AlexKhodja

Arts and games

[alexkhodja]

You know, I just imagined for a moment that Hans needed the Musk of infinite allure potion not to charm Caroline, but to charm Henry.

But poor, insecure Hans doesn't know that Henry already thinks that Hans is completely irresistible and doesn't need the potion.

[manatiemtesun]

warning: long winded writing

Okay, I know how everybody writes Jitka and Hans' relationship as one we're Hans is 100% transparent with his wife about him and Henry, because we, as modern audiences, find it really shitty (almost criminal) if someone cheats on his wife.

However, consider Hans' perspective. Being in romantic love with another man is seen as an disgrace, laying with another man is a mortal sin and a crime punishable by death. Merely people suspecting that there is something going on between him and Henry could get both, but most certainly Henry, killed.

And he doesn't know Jitka. He doesn't know if he can trust her with his greatest secret, and thus with Henry's life. He doesn't know if she could let an affair slide even with a woman, let alone with a man.

She could be a jealous hag for all he knows. And what does he gain from telling her? He still wouldn't be allowed to be with Henry, would still need to keep it a secret, would still be having an affair. The only thing that it would do is make him feel a bit less shitty about himself. At the cost of endagering Henry. So why would he risk it all to tell her?

Of course Jitka can figure it out on her own. If you know what to look for (because you are aware that two men can be romantically into eachother) then Hans and Henry are extreemly obvious with their affection for eachother. And while that affection is still largely platonic, it wouldn't take much to put 2 and 2 together, and see that there is much more going on.

However, I don't think Hans will tell Jitka about it, unless he he's sufficiently pressed about it and he also trust Jitka to keep it silent.

And that is a wonderfull source of tension in their early relationship you can write about. How Hans has to lie to his wife etc. How Jitka can feel insecure about her relationship with Hans, how there is this distance in their relationship. Have Jitka be jealous about how easily Henry interacts with her husband. Have her be sad that she is stuck with a husband who doesn't seem to love her. Have her be angry at Hans for sneaking away.

I see people often portay Jitka as this enlightend woman, almost analogous to modern women, who is unconcerned with romance or too cool for the womanly activities of the time.

And while those are valid interpertations, I think it would be equally valid to have Jitka be an almost perfect example of what was seen as the perfect woman in that time. To have her be just this young girl who, except for this small quality, was seen as a proper lady. Who enjoys doing all the stuff ladies at the time did. It's entirely possible that she would have dreamed of having a wonderfull marriage with a sweet husband and a lot of children. And that she would feel grief over that dream being distroyed.

And then you can have Hans and Jitka come together, and talk about everything in one moment. And have them learn to live together, knowing that Hans' heart will always in part belong to someone else.

[mewwuwu]

warm bath🥰

[r0entgen]

There’s something about Hans’s show-don’t-tell attitude that always gets me. His feelings are never in your face, until they are. This is an educated man; a man who writes love letters and poetry, a man used to over the top courting rituals. Yet, with Henry, it’s almost never about the things he says, but the things he doesn’t.

Hans, the skilled, highly competitive marksman, lets Henry win their silly competition during their first hunting trip. It doesn’t matter if Henry only managed to get a single hare; Hans does not mock him, but reward him for winning. Henry hasn’t even saved him from the Cumans at this point.

He asks Henry to enroll in the Rattay tourney for him, knowing full well he will receive a reward if he wins (which he does). It doesn’t matter, though, here are some golden spurs either way. (I see you’ve lost everything; here’s something you’ve earned with your own blood and sweat).

Hanush is about to scold them for the ruckus they caused in the bathhouse? Wear these clothes, Henry, so you don’t embarrass me. (Here’s something fit for a nobleman).

Oh, you’re tired of riding, Henry? How will you travel with me to the Holy Lands? I’ll make sure there’s a forge for you inside my castle, Henry. I will put estates in your name. (I don’t want you leaving my side. I will build a space for you inside my own if I must).

Henry, on the other hand, is a man of words. Henry puts his thoughts and feelings into them (“Irresistible Sir Hans. How could I refuse you? Anything for you, my lord. I care about you, more than you know”). Henry can wiggle himself out of any situation with words alone. And yet, there’s this mismatch, this gap between them that Henry tries to close so many times during the second game and simply doesn’t know how. With Hans, sometimes, words don’t seem to be enough. And you can tell this hurts him.

