… that was our first time together. It was 8pm, we arrived home tired after a day out with our friends, we had a sit on the couch, he kissed mi left cheek then I did the same, then he returned the kiss. It was like a kiss battle. At some point he kissed my lips, then we turn off the TV.  

We were kissing deeply each other, I climbed onto him. He started to moan softly, as I started to kiss other parts of his body such as his neck, his chest, his ears. He let his body be, enjoying my touch every single second.

My hands were touching his torso soft but steady, his breath was heavy, his face reddish "you are getting hard" I commented when my hands accidentally touched his sex. He suddenly noticed what was going on "so-sorry" he was embarrassed, his face got more and more red.

"Don’t have to be sorry, it's completely normal" I stopped "we will do it when you want to, so don't feel forced" he said nothing, I was about to sat on the couch again when he called me "____, please... don't stop it" he said clearly shy but, still aroused "if you want me to stop, just tell me and I'll do it" I kissed his pinkish lips, this time slowly and sweetly. He was moving his lips too, so I knew I could continue.

My legs were at the sides of his hips, then the kiss turned more passionately as before meanwhile our bodies were rubbing against each other increasing our arousal. I broke the kiss to see his beautiful face expression, a mix of our saliva connected our tongues. He shut his eyes, then he licked many times my lips.  

He wasn't touching me, maybe he was afraid of doing it wrong or too embarrassed or I don't know, whatever that reason was, I was not going to force him to do it. I sit on his manhood, I started rocking my hips as I looked into his eyes. I instantaneously soaked my underwear, I was pretty wet before, but this time, my juices even drenched his jeans leaving a big spot on.  

I was so aroused that I could barely think "let's go to the bed" I grabbed his hands guiding him to our dorm, I could hear my heart beat. Once we were upstairs, I was walking backwards so, I could see trying to catch a breath, and his lovely eyes filled of ecstasy.

"What do you want me to do?" He asked shyly, looking down "better tell me, what do you like?" I asked him "I don't know". Heartache again, I tried to find a way to fix this... maybe he had never experienced anything pleasurable in these situations.

"Well, if you don't feel good with what I am doing, tell me. Don't force yourself" I took off his shirt, then I did the same with mine, leaving my bra on. I sat on the corner of the bed, I grabbed his hips making him to move closer to me, his sex was in front of my face.  

"Does it hurt?" I asked touching his hard member through the fabric of his jeans "a little" he told me with a low voice tone "let me help you" I sucked the fabric that covered his sex, he moaned loud. I continued sucking and caressing him, tasting my own juices which were being absorbed by his navy-blue jeans.

His moans became louder than before, it was a marvelous symphony. I unzipped his jeans, his precum was soaking his underwear as well, the both of us were so horny that night. I sucked the precum of his underwear before removing all his clothing, his hands were at the sides of his body, he apparently didn't know what to do with them.  

I licked his palpitating sex, I moved more quickly my tongue tasting his precum the best I could making him hum. When I tried to suck, he squirmed and stepped back "are you alright?" I asked worried "yeah, it only... it only feels so much good, I can’t handle it" he said looking at me captivated for a second, then he covered his face with his hands smiling shy “sorry, I didn’t want to say it that way”.

I smiled at how cute he could be "come here" I guided him to the bed, he laid down "just relax" I kissed him again. I touched and kissed every single detail on his skin, he just put his hands asides his head, he was so submissive, I loved it.

"I love you, darling" I told him kissing his nose "I-I love you too" he said nervously "can I continue?" I asked, perhaps he was afraid of telling me to stop "yes” he paused “you can do with me whatever you want" he said low "sweetie, I won't do something you don't like" I kissed his cheek "so please do not hesitate to ask me to stop" he nodded.

Then I kissed all his torso licking particularly his waist. I reached his chest with my hands I draw patterns on it, his nipples were hard, I sucked them soft at first. His moans transformed into shouts as my sucking tightened and my womanhood rubbed vigorously his dripping sex.

"How does it feel?" I asked "good" he said while his body trembled in pleasure. I stopped to kiss the skin which covered his ribs. He tensed immediately when I gave him a kiss on his bellybutton “it’s okay, it’s okay” I whispered to him.  

