RiversDeep

Just a reckless kid, hell-bent on self-destruction ⚰️

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Reblog if:

- you want me to send you meanspo, thinspo, sweets, bonespo etc.

- if you need motivation to fast or not binge

- if you’re thinking of giving up

- if you just want someone to talk to

EVERYONE WHO REBLOGS WILL GET A MESSAGE IN THEIR INBOX. NO EXCEPTIONS. IM HERE FOR YOU GUYS.

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Reblog if you want to lose at least 5-10kg by the end of May 🌼

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you think you’re faking this? ok. prove it.

delete tumblr. delete myfitnesspal. delete any and all calorie tracking apps. go into your kitchen. right now. get up and walk into your kitchen. now make a pot of pasta or spaghetti. or make a salad with chicken or a smoothie. or make a few eggs with some potatoes. or heat up the leftovers in the fridge. don’t count it. don’t measure it. don’t look up the calories. then sit down and eat the whole thing. don’t cut it up small, don’t wait until a certain time, don’t stare at it for forever before you eat it. cook it, put it on a plate, and eat it. maybe scroll through instagram or watch a tv show while you eat. like a post on your explore page about loving pizza without thinking of the calories or feeling fat. when you’re done eating, don’t go to the mirror, don’t go to the scale, don’t go to the toilet to throw up. then go on with your life without thinking about what you just ate or when you’ll eat next. now do that every time you first feel hungry every single day for the rest of your life.

if you can do that, fine. i’ll believe you. you’re “faking it”.

but if even one step of that sounds like your own personal hell, shut up because you’re absolutely not fake and your problems are beyond valid and you deserve to recover right now right where you are.

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Im not quite sure if im dead or alive. Or possibly somewhere in b e t w e e n

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‘I only learnt what control was when i lost it’

-Number Twenty// @all-just-pending

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‘Stress can ruin everyday of your life,

Dying only ruins one’

-Number Nineteen// Sherlock Holmes

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‘I feel more like a disease

The more you try to fix me

But i feel more like a ghost

When you don’t help at all’

-Number Eighteen// @all-just-pending

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Google knows

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‘The greatest pain of all

Is no pain at all’

-Number Seventeen// @all-just-pending

(I’ve found that some people prefer numbness, personally i prefer to feel- but i suppose im addicted to pain)

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‘Im sorry I’m not a person anymore

Im a problem’

-Number Sixteen// @all-just-pending (but i believe it is also in ‘To The Bone’)

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Depression

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‘There's a certain kind of darkness that does a reaping

It usually takes you right before you are sleeping

Is it the crack in the door that it finds a way to creep in?

Or the crack in your brain that wants you to drop dead’

-Number Fifteen// Faith Marie

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Sorry its been a while but here is a little scribble to represent the agony or blissfulness of lonliness. You decide.

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One word

To describe life and living-

Sleepwalking.

See we’re just alive

We’re not really living

Just getting through our lives,

Daily struggle for survival

We need revival

-Number Fourteen// @all-just-pending

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I wear my anxiety like clothes.

Its the tears and cracks in my lips,

The raw tips of my fingers,

The fatigued limbs from shaking,

The fake smile thats fading.

-Number Thirteen// @all-just-pending

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