So what does Hans do? He keeps showing. Here’s a bow I stole from Jobst, Henry. Let’s go hunting again, Henry. It doesn’t matter that I’m meant to be a bellator - I will dig these graves so you don’t have to do the heavy lifting anymore, Henry.

And when this doesn’t work anymore? When Hans has tried to show Henry in the best way he can that the gap can be closed, the bridge can be crossed, but Henry’s not taking the step?

He talks.

“Here’s a story, Henry, about something I don’t have my own words for.”

[arsfa3]

I made some refs to help me draw characters easier. Thought I’d share. Maybe it’ll help you too!

[viag0]

I genuinely cannot explain how helpful this is like this is a lifesaver

[joshua-beeking]

I had a galaxy brain moment where I realized Henry does the exact same thing in both scenes, cradling Hans' neck with one hand.

So I needed to doodle something.

[viag0]

Hans whittling as a hobby I luv him

[stiwfssr]

[stiwfssr]

In my mind, my Henry has no internalized homophobia (he had a great time with Bartosch), so it is not disgust he is expressing. I reckon Henry reacted as he did here (gif2) because Capon chose to show his feelings for him at a time when Henry did not have the luxury of feelings.

Henry had been dropping hints for weeks and Capon had always responded with bro-talk ("Yeah, I miss you too… Can't wait to get drunk af again!") and, now, just as Henry is about to leave on a potential suicide mission, when he has shit to do and people to save, when he has steeled himself to the fact that he is probably going to die, now Capon reciprocates which means Henry now has one more thing to lose.

Henry wants the relationship -- every part of it -- but Capon's timing is shit and Henry is pissed off about it.

[alexkhodja]

To begin with, I like how Hans always congratulates Henry on winning the tournament whenever they meet🤗

Secondly, they had just barely escaped with their lives from an enemy encirclement, and Hans had just been injured AGAIN, leaving him with bruises and another hole in butt! But all he could think about was how much fun he'd had with Henry, and how Henry should have been more gentle...You know, the last thing that comes to mind when you hear: "But you might have handled me a bit more gently. I'am black and blue all over! " Is that these two people have just been in mortal danger. Rather, you imagine a scene where the two are together in bed, and Henry may have been very unrestrained with Hans. And even a bit rough😏 Hans! what are these ambiguities in broad daylight? And now Henry... Henry, why did you have to say that phrase in that particular way!? And in such a gentle and loving voice!😭 Instead of saying "At your service, my lord" or "It was a pleasure serving you, my lord," and so on. NO he say's "Anything for you my lord" It's not just a normal servant to master phrase It makes no sense to say such things to someone with whom you have ONLY a duty.

[entreri]

Leon Kennedy → RE2 / RE4 / RE9

[alexkhodja]

RE2 - I've never seen shit like this. RE4 - I've seen all kinds of shit. RE9 - I'm too old for all this shit.

[meanbossart]

When DU Drow dies, do you think Astarion would be able to move on?

✨Absolutely ✨

Astarion has spent 200 years in captivity being tortured, starved, and forced to conduct slave labor while being psychologically terrorized - only to come out the other side with a puzzling zest for life. Say what you will about the guy, but he has impressively tough skin! And the amount of that time that he does spend whining or feeling sorry for himself is comparatively minor in proportion to his experiences - plus, these bouts never paralyze him, never keep him from moving forward or cause him to consider giving up. Astarion seems fully committed to living a free and full life regardless of how his past has affected him and regardless of the challenges he may face in the future because of it.

And in the same fashion, there is no way he would ever give up on finding joy and fulfillment after the passing of a loved one - especially a (supposedly) mortal one - it will be hard to go on for a time, and perhaps every love grieved will add up and continually crop up occasionally throughout the rest of his existence, but he would rather deal with the bad feelings and go on un-living so he can have the opportunity to experience better ones once more.

DU drow is very aware of this; it's one of those things that doesn't need to be said because, despite how skewed his understanding of Astarion can sometimes be, this has always been very obvious to him. His feelings on the matter may differ, but it actually comforts him that Astarion would most definitely emotionally recover if he were to die (he isn't so sure that he could actually look after himself, but that's a different matter).