I took his sex in my hands. I pleased him with both hands and mouth, he arched his back, he was moaning, humming, his hands grabbing the blankets in response. I took his member as deep as I could. I moved my head up and down, his hips moved too, he was trusting my mouth soft. I took a look at his face, his eyes were shut, his mouth wide open. I reached my clit and shut my eyes as well.

"Ah! Sorry" he noticed his movements, he stopped abruptly "no problem" I said. I continued sucking him, he was on his back again I was taking him to the edge. Soon his muscles were shaking, I sucked him harder this caused him to shout in ecstasy. His breath was so heavy, he lost control over his spread legs, his sex was also pulsating. Suddenly all his cum was in my mouth and some on my lips, I swallowed rapidly it was so much that I felt I was going to drown, somehow, I managed to take all of it.

When TOP's high passed, he looked at my face, he was scared "oh, sorry ____, sorry" he tried to reach a kleenex for me "don't... it's okay" I cleaned the cum that was next to my lips with my index finger, then I sucked it in front of TOP's glance, he seemed to be shy and aroused, he laughed nervously "let me please you too" he told me "no, this night is just about you..." I made him to lay on his back again, he was hard again, I thought I was going to have to endure a lot of stimulation to satisfy him.

I took my underwear off, my pussy was dripping, I put his sex inside me slowly, we both moaned, I locked our fingers his hands asides his head again, I started to move trying to make it as pleasurable for him as I could, in no time I was bouncing on him, or moans filling out dorm, maybe filling the whole house.

Tears rolled down his face "sweetie, do you want me to stop?" I was concerned of course be could feel being abused again "it feels so good" was all he can say, he was dazed. I kissed him, introducing my tongue in his mouth, he didn't look for dominance he just accepted mine and moved his tongue with mine as if they were dancing together.

In no time his muscles were tensed again, he was close, I went down on his hips as hard as I could, hitting my g-spot in the way, that caused me to shake and scream as him, his skin was really sensitive. I tried my best to not cum before him, soon he was thrusting unconsciously into me. “Look at me, my love” I told him, he did. In a second he rolled his eyes back into his head, his body was convulsing, he stifled a shout as he orgasmed. I could feel his warm seeds in me, my orgasm hit me.

I fell on him, I was enjoying my high. I could feel my intern muscles spasm, it overstimulated him a little, causing to let out soft moans and more cum to fill me up during our high. I kissed him again his eyes were still closed, his orgasm hit him hard. "Sweetie" I called him between the kisses "honey" we stopped for looking into other eyes "how do you feel now?" I asked caressing his hair, he was smiling all the time "happy" he tried to stood up "I'll clean this" he said "no, it's okay. Let's just cuddle" I hugged him. "I didn't know that doing this could feel so good" he commented "it is supposed to be pleasurable" I kissed his lips. That night we rest really well, the best night ever, I guess. 

Hello guys! how are you today?

I hope everything is fine, so I have been doing many stuff in the university that I haven’t have time to write. I missed this, it really helps me to relax somehow.

Whatever this story is almost finished! wait for the final chapter!

Thank you for giving me your precious time while you read my job, you are amazing! 

Thank you also for encouraging me to keep going. As many of you already know I’m not an english native speaker, so if I make any mistakes let me know.

I also have two more stories, one about werewolf Daesung and another one about Ji Yong, which would you like to read first?

Love y’all!!!

Alex

[alex-baebae]

Pieces of honor

Chapter 6

(The image isn't mine, credits to the respective owners)

“Yeah, we had sex” she tells me, this hurts me for sure, I mean for me it wasn’t just ‘sex’. She drinks all her coffee “I wish we could drink some alcohol” she adds, maybe she is not in her five senses, she must be as astonished as me. “___” I call her “I love you” I tell her, she giggles.

My dad told me to not think that ___ could me ‘mine’, she’s the daughter of boss Zhao, she could have as many men as she wants to. However, it is different for me, he told me that if I continue being her lover, she could throw me out whenever she decided to, she can do whatever she wants to me. And dad also told me that when I accepted to be with her, I became her property...

He told me to think twice, because all my life, I’ve expected that lovers must be loyal to each other. I want to be with her, I’m so in love that... I will accept every single one who she wishes to have sex with.

