Alex & Ashton

a very clichè blog dedicated to the life of two travellers and a 4200 mile long distance relationship. @we-ajc @ashyybrooke

[ashyybrooke1]

Here’s me playing ‘catch up’ with editing and uploading some of our time while i’v been here, and hopefully I can get the rest of the videos sorted and edited in my last 10 days!

[ashyybrooke1]

Hello all! 

I’m back in England to visit Alex and i’v attempted to vlog for the second time being here and I kinda did it. We’ve been so much busier than what you see here and I specifically have been sick for most of the past month. BUT i’m feeling better and we’re hoping to carry my camera for all of our adventures this month until I go home. We’ll see how that goes ;) 

[alexcjames]

So in just over a week i’ll be on my way back to England to stay with Alex for two months. That will mean our stressful and lonely three months of separation will be over and we can focus on us for a while. 

Although we’ve known each other for 4 years, our 6 month anniversary as “us” was two days ago and we’ll have our first New Years Eve and Valentines Day together while i’m there, so our timing is working out pretty well. 

Alex, I know how difficult it’s been over the last few weeks. You’re doing so well with handling all that has gone on and i’m so proud of you. I’m almost there and this is almost over. No more empty beds and sad skype sessions. I love you immensely and that will never change. I hope you’re sleeping well. 

-Ashyy.

[ashyybrooke1]

I can wait for nights when we go out on dates and get all dressed up and you still sit next to me at dinner and we talk about us and what we think our future will be like. And the nights we go out to clubs and we’re carefree and dancing and we kiss in front of everyone and stumble home a little bit drunk and laughing and falling over each other and we’re in love.

@ashyybrooke

(Texts to you)

[alexcjames]

There are some days and situations that come up in a long distance relationship that can only be properly dealt with by being together. Most of the time it's when things get emotional, more than usual or for a different reason, and you just want your persons hand to hold.

Not only is it hard needing it, but it's hard when you feel like you can't really do anything to make the other feel better. Alex (@we-ajc) has been away for about a week now and with that we've barely talked. Not because we don't want to, but because our time difference makes it really difficult.

I get to England on the 26th or 27th of this month and still haven't bought a plane ticket due to other situations happening that require me to spend money that I need for it which is stressing us both out. As the time gets closer to being back together, time feel slower and it feels like a lot of things go wrong. But we're working on it.

My darling, I am so ready to be with you for those two months. You have no idea. Everything will work out just the way it's supposed to and I will be there to hold you soon.

I adore you more than anything.

Yours, always

-ashyy.

[miukie]

[alexcjames]

On the left we have the bracelet Alex gave to me early last week. The GPS coordinates of where he was when we first talked.

On the right we have the flowers I surprised him with when he was feeling sick a few days ago. Even when we’re not together, we’re together. 

It’s been a while since either of us have posted here. A lot has been going on in our personal lives and with us. Distance is hard. But we’re doing it. We’re finding the balance of being positive and missing each other in the happy and sad ways. It’s hard seeing the person that means most to you upset with nothing to do about it and knowing you’re part of the cause. But we both know what it’s for. 

I will be leaving for England shortly after Christmas to spend two months with Alex. This way we get to spend the new year and Valentines Day with each other. Two more firsts. The first month will be spent much like my first time in London back in July/August. Travelling when we can, adventuring, and re-visiting our favorite things that we did. The next month will be a lot more like normal life as Alex is in his last year of college while also working. In the meantime i’ll be spending a lot of time waiting for him to get home, passing the time with my work and Netflix. 

Planning for this trip feels a lot less stressful and i’m so ready for it to start. I never knew I could miss someone this much. Luckily this is the longest we’ll have to be separated before he moves here after he graduates next year. He’ll be here in May, I go back in July/August, and i’ll be back to fly over with him when he moves. We are lucky to see each other with only 1-3 months being away, but it doesn’t make it any easier on our emotions. 

I adore you, my sweetheart. I hope you’re having a good day at work. I’ll see you later, baby <3 @we-ajc

Love, ashyy.

[kissingpicture]

[alexcjames]

So this week has been pretty rough.

This marks the end of the first week away from her. I guess that means it will get easier from now on. The first week has been a ROLLERCOASTER of emotions for both of us.

She has been strong all the way through. So thank you for being my rock Ashton, I know you have to be it quite a lot, but soon it will be so easy.

Now let us again just appreciate how beautiful she is.

I love you,

Your Alex

[alexcjames]

So Alex left a few days ago. We’re back to the six hour time zone difference from England to Texas. It hasn’t even been a week yet and that’s one of the hardest parts. Over the three weeks of him being here we got to see what normal life will be like for us, whereas London felt like vacation. I never knew I could miss someone the way I miss him everyday we are not together. Everything we have been through over the past four years up to now makes it much more difficult. Skype is our best friend during these months and I’m looking forward to our movie date nights since we can’t have them now. The next year will be very difficult until Alex moves here but I know we will get through it. I love you so much Alex. Thank you for being here for my birthday, it was the best one yet. Through all of our messed up plans, laughs and tears each day was perfect. I miss you. I adore you. -ashyy.

