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I know I don't post about it a lot but this blog is nsfw, it's linked to my ao3 where I write smut. If you are a minor please do not follow me. You can follow my sfw account if you want but I don't post there at all basically.

#alinakerrin is my sfw blog #but i legit don't post there #i don't want to block people for things like being a minor #(bc ya know. that's smth that time changes)#but also if you don't unfollow me yourself then I will block you #particularly if you have “dni: nsfw”#bc that shit goes both ways guys. you cannot tell me not to interact and then knock on my door #you have to read the descriptions of the blogs you follow

alinakerrin

I love your TP fic "Destination." If you don't mind me asking, I was wondering if you had plans to continue it someday?

(This ask made me check how long it's been since I uploaded chapter two and goddamn. three years. i feel sick)

It's really nice to get an ask about Destination, thank you. I am definitely still interested in finishing it, the only reason I haven't is because it was my depression fic and I am doing much better now lol. I do have 4k words already written of chapter three, but it's not even halfway done so. It might be a while before I can upload anything.

I'm writing a lot of original fiction atm so fanfic has fallen to the wayside a little, but when my current project hits 50k I will probably write more ff.

#ao3 #ask #thank you for the ask #it's truly so nice to get asks on here about my fics #idk why it being on a different site hits but it does #it probably helps that I've had a really shit week so this is just a really nice reminder that it is temporary #so thank you #I will get back to it i promise.#my current project is at 31k so I'm nearly at my word count goal #And I promised myself that when I take a break from it I will do fanfic stuff #try to finish all the things I started #self rb #putting this on here too

How are you this chaotic era?

Could've sworn I answere this ask but apparently not lol. Which is the most succinct answer to this question xD

I'm doing alright, just not been as active online as I probably should be

Hope you're doing well!!

#thank you for the ask i rlly appreciate it #i am unfortunately very bad at social media in general so it probably looks like i am just dead most of the time #i am still writing stuff just not fanfic as of late. so nothing i can share lol #at least not yet

hello!! i'm from ao3 on your sniperxpauling fic, i can't believe i read those 4 chapters so fast i enjoyed every second of it!!! i don't know if you will or not continue that fanfic but either way i enjoyed it a lot thank you so much 🤲❤

i usually don't read much straight ships but i feel like pauling and sniper matched quite perfectly, both are efficient on their work, none of them will be bragging about their blowing steam activities, none of them act awkward after it (unlike scout which only saw sniper taking care of business and still got all bothered about it😭😭) all professional, great pairing 🤝

Aaaa thank you!! I'm always really glad to see that other people like my stuff.

I am still writing it, but I've been doing a lot of original fiction recently, so all my writing energy has been going towards that. I do have a fifth chapter started, but not enough to post yet.

I don't really write straight ships either, but people on twitter were posting threeway sniper pauling scout and it got me thinking too much lol.

Thank you for the ask!

#tf2 #fanfic #thank you again for the ask #I always really appreciate it #q

Thank you for the new chapter of Glasses on Crooked!

Ahhh thank you!! It's always really nice getting asks on here <3

Also I am so sorry that it took me so long to respond. (Lots of stuff happened between this ask being sent and now, so I've been much less active).

#tf2 #about fanfics #I've been back in education so lots of stuff went to the wayside while I dealt with that #q

poppies-0

Suggestive

Mine.

#tf2 #tf2 scout #tf2 sniper #mm #q

homkamiro

CW for suggestive language

#tf2 #tf2 scout #tf2 sniper #so stupid.... canon to me #q

homkamiro

Tf2 but Jeremy's second name is Michael

#tf2 #tf2 scout #tf2 sniper #real i was there #q

poppies-0

Suggestive

Mine.

call-me-4lex

I missed drawing on paperrr here 2 Sniper sketches and a silly Pyro! Posting something different lol

#tf2 #tf2 pyro #tf2 sniper #god damn...#genuinely beautiful art style #i like a lot of art styles but this one is hitting harder #maybe it's the blue maybe it's bc sniper #idk it's just so lovely #q

alinakerrin

Ok so it's been a hot minute since I've posted anything anywhere and I feel like I should be honest (groundbreaking, I never do this). This is like, my third time drafting a post like this, so hopefully I actually post it this time.

