Still with these puppy eyes?!?! Really?!
I can't survive this anymore.
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Still with these puppy eyes?!?! Really?!
I can't survive this anymore.
I mean, if you insist-
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Javi shows you how much he loves you after a visit in the bar with his friends who couldn't stop teasing him about his new-found love...
Contains: smut, p in v sex, oral sex (m & f receiving), fingering, multiple orgasms, overstimulation, praise kink, dirty talk, use of pet names, light possessiveness, condom use, brief mention of morning-after pill, soft!Javi, teasing, crying during sex (from pleasure), fluff, domesticity, Javier is obsessed with you, "i love you" for the first time, yearning, soft ending, vulnerability, established relationship
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Javi took a small sip from his whiskey, feeling the alcohol burn against his throat as he swallowed it.
"Seriously?" Steve barked, gripping his shoulders tightly, his behavior noticeably altered by the alcohol he had consumed so far. Which was a lot more than Javi had.
"You're still at your first drink, Javi? Jesus… You're in a bad mood?"
Derek and Tom, two more friends from work, exchanged knowing glances, then leaned forward.
"He's not in a bad mood, Steve. You know that. But he's got a place to be. Just watch this motherfucker leave the bar at 11 to go home to his lady," Derek laughed.
Javi rolled his eyes, though he didn't deny their accusations right away.
"Right…" Steve snorted, emptying his glass in one go. "The mystery lady. How is she? You're gonna go to her after this?"
"Of course he is. Our man couldn't sit still since we got here."
"Just look at him being all shy…"
Their voices were a swirling chaos, mixing with the music gushing from the speakers in the corners. All Javi could do was roll his eyes again and shake his head faintly.
"Will you shut up? Goddamnit…"
"Are we wrong, though? That's why he doesn't drink so much. Because he's got other plans."
Javi chose not to answer and neither deny nor confirm their suppositions. Obviously, they were right, Javi did was going to come over to your apartment after this, just like you and he had planned. But his friends didn't need to know that.
One might not expect it, but Javi had never in his life encountered people more keen to gossip than those three men. He would tell them more about you, of course. But everything in its time. And he definitely wanted to find a quieter moment than a bar at 10 o'clock.
"I can't believe Javier Peña is in love at last… Would you guys have ever believed it? If I told you three months ago that we would be sitting in a bar and instead of approaching a beautiful lady at the counter, Mr. Playboy would sit here with his first whiskey of the night thinking about his girlfriend? Doesn't sound right to me."
Steve chuckled softly, but Javi could see in his gaze that he wasn't actually irritated by the shift in his behavior. No… just like Derek and Tom, he seemed satisfied. Genuinely happy for Javi, which made his lips curl involuntarily.
That and… you, of course. He couldn't help it. With his friends bringing up the topic of you over and over, it wasn't difficult to get lost in all the memories in his head, the countless dates, every single angle he had ever seen of your beautiful smile, the wrinkles around your eyes when you laughed, and how you jutted your jaw forward whenever you were thinking hard. There were a million things he could tell his friends about you if the circumstances allowed. How your eyes for some reason teared up when you drank sparkling water. How you always stubbed your toe on the last step when you sprinted up the staircase. Javi had told you so many times that you should just take it slower, but somehow, he couldn't stop you from falling into your old patterns.
"He's dreaming again," Tommy suddenly said, making Javi's eyes focus on his friend wearing a broad grin. They were clearly amused by the change in him. It wasn't that Javi was a different person around you, but nowadays, his head so busy going over every single detail he had ever spotted on you and was most smitten with, he was seldom fully present.
"Sorry," Javi whispered, but didn't really sound it. He lowered his gaze to the counter, scanning the wooden lines until Steve patted his back.
"Don't be sorry. I'm proud of you, you know?" His voice was oozing sarcasm, but Javi chose to just listen to what his friend had to say.
"You're finally in love… And it suits you. You've got that glow about you, my friend."
"Glow?" Tom laughed loudly, leaning in closer as if he intended to scrutinize his expression more closely.
"Yeah. Sometimes. Like during lunch break on Wednesday."
Goddamnit, Javi already knew what Steve was talking about without him having to give him any more information.
"What happened?" Tom asked, looking between Derek and Steve.
"Right, you weren't there for it. Missed quite the party. We were all eating peacefully, going over a case when Javi got a phone call. I swear to god, he looked at the number for a second and then rushed out of the room saying that he really needed to take that. Steve and I spent ten minutes guessing who it was, and this guy was fucking convinced it couldn't be her because Javi wouldn't be that worked up about it, but when he came back, I knew I was right. Because that man's face was glowing."
Yes, Javi remembered that moment so clearly he could go back to it any time he wanted. You had called him because you had had an important business meeting that morning. After you had told him about it the day before, he had insisted on you letting him know how it had gone the second it was over, which was why he had spent most of his lunch break in the copy room, listening to you recount the meeting, which had fortunately gone very well.
As so often these days, Javi had felt his cheeks burn when he hung up the phone, which hadn't gone unnoticed by his colleagues. It was just the natural effect you had on him. The sound of your voice alone made his knees weak and the blood rush through his veins, even when you weren't even in the same room.
"Really?" Tom chuckled at that, ripping him from his thoughts. "You really have to introduce her to us, Javi. We need to know what she's like when she's got that kind of effect on you…"
"You will," he quickly assured them, drinking the last sip of his whiskey before putting the glass back down with a low thud. "You will get to know her. She's… incredible."
Steve, who always became a little more touchy when he'd had a lot to drink, put a hand on his shoulder.
"He looks like a teenage boy with his first crush, doesn't he, guys?"
Tom and Derek laughed in unison, examining Javi's clenched jaw and sweaty brow, which was evidence enough that the teasing was getting through to him.
"Not a crush, though," Derek then corrected. "That man is head over heels. Remember when we saw him daydreaming in the office with that stupid smile instead of working?"
Tom and Steve, who only now seemed to recall the moment, burst into laughter.
"Yeah, yeah… very funny," Javi growled.
"You've gotten soft, my friend. You've turned into a soft, loyal puppy. I don't know how much I like that version yet, but it was about damn time you found someone. Need to make sure you're capable of loving, don't we?"
An hour later, Javi quietly walked up the stairs of the apartment building you lived in. His keys, or rather your set of keys you had given him, since he basically stayed over every single night, were dangling at his side, his head a little languid even though he hadn't had more than one whiskey. Which had been the source of a lot of teasing.
Javi normally didn't mind a few drinks in the evening at all, especially on a Friday night. But as his friends had so astutely figured out, he didn't want to show up at your place drunk, stumbling through the door so that you would have to get him to bed like a helpless child. No, the prospect of coming home to you was motivation enough and a source of infinite happiness to keep his good mood up even while everyone around him was gradually getting more wasted. They were probably still at the bar right then, making jokes about the changes in Javi's lifestyle, how he seemed more content and at ease these days.
Some of the things Steve, Tom and Derek had said about him had actually been rather kind, things that Javi felt proud of, but at the same time, he hadn't been too sad about leaving his friends early. Well, most of his anticipation about exiting the bar had probably been tied to you, to be honest.
He slowly put the key in the lock, turning it as quietly as he could. Javi assumed you were still awake, but he couldn't be too careful, especially since you had complained about a headache earlier when he had come home after work. It had worried him enough to offer to stay in with you rather than go out with his friends, but you had insisted that he go, claiming that you would be fine with a relaxed evening on the couch and a large jug of fresh water.
"Javi… hey."
You were sitting at the kitchen table, hair loosely tied in a knot and a sudoku in front of you.
"Hi, sweetheart." He crossed the distance between the two of you in two large strides, then pressed his lips against the side of your head. "How are you? How's your head?"
"It's fine, baby. I drank so much water, I think I went to the toilet four times in the last hour, but it worked."
Releasing a soft breath, Javi pulled up a chair to sit down next to you. "Great… I was worried."
"You were?" you asked softly, lips pursed in sympathy. "No… I told you to enjoy yourself, didn't I?"
Your hand connected with his cheek, gently tracing along his shaven skin that was never fully even.
"I know. And I still had a very good time."
"Yes?"
Javi nodded. "Yeah. Even though they can't stop with the teasing."
"What teasing?" you asked, eyes wide, but he just snickered softly.
"Just the usual… You know, the stuff about me being distracted at work sometimes… Talking to you on the phone. They said I had a glow on my face on Wednesday during lunch break."
"Oh," you said, your hand dropping to rest on his thigh instead of his face.
"Yeah. I figured I should take it as a compliment. I think you should take it as a compliment," he then added, prompting you to chuckle lightly, your voice warm and soft against his skin.
"Maybe I should… They really can't stop, can they? I thought they would grow tired of teasing you about this after a week or two."
"Oh, they're persistent, baby," Javi muttered and briefly kissed you on the mouth, running a hand up and down your arm. "Today, they also said that you made me all soft. That you softened me."
"I softened you?" you repeated with raised eyebrows, a dark gleam shimmering in your eyes.
"I hope you disagree with that, Javi…" you hummed seductively, glancing at his crotch.
"Jesus, darling…" Javi muttered, only now realizing the double meaning behind his friends' comments.
"What? I would be very disappointed in myself if you agreed with that…" Your hand followed your eyes, drifting up his leg until your index finger trailed along the stitching of his jeans.
"You don't, do you?"
"No. I — don't," Javi murmured, voice threaded with a faint tremble that you might have imagined. Yes, there it was. Javi looked down his body where his cock was stirring beneath the confines of his underwear. He could both feel it and see it, which meant it hadn't gone unnoticed by you either.
"Good… I would rather like to make you harder, you know?"
"Yeah, I know," Javi purred, leaning in once more to capture your mouth in a gentle, still explorative way, even though he knew the lines and curves of your lips better than he knew his own by now.
Meanwhile, the two of you had shifted to sit on the edge of your seats, minimizing the distance between your longing bodies as best as you could. But it just wasn't enough. Javi felt his cock uncomfortably rub against the tightly woven fabric of his jeans, your index finger ghosting over his crotch doing nothing to calm his breathing.
"Sweetheart…" he murmured, letting out a sharp hiss that tingled at the corner of your mouth.
And then, it wasn't enough anymore either. Javi felt frustrated sitting so far away from you, your back too far away to reach around and unclasp your bra. So he stood up abruptly, nostrils flaring as he took in the sight of you. You had that feverish glow about you, and maybe it was exactly what his friends had talked about earlier. If that was the case, it seemed to be infectious.
"Where are you going?" you breathed, sweetly sucking your bottom lip between your teeth. With a deep huff, he took a step forward, slung an arm around your back and hauled you up, pressing you close against his front as he headed for your bedroom.
"Oh, I'm taking you right with me, cariño…"
Everything about your apartment was so familiar, which was why Javi moved with such confidence, each stride willful and determined.
"You look so gorgeous, Javi."
Throaty laughter left him as he placed you in the center of the bed like he owned the room and everything inside it.
"Oh yeah? I'm flattered then…"
"I really need you inside me, Javi. Please. I… I thought about it all day."
Running a hand through his messy hair, Javi climbed onto the bed as well, the mattress sighing under his weight.
"Don't worry, hermosa, I'm gonna fill you up well… You want it right here?" Without any warning, Javi cupped your pussy, not moving or rubbing against you but just holding his hand right there while you squirmed and sighed heavily.
"Yes. Yes, there, Javi… But I would also like to suck it."
With the sole purpose of teasing you, he pretended to think about your request for a moment, lips pouty and brow furrowed. You, of course, knew that he would never deny such a proposal, which was why you quickly gripped his length through his jeans, although you weren't able to paw at him like you would have been had he worn sweatpants like you did right now.
"You're getting a little greedy now, aren't you?"
Despite his teasing, Javi didn't stop you when you moved to the edge of the bed, challengingly darting your eyes at the empty spot in the middle. How could he have possibly found the strength to do that? You were a perfect dream, the most beautiful and intoxicating person he had ever laid eyes on, and there you were asking him to let you suck his cock. It was ridiculous and unreal.
Still, Javi moved into position fast, his head swimming and his tip already leaking with precum, just a reaction to what you were about to do to him. He remembered all the times you had taken him in your mouth in vivid detail, but the most outstanding experience to date had been the very first time.
There was no use pretending to be new to any of this, in fact, Javi wasn't hesitant to admit that he had spent a good amount of his early adulthood sleeping around and exploring all sorts of things.
This had advantages and disadvantages. For instance, he knew precisely what he liked, what he didn't like, what he despised and what his guilty pleasure was. But on the other hand, when Javi was with you, he wished he could experience everything again with you for the first time. Not that it wasn't great all the same. Actually, sex and everything around it felt even more enthralling, intense and arousing since he did it with someone he was so bewitched by. Still, there was something so intimate and special about sleeping with you that made him want to relive all his first times with you. Which was applicable to the rest of his life as well.
He was lowering himself onto the bed now, spreading his legs a little so that there was enough room for you to crawl between.
"Baby, you're too good to me, you know that?" Javi whispered, his hooded eyes taking in the way you found a comfortable position between his legs, your hands settling on the waistband of his jeans.
"I like making you feel good, Javi," you answered with a playful smirk pulling at your lips.
"Yeah?"
"Yes… I like the things that you say." He drove his teeth into his bottom lip, breath hitching while he lifted his hips to help you yank down his pants.
"You like the things that I say?"
"Mhm." You nodded, eyes brightening with joy at the tent in his boxers.
"So you like it when I praise you?"
"Maybe," you grinned wickedly, one of your hands wandering up his thigh all the way from his knee. You clearly wanted to tease him just a little longer, stretch out the moment until he was going to lose a bit of his composure himself.
"Sweetheart, you're killing me here… Saying stuff like that… Touching me like that."
"Like that?" you muttered, your hand ghosting less than an inch above his clothed cock.
"Yeah, fuck — like that. I really need you to touch me, cariño. Are you gonna do that? Or are you gonna try to make me lose my fucking mind?"
His tone was more hollow now, lacking the intense depth of his usual voice. Maybe that was exactly what you had been talking about when you said you liked the things he said, how you could probably tell from the way he spoke how far you had driven him with your teasing.
"I like making you lose your mind just a little bit…" you admitted, but finally brought your hand to his hard cock, caressing it like it was much more sensitive than it actually was.
"Fuck, baby…" He drew a sharp breath through his tightly clenched teeth, one hand buried in your hair while the other pressed flat on the bed. "Is that what you wanna do tonight? Tease the shit out of me?"
You pretended to think about it, which provoked Javi to chuckle softly. "Oh yeah? You're seriously considering that? What do you want to punish me for then, mhm? Did I do something?"
Your expression shifted at that, eyes growing wider as you gripped his cock more firmly.
"No… You didn't. It's just really hot, you know? How you… look at me. Makes me feel like you want me so much."
"Oh, and I want you so much. You know that, don't you?" Javi leaned his head back against the wall, lips curling upward while he gently ran his fingers through your hair.
"Yes."
Returning the smile, you started to pull down his underwear and yanked them to his ankles with his help. His cock was hard against his abdomen, the veins standing out prominently and you involuntarily curled and uncurled your toes.
"It's so pretty, Javi," you murmured, lowering your head to the same level as his cock and darting out your tongue to lick a slow strip across his glans.
"Baby," your boyfriend huffed, his muscles coiling even though his gaze seemed to soften further. "Fuck… Your tongue's — so good."
His hand at the back of your head didn't push or hurry you but rather caressed your scalp in a way that made it all too tempting to glance up at him every now and then and devour the look he gave you. That sheer expression of his lust, his appreciation and even admiration. But since your main focus remained his cock, you kept your eyes on it for the most part, letting more and more of him slip past your lips in a manner that made Javi's eyes roll back.
"Jesus fucking Christ… Darling, you — you're so good to me. How the fuck did I deserve that, mhm?"
You brought your hand to his cock, pumping the part of his length that you couldn't reach so easily with your lips while twirling your tongue around his tip.
"You're just really good to me too, Javi. And you taste good."
"And you just want me to lose my mind… That's it, right? Fuck…" His free hand combed through his own messy hair, sweaty and tousled both from his time in the bar and the attentive work of your generous mouth.
Slowly, gradually, so that you wouldn't gag around him, you went deeper with closed eyes, your tongue flat so that his cock could slide past it. He really did taste good, a little salty, mixed with something warm and strong. And then there was his scent… Javi always smelled clean and fresh, but beneath the layers of his aftershave there was also something you couldn't quite find words for, something that you could only link to him. He just smelled like… Javier Peña. Through and through. Which was part of the reason why you loved going down on him so much. Why you loved it when your face was pressed against him and his lips whispered your name like it was a sin that shouldn't make its way out of his apartment.