[valouryu]

I think it's super interesting that Hans gets jealous of Samuel despite knowing that Henry and Samuel are brothers. His jealousy quite literally has nothing to do with Hans fearing that Henry would actually fall in love with Samuel over him (because he quite frankly doesn't even think Henry falling in love with him is an option/possibility in the first place at that time), but it has everything to do with Hans realising that he is - or at least he sees himself as - a generally unlikable person who was only lucky to have met Henry who actually ended up liking his company. And even then, Hans doesn't think Henry might have done that out of his own volition.

Hans literally has no friends. None. All of his relationships have been incredibly transactional and superficial before he met Henry. Most of the people in Rattay only speak ill of him and fear the day Hans gets his rightful title. And Hans knows that Henry lost everything and everyone he knew, so Hans knows that, by proxy, he is the only person Henry really could consider a friend. Henry even said it so himself - "You're the closest friend I have left."

So as soon as Hans sees Henry getting along with someone else on a very friendly level, it's the deeply-rooted insecurity in him to immediately think Henry would drop him to rather spend time with someone better and more likable than him once Henry wasn't "forced" to have Hans as his only friend anymore. Because frankly, Henry is very natural and likable compared to what Hans thinks of himself after how he behaved all this time. He knows Henry could get as many friends as he wants while he himself couldn't.

So what does any insecure and jealous person do? He tells Sam to back off from Henry and not get too close to him, only for Sam hit him with the biggest read ever.

"Does it bother you that you no longer have Henry all to yourself to push around?"

That question must have stuuuuung.

[rowanisawriter]

h ey did everyone know that if you don’t exhaust hans dialogue at suchdol, when they make it back to devils den they have a unique greeting. im reacting to this news in a normal manner

[alexkhodja]

A question that's been bothering me for a while now. Perhaps someone has asked it before and there's already an opinion on it, but I'm relatively new to this fandom, so forgive me if I'm repeating myself.

Did Hans know that Henry was Radzig's bastard when he first met him?

The older lords knew from the start, but did they share this information with Hans?

There's just no dialogue between them. Hans is like, "Oh, so you're a bastard! What news!" Nothing of the sort. Hans immediately grasps the situation and what saving Radzig means to Henry, and goes to save him.

If he knew, then his initial interest in Henry becomes clear. After all, this isn't just some upstart peasant; he's Radzig's bastard, the first nobleman of his age in Hans's life. Naturally, he became curious about him🤔

[alexkhodja]

Hans: Well, you can't live without me, can you? Do you miss me Henry?

[alexkhodja]

I'm changing my mind about my first impression of Hans. In my first playthroughs of this conversation, I didn't notice it or it wasn't there🤷

He's sitting there, not touching anyone, just doing what he's been taught since childhood, trying to maintain a bit of dignity, but no one understands or believes him. They accuse him of being a lazybones who doesn't help his friend, and they insult and call him a vagabond. I have to admit that he's endured as much as he can.

[alexkhodja]

I want to cry every time I listen to this song because I imagine Hans singing it about Henry😭 When he wants to confess his feelings to Henry he doesn't know how to describe what he feels How to say I love you without saying the word because he's said he loves someone so many times but this is completely different. Henry is more to him...

Mesh - My Protector

I didn't see Who protects me But I'm all that I could be Time rushes by More than we like But I've all the love I need You're my protector, my home I'm nothing without you You're my deflector, I know That nothing can get through You feel the feelings for me So I don't have to face the things I do

Life's changing scenes Played behind screens We're all someone's hopes and dreams Caught in the lights You still have the fight When you're taught to do things right

You're my protector, my home I'm nothing without you You're my deflector, I know That nothing can get through You feel the feelings for me So I don't have to face the things I do So I don't have to face the things I do

All my life you shield me from the game You're my spine, but I've never been ashamed They don't see and I just can't explain You're my protector, you're mine forever

You're my protector, my home I'm nothing without you You're my deflector, I know That nothing can get through You feel the feelings for me So I don't have to face the things I do So I don't have to face the things I do