[we-ajc]

So I arrived home today as the joint best 3 weeks of my life so far came to an end. The other best 3 weeks was when she came to stay here in July/August. So many adventures were had. As we committed emotional suicide on the way to the airport last night through listening to our songs, I realised how much you mean to me. Leaving was one of the hardest things I have ever done. But leaving means we can save up some money ;) I love you darling. And I can’t wait for you to get here in December. Thank you @ashyybrooke my love. Be safe. I miss you.

#ldr #Tags4stef #SoTumblr #Goals #ldrcouple #weareugly (at Allen, Texas)

[alexcjames]

So day 2/3

Ashton is a mermaid SO LOOK AT WHAT I’M GETTING HER SOON. I think she is going to love it.

These past 2 days have been a tad harder than normal. You see the week before your flight out tends to: a) go so much slower and b) have everything go wrong.

For example. Currently if you’re unaware, there is a volcano in Iceland about to erupt. I have 3 days before I leave. PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT IS BEAUTIFUL DO NOT BLOW UP UNTIL AFTER THAT.

And the antsyness makes time go SLOWER.

The entire time she has been reassuring me and telling me it is all going to be okay. She really is amazing for that. Whatever the problem. No matter how many times you have that same problem. She’ll be there with a virtual cuddle and kind words.

I’m down in Portsmouth today celebrating my Grandparents 50th anniversary. A golden wedding. It is going to be great. I can’t get too drunk as i’m performing at the ceremony interlude. Little Things by One Direction, Songbird by Fleetwood Mac and Remember When by Alan Jackson on guitar and vocals, then i am soloing Twenty One Pilots’ version of Can’t Help Falling In Love With You on the ukulele. Absolutely bloody terrified.

She has been babysitting tonight and she is SO CUTE WITH KIDS. She’ll be a good mother ;)

The other photos are just to show how beautiful she is. I will always post a picture of her to show that. I want her to know every single day I’m with her.

Yes i’m soppy. But I love it.

Goodnight x

[miukie]

[alexcjames]

Day 1.

Not day 1 of Ashton and I, but day 1 of this diary.

She has been travelling all the way around from Texas to New York to Ohio back to Texas, delivering all of the animals she loves. Watching her travel is so good! It does make me a little emotional. Imagine watching the person you love doing the things you want to do with them. But at the same time it gives you something to look forward to, so it also makes me super excited.

I have just gotten back from Peru and so had a bit of a lazy day. I woke up feeling annoyed at everything. I don’t know if you ever get those days. Literally for no reason, anything and everything makes you feel like saying ‘fuck you’.

We generally just do our own thing while she is travelling, and maintain a constant conversation. Like not an instant message every 5 seconds. But over the day whenever we get the chance we just further the conversation on. No rush, no pressure.

After gradually getting a little happier, I started to pack for me visiting her in 5 days. I AM SO EXCITED. 22 DAYS OF WAKING UP NEXT TO HER.

That ladies and gentlemen. Is the dream.

Now let’s just appreciate how beautiful she is.

[ashyybrooke1]

Texas to London.

4 years ago I stumbled across a boy on tumblr. He was very popular here in the tumblr world when we started talking and would sit and go through hundreds of messages a day. Mine was one of them.

We very quickly started talking everyday after he answered my first message and became very attached. He was my favorite person to talk to and the best parts of my day was seeing his name pop up on my phone. As the months and years went by I realized how much I loved him. We were very good friends and it stayed that way for a long time. 

A while ago some things happened in Alex’s personal life and we did not speak for a year. About 5 or 6 months ago he came back to me. I wasnt sure what would happen of this but I was so excited to hear from him. We were talking everyday again and catching up on each others lives. One night he was out drinking and told me he wanted to kiss me. Long story short, we found out the romantic feelings had always been there for the other person but we both thought the same thing. That the other person just wanted to be each others best friend. We’re dumb. 

Fast forward to july 21st. I went to england to meet the boy who I could not get over after 3 months of planning. I was there for  3 weeks until august 11th. We spent our time exploring london and getting to know each other more than we already had. He is what I imagine when I think of how a boyfriend should be. Thoughtful, kind, and caring. He is many other wonderful things and I am so lucky to have him. He also took me to Harry potter world. so. #goals.

He is coming to stay with me in 3 weeks so he will be here for my birthday and I am incredibly excited to show him my life here. 

Thank you for being my person, Alex. @we-ajc