"You feel so good, baby. So good, you — fuck, cariño… Can you look at me? Please."
You raised your head a little, just enough so that you wouldn't choke the second you lost your focus on your breathing, following his request instead. It definitely wasn't the most comfortable position, but you managed to lock your gaze with his, blinking a few times, determined not to let go of his dick just because he had asked to see your eyes.
"You're doing so well, sweetheart… I don't deserve you, shit… Holy shit — I don't know how you do it."
After toying with his cock for a few more minutes, focusing on his shaft and tip rather than forcing all of him down your throat, Javi tenderly pulled you off with a low groan. Spit and precum were coating his member, which was also the reason why slick, wet noises had been bouncing off the walls of his bedroom for the past few minutes. You liked it messy and therefore didn't mind the mixture of your drool and his wetness trickling down your chin or dropping onto your neck. If anything, it just made you feel like you were putting all your effort into the blow job, which was your goal at the end of the day.
"I need to make you feel good too, darling… Can I? Please, princess."
"Yes, Javi," you quickly murmured, allowing him to lift your face and kiss your lips.
"I need you, sweetheart." His motions were a lot more urgent, rushed even, as he cradled your head for a little longer, then helped you lie back. This time, neither of you even bothered to turn around on the bed so that your head could rest on the pillow, Javi just guided you down, his face hovering above yours.
"Fuck, baby, you don't know how much I want you. How much I was looking forward to coming home to you."
He knew that he sounded like he didn't give a fuck about his friends, like the cliché of a person who falls head over heels for a woman and abandons all his friends for months because he is so deeply in love, but in that moment, he didn't care. Because it was true. He had thought about you with almost no break ever since he had left the house and had to say goodbye to you.
"Can I have your fingers, Javi?" you breathed, rolling your hips up into his to grind against his hard length.
"Anything you want, hermosa… Where do you want them, mhm? Inside you? On your pretty clit?"
"Inside, please," you replied at once, making Javi believe that you had been thinking about his hands the entire time you were sucking his cock.
"Alright, baby. You're gonna get everything you want, I promise. You just gotta tell me, and you'll get it. Always."
"Always?" you giggled, hips rising while your boyfriend kissed his way down your body, pulling your shirt up for his mouth to leave a wet trace across your skin.
"Of course. Wherever you are… When I visit you at work… In a restaurant… a bar." Javi's hands were splayed across your ribcage, his lips purposefully tickling your stomach and making you jolt.
"I don't know if that's a good idea…" you whispered, your pussy clenching with excitement as Javi pulled down your sweatpants along with your underwear, wasting no more time with teasing you.
"What is?"
"You saying that…"
His large hand stroked up your thighs, gently parting them to take in the state of your cunt. "And why?"
"Because I want you often."
Javi lowered his head, though his eyes remained fixed on you. "How often?"
"Mhm… depends."
"Depends on what?"
Before you could respond, you had to get your breathing under control, which was why you drew in a deep breath, watching his tongue peek out and carefully circle your protruding bundle of nerves.
"Many things… Like what you're wearing… The things you're saying…"
Although Javi was thoroughly occupied with drawing patterns all over your pussy as though he intended to craft a painting with the quick swipes of his tongue, your words piqued his interest and his eyes found yours once again.
"What things I'm saying, baby?"
Your mouth twisted, eyes sparkling brightly. "Like… Like when you tell me about your work."
"My work?" Javi couldn't help but chuckle, effortlessly parting your pussy lips with the thumb of his right hand.
"Mhmm, yes… Sometimes. It just… sounds so hot."
He was still laughing as he slowly pushed his thumb inside your fluttering, soaked hole that was sucking him in so well Javi assumed it wasn't nearly enough to satisfy your needs yet. You needed more of him, all of him preferably.
"Well, then I guess I should tell you about my work more often, cariño," he murmured, his voice a deep vibration against your skin. "Because I like seeing you like that. S'really fucking sweet."
Driven by pure instinct, your head tilted away from him, your hair covering the side of your face where heat was rising in your cheeks. Javi couldn't be sure, though.
"Am I making you blush, cariño?" he wanted to know, pressing an open-mouthed kiss right on top of your blazing clit.
"No," you quickly lied and thrust your hips forward, beckoning Javi to push his finger further inside you.
"Good. 'Cause if you were, I'd tell you there's no reason to feel that way. Now do you want more, babygirl?"
You couldn't believe he was even asking you that, your hand flying out to grab his broad shoulder.
"Yeah. Yes, please. Please, Javi. I need more."
He was so smug and so stirred by your pleas at the same time, tempted to draw the moment out a little longer, but in the end his desire to watch your pleasure unfurl in its purest form won out, and Javi put more strength behind his motions. He worked his thumb inside you to the knuckle, let a generous amount of spit run down your pussy and sucked the little nub between his lips, hollowing his cheeks to build pressure. All of it happened so quickly that your nails scraped his shoulders, even the thin layer of his open shirt unable to keep him from feeling a sharp pain soar through him. Still, it wasn't the kind of sting that would prompt him to tell you to keep your hands to yourself… No, Javi felt proud of making you lose control like that.
"Javi…" you howled, eyes pinched shut and thighs convulsing even though he had only just started.
"I know, baby. She tastes good. And I know she's been waiting for me, hasn't she? S'why she welcomes me like that. And s'why she's so wet and warm for me. Just for me, isn't that right?"
You adored listening to Javi giving your pussy pronouns, talking about it like it was a separate part of your body with a mind and needs of its own. You didn't know what it was about it, but you were well aware of the effect it had on you.
"Yes, Javi. Just for you. Only for you, fuck —" Your shoulders rolled, shoulder blades lifting off the mattress, hands travelling up to his dark hair, which you lightly tugged on. Once Javi decided it was about time to give you more of his fingers, he pulled his thumb out and instead fed you his middle and ring finger, both so long they reached far deeper inside you than his thumb had.
You nearly choked on your own spit, tension rippling through your spine like tiny shock waves, though you associated them with something good and pleasurable.
"Yeah, you're really fucking warm and tight for me right there, mhm? All that for me?"
"Yes, Javi. All that for you, please, fuck —"
You didn't even know what you wanted. Hell, how were you supposed to figure it out with his fingers seizing all your attention like a black hole every time you tried to coherently sort your thoughts?
But your boyfriend seemed to understand you regardless, or at least it felt like he was really hitting an aching spot when he slid his tongue over the underside of your clit. Yes, he was hitting all the right spots with that. His fingers were tapping against the spongy patch within your walls, which you rarely even found on your own, whereas Javi never let a single session go by without that little area getting its treat. "Like it deserves it," your boyfriend used to say.
Meanwhile, his tongue was taking care of your clit, which seemed to be in flames, your nerve endings on high alert. You wished he would quench your desires, finish what he had started and put out the fire scorching across your pearl, but at the same time you wished he were inside you with his cock rather than his fingers. Sure, you loved to squeeze around them, to feel them move and stretch your walls, but there was always something entirely different about Javi putting his cock inside you. The intimacy, the closeness of it all was probably what was most alluring to you.
"Javi…" you whined, voice higher than when you normally talked to him. You squirmed on the bed with your thighs pressing against either side of his head, your hips bucking in search of something you couldn't quite describe.
"I know, baby. I'm gonna make you feel so good. So good that this pussy's gonna soak my face. She's so wet, sweetheart, so fucking perfect for me… You feel that?"
Javi slowly drew his fingers back, proving to you that your cunt couldn't be called wet but downright drenched. Slurping noises rose from your center, so unambiguous and filthy that you might have felt embarrassed about it. But not with Javi. Not with a man who always worshipped your body's reaction to him and showed his adoration in the same way that he savored every last one of your moans and whimpers.
"I want you to — fuck me, Javi," you stammered, his lips closing around your clit and dragging his heavy tongue along the outline. It was staggering, so perfect that it took a lot of willpower to make peace with the fact that he was about to comply with your request and pull away, but you longed for his thick cock inside you too much to wait for your first orgasm of the night.
Javi loved to make you cum at least once before he buried himself inside you, but tonight your need to feel him was especially strong. You wanted to feel every inch of him on top of you, be able to tangle your fingers with his and drape your legs around his hips. And that was only possible with him lying on top of you, fucking you into the bed.
"You want me to fuck you, sweetheart? Now?"
"Yes," you whimpered and spread your legs wider. Javi didn't need any more than that. He hadn't been lying when he said he would give you anything you wanted, which also included stopping his tongue play on your cunt earlier than he had anticipated.
Panting heavily, Javi left his space between your legs, though he rubbed your clit one last time with the pad of his thumb. Then he crawled toward your bedside table and opened the top drawer with a confidence that suggested he knew his way around your apartment effortlessly. There they were. Condoms that fitted him perfectly.
"Really, Javi…?" you muttered through pursed lips, feet planted flat on the bed, your hand busy tucking your hair behind your ears.
"Yes, cariño. C'mon, don't give me those eyes."
He should have known that he had made a mistake the first time he had fucked you raw. Okay, it had happened more than once, but definitely no more than three or four times. Obviously, Javi had regretted it within minutes, but you had shown a particular fondness for feeling him without a condom every single time.
And to avoid the fear of getting pregnant, you had taken the morning-after pill, which had relieved Javi even though he wasn't keen on watching you go down that path just because it was convenient and allowed you that special connection during sex. Condoms were safer, and Javi knew that, goddamnit. At times, it was just very difficult to deny you anything at all. Tonight, he would remain unwavering, though.
"Just this once. Please," you begged, putting even more hunger and yearning into your eyes, though Javi quickly averted his gaze so that he wouldn't feel too tempted by your dangerous request.
"Baby, you gotta stop… I'm gonna make it good, I promise. You trust me, right?"
"Yes," you whined, glancing down at his cock, which was throbbing in his firm grip.
"Okay… Then just relax. And enjoy it."
Javi was quick to tear the small package open, fumbling with the plastic and dropping it onto the nightstand. Then his eyes connected with yours again, skimming past the yearning in your gaze with a faint stumble of his heart.
"I'm gonna make it good, cariño… Gonna do all the work… Just need my princess to enjoy it and keep her eyes on me."
You couldn't help but chuckle softly, which relieved Javi, who had feared that refusing to fuck you raw would set off your pouting.
"I can do the work too," you insisted, reaching for his hard, throbbing cock, but Javi shook his head with a glossy twinkle in his eyes.
"I know you can… But tonight I just want you to lie back and relax. Okay?" Javi lovingly placed his palm on your cheek, thumb stretching out to brush against your cheekbone.
"Okay…"
He didn't need to hear more than that. Running his hand up and down your thigh, Javi single-handedly rolled the condom over his cock and stroked himself a couple of times. Of course, he would have liked to forgo the condom as well, but he already knew that he would feel guilty afterwards when the two of you had to rush to the pharmacy in the morning for the morning-after pill.
His left hand guided his tip through your slit, smearing your wetness all over your folds to make a mess he would be happy to clean up later.
"Javi," you whimpered as his cock nudged your sensitive bud, your legs spreading a little wider as though reminding him where your hole was.
"You want me to put it in?" he murmured, leaning down with his entire weight, knowing well how much you adored feeling as much of him as you physically could.
"Yes. Yes, Javi, please."
Your chests were flush against each other, not just sweat connecting your bodies but your heat as well. Everything was in sync, your heavy breathing, your heartbeat, probably even your temperatures.
"Put it in," you demanded once more, then drew a slow breath when you felt his heavy tip nudge against your hole. As always, Javi pressed his thumb into your clit while he worked his cock inside your cunt, giving you something to cling to and focus on while your walls stretched to accommodate him. Besides, he swore he always felt you loosen up a little more whenever his finger provided extra stimulation.
"Oh my god," you hummed, sliding your hands over the toned muscles of his arms and shoulders before planting them on his back. You pushed gently against him, communicating that you wanted to minimize the distance between the two of you without using your words. And just like you had hoped, Javi understood despite your inability to speak.
"Baby, you feel like a fucking dream. Look at me, cariño, please."
It wasn't easy to keep your eyes focused on one spot as your pupils tended to uncontrollably flick to the sides whenever he was stretching your walls like that. Still, you tried your very best for him.
"Javi, oh my god, oh my god," you whimpered quietly, feeling his chest cage you beneath him in the most exciting way possible.
"That's it, sweetheart. That's it… You like it? You like it when I go in slowly like that?"
He wasn't even halfway inside you even though you were more than ready to take him in one go.
"Yes," you breathed, your legs wrapping around his hips tightly.
You were holding onto him like a monkey, like you weren't planning to let him go any time soon. Pulse thundering behind your temples, you hid your face in the crook of his neck while Javi disappeared inside you painfully slowly, taking his time with every single inch. Of course, his touch on your bundle of nerves hadn't stopped and he still rubbed fast circles over your skin, which caused your lids to flutter and your pussy to drench his girthy cock.
You didn't know how Javi managed to squeeze his hand between your bodies, which were pressed so closely together that you had been certain not even a sheet of paper would fit between you. Still, he somehow found a way.
"Just a little bit more…" Javi hummed against your earlobe, pinching your clit between thumb and index finger. "Fuck… You're squeezing me so tightly. Just need you to look at me. Need to see how — good you're feeling."
That was something you could comply with. You didn't struggle for a second to convey your love for his actions and didn't shy away from moaning his name softly, working it between your teeth like a reverent prayer or a holy exclamation.
"Javi… Javi, please —" You took a deep breath, which didn't help. You felt too hot and short of breath, your body deliciously confined in the best way you could imagine. Buried beneath the man you needed so badly, held in place by his strong arms.
At last, he was fully sheathed inside you, his cock hitting all the right spots from within. Now that he was entirely buried in your warmth, he couldn't hold back any longer and quickly started to move in a steady rhythm. You weren't new to his technique, his long, intense, still quite slow thrusts that seemed to press you a little deeper into the bed with each one.
"Oh my god," was all you could breathe, your eyes on him as requested, though a thick veil hung over your sight.
"I know, baby. Feels good, doesn't it? I can feel you clench so hard around me. S'a lot for your pretty pussy, isn't it?"
You nodded softly, hazy eyes gazing back up at him.
"Too much?" Javi searched your face suspiciously at the faint shake of your head. "Talk to me, sweetheart. Need to hear you say it."
"No. S'not too much. It's good like that."
His hand gently slapping your clit wasn't really a reward, yet it felt like one.
"Deeper, Javi… please. Please, I need — more."
This time, it was Javi nuzzling your neck with his lips, kissing along your pulse point and hungrily inhaling your scent.
"Deeper? I can't go any deeper, hermosa. I'm already all the way inside you… She won't let me, you know?" To give you something different all the same, Javi swirled his finger around your clit with more force, smiling contentedly as you softly cried out his name.
"Javi… Javi, oh my god. I'm gonna cum."
It was no surprise that you were so close, considering he had already spent some time between your legs warming you up. It wouldn't take him much longer either, even though part of him just didn't want to let go yet, wanting to feel you a little longer.
"Jesus… You're so fucking warm, babygirl. So wet 'n' warm. Just made for me alone, mhm? I want you to cum for me and I want you to let it all go. Don't hold back."
He tucked your hair behind your ears, which didn't align with the powerful, sharp thrusts he delivered at all. They weren't painful or brutal, of course, but rather made you believe that Javi wanted to make sure you felt him. Preferably for days after. Each one was pointed and precise, driving into you with so much force you shuddered when he slammed back. Occasionally, Javi even broke the rhythm just to make his thrusts a little more surprising, drawing out a few more of those squeals from you. With success, obviously.
"You're so —" you mumbled, teeth dragging over your tongue to release the tension building in your body.
"I'm what?" Javi grinned, knowing that whatever words had formed in your head would amuse him.
"Good. Fuck… so good."
"That's my girl… You know what it does to my cock, don't you? Hearing you talk like that." Javi glanced down meaningfully, though you couldn't see a thing with your heavy, swimming head comfortably resting on a pillow.
"No. What?" you innocently asked, toying with the hair at his temples as your hooded eyes took in each of his lustful glances down your body, your jiggling tits, the thin layer of sweat covering your cleavage.
"Makes it really fucking hard… And proud." Javi purposefully drew his hips back before snapping them forward harshly, fully filling your spent pussy.
"Oh my god," you panted, unable even to tease him further about the effect of your words on his cock.
"Makes me wanna give it to you all night… Just playing with that sweet pussy for hours while she cums for me over and over again… So often that she forgets which one was coaxed out of her by my fingers, which one by my tongue and which by my cock… Makes me wanna give it to her really good, hermosa."