First is that I'm not dead. Shocker I know.

Second is that despite being alive, I haven't exactly been living recently. Nothing particularly bad has happened, but I've always had shit mental health and it's been kinda Bad for a little while now. I'm coping and I'm trying, but I am, ultimately, not at my best and haven't been for some time.

Third, the reason I've not been posting any fics is because I've actually been writing original fiction. I've not talked about it on here (or many other places, admittedly) but I'm primarily writing a fantasy series. It's been really hard to write fanfic, because I'm writing so much other stuff.

I'm at a point with it where the first book is maybe as good as I can make it. I've been working on getting an agent list together, learning about querying, trying to get myself to a point where I'm able to actually do the querying.

I don't know if it will lead anywhere, but I figure that I should try and that I should probably talk about what I'm doing so that it's not complete silence on here. I keep thinking that I shouldn't talk about it, and I think it's an arbitrary rule which is actually holding me back. I might talk about it some more at some point, but even this post feels like A Lot.

In short, thank you for your patience. I'm finally reaching a point where it feels like things are moving forward instead of stagnating. Hopefully posting this is a good sign of that.

#writing #life update #trying to be more honest and open about stuff and it is Hard #I know I have to but DAMN.#I would really rather that everyone already knew what I was doing that I didn't have to talk about things :/#anyway. I'm still writing #And I know I need to talk more about what I'm writing but it's very difficult. I'm not the same person who started this blog.#I am trying because I don't talk about my achievements nearly enough #Like I've written three whole books (some aren't wholly finished) and a bunch of other stuff. I've done a lot of work but no one here knows #I'm writing this with a fourth book document open btw #so. hopefully this time next year I will have made progress in getting published.#It will be happening if it's not traditional. I will self pub if I have to #self reblog

thetriggeredhappy

Hi, just read the running blind fic and this will sound evil—

I need an angst version where Scout doesn't make it—

hey you posted this on anon so i don’t mind making this the effigy for me being pretty annoyed about something on main

just to be clear, you came into my inbox asking me to write… 60k or so words, based on a different fanfiction i already wrote almost a decade ago, as just sort of a casual ask, phrased as “i need this”. my curiosity is why you don’t, for example—i mean this constructively—go write it, then? chop chop.

i like writing. i do. getting asks in my inbox with requests and ideas and concepts has been fun for me over the years. warms my heart. im really not asking you to suck my dick, here. but i’ve noticed a growing trend that will of course infect older fandoms last, where people will hop into the inbox of someone and just sort of go “hey, can i have xyz?”

can you make a fic of xyz happening?” you just did that yourself. you just wrote a fic in your mind. have you thought about… making it? just. writing it? you can just write it. you have the ability to do that. “it won’t be good—“ arguable. try writing it.

most egregious to me is always for visual artists. “hey can you draw xyz?”, while that person’s commissions stay open, while that person reblogs their friends’ open commission sheets, while people everywhere are running discounted commissions to fundraise out of a bad situation. but, hey, for me, though? free? i don’t want to so why don’t you?

stop it. over the years people have written fics inspired by my stuff (i love you all very much), and some have been so direct as to rip the premise entirely, and i say more power to ‘em! go write an alternate ending and post it on ao3. that’s fun. that’s community. that’s what fandoms are built off of. we’re already doing fanwork, for god’s sake. go make stuff. get out of people’s inboxes asking “when will your comic be done”, “when will your next animatic be up”, “when will there be more content, i want to consume content, give me content”. go make shit. you’re bored. pick the pen up, open the notes app. write directly in your drafts. i don’t care.

