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You never should’ve found me… 21+, Female, Taken, Not Mentally ill Enough I wish I agreed with Catholicism, the aesthetic is beautiful

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Computer, how do I get instantaneous results at the gym. I leave for vacation tomorrow.

Computer, do you hear me!?

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Well shit. Gotta choose between getting therapy or a job promotion🙃

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😔 I found a therapist

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My therapist quit… but I also hate my job so much so I can’t bring myself to go for that promotion anymore… what the fuck

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I really do be dramatic

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First session of therapy was fine I guess. Anytime they’d ask me something and I’d say “this thing upset me” and they’d immediately respond with “yeah I can see how that would be upsetting”

Every. Time.

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Well shit. Gotta choose between getting therapy or a job promotion🙃

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😔 I found a therapist

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Well shit. Gotta choose between getting therapy or a job promotion🙃

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I need to be better. I can’t be like this. Get over it, dammit

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I have no good reason to, in fact I’m the piece of shit, but I just need to scream and cry and throw up. Fuck the suburbs. I need to be alone in the woods

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I never feel uglier than when I see a picture someone else took of me.

Bonus points when they show me and say “you look so pretty 🥰”

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You shouldn’t be allowed to haunt the narrative when all you did was make everyone’s lives objectively worse

Every decision you made created divide and strife

Why do you get to haunt our lives and still breathe

I don’t even get to have the displeasure of living life mourning what could’ve been

Instead every time I pass your street, I wonder if you’re home

Instead I fear and hope I see you in public, just to see what you would do

Instead you rattle in the back of our minds

I want to scream

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I need the food inspection people to show tf up, because I can’t keep hearing my managers say “RED ALERT!! THEY’RE DOWN THE STREET!” Every other day, throw everyone into the biggest panic mode, just for nothing to happen. wtf.

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They showed up while I was on vacation. Very nice 👍🏼😃👍🏼

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Oh to be Amy Lee in the 2000’s

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Amen God is faithful

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Prayed while watching the twinkling stars every clear night that I’d find someone who would love me half as much as you.

Now I pray every night that the sky is clear so you can point to me again where the Little Dipper is

[taujr-resort]

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I feel like until I do something “really adult”, I’m still just a teenager.

I’m in my 20’s but I work an entry level job, I’m not married, and I still live with my folks. If I got a “big girl” job, then people will really respect me. Or if I got married and started a family, then I’d be an adult. If I could move out then maybe people will see me as independent.

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Today honestly was really nice. Maybe I was just being a little dramatic yesterday

[achillesinhighheels]

Young Goth and the Virgin Mary parallel pray in a cemetery in Puerto Rico, 2005.

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To recreate this photo one day I think would heal me

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Sometimes I wonder if I look at certain small events or coincidences and am wrong when I put that on God. Like maybe he didn’t part the way in traffic like the Red Sea for me

But when I think to myself “I wish my doctors appointment was a bit sooner :/ “ and not even 30s pass by and I get a text saying my appointment has been moved up by 40min, now that’s God