Hi

This is an illness journal/vent space

[alexisamess]

oh my god I am SO FUCKING FRUSTRATED

im just trying to wfh like millions of other people do. why wont it WORK!?!??!!???

[alexisamess]

having a stroke is so stupid like

im having to sit on the toilet resisting the urge to push at all because if i strain my sphincter, more of my brain might die

what a stupid thing to have to worry about!

[alexisamess]

oh fucking hell i feel so ill i cant wven tlook ag my phone to distract myself be ause it makes me more nauseous

[alexisamess]

I just want to be held

my brain is so tired. my body is so tired.

[alexisamess]

ouch ouch ouch

cool good fun i love being in pain

just an hour ago i was so happy because i felt loads better than i did yesterday. and now? PAIN

[alexisamess]

oh god I am so drained!!!

my life is like, so good for the most part but wow I am still struggling hard rn.

[alexisamess]

me: yum coffee :) sure hope this doesn't make my tummy hurt :)))

tummy: oh no

[alexisamess]

fuck my fucking life I HATE FEELING THIS WAY MAKE IT STOP NOW PLEASE

[hel7l7]

I know stressing about this isn't helping, but idk how to stop

[alexisamess]

ouch my tummy hurts and im so cold and grumpy

[alexisamess]

uggggh I feel like trash again

[lostlegendaerie]

meat prison blues dot jpg

[alexisamess]

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!!!

pretty please to my whole GI tract, calm down.

I don't want to feel like this :(

[alexisamess]

dont talk to me when my tummy hurts im busy praying to gods i dont believe in

[alexisamess]

I was almost ready to leave for work when this ibs attack hit. literally 5 minutes before I needed to leave. now it's time for my shift to start and where am i? still on the toilet in pain!!! im trying so hard to be a responsible adult and my body says NOPE

[alexisamess]

I hate IBS with such a passion. Why on earth do I need to feel suddenly AWFUL at least one day a week??? why do I need to be shaking and sweating and cold and hot and nauseous and in PAINNNNN? why do I need to miss work and cancel plans??? why do I have to feel this way :(

[catchymemes]