Javi lazily dragged his thumb around your bundle of nerves, throat vibrating with laughter at the way you jolted and jerked underneath him.
"C'mere, cariño…" Javi placed wet kisses along your jawline, all the way around your face until he landed one on your lips. "I want you to cum for me. Want you to give it all to me, baby, fuck… Need to — watch it. How you lose it."
His face was flushed and gleaming with sweat, drops falling from his brow onto your cheeks, but neither of you could have cared less. You were both on the verge of exploding, so much pressure and tension built up in your bodies that Javi felt like the condom wouldn't catch his entire load.
Meanwhile, your hands were still pulling at his hair, using a little more force every time he hit a particularly good spot or touched your clit right at its most sensitive point.
"Cum for me, baby. C'mon, sweetheart," he whispered at the exact moment his cock was buried all the way inside you, the rough skin of his thumb pressing directly onto your nub.
It was all you needed. His exhausted voice, his torso trapping you beneath him. Your head spun like a carousel, and the next thing you knew you were orgasming around Javi's cock, clenching around him ten times harder than before. He followed at once and spilled into the condom, his entire body quivering and shuddering.
His head dropped while you greedily let air fill your lungs, the muscles in your stomach convulsing.
"Oh my god," you murmured like a religious mantra, a single tear escaping from your lower lashes, which Javi quickly wiped from your face. "Javi… I — shit."
"I know, cariño… I got you. I got you, always. Just look at you cumming like that… S'fucking perfect. You're perfect."
There was a lot of vulnerability resonating in his voice, but since you were hovering in a similar dreamy state, you met his tenderness precisely, bringing your hands up to the back of his neck.
"Don't leave," you whispered, caressing his shoulder blades and closing your eyes.
"Where would I go, baby, mhm?"
"You could go home. But I want you to stay."
"I want to stay too…" he muttered through clenched teeth, flexing his jaw as he glided a hand from your hip up to your ribcage.
Javi stayed.
And he didn't just stay, he also fucked you again and again, like he had wished for earlier. First with his tongue, since his cock needed a little time to recover. Javi knelt between your legs and kissed his way down your body, which drew a fresh layer of sweat across your thighs and raised goosebumps along your forearms.
He made out with your clit slowly and passionately, like an ardent kiss shared between two lovers. After your third high of the night, you were crying softly, causing Javi to crawl up to you and scoop you into his arms. Your chin resting on his shoulder, he brought his lips to your ear, nibbling at your skin and speaking quietly.
"Can I give you more, baby? I just can't fucking stop. You taste so good and I need to see it again. Need to hear you say my name when you cum. You say it like you're mine. Like you're trying to tell me that you belong to me and that I'm the only one who gets to touch that pretty pussy."
You wanted to tell him that it was the truth, and that you only ever wanted him to be so close to you, but the words caught in your throat. All you could do was nod and whine his name once more while Javi crawled back down your body.
"Never gonna be done with her, hermosa… Never gonna be done telling her how perfect she is," Javi murmured the instant before he dove back in.
After making you cum again, this time keeping his tongue inside you throughout your high, he fucked you one more time with his cock. He had had great plans to coax a fifth one out of you, but about halfway through you had pressed a hand over your mouth, whimpering that you were too sensitive, which he had respected without a second thought. So it was just him spurting into the condom while hissing curses through his gritted teeth, mostly followed by high praise for you, how well you always took him, how addicted he was to your cunt, how perfect you felt. Better than anything else he had ever experienced.
"Jesus Christ… You're gonna be the fucking death of me, hermosa, shit… Fuck, yeah, like that… Don't move, baby, yes… Just stay like that, goddamnit…"
Then it was over.
Javi pulled out of you carefully, aware that after four releases, you would shriek at the slightest contact against your raw skin. A much darker, more twisted part of him found delight and rotten pleasure in the idea of his cock turning you into such a mess. You had willingly let him bruise your insides, had allowed him to push his fingers or tongue back inside you again and again just because you were so intoxicated by the feeling of him.
"You make it really hard to stop, baby," Javi chuckled, lying down next to you and offering you his hand, which you eagerly took.
"How late is it?" you whispered.
"I don't wanna know…"
"Why?" you asked, turning your head to glance at his profile. "We can sleep in tomorrow, right?"
"Yeah… we can. But still. I think it's really late."
Chest rising and falling steadily, you kissed the knuckles of his hand. "I'm feeling very sleepy, Javi…"
"That's okay, cariño… I put you through a lot today. Are you feeling good? Everything okay?"
You nodded with a faint smile lingering on your lips. "Yeah. Very good."
"Your pussy too?"
Your grin broadened as you felt Javi's fingertips ghost over your thigh, drifting toward your center.
"Yeah… But I really can't go another round."
"I know," he admitted, jutting his jaw forward. "You're just… really addictive. All of you. Makes it hard not to touch you all the time…"
"Well, we've got all the time in the world tomorrow…" you murmured, knowing well how much your boyfriend adored lazy morning sex when neither of you were really awake but highly sensitive to each other's touch.
He had barely even stopped touching you, yet Javi was already excited by the idea of waking you up with his mouth. Perhaps you would still be wet from the night before. Or maybe his proximity, his cock pressed against your backside, would make you dream filthy things that would turn you on in your sleep, resulting in drenched panties when you woke up.
Before Javi's thoughts could wander too far, he quickly kissed the top of your head.
"I can't wait for it. I'm gonna be all yours."
You smiled, then tilted your face so that his next kiss landed on your lips.
"I love you, baby."
Those four words had been as quiet as all the others, yet they carried a different feeling. A different weight, a different emotion ringing in his tone. There was longing and desire mixed with curiosity and fear. Fear that you wouldn't say it back. Now more than ever, Javi became aware that he had never said it quite like this before. He had spoken about being in love with you, told you how wonderful and perfect you were, but saying it to your face like that? It was a first. And hell, it was a little scary.
"I love you too, Javi. I love you so much."
Tears welled in your eyes, your bottom lip quivering as you pushed your face against his neck. A wave of relief coursed through him, flooding from the top of his head down to his little toe. It was ridiculous to feel so afraid of you not reciprocating his love after everything you two had just done, but Javi couldn't help it.
He wasn't half as confident with you as he usually was. Not in a bad way, though. It wasn't like you drained his self-assurance, but he just felt so much shyer and more afraid of doing something wrong whenever he was around you.
Maybe that was what his friends had talked about in the bar. They weren't blind to the way you had fundamentally changed something within him. Something that Javi couldn't quite grasp, but he knew that he liked it. He liked this version of himself, the one who was capable of allowing himself to feel things he had been reluctant to admit before. He liked what you did to him, how he acted in your presence.
"Just stay, baby. I just want you to stay," you whispered, his and your limbs a tangled sprawl across the bed.
"I will stay, cariño. For as long as you want me to. God… I love you."
It felt good to finally say those words aloud.
Happy Fathers Day
The Ex Education
Ex husband!Harry Castillo x Ex Wife!F!Reader
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Lesson 13
Summary: Harry doesn’t answer your calls, and the ghosts of the past begin circling again. As scandals resurface and loyalties are tested, you and Harry are forced into yet another trial. When midnight strikes, will love still choose you both?
Warnings and WC: 15.7k. (oops) 18+⚠️SMUT/EXPLICIT CONTENT/ MDNI, lap sex, dirty talk, sexual tension, explicit language, rough sex, shameless smut, possessive behavior, lust, desire, creampie, piv, touching, fluff, fingering, unprotected sex (don't do that), kissing, second chance romance, ex husband ex wife, upper east side drama, rich family problems, scandal, mention about paternity lawsuit, protective!Harry, society drama, corporate politics, jealous!Harry, argument, protective John, Reader gently rejects John, Lucas is being jerk, christmas eve, birthday on christmas vibe, plaza hotel, slow burn payoff, emotional healing, past trauma mention, angst, mention of periods, fluff, romance, emotional tension, family drama, rom-com, comedy, sassy!reader, OC Characters (Ron=Harry's assistant, Emily=Reader's bestie, Chloe=Reader's elite friend, Mikey=Readers brother Scarlet&Richard=Reader's parents, Lara=Scarlet's assistant, Vivienne=Harry's mother, Sienna=Harry's sister, Dana=Harry's EA (Executive Assistant))
authors note: Hi my loves 🤍 This chapter was a little delayed because of internet issues (sorry)😭, so thank you for being patient with me. I wrote every bit of it with so much love during those quiet breaks, and I really hope you feel it while reading...💋
Love Doesn't Belong on the Balance Sheet
At dawn, the Upper East Side never looked real. It looked edited. The glass towers caught light before the streets were fully awake, and for a few minutes everything felt suspended—like someone had turned the contrast up too high. Central Park still held onto the last of the night. The air was thin, cold, almost polite. From below, the buildings seemed calm. Untouched. Expensive in a way that suggested permanence.
People always slowed down when they looked up. They tried not to, but they did.
A jogger paused at the edge of the park, stretching longer than necessary just to stare. A woman with a stroller followed the line of someone’s pointing finger. A tourist zoomed in with her phone as if she might catch a glimpse of a life happening behind the glass.
“Imagine living up there.” “How much do you think that costs?” “I bet it’s insane at night.”
It wasn’t envy. Not exactly. It was projection.
From far enough away, height looks like safety. Money looks like insulation. Glass looks like freedom. Distance is kind like that. It edits out the parts where the lights never really turn off.
From the penthouse, the city didn’t feel romantic. It felt exposed.
People assumed height meant power. That floor-to-ceiling windows meant you owned the view instead of the view owning you. That security meant peace.
Sometimes security meant you had fewer things to worry about. It did not mean you had fewer consequences.
From your windows, the city moved in loud, messy waves. Sirens. Laughter. Arguments on sidewalks. Someone crying into a phone without caring who heard. A couple kissing in the middle of a crosswalk while traffic waited.
They were visible to each other. You were visible to everyone.
They could disappear into a crowd if they needed to. Change neighborhoods. Change hair. Change jobs. Start over quietly. You could trend before noon.
For them, a mistake could dissolve by Monday. For you, it calcified.
One careless sentence and someone would clip it, circulate it, dissect it. One photograph at the wrong angle and analysts would start whispering. One dinner with the wrong person and it would become narrative.
You learned to check rooms before entering them. Learned which cameras belonged to press and which belonged to staff. Learned to keep your shoulders squared even when your stomach dropped.
You didn’t resent the weight. That would’ve been dishonest.
You were raised for it.
Raised to understand that your last name came with infrastructure. Lawyers. Advisors. Quiet phone calls that made problems shrink before they reached headlines.
But power doesn’t forgive distraction. And legacy does not allow softness.
When the pressure built too high in your chest, when breathing felt mechanical and rehearsed, your mind always returned to the same image.
A golden cage.
It was comfortable. Temperature controlled. Secured. Furnished with better views than most people would ever know.
But it was still containment.
Access restricted. Movement documented. Security guards who pretended not to watch but always did.
From the outside, it looked like privilege. Inside, it felt like a role you could never fully step out of.
You knew it was still privilege. You were not naïve.
There were women whose cages were not metaphorical.
Women without lawyers. Without security. Without silence purchased on their behalf.
You never confused comfort with innocence. But comfort didn’t erase the cost.
Other women could unravel publicly. Cry in restaurants. Leave town for a month and let people speculate. Gain weight. Lose weight. Fall apart. You couldn’t.
Your pain was processed. Filtered through legal teams. Reshaped by PR. Contained in statements that said just enough and nothing at all.
When you returned from Switzerland that year, you smiled on cue. Not because you were healed. Because you were briefed.
No one saw how white your hospital sheets had been. How the antiseptic smell clung to your hair for weeks. How your body felt unfamiliar—like something that had betrayed you quietly.
No one knew how close the monitors had come to flatlining. No one knew his name.
You attended charity dinners three weeks later. You stood under chandeliers and let photographers say your name. You laughed at jokes you didn’t process.
You learned how to survive without looking like you were surviving.
That was the exhausting part. Not the wealth. The performance.
You didn’t hate the other Upper East Side women. Some of them had mastered it. Some of them believed in it. They wore couture like uniform. Diamonds like punctuation marks at the end of declarative sentences.
They understood timing. Angles. When to speak and when to let silence look intentional. Sometimes you wondered if you would’ve become one of them. If you hadn’t fallen in love.
Because love was inefficient. Love didn’t respect structure. Love didn’t consult legal.
You had been raised to be formidable. Disciplined. Controlled.
A woman who did not bow. Did not soften. Did not need.
Until Harry.
When he said I love you, it wasn’t grand. There were no witnesses. No skyline behind him. No perfect lighting.
It was quiet. Simple. Earnest.
And maybe that was the moment you realized it was the first time you had ever really been in love.
It wasn’t overwhelming. It didn’t sweep you off your feet. It made space.
With him, you weren’t a surname. You weren’t an asset. You weren’t strategy. You were just a woman — and for the first time, that felt like enough.
You had found the center of your life. Until life turned cruel and tore you apart without mercy.
Five years. Life had stolen five years from you.
And now that you had found each other again, the past hovered over you like a storm cloud—heavy, inevitable.
You had lain awake all night, trapped in memory and fear, until exhaustion finally claimed you. When the first pale light of morning slipped through the windows, you opened eyes swollen from crying.
Your hand moved instinctively toward your phone. Harry. Message after message—blue bubbles lined up on the screen, each one sitting beneath the small, indifferent word: Delivered.
You: Are you okay? (5:02 PM) You: Please call me. (5:47 PM) You: Harry? (6:31 PM) You: I’m worried. (8:18 PM) You: Please. (11:56 PM)
Below them, a quiet row of outgoing calls. His name repeated over and over in the call log. Time stamps stretching from yesterday evening into the early hours of the morning.
You had called from the car. Called again when you reached the apartment. Called sometime after midnight, when the silence had grown too loud to ignore. And once more just before dawn, half-awake, desperate.
Fear tightened around your ribs, sharp and breath-stealing.
You could still see him. The way he had stood outside his company building as your father’s men closed in.
And his face—
God, his face.
It was the same look he had worn in Vermont.
You rolled onto your back with a strained, broken sound, pressing a pillow hard against your face as frustration and fear collided in your chest, and screamed into it. “Damn it.”
You needed to see him. To look at him—properly.
The image of him standing there, stricken and still, lingered with a cruel clarity. That look. You couldn’t let that be the last version of him your mind carried.
You needed to see his composure return. That quiet curve of his mouth. The warmth that softened his eyes when he looked at you.
You needed to know that yesterday had not broken something permanent.
Not in him. Not in you.
You called him again. It rang. And rang. And then went to voicemail. The automated tone felt colder than silence.
You lowered the phone slowly, your eyes drifting to his profile picture.
“You’re not angry with me… are you?” you murmured softly to the screen. “For not telling you sooner.”
Your thumb hovered over the keyboard.
I’m sorry...
You typed it. Stared at it. Then deleted it.
Apologizing felt wrong. Not because you weren’t sorry— but because this wasn’t that simple. You exhaled sharply and pushed yourself upright in bed.
Yesterday, Richard had practically dragged you out of Castillo Capital.
He’d explained in the car—Eduardo had shown up. The reporters had caught wind of it within minutes.
By the time Eduardo’s name started circulating through the press like blood in water, the entire swarm shifted direction.
Cameras. Microphones. Headlines forming before facts.
Richard had pulled you away just before they flooded the entrance.
In a way, he had protected you. But the method—
The way he grabbed your arm. The way his men closed in around you. The way the scene unfolded in full view of the lobby.
That single moment ruined everything.
Every single person inside Castillo Capital had seen it.
You weren’t just Queen. You weren't an intern. You were Richard Queen’s daughter.
Visibly. Undeniably.
And while that should have been your concern— It wasn’t.
Harry was.
Because the second you were forced into that car, you hadn’t seen what happened next.
You dialed Ron.
He answered on the third ring.
“Please tell me you’ve seen him.”
A pause. Office noise in the background. Low voices. Movement.
Dana’s voice faintly somewhere behind him.
“We’re at the office,” Ron said. “He hasn’t come in.”
Your stomach dropped.
“After you left yesterday…” Ron hesitated. “It was a nightmare. Cameras everywhere. They cornered him outside the building. We barely got them off the entrance.”
You pressed your fingers to your temple. “Oh God,” you whispered.
“I’ve never been that close to a cameraman before,” Ron muttered. “They were practically shoving lenses in our faces.”
“Yeah, believe me, I know,” you said quietly. “Did you check his place?”
“I went by this morning. No answer. I’ll try the spare key if we don’t hear anything by tonight.”
Spare key. Right. You had one too.
He’d handed it to you yesterday morning over breakfast—casually, like it meant nothing.