“Seunghyun, what do you think of Daesung?” she asks me “what do you mean?” I ask back “he’s kind of strange” she says “strange?” I ask again “yeah, he has a strange behavior” she’s looking through the windows of the café.

“Do you think he could be a spy?” I ask her “no... I don’t know how to explain this, it is not that I don’t trust him, but he’s like the people who you shouldn’t trust” she explains me “did you know him? I mean your father recommended him to boss Zhao” she says “boss Zhao? he's your father” she smiles “yeah but now we’re his mercenaries, I’m not his daughter now” she adds “about daesung... I don’t know him, but my father does. He was a neighbor of my father, in Korea, when he was too young. Daesung is ten years older than us, I guess” she is seeing the table like in trance.

“When Amber is going to be at the mansion?” she asks still looking to the table “I don’t know” I respond, she really misses Amber. “Let’s go to the hotel, we have to rest” she says.

“Can I sleep with you?” she asks not making eye contact, it seems she’s even more shocked than me. She was lost in her mind all the way, so I had to pay more attention, anything could happen anytime. “Sure” I answer, she smiles and hugs me in the corridor, I hold her, then I carry her inside my room. “Are you taking a shower?” she asks “yeah” I tell her “go first” she says.

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Thanks to the supreme energy he accepted to sleep with me, if I stay alone five minutes more, I’ll suicide this time for sure. Look at how weak am I, my father would be disappointed if he notices it. After all, I’m a deception. Where’s that arrogant ____? She’s a coward as well.

Seunghyun is drying his hair, I’m letting the warm water soak all my skin, my hair, my soul it is comforting. I walk into the room, it seems Seunghyun is not there.

I feel his hands on my shoulders “You are so beautiful” the voice of my lover, he starts to dry my hair with a clean towel, I just enjoy the warmth of his body behind me. “Let’s rest for a while” he suggests “I don’t want to rest” I say “if I do so, the image will torment my mind” he doesn’t say anything.

After a while he talks “I know how to make you forget everything”, he removes my towel, I’m naked, he’s in his pajama.

"Sit on the couch" I order him, he was surprised "let's forget then" I take off his shorts as soon as he is sat down. I start to lick his sex, sometimes I suck, but what I’m more focused on now is coating him with my saliva.

He is getting harder; I continue kissing and licking him. Suddenly he grabs my hair and pulls me apart to kiss me. I don't know why we trust so hard each other. Why do we feel so comfortable around each other? I simply don't know maybe we are mate souls, ha! what a stupidity.

His tongue is inside of my mouth licking every single corner, I keep my mouth wide open for him, I like to feel this way, to feel attacked somehow. Neither at fighting neither in life I have felt this way, but with him it feels like magic to be submissive, to be vulnerable.

"Get on the bed" he orders me, I get in doggy style on the big bed, showing him my wetness "you're so sexy" he whispers in my ear before throw his shirt, he lifts me so I am now kneeled. He's behind me sucking my back's skin, his hands are touching my neck, my breasts, my abs.

"Seunghyun, please" I take his right hand guiding it to my clit, he caresses my it with no mercy, two of his left hand’s fingers are inside of me, trying to find my g-spot. I start to shake violently when he finds it, my moans are blasting out "how can you be so wet? Fuck, you’re soaking my hand" He tells me then he bits my shoulder gently, I blush. That makes me feel embarrassed, he pushes me softly, I’m in doggy again.

I feel my liquids drench my inner thighs. I whimper at the time his tongue makes circles around my tight hole. I fell over the bed, my ass in the air giving him more access. he sucks my thighs, he groans. “So good” his husky voice fills my brain. His hands spreads my pussy, then his tongue goes as deep as it can.

"Let me help you" I say spreading my sex with my own hands “shit, ____" I'm moaning hard, convulsing, my toes curling... well, I guess no one will care here.

He suddenly moves apart, he's taking a condom from his black backpack "do it quick, Seunghyun" I say while fingering me, I was so aroused "your wish is my command”. How can he act like this? Like he knows everything about sex, how can he fuck me so good as if he had lots of experience? But, how can he also can be so innocent as the last night? I don't care now. You know I have such a high sex drive... and fortunately he has it too, he’s perfect for me.

