i'll find my own bravado

@missdickson maybe it is all a test, cause I feel like i'm the worst, so i always act like i'm the best /

[trustissucd]

Wouldn’t refer to yesterday as my ‘best day ever’ or my worst, but I would change a few things if I could. However, this headache is kicking my ass. Hopefully someone’s having a better day than me.

[alexisdickson]

What would you change, though? It couldn't have been anything that bad. My day actually has been pretty great, so.

[alexisdickson]

ϟ snapchat — jonah

sooooo...who's gemma again?

[valricciarchive-blog]

Yeah, I like that she’s into country, there’s not really many young artists paying attention to that side of music nowadays. Why would Jonah care about what I do? Trust me, he doesn’t anymore, he has made that pretty clear so I can make out with whoever I want. It was Scarlett, actually.

[alexisdickson]

Totally, people usually stick to being half-naked in all of their videos for attention, or even masturbating in telephone booths, I'm so glad she doesn't have to do that because she's actually talented. You're his ex-girlfriend, I'm pretty sure he still cares about you, more than Gemma, anyway. Scar, seriously? Wow, she really listened to my advice. Good for her.

[alexisdickson]

✉ text message — jonah

J: yeah but people don't start a collection and then stop collecting, they keep going

A: if you saw my ass you wouldn't need to keep collecting

[alexisdickson]

✉ text message — jonah

J: oh you mean for me.. i wouldn't feel awkward as long as he doesn't know lol

J: i don't wish....i expect

A: i thought you had a whole folder of pictures though?

A: just use some of gemma haha lol

[alexisdickson]

✉ text message — jonah

J: lol i had no idea why things would be awkward with grant after you sent me that pic because i assumed grant wouldn't know about it. ergo why would things be awkward??

J: speaking of which...that picture's getting a little lonely in my phone and could definitely use its lower half for some company :/

A: bc you were jacking off to his little sister's tits the night before? how would that not be awkward

A: yeah.....you wish

[valricciarchive-blog]

Thanks… I guess? I love Grace’s songs, I wish she would have won something too. Uh… no, I didn’t really make out with Jonah. I don’t usually go for guys who are taken. I ended up making out with a girl, as a matter of a fact.

[alexisdickson]

Yeah, Grace is extremely talented, she's just amazing, isn't she? I love her so much. Wow, really? Jonah must have been really happy about that. With who?

[alexisdickson]

✉ text message — jonah

J: i don't even remember what i talked about with sasha, how do you expect me to remember what happened with gemma?? why are you so concerned anyway

A: you just seem to forget stuff when it's convenient for you

A: like when you had "no idea" why things would've been awkward with grant after i sent you that pic

A: i just wanted a simple recap of what happened...don't flatter yourself

[alexisdickson]

✉ text message — jonah

J: lol don't believe me then?? i'm not gonna argue with you on this

A: i'm not trying to argue with you?

A: all i know is that your relationship with gemma is sketchy

A: you seem to remember everything except what went on between you two

[alexisdickson]

✉ text message — jonah

J: well...thats not so farfetched, i wouldn't be surprised if it's true lol. but idk i got high with grant and then i drank more and i remember talking to sasha, idk about what, and gemma came over and i don't remember much else

A: really? you don't remember?

A: that's total bs

[alexisdickson]

✉ text message — jonah

J: and i've heard lots of things about you before too, which turned out to be just rumors. anyway i honestly don't remember that happening

A: well, what do you remember happening? bc rumor has it she hit sasha so hard she ended up in the emergency room

[valricciarchive-blog]

I may have the worst hangover in the history of hangovers and possibly only remember bits and pieces of the VMAs, but on the plus side, I get to say Snoop Dogg gave me an award and I made out with someone hot last night.

[alexisdickson]

I kinda think that Grace deserved to win that one, but whatever, congratulations. Wait, what? Who did you make out with? Are you and Jonah back together or something?

[alexisdickson]

✉ text message — jonah

A: i heard your gf tried to kill someone last night

A: she is just lovely, isn't she?

[alexisdickson]

✉ text message — scar

A: sorry I couldn't stay for the afterparty

A: how was it??

A: you looked killer btw

[scarlettgraham]

Why should i wear something killer? If i do people will look differently on me. And ruining the image i have right now would be a bad idea. 

[alexisdickson]

You're not five anymore, you're nineteen. Plus, you're a hot model with legs that go on for miles, you should show them off. If anybody says something, they're clearly jealous, so you shouldn't care.

[kellenbernerd]

We were nominated for a VMA. Or two. I don’t remember. But just in case we don’t win, I’d like to thank not only God, but Jesus for being nominated.

[alexisdickson]

How do you not remember? You were nominated for two VMAs, Kell. One of them is for Best Rock Video and the other one is for Video of the Year. Also, don't tell my brother, but I voted for you guys for Best Rock Video and not Indigo Sage. I'm sure you will win, so don't worry about it.

[scarlettgraham]

So the VMA’s are tomorrow. I still haven’t decided on what i’ll wear. My poor stylist must be so done with my constant changes on outfits.  

[scarlettgraham]

[alexisdickson]

You better wear something killer, because when you look good, you feel good, and when you feel good, nobody can mess with you. Seriously, when I have a pair of heels on, I feel like I can conquer the world.