It had meant everything. But leaving the house right now was impossible. Reporters were already stationed outside.
Eduardo’s return had shaken your family’s name, and the revelation that you’d been working at Castillo Capital for months had been the final drop.
If they saw you step outside—
They would descend.
“Call me the second you hear anything,” you said.
“Sure, and Ms, Queen,” Ron’s tone softened. “Don’t stress yourself out, okay? He’s probably just… clearing his head. You know him. He’ll be fine.”
You wished you had his confidence. “Thank you, Ron.”
In the bathroom, you splashed cold water over your face until your skin tingled, until the sting helped quiet the noise in your head. You brushed your teeth mechanically, staring at your reflection as foam gathered at the corner of your mouth, as if even your body were moving on habit alone.
Normally—even on your worst days, even during your period—you dressed impeccably. Presentation was instinct. Precision. Armor.
Even pain had a dress code.
Today, you pulled on a simple day dress. Soft. Unstructured. The kind of thing you’d never wear to a meeting. A cardigan followed, sleeves pushed up without care. Your hair went into a loose, almost careless bun, strands slipping free at your temples.
No makeup.
You studied yourself in the mirror.
Your eyes were swollen. Shadows pooled beneath them. The faint redness along your nose betrayed how much you’d cried.
You didn’t reach for concealer. You didn’t care.
For once, you allowed yourself the small, almost absurd thought—
I’m just a woman. My boyfriend isn’t answering me. My father dragged me away from him. And I am absolutely allowed to spend the day sulking.
The normalcy of it almost made you laugh. Just heartbreak. Hormones. And a stubborn ache in your chest.
You exhaled slowly and straightened your shoulders.
Breakfast had long passed. And this house had rules. If you missed breakfast, no one recreated it for you.
Even back when there had been a full staff moving like clockwork through marble hallways and silver trays—that rule had stood.
Structure. Discipline. Control.
You walked toward the kitchen, passing one of the bodyguards stationed near the elevator.
He straightened the moment he saw you.
They’d doubled security overnight.
After the reporters had somehow slipped past the front line and made it into the building lobby—shouting questions, flashing cameras, trying to force their way toward the private floors—Richard had gone quiet in that dangerous way of his.
By midnight, there were men stationed at every access point.
You narrowed your eyes at the bodyguard.
He shifted slightly under your gaze.
He looked away first.
Lara was arranging fruit on a porcelain plate with a great care.
“Oh, sweetheart,” she said softly, glancing up. “I was just bringing this up to you. You missed breakfast.”
She stepped closer, lowering her voice conspiratorially.
“And I had a feeling you wouldn’t have much appetite.”
You wrinkled your nose at the plate, a faint, tired smile touching your lips.
“Yeagh, good guess,” you said softly.
Her gaze lingered on you—on the loose bun barely holding, on the soft cardigan hanging off one shoulder, on the absence of mascara. She stilled. She hadn’t seen you dressed like this in years. This was your quiet uniform. Your unspoken signal. Your depression style. Sometimes Lara understood you better than your own mother did.
“Oh, my darling,” she murmured, her voice gentler now. “Then sit. I’ll make your special tray.”
You exhaled slowly. Everyone in this house knew what that meant. Chocolate chip ice cream. Your favorite. With pistachios on the side—because too much sweetness overwhelmed you, and salt grounded it. You’d once mentioned that in a magazine interview, half joking about how it was your “emergency combination” on bad days. It had trended on Instagram for a week. Now it was just… ritual.
The television’s low volume drifted in from the sitting room. You followed the sound. Mikey was sprawled across the couch, controller in hand, PlayStation glowing against the muted elegance of the room. And he was sulking. That was new.
“Hey,” you said, dropping down beside him, tucking one leg beneath you.
“Hey, sis.”
He barely glanced away from the screen. “Period? And… heartbreak double feature?” he asked casually.
Despite yourself, you smiled faintly. “Heartbreak solo. No period. Yet. Thankfully.”
He lost the round and dropped the controller harder than necessary. “So what’s your excuse?” you asked dryly. “Did Dad fire you from the company?”
He groaned dramatically. “Sienna.” You closed your eyes. “God.”
“I think she’s cheating on me.”
You turned slowly to look at him. “You’re not even dating for god’s sake.”
“We will be. Eventually. And married.” He sat up slightly. “I’ve already thought of our future children’s names.”
You covered your face with your hand. “I’m not even on my period and you’re giving me cramps. Thank you.”
He grabbed your wrist and pulled your hand down with theatrical offense. “I went to her gallery thing, okay? Some guy showed up. Muscular. Big. They looked… close.”
He flexed his arm hopefully. “Should I go to the gym? Is that what you girls want now? Big arms and emotional unavailability?”
“Mikey,” you deadpanned, “you used to walk around reading Dostoevsky like you were the intellectual wing of Manhattan. That didn’t work. Muscles won’t either.”
He sighed, deflating.
Lara reappeared with the tray. “My princess’s favorite mix,” she announced gently, placing it on the coffee table.
You leaned your head back against the couch. “Lara, I really don’t want—”
Mikey reached for the ice cream. She slapped his hand without hesitation.
“Hey! I’m heartbroken too,” he protested.
Then he looked at you more seriously. “By the way… you’re worrying for nothing. I’m telling you.” His tone softened as he really looked at you this time. “Harry would never be mad at you. That guy is madly in love with you.” He huffed. “He fucking worships you, sis.”
You looked at him properly. A small, fragile smile tugged at your lips.
You lifted the spare controller and waved it in front of him. “Come on. Let’s play Sims.”
Mikey narrowed his eyes suspiciously. “Oh no. Absolutely not. We are not designing emotionally unstable billionaires and trapping them in architectural experiments again.”
You tilted your head, sweet and dangerous. “What if we make a girl that looks like Sienna?”
He froze. “…What?”
“A perfect replica. Same hair. Same sweet smile.”
He stared at you. “You wouldn’t.”
“Oh, I would.” You leaned closer. “And then we’ll see if she still chooses the muscular guy when her kitchen mysteriously disappears.”
“That’s sick.”
“That’s the game.”
He grabbed the controller tighter. “Fine. But then I’m making a guy that looks like Harry.”
You blinked. “What?”
“Yeah. And,” he added casually, “I’m not letting him shower.”
You gasped. “Noooo.”
“We’ll see how long he keeps that brooding billionaire vibe when green fumes start coming off him.”
You stared at him in horror. “He does not have fumes.”
“In Sims, everyone has fumes.”
“I will drown your character in the pool.”
“You always threaten that!”
“And I always follow through.”
He smirked. “Relax, making him that good-looking is going to take time. The Sims sliders aren’t built for that level of unfair genetics.”
You burst out laughing before you could stop yourself and smacked the back of his head lightly. “Idiot.”
“Ow!” He rubbed his head dramatically. “Domestic violence.”
You lunged for the controller again. “Give me that before you ruin my man digitally.”
“No.”
“Mikey.”
You tried grabbing the controller again; he twisted away, both of you half-standing, half-laughing, mock wrestling like children in an impossibly elegant living room.
“Give it, you tool!”
“Never!”
Lara sighed, a soft smile touching her lips. “Oh, you two,” she said gently. “Just like when you were little. Some things never change.”
You and Mikey froze mid tug-of-war. You straightened first, smoothing your cardigan as if nothing had happened.
The elevator chimed.
No one looked at first, Lara tensed. Then came the soft roll of garment racks over marble. And then—
Scarlet’s voice.
“Oh. My. God.”
All three of you turned.
She stepped into the living area like she had rehearsed the entrance. Cream silk blouse. Tailored trousers. And draped over her shoulders, a long, structured wool coat in the softest shade of ivory — floor-length, perfectly cut. Cartier bag dangling from her wrist.
Her eyes scanned the room in one slow sweep. Mikey slouched. You curled into the couch. The untouched tray.
Scarlet inhaled. “What,” she said calmly, “is happening here?”
You didn’t look at her. “As if you don’t know.”
Lara leaned toward her gently. “Scarlet… I don’t think tonight would be the best evening for this. They’re both a little… fragile.”
Scarlet’s expression flickered for half a second—calculating, adjusting.
“Sweetheart,” she said softly, moving closer, placing the Cartier bag on the coffee table. “I brought you something.”
You glanced at it. Beige. Predictable.
You looked back at her. “I don’t want it.”
She tilted her head slightly, disappointed but patient. “It’s not about wanting. It’s about lifting your mood.”
“My mood doesn’t need lifting,” you replied evenly. “It needs space.”
Mikey muttered, “I’m heartbroken too and no one buys me Cartier.”
Scarlet ignored him entirely, but she sat between you and Mikey, one arm resting lightly behind your shoulders—not quite hugging, not quite distant.
“Listen to me,” she said, voice lowered now. Controlled. Intimate. “You think I enjoy this? You think I enjoy security outside, press circling like vultures? I don’t. But this is our world.”
There it was. Our world.
“You cannot afford to look unstable right now,” she continued gently. “Not after yesterday.”
Your jaw tightened. “He dragged me out of there.”
“He removed you before you were devoured.”
“He exposed me.”
“No,” she corrected calmly. “He protected you from something far worse.”
You held her gaze now. “Worse?” Your voice sharpened. “What could possibly be worse? The worst already happened.”
Scarlet inhaled slowly, then she stood up, Lara helping her to remove the coat.
“Go upstairs,” she said. “Take a proper bath. I’ll have the tub prepared.” She turned slightly—just enough for the staff to understand the shift. “Warm water. Not too hot. Lavender oil.” A brief pause. “And have the manicure and pedicure set brought up.”
Two members of staff straightened immediately. “Yes, Mrs. Queen.”
Then she looked back at you. “And then we begin getting ready.”
Your eyes moved past her. The hanging garments. The makeup artists pretending not to listen. The garment racks.
You blinked once. “Getting ready for what?”
Scarlet removed her gloves with deliberate calm, one finger at a time. “For dinner.”
You raised your eyebrows. She met your eyes evenly.
“With the Whitmores.”
Translation: With Lucas. And the family that manufactured him.
“Are you kidding me?” you said and jumped to your feet, “I am exhausted, publicly humiliated, and the man I love is not answering my calls. God knows what state he’s in. And your solution is a family dinner with a man I have absolutely no interest in? Is that really what you think I need right now?”
Scarlet didn’t flinch. “We warned you,” she said evenly. “We told you that working there would complicate things. So now you’re facing the consequences.”
You let out a disbelieving breath.
“Our family needs that tonight,” she added quietly.
You held her gaze. Then you tilted your head slightly—too calm now.
“You’ll manage without me,” you said smoothly.
Scarlet’s expression barely shifted. “This is not a request.”
A faint smile curved your lips. “Then consider this my rebellion for the week.”
You stepped back. “I’m not going.” Your voice was steady now. “You and dad can explain my ‘fragility.’ I’m sure it will play beautifully.”
And with that, you turned toward the staircase.
Scarlet watched you until you disappeared from view. Only then did she speak.
“She will come,” she said calmly. Not hopeful. Certain.
Lara hesitated. “Scarlet… maybe tonight is—”
Scarlet glared at her. “Don't.”
In the sitting room, Mikey had resumed eating the ice cream.
“Mikey.”
He froze mid-spoon. “Yes?”
Scarlet glanced at the bowl. “Put that down.”
He stared at her. “We’re policing snacks now? This is getting ridiculous.”
“Michael Nathaniel Queen, do not test me tonight.”
He paused. Full name meant no one was winning this argument but her. He sighed and set it down dramatically. “No emotional support dairy in this house.”
“And choose a proper suit. Immediately.”
He groaned, standing up. “We can’t even be depressed here. What is this, a dictatorship?”
Scarlet simply looked at him.
He straightened instantly. “…Fine. I’ll go pick a dark suit. Matches my mood anyway.”
He shot one last dramatic glance at the abandoned ice cream. “Tell it I loved it.”
Back in your room, you closed the door a little harder than necessary. Silence rushed in.
You pulled your phone out again. Harry. You called. It rang. And rang. And went to voicemail. Again.
You stared at the screen for a long second before lowering the phone slowly onto the bed beside you. “Pick up…” you whispered under your breath, though you knew he couldn’t hear you.
You lay back against the pillows, ceiling blurring slightly above you. If he wasn’t answering you, maybe distraction would.
You opened your group chat. Emily. Chloe. They responded almost immediately. Of course they had heard.
Eduardo’s return hadn’t just “circulated.” It had detonated. Before you even asked, they both told you the same thing.
Whatever you do, don’t open X. Not Instagram. Not the news. Not anything.
They knew how fast it moved. How ruthless it became once it started trending.
You told yourself you wouldn’t look.
You lasted forty seconds.
You opened X. Your name was already there. Trending.
#CastilloReturn #QueenFinancial
Your chest tightened.
The first post you saw wasn’t even from a gossip account. It was from a financial journalist.
Eduardo Castillo returns to NYC amid paternity lawsuit rumors. Sources confirm Queen Financial heir has been working inside Castillo Capital for months.
You swallowed. Scroll. Page Six had picked it up. Scroll.
Another finance blog you recognized.
Castillo Capital Turmoil: Was Queen Embedded as “Intern” Before Eduardo’s Reappearance?
Embedded. Like you were corporate espionage.
Scroll.
Someone had already made a thread.
So she wasn’t “just” an intern. Five-year sealed case resurfaces. Coincidence?
Your hand went cold.
You exited.
Stupidly, instinctively, you opened Instagram.
And that was worse.
The DMs kept pouring in. Notifications stacking. Buzz after buzz after buzz. It felt as if the screen had burst open and spilled directly into your hands—strangers’ opinions crawling over your skin.
You locked the phone. Then threw it onto the bed like it might explode.
Lara slipped in quietly, carrying a small plate and a cup of tea. You made an effort to eat something, pushing through the discomfort. Afterward, you took a painkiller to ease your headache.
But it wasn’t the pain that was suffocating you. It was waiting.
If you stayed another minute, you were going to lose your mind.
You stood. Dressed properly this time. You opened your door.
The makeup artists were still stationed in the living room. Garment racks lined the marble hall like silent witnesses.
You didn’t look at them. You walked straight toward the elevator.
The bodyguard stiffened the second he saw you move with intent.
You stepped forward. He stepped in front of you. “Move.”
“Sorry, Miss Queen,” he said carefully. “Mr. Queen’s direct orders. Until he returns home, you’re not permitted to leave.”
You stared at him. “Should I hand over my phone too? Or are we skipping straight to house arrest?”
He didn’t move.
The elevator dinged. The doors slid open. Richard stepped out.
Perfect timing.
You smiled without warmth. “Well,” you said lightly, “father’s home. I assume I can resume my adult status now?”
He grabbed your arm. Not violently. But firmly.
“Where are you going?”
You pulled your arm back sharply.
“To buy a balloon and run away with the circus,” you replied flatly. “Where do you think I’m going?”
“Don’t be childish.”
You let out a small, humorless laugh. “If I sound childish, it might be because I’m being handled like one.” Your voice echoed across the marble.“Should I start practicing my Godfather monologue now? Or do we skip straight to the part where I kiss your ring?”
The bodyguard tried — he truly did — to keep his face neutral. The corner of his mouth twitched anyway.
He cleared his throat, glancing at Richard almost apologetically. “Sorry, Mr. Queen,” he muttered under his breath, a reluctant grin slipping through. “It’s just… you do have a bit of a Marlon Brando thing going on. I mean that respectfully.”
Richard turned his head slowly. “Do I,” he said evenly.
The bodyguard’s grin died instantly. Spine straightened. Shoulders squared. Face blank. “No, sir.”
You bit your lip, trying not to burst out laughing.
Richard held his gaze for a second longer then looked back at you. Softer.
“Come,” he said. “Let’s talk.”
You crossed your arms and followed him into the sitting area.
He gestured toward the sofa first, a quiet indication that you should sit.
You hesitated for half a second — then lowered yourself onto the cushions, smoothing your dress instinctively.
Only after you were settled did he take the armchair across from you.
He still hadn’t removed his coat.
He leaned forward slightly, elbows resting on his knees, hands loosely clasped — posture controlled, but his eyes warm.
“Do you have any idea how important you are to me?”
You hadn’t expected that. You had expected resistance. Authority. Strategy. Not this.
You swallowed.
He held your gaze.
“The day I saw your mother,” he said quietly, “she was pregnant with you. Mikey was barely standing on his own two feet.”
You shook your head slowly. This topic was rarely opened in this house. Never by him.