He was going deep and rough, the perfect mix for me “Seunghyun, harder” I beg, soon his making me tremble with every single thrust “yes, Seunghyun!” I mewl. I’m feeling so good, my legs are quivering for him, my sex desperately clenches around him “shit, fuck me harder!” I cry out. He grabs my hips helping him to do it quicker and rougher “Seung...!” I’m not able to speak properly his name, my high ts me in waves. All I can hear now is Seughyun trying to catch his breath

“Seunghyun” I call him while he takes the condom off “my beloved señorita” he says “my spanish classes are not that bad, are it?” he chuckles “I love when you teach me how to speak spanish, it turns me on” I laugh at his confession “oh my god, I’ll do it more often then” I say.

Daesung’s point of view

I shopped some groceries, I ate at the hotel’s restaurant, the normal things I used to do when we were in this kind of missions. I was watching videos after receiving the instructions of Boss Zhao for tomorrow.

In no time I heart ___ voice. She was moaning, maybe she was... well masturbating. I was getting hard, I tried my best to not pay attention but... I couldn’t

In no time I was enjoying her beautiful voice. At some point the sounds of skins clashing, and the moaning of a man could be heard too. She was with someone, I wished to be that one as hell. I keep stroking me, I imagined her in the top of me, I’m such a pervert.

In a minute I was in the edge, hearing her voice was too much for me, staining the gray blankets. ‘Yes, Seunghyun’ ‘Fuck me harder’ I heard her almost shouting “so she is with him” I whispered.

When I saw them cozied at the pekin exam I thought that maybe I misunderstood everything, I mean... they could be just close friends... anyways it’s not like I could have an opportunity with her. But why him? He’s not a Boss of a mafia, he’s normal as everyone of us, he works for them. I believed she only dated that kind of men, those ones who have lots of power. I need to rest too, so I clean everything quickly, then I fell asleep in no time.

I've been working on my fanfictions, but I haven't have so much time due to the Week of International Relations at my faculty. So we have to attend many symposiums, conferences, presentations of book, etc. I tried to write in my spare time but my friends keep asking what am I writing, so I get embarrassed and I stop. Today another friend thought I was writing a Haiku 😝

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Pieces of honor

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Chapter 5

This night my father congratulated us, my mom as well. We asked for permission to go to celebrate, they accepted.

I’m at Seunghyun's dorm again, we were putting on some makeup. "Are you ready?" I ask him "yes but first, I’d like to taste those red lips" he grabs my hips, I sit in his lap kissing him passionately we were in his bed again "taste them well, you're not going to do it until the dinner ends" I push him, he lays on his back not losing eye contact with me. He reaches my lips again his finger prints are touching all my visible skin, then I kiss and lick his jaw softly.

Someone calls at the door "shit! who the hell is?" I sat on his bed, taking my mascara, Seunghyun opens his door "have you seen miss ____? she's not at her ro-" Daesung stops speaking, he looks at me surprised "she's here, do you want to talk to her?" Seunghyun asks politely "yes, please".

"I'll leave you alone" Seunghyun is going to walk out of the room "no please, stay here, you can heare whatever Daesung is going to tell me" Seunghyun nods and sits in a white chair he has "so, Daesung?" I call him, he seems to be shocked "ah, do you want me to take you to the place you are going to have dinner? or... you're going to drive by yourselves" he asks "we are going to drive, thank you" he bows and leaves "everyone is shocked of seeing us like this" Seunghyun comments "did your father told you something?" I ask "yes, he almost crashes my head into the car" I chuckle "really?" I cannot handle it and I laugh hard "yeah, he told me that I shouldn't be with you" he said this time with sadness sprinkling his words.

"But I want to be with you" I say "don't be sad" I kissed him again. I break the kiss he hugged me "I do not just want to fuck with you, I want to be your special one" he says smelling my hair "you already are".

"What do you think of this one?" he gave me a glass of wine he ordered previously "it's sweeter than the previous one" he has fun while seeing the expressions I make when I taste the food, he orders for me, this is something we used to do since we met.