“can you write your fanfiction but in the way i’m imagining it?” your chatGPT usage is showing. go write it! go on! i’m encouraging you! go write that!

thetriggeredhappy

brief follow-up no longer using that message as an effigy because the anon sent another ask—

kid, i’m not mad at you. i don’t care. seriously. from the bottom of my heart, i mean this, you seem pretty young and this is not a finger waggle, im taking a knee to get at eye level and putting hands on your shoulders. i am Not Mad At You. It’s Fine. this isn’t an indictment or a dressing down, this is a directive. this is an instruction. go make shit!

you have ideas! you have concepts! rip stuff whole cloth and shuffle in things you like and post them as fanwork saying “hey this other thing was cool and i wrote a thing just like it”. ao3 has that feature! it’s great, it’s fun, it’s flattering! it’s fanwork, go have fun, go play! get out there!

this is a deep cut—im digging deep for this—one of my earlier fics has a series of lines that is quoting word for word from a different fandom’s fanwork because my friends in fandom showed off the fanwork in question and went “hey, what about with these characters instead?”, and i adapted it thusly. the concept of most tropes is to do that exact thing—take the same episode of the sitcom and shuffle in characters of choice. go do that! people do that because it’s fun to do and fun to read!

i’m not mad at you, i’m telling you, go do that! get deep in the paint! write it! and don’t be self deprecating, it can be as boring or as off the wall or as linear and graphical or completely mad libs unhinged as you want, who cares? i’m currently writing as a fun side project an in-universe arts and food review magazine in a setting i’ve made because i thought it would be funny. it is OBJECTIVELY incredibly boring. the point is that it’s fun for me to DO and i’m building muscles as a writer by doing it.

the fic this ask was originally about? i started doing it in the first place to practice writing descriptions without relying on visual cues by having it be limited POV for a character who was newly blind. i didn’t even start posting any of it until some friends of mine read it and talked me into posting it so they could share it more easily than me emailing it or physically gathering around the school computer. this stuff is for fun and for practice and for making your friends laugh or whatever combination of those. rip the whole fic if that’s helpful to you, i posted it for free on the internet! different authors have different opinions, but i don’t think anyone would be rightfully offended if you like their fic so much you base one off of their premise. IT’S FANFICTION WE’RE ALREADY DOING THAT IT’S FINE

also on more of a personal note. kid i don’t know who in your life is making you this nervous and apologetic that you felt like you had to say “sorry” in the ballpark of 8 times and “im stupid” or some variant like three, no idea who it is that makes you feel like that’s how you need to live and exist, but i hope they die 👍 you’re literally out here existing and excited about creative works, it is simply not so serious that you should get like Actually Yelled At. i’m not mad, i’m telling you that you have the agency to solve your own hunger pangs here. just go pick up the pen and get your mind working, dude. i’m hoping it’ll also make you feel a little better. if you have big confidence problems, remember that you can post works anonymously on ao3, too. you gotta go have fun, dude, don’t live like this at the mercy of your feed and algorithm, go make stuff. go exist

alikerao3

I never add on to things usually but the whole "go write the version you want to see" thing happened to me and I can confirm that I was not insulted and that it was very flattering.

I wrote a Sniper/Pauling fic and someone wrote the exact same premise but with Spy/Pauling instead. And I was happy about it! I was not angry that they did this. It was really cool to see evidence that I inspired someone that much (particularly bc I was absolutely not going to write Spy/Pauling myself (no hate, just would never have occurred to me)).

I doubt anon will see this but if they do: go write it! Fan writers always say that comments are lifeblood, but so are response fics and remixing. Absolutely go write that! It is fun to write things and you will feel all the same emotions you would if you were reading it.

#about fanfics #long post #dw anon no one hates you #for anyone else who needs to hear it from people who write: you can do it too and you don't need to ask permission either #you can write it now. you can post it too if you want #highly recommend the “what if this was different” creative process too #That's how all good things are made