“A woman like your mother,” he said quietly, “robbed of everything — not just her money, but her trust, her sense of safety. And two innocent children who had done nothing to deserve being left behind.” He exhaled slowly. “I remember thinking… what kind of man looks at that and chooses to walk away? What kind of man leaves his family like unpaid debts?”
His gaze settled on you, steady and unflinching.
“That’s when I understood something. Being a father isn’t biology. It isn’t blood. It isn’t a name on a certificate. It’s a choice. One you make every single day.”
His voice lowered.
“I chose your mother because I loved her. But the day you were born… I chose you.”
A pause.
“I chose you and Mikey. I swore to myself that everything I had — and everything I would ever build — would be yours. That you would never feel the absence of a man who didn’t have the strength to stay. I promised you would grow up protected. Wanted. Safe. I never saw you as another man’s child. Not once. Not for a second.”
Your throat tightened.
He reached for your hands.
“I haven’t always been gentle. I know that. I pushed you. Forced you into things. Into schools. Into the company. I thought I was protecting you from disappointment.”
He exhaled. “That was my way.”
You blinked rapidly.
“And what happened to you…” His jaw tightened. “That day.”
Silence settled.
“I have never felt that powerless,” he said quietly. “Never that enraged.”
His hands trembled slightly. “I wanted to kill him.”
Scarlet stepped forward instinctively. “Richard.”
He didn’t look at her. “I would have done it,” he said. “Even if it meant prison.”
You swallowed. “Dad…”
“You don’t understand what it does to a man,” he said quietly, “to see the person he loves most bleeding and broken.” His jaw tightened. “I can’t describe it to you. Maybe one day, if you have a child of your own, you’ll understand. They told me you might not make it,” he said calmly. “And my heart didn’t take it well.” A beat.
Your chest tightened. “What do you—”
Richard didn’t look away. “I had a heart attack.”
"What..." You stared at Scarlet then Richard. “Oh my... Dad... You… How-” Your voice cracked.
Scarlet sighed. “We didn’t tell you. You were sedated, fighting for your life. Nearly a week.”
“I’m fine now,” he said evenly. “Medication. Monitoring.”
You looked at his hand gripping yours. It was still shaking.
“This man,” Richard said more firmly, “destroyed something in this family. I will not allow him to do it again.”
You understood the depth of his rage. “Eduardo…” you said slowly.
Scarlet and Richard exchanged a look.
“That bastard's mother has filed for paternity,” Richard said. “Publicly.”
“But why now?” you asked.
Richard leaned back, expression hardening. “Because Eduardo is out of money.”
Scarlet exhaled softly. “Vivienne is preparing to file for divorce,” she added, smooth but precise. “And when she does, what’s left of his pride will be audited along with his accounts.”
The way she said it — calm, premeditated — told you this was not new information. They had already discussed this. Already calculated the fallout.
And in that moment, your first thought wasn’t any of this. It was Harry. And how bad he must feel right now. You stood up.
“Let’s be very clear about something.” Your voice was no longer soft. “This has nothing to do with Harry.”
The temperature in the room shifted.
Scarlet moved first. “Sweetheart—”
“No, Mom. Please.” You lifted your hand gently, but firmly. “Eduardo’s sins are not Harry’s inheritance.”
Richard didn’t interrupt. But his gaze sharpened.
“Five years,” you said quietly. “I lost five years. Because of them. And Harry lost five years too.”
Richard’s voice was measured now. “He didn’t protect you.”
The words hit. But you didn’t flinch.
“No one could have protected me that day,” you said evenly. “Not him. Not you. Not anyone.”
Silence.
Scarlet closed her eyes briefly.
“What happened to me was the result of one man’s rot,” you continued. “Not Harry’s failure. Dad,” you said, softer now — but stronger. “If you’re going to assign blame, assign it correctly. But do not punish the wrong man.”
You stepped back slightly, lifting your chin.
“I love him.”
There was no tremor in your voice.
“I loved him before any of this. I loved him through it. And I love him now.”
Scarlet inhaled sharply.
Richard didn’t move.
“You raised me to be strong,” you continued. “To stand my ground. To protect what matters.”
A faint, almost ironic smile touched your lips.
“Well… this matters.”
You looked directly at him.
“I am grateful for everything you’ve done for me. But gratitude does not mean obedience. I am not a debt you get to collect. I will not sacrifice the man I love to soothe a war between fathers. If defending my future means standing against you, then I will do it. This is my life.” A pause. “And Harry is in it.”
Silence fell heavy between you.
Not rebellion. Not hysteria. Authority.
For the first time, you weren’t speaking as their daughter. You were speaking as their equal.
“So... Are you not attending dinner?” Richard asked finally.
There was something unfamiliar in his tone. Not anger. Expectation. Controlled… but edged with something close to need.
“Tonight isn’t about Lucas,” Scarlet said smoothly. “It’s about the board.”
You didn’t answer.
Richard stepped in.
“There are investors already nervous about Eduardo’s return. If we appear divided, speculative pressure increases. The market reads silence as weakness.”
You turned slowly. “You knew he would return,” you said evenly. “That’s why you didn’t accept Harry’s offer.”
Richard didn’t deny it.
Disappointment flashed across your face before you could mask it.
“I can’t believe you.”
Silence stretched between you — taut as wire. Then you exhaled. “Fine.”
They both stilled.
“I’ll go. But,” you continued, lifting a single finger, “I have conditions.”
The private dining room at The Carlyle glowed in low amber light. Crystal stemware. White orchids. Silver that reflected candlelight like quiet fire.
Mark and Richard were already deep in discussion — interest rates, liquidity positioning, investor confidence, words like stability and exposure sliding across the table with polite precision.
You sat across from Lucas. Mikey beside you.
Lucas hadn’t changed. You had last seen him at a gala six years ago — one you’d attended with Harry. Same detached expression. Same faint superiority. Same calculated indifference.
Fortunately. You had absolutely no intention of engaging in anything remotely romantic or friendly.
And tonight, you were breathtaking.
Not styled. Engineered.
Your hair fell in controlled waves, swept to one side and secured with slender gold pins — not sparkling, just catching light at calculated angles. Every movement made them glint once, then disappear.
Your makeup was restraint weaponized. Skin luminous but untouched. A thin, deliberate line along your lashes. Lips softened into a muted rose that looked accidental — but wasn’t.
And the dress.
Valentino Haute Couture. Privately shown in Rome. Not photographed. Not released. Not discussed.
One shoulder sculpted in structured silk, the fabric folding across your collarbone like liquid architecture. The waist was tailored with mathematical precision before falling into a long, controlled line that didn’t cling — it obeyed.
The silk didn’t shimmer. It absorbed light. It moved when you moved, as if calibrated to your posture.
This wasn’t a girl wearing couture. This was couture recognizing bloodline.
There was no desperation in the look. No “look at me.” Just inevitability.
You didn’t look overdressed. You looked inevitable.
Lucas’s mother noticed. Immediately. “My dear, that dress is extraordinary,” she said, leaning forward. “Is it Valentino?”
You gave her a polite smile. “It is.”
She studied you with visible admiration. “You carry it beautifully.”
But Lucas?
He cut into his food, glanced once, and said: “Hm. Yes.”
That was it. A real jerk. Scarlet and Richard exchanged a nearly imperceptible look of disapproval toward him.
You sipped your wine to hide your amusement.
This was going perfectly.
Before dinner, you and Mikey had made a pact. He would “inadvertently” highlight your flaws. Subtly sabotage the illusion.
Unfortunately, Mikey lacked subtlety.
“You wouldn’t believe it, Lucas,” he began casually. “She looks elegant, sure. But she snores like a truck engine.”
Lucas smirked faintly. “That voice producing that sound? Hard to imagine.”
You rolled your eyes and took a slow sip of wine.
Mikey continued, warming up. “And the drooling. Don’t even get me started-”
Your stiletto pressed sharply into his foot beneath the table. "Aaahh!"
You turned sweetly toward him. “Are you alright, dear brother?”
Mikey forced a grin through pain. “Yes, I just… hit the chair leg.”
Conversation resumed.
Lucas’s sister let out a high, unnecessary laugh. “Oh Mikey, you’re adorable.” She touched his arm.
You stared into your glass to keep from smiling.
Mikey leaned toward you. “What is wrong with her?”
“She’s flirting,” you murmured. “She likes you.”
Mikey glanced at her again. She grinned like a Cheshire cat. His lip curled in mild horror. “Ugh.. She’s going to eat me.”
“You flirted with Sienna. This is karma.”
He scowled. Then turned back to Lucas. “Have I ever told you about the time my sister dressed up like Marilyn Monroe and rocked a blonde wig for a whole week? And-”
You moved quickly. Before he could finish, you calmly reached across and placed a truffle mushroom into his mouth.
Lucas laughed lightly. “That’s actually kind of charming.”
You narrowed your eyes at Mikey and pinched his arm under the table.
He winced.
After a few more minutes of polished smiles and strategic nods, you set your napkin down. “Excuse me.”
Your tone was calm. Final.
Scarlet’s eyes met yours instantly. A silent reminder.
We had an agreement.
She gave the faintest nod. Richard didn’t stop you.
You had arrived. You had been seen. That was the point.
This dinner, for you, was over.
The hallway outside was quiet. Plush carpeting muted every step.
You checked your phone immediately. Nothing. No new messages. No missed calls returned.
You exhaled slowly. You couldn’t take this much longer.
You needed to see Harry. Before you actually lost your mind.
You flagged a waiter. “Could you bring my coat, please?”
He nodded.
And then—
“Queen?”
You froze and turned.
John.
Oh shit.
You had been supposed to have dinner with him last night. You’d sent a rushed explanation. Half-truths. No context.
Seeing him here — at The Carlyle — impeccably dressed, composed, was almost cruel timing.
He glanced at the private dining room you just walked out of. "What are you doing here?" His blue eyes scanned you — not subtle admiration. Genuine awe.
You suddenly felt exposed. “John… I can explain.”
He gently lifted his hand. “No. I owe you an explanation.” You blinked. “I know,” he said quietly, “about everything."
Your expression hardened slightly. “You saw the news.”
“No.” His voice was calm. “I knew before that.”
You blinked.
“I was going to tell you at dinner,” he continued, lowering his gaze briefly. “About knowing who you really were.”
“Oh... I was going to tell you the truth too,” you replied evenly. “It felt unfair not to. But my father created a scandal and I wasn’t exactly permitted to leave the house last night.”
You lifted one shoulder slightly. “Upper East Side daughter privileges.”
John gave a small, understanding smile and nodded. “I figured it was something like that. I’m just glad you’re okay.”
The waiter returned with your coat. “Ms Queen.”
John glanced toward the private dining room you had just exited. “Are you leaving? Your family’s still inside.”
You slipped your arms into the coat as the waiter held it open.
John stepped closer instinctively to help adjust the collar. Your hair caught in the fabric. You would have fixed it yourself—but he gently untangled it, polite, thoughtful. “You look amazing, by the way."
There was admiration in his voice. And something heavier.
You stepped back just slightly. “Thank you, John.” Then, honest: “I haven’t been able to reach Harry. I’m going to check on him.”
John’s jaw tightened. The smallest flicker.
And then—
“What exactly do you think you’re doing?”
Both of you turned.
Lucas.
He walked toward you with restrained irritation that wasn’t as polished as he probably believed. “Dinner isn’t over.”
John straightened slightly. “Lower your voice,” he said calmly. “There’s no need for that.”
Lucas looked him over with thinly veiled contempt. “And you are?”
His eyes flicked to you. “As if Castillo drama wasn’t enough. Now there’s this too? Your father manipulates markets. You manipulate men.”
You raised an eyebrow. "Are you speaking from experience?”
“What did you just say?”
John stepped forward. “Careful.”
Lucas leaned in slightly. “Or what?”
John pushed him back—not violently, but firmly enough that Lucas lost his balance for a second.
“Raise your voice at her again,” John said low and controlled, “and we’re going to have a problem.”
You grabbed John’s arm immediately. “John. Stop.”
Staff had already begun moving toward you.
Lucas adjusted his jacket, humiliation flickering across his face. He looked at you once more—cold now. Then turned and walked back toward the private dining room without another word.
You exhaled sharply. “This is bad.”
John looked at you. “You don’t owe him anything.”
“Yeah… but…”
John didn’t press further. “I was just about to leave anyway. I’ll have my driver take you there.”
You nodded.
He placed a steadying hand at your back and guided you toward the exit.
John’s driver merged smoothly into downtown traffic. The city lights streaked past the tinted windows.
You sat rigidly in the backseat, fingers curled tightly around the strap of your clutch. The leather creased under your grip.
John noticed.
“I’m sure he’s fine,” he said gently.
You looked at him.
"I mean Harry. He's strong."
“Thank you. For everything." A faint, bitter smile touched your lips.
John smiled back, softer. “That’s what friends are for. Right?”
You returned the smile. Warm. Measured.
You weren’t blind. You saw the way he looked at you. The restraint. The hope he kept swallowing. But pretending not to notice was kinder.
“Yes,” you said lightly. “You’re a very good friend.”
He leaned back slightly.
“The office's pretty quiet without you,” he mentioned. “There’s no one to pick up coffee for. No one to drag out for lunch.”
You glanced at him. “I’m sure someone will. Eventually.”
He understood the double meaning instantly. His smile faltered.
You turned your head toward the window, watching New York pass by. Snow had begun to fall lightly — delicate flakes catching in the glow of streetlights.
The city had never felt so loud. Or so distant.
John fell silent for the remainder of the ride. He leaned his head back against the seat, eyes drifting toward you occasionally, as if fighting something internal.
When the car pulled up outside Harry’s building, snow was beginning to settle.
You didn’t move immediately. You turned to him.
"Thanks for the lift. I really appreciate it and hope we run into each other again soon," you said with a smile.
You stepped out. Cold air hit your skin.
You reached into your bag, checking for Harry’s spare key. The car door opened again. You looked up, surprised.
John stepped outside and called your name, while snow collected in his hair.
You froze slightly.
“I was going to tell you something last night,” he said quietly. “If you’d come to dinner.”
You waited. Respectful.
“I’ve known who you were for months,” he said. “But that wasn’t it.” A pause. “I—” He stopped. The words sat visibly in his throat. “I’ve known since the first day I saw you,” he tried again, voice lower.
You closed your eyes briefly. Please don’t.
He exhaled.
“I think I’ve been in love with you since then.”
The snow fell heavier now, settling on your shoulders. You looked at him steadily. “I know, John.”
He swallowed. “I should have told you sooner.”
“You shouldn’t have,” you said gently. “Look. You are important to me,” you said evenly. “But not in the way you want.”
His jaw tightened slightly, but he didn’t interrupt.
“My heart was never undecided,” you continued. “It’s always been Harry.” You let that sit. “It will always be him.” That one hurt him. You saw it. But you didn’t retract it. “I don’t want to give you false hope,” you added quietly. “You deserve something returned, not borrowed.”
He looked down briefly. Then back up. “I appreciate the honesty.”
You softened — just a fraction. “You’ve been kind to me. Consistently. And I respect you for that. But I can’t change how I feel.” A beat. “And I won’t pretend to.” Snow clung to your lashes. You brushed it away lightly. “I hope one day you meet someone who looks at you the way I look at him.”
That was as warm as you could allow yourself to be.
His expression cracked slightly — not dramatically. Just human.
He nodded once.
You stepped backward slowly toward the building entrance. “I’m sorry,” you said quietly.
He shook his head. “Don’t be.”
You turned. Walked toward the glass doors. Just before entering, you glanced back. He was still standing there. Snow settling in his hair. Watching you. You offered a small, apologetic smile. Then disappeared inside. John remained motionless for several seconds after the door closed.
A tear slipped down his cheek.
He let out a quiet, disbelieving laugh.
“Even when you reject me,” he murmured to himself, “you do it perfectly.”
He wiped his face quickly.
The elevator doors slid open onto the quiet penthouse floor. You stood there for a second, staring at the spare key resting in your palm. “Please be home,” you whispered under your breath. You reached his door. Your hand hovered. Then the key slid into the lock. The click sounded louder than it should have.
You stepped inside. Dark.
For half a second your heart dropped — until the smart lighting sensed movement and the apartment slowly came to life. Warm recessed lights glowed along the walls, outlining the sleek architecture in soft amber.
“Harry?” you called softly. No answer.
You walked further in. The penthouse felt too still. Too untouched. The air faintly smelled of whiskey. You moved down the corridor, your heels striking the hardwood now — sharp, rhythmic, echoing in the silence. You were about to call his name again when—
You saw him.
At the end of the hallway, sitting on the floor. Back against the wall. One knee bent. A black sweater clung to his frame, sleeves slightly pushed up. Black pants, slightly creased from sitting. A whiskey bottle beside him. A glass tipped near his hand.