Now, after the dinner we are at a high building looking at the amazing city "do you think that your father could be mad?" he asks out of nowhere "about...?" I ask looking at him "about us" he says, looking into my eyes, sad again.

Probably he could be thinking that they'll force us to be away from each other in no time "my father doesn't mind who I am fucking with" I said "well yeah, but about our relationship?" he asks again "don't worry about him, he did the same" he looked at me confused "he married my mom although his parents didn't allow him to do it" I explain.

"Wanna go inside?" he asks me "sure". We enter in our room, that night we are going to be there and relax because in two days we have to go to Thailand to do our first 'mission' we can say. I don't know what do we have to do, my father didn't allow me to know about our business when I was a little kid, I don't know many things such as the people who buys what we sell, what do we sell exactly? What kinds of clients do we have?

"Wanna watch a movie?" Seunghyun told me looking for a good channel on the TV. I don't know if Seunghyun cared about what we were going to do, or he simply was trained to obey, probably his father have told him to don't ask and just obey, obey, obey.

"Sure... how do you feel?" He was looking for a good movie in a platform "fine, I mean, some guys surely hit me hard but, many hours have passed" he explained "what do you think are we going to do?" I asked again, he looked at me "I have asked my father, but he didn't tell me" he said "shit, I want just a clue" I exclaim "are you worried?" Silence filling room "a little" he caresses mi arms "I'll be there... I'm a little worried too but, I feel better when I think of you being by my side" he tries to comfort me.

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“So now, this is your first 'job', it is pretty easy” the guy giving us the instructions was Lu Fang “take this” he gave us an AK47 to each one. “You are going to knock that door, there’s people who tried to mess up with us. So, you just shoot them at the moment they open the door, then check the house, if there’s someone else kill them” we nodded “I hope you do it. If you fuck this up, I’ll shoot you, got it?” he points at my head with his gun, I smile and push it with my left hand “got it, Fang” he chuckles “go”.

We walk through the street, it is midday. Seunghyun knocks the door, as soon as it is opened, we shoot. Many bullets impact a girl’s body, she falls over. Suddenly I feel bad, I shoot her in her head, I don’t want her to suffer. Seunghyun goes upstairs, he finds a man and an older lady, I know this because of the begs for mercy, soon the sound of bullets being shot deafen me.

I’m covering him, I have to pay attention to every single movement outside the house “done” he says. It is a small house; we walk towards the SUV where Lu Fang is. He holds my hand “you alright?” I just walk by “she was pregnant” I tell him.

He doesn’t respond, I get in the SUV as him, we escape quickly “nicely done” Lu Fang congrats us “you passed” he adds “so, which is the next step?” I ask “it is gonna be at Ho Chi Minh City” he answers.

We arrive to our luxurious hotel, Daesung is there “Welcome Miss ___, Seunghyun” he says, we all bow at the same time “they passed, please tell this to the boss” Deasung nodded and bows again “you can rest now” Lu Fang tells us “thanks” I say “good luck” he tell us, then walks out of the lobby. “I'll see you here tomorrow morning, 1am” Deasung gives us the instructions “see you then” he adds.

Now I’m in my room, alone. My hands are trembling, I keep thinking about that girl I mean she was pregnant, what the fuck we did? how can someone does this to a baby who’s about to born? Only a piece of bullshit like me.

I can’t think well, I don’t want to do this anymore… how can the men of my father...? How can they kill people as if they’re…? How can they do it so easy as if their lives have no value?

I open my mouth my gun is inside 'do it, do it' my mind keeps saying 'do it, you will not have to do this anymore' I’m hesitating 'hell just do it’ I'm about to shoot, I heard someone calling me “____?” it's Seunghyun’s voice.

“Everything alright?” he asks from the other side of the door “y-eah” I'm able to say “wanna talk a little? I.. I don't like being alone now” he says “sure, see you in five… at the lobby” my gun is still in my hand “see you there” the sound of his steps disappears as he walks away. Automatically I aim to my head this time, many tears fall on my jeans. I could end everything here, it's my opportunity, it's the only way.

I shut my eyes and let my hand fall, I have no more strength in my body, I open my eyes softly. 'The room is well organized’ I thought senseless, I walk to the bathroom, I wash my face.

