Light will guide you home // Alex&Jude
judegtfo:
“Oh, that’s good. One of these days I’m taking you somewhere and you can’t complain about it.” He said smiling gently, because to be honest, he would do the same. “Sorry, it’s just that this is freaking weird for me. I know I’m not like this but I don’t know.” He shuggred and smiled. Jude had to cover his mouth with both hands to keep from laughing loud and he wasn’t ashamed for the fact that Alex was talking about this as if it wasn’t anything important, he didn’t care that the people behind them could hear, it was just funny . And he had to look away when the boy called him that way in public. “Stop…” Jude said, laughing. “Alex, you’re way too cute to be a top, and you’re obviously very small, I thought your father would know that there wasn’t a chance that you were a top. Also, you look really pretty from above.” This time it was he who whispered on his ear smiling.
“I don’t know … I mean, I’ve thought about having a family with you but I’ve never thought about where it should be.” Jude frowned and then looked down at his lap when Alex mentioned the cancer, it was as if he was in a dream but then suddenly, he was back in reality. “You could do it, I can’t promise you that I’ll learn but hmm, it would be nice because I never understand anything.” The boy laughed. “It doesn’t makes me uncomfortable, maybe they’re just jealous.” When Jude felt Alex suck on his neck he laughed softly. “Everyone is going to see that, you know that, right?”
“And you obviously are going to tell your lovely little boyfriend what that place is going to be, right?” He pouted, making the puppy eyes and all that. He was actually curious about it, but he also loved surprises so he didn’t really mind not knowing it. “It’s okay, I’m not telling you how to act love, do what you feel like doing. Nobody is going to judge you, and if they are going to who cares? My father should know better by now to not talk bad about people I care about.” He started laughing as well, loving how relaxed Jude became. “Heeeeey! Just because I’m small doesn’t mean I can’t be a top. Not that I’d want to be one, I’d like to try it every once in a while but I’m fine with my bottom status!” He said proudly, at the begging he wasn’t this comfortable with it, but he stopped being ashamed of what he liked a long away ago. “And I don’t feel there is nothing bad about being a bottom? I know some people do, but not I.” He said, getting more serious. He knew Jude never judged him for anything like that, but he felt fine being able to say it out loud. He was proud of who he was and what he liked. “So I don’t look pretty from other angles, daddy?”
“It’s, hum, o-okay. We’re still young, we have t-time to think about it. I-If everything goes right, of course.” He said sadly. He’d love to think that everything was going to be alright, but he couldn’t just forget how dangerous the operation actually was. “Mh... so, let’s go straight to the important part. Je t'aime.” He said, empathizing the movements of his lips and tongue. “C’mon, say it! Je t’aime” He knew that Jude probably knew what the world meant, but he couldn’t care less. I love you sounded more romantic in french anyway. “Of course they are jealous of me, have you seen yourself? I got reeeally lucky!” He kissed his boyfriend on the lips softly. “Do you mind?” He asked, looking at the work of art he left on the curly headed’s neck, starting to suck in another spot. “Because I really like giving hickeys, if you didn’t notice...”