He wasn’t moving. You froze. For a heartbeat, you couldn’t breathe.
Then you were walking fast — too fast for the heels, the sound of them ricocheting off the walls. “Harry—” You dropped to your knees in front of him.
He blinked slowly, like he’d been somewhere far away.
Your hand came up instinctively, cupping his face. “Baby?”
When he looked at you properly, it felt like something sharp slid into your chest. His eyes were tired. Not wild. Not angry. Just… hollow.
But the second he focused on you, something shifted. Recognition. Relief.
He inhaled. “You came,” he murmured. His voice was low, rough. The corner of his mouth twitched faintly.
Was he drunk?
“Of course I came,” you breathed. “What happened? Are you okay? What is this?”
Your eyes dropped to the bottle. You exhaled deeply. “Oh, Harry…”
He lowered his gaze slightly.
You felt anger flare — not at him. At everything.
You slipped one arm around him firmly. “Come here, you handsome mess. You cannot spiral on a hardwood floor. It’s undignified.”
He gave a faint, crooked smile. “Didn’t know you were grading my breakdown.”
“Oh, I am,” you replied sharply. “And this is a C-minus at best.”
You struggled slightly but managed to pull him up. He was heavy, solid, warm, and he swayed just a little.
“One arm around me,” you ordered. “Unless you plan on face-planting.”
He obeyed, wrapping his arm around you. You slipped yours more firmly around his waist and guided him toward the bathroom, your heels striking the hardwood in sharp, echoing clicks. His weight leaned into you — not collapsing, but trusting. Familiar.
“Cold shower again?” he murmured, a lazy half-smile curving his mouth. “Together?”
You shot him a look. “Don’t flatter yourself.”
He tilted his head slightly, eyes heavy but amused.
“Not me,” you said, stepping closer and pressing a firm palm against his chest. “You, mister.” You gave him a small shove toward the shower glass. “You need to sober up.”
Then you wrinkled your nose dramatically. “And you smell like expensive whiskey, masculine rage, and regret. Honestly, I can practically see the fumes rising off you, just like Mikey said.”
He blinked. “What did you just say?”
“Like in The Sims,” you replied smoothly. “You know... when they haven’t showered and the little green cloud starts floating over their head? We were playing this morning.”
He narrowed his eyes at you. “You made a Sim that looks like me? And then made him... smell?”
“I have no idea what you’re talking about. Take this off.”
You reached for the hem of his black sweater, fingers brushing warm skin as you pulled it up over his head. His hair fell slightly out of place. His chest rose and fell slowly, the faint scent of cologne and whiskey clinging to him.
When your hands reached the waistband of his trousers, you paused.
Your cheeks warmed.
You looked up.
He was already looking at you.
“I’ll handle the rest,” he said quietly.
You held his gaze a second longer than necessary. “Okay.”
You stepped back, giving him space, turning just as he began to undo his belt. You slipped out of the bathroom and pulled the door closed behind you.
You walked back into the living area. The apartment was still dim, snow now brushing softly against the windows. You picked up the whiskey bottle and the glass, carried them into the kitchen, and set them down quietly.
You slipped your coat off and adjusted the thermostat. The air felt cold — right. You had seen it that morning, buried between scandal headlines and speculation threads while you were scrolling through Instagram. A reposted news alert:
WINTER STORM WARNING – HEAVY SNOW EXPECTED THROUGH CHRISTMAS.
You increased the temperature from the control panel near the kitchen. As the heat clicked on, you moved to the espresso machine. Ground. Pressed. Waited. The low mechanical hum filled the quiet kitchen, followed by the soft hiss of pressure releasing. Then the sound — that warm, steady trickle — espresso flowing into porcelain. Dark. Fragrant. Precise.
You smiled faintly to yourself. You would never do this for anyone else.
You set the cups down just as the bathroom door opened.
Harry appeared in the hallway wearing only a robe, hair damp, face clearer already. He paused when he saw you. He just stood there for a moment. Watching.
Your red Valentino against his minimal, masculine kitchen — the contrast was almost cinematic.
He exhaled under his breath. “God.”
You turned at the sound, your earrings swaying with a soft metallic chime. Your hair brushed over the draped shoulder of your dress. “What?” you asked. “Are you okay?”
He leaned forward, palms braced against the counter, that crooked, familiar smile returning slowly. “Nothing,” he said quietly. “You just look… achingly beautiful.”
You rolled your eyes, laughing softly. “Silly man. I thought something was actually wrong.”
You slid one of the cups toward him. “Drink.”
He sat on the stool and wrapped his hands around the espresso. “Thank you.”
You moved beside him, crossing your legs, resting your elbow on the counter. You reached for his free hand, squeezing it.
“Harry,” you said softly. “Why didn’t you answer me? I must’ve called you a million times.”
He stared into the cup for a second before replying. “I’m sorry.” A pause. “I needed to be alone.”
Your chest tightened. “I thought you were angry with me.”
He looked up immediately. “No.” His voice softened, shaking his head. “No, baby.” He set the cup down and touched your cheek. “Why would I be angry with you?”
“Because I didn’t tell you sooner,” you whispered. “I couldn’t.”
Your gaze dropped.
He lifted your chin gently. “I will never be angry at you for something like that,” he said. His hand brushed your hair back. “You had reasons. How is anyone supposed to say something like that out loud?”
“My father did,” you murmured. “To your face. I wish you’d heard it from me.”
“He was protecting you,” Harry said, taking a sip from his cup. “After he took you, the press swarmed the building. Cameras, lights — it was chaos.” His jaw tightened. “But watching them pull you away from me… that really hurt.”
He lifted your hand and pressed his lips against it. Then against his own cheek, holding it there.
Silence settled between you. You inhaled. You had to ask. “Did you speak to him?” You didn’t say 'your father'. “After...”
Harry didn’t let go of your hand, but tension crept into his shoulders.
“I had to... He just showed up… like, out of nowhere...” he said, eyes shifting toward the dark skyline behind you. “Not for me. Not for my mother. Not for Siena. Not for this family.” His jaw tightened. “He came back... For him. For that fucking bastard.”
Your voice lowered. “My father said Ilan’s mother filed for paternity.”
Harry closed his eyes briefly. You felt his hand stiffen. “He asked me to help him,” Harry said bitterly.
Your brows shot up. “What?”
He ran a hand over his face. “He knows exactly what he did to you,” Harry said, his voice low but vibrating with restrained fury. “He knows why he’s in prison. He knows.” His jaw tightened. “And he still doesn’t give a damn.” His fist curled against the counter, knuckles blanching white as he exhaled sharply through his nose. “They want the name. The legacy. The fucking entitlement of it. And he's willing to give it to him.”
His eyes finally lifted to yours, dark and raw in a way that made your chest ache.
“How can that man be my father? How can I carry his blood and not feel disgusted? What the hell did we ever do to deserve this?” He shook his head once, bitter and wounded all at once. “He destroys everything and still thinks he gets to claim us.”
He leaned into you.
And this time, he didn’t try to hide the tears.
You wrapped your arms around him and pulling his head against your chest, holding him there as his shoulders finally gave in. You pressed him close, one hand sliding into his hair, warm and protective.
You knew that pain. You had witnessed it. The unanswered questions. The waiting. The stubborn, quiet hope that refused to die—until it finally did.
After a moment, you pulled back just enough to look at him. “Harry.” He lifted his head. “Enough.” Your voice was steady. “This was not our fault. None of it. Not Ilan. Not the divorce. Not the chaos. Not the-”
You swallowed and cupped his face.
“We are not victims of his mistakes. Not anymore.”
He watched you carefully.
“We are Castillo and Queen,” you said softly, a small smile forming. “And when we’re together? We’re strong, unstoppable.” A faint, tired smile returned to his lips. “So promise me something.” He blinked. “Stop crying over a man who doesn’t deserve to be called your father.”
He let out a breath that was almost a laugh.
“You’re right.”
“Of course I am.”
He nodded slowly.
“I promise.” He exhaled again, heavier this time. “But it kills me. Everything traces back to him. Ilan. The divorce. My mother’s trauma. Eloise’s illness. All of it. One selfish,stupid decision.” He inhaled. “I won’t let him near you. Or mom. Or anyone I love. I’ve already spoken to the lawyers. I’ll strip him of every right attached to the name.”
You squeezed his hand.
“Do what you have to,” you whispered. “I’m with you.”
Then you leaned in and kissed him.
Soft at first. Reassuring.
But the moment your lips touched his, something shifted. He quickly wrapped his arm around your waist as he deepened the kiss.
He tasted like coffee and the faintest trace of whiskey—bitter and warm and unmistakably him. The combination was intoxicating in a way that went straight to your bloodstream. You melted into it instantly, fingers curling into his shoulders as your mouths moved together.
Every time. Every single time it was like gravity reset.
Your lips parted, and the kiss deepened naturally—no hesitation, no question. There was that pull again, that familiar rush where it felt like you were dissolving into each other, something hot and electric threading between your mouths and sinking lower, deeper.
His other arm wrapped around you, and suddenly you were lifted—drawn into his lap in one sure motion. The movement knocked the breath from you. The hem of your dress shifted, riding higher as your thigh brushed the warm, soft fabric of his robe—and the solid heat beneath it. The contact was enough to send a sharp, breathy sound from your lips into his mouth.
He answered it with a low, rough hum.
Your fingers slid into his still-damp hair, grazing the curls at the back of his head. The kiss turned messier, wetter, heavier—until he broke it with a wet sound and his mouth found its usual place at your neck.
Right there.
You gripped his shoulders, nails pressing into the robe’s plush fabric as your chest rose and fell too fast.
“Harry…” you breathed. He hummed against your skin.
“Harry, wait—I don’t have much time. I escaped dinner,” you said, breath still uneven but smiling. “If I’m gone too long, my mother will send out a search party.”
He leaned back just enough to study you properly.
Not playful now. Assessing.
His gaze traced the line of your collarbone, the fall of your hair, the careful way your lipstick hadn’t smudged despite him.
“So,” he said slowly, thumb brushing the fabric at your thigh, “this wasn’t for me.”
You rolled your eyes, but there was heat in them.
“Oh please. I didn’t choose any of this. My mother practically scheduled me. And yes, the dress was technically for dinner—” you tilted your head, deliberately brushing your nose against his, “—but I was coming here after. So indirectly? It counts.”
A faint smile touched his mouth. “You still came to me.”
“Obviously.”
The smile faded. “Dinner you said,” he repeated, quieter now. “With who?” His hand caressed your thigh and lifted the hem of your dress. Your arms were still wrapped around his neck; his questioning brown eyes had captured yours, preventing you from thinking rationally.
“So… we weren’t wrong about why my father didn’t reach an agreement with Castillo Capital. He didn’t come to make a deal. You were right.”
“Meaning?”
You swallowed. “He’s planning to make a deal with Whitmore & Co.”
Harry narrowed his eyes. “With Mark? Why am I not surprised? Your father is really very sly. But Mark doesn’t like taking risks,” he muttered thoughtfully. Then he stopped, and when he looked back at you, there was almost anger—and something dark—in his eyes. “I wonder about this dinner… what kind of dinner was it? Was it just old men discussing strategy? Was Mark’s son Lucas there too, hmm?”
The hand on your thigh squeezed your flesh lightly. You shrugged. “What if he was?”
“The Queen girl I know would never bow to her family. Why did you go to that dinner, sweetheart? Go on, tell me.”
“Harry, it’s not like you think.”
“Then tell me what it’s like,” he said in a seductive tone, his lips hovering dangerously close to your neck. His hand slipped under the hem of your dress. You weren’t wearing anything under your skirt except your panties—no tights—and as he lifted your skirt up to your hips, he noticed. More excited now, his fingers traced your skin until he found the edge of your frilled lace panties and tugged at them. Your heart began to race.
“Well… Mark is my dad’s old friend, you know, and—” You stopped when you felt his tongue against your exposed shoulder as his lips wandered there.
“And?” he prompted teasingly, lifting your skirt even higher. You were now sitting on his lap with your hips exposed.
“And… ohh…” Harry suddenly slipped his hand inside the edge of your panties and found your curves. He slipped his finger between your folds and searched until he found your clitoris.
“I haven’t even properly touched you yet, and you’re soaked, baby.”
He stroked your most sensitive spots, over and over, drawing a shaky whine from your lips. “Who are you soaking wet for?”
Another slow stroke.
You whimpered and swallowed. “Harry, stop teasing me,” you said.
“If you answer my question, maybe I will,” he replied, giving you another slow stroke. "I want to hear you say it…"
“F-for you,” you said in a shaky voice.
“That’s it, baby. Now tell me—what did you and Lucas talk about at dinner? Did he hit on you?” He hummed in your ear and kept stroking.
You shook your head as 'no', your brain short-circuiting from pleasure. But he pulled your panties aside more firmly and pushed his fingers deeper, all the way to the hilt, thrusting hard. His palm slapped against your slick heat with every movement, the wet sounds filling the space between you and making your head spin. You moaned loudly, your mouth falling open as the intensity stole the air from your lungs.
“Use your words, baby.”
“No!” you squeaked, your voice breaking. “He’s a stupid, arrogant jerk—a complete idiot. He didn’t even have the decency to compliment my dress… or my makeup,” you blurted out, the words tumbling from your lips as Harry’s fingers moved in and out of your wet depths, stealing your breath. Your nails dug into his neck, clinging to him as heat pooled high in your stomach.
Harry laughed. “Some men really are that stupid. Anyway, as long as he doesn’t come near what’s mine, there’s no problem.”
You bit your lip and smirked at him, your hips rocking back and forth into his palm. “Yours, huh?”
“Yes, you’re mine. You proved it the other night—you said it pretty loudly, remember? Or do I need to remind you?” he said with a smirk.
You tilted your head slightly, lips curving.
“Do you know you’re extremely hot when you get all possessive like that?” you murmured. Your hands slipped inside the open collar of his robe, fingers spreading over his broad shoulders, feeling the heat of his skin beneath the soft fabric. Slowly, you pushed the robe off him, letting it slide down his arms until his torso was bare to you.
Your hands explored him without hesitation—over muscle, over his biceps, warmth, memorizing.
Then you leaned in.
Your tongue traced the line of his neck, right over the place where his Adam’s apple shifted as he swallowed. He let out a low moan at the sensation, breath hitching.
That was all it took.
Suddenly, his mouth crashed into yours—hungry now, impatient. It was possessive. Heated. Almost rough in the way he pulled you closer.
Without breaking the kiss, you reached down and pushed his hand away from your sex, guiding it aside just enough to replace it with his manhood. You felt him beneath your palm—hard, warm, slightly slick with precum—and your fingers wrapped around him with unmistakable need. You needed him inside you now; the mere thought made your mouth water. Your walls clenched hard.
His breath fractured against your mouth.
You pulled back just enough to whisper against his lips. "Baby, get inside me," you moaned.
His hands gripped your hips firmly, lifting you with controlled urgency. The movement stole your breath as he drew you down against him, bodies aligning in a way that felt inevitable rather than sudden.
You sank into him in one smooth motion, a shared inhale breaking between you. The stool shifted against the floor as your hips found a rhythm, slow at first—testing, rediscovering—then deeper, steadier. His hands anchored you, guiding you, matching every movement like he knew your body by instinct. Of course he did.
Your foreheads brushed.
Breath tangled.
One of Harry’s arms stayed locked around you, keeping you close, steady, like he wasn’t about to let you drift even an inch away.
His other hand slid upward, gliding over the fabric of your dress until it curved over your chest. He palmed your tits through the material, testing, feeling the shape of you beneath the smooth lining.
His thumb brushed over the structured seam.
Then his fingers tugged lightly at the single strap resting on your shoulder, pulling it just enough to expose more skin.
His eyes darkened.
“No bra?” he murmured, voice low and amused.
You rolled your hips against him lazily, breath warm against his mouth as you answered.
“It’s built in, hon,” you said softly. “Structured. Supportive. Efficient.”
His mouth curved slowly.
“Efficient,” he repeated, thumb pressing more firmly through the fabric as if assessing the claim. “Let’s see."
Before you could react, his fingers slid to the structured edge of the bodice and gave it a subtle, curious tug—just enough to glimpse what was hidden beneath the tailored line.
You immediately caught his wrist.
“Excuse me,” you said sharply, though your lips were fighting a smile. “Be gentle. This dress hasn’t even walked a runway yet.”
His brow lifted.
“Oh?” he murmured, amused. “Should I feel honored it’s being… previewed?”
You narrowed your eyes at him, Harry’s grin turned slow and wicked.