“Seunghyun” I call him “___” he says my name “do you want to go somewhere else?” I ask looking outside of the hotel “sure”.

Seunghyun’s point of view

That girl... we could have let her live, we shouldn’t have kill her. Hell, did my father do this kind of things all the time? I mean doing this to people like us... well you know what can happen to you when you are into this busyness, however doing this to defenseless people is unfair.

A lot of regret is filling my mind, is like I could still hear the begs, the heavy breath of that girl trying to keep his body alive. I can still remember clearly her arms and hands protecting his bloody destroyed abdomen where his baby was in. I need to talk to someone, I cannot be alone more time. I think of ___, of course, nevertheless she probably wants to be alone, or... Would she like to talk as well? I don’t know...

Finally we're at a café, we didn’t want to eat, you know. Seeing food only caused us nausea. So we were having an Americano.

“I love you, did you know it?” I say breaking the ice. Also, I needed to tell her so since we met at the hotel lobby.

She looks into my eyes “yeah, I know” we keep looking at each other “Seunghyun” her lovely voice calls me “yes?” she holds my hand “I want more than just fuck with you... maybe it seems that I only want you to please me but, it is not”.

I’m surprised by her words “that night... when I mentioned ‘sleep’ I was really thinking about sleep not having sex, however... I was needy and horny and... perhaps my head was so punched that I couldn’t think well” she jokes at the final of her explanation "that’s what it meant to you?” I ask a little bit hurt “what...?” she asks me back “for you, it was just... having sex?”

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Pieces of honor

Chapter 4...

"Fuck! we did it without condom" he says noticing it many minutes later "don't worry, I'll buy a morning-after pill tomorrow" I say getting cozy with him.

"How long have you been in love with me?" I asked "uhm..." he is thinking "maybe you don't remember because, well... I don’t know you saw me” he says looking at the ceiling “I was sick the first days of high school, so I had to talk to the principal. You were sat near to the Principal’s office. I don't know why but, I wanted so badly to look through that window and... There you were" he smiles now looking into my eyes "I fell in love with you since that second" I smile and kiss his nose "that so much time I guess" I commented "and you?" He asked me "since I noticed you were kind of weird" we laugh together “I love that you love my weirdness”.

This night I want to stay with Seunghyun as long as possible, probably in the morning we will be apart. I'm going to deny to fight him, but I know... he's going to do the same.

Ahh... Whatever, it doesn't matter who is gonna give up with the 'exam'. If I do it my parents will punish me, and if he does it, I guess, he would never be in our home again. I will be far away from him, I don’t care what my parents could do to me.

Our bodies are too tired because of the fighting and having sex, so he falls asleep immediately, I shut my eyes seconds later.

His alarm goes off, we both are awake "morning, babe" I tell him, he kisses my cheeks "morning" the sun rays are not there, the darkness of the night is still filling the entire house "better we take a shower, I can clean you if you want" he comments "no thanks" I laugh before leaving his bed "you have an amazing body" he says still on his bed admiring my being "better cover up if you're going to leave through the window".

I notice his cum was rolling down my tights "I'll better take a shower here" I go into his bathroom. He opens the door when I was going to turn on the shower "let me clean you" he said. He puts me under the shower, he hugged me, his hands slowly traveling to my tights, caressing them. I grab his big shoulders, then he takes the shower gel bottle. He slowly washes away his own essence, "are we late?" I ask while he is still massaging my legs "no, I set up the alarm twenty minutes earlier" I caress this time his back and his hair "could you lend me a towel?" He holds me "of course, I'll do this quickly and I'll go for your clothes, you could catch a cold".

"Thank you, Seunghyun" I'm putting on my suit while he's brushing his hair "no problem" I brush my hair as well "did to feel strange?" He asks suddenly "strange?" He puts his tie on "I mean, did I hurt you?" He asks again "N-no, don't worry". We are ready, we go out, looking for Seunghyun's father.

...

"Then the first pair is Zhao and Choi" the man is giving us the results "they are the first pair. They obtained the highest rates, Zhao for killing his opponent in no time" that makes me feel bad, he is the first person I've killed, and now how many more people do I have to kill? "And Choi for the fastest knock out" the guys in there were really good at fighting. It is obvious that they have been training hard for this 'exam' but not reviving special training, maybe they would not endure it.

