It's been a while since I came here to talk a little...
To tell the truth, I didn't really feel the need... everything was going pretty well in my little life for a while now
But now I think I need to let it all go... I don't have huge problems, just a few small ones here and there... and by accumulating them I feel like I'm going to end up cracking...
I turned 23 a few days ago, I moved into an apartment with my boyfriend since February... I have a job that I "like" for the moment.
The problem is that I learned that my bosses had planned to make me evolve but in a sector that I hate, and I wouldn't have the right to refuse... I don't intend to waste my life in a job that I don't like anymore. But I have no idea where to reorient myself.
On top of that… the bills for my apartment are multiplying and I’m starting to have trouble making ends meet… like everyone else I feel, but I don’t want to end up in this vicious circle… I’d like to be able to treat myself again… which is no longer the case at the moment. As I write all this I have €30 left in my account to get through the month and I haven’t even bought myself enough to celebrate my birthday properly.
On top of this apartment that’s starting to cost me too much, I had to take out a loan because my car broke down, yes I’m aware I bought a new car but I took the lowest range… I didn’t want to take the risk of buying second-hand and worry that my car wouldn’t start anymore to go to work.
And to make matters worse, due to the lack of money I can't even plan to make an appointment with an ophthalmologist because I wouldn't have enough to pay for glasses, while my vision is getting worse and worse, and I have recurring migraines.
To sum up, my job is becoming crappy and I would like to leave but I can't because I have a loan to repay and an apartment to pay for... so I do what most people with a miserable life do: work without passion to survive...
I just dream of being able to treat myself a little, or at least please my man who will certainly end up getting tired of me if I continue in this direction...
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