“Good thing I’m more interested in what’s under it.”
You felt a shiver as he pulled your dress down to your waist and roughly cupped your breasts. His hand was warm, and your nipples had already hardened by the time he ran his thumb over the sensitive tip. You sighed in pleasure.
The sensation of him inside you, filling you, and his warm tongue circling your hardened nipple was overwhelming. When you took his full length and began to roll your hips faster, his thumb began working against your clit, you both moaned aloud.
“Mmm. You feel so good,” he growled.
“Harder, baby, faster…” you breathed.
You shifted your weight as he leaned back slightly. When you began to bounce up and down on him, he let out a louder groan, flicking your clit more firmly while his other hand came up to squeeze your breast. You cried out when he pinched your nipple between his forefinger and thumb, then gave the other the same attention.
“Yeah, baby. God, you are so fucking sexy,” he panted.
“Oh God, Harry,” you sobbed as your inner muscles began to spasm around him. You rode him harder, faster, and he squeezed your breast again, dragging the edge of his thumbnail over your clit in frantic strokes. “Oh God, yes—yes, yes, baby, it feels so fucking good—”
“Come for me,” he demanded.
You could feel the robe slipping from his hips, pooling on the floor, the cool air brushing against his damp skin. Your arousal made you tremble, your cries rising almost to a scream as Harry thrust up into you.
“God, your pussy feels like heaven, baby—so good for me. Fucking made for me,” he growled.
You flushed deeper, tipping your head back as you finally reached your climax.
“Oh fuck,” you sobbed, rocking your hips side to side, grinding down onto him as Harry dug his fingers into your ass cheeks groaning as he let himself come with a loud groan.
You collapsed against him as he throbbed deep inside you, the final hot pulses of his release pouring into you and leaving you trembling in their wake. You stayed locked together, bodies slick and flushed, skin pressed tight to skin, your breaths ragged and uneven as if the air itself had been stolen from your lungs.
Your head rested against his shoulder, but your eyes fluttered open when you felt his warmth begin to spill from you. It slid slowly between your thighs, thick and heated, tracing a languid path over his balls before dripping down onto the stool beneath you. The sensation made you shiver—hot messy, undeniable—proof that you had just had delicious sex.
Harry leaned forward and reached for a towel from the kitchen counter. His manhood softened inside you as your breathing gradually steadied, your warm breath brushing against his neck.
He pressed a gentle kiss to the top of your head. “I love you so much.”
You wrapped your arms around his neck and kissed his cheek. “I love you too.”
He kissed your lips again, slower this time, full of lingering warmth and passion. Then he carefully lifted you and slipped himself out of you. More of his release trickled down your thighs and onto the floor.
“Oops… I think we just disrespected the hardwood floors a little.”
He glanced down and smirked. “Actually, that was kind of hot,” he admitted.
You both burst into mischievous laughter.
Just then, there was a knock at Harry’s door.
You both froze.
When you heard Vivienne’s voice from the other side, panic shot through you. “Harry? Are you in there?”
You looked at him wide-eyed. “Oh my God, what are we going to do?” you whispered frantically, hurriedly straightening your dress.
“Shh. Calm down,” Harry murmured.
He grabbed a paper towel and quickly wiped between your legs. You adjusted your panties and tugged your skirt back down, smoothing the fabric while fixing your hair with shaky fingers. Harry cleaned himself up as well, then picked his robe up off the floor and slipped it on.
The phone on the counter was vibrating—his mother was still outside, calling him.
Harry tossed the used paper towels into the trash and looked at you. You gave him a small nod.
Taking a steadying breath, Harry walked toward the door and reached for the handle.
Harry had barely opened the door when Vivienne swept inside in a cloud of perfume and concern. “Jesus Christ, Harry, why aren’t you answering your phone? I was this close to calling security,” she scolded, already walking past him.
Then she saw you.
She stopped.
You lifted your chin slightly, smoothing a strand of hair behind your ear with deliberate calm, yet your cheeks flushed. “Vivienne. Hi.”
“Oh?” Her eyes flicked to Harry. Then down. The robe. Damp hair. The faint flush still on his face.
Her lips pressed together.
“Mom,” Harry said quickly, clearing his throat. “I just needed some time to myself. She got worried too and came to see if I was okay, so…”
He was trying very hard not to smile.
Vivienne inhaled slowly. "Ah,” she said. “I see.”
A beat of silence. Suspicious. Knowing.
You broke it. “Yeah, I better get going before my mom really loses it,” you said casually, grabbing your coat.
Harry stepped forward instantly, holding it open for you. You slipped your arms into it. “Thank you.”
“Sure.” He walked you toward the door. Your fingers brushed as you reached for the handle.
You leaned closer and muttered under your breath, “If you ever ignore my calls like that again, I’m kicking your ass.”
Vivienne rolled her eyes as she turned toward the kitchen, pretending very hard not to listen.
Harry suddenly leaned down, wrapped a hand around your waist, and pulled you back for one last kiss.
You laughed softly against his lips.
Vivienne’s shoulders shook faintly — she was smiling.
Harry caught your hand and pressed a kiss to your knuckles. “Text me before bed, baby. ”
“See you, handsome,” you said, giggling, stepping into the elevator.
He stood there watching you, eyes soft and openly unwilling to let you go — like a puppy watching its favorite person walk away until the doors slid shut.
Only then did he close the door and turn back inside.
“Mom,” he said, walking over and giving her a warm hug. “How you doing?”
“I’m alright, my son. I was nearby and thought I’d stop in for a moment… clearly I was beaten to it,” Vivienne said lightly, kissing his cheek, lingering just long enough to study him properly. “Hmm,” she murmured, tilting her head. “Interesting. You look like you just showered. But you smell like her.”
Harry groaned softly but couldn’t stop the grin.
“After last night, it’s nice to see you like this,” she added gently. “She steadies you.”
Harry picked up his now-cold espresso and took a sip, immediately grimacing. “Yeah,” he said quietly. “She does. Everything that makes me smile somehow leads back to her.”
Vivienne nodded. “Listen to me,” she said softly. “Whatever happens, do not let your father’s mess come between you. Do you hear me?”
Harry leaned against the counter.
“I won’t,” he said firmly. “I’m not losing her again.”
Vivienne squeezed his shoulder.
“Good. Now take another shower, get some sleep. Tomorrow we deal with court filings. I want everything ready before Christmas.”
“We will handle it.” Harry kissed the top of her head. "Just trust me, Mom.”
As she headed toward the door, she paused, smirking.
“And yes. I absolutely smell like her now.”
Harry laughed.
Once she left, he shut the door and glanced down at his robe, bringing the collar to his nose.
He closed his eyes briefly. “Heaven,” he sighed. “I fucking miss her already.”
The week disappeared in a blur of Christmas preparations and legal briefings. Vivienne and Harry were buried in meetings — attorneys, filings, strategy sessions. The word paternity floated through conference calls like something sterile and dangerous. Clinical. Calculated. Heavy.
You could hear it in Harry’s voice at night when he called you. Tired. You didn’t see him in person once that week. Only through screens. Late-night FaceTimes. Muted laughter. Exhausted smiles.
“You look exhausted,” you would say every time his face appeared on your screen.
He would lean back in his chair, rubbing a hand over his jaw, giving you that crooked half-smile. “It’ll be over soon, baby,” he’d promise. “I’ve got it.”
You believed him.
And you knew — absolutely knew — he hadn’t forgotten your birthday. You could see it in his eyes. That subtle spark. That secret he was holding. Maybe Christmas Day. Maybe something bigger. You didn’t know. You just knew Harry didn’t forget things that mattered. And you mattered.
By Sunday, you needed air. You called Dana and invited her to join you, Emily, and Chloe for holiday shopping. You had missed her more than you realized. Castillo Capital was no longer somewhere you could casually walk into; everyone there now knew exactly who you were.
Dana nearly squealed when she saw you.
“You have no idea,” she said breathlessly, grabbing your hands. “The office is insufferably boring without you. And Ron keeps pretending he doesn’t miss you, but he absolutely does.”
Later, when she shyly admitted she and Ron had started seeing each other, you almost screamed in the middle of Madison Avenue. You had already told Harry to give them both a generous raise — Dana had no idea. Seeing her glow like that made it worth it.
You dragged her into Chloe’s mother’s boutique.
“You’re choosing something,” you said firmly. “My Christmas gift to you.”
Dana protested for exactly twelve seconds before vanishing into a fitting room. The afternoon turned into a fashion show. Dresses. Structured coats. Ridiculous boots. You and Chloe swapped handbags dramatically like socialites in a sitcom. Emily sat on a velvet chair offering dry commentary like a fashion editor unimpressed by humanity.
For a few hours, you were just girls. Laughing. Trying things on. Taking mirror selfies. The bodyguards trailed a discreet distance behind you the entire time. This time, at least, they were useful — carrying shopping bags until their arms were full, blending into the background while you pretended, just for a few hours, that life was uncomplicated.
It felt… normal.
That night, back home, you changed into something soft and warm, tucked your legs beneath you, and opened the stack of letters waiting neatly on your desk. Letters from the children of The Harbor House Foundation.
The Harbor House was a privately funded residential home for children in the foster system. Some had lost parents. Some had been removed from homes that were never truly homes. Some had been moved so many times they had stopped unpacking their bags altogether. A few were children who had arrived in New York from countries torn apart by war — quiet, watchful, learning English in careful fragments, clutching donated backpacks like anchors.
They weren’t “orphans” in a fairytale sense. They were children waiting for stability. For warmth. For someone to choose them — not out of obligation, but love.
Every December, they wrote letters to Santa. But you answered them instead. You read each one slowly, smiling at crooked handwriting and glitter glue fingerprints pressed into the margins.
A bike. A sketch set “the big one, not the small one please.” A pink winter coat with “real fur but fake is okay.” A dinosaur book. A science kit “with the real volcano kind.”
Some letters were short and practical. Some were shy. One simply said: I don’t need anything big. Just something that’s mine.
That one made you pause longer than the others.
Reading them was your favorite part. The quiet joy of it. The innocence. The trust. It grounded you in a way nothing else did. You never missed a single name. After four years, it had become more than tradition — it felt sacred.
By Monday evening, your bedroom floor was covered in wrapping paper, satin ribbons, gift boxes sorted into careful piles. The air smelled faintly like pine from the tree downstairs and sugar from the hot chocolate Lara had insisted you drink.
Mikey sat cross-legged across from you, holding up a stuffed shark with intense evaluation.
“This one is definitely for Tom,” he declared. “He looks like a shark kid.”
You laughed. “Tom wanted the science kit. The shark is for Leo.”
“Ah.” Mikey nodded gravely. “Very important distinction.”
You held up a small velvet box containing glittery ballet gloves. “This is for Sally.”
“The ballet girl?”
“Yes.”
Mikey’s expression softened. “You’re going to make her cry.”
“The happy kind,” you said quietly.
Wrapping lasted until Tuesday night. Labels handwritten. Names double-checked. Each ribbon tied carefully — because presentation mattered, even for little hands.
When you finally leaned back against your bed, surrounded by color and paper and possibility, you felt something settle inside you. A small, warm kind of calm.
You closed your eyes for a second, already picturing their faces when they opened them. The smiles. The gasps. The way they’d run toward you.
You couldn’t wait to see it.
That was the part you loved most.
Wednesday morning — Christmas Eve — the cars were brought around to the front entrance, already packed by staff with neatly labeled boxes stacked with care. You supervised, double-checking names one last time before the doors were shut. Harry insisted on coming. You didn’t argue.
The Harbor House was already glowing when you arrived — warm yellow lights strung along the entrance, paper snowflakes taped unevenly to the windows. The children were pressed against the glass the moment they saw you. And then chaos. Good chaos.
“Queen!” “You came!” “I missed you!”
Tiny arms wrapped around your legs. A little boy with crooked bangs immediately latched onto Harry’s coat.
“Are you her prince?” the little boy asked, narrowing his eyes with serious suspicion.
Harry blinked once, clearly caught off guard, then glanced at you like he was checking for the correct answer.
“I’m… hoping I qualify,” he said carefully. “I mean, I’m trying. Do I get a trial period?”
You snorted before you could stop yourself.
The boy crossed his arms, considering this deeply. “Do you have a horse?”
Harry hesitated. “No.” “A sword?” “…No.”
The boy looked at you. “He’s not very prepared.”
You laughed, covering your mouth. “He’s more of a modern prince.”
Sally — seven, solemn, wide-eyed — opened her ballet kit and burst into tears before throwing herself at you so hard you nearly lost balance.
“You remembered,” she whispered against your dress.
“Of course I did.”
Tom shouted across the room when he tore into his science set. “This is the one I circled! The volcano one!”
“I saw,” you said, winking.
You turned — and caught Harry kneeling on the floor beside a group assembling plastic dinosaurs. Within minutes he was covered in glitter from someone’s craft bag, patiently helping a little boy snap together a T-Rex tail that refused to cooperate. He was smiling. Not polite. Not diplomatic. Not controlled. Free.
You watched him laugh — head tipping back slightly, eyes crinkling in that unguarded way he rarely allowed in public. Boyish. And something inside your chest tightened. He would be such a good dad, you thought suddenly. The idea didn’t stab anymore. It didn’t terrify you. It felt… possible.
At one point he looked up and caught your gaze across the room. The noise, the lights, the children racing past with new toys — and still everything between you went quiet. The children’s joy was unfiltered. Just pure happiness. Real. Messy. Loud.
When you finally stepped outside into the cold evening air, your hands were numb and your heart felt too full for your body. Snow had started falling — soft, steady. Harry slipped his hand into yours.
“They’re so happy,” he said softly, almost in awe. “I feel… I don’t know. I feel happy too.”
You smiled faintly.
“You can’t buy that,” you said. “You could spend every dollar in the world and you still couldn’t purchase what’s in their faces right now.”
He looked back toward the building, where children were still waving through the windows.
“No,” he agreed quietly. “You can’t.” Then he looked at you.“But you gave it to them.”
For a moment, you just watched your breath cloud in the cold.
“I stayed away from children for a long time,” you admitted quietly. “It hurt too much.” Your voice didn’t shake, but it softened. “But I thought… maybe if I leaned into it instead of running from it, maybe it would help me heal.”
“You’re braver than you think,” he said softly. “Come here.” He brushed his thumb across your cheek, warm despite the cold, and leaned in to kiss you softly. You pulled back just slightly, your foreheads still touching. For a second, neither of you spoke. You just looked at each other. A gust of cold air made you shiver.
“Come on,” he murmured gently.
Before getting into the car, you both turned once more toward the building. Tiny hands were still waving from the window. One of the boys pressed his nose dramatically to the glass just to make you laugh. You lifted your hand and waved back. Then Harry opened the door for you. And as you slid into the warmth of the car, snow still falling softly around you, the children’s voices faded behind you — lingering like a song you didn’t want to end.
Harry’s car slowed to a stop near your building.
You turned to him, trying to sound casual. “So… you’re busy tonight?”
He looked at you fully then, one hand still resting on the steering wheel.
“You know I’ll be at the company reception tonight. Board members, investors… it would look strange if I wasn’t there.” A small pause. Softer. “I wish you could come.”
But you couldn’t. Not when the press was still simmering like a boiling pot with Eduardo, Castillo, and your name tangled together in every headline. Financial blogs speculating. Gossip accounts dissecting your every move. If you appeared at the Castillo Capital reception on his arm tonight? Damage control romance. Strategic reconciliation. Board manipulation through intimacy. The narrative would write itself.
He leaned over and kissed your cheek.
“We’ll be at Eloise’s tomorrow, like we planned. I’ll come get you in the morning.”
“Right,” you said, lifting your brows just slightly — waiting.
He just smiled. “Goodnight, baby.”
"Goodnight."
You stepped out into the snow. The car pulled away, red taillights disappearing into Manhattan traffic. You stood there longer than necessary. He used to celebrate your birthday at midnight on Christmas Eve. But... Not tonight. Obviously.
You swallowed the disappointment and walked inside.
When you stepped inside, Scarlet and Lara were already in full preparation mode. Garment bags unzipped. Jewelry cases open. Perfume hanging in the air like strategy. Scarlet looked up the second she saw you.
“Finally,” she said crisply. “We’re running late.”
Right. Chloe’s parents’ private Christmas gathering.
If Harry had been spending the night with you, you wouldn’t have gone. But he wasn’t. The company reception was more important tonight than you. You swallowed that thought before it could turn into something sharper. And sitting alone on Christmas Eve, spiraling in your room, felt far more pathetic than walking into the lion’s den with your head high.