The man continues explaining the reasons of everyone's place at the formations "well as I said, you were supposed to fight each other, I mean your partner of formation, but due to the boss found interesting the first pair...".

'The boss' that was my father, maybe... He didn't want to make his experiments fight each other, he has seen us doing so, then fight against each other in the exam makes no sense. Perhaps he wanted to know how we fight together. I have a bad feeling about this.

"All of you are going to fight the first pair at the same time, good luck".

All of them surround us rapidly, we are paying attention to each one of them "I'm glad I have not fight you" he whispered "same" I smile looking to the guys. They were afraid of attaching, I can see it. They are hesitating a lot "let me do it" Seunghyun tells me "are you going to have all the fun?" he chuckles. The first one attacks, Seunghyun punches him, he was not a big deal.

Daesung point of view

The last day of the Pekin exam, the boss Zhao asked me to go and record the fight of his daughter, so I did.

I was the only one authorized to do it, he told me he trusts me. I don't want to disappoint him.

As soon as the battle started, I took my smartphone to record. I must say that I didn't wanted to be there because I had seen how beaten ____' s face was.

I was not able to just be quiet while the girl I’m falling for was been hurt. I know that maybe she even doesn't know my name, she doesn't talk so much with me but, I don't know, she looks so innocent, her face is too beautiful for this world...

The first guy attacked them fortunately the boy with her knocked him down. I was kind of nervous of seeing her like that, I just wanted to go and put her behind my back.

"Come on guys, I promise we won't hurt you" she said, the guy with her laughed. In no time many men were attacking them. I'm worried as hell, they are receiving punches, but also many of the other guys are falling on the ground. They seem so perfect, they're like... dancing, so coordinate with each other.

The guys carries her, she kicks two guys at the same time, they're doing it well.

"You okay?" That guy asks her. Wait a moment, that guy is the one who assisted to the high school with her... What is his name? Seung... Seung... And something else.

"Yeah, what about you?" She asks back "same" he kicks a guy so hard it fall over, only one is standing "I want to end this quick, so I'll do for you" ___ says, she runs towards him, she almost fly and kicks the guy's head. She's amazing even at fighting, Seung knocks out the man who was in the floor trying to attack again "over" I stop the recording.

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"Wait twenty minutes, we are going to wake all of them up then we’ll give you the results" the man says, we nod. "Can we wait outside?" I asked "Sure, you can eat if you want to, you are not going to fight again" Seunghyun nods "thanks" I walk outside with him, my driver was there "Daesung, you are here" I greet him "good afternoon, miss _____".

"Guys are you discharged?" Seunghyun's dad asks is "we have to return in twenty minutes" he explains. His dad brought us a first aid kit, so we sit on what it seems to be a bench. He takes a cotton ball and wets it with alcohol, the he puts it on my broken skin of my eyebrow, I close my eyes "let me help you" I do the same in his lips "thank you".

In five minutes, we end up with cleaning our injuries "are you okay?" He asks "yes" he hesitates, he is trying to ask something else "but I mean your..." I interrupt him "my pussy? Is okay too" I whisper in his ear, he is red as a tomato "I'm glad" he’s always trying to be polite.

"Miss ____, here you have water" Daesung gave us paper cups "thank you" Seunghyun says. The guy leaves "are we going to celebrate today?" he looks at me raising his eyebrows while he drinks his water "celebrate?" he asks "yes, we can go to a restaurant" he grins “of course”, he reaches my hand and kisses it, I get closer to him in response, he lays his head over my shoulder after he kisses my lips softly "you were incredible there" he says referring to the fighting "thank you, the same you were".

Deasung comes again "you have to enter" he look at us kind of strange, maybe he's surprised if seeing us that cozy "thanks" I stand up, and follow him.

"So, Lu Fang is gonna give you your results and, congratulations to Choi and Zhao" everyone there applause, they were not mad, they knew what happens here and that they probably will never see us again. Even if they approved, the Chinese mafia of my father was so long that everyone there could go to different places of the world and will never see each other from this exam again.

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