Because that house tonight? Wouldn’t really be a party. It would likely turn into a battlefield. You could already see it in your mind. Polite smiles stretched a little too tight. Questions wrapped in concern but sharpened underneath. Champagne flutes raised while alliances quietly recalculated.
For weeks, you’d avoided it. Your family’s financial instability. Eduardo’s return. The resurfaced Castillo name. The revelation that you’d been working at Castillo Capital for months. It wouldn’t just be Christmas music and crystal ornaments. It would be a feeding ground.
Upper East Side socialites didn’t confront. They would circle. They would smile. They would dissect. A wolf table dressed in silk and diamonds. And tonight, you would walk straight into it — fully aware of what waited.
Chloe’s parents’ house was exactly what an Upper East Side Christmas party should be. A towering tree in the foyer dripping in crystal and gold. Champagne flutes catching chandelier light. A live pianist in the corner. Soft laughter. Calculated warmth.
But beneath it - tension. You felt it the moment you stepped in. The 5th Avenue Dolls circled quickly.
"Queen, darling, you look divine." Translation: You look too composed for someone whose family name is trending for the wrong reasons. Impressive.
"So the Castillo Capital internship rumor was real?" Translation: You actually went back to your ex-husband’s company? How desperate are we?
"Strategic positioning?" Translation: Did you beg Harry for leverage... or is this damage control romance?
"Oh, we just adore a strong woman reinventing herself." Translation: We’re all waiting to see if you crack.
"Whitmore and Queen Financial would be... interesting." Translation: Are you being traded or choosing your buyer?
"And how is Harry handling all this?" Translation: Did he forgive you, or are you clinging?
"So brave of you to show up tonight." Translation: Most girls would’ve hidden.
One of them tilted her head slightly. "Must be exhausting... managing so many headlines."
Translation: Managing so many men?
A soft sip of champagne. A slow blink. Polished cruelty wrapped in couture.
Chloe slid beside you, linking her arm through yours.
"Ladies. Relax." Her tone was light. But her eyes said: Careful. She bites back.
Then Lucas appeared. That smirk. "You look beautiful tonight," he said, tone syrupy.
One of the girls leaned in, completely ignoring Lucas. "So... are you single now, or...?" one of them asked lightly, swirling her champagne. The pause was deliberate. Calculated.
Another leaned in, eyes glittering. "Because there were rumors..." she added sweetly. "You and Harry meeting in secret? That can’t possibly be true."
A soft laugh. Too soft. "Oh, I heard something different," another girl chimed in. "That he turned you down."
Brows lifted. "In public, no less."
"That must have been... awkward."
Another sip of champagne. "I mean, men like Harry don’t usually go backwards, do they?"
You were about to answer when - The room didn’t go silent - but it quieted. A familiar arm wrapped around your waist from behind. Warm. Solid. Certain.
Harry.
He pulled you gently into his side, that infamous composed smile already in place. "Actually," he said smoothly, "my girl and I are back together."
Every head turned.
"I got tired of wondering how I managed to let a beautiful woman like this slip through my fingers," he continued lightly. "So I corrected the mistake." His hand tightened at your waist, looking at you directly. Your eyes widened. "She was gracious enough to give me another chance."
The silence was delicious. Chloe folded her arms, smug, grinning like crazy. Lucas stiffened.
Harry calmly took the glass from your hand and placed it onto a passing tray. "And if you’ll excuse us," he added, voice steady and controlled, "I have a birthday to make unforgettable." He extended his arm.
You slipped yours through it. "Ladies," you said sweetly, "follow-up questions can be directed to my mom's assistant. Response time may vary."
A few gasps. One nervous laugh. Shock rippled through the room. While everyone stared at you like you’d just detonated a social bomb, you leaned toward Harry.
"What are you doing?" you murmured, though the corner of your mouth twitched like you were barely holding back a smile.
He leaned closer, his lips brushing near your ear. "I’m kidnapping you," he murmured smoothly.
"Hey!" Lucas snapped, stepping forward. "What exactly do you think you’re doing?"
You rolled your eyes and sighed.
Harry stopped - then turned slowly. Lucas reached for your arm. "You don’t just disappear in the middle of the event - especially not with him. That would be humiliating. Get back here."
Harry moved before Lucas could touch you. Calm. Controlled. He drew you gently but firmly behind him, his body shielding yours. His palm came up, pressing flat against Lucas’s chest - not shoving, just stopping him with effortless authority. "Careful," Harry said quietly.
Almost conversational. "You might hurt yourself." The softness in his tone made it worse.
Lucas’s jaw tightened. "You don’t get to humiliate me in my own circle."
Harry didn’t raise his voice. "You’re mistaking noise for power." His gaze flicked down briefly to Lucas’s hand, still half-lifted. “Touch her again… And we’ll see who ends up humiliated.”
Lucas’s jaw flexed. “Who the hell do you think you are?”
Neither of you answered. You turned toward the door.
His hand shot forward. “You’re not going anywhere, you—” Lucas stepped after you.
Harry didn’t look back. He reached for the heavy glass door and pulled it open sharply — not enough to look reckless, but enough.
Lucas, mid-stride and too blinded by his own anger to register the movement, walked straight into it. The edge of the door caught him square in the face. A sharp crack echoed through the foyer.
"Aaagghhh." Lucas stumbled backward, clutching his nose.
Harry blinked once. "Oh," he said mildly. “You should watch where you’re going,”
Blood trickled between Lucas’s fingers. Harry glanced at a nearby waiter. "Could we get him something for that? He seems to be... bleeding. I warned you, didn't I?"
You bit the inside of your cheek to stop from laughing.
Lucas looked murderous. "You son of a-ow...fuck..."
Harry looked bored. Then he turned to you, offering his arm like this had been nothing more than a minor social inconvenience. "Shall we?"
You smiled. "Let’s."
In the car, you turned toward him slowly, eyes narrowing in playful accusation. “So you did have a surprise,” you murmured. “Crashing the party and stealing me away? That was very sexy, Mr. Castillo.”
Harry’s mouth curved lazily. “Oh, baby,” he said.
The driver’s arm extended discreetly from the front seat, handing a small elegant box back to Harry. He passed it to you.
“We’re not even close to done.”
You froze the moment you recognized it. The deep navy box. The gold embossed script. “Harry—” You already knew.
Canelés de Bordeaux.
The ones he had flown in every birthday. Every celebration. Every time your period hit and you claimed the world was ending. The tiny caramelized French cakes with the dark lacquered crust and soft custard center. The ones he used to say tasted like Paris at midnight.
You looked at him. “You didn’t.”
“In fact,” he said smoothly, switching to French, “je les ai fait venir de Bordeaux ce matin. Juste pour toi.” I had them brought in from Bordeaux this morning. Just for you.
Your eyes softened. “Merci, monsieur,” you replied in French, leaning in to kiss him. You opened the box immediately, the scent of vanilla and rum filling the car. You took one, bit into it without ceremony, eyes closing in pure indulgence. Then you held one up to his mouth. He leaned forward obediently, taking a bite from your fingers.
You both laughed.
God, you loved this man.
You swallowed and tilted your head. “So,” you said sweetly, “no flowers? No fancy gift? I expected at least mild theatrics.”
He chuckled. “Oh, there’s an entire room full.”
Your brows lifted.
“Guess where.”
You narrowed your eyes. “Where?”
Harry didn’t answer. He looked out the window. “Come on, beautiful.”
The car door opened. You stepped out together. And then you saw it.
The Plaza. Lit like a winter palace. Your breath caught.
The hotel where you got married. The place where you danced barefoot after everyone left. Where you first woke up as husband and wife.
“Harry…” you whispered.
He glanced at his watch. One arm slipped around your waist. Midnight.
12:00 a.m.
“Look,” he murmured.
You didn’t know where to look.
And then—
The Plaza lights went out. All of them.
Gasps echoed from pedestrians across the street. A couple people paused, confused. “Technical issue?” someone muttered.
The entire building was dark.
Except one floor. One suite. Its windows lit up in warm golden light against the black façade.
Your mouth parted. “That’s…”
Harry leaned close to your ear. “Our honeymoon suite.” “Just for tonight,” he added softly. “Entirely ours.” He placed a key into your palm. You stared up at the illuminated windows, heart pounding so hard you could feel it in your throat.
For one full minute, the Plaza remained dark. Just that suite glowing in the winter night. You turned to him slowly.
Snow falling. The city hushed. The world reduced to the two of you.
He bent down and kissed you gently. “Happy birthday, my queen,” he whispered against your lips. “The world would be unbearable without you in it. I’m grateful you were born into mine.”
Your vision blurred. You blinked away tears and nodded.
“Let’s go to our suite?” he asked softly.
You kissed him. “Yes.” Another kiss. “Let’s go, baby”
Hand in hand, you crossed toward the Plaza, snow gathering on your shoulders, your heart racing with anticipation. Above you, the lights slowly returned to the building. People shrugged, murmured and kept walking.
They had no idea. But you did. Tonight was yours.
And whatever waited behind that suite door—
Was just beginning.
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about me | i am ovulating so bad….
summary : the world has fallen, but in the walls of jackson, a new life grows. you remember before the outbreak, mothers used to play music for their children. or, the guilt of bringing a baby into this world, and joel miller plays guitar for his two girls <3
warnings: fluff…fluff and angst. so much fluff and angst. god your teeth will ROT so bad you’ll need to call the dentist. seriously like fluff ALERT. age gap undefined, using game logic i guess here, joel is like 55 and reader is younger (undefined) but in my head she’s in her 30s <3 (but can be anything.) joel calls himself an old man like once. no use of y/n, you and joel are expecting a baby girl. AAAA but there’s so much guilt and pain from like. bringing a child into this world. joel miller is possessive and eeeeeeeveryone knows it. also warning pregnancy. of course as usual no reader description except ur…pregnant.
authors note: yeah guys idk. i’m ovulating. i NEED to be pregnant with joel miller’s baby it’s not even a want anymore it’s a NEED. a requirement. i just got possessed writing it in the middle of the day. it’s been a long few days of jet lag, so much jet lag. and also uni pre reading came in and it’s destroying me so bad…electrical engineering is not my friend 😭😭😭this is…not my usual, ive also never been pregnant before so like. help. constructive criticism is 100% welcomed. AAAAAH im thinking of making this a series like a cherry pie universe where joel + reader raise a baby in jackson (OF CORUSE AN AU WHERE HE SURVIVES. WHAT THE HELL IM NOT EVIL.) so please like comment if u want to be tagged!!! i love reblogs and comments so much <3333 joel is a girldad a girl father pedro pascal please never stop playing dads <3 you give me joy and hope. as im posting this im stuck on this long ass drive and there’s barely any internet pls free me. like this sucks idek when it’s going to be posted, hopefully harry castillo pt 2 will b out soon this week !!!
it’s as if the world fell to pieces yesterday, when had been a mess for years. you barely remember the before, before when the world was sunnier.
there’s the guilt, guilt in carrying the life in your stomach. guilt that you’re bringing her into this world, full of hate and death. guilt you bring her into such a broken life, with the infected crawling outside jackson’s walls. but it takes a village — maria and tommy were always here to help, so was the rest of the townsfolk.
and there was joel, sweet sweet joel. your husband, the father of your child. he’d always place a hand over your swollen stomach, proud that he’d marked you as his. proud that you were carrying his baby, his very blood in you. he was so gentle with how he stroked your stomach, how he laid a big hand where you guided it, to feel your daughter kick.
you’re sitting next to him now, on his couch. he’s so warm, and in the last month of your pregnancy, you’ve been feeling all too cold. your hands feel frozen, and he holds them in his own big ones, rubbing them between his own, lacing fingers, pressing palms. it’s good, warm. it feels like life and sun, and not like the cold that you know lies behind jackson’s walls.
“joel?” you look up at him, and he can never refuse those big doe eyes of yours, so wide, looking at him like he hangs the moon and the stars. you’re younger than him, seen less violence than him, he’d been a raider, killed. and you…?
you haven’t. you’re like the sun, luminous. you shine brighter than anyone else in the room, shine even brighter with the glow pregnancy brought out in you. he likes that you’re heavy with his seed, likes that he’s claimed you and everyone in jackson can see that. his star, that he caught whilst hanging the moon. his star, he chose to keep for himself.
“mm?” he grunts back in a reply, his hand gently stroking your knuckles, he likes the dips of the skin there, from the days spent working in the farm. yet soft from all the creams he’d found for you on patrol.
he’s handsome, the years haven’t been kind to the world, to him. but they’ve been kind to his face. his eyes are big and brown. and they look down at you with such care.
“nevermind.” you blush, after a second, ducking your head, turning your face away so he can’t see the expression on your face. he loves it when you smile like that, it turns him into mush inside. all shy and ridiculous, like a startled deer.
“go on darlin’?” he asks, keeping his hand on yours, keeping his warmth with you.
“it’s silly joel.” you sigh, before turning back to him, there’s a fondness in your eyes that he sees as they flick down to your stomach. you slip away a hand from him, and press it to your stomach.
“i just.” you pause, something lodged in your throat, “i just…”
he frowns, his hand covering yours on your stomach. fall is colder now, and you’re wearing a knit cardigan to keep you and the baby warm. she isn’t kicking or anything, but you seem so sad, his heart aches.
“you jus’ what, peach?” he asks, his voice all low and gravelly, dripping with worry, his eyes are wide as he looks into your face. he’s always scared with you, scared that something will happen, scared that he’ll loose you too. scared that you’ll slip away like tess did, like sarah did, like everything good was taken from him.
scared. scared that you would go, and so would his daughter with you. somewhere where he couldn’t find you, orpheus, he would make a deal with hades to bring you back.
“you don’t…” you lick your lips, and take a deep breath. he’s worried, possessive, doesn’t let you out of the house in the last month. he has a hand hovering over you, your stomach, like he tethers you to earth. “don’t worry joel, nothing’s wrong with me.”
“or baby?” he asks, voice rough. of course nothing’s wrong with her, or you’d say something.
“or the baby.” you exhale, and he feels your cool breath on his fingers, comforting, you are alive. alive and in his arms.
“then what is it, sweetheart.” he traces circles on your stomach, it’s an odd feeling, but you like it. “c’mon, you can tell me, promise, this old man won’t laugh.”
“not that old.” you sigh, your hand finds his chin, and you rub the stubble lovingly. he needs to shave, and soon. “it’s just, i don’t even know if people do it that often these days, but god. i want my baby to listen to music, heard it helped with development and all that.”
he sees the tip of your nose twitch, and the tears mist your big eyes. the guilt, the guilt of bringing a child into a world like this.
“peach…” he sighs, and tucks a stray strand away from your face. “peach, you ain’t doing anything wrong by her, by bringing her here.”
“feels like i am.” you choke out, and she has a loving father and mother, a sister in ellie, an uncle, aunt. a village behind her. it takes a village. and yet. your heart halts, because she will never have the ordinary joys of what a baby would have had before. toys, stupid dancing fruits on the phone, cartoons. small things.
“how about i play some music, ‘kay?” he lets out a breath, and when he gets up, the chill seeps into your bones. the empty space beside you, once with his warmth, now with the cool pooling around you.
he comes back a few seconds later, the guitar in his hands. he props up a little further away from you on the sofa, but close enough so that you and the baby can hear him well.
he sets it up properly, tuning the strings with ear memory. each pluck of the string is gentle, like he is with you, his fingers big and thick and playing each note perfectly.
“you are my sunshine.” he starts, his fingers playing the chords perfectly, and you swear you’ll start crying this very second. the hormones, no, his love for you is choking you.
the song is so sweet, wrapped up in his rough cadence, like he always has wrapped his love in. he plays it carefully, plays it without tearing up — failing that when he sees you cry. some words get caught in his throat as he continues singing.
you can feel your daughter kick, and you rest your hand over your stomach as he plays, sunshine — you both are his sunshine. he hasn’t even seen her, and he knows that she’d be like the sun incarnate, just like you. his two stars that he will always orbit, always have their warmth light up their world.
“she kicked!” you call out to him, and he stops playing immediately to cover your stomach with his hand, feel the little feet kick against his hand. his heart thuds in his chest as he feels them, feels your hand grasp his.
he’d never realised he could get something like this — deserved something like this. ever had the chance to get something like this, after everything, after the world falling to shit.
you’re going to say something, but it gets caught in the kiss he gives you, all so soft and sweet, his chapped lips against your own soft ones. you’re heavy with his child, you’re completely his, and you love it so much.
he holds you a little tighter at night, kisses you slow, like eating his favourite cherry pie you make. it’s nice, knowing someone like you carries his daughter, someone like you makes his life worth living, every day.
I love this man so much






